#entries talking abt things that happened to her. nightmares she's had. how she feels abt ppl she meets. random thoughts even

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What if I made Rue's journal

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ALRIGHT ACTUALLY TALKING ABOUT MY REVERSE AU FOR ONCE LETS GET IT

this is only like.... part 1 of this btw

note: see end of post for au terminology

percy <--> thade

percy: is not referred to by his actual name, in fear that speaking it will summon him or bring some sort of bad omen onto a crew or town, so he’s mostly referred to as “the darkness that sees”, or just dark for short. during the destruction of the tarantula crew he was knocked into a false door* and spent a few years stuck in the in between*. he wasn’t.... really the same after he came back (which is... rare, because people never come back from there) and that’s when he began to steal others eyes (as opposed to stealing skin). in short he’s... manipulative, he spends weeks- months maybe gaining his victim’s trust before taking their eyes, he acts like some sort of messiah figure that can help them forget about terrible things they’ve seen, and ensures that they’ll never have to see anything terrible again (or anything, for that matter). he doesn’t actually care about them, though. if anything the only people he actually cares for are janice and rory. maybe

thade: honestly not much changes of him asides basically just staying the same pre tarantula crew besides becoming 100% more tired and traumatized. him and horace become bros when he ends up breaking into his library in the middle of the night and passing out on top of one of the bookshelves. thade becomes his apprentice for a while (horace is still a sorcerer in this au, but not like how he is in canon) and gets taught a lot of cool stuff, until they decide to leave for the sea to travel to harpis* to find a scroll that horace was missing, but ended up getting shipwrecked and picked up by milo and the rest of the laughingstock crew. he just needs a break, or to scream into the void for a solid hour. he is VERY sarcastic and blunt with anyone he comes across, and often disregards others’ feelings on matters or opinions. once he gets to known people he softens up a bit, and will subtly show them signs that he cares

janice <--> horace

janice: ah yes. chaotic evil incarnate. instead of being picked up by the laughingstock crew she was picked up by dark, who was... less than thrilled to be burdened with a human child. janice was even less than thrilled to get stuck with some “lame-o eye monster”, but after a trip into town which turned into Crime Time as well as dark, who had happened to decide to target the same town that day. they ended up raising hell together and now they are chaos siblings. she’s a lot more unpredictable and spontaneous, and doesn’t bottle up her feelings as much as her canon counterpart. she often acts like she doesn’t need anyone, and gets mad whenever people try to help or comfort her, but usually after she has a meltdown she goes find dark or rory to sob on them.

horace: like i said before, instead of a ringleader he’s an archiver, tasked with keeping a record of all of the known spells in the candle cove region. uh... a lot of it was already explained in thade’s entry, about meeting him when he broke into the library and him teaching Thade some spells and then getting shipwrecked and picked up by milo and co when traveling to harpis. yknow. anyways he’s generally much less confident and much more skittish and meek, opting to ditch people rather than engage in conflict. his loyalty is VERY questionable and he’s easy to bribe. however he has a passion for knowledge and loves teaching it to people he deems worthy enough to inherit it.

poppy <--> milo

poppy: in this au he still goes by his real name (which is rory), as well as being part of the nphc. he wasn’t really... thrilled with it? truth be told it was milo’s idea, and he ended up ditching him at the last minute so he ended up being alone. however he ended up straying away when he got in trouble for letting a pirate go, a particularly wanted one (hint hint, it was dark) and ended up just crew hopping for a while. none of them lasted though, because he would get power hungry, overthrow the captain in some way, declare himself captain and then a week later decide that it was too much responsibility for him, appoint someone else as captain at random. rinse and repeat. the cycle only broke when milo ended up finding him and taking him aboard the laughingstock (basically this au is just milo adopting everyone into his crew and generally being a dad), until his rivalry with thade got WAY out of hand and he joined dark. rory himself is constantly changing between being overly dependent on people and being completely independent and shutting himself away from others. he generally alienates himself from people, but when he does end up finding someone he thinks his worth his time he becomes completely devoted to them. he’s unpredictable, in short

milo: okay i already talked about him in some of the other entries so ill keep this one short and cover only the stuff i havent talked abt yet. milo, as you might have guessed, is the captain of the laughingstock crew. he’s... generally a very benevolent entity. in constraint to rory, who seems like he knows what he’s doing but is a complete mess, milo runs on orderly chaos; where everyone thinks everything is constantly falling apart around him but he’s actually doing just fine. he might think too fondly of people, and dish out second chances too easily, but if needed he can be a rather firm captain. this man is literally able to befriend anyone, he’s like... the type of person you meet at a tavern when you are feeling absolutely miserable and they just appear out of nowhere and after talking to them for a bit you feel better and you think about them for YEARS afterwards. he’s just a dad And a friend!

