#especially her stubbornness

[sevrinve]

bedtime

[pyralart]

Just finished the two next pages!

And because you're my favorite pals here on Tumblr, you get a little extra in advance, as a treat

I'm sure nothing bad is going to happen watsoever

[lavampira]

(COUNT)DOWN TO DAWNTRAIL — day four: shadowbringers

atlas my old friend I found some people want to lend a hand carrying the weight of the world

[utilitycaster]

I'll admit Pâté's introduction as a familiar was a lot, but I think that's the point. Laudna was able to bring him to life...but by the time she could do so, she had real friends - friends who traveled across the world to resurrect her. So now she's grappling with the fact that he's extremely useful, but when he's not scouting or helping her in combat, she can't just stop him from talking about how horny he is to random strangers anymore. His original purpose as a companion no longer makes sense, but the vestiges of it, some of which are, well, a lot, can get really grating. I think that's why she's come off recently as a little irritated with him.

It's funny, because earlier Laudna was portrayed very much (and said as much by Marisha) as having somewhat arrested development and ever since her resurrection she's sort of speedrun that and is acting much more like an adult. I don't think she's played with her dolls in the same way since, and I wonder if Pâté being real is part of it: she got the living puppet she'd dreamed of, but that means she doesn't totally control what he's saying anymore. I mean, he's a familiar, she can dismiss him or give him commands, and she still clearly cares about him, but bringing him to life was probably something that, years ago, she dreamed about. And now she has it, and it's got its drawbacks. And when you consider it in the context of her having the rest of Bells Hells to lean on, it's just something she's started to outgrow a bit.

It's also interesting because Laudna tends to swallow her irritation and perform for the audience - even many of the members of Bells Hells. This is a woman who, upon being brought back to life after several days trapped in the afterlife, tried to deflect the focus from herself as much as possible, and who as we're seeing now isn't letting herself cry no matter how scared and worried she feels. Letting herself be openly annoyed with aspects of Pâté is a small step, but it's an important one.

I also wonder - and this is more of a long-shot - if Pâté reflects some of Laudna's own worries. The thing is, he is more annoying now, but he's also more useful. I wonder if she asks herself if that's the case for her. It's not, but she has felt a bit like a burden as of late. Which in turn would complicate things with Pâté, if he serves as a reminder of some of her own (unfounded! but possibly very real to her!) insecurities.

[lollytea]

I really love hope is a thing with feathers and I also really LOVE the hope as a sewer rat poem too but I wish it was not explicity written as "well actually" against Dickinson asgvsjnk. The imagery is SO GOOD but this whole vibe of "my metaphor is better than your metaphor" kinda sours it for me

[lynxfrost13]

Holt’s vision was basically the first thing to go as she became infected with the corruption happening in Sierpinski-23 and it absolutely wrecks me

[fleshdyk3]

god i fucking hate my dad

[riftwalker-limbro]

why is it that jade had to die to birth the baby

can warframes not... "create" new life force like humans can?

i'm sitting here ready with the string and tacks to somehow connect it to the sentients becoming barren when they traveled back to the origin system

[darkmodechaoticlight]

A week stuck as a kid-Gehenna (Evie)

