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I am nervous but so ready for this 🥺😬

"May your love be modern enough to survive the times, but old fashioned enough to last forever." I LOVE THIS QUOTE. oh how I yearn for such a love 🥺😭

“Sweetheart, I’m about to pass out, we’re going straight to bed before I die.” I LOVE THE WAY HE IS SO ENAMOURED W YAEL 🥺😭

“I’ve seen this before, a similar situation and the symptoms are almost identical, this doctor has made a few mistakes in the past and has diagnosed incorrectly to other patients. I’m afraid your son has a severe anemia.” oh poor thing 🥺

“You don’t understand!” “This is my payback for lying!” ummm....what?!?!??

“But you left me alone to go to film that series! On my fucking birthday! You didn’t touch me for weeks we had been fighting a lot and I went out to have fun to a club and a young man invited me a drink and he was really sweet and…” “I slept with him just once and three weeks later, I was late on my period, took a test and it was positive… then you decided to break up with me, but I convinced you we should be together one last time and-” YOU LYING FUCKING BITCH. SO NOT ONLY DID YOU CHEAT ON CILLIAN BUT YOU TRICKED HIM TOO?! LET HIM BELIEVE SEAN WAS HIS WHEN HE ISN'T 🤬😭

“I’m sorry! I couldn’t even remember his name and you always wanted to have kids anyway…” WOWWW. THE WAY I WANT TO MURDER THIS BITCH RIGHT FUCKING NOW.

"All of this time they had been fooled by Erin, she made them believe Sean was Cillian’s son for months and even let them fall in love with him, have him over, play with him." IM ABOUT TO CUT A BITCH 🔪🔪🔪

“Look yes, he should’ve but it’s so late for that now, in the moment he did what he felt right and it was only his decision to make.” I sympathize so much w Cillian + Yael but I do agree w Pad that he should've done the paternity test to give himself full + medically confirmed certainly 😔

"What about the photos she framed of little instants filled with love." "That baby had stolen her heart in an instant, every time Cillian was holding his son, he seemed to be the happiest man on earth." MY HEART IS SO BROKEN 😭

“Violet? I just wanted to ask you if you still need things for your baby?” “It’s practically unused, but I don’t have the original boxes. I have a car seat, pram, diapers, crib, well everything.” THIS HURTS SO BAD. I'm glad Yael is giving it to someone who needs it rather than just throwing it away, but it still hurts that they have to give the stuff away regardless 😔😭

“Yael? Thank you, from the bottom of my heart I was going through a difficult path and you can’t even imagine how much this means to me.” AW. bless you Violet 🥺

"Yael felt more emotional than before after learning that her cousin was short of money, but at least the things that belonged once to Sean would be used by someone who needed them. Everything was practically new, there was no use of throwing everything to the trash." MY THOUGHTS EXACTLY 🥺

“I’d like to be alone.” I AM IN PAINNN.

the disclaimer at the beginning rly didn't prepare me for the heartbreak that was this chapter. although I wanted Erin to be gone, I didn't want them to have to deal w Sean being taken away from them. I hope that in someway, he can still be apart of their family even though the painful truth of Erin's lies and deceit has been revealed. I AM SO HEARTBROKEN RIGHT NOW 😭

The Photoshoot-Part 36

Series Masterlist

Cillian Murphy

⚠️ Súper angst, cheating.

✨ This is probably the hardest part I will ever write for this story, it took me the whole week to complete it because I literally couldn’t get around to write this down… but when I asked you to vote, you made a choice 🤷🏻‍♀️ so here it is.

Thank you @peakypoet /Selene for making this beautiful header ♥️

“I’m sorry, the bus got stuck in traffic.” Yael rushed inside, it was only meant to be a quick trip to give her client the printed photos of her shooting, but she spent almost hours instead.

Scout greeted her wriggling his tail and she couldn’t resist opening the bag of treats she just got for him, he devoured it in a matter of seconds, she then heard a soft voice coming from the reading room.

“Don’t tell Dad I gave you two.” Petting Scout on the head, she tiptoed until the sight of her husband laying on the couch welcomed her; a script on his hands, glasses on the bridge of his nose, his hair drastically shorter now, the mustache gone, this was a completely different person from the last role when he played Chris.

“I heard that.”

Sometimes Yael had the impression that she was married to someone with different personalities.

