#enma's arc deserved to be animated

[losyash]

SHIMON ARC: Hibari to Tsuna

Recently I've been liveblogging my Shimon arc reread to my friends.

On chapter 323 one of them said they always wondered if the headband being there meant something. And yes, curtains might be blue because it's a nice color. But no. No, curtains being blue is incredibly goddamn important.

HEAR ME OUT

First, to recap what is happening: Shimon arc, pre Adelheid vs Hibari battle they briefly argue about Tsuna and Enma and decide on their pride and the rules of the battle: to seize each other's handband. Adelheid creates an ice prison that is impossible to penetrate from outside and 500 ice clones to fight Hibari. He fights them all, tells Adelheid she is wrong about Enma and small animals (which i will talk about later) and uses minirolls to crush the ice fort from the inside. After this he gets her handband, they talk about Tsuna again and Hibari drops his "it is because of the sky the cloud can float freely" thing.

Before I delve into it, however, I feel like I should take a quick dive in Tsuna-Hibari relationship from Hibari's perspective.

To put it simply, at first Hibari does not give a single fuck about Tsuna personally. Even after this glorious scene happens

All Hibari thinks about that day is that he wants to meet Reborn again. During the course of Daily life arc however Hibari messes with him plenty. Ny the time 43rd chapter (sakura viewing) rolls around, Hibari's opinion on Tsuna is summarized by this:

And this is actually the key. Hibari does not understand Tsuna. To him Tsuna is some weird ass alien creature who does not fit his rigid worldview. At first Hibari tries to make him make sense again by asserting himself over Tsuna and putting him back to the role of herbivore which he does follow every time except when he doesn't?? For some reason?????

Kokuyo arc is the arc that changed the manga tone in general but it's also the arc that changed Hibari himself. He is brutally shown that he as he is does not have the power to do whatever he wants. Something has to change. And Hibari seeks that change in Tsuna, who somehow managed to defeat Mukuro when Hibari himself failed.

chapter 123, cloud battle aftermath

He stops trying to still Tsuna. Instead he wants now to understand what the fuck is up about him and what can he do. The answer is Tsuna can burn a man alive in a fit of rage btw.

BUT THE THING IS. THE THING IS EVENTUALLY HE DOES UNDERSTAND TSUNA. AND THIS LEADS US TO TAKE A LIL BREAK FOR THE PRIDE TALK

Now, the obvious thing: headband symbolizes Hibari's pride.

Here is what he says, when first asked about it:

But also Hibari vs Adelheid battle is the one that finally clears up what the hell does "pride" mean.

The thing is. What Hibari is saying (and what he tried to make Tsuna understand, because the whole battle here his two goals are to win (duh) and to help Tsuna find his conviction again) is that the actual meaning of "What is your pride?" is "What makes you yourself?". You, as a person, should be proud of who you are. And he tells Tsuna, that it is whatever he cannot give up, whatever makes the very core of Tsuna's self is what he should fight for (And then Tsuna tells Enma "You are my pride" which is very juicy but deserves its own post).

Okay, now with this out of the way, let's get to the next thing:

Hibari vs Adelheid (but not the violent edition)

Hibari and Adelheid are not only fighting, they are also talking to each other. And by talking I mean arguing. About Tsuna and Enma and little animals.

Here is important thing to note first: asking around some people who know some people who know japanese gave me information that actually "small animal" is. Not different from herbivore at all. They are apparently used intechangingly based on how much space speechbubble has.

This does affect things: when it is usually thought that Tsuna in Hibari's eyes carves a new category for himself, not worth calling by name nor insulting nickname, nor he can be classified as a simple herbivore, he is just his own thing. Instead it seems like Tsuna changed Hibari's opinion on entire population of herbivores-small animals. (and if those people just got me confused ill die of shame (;-;)b)

ANYWAY, THEIR DEBATE

yes i had to put it all here. it's good. read it.

Do you see it guys? Do you see how far he came from daily life? He now really does understand Tsuna. He cracked the code. And he does now acknowledge that yeah Tsuna (and by extention other ppl like him. Like Enma) has his own way to live life and it does work for him. Tsuna is not weak. Being a herbivore does not automatically mean being weak.

Another interesting thing here is this:

"Why is a man like you with the likes of Sawada Tsunayoshi?"

"I'm not with him"

And I think it's important to remember here that Adelheid does see Tsuna=Vongola boss thing. To Tsuna it's Him and His Friends against Enma and His Friends. To her? It's Vongola vs Shimon

And when she talks to Hibari about Tsuna, she is saying "Why are you with Sawada Tsunayoshi?" but what she means is "Why are you with Vongola?" and this difference does impact Hibari's answer. Case in point:

I DON'T LIKE THE WAY YOU SAID THAT... WELL... TRUE ENOUGH.

BUT WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO BE CLOUD GUARDIAN OF THE VONGOLA'S SKY? ACCORDING TO WIKI, THIS:

A drifting Cloud, whom cannot be bound. Protecting the famiglia from an independent standpoint.