Since Gehenna is where Evie (and Eden) have settled in Hell, this is where the impish Balam had sent her back in time to a ten year old. Evie:... Evie: Now this is a fucking headache. Of course since Leviathan had sent Foras to shadow Evie, he would be the first to notice her transformation. He had found her tending to her first daughter, Maia in Gehenna's devil creche. She looked far more ghostly, her normal tanned visage was on the lighter side now, and with her small devil horns poking through her blond hair. He says nothing but the now three year old demi-devil could see him clearly, even if Evie couldn't. Foras watches like a hawk as Evie cleaned up after her rambunctious spawn, light on her feet and even in this younger form able to keep up. Though she is surprised to see Maia stare at nothin like an owl. The other attendants of the creche arrive and while they question about her current form, she assumes it was an angels doing. Evie: I'm fine. Nothings all that wrong. Devil 1: Do you wish for us to tell Lord Satan? Evie: You might as well, I haven't seen him. When Leviathan hears of this, he is quick to check what happened, but Balam is conveniantly not answering his calls. If he was one of his men he would hang- but alas he is of Nifliem. Belphegor thinks its funny that Leviathan cares enough for Evie that he allows Balam to continue his little game. The chatter in the King Group Chat alerts Satan before the devils could tell him and he comes back to Gehenna to protect his wife and daughter. Satan: Eve? Evie: Sitting at her desk, barely looking over her normal adult desk, furiously finishing her university papers that seem to have made it to her in hell Did the others tell you? Satan: yes. Why aren't you more weirded out? Evie: Well you get used to messed up things happening here. I just assumed its someones doin She said nonchalantly Satan: ... Well it could be worse? Evie: Yeah, it could be. Satan:... You are something else. Evie: Thanks. But really I'm fine. Maia's sleeping and the twins are napping. Its all good Satan: Having a mild panic attack. Evie: Stops working and helps wrapping Satan in a blanket with a bottle of water for hydration.

[np5enkidu]

i need fgo to acknowledge servants horses more

[whatudottu]

Concept: Ben 10 Alien Force AU where everything is the same except Kevin is just insanely passive-aggressive towards Ben for the entire duration of the series

“No worries Tennyson, I buried the hatchet ages ago! That bad blood between us? Water under the bridge! I mean, it’s not like you got me stranded in a prison dimension for five years and never bothered to try and rescue me or even check up on me or anything like that! Of course I’ll help you save your grandpa! After all, what kind of hero just leaves someone for dead in the hands of vicious aliens that proceed to inflict them with severe psychological damage that will take decades to fully heal?”

I feel as though that would be a whole lot more realistic of a thing to happen, especially as the Tennysons realistically react to Kevin's passive-aggression with their own Tennyson brand passive-aggressiveness, though it might not be the most enjoyable trio to watch, which would be basically the complete opposite of the previous trio of Ben, Gwen, and Grandpa Max-

Ben and Kevin would have more personal beef (something about stealing a way too high security unreleased but already boxed game vs making two trains crash into each other for free money), but Gwen never particularly liked Kevin in the first place way back when, so even if Ben and Kevin settle their differences with admitting what they had actually done wrong (probably fighting over the more petty shit or arguing about the worse shit they did), Gwen doesn't have much basis to forgive Kevin because ultimately she did not get involved. Which I mean I don't think would be that great to watch nor that great to create a team around, especially in the earlier more mystery focused side of AF-

And this is the obligatory mention of @kariachi for introducing the idea of the Ben, Gwen, and Argit trio- you can have passive-aggressive Kevin (and the Tennyson's appropriate responses to him) all you like if Kevin takes Argit's role and Argit fills in that missing main trio slot in his stead. Depending on where and how he's introduced you could totally have a fake-out trio of the Tennysons and Magister Labrid, you know, with the assumption that someone's filling out Max's 'experienced plumber' slot. Not sure how convincing that might be but oops, I did a little ramble lmao-

[huntershowl]

sometimes, in the midst of all of her dynamics that foster healing, i forget that seph was literally built from the ground up for toxic relationships. my god. (putting my almost-tags under the cut for cw reasons!)

[scarecrowdrugs]

Me: I need to be very careful with Scream Queen's costume design because I need it to be very clear that she's working on a tight budget and is very inexperienced compared to other vigilantes in Gotham. It needs to actually be practical as well as intimidating.

Also Me: I should put claws on her gloves because it looks dope as fuck and it'd be really cool for climbing on buildings and shit. No, I absolutely won't think about the logistics about where she managed to afford a strong enough material to let her actually climb walls.

[therighthandofvengeance]

John, a bitter widower, finds himself to be the caretaker of a lighthouse— which the residents of the coastal town have nicknamed “White Star”, due to its luminosity and habitual scintillation.

[kanieblindo]

Okay so hear me out.

