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bsd ocs... from turkish authors... guys...

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Stina Heks headcanons?

oh, my dearest anon, so many

so, so, so many.

hehe

Stina is tall. She's tall. She's not super tall, but she's not medium. She's a candy bar you're sure is a king size, but is packaged as a "share size" so you're not really sure what's going on.

This girl has a tan undertone to her skin. Like, there's a definite warmth and tan there. I'm thinking she's got some Romani heritage, that got mushed around with her French Heritage a long, long, long time ago. Oh, yeah. For absolutely no reason, Stina's mother's side of the family is French. Like, they absorbed French language into the way they talk, they serve various French foods, they practice some French traditions. I don't know why this is, but it is. So. That's my Stina's Family Heritage headcanon.

Her favorite color is burgundy. Like, deep, dark, wine red. It matches her skin tone and hair tone and brings out her eyes. She loves it. She's got far too many dresses in that color.

She... doesn't think she's pretty. And not in like, a self-depricating, quirky girl, "oh, no, I'm not pretty, I wish I was pretty, and no boy will ever like me ;-;" kind of way. She thinks she's not pretty like she thinks her hair is brown. It's just a natural assessment of her features. Maybe she just hasn't met anyone who sees more than her appearences, yet, but when she looks in the mirror she sees flaws. Sharp lines, too many ovals, too much contrast, her eyes are too close together. Especially in a world of extremely beautiful elves, she looks at others, and then looks back to herself and thinks "Well. That's not how I look. Whatever."

Stina has never wanted to get married. Not ever. She doesn't see the appeal. She doesn't want to see the appeal. But, also, she hasn't ever wanted to be on the council. She's always wanted to live alone in her house and run down the hallways in her long skirts.

She's not liked, in school. She got painted in bully colors for a few years, and she's never been able to erase the pigments. It's stained her body, and she can't ever get it off. She's internalized the fact that she is mean, she is cruel, she is a pain to be around and a pain to be with. She's fine, she says, but she mostly keeps to herself.

Stina has a group of friends outside of our lovely Kotlc Roundup of Trauma Children, and she likes them more. Not that she should. She thinks good attributes in friends are things like "leaving her alone" and "brutal honesty" which is really just them not putting effort into the friendships and ragging on her a ton.

She used to be friends with Biana Vacker. Like, really good friends. And then Sophie showed up, wrenches got thrown in the works, and Biana stopped talking to her. She still, quietly, somewhere, holds onto some memories of when they were friends. She doesn't dwell on them often, but if she does, then you know it's been a rough day.

The person she likes the most currently out of all the people in the Trauma Children group is most definitely Tam. He's smart on his feet, calm in scary situations, and he's responsible. And, oddly enough, he doesn't seem to mind her prescence. She finds that very odd of him, and also rather respectable.

Stina is a very skilled empath. She's really strong, with her powers, and can sometimes read people without touching them. It's kinda impressive, and Keefe wondered, to her face, once, if she'd ever accidentally drank Sophie's blood. Stina had punched him in the arm so hard he'd stopped laughing to wince.

MISS GIRL IS A HORSE GIRL. SHE HAS BOOKS UPON BOOKS UPON BOOKS. SOME OF THEM ARE IN DIFFERENT LANGUAGES. SOME OF THEM ARE BY HUMAN AUTHORS. SOME OF THEM ARE BY GOBLINS. OTHERS ARE BY GNOMES. However, that's all that's left, in her Level 8 girl bedroom. Her posters have long been taken down, and there's a painting of a horse in the closet. She's got a pair of horse riding boots, and she can do tricks. She's absolutely fantastic.

Slytherin. So Slytherin she makes Draco Malfoy look like an absolute muffinhead. She makes Lord Voldemort look kindhearted. She can make Bellatrix Lestrange look sane. She can make Salazar himself seem unambitious. She is snakes and silence and the quiet drip of water from a faucet onto a marble floor.

She doesn't really listen to much music. And Certainly Not Human Music. But if she did, she'd 100% be a billie eilish stan. Like, yeah. She'd listen to "When We All Fall Asleep Where Do We Go" on repeat. She'd listen to COPYCAT late into the night. Yeah.

She processes things by being angry. So angry. All the time. She's so angry. The angrier she is, the less she can feel the badness. If all that's left is blistering anger, there's nothing she can feel besides it.

Half of her motives are spite. She does things out of spite just because she likes the look on your face.

All in all, Stina's a mess, but she's so well put together that no one would notice. She is everything you want to be, on the outside, but nothing on the inside is anything you'd ever want to touch. She's internally tangled in knots. But she looks like a cleanly wrapped ball of yarn. And that's all that everyone, including her parents and friends, see.

Anyway! Hope you enjoyed!

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Things I need to touch on from Restore Me Pt. 2

I said that i would probs come up with more and make a part 2 and here i am lmao let’s gooooo

- Warner speaks seven languages??? omg yasss. like i already knew that warner was very intelligent but SEVEN??? dang. kinda makes me wonder what kind of education he got when he was younger. i. need. to. know. 

