#erm dats really it lol

[churbo]

considering i draw fugo so much and have so many little hcs about his appearance i went ahead and drew a baby ref for him ft. his anime colors that i will most likely Never Use but theyre there in case. I somehow do my ramblings about his appearance are underneath the thingy ^_^;

Firstly to start off I kept his skin the same cause... yeah... it's redder to fit in w/ his manga colors cause that's what I prefer (even if I am anime-only atm for p5) but anyways not the point.

With his skin, there are a few things I did. First, I gave him subtle freckles and dark circles underneath his eyes, darkening/making them bigger post PHF cause you know he does Not Sleep Well after GW, though I don't think he honestly did even before. Freckles are just bc I felt like it cause I think they're cute. Scar wise, there's not too much as a majority of the scars on him with the exception of a few will be randomized essentially. One of the nonrandomized ones is obviously his face scar after PHF due to him biting the capsule. I personally like to think when he did this, he had it in the left side of his mouth so there are more scars on that side (also helps balance out his hair but that's another thing) It flakes out a bit and continues on his cheeks but's that really it. There is a rounded scar right around his jaw (it's on both sides) where Giorno had to do some... ah, let's say "reattachment" for Fugo afterward. The scarring continues down his neck where the virus started to eat at his throat and such and it's on both sides as well. Finally, there's the scar on his lower right abdomen. That's from the knife that got he stabbed with during Angelina's attack and just... essentially kept there. All the other scars are Pre PHF, the scars post-PHF he intentionally kept (for what reason I'm not entirely sure but my go-to is usually to remind him of what he went through and to sort of ground him) Onto his hair, I gave him two different styles; Pre PHF and Post PHF. Pre PHF follows his more canon hairstyle, dividing into 3 parts. I don't like how they look stiff so I made them look much softer (though I sorta do that to everyone like Abbacchio for example) in both versions. Pre PHF is just... yeah sorta that there isn't much to explain honestly. Post PHF though his hair is more grown out and longer- instead of reaching just above his shoulders it now reaches just below them. His bangs are now also side-swept to fit more of the PHF style and because I saw this wonderful Fugo fanart and got obsessed with it and it actually gave me a good way to stylize Fugo's hair to make him easier to draw for me at the time. Colors are colors, though I did just sorta free hand the anime colors cause I was lazy so his hair is a pit too pale and his suit is the wrong color but I honestly don't really mind; i sorta like the paler hair anyways LOL might work around that and fit the suit to match it better so we'll see... Everything else is just sorta basic stuff so I'll leave it at that !! I plan to do everyone in the bucci gang at some point, Fugo just happened to be the first cause I draw him so much and wanted an easy ref for myself lol. If you read all this uhmmm thank chew!!! Here's a little prize of what Im working on rn that should be done soon :3 If I missed anything in his ref to talk abt here I'll add it later or smth idk

[thiefkingyall]

59, 28, 11, 8 You can answer them too if you want :p //

Me (mun):8. Early bird or night owl? Night owl for sure, I have really bad insomnia that I’m on meds for but sleep mostly alludes me.11. Hugs or kisses? Erm, neither really? I’m super awkward with any physical touchy feely stuff… much to my fiances annoyance lol.28. Board games or video games? Video games! I went to school for Video Game Design and Animation so I’m all about dat life!59. Sunrise or sunset? Sunsets, growing up we used to watch them as a family at my cottage and it’s a really nice memory I have when my family was all together.

Da Boy (muse):8. Early bird. (ooc// he honestly hates mornings but due to his night terrors he hates having to go to bed and is always up super early.)11. Kisses. Don’t care who.28. Any type of game. I don’t know many video games but teach me and I’ll fucking win.😈59. Sunsets. They are really beautiful in the desert across the sand…

[nothingneverforever]

Never Have I Ever (2020)

Hey, I think this is my first TV series ‘review’ ever! Well I did do a basically empty post on Unforgotten (season 1) back in Feb 2017, promising to write properly my full feelings down, but that was something I never got back to. It’s still one of the best TV shows ever in the whole world, so hopefully I have time for it some day.

Anyway, meanwhile Never Have I Ever (NHIE), is… absolutely not good. At all….

I’d decided to watch it after seeing Mindy Kaling’s Late Night (2019), which was surprisingly enjoyable and moving even, and not just because Emma Thomson is one of my favourite celebrities in this world. It was a fun movie, and it felt different (from other similar films) ! I say it was surprising because I guess due to misogyny or something, I never thought I had reason to take Mindy Kaling seriously. And I am so sorry for it! There were parts of the script (Late Night) that worked out so, so well.

Back to NHIE! First, here are some synopses I’ve found online of the series:

-        The complicated life of a modern-day first generation Indian American teenage girl, inspired by Mindy Kaling's own childhood.

-        After a traumatic year, an Indian-American teen just wants to spruce up her social status - but friends, family and feelings won't make it easy on her

-        Episode 1: After recent trauma, Devi starts her first day as a high school sophomore determined to shake off old labels and finally become cool.

So I guess my first complaint about NHIE is a bone I could pick with just about any American production from the last, idk, 8 years. You know how when (for whatever reason) every single character is ‘awkward’ or ‘weird’ or sooo idiosyncratic in general, they just end up all being… almost exactly the same? Where all the over-used tropes, every character’s too-loud too-colourful unique defining traits just end up reading the same way, to me at least.  