AND SO

I am sorry, I am very normal about this, promise.

And so Hibari basically admits that he will not be bound to Tsuna, but he will be around, involving himself when he feels like it. They're friends your honor.

BUT THERE IS MORE.

The attribute of the cloud flames is propagation. Why is it relevant?

this is the hype up text at the end of chapter 322.

and this is the last page of chapter 323.

Remember i briefly mentioned Hibari stagnating in daily life arc and realizing that there must be something more during Kokuyo arc? He found it. Tsuna is the one who gave him this opportunity. Just being around Tsuna allowed Hibari to grow. To propaga- Okay, that does sound silly. But I think the point still stands. Tsuna gave Hibari space to grow, and frankly, Hibari is grateful for that.

now we are entering the deranged territory

Hibari watched Tsuna grow all during the course of the manga and at some point Tsuna DID outgrow him. Not psychologically, but powerwise? Def. And Hibari cannot be not aware of that.

You might ask, how is he okay with that, but the thing is, Hibari is actually very chill with not being the strongest person in the room. What he actually needs is people to respect him and his authority as Disciplinary Committee chairman and Namimori protector. Reborn respects it and is stronger than him. Does Hibari want to fight him? Yes. But he is not actually going out of his way to attack him.

Tsuna has a great deal of respect for Hibari, and in turn Hibari does not feel the same hostility to him he does towards Mukuro despite Tsuna being totally able to win against him in a fight. Once again, rip Byakuran.

BUT. HIBARI IS NOT GOING TO STOP GROWING ANYMORE. HE LEARNED HIS LESSON, HE IS NOW ENDLESSLY EVOLVING OR SOME SHIT.

AND

WHAT I AM SAYING IS

HE IS NOT ONLY NOT GOING TO STOP HELPING TSUNA TO BE BETTER BUT HE ALSO IS GOING TO USE TSUNA AS BENCHMARK

NOT AS SOMEONE TO BE LIKE. BUT SOMEONE TO BE BETTER THAN

THE PRIDE AS SYMBOL OF SELF AND AND THE BAND AS SYMBOL OF PRIDE

AND DISCIPLINE BEING THE KEY TO BETTERMENT OF SELF

HE DECLARES TSUNA BOTH HIS FRIEND AND HIS RIVAL THATS WHAT THE BLUE CURTAINS MEAN I REST MY CASE

[hopeswriting]

[ID: Panels from the manga Katekyo Hitman Reborn, showing Hibari Kyoya and Adelheid Suzuki.

Adel says "Enma is not a weak, small animal. He is a strong man who carries the sorrows of the Simon on his shoulders!"

To which Hibari says "No. Small animals... burden themselves, taking on things that aren't fit for them--that's why they cry out for help." /End ID]

so interesting that this is what being a "small animal" means to him. and of course that he calls tsuna that. and even if in the panel right before these ones he says "i'm not with him", he so clearly is and has been for a long time now, and it's precisely because he sees tsuna as a small animal. sees him taking on more than he can bear, and so he takes part of that burden to bear himself so it won't crush him. hears him crying out for help and doesn't look away, doesn't act as if he didn't hear it. answers his call.

because that's what the strongs do, right? that's something only the strongs can afford to do, and so it makes it their responsibility to do it. and also because he can't let tsuna be crushed by all that weight on his shoulders before he reaches the full potential he sees in him, before he finds fangs of his own (< or whatever the exact phrasing he used during the varia arc was lol, you know the line i'm talking about).

and originally that's all this post was going to be about, but look at what he said then i didn't remember him saying:

[ID: More panels from the manga. Hibari says to Adel, in between fighting her "There's one thing you are mistaken about. Sometimes, small animals are not just weak creatures. If they were, then they would've already been wiped out from the face of the earth. Small animals have... their own way of surviving." /End ID]

i love being right, hello. did we all just read the same thing??

because to hibari small animals are people in the process of finding their strength, of owning it, of sharpening it. people who are weak still, but are already in the process of leaving that weakness behind, are already more strong than weak as they struggle to survive, and fight to find and hold onto their own ways of surviving. to him small animals are people with the potential to be strong despite their weakness, if not because of it (but not by getting rid of it, you'll notice, because it's all about how they turn their weakness into strength), people who refuse to let their weakness define them and mean that the strongs are just allowed to trample them under their feet as they please.

and get this, but it's tsuna who teaches him that. tsuna is the og small animal, and so the meaning and definition it has to him is about the way he sees tsuna and understands him as a person. and as tsuna made him stronger by teaching him that and giving him a better and deeper understanding of his strength in the process, by teaching him that not all which deserves to be called strength and acknowledged and respected as such has to be similar to his strength, he now teaches him that in turn. reassures him he has strength of his own, validates him in that strength as something worthy to be called that and capable, and strengthens his trust in that strength once more. he reminds him that strength can take many forms, and even if it may appear as a weakness to others at times, it doesn't make it any less meaningful or any less true that it is strength in its own right. won't as long as you don't let it.