- Juliette’s diary entries are back. I think i have a relatively good idea as to why Tahereh did this, to embellish on Juliette’s ever-changing character and development. it’s smart and an efficient way of connecting the new books to the old ones but idk how i feel about it. honestly I feel like juliette is headed down a dark path and I’m lowkey scared for her. 

- speaking of which, I feel like Juliette really has the potential for a villian arc. I don’t know, with the way Tahereh is growing and changing her character, and the obvious prescence of her darker side, I feel like she definitely has potential. And this might sound bad but I lowkey want to see it happen. At the same time, I don’t want my bby to go evil and be bad but at the same time it would be kind of interesting to watch occur. idk don’t judge

- the ending. that cliffhanger. she got kidnapped by her parents. like are they going to be kind to her or cruel?? is Juliette gonna be okay? how is she going to cope? and how is warner going to cope back home??!?!? he really cares about juliette (their breakup literally gave him a panic attack) and idk I’m really worried how this is going to affect him

- Warner’s ex. I don’t like calling other girls names (just a personal belief) but I will proudly say that she is a bitch. like I don’t have time for her and neiTHER DOES JULIETTE LMAO. the whole “you can call me the supreme commander of North America” thing had me dead. 

- Nazeera. She has me confused. I don’t really know how I feel about her. She seems like a really supportive and good wholesome character who is totally badass and a great influence on Juliette (not to mention a female friend). But it just seems too good to be true, you know? also, she’s got this whole mysterious aura about her, so what am I supposed to think?

- Anderson’s death. I also have mixed feelings about this. while I’m glad that asshole is dead, I’m worried about Warner. We see him in the book having conflicting feelings about this and I can really understand how that feels. I’m glad that Anderson is dead but I just hope Warner can learn to accept the part of himself that does, in fact, miss his father even after everything he did.

- okay so before restore me came out, there was this whole debate about whether Warner was a virgin or not at the time of Chapter 55. And while I’d like to believe he wasn’t because that’s what I originally thought and I don’t want to change that, I think differently now. I mean, he DID have an ex-girlfriend, and he DID say that things between them were “purely physical.” Plus, from Chapter 62 and 55 and all the other ones in Ignite Me, he seems too experienced. He had to have had practice at some point

- Warner knows how fly helicopters? well I guess you learn something new every day

- before the book came out, we were also told that someone else would see Warner’s scars besides Juliette. I, along with many others, was betting my money on Kenji because of the bromance I saw forming at the end of Ignite Me that also continued on in Restore Me. I kinda saw it coming so it wasn’t much of a shock to me but I’m really glad it happened. It definitely brings them closer as well as gives Kenji an insight into Warner’s true character and why he is the “psychopath” he thinks he is. It adds a deeper understanding between the two of them, I think

- lowkey mad at Tahereh for not letting the fandom live on in blissful peace with the end of Ignite Me but it’S FINE I GUESS

- I love that Kenji is flirting in this book. I love that Tahereh says he’ll get a love interest in a later book. He’s always talking about how hot is and I think he needs to put that to some good use. Plus I feel bad for him always third wheeling with warnette lol

- drunk Juliette. I have no other words

- LOOPY WARNER IS OFFICIALLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE WARNERS

- I’m annoyed because someone shot Juliette with a poisoned bullet and it’s this huge thing for like two chapters but then Tahereh just forgets about it and never brings it up again. Like what???? leaving us in the dark like this smh

- who was the person that changed Ella’s name to Juliette and why didn’t they change Emmaline’s too? like ummm what is the reasoning behind that??

- who is on what side? I don’t know many of the characters motives and I’m almost certain that that’s intentional to add depth and mystery and suspense to the book but IDK MAN I DON’T LIKE NOT KNOWING WHAT’S GOING ON. I need to know everyone’s ulterior motives stAT

- why does Warner not consider any of the other commanders’ children friends? like yes true, many of them are assholes/untrustworthy but still. I feel like I’m missing something here???

- Why did Warner not remember Juliette/Ella from his childhood? like I get she’s several years older but you can always see the “childhood face” in someone. like their eyes and nose don’t change. Their face stays the same. Idk I feel like Warner would notice that, I mean, after all he is a very intelligent guy. Did someone erase his memories like Juliette’s??

- this one is a pretty obvious question but like............ who lived and who died at the end. pls someone confirm

- it said that a couple people were being dragged away and warner was being cuffed? like were they kidnapped too or just arrested and put into custody or something?

I think this is my last page of “things i need to touch on��. so I’ll give my overall review of the book. 

Overall, I did not like it. I was utterly disappointed, actually. The title has such a positive connotation and gives you the idea that good things will happen in this book, but no. Also, it feels like a bridge book and I’m not a fan of bridge books. Like it’s just a giant information dump and nothing really happens. It doesn’t feel like it’s the same series anymore. Her writing has changed and in my opinion not for the better. many other people have said that they didn’t like this book either and I completely agree. it’s not that good.