Need all characters be so strong, really? Strong as in, overly sapid, full-bodied, clearly defined, distinct in a way that actually isn’t unique at all… I mean I’m not asking for more Jack Maliks (from Yesterday, as reviewed here by me) cos fuk dat guy omfg hate him and his dull ass lol but … do you know what I mean? When every character has traits that are so instantly recognizable, so clear to the plain eye without need for any nuanced observation or interpretation that you can almost like .. see the literal line of text in Courier font for the character description in the screenplay flashing before your eyes? Like of course as viewers we do want to feel like we have some grasp of the characters we’re investing in and relating to but I think if traits and personalities and mannerisms are so simplistic (even if they are diverse) that the characters themselves can ve perfectly summed up in a nutshell then that’s not a good thing at all.. I don’t know, it just seems a very American thing that I’m tired of, where there’s just a complete dearth of authenticity and complexity. Because no one in real life is ever sooooo distinctly themselves 100% of the time you know? Sure, I haven’t seen something specifically catered for teens in a while so maybe it’s just genre-specific thing but I do think there was so much more room for more realistic characters here.

Okay but still, 90% of all comments I have trawled through (facebook, Instagram, youtube) seem to be from American teens, talking about how relatable the show is so I guess high school teachers really be out there acting like caricatures of their TV trope selves and friends are all awkward af among each other and quirky at home and quirky on the streets walking home and quirky in the corridors of their school and exaggerate every reaction in every ordinary situation. But here’s the thing, I don’t think people are actually this way. I think many of them pretend that they are, act like they are. I think here lies the danger: where the more media we have portraying this kind of intensely saturated characters and personalities, the more young people will think that to be ‘themselves’, they have to raise the decibels of each and every trait of their own… I dunno if you understand me?  I think it’s an insidious feedback cycle not dissimilar to the manic pixie dreamgirl effect, not in how women’s quirkiness serves to bring out dormant sides of men but just in how people (especially girls because due to society-enforced insecurities are more susceptible to taking influence from popular role models) have to BE SO *INSERT ANY ADJECTIVE HERE* … I don’t know… it’s just inauthentic and tiring. So NHIE is okay, as long as it is makes clear that it’s caricaturizing different examples of how some people may act in different circumstances… but it doesn’t do this. Aiyah I know I’m making a huge deal out of what some people will obviously just take as entertainment and gags for laughs etc but… it’s annoying to me…

Okay

Next

So I’m not sure if you got this from the synopses I’d copied above, so, again: NHIE revolves around a nice girl, Devi (15), who lost her father (heart attack, in the middle of the school hall where he was watching Devi perform at her school orchestra concert) last year and is now starting a new year of school, coping with the incident by stifling every single traumatic memory. Also there are some random throwaways here and there about her having literally become physically disabled for 3 months after her father’s death where Devi lost the ability to use her legs (psychosomatic reaction to her loss) but it’s only ever joked at in insignificant ways so I guess… we shall never know that side of her grief? But all this (grieving over dead father, impersonal relationship with stern mother etc) is mere backdrop, joining other backdrop themes like being a shitty friend from start to end in unbelievably shitty ways etc – the main ‘plot’ instead is made up of Devi’s desperate quest to have sex with Paxton, a 16 year-old ‘hottie’ from school who she likes, erm, because, hot.

Yea that’s it…… that’s the critique. She’s a 15 year old girl whose everyday actions (for the most part) are calculated to lead up to her deflowering by her crush. Not to be a prude but… is this an okay storyline? Like are 15 year-olds legally allowed to have sex? Lol… Am I under any misconception about what teens all over the world get up to? No. Do I think that the law plays any useful role in preventing young girls and boys from sexualizing themselves and wasting their time on sexual pursuits when they can and should be developing literally any other interest and skill? No. Am I still unhappy that this was the main motivating factor for Devi to get up and out of her home each day, unhappy that for this reason (her goal of sleeping with Paxton), unhappy that because of this she morphed into the worst, most unreliable and unrelatable friend ever to her besties who needed her badly??? Yes!

Look, I’ve covered relevant topics in my 4 years of social work education to understand Devi’s actions as unhealthy, maladaptive coping behaviours – we see Devi exhibit behaviours / thoughts etc evocative of basically all 4 stages of the Kubler-Ross grief cycle, besides the final stage of acceptance: denial, anger, bargaining, depression. If we look at Virginia Satir’s coping stances instead, (different types of behaviours people exhibit when under stress), Devi again displays all 4 stances: super reasonable (i.e. over-rationalizing something so as to avoid confronting/acknowledging the emotional truth), irrelevant (distracting, changing the topic, inappropriate jokes), placating (self-explanatory)  and blaming (again, obvious). So basically, Devi does, says and feels anything and everything besides maturely coping with the loss of her father. Is this realistic? Yes! Does everyone work within their own timelines before finally coming to that final Kubler-Ross stage of acceptance? Absolutely! And I am not at all rushing Devi to act ‘normal’ or to display healthier coping mechanisms. I just wish the grief was handled so so so much better by Mindy Kaling and whoever else was involved in developing this story - this story that is honestly full of promise. In other words, how Devi fails to handle her grief could have been written so much better, so much deeper instead of her failings itself being the central form of entertainment for much of the 10 episodes.

