#especially considering how Travis mirrors her by absolving femininity to survive.

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And not only that, but it's being hinted at by the writers that Shauna will overtake the role of Antler Queen anyway during this season. Or will at least be fighting Natalie over it... She would be losing her purpose in the only place she was ever even given one to begin with. Thinking about how the other yellowjackets ignored her during the pilot but she was eventually considered useful to them via the gun—the thing that also initially destroyed a sense of stability and structure for her (family). There is a lot to say about specifically her being the hunter and specifically her taking the role of a teacher/leader. To me, it does feel like the way her father died will be referenced in her relationship to Gen now... somehow. Maybe I'm reaching but the reason Natalie failed to kill her dad the first time was because she had to be taught how to use a gun by him. Her purpose being directly tied into death is, I'd say, also why she's the most visibly suicidal one out of all; death WAS to some extent her purpose, killing animals, people... her suicide attempt being carried out by a gun could be her returning to her purpose. Making herself useful by killing herself with it because her purpose was to kill things with it

like im sorry what do you mean natalie pulled her friends, her people, from starvation and winter into a flourishing community. what do you mean she taught gen to hunt and helped akilah raise animals and built them a garden. what do you mean she led her teammates out of fire and into a beautiful home and tried to help them put their hurt and pain behind them. and then they got rescued and none of that fucking mattered anymore. they got rescued and she lost her purpose. only it wasn't just her purpose as the hunter, it was her purpose as their leader, as their guide, as the one who brought them back from the brink. what the fuck.