he tells him "i know your strength and i know you are strong, and isn't the fact you made it so far all the proof you need to know it's the truth? what is there to doubt about, to hesitate for?"

and tsuna listens to him and trusts his words and believes in them because hibari is the one who says those words. and if he can't trust and believe hibari on this without a shadow of a doubt, without needing to think twice about it, then no one else will do the trick, not even reborn. yeah that's right, i said it and i truly believe it, not even reborn.

and basically what i'm saying is that hibari CARES and cares about TSUNA. they're FRIENDS people and 1827 is REAL!!!! no one fucking touches me 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️

[all-about-khr]

Katekyo Hitman Reborn! ↪ bunkobon covers [ 03 / 03 ]

↳ (17) Kozato Enma

↳ (18) Cavallone Dino

↳ (19) Rokudo Mukuro

↳ (20) Sasagawa Kyoko, Miura Haru

↳ (21) Reborn

[energon-with-a-curly-straw]

Energon’s Watchlist: Welcome to the Underworld!

Demons? Angels? It’s time to head to the underworld! Coincidentally, I also currently feel like hell. These anime are not based around romance, are not harem, and have been personally watched and enjoyed by me. See also: The Morose Mononokean

Hozuki’s Coolheadedness (Hoozuki no Reitetsu, 39 eps)

The most powerful being in hell isn’t Satan or Beelzebub in the west, it’s a self-proclaimed ‘glorified paper-pusher’ Hozuki the demon— chief of staff to King Enma. Bureaucracy and diplomacy is key as Hozuki solves problems and goes about daily life (with a heavy dose of torture in the background). A series chock-full of mythology and folktales, with some modern twists.

This series is a fantasy/supernatural, slice of life comedy. Each episode is usually two stories, the first transitioning into the second. Hozuki is a character with a cold soul and a soft heart, that you learn to love by the end. He’s also seemingly the only thing keeping hell from devolving into chaos. Reoccurring characters include a promiscuous Celestial Beast, hell minions, and the animal companions of the folklore hero, Momotaro.

Welcome to Demon School! Iruma-kun (Mairimashita! Iruma-kun, 23 eps + season 2 ongoing)

Having worked from a young age to pay off his parents’ debts, 14 year old Suzuki Iruma is at his job when he learns his mother and father have sold him to a demon named Sullivan. A terrified Iruma is taken to the netherworld and is asked to become Sullivan’s grandson. The demon dotes on him and even sends him to school— demon school! Iruma tries his best to keep a low profile, but he’s already attracted attention by day one. He’ll be fine… as long as no one ever finds out he’s a human.

Iruma is fundamentally unable to refuse any request asked of him. His earnest and kindhearted nature endear him to many. A fun, humorous slice of life series with some serious arcs as well. A large, colourful cast of characters add to the enjoyment. There’s some one-sided romance from other characters, but that’s because everyone loves Iruma. I really liked this series a lot and I hope you give this one a try!

Heaven’s Design Team (Tenchi Souzou Design-bu, 13 eps)

God made the heavens and the earth, but the creating the rest of the creatures was a pain, so they outsourced it. Okay, so not really the underworld (upperworld?), but they do visit hell so I deserve some points! The series follows the agency that creates made-to-order animals for the divine client, as well as the go-between angel, Shimoda. However, the process to create a new animal is a lot harder than just slapping some features together.

A gag anime that graphic designers will either find especially enjoyable, or painfully familiar. The opening song fucking slaps, not gonna lie. It’s surprisingly educational about evolutionary biology, zoology, and fun animal facts. All the characters on the design team have big personalities and individualized tastes. One of the characters is a transwoman who’s extra af, and not a single joke about her is related to being trans. My favourite character is Neptune/Unabara, who loves cute things and looks like a big teddy bear. This anime is super new, just released earlier this year, so I hope you have a chance to watch and support it!

[ultraericthered]

Underrated Bad Guy Blurbs - Suzaku

Suzaku, leader of the four Saint Beasts, was the first true “Big Bad” villain character that Yu Yu Hakusho had. He was also given the least amount of screentime and development out of all of them, meaning he’s very underrated when compared to Younger Toguro, Sensui, and even Sakyo. But to this day, Suzaku is actually my personal favorite villain in the series. Admittedly there is nostalgia bias here since I first got into the anime during the Maze Castle arc and was particularly hooked once it was Suzaku’s turn to step up to the plate, but there are other things I like about Suzaku and feel make him stand out as a great villain.