Anyway, also, besides it being morally not okay for a 15 year-old’s thirst for sex to be an accepted plot point (accepted on- and off-screen I mean), the actors playing Devi and Paxton are 10 years apart in age. Devi (reminder: age 15 on-screen) is played by a lovely actress who is currently 18, and Paxton is played by someone who is currently 29. So like….. she would likely have been 17 at the time of shooting? That’s just not okay and I don’t think I need say more lol. Shit like this, miscasting your key heartthrob, is just so… cheapo and so late 90s/early 2000s you know where the actors are so so clearly adults playing high schoolers, it’s just… cheapo af and absolutely inexcusable now.

Okay, everything up to this point in my ‘review’ has just been small here-and-there thoughts I had while watching it, and I’ve dedicated fluffy paragraph after paragraph on them so as to delay speaking about my main issue with the series: how the central trauma is dealt with... insomuch as it isn’t, at all.

And I’m not just saying this as someone who’s fresh off having just re-watched A Single Man, because they are obviously intended as very different works and intentionally made of (made with?) very different calibers but there are, surely, much much better ways to handle grief than what we are given with NHIE where Devi tries her darnest to have sex with her dreamboat bae. Okay so early in the series (second episode), Devi actually does get with Paxton in his garage after propositioning him (by ambushing him outside school after he finished swim practice or something), but when he takes off her shirt she’s like ok nvm I cant have sex now bye. So yea, it doesn’t happen. But it continues to be her main source of distraction from her grief, so it does remain a central plot point. Anyway the therapist character in NHIE is a joke, full of age-old TV-therapist lines like “So how do you feel about that?” etc, other platitudes and hollow-isms. She does try to tell Devi that it is not in her interest to be putting her sense of self worth on being “bangable” (I do believe this was the exact word used, cant be bothered to find the exact minute in the speicifc episode but yea trust that Devi and her therapist are candid with speaking about her plans for deflowering and Devi is never willing to talk about anything else but), but … I don’t know, Devi’s schtick gets tiresome, not because I’m neuronormative and want to see more normal behavior from the dear girl or because I’m annoyed with how badly she’s handling her grief, but more because of how badly they (writers, producers whoever etc) are handling it.

Like, up till the very end, we see her irrelevant stances or proof of her denial as fodder for lame jokes and utterly cliché dialogue, in what should be a genuine and ‘real’ scene. It’s annoying!! See below for screencaps from slightly over halfway through the FINAL episode of the series - in other words, way, way too late for a joke to be made out of how Devi resorts to the same poor coping mechanisms in distracting from her grief. I’ve screenshotted only parts of the convo, leaving out the parts where this serious convo turns into a joke about Eleanor, that itself pretends to be deep and serious but it isn’t at all...?

Devi’s friends confront her about the most serious thing in the entire series (her needing to go down to her beach to meet her mom to scatter her dad’s ashes, something she hitherto has rejected as she is unable to face this final step in accepting his death but masks with more irrelevant excuses), and she’s still coping poorly by ‘deflecting’, as her friend rightly says. I don’t know about you, but this was not a scene I needed jokes in at all.

But then, like… suddenly…. Immediately after this she starts crying and everything is good for the first time and there is acceptance within her and some semblances of healing of the fractures in her relationship with her mom etc… I dunno, it’s just not cathartic at all, because Devi hasn’t been given enough of a journey at all. The 0 to 100 thing doesn’t work here because it’s not satisfying (for us) or realistic (for Devi) at all.

Re: the grief, I dunno, if we look at another, equally popular Netflix production, The Haunting of Hill House comes to mind. Yes, obviously not at all a meaningful or fair comparison to make but again, if it’s about a family dealing with grief and loss, why can’t we expect that NHIE carry the same gravitas? In Hill House, we see our characters fumble and lash out and ‘pop off’ (a term used in NHIE which I found strangely out of place) at one another, often, but never are manifestations of their grief, never are clear mishandlings of their grief on display for our entertainment in the form of laughs or ‘cringe’ purposes. It’s just...not everything has to be funny you know? Even if it’s a teen show. I think there are ways, subtle ways, expert ways for something to be serious without at all needing to be heavy.

Again, like my gripe with the childish and/or cheap caricatures of human personalities which would be okay if this series was clearly presented as light entertainment to fill gaps in one’s day, not handling the trauma and grief could (perhaps) be overlooked if it didn’t pretend that it would in fact handle it. But everyone’s discussing the show as if it genuinely was an incredible take on dealing with loss and trauma, as if it’s contributed significantly to understandings of how a young, beautiful lovely ‘normal’ schoolgirl can live and learn through extreme trauma… BUT THE SHOW DOESN’T DO THIS LIKE IT LITERALLY DOESN’T AT ALL I FUCKING SWEAR…. Please watch all 10 episodes and show me even just ONE minute where we come full circle from anything, where Devi grows through her pain and where her journey is developed over more than just literally the last 7 minutes of screentime in the very last episode of the entire series. And I’m also seeing soooooo many comments from people who have enjoyed the series mention how fun and lighthearted it was, how comfortable they are to categorize the series as comedy and how great a time they had binge-watching it. But… it’s not funny? Like it’s really not lol… Devi is dealing with a most painful, urgent grief, having lost her father tragically a year before (and having to see him go before her very eyes). Her denial, her various-aforementioned-unhealthy-coping-mechanisms-and-maladaptive-behaviours made for painful watching for me. It shouldn’t be funny for us to see her abandon her friends when they most needed her; it shouldn’t be fun to see her lash out at her mom and dream of Paxton shirtless, these shouldn’t be comedic externalities of her situation at all. Does this mean I want an utterly dour, extremely humourless NHIE instead? Not at all! I just wish scenes / examples of her mishandling her grief were not the same ones that are supposed to make us laugh and think that everything is light and fun. Like, we can have other funny scenes featuring Devi instead you know? Things that aren’t actually incredibly harmful to her psyche.