What if? The Riley's just lived? They survived and Ghost still has his family? What if man.

Anyways here's the them because I absolutely needed to give him a little bit of comfort

(I didn't 100% go with canon design wise, but considering they're alive in the first place I feel as if it's obvious canon is silly 🧎‍♂️)

They're all extremely close and Ghost visits as often as he can, his nephew demands it and who is he to say no to him.

I live for Ghost being a family man who just gushes about how cool his Sister-in-law is while simultaneously just not mentioning the fact he HAS a family.

Just look at them living their lives happily,,

[moonlit-orchid]

Having thoughts again. At what points do I establish boundaries, and what point do you compromise?

Because I'm starting to wonder if The Person (I'm sorry to bring it up again-) overstepped my boundaries/ forced me to break them, or if I was supposed to comprise there.

It's silly, really. They wanted to stop talking on email and move to DMs. I did not have permission from my mum (yes, I still need her permission for this sort of stuff, honestly it's a miracle I even have Tumblr at all) to DM anyone on my personal number, and honestly I took a pretty big risk just giving them my email because I just didn't know how mad my mum would be, and I really didn't want her to like go through my emails with them. She could have even said to block them, or at least stop talking to them. So email was already a big risk. But after a while they didn't like being on email and wanted to DM or phone. I told them that it wasn't possible for me to ask, especially as at that time, my family was going through one of the worst, if not the worst, patch we've been through, and my mum was very quick to get angry, and I just wanted to avoid all that.

The thing is, they kept bringing it up, and made me feel like a bad friend for not asking my mum if she was okay with me DMing them. Eventually I did ask on a reckless impulse, but it was ridiculously nerve wracking.

And then after that, even DMs weren't enough. They wanted to call. I only like to be on the phone to someone after my family has gone to bed so that I won't be interrupted, and my life was really busy at the time too, and I don't like to phone anyone anyway (I feel like I'm disturbing them, and these days I almost prefer just texts. The introvert in me is very powerful). So they got passive aggressive, ignoring my messages and again, I felt like a horrible friend for not making an effort.

And I'm just thinking of each time I had to make an effort, each time I had to do more and more, and I wonder if I was compromising in those situations, like I've always been told to do to keep a relationship of any kind going, if that's just what a good friend does and I'm bad at being a friend. Or if maybe my boundaries were being crossed and demolished, and I just didn't realise it. Because deep inside me, I wasn't sure if I was comfortable with DMs anyway.

What's making me think I was taken advantage of is the fact that they refused to use another social media app that I did have permission to use, because they hated it. They were able and free to use whatever social media they liked. I was not. Yet they didn't want to DM me on the social media I was allowed because they hated iit. They didn't make that sacrifice. I didn't make a sacrifice so much as do something that made me very uncomfortable. So I almost feel like, looking back, I was disrespected or my boundaries were pushed too much. Perhaps the fact that if I ever end up like this again, I wouldn't even let it go past the wanting-to-DM stage and put my foot down there, means I did have boundaries crossed. I'm not sure.

Also just so I don't make another post, another thing that made me so uncomfortable was how... obsessed they were and how they outright admitted it. If you're going through my other social media (not that I post on anything but AO3), please don't tell me. It makes me so uncomfortable, especially if you tell me you looked at everything I bookmarked too (in fact, now I'm gonna just bookmark everything on private just because of how uncomfortable being told that by them made me feel), or if you look at everything I like on Tumblr or something. Just don't tell me. At all. Please. I just... I just don't like it. Maybe that's just me, maybe I'm silly, but it's just how I am, and I needed to get it out.

I also felt uncomfortable when they overshared, or wanted to share their "worst side" with me. I don't want to know anyone's dark secrets or anything, or the questionable stuff someone may do. I don't know if that's a problem I need to work on, but I'd rather not know when someone does something really wild or crazy because it just makes me feel uncomfortable, like I've walked into something I just shouldn't have seen. Again, this last one is probably a problem I need to work on, but I just wanted to get it out.