- Suzaku’s primary function was to serve as the last and greatest enemy Yusuke has to face in the Spirit Detective Saga (in the manga: the anime ends the saga with the Yukina rescue mission, but that’s the start of the Dark Tournament Saga in the manga). He’s the culmination of Yusuke’s advancement in his Spirit Detective career that has been going on in the saga - he’s gone from facing petty crook demons doing their work from within people, to demon convicts out to utilize weapons to turn against Spirit World, to a demon serial killer who wants to kill as many humans as he pleased, to finally this demon mastermind so dangerous that he was imprisoned by Lord Enma himself within a single castle and city, and he’s threatening to start a zombie apocalypse on Earth if the barrier to his city isn’t let down so that he and his cohorts can be free...to unleash demons upon Earth and take over Spirit World, which means an apocalypse anyway! Suzaku isn’t given much motivation for his evildoing other than he’s a vain narcissist who believes that he deserves to rule Spirit World and that if he did, the first thing he’d do is bring extinction to the humanity, a race he deems to be stupid and worthless, and have demons populate Earth instead. Pretty simplistic evilness, but he makes it work.

- Suzaku’s best quality would be that he has what none of the major enemies before him had: a personality. Seriously, on Yusuke’s first case there was nothing interesting or noteworthy about Gouki (the anime actually gave him a bit more personality than he originally had in the manga), and Hiei...was not the Hiei we come to know and love later on, he was just a generic sneering, gloating, boastful, cackling evildoer. And on Yusuke’s second case, what was there to Rando other than “I’m a sadist?” Suzaku has Hiei’s arrogance and Rando’s sadism, but his expressions of those traits are different - Suzaku puts on an air of faux-aristocracy and superiority, which means even at his most insufferably smug, he’s at least well mannered and eloquently spoken. When he gets mad, he doesn’t devolve into childish tantrums, he rages in a “KNOW YOUR PLACE, INFERIOR!” way, like a person in power would to a lower ranking, often younger person who wasn’t respecting their authority. And his sadism is even more chilling than Rando’s, as he doesn’t fixate on toying with his prey in order to make them feel as weak and afraid as possible before killing them - he starts with the pain, first internal and then physical, quite giddily enjoying the show as his victims are hurting, and then closing in on making them feel weak and afraid well after they’ve been brought to their knees and are at his mercy. And if his prey is still showing any form of defiance, willpower and disrespect, he is going to make damn sure to keep that prey alive for as long as it takes to break them completely, and THEN kill them. Also, he’s got a thing for music-making and horror movies.

- His voice in Japanese was done by Nobuo Tobita, who’s most known for later being the VA for both Ebisu and Zetsu in Naruto, and the voice of the Major in Hellsing Ultimate. In the Funimation US dub, his voice is done by Jerry Jewell. Now if you heard both Suzaku voices back to back and swore that it was just one guy who could speak great Japanese and English doing the voice for both dubs, I wouldn’t blame you. Jewell’s Suzaku is so accurate to Tobita’s Suzaku that it’s eerie and uncanny, making it an example of spot-on casting by Funimation.

- OK, let’s talk about the real thing that drew me (and many others, I hope) to Suzaku in the first place - that goddamn song he plays on his Makai Whistle. This one. “Prelude To Keiko’s Suffering In A minor” he calls it, but “Suzaku is an absolute madman” is what I call it.

- Know what Suzaku also is? A total fucking misogynist, is what! Seriously: when Murugu shows him Keiko and tells him that she and Yusuke are very close as friends and have been so for years, he remarks on how pretty she is. As though THAT’S the reason Yusuke is so close to her, as though he would NOT be close to any girl were she not physically attractive. He cares nothing about who Keiko is on the inside, he only sees her as an attractive thing that he can use to hurt Yusuke with, that he can make “scream in agony” in order to psychologically torture and weaken Yusuke. When Yusuke confronts Suzaku in the top chamber of Maze Castle and he has Keiko’s every movement being followed on his large screen, Suzaku likens Keiko to a frightened damsel in a horror movie, one that will not have a happy ending once Keiko dies, alone, helpless and scared. Yusuke is having none of this sexist crap, telling Suzaku “Keiko’s no fighter but she’s plenty tough, and she sure as Hell won’t be following your stupid script!” The payoffs for all of Suzaku’s misogyny are gold. Not only does Keiko prove evasive, resourceful, unrelenting and strong against the zombies, meaning Suzaku misunderstood what sort of horror movie heroine Keiko would turn out to be, but Botan is right there with her the whole time, meaning TWO girls with limited physical strength and power are defying his intentions and kicking zombie butt together! At one point, it looks like the zombies have finally killed the girls when they hide a locker and Suzaku is convinced that they have been killed, but it was just an article of Keiko’s schoolgirl uniform in there used to fake the zombies out as Keiko and Botan come out from behind, prompting a “DAMMIT!” response from Suzaku and him swearing that those girls must die no matter how many attempts it takes - take that in: those girls didn’t just successfully fool a bunch of dumb, primal-minded zombies, but they fooled Suzaku, leader of the Saint Beasts! Damn. Finally, when Botan has been KO’d and Zombie Iwamoto is moving in to stab Keiko to death with a pair of scissors, right where Yusuke can see it on the screen, Keiko, who while not knowing all the details, knows Yusuke is involved with these events somehow, and mentally calls for him to hear her, outright crying out for Yusuke’s help as Iwamoto brings his scissors down...and this reaches Yusuke, who in turn sends a jolt of spirit energy all the way from where he is (which is in a whole ‘nother world!) to the school, which sends the scissors flying out of Iwamoto’s hands and shields Keiko. Yusuke proceeds to put his life energy into an attack that kills Suzaku and breaks the Makai Whistle which controls the insects that have zombified people on Earth. “Endangering Keiko’s life and making Yusuke watch it” is what Suzaku had been wanting to use to weaken Yusuke and mentally throw him off his guard. Instead, because of how precious Keiko is as a person to Yusuke, the desire to remove the danger to Keiko’s life empowered Yusuke and this resulted in Suzaku’s own death. This is what happens when you treat girls and their lives as things to dangle in front of their lovers.