ANYWAY

Some positives, cos I did enjoy this stupid series lollll and I did cry and I did laugh and I did look forward to watching it every evening while I exercised, okie? :)

There is one honestly genius thing that I like, where the genius lies in its utter randomness. The series (save for one episode which I will not talk about cos I don’t really give a shit about Andy Samberg and whoever his inclusion was pandering to) was narrated by John McEnroe, who, er, apparently is a well-known American tennis player. The only tennis player I know is Andre Agassi because for some reason in 2016 I borrowed from the library and read cover-to-cover his autobiography omg actually why on earth did I even do that lol I must have read somewhere that it was good perhaps? Anyway it is still recognized as one of the most ‘interesting’ or iconic sports autobiographies of all time so. But yea John McEnroe who?? He (John) is mentioned here and there as having been Devi’s late father’s favourite tennis player – which still does nothing to explain how and why he is narrating the whole series, which is great! I do enjoy the no-attempt-made to connect the fact of his narration to anything in the plot. But it’s not done in an annoyingly absurdist way either, you know? It just it what it is. I mean I guess if I’d written the screenplay which was in part autobiographical, I’d too love to have LeBron James or Megan Rapinoe narrating it, just because!

Ultimately, I think we must all acknowledge how fucking epic it is for Mindy Kaling to be where she is today. That Netflix approached her and asked for a story from her heart, drawing from her own life, and gave her the boundary-less freedom to write what she wanted is cool. She may not be the voice I think teens (or any audience really) may most need but they certainly do want this voice – NHIE is so so so loved and appreciate across the board – by adults, kids, diasporic Indian girls, normal non-minority-race girls etc, with everyone calling (begging) for another season, and anyway Mindy Kaling is probably about 1000000x better anyway than others who have been granted the same stage and presence as her before, like, I dunno, Michael fucking Bay or fucking James Cameron so yay her !!! For the sake of us all!

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update, a few hours later:

so since forcing Jade to read my post the second it went up, i have learnt that:

So there goes the one singular uniquely cute thing I did appreciate about NHIE then i guess, seeing as his random feature throughout the series isn’t unique at all... seeing as unexpectedness makes for a predictable part of his record, it is no longer charming to me.  lol bye!

[cupkayke]

Cupkayke Rewatches/Liveblogs Boueibu!

Season 1, Episode 2 

I think I’ll start using the title cards in these~ Sounds fun. And I originally started this post like... 5 hours ago but then TUMBLR JUST HAD TO CRASH CHROME AND EAT THE POST. So if my commentary isn’t very intelligent it’s because I wrote all this shit earlier and lost it <.< Not that it was intelligent in the first place; it was mostly squeeing and laughing over stupid screencaps.

So! Image-heavy thoughts below the cut!

Yup, I still love this opening theme. LOOK HOW CUTE THEY ARE.

Okay, let’s unpack Kinshirou’s speech here a bit. He starts off chastising Ibushi for taking the tea off a little bit too soon and then launches into his views about negligence. “Those who are negligent in etiquette will be negligent in all things. Lifestyle, academics, self respect...” What exactly does that mean? Especially in relation to the ‘self-respect’ comment. If we utilize the dictionary definitions, Kinshirou is saying “Those who are lazy or careless in etiquette will neglect the proper esteem or regard for the dignity of one’s character.” Essentially, Kinshirou is stating that he holds not only decorum but how one views the self above everything else. It’s an interesting look at his worldview, but it also could be taken that he’s talking about Atsushi here, who was (perceived to be) “negligent” with “friendship etiquette” and stopped speaking to Kinshirou and thusly their friendship died. Of course, Kinshirou is probably well aware that he threw a temper tantrum in the first place, but... that aside, he’s still upset. So perhaps he’s reminding Ibushi of what type of people they are supposed to be, and not like THOSE people. 

Akoya twirlin’ dat hair.

I didn’t cap this part of the speech, but Kinshirou continues: “It is easy to drift downwards. We as the student council of Binan high school, regard foolishness and mediocrity as a sin. We must not approve of it.” - More establishment of how Kinshirou views the world. Order, dignity and class held above all. Again, something that Atsushi potentially lacks, knowing what we know on the other half of the reveal. Or I could be talking out my ass.

CUTE AKOYA IS CUTE. Look at this faaaaaace.

I forgot about the BLURRRR

Zundar struggling to get into and get comfortable in the teacup is hilarious. Lookit this wiggle noodle.

‘Planet evil’ snerk

Snooty Akoya is snooty. 

Even Ibushi isn’t quite on board with Kinshirou’s plan lol. From this, it seems he might just potentially be along for the ride for the sake of keeping Kinshirou happy- but he’s unable to resist pointing out how lofty Kinshirou’s plot sounds.

And Kinchan isn’t gonna take no shit

I know Kinshirou is bad mothing our boys here, but in this particular screencap it’s a little hard to take him seriously lol. They look like a boy band!

And then Ibushi’s like -”SIGH- I guess  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯”

ZUNDAR I FIND IT HARD TO FIND YOU INTIMIDATING WHEN YOU ARE A SMOL, GREEN HEDGEHOG THAT SITS IN TEACUPS AND MUST BE PICKED UP BY THE SCRUFF OF YOUR NECK BY YOUR HENCHMAN TO BE PUT IN HIS POCKET.