false door: a static portal that can send one to the in between, can appear anywhere at random both in the real world and candle cove

the in between: a world between irl and candle cove, basically a nightmare dimension

harpis: a small island off of the mainland, has a long history of sorcerers or other magic users living there

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Luke/Tori for the ship ask please?

thanks for being so patient! i got carried away and then stuck bc i got carried away lol and i’ve also just been busy bc grad school lmao ;_;

here it is finally! under a cut as per my yuzh

who hogs the duvet

luke, bc he’s just a cold human being. lol not like in his heart or soul, but his body runs colder than most, so he’s chilled like all the time

if he’s not acting like an octopus, he’s hogging the duvet. tori doesn’t mind a whole bunch, since she runs warm (thanks apollo), but sometimes, on really cold nights (heating is so expensive and if they can keep it off, they will), it’s v annoying so she’ll forcefully pull the duvet back, which forces luke to turn into an octopus

who texts/rings to check how their day is going

i’d say tori is. she worries a lot abt luke, esp bc he can kinda hole up inside his mind when he’s having a tough time

those little text alert noises and rings are actually quite comforting for luke. he appreciate them a lot, which he’d never say out loud, but he doesn’t need to since they can read each other pretty well

who’s the most creative when it comes to gifts

you might be surprised, but luke actually is. it comes from his creativity for pranks

who gets up first in the morning

tori does! thanks apollo, but only during the summer lmao

it’s super bad in the summer too, bc the days are longer and it gets light around 4 or 5 in the morning lol

but tori generally gets up with the sun (thanks apollo), so during the winter she gets up later than in the summer and luke is generally up before her

who suggests new things in bed

i mean, honestly both of them do!

tori does more often, but luke will if it’s been a long day, and an even longer night bc either/or both of them can’t sleep bc of nightmares or what have you

wait, i’m just realizing this might be a sexual question??? lmao, i read it like one of those philosophical talks you have with your best friend at sleepovers at 3am (same energy anyway)

well, if it is a sexual question (i’m honestly not sure, my ace brain is seriously just That ace), i would say neither of them, honestly

like they’ve been through so much in their lives. role-play doesn’t do it for them. tori hates being held down/restrained, and they’ve both incurred enough injuries from monsters for a lifetime so bdsm is also out

they’re also both tops, so that complicates things sometimes, but “““““vanilla””””” sex is fine for them

who cries at movies

lol tori does. no question.

who gives unprompted massages

luke, for sure. and tori loves it

but tori will sometimes do so if she sees luke’s stressed and tense

who fusses over the other when they’re sick

totes luke, he turns in to like a mother hen (but don’t tell him i told you that) and worries over tori whenever she gets sick

obvi tori takes care of luke when he’s sick, but luke’s the one to really go those extra 500 miles

who gets jealous easiest

lmao, can’t choose on that one bc both of them get supremely jealous

it doesn’t help that luke is bi and tori is biromantic, so anyone is technically fair game and they’re both very good-looking ppl

who has the most embarrassing taste in music

tori! she’s a hopeless romantic, and so like all those cheesy, gooey love songs and will listen to them all day every day

and i mean i wouldn’t strictly classify that as “embarrassing” per se, but that’s the best answer i have for ya

who collects something unusual

hmmm, luke.