- Suzaku’s death scene differs between the manga and anime. In the manga, Suzaku is outraged, questioning how Yusuke could have endured his last attack and how it wasn’t enough to kill him...and then he notices a crack in the antennae dangling from his hair, which contain his life force. Barely anything should be strong enough to penetrate it’s exterior, yet somehow Yusuke’s final attack did. “His bond with that girl...amazing.” Suzaku remarks as he falls over and dies. In the anime, however, the part about Suzaku’s antennae being cracked was moved to a bit earlier in the episode, with Suzaku’s realization being that Yusuke’s first Spirit Gun attack, the one Suzaku had to knock back through the ceiling, is what damaged them, meaning he’s been fighting with limited strength this entire time. After he’s been slain by the final attack, he weakly gets up just a little bit and to the unconscious Yusuke, he remarks that he’s lost because Yusuke and Keiko’s human bond and feelings towards/about each other were strong enough to enable Yusuke to overcome his power through sheer determination to save Keiko from harm. “Feelings are your power” he says “Touche, human. At last I understand...” And then he gasps his last breath and falls over dead. I typically see the anime as the superior version, and this part is no exception. Suzaku’s death in the manga plays out alright, but having his life force-containing antennae getting cracked only by Yusuke’s very last attack, and the implication being that this is what causes Suzaku to die, makes this come off as yet another “Yusuke lucked out” victory, which was done twice already with Hiei and Rando. This was Yusuke’s biggest battle yet and the climactic point of this whole saga, so you cannot repeat that beat a third time - Yusuke needs to truly earn this victory. So the anime having Suzaku discovering well into the battle that he’s been put off his game but vowing to kill Yusuke in the worst way he can regardless sends the message that luck isn’t going to be how Yusuke gets out of this one: he needs to really put his all into vanquishing this villain if he wants to save Keiko, himself, and the entire world, which leads to him doing literally just that. Suzaku’s last words in the anime were also far more powerful.

- Last I’ll address Murg, his little bunny eared bird companion. She’s called “Murugu” in the Funimation dub, but that’s ‘cause that’s how the name “Murg” is spoken in Japanese and the dubbers took things a bit too literally. I really have no idea why Murg is a thing. The two main purposes she serves are to act as a spy for Suzaku (though we never saw her until after Seryu had been killed) who gives him the intel about Keiko to start with, and to be incredibly annoying throughout the Yusuke VS Suzaku fight. That said, I kinda like her being there. She’s the one individual Suzaku interacts with where there seems to be some closeness and fondness there, which helps make Suzaku not seem entirely horrible. Also, I think the Viz translation of the manga referred to her as a male bird, but I’d believe that about as much as I’d believe Natoru from “The Cat Returns” was a male cat voiced by Andy Richter!

[aesteriapolarium-blog]

2-12-17 uwu

jfabflnafn revenge must taste sweet

2. First Anime Crush

OOF As far as I can remember, I think it was Tamahome from Fushigi Yuugi and Hiei from Yu Yu Hakusho oh god ever since I was a kid the people I’ve liked were always on the opposite ends of the spectrum I--- and now I’m just remembering all the anime guys I’ve liked since childhood---

12. Anime that should get more attention from others

I don’t know how particularly big it is but....PEOPLE PLEASE WATCH FUKIGEN NA MONONOKEAN (The Morose Mononokean) SUPPORT MY CHILD ASHIYAN AND HIS HUSBAND HARUITSUKI who is also my boyfriend

I’ve also liked Kyōto Teramachi Sanjō no Holmes (Holes of Kyoto), mostly because Holmes was one hot man like I remember showing a screenshot to my friends and we were all floored at it  and I it shows a cool side to Kyoto which focuses on antique materials and such :D Though I can understand if not everyone likes it, it’s a pretty niche anime to begin with

Kaze no Stigma (Stigma of the Wind) is another one I wished was more popular that it would get the second season we all deserve, along with Hataraku Maou Sama! (Devil is a Part-Timer!)