They discuss using someone to commit violent acts so casually… how much brainwashing did Zundar have to do and how much of their compliance is just from their natures as isolated kids? (I need to read the manga again so I actually remember their backstories... I read all of it that was available in English but there may have been an update to the translations? Idk- I’ll look for it later)

En and his musings again~

Though c’mon guys, are you really surprised at this point considering what was revealed in ep1 about En’s brain? You’ve been hanging out for awhile...

 However their conversation about chopsticks and menma is pretty realistic random drivel. (I had to look up what menma was because I’m an #idiotamerican)

Ryuu evidently takes chopsticks and menma very seriously. Look at how upset he is.

WHO YA GONNA CALL? (rofls forever)

Wow so apparently this is what the boys think of English- not a noble language. <.<

POOR WOMBT LOOKS SO OFFENDED

They seem ready to kick wombat’s ass

Atsushi, I, for one, appreciate the Schrodinger reference. C’mon son.

I don’t think I noticed the puddle of blood the first time I watched this- so Wombat caused Tawarayama to crack his skull no wonder he’s in suspended animation

WOMBAT YOU SHOULD BE HORRIFIED

FANSERVICE MUCH. Yumoto button your pants back up, young man! Wombat does NOT want to cuddle with you half naked. Err...

...wait a minute.

HOW DID YOU REMOVE YOUR SHIRT SO FAST?? Three frames ago it was this:

Oh wait, it’s that Hakone (TM) clothing wizardry that Gora shows us in s2. Riiiiight. Good callback, writers.

Atsushi is really REALLY embarrassed by this whole thing. 

Ryuu loves the costume hahahaha- if he likes cosplay so much I wonder if he’s ever cosplayed anything else before lolol

Wombat, you’re asking teenage boys what love is. What did you expect?

This scene has been analyzed to death but I think Ryuu does have the right idea. It’s hilarious he’s disappointed in Io’s definition though lolol. IO YOUR BOYFRIEND HAS WORDS FOR YOU.

Atsushi is really REALLY REALLY embarrassed, guys. Meanwhile En just looks annoyed

I AM JUST LEAVING THIS SCREENCAP HERE WITHOUT ANY COMMENTARY IT’S A BEAUTIFUL MASTERPIECE THAT SPEAKS FOR ITSELF. 

Though this probably would be a great addition to the “Someone who has never watched Boueibu explain what’s happening here” meme

CURRY REFERENCE THIS EARLY HOW DID I FORGET

No really that’s really good character development/foreshadowing.

Though I wonder exactly what happened to make Kinshirou hate curry so much. Revulsion that strong can’t just simply be from emotional pain (and I think Atsushi ditched him in the first place because he knew Kinshirou hated curry and wouldn’t want to come with him in the first place). So... it must be food aversion. Maybe Kinshirou got food poisoning as a kid after eating curry. That would do it- I couldn’t eat chicken noodle soup for YEARS after I associated eating it with having the stomach virus. I didn’t eat it again until I was an adult.

Hashida WAAAAAAARIO. Oh man.

That chopstick thing is frustrating lol when we go out for sushi my bf always steals mine when he fucks up his. I feel your pain, Wario.

I don’t quite remember why I capped this part but the imagery in that dialogue is pretty heavy. Also their expressions are pretty funny here; Ibushi is just bored, Akoya looks deep in thought and Kinshirou looks like he’s gonna cut a bitch.

OH BOY TRANSFORMATIONS. In the middle of the cafeteria though? Won’t someone notice boys?

LEGGGGGGGGS for days~ Kinshirou do you shave???

I think I was trying to cap something else but I paused on this gorgeous scene- LOOK AT HOW ANGELIC AKOYA IS. DAT HAIR FLOOF.

Look how cool they look here~

 Looking back on it they were much more organized villains than the Beppus wound up being- they had coordinated attacks/powers and TWO group names, the Earth Conquest Club and Caerula Adamas. I wonder if Zundar had them practice before they started trying to take over the school for real? Or did they just get thrown into it like the DC and the words/motions just come to them?

Tho really did somebody not notice their transformation? They noticed Wario turning into a fucking monster…

Wowwwww I think this is where I thought it was ridiculous. Arima voiced our thoughts.

Side note- I really like the lighting in this scene.

OKAY REALLY? Knowing what we know now, is this just poor writing or bullshit on Wombat’s part for the CIDE2 screen? Gora was a battle lover of sorts but it was shown in s2 that he was by himself- he didn’t have a team. He just had his own name. So why this reference? Were they originally planning on there having previously been a team of five and then retconned it or was this just a throwaway line? I’d like to think it’s Wombat bullshitting just to get the boys to do what he wants.

Atsushi is VERY VERY VERY concerned with his image.

Ryuu is savage AF

Poor Wombat… writing is hard work. -patpat-

This is the start of where Yumoto’s opinions conveniently contradict the Monst of the Week

Also wombat’s face is so silly

Io and Ryuu teasing ASDF

For being forced they sound really passionate. Can wombat affect their tone or are they kind of having fun with it?

Side note- this must’ve happened in a production meeting: “So we have 2 characters with shorts, 2 characters with pants.” “What about the fifth one?” “Uhhh… half shorts, half pants!” “Capris?” “BUT POOFY” At least they look a bit more fashionable than Ryuu and Yumoto… sorry cutiepies. Poofy shorts are erm…

Lololol there’s the fourth wall~

En jumps on the alter ego so quickly

Hope no one heard Io slip and call En’s real name two seconds before!