you could argue most things are “unusual” to collect, but luke collects journals filled with entries. like he fell out of it after thalia, and then that whole thing happened with kronos lol, but after that (this is the everybody lives!au if you couldn’t tell) he picks it back up again

so he just has stacks of journals, all filled, many from tori–its therapeutic and he finds it’s something he actually quite enjoys. in the quiet of his shared bedroom with tori, of course

who takes the longest to get ready

not really either of them. i mean, i guess tori just bc if she wants to do something with her hair, it takes longer

but tori doesn’t wear a lot of makeup to begin with, and just as well she doesn’t have to try That hard to look nice (thanks apollo)

luke is already good-looking, and even tho he doesn’t have any divine blessing, he doesn’t have to do a lot to look good either

who is the most tidy and organised

luke, he hates clutter

he can’t think, and it only reminds him of the crowded hermes cabin

who gets most excited about the holidays

tori, bc she’s making up for all she missed out in childhood

luke indulges her bc he’s secretly making up for all he missed out in childhood, but he often doesn’t like expressing he’s excited for the holidays, except for quietly when he’s in the privacy of his and tori’s apt. he doesn’t mind showing tori how much he’s enjoying himself

who is the big spoon/little spoon

they switch constantly

tori loves being the little spoon, but so does luke. even if tori is kinda tiny lol

when it’s cold at night and luke is hogging the blankets but tori is still warm enough, but her nose gets cold, she’ll roll over and press her nose into luke’s back to share what little warmth he can give her. he’ll often reach back for her arm and she’ll put it around him, lacing her fingers with his, letting her hand rest against his chest, where his heart is

more often then not tho, tori is the little spoon bc luke has turned into an octopus seeking warmth at night

who gets most competitive when playing games and/or sports

like the jealousy thing, they both do

you don’t want them on opposite sides

likewise, you don’t want them together, bc they’ll pulverize you

so it’s really lose-lose either way

who starts the most arguments

oh man, i mean i guess both of them

they’re both worried abt each other’s safety, so that’s mostly what they argue abt

tori probably starts them a little more often, if only bc luke often jumps in front of her when they’re in danger just out instinct and before tori can jump in front of him, which annoys her

not just bc she can take care of herself, but also bc luke does so with reckless abandon and she doesn’t like that he could potentially be wounded/hurt/killed bc he was protecting her

who suggests that they buy a pet

tori, but only bc they were passing a pet shop one day and she noticed luke’s eyes lingering on one of the kittens inside that had taken a liking to luke

it was december, so v cold. and they were on their way back to their apt when they passed a pet shop

and as they’re passing, one of the kittens leaps up and paws at the window, following the couple as they continue pass

this catches luke’s attention, and he finds the little kitten’s persistence endearing as they walk past

the kitten’s also meowing, but obvi they can’t hear it. luke can see it tho bc its little mouth keeps moving

even tho luke insists it’s okay if they don’t get the kitten, tori drags him inside anyway and they go to the pen, and the little kitten is waiting for them on the other side

it’s a calico and it’s not until they’re inside that they notice this little kitten’s eye is injured on its right side (bc of glare from the window outside)

luke is only able to stare, too in shock to really move or think, but tori picks up the mewling ball of fluff and coos at it. then she holds it out for luke to take. and he’s hesitant at first, bc its so small and fragile, but tori gently coaxes it into his arms. and he rests it on his shoulder and it falls asleep, the precious bby

luke panics at that, though, bc he doesn’t know what to do lol. tori is not help, she just laughs and smiles at him

one of the workers goes over to them then and says that injured animals are always tough to sell, so tori, of course, immediately says they’ll buy this kitten

anyway, her official name is jiji, but her nickname is kitty bc that’s what luke referred to her as when they first brought her home and it kinda stuck.

what couple traditions they have

idk if this qualifies as a “tradition” per se, but, since we’re in the everyone lives!au, this is also the au where luke surprises tori with a song for her b-day one yr

and so after that their “i love you” turns into, “did i mention?”

after long days/after a monster attack while they’re out trying to be normal, and after they’ve cleaned up and are relaxing in bed, they’ll softly sing duets together (since luke can sing now lol; also from linked post). but tori’s still trying to get luke to sing a duet with her in public, to no avail so far

i’ve mentioned before that they like to shower together (again it’s not ever sexual), it’s more meditative and still v much intimate

again, not exactly a tradition, but sometimes if tori’s having trouble sleeping/it’s a particularly bad night regarding nightmares, luke will softly sing to her (most of the time, “did i mention” bc he knows how happy it makes her)

valentines day is a BIG thing. and it feels so cliche for me to say, but tori LOVES that holiday and luke would do anything for that woman. so he’ll do as much cheesy, romantic stuff as he can and that he’s gleaned from movies (and like actually romantic stuff, not the White™ version of romance where the man stalks/forces the woman’s hand)