ALSO I NEED THE LAST TWO ARCS OF KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN ANIMATED YOU COWARDS GIVE ME MY CHILD LOSER ENMA

I went so off topic oh god--

17. Biggest anime crush

First of all, how dare you. I guess it’d have to be Hijikata Toushiro (Gintama), Yamamoto Takeshi (KHR), Chuuya Nakahara (BSD), Hei (Darker Than Black) and Roy Mustang (FMA/FMA:B) it was so hard to stop at 5

Anime Asks

[our-happygirl500-fan]

22 and 29?

22. age you started watching anime/person who introduced you to it. 

I was always into things like yugioh, digimon, dragonball GT and pokemon but I didn’t know that these were anime because I didn’t know what anime was Sailor Moon was the first anime that I knew was anime and I was 10 when I started watching that which is weird to think about because that’s younger than I realised and I’d been super into yugioh because it was popular at my school since I was 7 and I’ve always loved digimon and pokemon like I can’t even put an age on those two so wow anime’s been part of my life for a long time.

As for who got me into Sailor Moon specifically, thinking back there was this girl called Tina in my primary school. My mum wanted to send me to a ‘good’ school in a ‘good’ neighbourhood but that meant that the school I went to was like super white not being rude to anyone or anything but there was like one girl that was a brunet they were all blonde and ginger and full English the most diverse one was Scottish and then there was me who’s mum was Iranian and Dad was half Indian, sticking out like a sore thumb especially with a surname no teacher could spell or pronounce. Tina was the only other not incredibly full English person there because she was from Bangladesh and I can’t remember if we were lumped together or sought each other out but I would spend most of my time with her, she was only there for a year because her parents moved around a lot but she was obsessed with Anime like full on weeb stuff and she told me about Sailor Moon and where to watch it and then anime became my life.

I remember talking with her for hours about it and her being impressed with how quickly I learned the theme song off by heart, I also remember being really sad having no one to talk about anime with, in year six because she left but then I went to secondary school and met a girl who knew even more about anime called Annie who is now my best friend and it’s weird to think I’ve known her since I was 12. Time goes by so fast damn.

29. anime that deserves another season

KHR! Make another season of Reborn you cowards show me the battle of the rainbow arc! Fun fact KHR was the first manga I ever read because my local library only had two manga’s KHR and Yugioh and when I started getting into anime I also started to give manga a try so KHR has a special place in my heart and the final arcs deserve to be animated! Show me animated Enma! I want to see my little boy

[mafiabosstsuna]

something angsty with tsuna, dino and enma (they are my boys thanks to you guys!!) with s/o

COMPLETE

~Okay, you guys, if your stomachs are too weak for violence against the pregnant then stay out of Dino’s story. Sorry but you have been warned. I felt pretty terrible writing his that way but my muse wouldn’t listen to me. Sorry in advance. (-_-;)

-admin Adelheid

Tsuna

Tsuna took a healthy swig of the bottle oftequila he had had sent over from the cellar earlier. Around his feet wereseveral bottles of other different liquor but he didn’t mind them all.

He didn’t care for the expensive carpetbeing stained by the alcohol at his feet. He couldn’t give a fuck about theexpensive paintings and furniture that lay around him. Nothing mattered. Theworld was empty. As empty as his heart…

He rose from his chair and swayed. Gokuderatried to catch him but he shoved the man aside violently.

“Go ‘way…” he muttered in a voice that lost it’s smoothness, burned away by the alcohol. Swaying as hewalked out the door. “Wanna be alone…”

“Jyudaime―”

“LEAVE ME ALONE!” Tsuna yelled, grabbing agun from the holster he kept on his chest and randomly shot at his right handman, missing Gokudera by inches in his drunken effort. Emptying the barrel asyou did so much to the bomber’s relief.

No one dared stop him afterward.

Tsuna swayed towards the hall like a ghostand every single denizen of the Vongola mansion made sure they were well out ofhis way even as the sunken look on his face and the circles under his eyesaroused their pity.

Yes, it was that time of the day again.

Tsuna noticed nothing.

His feet acted as though on auto pilot and ledhim to the gardens. Crossing through the rose laden arcs and lilac scentedblooms. The chilly night gave the scents an ethereal feeling of being somewhereethereal. Like a beautiful dream.

Just like you…

He trudged forward until he reached thehill that held your headstone. Covered in your beautiful white and red roses.It’s almost as though the very ground itself was embracing you. Holding youaway from him and keeping you safe.

He threw the bottle right at it, the glassbreaking into a thousand million pieces when it hit a corner of your grave.

And then Tsuna laughed.

And sobbed.

And cried.

On the very edge of madness.

Has it really been six months? Six months sincethat cancer killed you?  Has it reallybeen six months since you asked him to hold you in his arms as you sat on thisvery same spot, watching as the sun went down? You have always loved sunsets.You said it was romantic. And somewhere deep inside where the remnants of hischildhood lay Tsuna agreed with you.

Has it really been six months since he lastheard you say, ‘I love you…’? Has it really been that long since he held youclose as your hand lay limp in his palm and felt your heart stop beating as he held you close?