“You finally convinced Erin to let us babysit Sean?” She changed the topic, while Scout was licking the evidence of the treat.

Opening his arm to her, Yael leaned on her side, hugging Cillian and smelling his scent. She noticed the script on his chest had his own notes in the margins, arrows and words scratched and smiled at the thought of him getting ready for his next role.

“Yeah, we’ll get him this Friday, but he won’t be staying to sleep though, she’ll pick him up around midnight, is that alright?”

“Hmmm.” Yael murmured hiding her face in his neck. “But tomorrow is Friday.”

“Well… yeah, tomorrow then.” His fingertips running gently all over her arm.

“Should we call your brother then? To ask them to come over instead of we going to theirs?”

“Ah shit, I forgot about that dinner…”

Yael giggled he forgot about the important things but somehow remember the silliest.

“Give me twenty minutes and I’m ready to go.”

“Take your time, I’ll take a nap.”

But Yael had different plans.

“I found some barre classes love! I start next week.” He followed her upstairs.

“Ba-what?”

Coming out from their closet, Yael laughed. “Barre… it’s a modern version of ballet, for adults.”

Cillian smirked. “Does it mean I’ll get to see you wearing pink tights and a tutu?”

Doing a ballet twirl, she stopped. “No, we don’t wear a tutu.”

“And what’s that called?” His finger did the twirl movement, imitating her.

“You’re just teasing me!” Yael smacked his arm playfully.

“No, please I fucking adore you.”

Taking her hand, Cillian made her do another twirl and then, letting out a happy sigh his arms circled her waist, pulling her body close until their lips locked. Yael pulled away after one short kiss, only to come back for one quick peck and she moved away again with a smile. Cillian’s eyes were on her mouth, she had that lipstick color he loved. He just couldn’t resist to taste them one more time until Yael stopped him.

“I know what you’re doing.” Shaking her head to brush away the effect he had on her, Yael walked out of the room.

“We don’t have to go.”

But of course, she wouldn’t let him skip dinner at their friend’s house.

As they entered Gary’s house, their friends started to play the nuptial song.

“And that’s the face of a couple who can’t get their hands off each other.”

“I’m sorry we missed your wedding.” Rebecca apologized giving them a hug.

“Don’t worry, we know it was a short notice.” Yael greeted the girls and their husbands. They have been friends with Cillian since they were in high school, and they usually held their reunions with their couples.

“It was beautiful.” Marie admitted.

“Why didn’t we do that?” Gary complained to his wife. “That was a fun wedding.”

“Hey, slow down stallion, you know you could actually die from too much sex?” Clyde advised.

Cillian let out the loudest laugh Yael had ever heard.

“No seriously.”

“That’s not true Clyde.”

“Don’t listen to him, Lisa will scold him later.”

Yael chuckled at Dianne’s comment.

Then, she added in a low voice: “you know what we say… the only thing I need to make hard is his cock, not his life. And the only thing he needs to make wet is my pussy, not my eyes.”

A chorus of Amens was heard among the girls. It was such a rich group, some older, some youngers, some of them had children, others didn’t, some were a stay at home mums, some had their own successful business. Yael really liked them all. And as a new wife, she could use an advice or two.

“I brought canapés and Cill’s mac and cheese.” Yael announced.

“Fabulous! Let me put it in the oven.”

Looking over her shoulder, she found Cillian looking at her. He winked at her and a smile spread on her lips.

“How’s the baby?” Miles asked him handing his friend a cold beer. He announced that Dermot wouldn’t be able to make it on time.

“He’s alright, he had some allergy, but it’s all good now.”

“Cilly you really have the best luck, you don’t get to go through all the trouble with the mama, the feeding…”

“Yeah but-”

“Man the diapers, I hated them so much.” Clyde confirmed.

It was an incredible group, some of them had been married for a while, they’ve been through a lot; divorces, kids, in laws, different personalities, job careers, Yael had grown close to them as they all welcomed her with open arms.

“Mary-Anne almost walked in on us the other day.” Marie confessed embarrassed.

“She walked in.” Gary, her husband corrected her from the hallway.

Looking at Cillian, Yael sighed thinking how they didn’t have to deal with any of that for now. It could be a bit overwhelming to listen to someone else’s troubles or advices, there were so many different opinions.