i mean most of the big holidays–valentines, halloween, christmas and new yrs are p big things in the williams-castellan household

most of the time, they spend it alone together (lol if that makes sense) like the week or day before, they’ll go out with friends and what family they have left lmao i made myself sad ;_; but on the day of, they’ll spend it together in the comfort of their apt bc going out is too overwhelming for both of them

every sunday, they’ll bake together and every monday, they’ll make a meal together. it helps them enjoy the end of their weekend and the beginning of a new work-week more, being able to spend that time together and looking forward to it at the end of those dreaded mondays

what tv shows they watch together

adult cartoons like bob’s burgers, rick & morty, and futurama

episodic comedies like parks & rec, the office, b99, and scrubs

they’ll sometimes chance it with crime procedurals and the like, but if the show gets too heavy, they’ll stop and not really go back bc they’ve dealt with enough

same goes for sci-fi/fantasy shows (tho they chance these even less bc they deal with enough mythology shit just being demigods)

what other couple they hang out with

they’ll sometimes hang out with like percy and annabeth (and maybe the other couples from the seven JASON IS STILL ALIVE I SAID EVERYONE LIVES!AU + nico and will, etc.), but it’s more in a mentor kind of way, since luke and tori are so much older than all of them. they’re good to go to for advice abt relationships, and also life in general

i like to think they are able to make friends with couples their age through places like the waystation that are hidden throughout the mortal world, but they’re wary abt new ppl bc they’ve had so many bad experiences, just in general (not necessarily with ppl)

so if you do manage to become a friend and they ask you to go on a double date with them with your partner, it’s ride or die for them (and it better be mutual)

how they spend time together as a couple

quiet nights in, mundane date nights out–anything a normal couple would do bc they’ve been through enough already, they don’t need more excitement/trauma

that, of course, doesn’t stop monsters from attacking them when they go out. but after a battle, they’ll go home, clean up, and cuddle on the bed with lofi music playing in the background and scented candles lit around the room

who made the first move

tori did regarding their private confirmation of being in a relationship since she’s demi, and she’d told luke so. he didn’t want to push her into anything she was uncomfortable with, esp if her feelings stayed platonic/friendly, so he let her take the reins

luke did regarding their public confirmation of being in a relationship when he asked her to the fireworks show

who brings flowers home

luke does bc he knows tori likes it when he does romantic things she’s seen in movies

who is the best cook

neither really, since they didn’t exactly grow up in traditional homes

but a few years after the war and of living together, tori decides to take classes on mexican cuisine to reconnect a little more with her roots and her mom. luke joins her, obvi, bc he cares and love her duh

tori’s the better cook tho; luke likes to bake

thanks again for being patient! as it always is, i enjoyed writing abt my loves

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Character Analysis- Monologue Character: Mounette The Play: Who Will Carry the Word? Author:  Charlotte Delbo

1) Where were you just before the monologue begins? What were you doing?  

 Before the monolgue begins and what leads up to this is, that Mounette (my character) has been staying at an Auschwitz Concentration Camp and was taken away from her family because she was Jewish. Prior to arriving at the camp, she lived with her family, some of which had died in gas chambers. Up to the moment of this monologue, Mounette, for weeks, has been imprisoned at this concentration camp, and made to carry bricks, to dig mud in the swamps, and is guarded by vicious guards and dogs, among other horrors. In this monologue, she is talking about her nightmares, because every night she cannot sleep. The setting of this monologue is, Mounette is in the sleeping chambers and everyone is asleep around her while she is awake terrified to sleep.  In the monologue she is sitting talking about her nightmares, all of which are about the horrors she faces everyday. Such as, the vicious guard dogs, how she is forced to carry bricks, her fear of drowning in the mud, and lastly how hopeless she feels at this point and is struggling to remember her own mother's face, the one thing that motivates her to continue going.

2) Who are you talking to and what is our relationship to them?    