No it can’t be.

It already feels like forever.

Breaking down he knelt on the ground andembraced your headstone, watering it with his tears. Uncaring of the thorns theflowers pricked him with. Uncaring of the blood that seeped through his skin.

What sense was being the most powerfulMafia Boss in the world bring when he can’t even save you? What good was allthis power if he can’t even get you to stay by his side?

Nothing.

It was all for nothing without you…

Dino

“No. No I will not allow it!”

“You can’t stop me, Father, I’ve made up mymind!”

“You’re too young! You have no idea what you want, boy! Cease and desistthis instant!”

“I’m sorry, Father, but I love her. I needher. I want her to be by my side for the rest of my life.”

“Don’t do this. You are my heir. You can’tjust go out into the world and live the life of a civilian just for this girl!I’ll accept her into the family if that’s what you want but stay here for God’s sake! I can keep you both safe!”

“She deserves better than that! She doesn’tbelong in this world! In our world! Iwon’t let her be tainted by your sins! Iwon’t let the Mafia touch her!”

“Do you really think it’s that simple toget away from the Cosa Nostra?! This world is the womb that gave birth to you!No matter how far you go, no matter how well you hide it will find you. Andwhen it does it will swallow you whole!”

“I don’t care! This is what I want. This isthe life I’ll live. Go ahead and wallow in this darkness. I’m choosing to livein the light.”

“Even outside the Mafia the world isnot a safe place! Please, let me protect you!”

“I’m sorry, Father. Goodbye.”

It would be the last time Dino would speak to his fatherfor the next three years…

Dino had been so youngback then. So innocent. Barely even out of short pants.

And yet he was sure he loved you.

All he knew was that he was in love and nothing was going tostop him from being with you. You didn’t want him to break his father’s heart;but neither could you change his mind. You were the only one who looked back asDino pulled you away from the mansion.

He ignored his legacy, he ignored his Family and he ignoredhis father’s love. Because you made him feel like he was more than just theheir to a Mafia legacy. You made him see a future that contained more than justblood and hate and shame. For you he was willing to refuse all the wealth andpower his father had accumulated in his lifetime to hand over to him somedaybecause your existence, your way of life gave him a choice. Like he was morethan he was meant to be.

Dino moved with you in a country across the ocean. He took aseries of different, menial jobs here and therewhile you studied. He ignored every single one of his father’s messages begginghim to come home.

Happily, Dino had livedthrough those years. They were the best years of his life. No burden of alegacy full of bad karma. No darkness hovering over the horizon demanding hebelonged to it. No blood on his hands someday… Soon he forgot about that world and settled into this new one. Hewas so happy when you told him about the baby a couple of years later. Despite your disappointment that your studies would be put on hold you were excited as well.

Dino knew you tried to keepit a secret but he knew you were sending his father pictures of him and yourultrasound results in an effort to reconcile them; such was the kind of person you were. He didn’t mind. Despite failing him he loved his fathervery much and you knew that. And from the few letters he had managed to find it seemed his fatherhad forgiven him and was wishing him well in this new life he had chosen. Dino was looking forward to a long and happy future with you and the baby…

And then one night, Dino came back.

Old Don Cavallone had been shaken awake by Romario andhe had hastily donned a house robe over himself, almost tripping over his own feet in his haste to get to his child. Itwould be the first time in three years that he would see Dino again and hisheart beat excitedly in his chest at such a happy occasion.

But he stopped in his tracks when he caughta glimpse of his son’s face. His heart pounded in dread when he saw Reborn’s face before the hitman pulled his fedora down and left his son’s side as silent as a shadow.

Gone was the soft roundness of Dino’s happy youth. Where was the face of the happily married man in the photographs on his desk? Before him was a man who looked like he had been through hell and back andmore.

Dino’s eyes were chips of ice, his cheekslike chiseled granite. A cut marred the once smooth skin of his left cheek. He had wounds and bruises all over. Covered in swathes of bandages that even covered oneeye. In that one moment Don Cavallone thought that his son didn’t look like a civilian at all. Dino looked like a veteran of war.

“Son―”

“I’m sorry, Father,” Don Cavallone and Romario held their breathat the sound of Dino’s voice. Even his voice sounded cold, hard. Like a stone grating on asphalt. The fury simmering underneath itwas unmistakable. The heart that had once shone from his eyes torn away from his chest. Gone was the youth. Gone was the innocence. In three years, Dino had turned into a man who had seen what the bottom of a barrel looked like. “You were right. You were right all along. No matter how farI ran, no matter how well I hid it still found me. It swallowed me whole andmade me see hell. I… was never meant to be free of this darkness.”