“I know how you’re feeling, like you don’t fit.” Ella smiled at her, she didn’t have kids yet either. “I’m sorry we didn’t go to your wedding.”

She then gave her a decorative sign with the best marriage advice:

May your love be modern enough to survive the times, but old fashioned enough to last forever.

“Ella! I love it.” Yael gave her a hug, it would look incredible on the table next to the door, to remember the words everyday.

Yael assured her it was alright, but there was something else in Ella’s eyes, so they decided to go for a walk to the garden, where her friend finally opened up to her.

“We had a miscarriage two months ago and I still can’t feel like my old self again.” Her eyes were filled with tears and Yael didn’t know what was the right thing to say.

“I’m sorry.” Yael apologized quietly, Ella was kind to her since the beginning, reserved, but a nice person. “It must be so hard for you and Darren.”

“He’s devastated.”

She then went on to tell Yael of the thought that it was her fault, for not taking care of their baby. Feeling sad for their loss, Yael tried to comfort Ella the best way she could, even though there aren’t a lot of things you can tell to someone going through something like that.

“You’re so quiet tonight, everything alright?” Cillian asked later that night while they were driving back home. His hand started caressing one of her tights.

Coming back to reality after his words, Yael looked at her husband and just by that simple action, a smile started to form back on her lips.

“Yeah, just thinking how lucky I’m to have you.” In a sweet motion, she kissed his cheek as he stopped the mini in the garage. “I saw Darren a bit disconnected, don’t you think? Maybe you could go out with him or something?”

Cillian seemed to think about it for a second. “Now that you mention it, I think he was a bit off. I’ll call him tomorrow, maybe he has trouble at work.”

“And speaking about trouble…” As he closed the door, she started to unbutton the front of her dress. “Look at what I did to my wedding dress.”

Yael then revealed her one-piece white undergarment; partly made of the dress she wore for their wedding.

It took Cillian a while to recover from that sight. It was something he wanted to keep in his memory forever.

“Do you like it?” Yael asked shooting him an innocent look.

“Sweetheart, I’m about to pass out, we’re going straight to bed before I die.”

Laughing, she added: “Please don’t, I need you alive and working properly.”

“Can you wear this every night?” She was always surprising him.

———

“I texted Dermot to let him know Sean’s wearing the gift he gave us.”

Cillian informed his wife as she came down from an edit session in the attic, she needed to print the photos to then ship them.

“That was a lovely set.” She stole some cheese from the board while he went to the fridge to get something.

“If you can, could you snap a photo?” Yael nodded after stealing some more cheese and as she took the basket where Sean was sleeping, she saw something that she didn’t like.

“Cill come here, I don’t like Sean’s color, he’s a bit yellow.” Moving the baby close to the window to use the natural light, Cillian realized she was right.

Sean was sleeping and skipped his feeding time, but he didn’t think that wasn’t strange.

“Let’s go to the hospital, yeah?”

Turning off the stove, Yael took the baby’s bag and as they were walking out of the house, his brother and wife, Elise arrived.

“What’s going on?” Paidi asked.

“We’re taking Sean to the hospital, take the keys.” Cillian threw the keys to his brother and drove as fast as he could to the nearest hospital.

“I’m calling his doctor, do you want to call Erin?” Yael asked from the back seat.

“No, let’s get him checked over first.”

Once they entered the emergency wand, they were asked a lot of questions by the nurses, talking of terms they knew nothing about. They were running some blood tests first and vitals.

A man around Cillian’s father age approached them, asking about the name of Sean’s doctor, but their worries didn’t fade away as the man started shaking his head.

“God, why didn’t we know about this?” Yael asked more to herself than anything.

Cillian was speechless. Still trying to process the preliminar diagnose.

“Anemia in babies can be a bit confusing, but if his doctor decided to just assume it was an allergy to the formula, there was no way you could know.”

“What do we do now?” He finally asked crossing his arms.

“This is just a first diagnose, I need the results, but it’s more probable than not.” He looked between them. “If that’s the case, I’d suggest a blood transfusion right away and see how Sean reacts.”

“I can donate as much as it’s needed.”

As the doctor left them a moment, Yael turned to her husband.

“You need to call Erin first.”

“Love, the transfusion could make him better.”

“If you do it without her permission, you’re going to get in trouble, just tell her.”

