#especially on this site of all places lol we're all just insane and here to yell about it into the void

[mmmthornton]

I'll let you girlies who are crypto or questioning / afraid in on a lil' secret:

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that dreaded callout post that you believe will TOTALLY ruin your life? probably won't.

The people who lose all appreciation of who you are from that weren't good people anyway. Worst case is you'll go through friend breakups that probably would've happened over time anyway.

For anyone else though? there's literally no point to it, except in a counterproductive sense. I'll suddenly see a tag of mine getting spammed with likes from some such fandom that I tag, and usually I can trace it to a "EVERYBODY IN THE BLORBVENGERS FANDOM, BLOCK @MMMTHORNTON NOW! She's a dangerous evil terf!!!" post by someone who probably also blocked me before ever interacting with or reading my posts anyway lol. Its great when they put a bunch of bigger tags on it because the effect is more "God the person who made this post is annoying, I'm gonna see what the blog of someone they hate is like" and before you know it they're neck deep in D*sco El*sium shitposts via my notes.

I see you! Its fine! but maybe we should do more to discourage people from acting like entitled dipshits with a hint of power over anyone else's fandom experience.

[theloopcrew]

don't worry i did just mean recs for insane zenigata episodes lol

OH well if we're doing insane zenigata episodes...

this is all part 2 (going by wiki; episodes may be one back if you're looking on streaming sites!)

ep 4, doesn't have a LOT of zenigata, but it introduces us to our patented 'zenigata fantasizes about drugging lupin' clip. also i just think its a funny episode

ep 10, titled 'zenigatacon'. what more could you hope for

ep 13, where zenigata hasn't seen lupin in a few days so he's going stir crazy HALLUCINATING he's there. also takes place in california

ep 15, where zenigata's on a blimp with a bunch of other detectives (parodies on sherlock holmes, phillip marlowe & kousuke kindanichi). watch the dub if you want zenigata objectified to filth for a scene

big jump sorry but ep 30, if you know this one you know

i will admit i have not seen episode 35. but with a thumbnail like this, how could i not recommend it?

ep 57 has some really good zenigata! also a trope i don't see written about a lot (albeit here its turned on its head a bit) -- zenigata feels guilty about stealing a coin, so he turns to lupin to "help him become a thief" (in reality, he just wants to return the coin safely so it doesn't bear on his conscious)

ep 69 is "insane" in a "why did they fucking do this to him??" way. if you want a genuinely heartfelt episode, go to the sub. if you want one riddled with bad lip syncing and weird running jokes, the dub's your guy

we're past the point of the dub now but WE'RE STILL GOING BABY anyway big ol' ep 100. DEFINITION of insane zenigata episode. i wish they dubbed this. literally 22 minutes of zenigata getting hit on

i am almost certain there's more but again i have not NEARLY dented part 2 in terms of episodes there are. i will say though that every zenigata appearance IS a little treat especially if you're watching the dub...if you guys have any recommendations for episodes i should add/watch then please feel free. i love watching lupin

[ladyaceofspades]

The recent drama:

So I dropped one of my good friends. We had dated when I was 18 for a few weeks and I dumped him because he wouldn't get on the phone to talk to me, so I dipped. In the years that followed, he would come back every so often, try to woo me away from Matt, then eventually get angry and leave. He left and came back like 3 times. We've gone through spells where we would be super buddy buddy, or we wouldn't talk for months. He was my game buddy, although he would drive me insane because he would just do every mission and just drag me along for the fun of it.

While I was with Matt, T was very helpful. He would let me vent to him and he would validate my feelings, and when I was happy, he would remind me of all the awful things Matt did so I would stay strong against him. His line was "you're unhappy" and it worked because I was at the time. Even then, though, I knew he had feelings for me and he would tell me how much he loved me. When Matt and I broke up, I got into a relationship with my husband, Benjas, and T got into a relationship with Amber.

T came around again, spouting the same thing. He loves me, will always love me, wants to be with me, but will respect my relationship...even though his fiancé, Amber had started living with him then. Our friendship did the cycle again, until he overstepped on a FB post of mine, and I put him in his place. I blocked him on FB, he confronted me about it, and I told him why it had to happen: that what he said was totally inappropriate, it made Benjas angry and me angry, and his or my family could've seen it and it caused problems for us. T's comeback was "in all the years I've known you, you've never let a man tell you what to do". I did not stand for that and had to explain 3 times why what he said was bad and why it wasn't acceptable. He finally understood and asked that I text every so often so he knows I'm ok.