Oh no poor Ryuu!

And Io to the rescue! “Don’t worry baby, I’m coming!”

“It’s okay bby I got you”

Atsushi really doesnt like the names, contrast to en. I never realized how image-conscious Atsushi is until I rewatched this ep. You’d think the stereotypically ‘nerdy’ looking character would be the least self conscious about the whole thing.

They definitely did a lot more fighting in s1, even when the other boys aren’t doing much.

HE PUTS THE CHOPSTICK ON HIS LOVE STICK LOL

They suddenly have names for their attacks/combinations… I wonder if wombat yelled at them between episode 1 and 2

Yumoto’s butt shot haha - I would have gotten a screencap of this but my STREAM KEPT FUCKING UP IN QUALITY AT THE WORST TIMES.

Yumoto’s lecture mode is a bit more serious here than it is in later episodes. Also- LOOK HOW COOL HE LOOKS~ LIKE A REAL SUPERHERO. GORA WOULD BE SO PROUD

Floofy hair in the wind SC - I WOULD HAVE CAPPED THIS TOO BUT MY WINDOW JUST HAD TO ACCIDENTALLY CLOSE. <.< fuck this, any caps I didn’t already have I am DONE.

Gora’s first line!

I- Uh- er.... I’m in trouble. Yumoto’s face here... <////< I am too old for this

Ryuu is upset he didn’t get to fight- but wombat has a point

And once again, @crazy-grrrl-on-the-computer has beat me to the punch with a brilliant analysis of s1′s ending theme that is way better than anything I could have ever done ever. I had to go back and search for this because for some reason I forgot to like it or reblog it??? wtf me???

AND FUCKING FINALLY. AFTER LIKE EIGHT HOURS OF START AND STOP WORK EPISODE 2 IS BLOGGED.

I might as well take this footnote to note that I’m finding the Student Council a much more enjoyable cast this time around than when I originally watched the series. Idk why they just didn’t resonate with me at first- but I’m slowly coming to see why they’re some of the favorite characters in the fandom. They do have a lot of backstory that the manga fleshes out and it’s a pity that they don’t get to be friends with the Defense Club until the end of s1 and then they get shipped off abroad in s2. Logistics and all but there’s a lot more story there that could have been explored- but perhaps some of it did and I wasn’t paying attention the first time. I will get there in this rewatch lol.

Well, so much for trying to get 2 eps done today. I’ll see if I can post ep3 tomorrow or the day after depending on when I get around to watching and taking notes again. Tho I just started making my bf watch Yuri on Ice so I may be a bit preoccupied with rewatching that with him for a few days haha.

[rustyfilingcabinet]

Doing surveys because what fuck else am I meant to do with a storm outside?

1.) Do you believe in fate? Hmmm. I do believe we all have a purpose, I do believe that certain things are meant to be or not. But I also believe that our actions directly affect our future. 2.) Do you sleep naked? I do. 3.) What is your favorite thing to cook? I love cooking bokkeumbap because it's crazy fast and simple but so so tasty. 4.) Do you believe that humans are inherently good or evil? I think we all have the potential to be both and circumstances dictate which way we end up. Sometimes. 5.) What turns you on? Oh... oxygen 😂 erm. Anything down to tone of voice and posture can be turn on with the right person. I'm literally so easy. 6.) What is your favorite snack? Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrm. Biscuits. 7.) What do you think will bring on the end of the world? Nuclear war, global warming, black hole, etc. I think probably nuclear. Ultimately however we go we'll be the cause of our own demise. 8.) What is your favorite type of foreplay? All of it. Always. Haha. 9.) Favorite restaurant? Don Antonio's was lovely but that's long gone. The Italian I went to in Germany was beautiful and actually really romantic. Er, imge in town is nice. 10.) Do you believe in the death penalty? Nope. Absolutely not. One person wrong doing will never justify taking a life. 11.) Do you use sex toys? By yourself or with a partner, or both? I do sometimes but not very often. By myself. 12.) Salty or sweet? Sweet. 13.) Do you believe in ghosts? I do. 14.) Have you ever done role play? Haha no. Id be awful at that. 15.) Would you ever go vegetarian or vegan? I like the idea of being vegetarian because I hate factory farms. But. No. 16.) Do you have faith in a higher power? Oh man this is a deep one. I don't believe in a god in the sense of some dude sitting on a cloud dictating. I believe in something divine that exists in every thing and, if we live well and nurture it, we will be nurtured. 17.) Favorite sex position? If you’re a virgin, which position interests you? Hmm. I'm a fan of doggy style because it gets dat g spot. 18.) Favorite dessert? All of them. 19.) What quote or mantra do you live by? Love and compassion are necessities not luxuries and without them humanity cannot survive. 20.) Any fetish? Not really no. Lil kinks but no full on fetishes. 21.) If you had to eliminate chocolate or meat(that includes chicken or fish) from your diet, which would you keep? Oh my shit I would rather die haha. Erm. Id keep meat. 22.) Do you focus more on the past, present or future? The present? I dont know yaknow. 23.) Where is the craziest place you’ve ever done it? His grans bed. 24.) What have you eaten today? Was it good? A really coconuty curry. So good. 25.) Do you judge people for what they wear or how they express themselves? I try not to judge people at all. People's actions speak for themselves. 26.) What was the best orgasm you’ve ever had? Orgasm #39392 i don't understand how I'm meant to answer this lol. 27.) What do you eat when you’re watching a movie in a cinema? Whatever I bought at the shop before arriving at the cinema because fuck cinema prices 28.) What is something you have that everyone wants? Literally nothing 😂😂 plo when I have that? Haha 29.) Do you shave or trim your pubic hair? Depends on my mood and what's going down. Mostly I just trim because I don't feel any more or less empowered with a shaved foof. Depends what I'm feeling. 30.) Are you an optimist, pessimist, or a realist? I'm an optimist for others, a pessimist about myself but a realist in general. 31.) In your opinion, what is the best food your country can offer? Oh its all shit in England. Erm. Greggs do a mean sausage roll haha 32.) Have you ever/would you ever do anal? Yep. 33.) If you were to run away, where would you go? Depends why I was running away lol. 34.) In your opinion, what is the worst food your country can offer? FUCKING marmite. 35.) Biggest sexual fantasy? I actually don't really have any specific fantasies. 36.) Are you an introvert or an extrovert? How does it affect your life? I'm an ambivert. Neeeeed space and my own time and silence but also need a few hours with people so I don't go mental haha. 37.) What is your ideal take out? Imge fishcakes, a curry, naan and some shami from balti, a lil chicken and onion ringd from somewhere. Id never eat it all but id enjoy the idea of it haha. 38.) What’s more important- length or width? why? Are we talking dicks here orrrr? Both are kinda important in that the dick has to be proportionate. But. I reckon a girthy dick is better than a donkey dick 39.) What are you known for by your friends and family? ....what the fuck type of a question is that? Known for being me. 40.) What is a dish you are dying to try? Errrm none. I just cook it if I want to. 41.) Have you ever had cyber sex or phone sex? Yep. 42.) What political affiliation do you associate yourself with? I support Corbyn but not Labour. 43.) What is the worst experience you’ve ever had with food? Omg I was once so so ill after eating a mixed grill and it was probably the meat but my brain decided it was the egg so I've never touched a runny yolk since. 44.) Do you talk dirty during sex? Nope haha. 45.) What do you think happens when you die? I'm still wondering this myself. 46.) What is your favorite foreign food? I only really eat foreign food tbh and I can't choose. 47.) How often do you masturbate? Varies. Sometimes multiple times a day sometimes like once a week. 48.) What is something no one can ever steal from you? My wealth. Because it's non existent 49.) Favorite alcoholic drink? Sailor Jerry. 50.) What was your first orgasm like? I fell over. So.

