#erik brodreskift x reader

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erik “ grim ” brødreskift x reader

♡ general dating headcanons for erik!

୨୧ why are the cutest ones almost always dead? sucks… erik, may you do not so nice things to the angels! i feel like i am really getting used to writing for people with very little information available now lolol <3

♡ requested by anon | view my metal masterlists here and here

reading music recommendations: the eye of odin by borknagar - burn in his light by gorgoroth

♡ as anon themselves stated, i can see erik having quite a similar personality to pelle!

୨୧ obviously he would not the exact same but similar, i think he would be slightly quiet and shy, almost kind of awkward…

♡ but again, i think when erik is in a relationship with you, he will really open up quite a lot and talk to you much more about deeper, more personal topics as time goes on

୨୧ i think in this relationship, you will have to be the more mentally prepared one, you will have to be the protector and carer in some ways

♡ i think we all know about how bad his depression was and the many attempts to take his own life and it would probably just hurt you so much having to watch him go through it and not really be able to do much but stay by his side and love him

୨୧ of course you would try to convince him to go to therapy, to get professional help though i do not think it would fully get through to him…

♡ his suicide attempts would likely become very few and far between when he is dating you though, which is obviously an improvement! erik feels genuinely loved by you, he feels very loved and appreciated, i actually think he would develop a little bit of a fear of not having you with him in whatever life there is after death and that scares him off from trying to take his life as often as he used to because he just cannot imagine not having you by his side

୨୧ though there would also be the times where his manic depression gets the best of him and instead fills his head with delusions, making him think that it would be better for him to take his own life, then you would be released of the burden that he is to you and the biggest lie of them all being that you are only with him out of pity, you could just do so much better

♡ most likely, he will not tell you about these thoughts that float around in his head but you will probably find out about them by snooping though his notebook, a notebook where he writes things he feels like he has to get out

୨୧ you probably do not like snooping through it but i think you would kind of have to, just to know if he has any plans to do anything to himself

♡ when you read the thoughts he has about himself, you will confront him about it softly, likely just before bed when his mind is more at ease!

୨୧ erik probably will not even care all that much about the fact that you snooped through his notebook, the second you start shooting down his thoughts of being unworthy of you and such, he just completely crumbles…

♡ i can see erik being very emotional when it comes to you in general and your immense love for him, he just never feels worthy of it so when you speak so highly of him and tell him how much you love him? how much your life has changed for the better since he entered it? it gets him, he just crumbles in your arms as you whisper soft adoration and comforting words down towards him, gently brushing his long blonde hair with your fingers as he sobs

୨୧ i feel like erik would be one of those people who are incredibly shy and kind of embarrassed after they have cried, he will wipe his red eyes and sit up slightly in your arms, apologising as if him crying is just so pathetic and so stupid

“ sorry, ‘m sorry… so fucking stupid, you shouldn’t have to put up with this shit ” ( you are always quick to put your warm hands on his cold, still wet with tears, cheeks and hold his face in your hands, telling him you are not putting up with any type of shit and that you just love him )

♡ speaking of brushing his hair when cuddling, you brushing his hair is a very common love ritual between you guys

୨୧ sometimes when his depression gets real bad, his hygiene will drop a bit and he will acquire some knots in his hair or even just after a concert, his hair is messy and tangled from his wild movements and head banging

♡ it is always you who pulls him over to your side, sitting him down next to you as you get up to grab some conditioner and a brush

୨୧ before you, he just would not even bother trying to fix his hair or if he did, he would do it so harshly, purposely hurting himself and roughly pulling at the knots with a comb! however with you, it is much softer, he will lean back into you and let out a soft sigh as you begin to gently brush through his hair, warning him when it might hurt just a little… it is one of those things that proves your immense love for each other! his trust in you to touch him so intimately and your love in the gentle way you treat him… he is probably nodded off a couple times in the midst of you brushing his hair, the feeling of your fingers moving parts of his hair and massaging his scalp is the closest to heaven he has ever felt! you never wake him up, just cuddle him and wait for him to wake up

♡ honestly, erik just needs a lot of love and reassurance from you! it’s one of the few things that can actually get through to him quite a bit and make him wonder if maybe it is not his time to leave yet… only for you…

୨୧ you probably do teach him how to open his heart to more things in the world tough, things other than just you, of course his manic depression does not just disappear and never come back but he begins to improve a lot during a relationship with you

♡ he becomes much more generally gentle with his life, even almost appreciative of being alive sometimes because if he was not, he would not be in your arms, there would be no feeling of your soft lips pressing kisses to his head as he sleeps

୨୧ one thing that also serves as comfort to erik is of course, his drums!

♡ they were always one of the few things he never lost passion for during his depression episodes, before you they were always the only thing pulling him through and making him happy

୨୧ and they still do, now he just has you too! and erik absolutely loves playing his drums with you watching from the side or sat on his lap, your admiration means more than anyone elses to him, the way you kiss his corpse paint covered cheek before a concert? stroking his hand as you tell him he is gonna kick ass out there on the stage?

♡ it seems like such a small thing but it just makes him happy, he feels genuinely appreciated by you!

୨୧ due to him leaving or being removed from bands so often, i feel like he would not always have that constant support and appreciation from many people aside from you so please just damn near smother him in love and compliments… he really needs them to stay afloat…

♡ when he is not in a band, you are always getting him to play the drums for you! you absolutely refuse to let him fall into a deep depression again because you know it will be fuelled on by leaving yet another band

୨୧ he might be a little against it at first, his mind trying to force insecurities on him but when you persist, going to grab his drumsticks for him, he gives in very quickly and plays for you! giving a small, shy smile when you smother him in compliments and kisses, really trying to make him know just how amazing he is at playing, i think we all know how much of an underrated and under appreciated drummer he was

♡ erik really enjoys cuddling with you, it is just one of those things that makes him feel relaxed and almost completely at peace

୨୧ after a long day of band practice, all he wants to do is slip into bed with you, usually just wearing boxers and a t-shirt! he either rests his head atop your chest and drifts off as you stroke his blonde hair or he will slip behind you and be the big spoon! sometimes he really prefers being the big spoon, it makes him feel like he is protecting you from the world, shielding you from all possible pain

♡ though when erik big spoons, this will usually lead to some filthier things…

୨୧ such as cuddlefucking and cockwarming! cockwarming is another major comfort for erik! he loves just hoisting your leg over his waist and slipping his cock into your warm, welcoming cunt, letting out a deep moan as he does… he will either begin thrusting slowly and deeply into your cunt as he mumbles into your hair or he will not move at all, he will just settle his cock deep inside of you and stroke your waist as you both drift off to sleep, connected in the most intimate way

“ feels so good… so warm around me, love you so much… fuck! ” ( he loves praising you just as much as he loves receiving praise from you )

♡ erik does not smile much but when he does? they are almost always because of you, wether it just be thinking about you or actually sending a small, boyish smile your way when he sees you

୨୧ sometimes just seeing something that reminds him of you will manage to make a tiny smile crack through his usually solemn face, for instance, seeing your favourite flower on his way back from a band practice…

♡ he will awkwardly look around before crouching down to pluck the flower away from the long stem, gently shaking off some water droplets from the petals before pocketing it to give it to you when he gets home

୨୧ i mean, erik just does not have a whole lot of money at all so he cannot buy you as many gifts as he would like to so he does what he can with little things like that, maybe he has stolen some things for you before too but you do not need to know that they were stolen <3