Mumbling in agreement, she saw him taking his phone and walking away, probably outside in case the conversation scaled. Taking a seat in the waiting area, she decided to text Elise, they could stay over their house and have dinner by themselves.

The waiting was terrible, they were both feeling helpless as they heard Sean’s cries while he got checked, his little face was red and cheeks wet from the tears.

“What did you do?!” Erin stormed in no long after, trying to take Sean into her arms.

The doctor looked between the three of them and started to share his diagnosis with the mother of the baby.

“They brought him here on time, we were-” someone interrupted them announcing they had the results. “Come to my office, please.” He instructed them, he needed to be careful because one of the women was the biological mother of the baby while the other had genuine concern in her eyes. “My preliminar diagnose was correct.”

“What caused this? Was it something we did wrong?” Cillian needed to know.

“There are a lot of factors involved, prematurity, malnutrition…”

“How will you contra rest it?” Yael asked but immediately, she regretted speaking, she wasn’t the mother.

“Good news is this is a treatable condition. I’d suggest changing your pediatrician and the baby’s diet.”

“Is he going to be alright?” Cillian asked, he was extremely worried, Yael was holding his hand.

A small glimpse of relief appeared as the doctor nodded. “I’d like to start with a blood transfusion as soon as possible but you need to fill some forms.”

“I’ll sign everything you need.” Cillian assured looking at Erin, who had been very quiet. “Right?”

Yael titled her head as she saw color fading away from Erin’s face. “Can you give me a moment doctor?” She finally spoke.

Yael was about to leave the room as well, but Cillian stopped her.

“What is it, Erin?”

“I don’t know how to say this…”

Time was passing by extremely slow, Cillian was losing his patience.

“But I can’t keep this going on, this is all my fault.” She looked worn out.

Cillian shook his head, “you heard the doctor, these things are common bu-”

“You don’t understand!” She snapped, tears falling down. “This is my payback for lying!”

Yael got tense, what was she talking about?

“But you left me alone to go to film that series! On my fucking birthday! You didn’t touch me for weeks we had been fighting a lot and I went out to have fun to a club and a young man invited me a drink and he was really sweet and…” Yael’s head was spinning, Cillian had his eyes fixed on Erin. “I slept with him just once and three weeks later, I was late on my period, took a test and it was positive… then you decided to break up with me, but I convinced you we should be together one last time and-”

“Enough!” Suddenly everything clicked in Cillian’s mind.

“Are you crazy?! Why would you do that?” Yael couldn’t believe what she just heard.

“Erin what did you do?” Her mother joined them scandalized.

“That’s why you were so offended when I suggested the DNA test, right? You made me feel bad about it so you could get it your way.”

“I’m sorry! I couldn’t even remember his name and you always wanted to have kids anyway…”

Erin’s father was quiet in a corner, processing the bomb she just dropped.

Yael had never seen Cillian so out of character, so angry, he was furious, he wasn’t a violent man, but given the circumstances she tried to push him out.

“I almost gave up on him because of you!” Yael was hurt as well by the lies. “He can’t do this, but I can.”

And with that, she gave Erin a hard slap on the face, with all her anger and frustrating, she just wanted to protect Cillian. Her palm was still tingling by the force of the contact by the time she reached their car. Storming outside seconds later, she deserved much more than a slap.

“Let me drive, love.” She tried to show him her support.

“I’m fine.” He replied in a serious voice tone while moving in the parking lot.

“Cillian you’re sho”

“I said I’m fucking fine!” He raised his voice and slammed his hand on the wheel, making Yael jump on her seat, she decided to remain quiet for the rest of their way back home.

It felt as if both of them were doing everything on automatic, like they were living a nightmare.

All of this time they had been fooled by Erin, she made them believe Sean was Cillian’s son for months and even let them fall in love with him, have him over, play with him.

It took Erin months to build the lie, but within seconds the truth was revealed.

And now they were childless, Sean was gone, taken away from their lives.

There was an emptiness in their hearts that they couldn’t put into words.

Arriving back home, Cillian immediately went upstairs, not stopping to answer his brother’s questions, he was holding Connor, his son.

“This is really not a good time, sorry.” Yael apologized.

“What happened?” Elise looked confused, they had been waiting to hear back from Sea‘s status.

If it was hard to comprehend, it was harder to explain.