[nothingneverforever]

How To Be Single (2016)

Okay. So I watch shiddy films like these when I’m exercising in my parents’ room (when it’s too dark/wet/gross to run outside in the nice world) and need something to distract me from the monotony of the cross trainer. Because this takes place when my parents are not at home, I enjoy rolling up my sleeves and scraping the bottom of the barrel, choosing something I think i will love-to-hate but I usually end up getting really into the should-have-been-hated films and loving them so much I extend my workout and exaggerate my cool-down stretch routine just so I can finish the film. Hehe :-)

So yea this film was one of those... Hated only the first 3 seconds before it became the best movie ever. Unfortunately my father came back earlier than expected and I didn’t want to subject him to this so I have only gotten 57 minutes into this film, but, erm, I love it, and this will be continued…

Dakota Johnson is surprisingly likable and…her lips are so nice wtf?! And erm. I can’t think of a single Leslie Mann role that I haven’t liked. Her general demeanour should go against everything I believe in but … it just doesn’t…..she is so cute…. Her voice is so cute….. i love her….. girls are so nice…… Alison Brie (below) is also surprisingly palatable and I almost want to believe in all that her character believes in (may not have gotten the whole of her character yet, but I believe she believes in love. Lol). I know, trust me I freakin’ know, films like these really never needed to be made but….it’s nice……

^ cute!!!!! (source)

Actually you know what, it’s not totally nice. Not at all a revolutionary or new thought but halfway through the film it made wonder where the non-sexual movies are. Rebel Wilson’s character in this film is Amy Schumer’s before she meets the boring doctor guy in Trainwreck, sexually liberated and fun and content. Cool, but is it too pushing-asexual-agenda of me to want a similarly free-of-shitty-expectations character who does not need to engage in sexual activity to feel independent and in control? Like… surely they can be free in some other way… Googled and there are indeed very few even remotely ace characters, much less open ones, in film but apparently Miyazaki’s creations are good for this. Interesting! Jade and Gen, Miyazaki marathon after our Twilight sleepover? :~)

And obviously it’s all just “in good humour” and ironic and self-aware and whatever but you know these new chick flicks that are “light” and “real”… why must there always be reference to “ugly people”? Rebel Wilson’s character at one point says “reading is for ugly people” which I KNOW, I’M NOT FUCKIN STUPID, is meant to just be like, haha, yea, everyone who doesn’t wanna live dat ugly lyfe should be going out clubbing and having sex instead, but like… who is the joke on? This preoccupation with the idea of ugly…. It’s very gross and fucking lame really and very very tired. Same with people who can sit around all day and talk about “fat” people. Um ok…..so…………..?

Full disclosure: I am only writing about this to delay writing about Passengers (2016) and La La Land (2016) because I actually want to try and put a little bittle effort into those and because I hate that my 2 most recent posts are not fleeting film feelings at all. Also I’m lazy and writing anyhow-ly is fun af.

To be continued, but so far this film has just made me really look forward to the Christmas-New Year period and almost convincingly artificially feel good enough to make me want to travel…  ew, right?

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Update, 16th January 2017:

Sigh……… This film rocks so hard.