I didn't text for a few months. Recently, he tried to reach out through text, and email (forgot he had my email so that was a surprise). When that didn't work, he had his friend Gabe message me, and Amber friended me on FB (she had had me blocked on and off for years). By then, I was hella creeped out. Apparently, T had "a bad feeling" that something bad had happened to me and he had a dream something happened to me, and broke down to Amber and told her he missed me so, according to him, she added me out of jealousy and to see what he and I said to each other on FB (we weren't friends on there so she would've see nothing). Anyway, his actions and him getting his people to reach out to me made me rethink some things, and it also made me listen to my intuition harder, which said that he was full of it and lying. I started to wonder if what he was telling me was true, so I chatted with Amber about it and it was like we were getting two different stories. For example, Amber was moving out because she needed assisted living help and T was telling me that if she moved out, they would probably break up (it went from probably to definitely break up) and he would cut the ties completely, whereas Amber was under the impression that T would still be there for her and that they might break up but it was a low chance. Other things like he was blaming my husband for why I wasn't talking to him, and when I told Amber about it, she got angry about it (understandably).

When I talked to him and told him that I can't trust him when my intuition is telling me that he's lying and it's been proven so we should takea break from being friends, he told me that he wouldn't be coming back or be there for me anymore. I said that that was fine, as if the person going back to someone wasn't him coming back to me every time.

Anyway, I creeped his FB page one more time and he posted

Which essentially is him taking some of the accountability for everything but he's putting a lot of it on me, when I wanted nothing to do with him at all for awhile and I TRIED with the super quick responses or no responses at all. He says he's been used, but he wouldn't respect my marriage even though I told him he needed to and he said he would. I kept saying "I love you like a friend" but he wouldn't listen. How is that my fault? I'm really angry that I'm being blamed for shit I didn't do because he can't face that part of himself.

Not to mention, he has GREATLY overestimated his place in my life (or as my friend Leighann says, his market value). He was needed at some point, but after the FB thing, it became incredibly apparent that he never respected me as a person or as anything else other than a possible future lover, that he put me on a pedestal, and he never considered that I moved on in my emotions. I mean, I got MARRIED to the love of my life and this POS was still trying to chase me, and recently had gone back to telling me how unhappy I was, when I'm not. It was surreal to be told "you're unhappy" multiple times in a short period of time and my brain went "what? No we're not". Whatever mind game he tried to run on me again didn't work this time.

Anyway, here's the shit Amber texted me when I asked her why she friended me again:

Versus what he texted me about everything:

So....why the gap in stories? I confronted him about what his friends said to her too, and he complained that you can't control your friends so I couldn't hold that against him. Well, in reality, you set the standard for how your friends act around you, and you set the boundaries about your SO, so his friends shouldn't have been telling her that she looked like me or anything. He also told me not to trust her, but I felt like she didn't have an agenda with me, until the end. Now I find that they're staying together, or else why would he be apologizing to her publicly in multiple posts? Guess she bought his bullshit, and he doesn't want to be alone again. Lol whatever, let them be toxic together. Unfortunately, if he's done this once, he'll do it again (he did with another woman too apparently - an ex of a friend of his, he asked for pics of her and according to him he said "no nudes" but according to Amber, the woman said "no nudes"), so it'll only be a matter of time until he either tries to come after me again, or he finds someone else in his town to go after. I've blocked him on almost everything, blocked her as well, so neither of them can come back in my life. I'm just a little worried about those old nudes of mine he still has...I don't think he'd do anything but I almost told Amber about them so she would get him to delete them. I guess, worst case is I could always sue if he puts them on a p0rn site...

Sorry I needed to get this shit off my chest. I know people's opinions shouldn't matter to me, but they do, especially when I'm being blamed for everything and the person who ACTUALLY set everything in motion is refusing to take responsibility for it.

I'll do a cord cutting spell or a binding or something after we move to the new apartment so they don't come back.