“You were right, Pad… she lied to us, Erin just told us she had a one night stand and got pregnant.”

They were as shocked as she was.

“He should’ve done the paternity test.” Paidy stated.

“Look yes, he should’ve but it’s so late for that now, in the moment he did what he felt right and it was only his decision to make.”

As she finished saying that, a loud bang was heard upstairs, so she waved them goodbye and rushed to find Cillian with the night stand lamp mid-air, ready to throw it against the crib, the changing station was already on the floor.

“Cillian stop! You’re not like this.” Taking the lamp in her hands, she placed it on the floor. Then, her hands were on his face. “This is not your fault, she played her game until guilt took over. But you won’t take back time by destroying everything.”

His arms went around her waist while he tried to suppress a loud sob, his legs gave in and Yael had to support his weight as they went down.

It was heartbreaking to see him crying like that, his shoulders were shaking, the sounds of his nose sniffing as he tried to control himself. Yael was holding him tight against her chest.

“It’s going to be alright.” She whispered not knowing when or how, she just wanted him to feel that she was there for him.

And she broke down in tears after feeling him crying, she wanted to be strong for him, but she couldn’t.

It felt as if the walls were closing around them.

What could she possibly say to Cillian to make him feel better?

Untangling his body from hers, he got up and without looking back he spoke: “I don’t want to see any of this tomorrow. Make sure it’s gone or I’ll throw it away.”

Still sitting on the floor, Yael looked around the room, she had put so much effort in every detail she used in Sean’s room, even though he wouldn’t be staying to sleep, she wanted to make the baby feel welcomed, that he had his own space, she had painted the walls in a beautiful baby blue color, hanged frames, hand painted some clouds and stars and used a gorgeous paper wall.

What about the photos she framed of little instants filled with love.

What she supposed to do with everything?

She would have to pretend that Sean never existed.

That baby had stolen her heart in an instant, every time Cillian was holding his son, he seemed to be the happiest man on earth.

Her phone was ringing downstairs, but she didn’t feel like dealing with anyone right now, instead she walked to the laundry room to get some boxes to start disassembling everything.

“Violet? I just wanted to ask you if you still need things for your baby?” She closed the box with all the blankets and clothes.

“How?”

“It’s practically unused, but I don’t have the original boxes. I have a car seat, pram, diapers, crib, well everything.”

“Yael…”

She heard her cousin breaking in tears. “What’s the matter Vi?”

“You’re an angel sent from heaven, Jan quit his job to start a business on his own and things aren’t working out, we’re so short of money right now and I still don’t have everything.” She could hear baby Noah crying in the background, he was about to turn three months soon, the last time she saw her cousin was at her wedding in March, she was still a few weeks away to give birth.

“Well, now you will have everything you need, we just need to figure out a way to move the furniture.”

“Jan knows someone that works at the ferry’s, let me ask him.”

“Fabulous! I’m going to pack everything for you.”

“Yael? Thank you, from the bottom of my heart I was going through a difficult path and you can’t even imagine how much this means to me.”

“Happy to help babe, I’ll take the boxes to the post office tomorrow.”

“Really I was doing the bloody diapers like grandma used to do made by cloth and washing them because I can’t afford the boxes.”

Yael had to laugh at that, thinking of the challenges her cousin must be going through.

“Well, now you’ll get a good amount of disposable diapers.”

“Thank you, you saved my life.”

Sighing after they hang up, Yael felt more emotional than before after learning that her cousin was short of money, but at least the things that belonged once to Sean would be used by someone who needed them. Everything was practically new, there was no use of throwing everything to the trash.

Looking around the room she had a lot of work to do and she needed to take her mind off that horrible moment, her heart couldn’t comprehend how someone could hold a lie for so long like Erin did.

But she was also worried about Cillian, he had been locked in the basement for hours, probably didn’t want any kind of company at the moment, nevertheless she prepared him a cup of tea.

Joining him downstairs, Yael couldn’t stop the heartache she felt when she looked into his eyes.

“Talk to me Cill?”

“What do you want me to say? She fucked me over.” His gaze was lost.

“No, don’t let this change your kind heart. You’re better than this.” She tried to make him feel better, while also trying to comfort herself.

How do you let go of someone who was never even yours anyways?

“I’d like to be alone.”

#cillian murphy.#c's fic recs.#series.

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