In this monologue I am talking to myself trying to recall all of the reocurring nightmares in order to ease the pain of these dreams so that I can sleep. I also think that my character is trying to comprehend herself about how she feels about these nightmares, and trying to express her feelings in order to ease herself and so that she can go to sleep more peacefully. My relationship with myself I feel is very poor, because my character continuously expresses how hopeless and terrified she feels. My character does not even trust herself to go to sleep, for the fear of having a nightmare, she also feels so hopeless and afraid that in order to feel better and to ease the pain she feels that she has to die. The most horrible dream that Mounette has is the one of her Mother. In her dream she does the one thing that she has been wishing that she could do for so long. She comes home. But in her dream, her mother doesn't turn around. Her mother doesn't recongnize her. At this moment, Mounette has lost the one thing that keeps her going: her mother. Now Mounette has lost all hope and just wants to die and get out of this horrible nightmare that is her life.                                                                                                                                                             Mounette's relationship with herself in this monologue honestly adds so much depth to it. It really shows the toll the nightmares have been having on her and the stress that she has been put onto her because others are pushing her to keep going, just for the slight chance of her making it so that she can spread the word of what her and the other prisoners were put through; The humiliation, the barbarity, and the inhumane treatment that they were given that completely stripped them of all pride, self worth and humanity that they had.

3) How do you feel about that person? Why?    

The way Mounette feels about herself is that she is worthless. The monologue tells how worthless she feels because her future is unknown (whether she live until the end of the war, or not) and she feels that her mother has forgotten about her in a sense. She feels as if she has no control over herself or her life. The way Mounette feels about herself is clearly portrayed throughout the play and the monologue. She has so much anxiety that her dreams are about drowning in mud and getting pinned down by vicious and deadly dogs. Mounette's self image right now is very low and she views herself as if she is just indifferent to everyone and that she will die anyway. At this point in the monologue, Mounette feels forgotten and unloved. She is terrified that if and when she comes home her mother will not recongnize her and that she will live the rest of her life, however long that will be, unloved. Right now all she wants to do is die.

4) How does the character feel at the beginning of the monologue? Why?    

At the beginning of the monologue my character feels terrified and hopeless. The reason why she feels afraid is because she has been having recourring nightmares about horrible things she has to face everyday and they won't stop. In a sense, she is literally living her nighmares. In my monologue, Mounette has four specific dreams that have been occuring: being forced to carry bricks that are so unimaginably cold that it burns her hands, getting attacked by enormous bloodthirsy dogs, drowning in mud, and lastly the most terrifying dream, finally being able to come home to her mother but her mother doesn't turn around to recongnize Mounette. The last dream has brought Mounette to feel hopeless and has brought her to loose her will to live. The reason being, is because the one thing that has driven Mounette to keep going is the chance that she will be reunited with her mother again, but if she no longer believes that will happen then she will feel as if she has lost all hope.                                                                                                                                Mounette feels afraid because she fears that as soon as she falls asleep, the nightmares will start again, but she knows that she has to go to sleep, otherwise she won't live to see the next day. But, Mounette is afraid of her own mind. She's afraid of what she will dream next. 'Will it be the dogs? the mud?' She's afraid of what she will bring herself to think next.

5) Why does this monologue have to take place NOW?    

The reason why this monologue has to take place now is because it's the ideal moment for Mounette to express how she feels. At this moment Mounette is terrified to sleep. Therefore, because she will not sleep, it's the perfect moment to have a recollection of her thoughts, reasoning, and emotions. At this point, Mounette feels hopeless. All she wants to do is to give up. A more lighthearted analogy of Mounette to something else is a depressed or stereotypical emo teenager archetype. Mounette is a character who has lost the will to live and she is one of the younger characters in the play about 15 to 18, so if we compare her to the sterotypical emo/ depressed teenager archetype you will understand that this sterotype is associated with writing a lot of diary entrees about deep and depressing topics; And since we can assume that Mounette doesn't have a pen and paper this monologue can be a lot like a diary entry. Just explaining her feelings and emotions about how she feels towards her nightmares.

ANYWAYS! this is just a small snippet of my character analysis for my character Mounette in the play “Who Will Carry the Word?” 

Thank you SO much for reading my bbs! ilysm, your all so beautiful! also I rlly recommend this play. it’s rlly eye opening abt the personal views of those who acutally experienced the holocaust. it is very depressing tho because these people were REAL PEOPLE who actually experienced hell and went through hell and back and some died trying. a great thing abt this play is that characters are ALL women so it really shows how much a woman can endure even tho it was a time when feminism wasnt even rlly a thing yet. it wan an unknown concept yet it was still at work.