So I finally managed to sneakily have my parents’ room to myself again this evening and went straight to channel 623 and watched the rest of the movie while using the skipping rope (already did an outdoor run, so didn’t wanna use the cross trainer. You know. Just in case anyone is interested in my super secret workout routine). Skipping is fun! Um anyway. This film was a strange experience, maybe the first chick flick released in years that I have not hated. And you know me, I’m very ready to excuse small shittynesses and announce a chick flick to be the Best Movie Eva, but I haven’t been able to for any release post-2008/9ish. Feels like everything since then has pandered to gross tastes that expect crass representations of the new girl who is “““not like other girls””” or are so desperate to come off slightly “liberal” that they end up being painfully tone deaf (see Mother’s Day, 2016, boasting a 7% on Rotten Tomatoes, which is honestly already generous).

But How To Be Single is different… Yea there is that thing about ‘ugly people’ that I mentioned above but it was a one off (not an excuse I know! But there were honestly other things about the film that later were impressive and honest and refreshing), but otherwise I cried at more than a few points and ended up feeling like it was a necessary coming-of-age for my overdue self, seeing this film.

Firstly I would like to say thank you to all my friends, real and few, for never breaking up with me even briefly. I mean this so much!!! I do think it is unique that I have never been in a fight with anyone and I am so lucky to have that. Fighting sucks!!!!! If anyone is reading this I love you all :’(

Okay I don’t know what in the film spurred this realisation specifically but … hmm … it just made me feel like perhaps I could see myself as the kind of person who waits. You know what I mean? For someone else, for a friend who isn’t able to give in a way that satisfies either of us, for anyone who I would like to be closer to who can’t just yet allow me to be a part of their reality, for someone who doesn’t know how to see my small worth immediately, whatever kind of waiting on something someday somebody... and I don’t think this waiting will take much out of me. I think it was when Dakota Johnson (WTF SHE IS SOOOOOOOOOO CUTE) faced the weirdly sharp and cold and unnecessary breakup with Daman Wayans Jr’s character, I just saw myself in that situation for a second and wondered how I would move forward, and I realised I would love to wait. I think, or like to imagine, that I have a mellowed patience that will manifest itself when it needs to. I can see the weight of something even while appreciating that it will only take full shape in the future, and that’s cool and I’m happy! Yea. I can definitely wait! I don’t know, it just seems an easy and believable life for myself. Also I like that Dakota Johnson’s (honestly… watch this film for her. She was SO inspirational FOR NO REASON AT ALL BUT I LOVE HER) very brief love interest was played by the equally cute Daman Wayans Jr, even if his character was stock and one-dimensional af!

And it’s romantic, obviously, but it’s nice to think that you can leave something or put it on comfortable-hold and come back to it, a little or much later, and the wait would have provided its own answers. Also me reminding myself that there is worth in wait is NOT the same as me wanting to ever feel pressured into being in a place, in any kind of relationship with anyone, where I know there is nothing that will come of it / there is no direction I even want it to go, but having to stick around anyway. Coz fuck that it’s so gross and dangerous and stupid

 I’m listening to Don’t Dream It’s Over by Crowded House now, and it’s very fitting for this whole wanting-to-be-able-to-wait-and-for-it-to-pay-off-eventually side of my newly discovered self:

There is freedom within there is freedom without ... Hey now, hey now Don't dream it's over

And it also brings me to the rather more enigmatic and swirly and sad Beyond by Daft Punk:

Dream Beyond dreams Beyond life You will find Your

Song Before sound To be found Close your eyes And

Rise

Hey the lyrics of these 2 fukin nice songs are actually perfect for this piece of art I made in July 2015 (below), titled Wednesday (Waiting), in which I used Outside Inside the Dream, 2012, by Chen Man, which literally is Daft Punk’s beyond dream and Corner House’s freedom within, without… Ugh so perfect!!!

http://howmanybrothers.tumblr.com/post/123470830442/wednesday-waiting-july-2015-veil-of-maya

“Beyond dreams” is such a nice concept… so solid in its other-worldness, equal parts fey and realistic. Waiting will get me and all of us somewhere! One of my friendships (not any of you reading this… since only gen and jade and my mother read this… lol…actually i’m not even sure, gen are u reading this? either way I love u! Ooh also Smirthy may be reading this? love u for all the warmth and support smoggu!!! ) only became something any of us could take interest in 4 years after we started making the effort, and very recently while enjoying time (and channa masala) with him I realised the very real importance of just straight chilling even when something doesn’t feel like much, and I’m so glad that the boringness in our friendship is long forgotten and that each meeting now is genuinely and quite profoundly enjoyable. It sounds so simple but yea 4 years ago I would never have thought that we would understand anything real about each other. And there is also Rebecca (who may read this not anytime soon, but one day?) whose friendship has been a lot of this and a lot of that which means that it has seen us through very different stages and everything has taught us something and … connections are just important, ok, and I want to remember that waiting is needed so often. Years are seriously nothing. Also this is not all about me thinking that my broad shoulders and big heart are capable of a good wait: thank you to anyone who has waited through my shitty depressive shittiness and sorry that you couldn’t do more and sorry that I couldn’t be more. Anyway. 2017 rocks so whatever

Rise Higher still Endless thrill To the land Of

Love Beyond love Come alive Angel Eye Forever watching you and I

Beyond love… that’s a lot to think about.

Okay I gotta go get ready for MPS, this movie made me feel some really deep shyte and I hope I can come back to this, bye <3