Don Cavallone could do nothing but wrap Dino up inhis embrace, in which his boy broke down and sobbed just like he did when he was small and had scraped his knee. It broke the Cavallone don’s heart tosee his foal so wounded. It wasn’t until Romario had investigated that theyfound out that you and your baby had been murdered by ordinary burglars on an ordinary night. Of how the murderers held Dino down and made him watch as they violated you and made you lose your child…

And that the only reason why the Cavallone heir was still alive was because Reborn came over, curious about the Mafia heir who threw away his legacy for anyone. He was there just in time to witness the awakening of the Dying Will Flame that killed killed the animals who had killed you right before they shot Dino between the eyes as he knelt on the floor of their little house staring at your dead and violated body, a sea of Flames around him.

Dino shed the last of his tears that day, hiding the man he had become behind a bright smile and a carefree nature. Hiding the lesson of life that he had learned the hard way. The one fact that he will never forget…

…That the light was never his to truly hold…

Enma

He had loved you for years.

Following every move you made.

His eyestracing your cheeks a hundred times. His lips kissing yours for a million more…He didn’t even know how many countless dreams he had of you writhing under histouch. Panting beneath his body.

Whenever you were around too busy to evennotice him all Enma could do was watch you with half parted lips and batedbreath, struggling to record your every move and sound so he could take it backwith him in his bed. So he could pretend to know what it would feel like foryou to moan out his name.

And yet you never looked his way. No, neverhis way. Your eyes only ever turned to one direction and it was always whereTsuna was.

Tsuna was his best friend. Enma would takea bullet for him. But every time you looked at the man’s way he struggled toget behind the brunette so he could pretend you were looking at him with such longing in your eyes.

Oh the nights when he would touch himselfjust imagining you looking at him like that. Like he was heaven and hell andeverything in between. God he wanted you so much. Each time he came hardcalling out your name. Sometimes biting into his pillow so no one would hear.

It would have been so simple if it justended like that. If he could curl into a ball and sleep the want away. But hewould stay awake hours after his release pretending you were there beside him,looking back at him with satiated eyes. Smiling sweetly with eyes that told himyou loved him. Telling him about what you did today and what your plans were tomorrow.

In the mornings he would wake up. Hisdreams of you so real he would reach out to you to hold you close by his sideonly to clutch empty air. And for a bit he would bury his cries in his pillowsbegging your absent self to want him. Just want him.

Even if it was just for a bit.

Even if it was just a lie…

Forcing you was out of the question. Eventhough Tsuna did not love you back he knew he would not be able to live withyour hate. Your love meant too much to him. If you flinch from the thought of his touch he would probably die, heartsick. He didn’t want just your body alone he needed you. All of you. Body, heart and soul.

And until you could turn your eyes at himlike that he was going to wait forever…

And he will never stop trying.

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Hi! I hope you don't mind random anons asking questions, but I found this quote in your mini analysis of Tsuna from a couple weeks ago and, well, 'Ask me about my TYL headcanons sometime or how formative Mukuro and Xanxus were as his first Big Bads.'? How formative WERE Mukuro and Xanxus as Tsuna's first main villains? I ask. If you want, of course. I hope you have a good day.

lmao no worries, Anon, if I minded anon questions, I’d have turned it off for this tumblr a long time ago, and I’m always down for rambling about KHR meta. 

SO FORMATIVE MAFIA EXPERIENCES, LET’S GO 

For the record, I think the Kokuyo gang is more formative than the Varia were, partially because they came first, but also...

Tsuna, up until this point, hasn’t really dealt with anything serious when it came to the mafia. Either there was some aspect as so ridiculous that it overwhelmed anything else (Skull invades Mafia Land, but he’s a tiny baby in a motorcycle helmet and his animal companion is a giant octopus in bondage gear) or, at the end shows nothing serious actually happened (when he thought he shot a dude). 

And then we hit Kokuyo arc. 

Kokuyo arc, where even from a narrative standpoint is such a sharp genre shift where, in literally the first two pages, we see someone get beat down and then his assailants pull out a pair of pliers. 

They’re his first real experience with the criminal underworld- no jokes at the end, nothing ridiculous from their side. Just hurting the various people Tsuna has managed to gather as his friends and family. 

And they’re the same age as him. 

That’s the important part. Mukuro, Chikusa, and Ken are all the same age as him! All fourteen. And yet, they aren’t afraid to do this- kidnapping, destroying a man’s life, outright murder, torture. This is incomprehensible to Tsuna.... up until Ken spills their backstory with the Estraneo. 

One of Tsuna’s most notable traits is that he’s naturally very empathetic to other people. However, with certain people (Shimon and Kokuyo, who I think have some intereting parallels between them), it’s a bit more personal. On a more mundane level, Tsuna understands what it’s like to be ostracized, not really having anyone else and then latching on hard to the first people who stay around for you. So he looks at the three of them and thinks “I probably would have done the same thing if I were one of them” much like he did with Enma and Shimon. 

(I can only go off of the translation I regularly read, but his exact words are, in response to Ken saying he can’t have Tsuna destroy what Kokuyo has (each other), “But... I as well... can’t just stay quiet when my friends get hurt. That’s the place for me to go.” And I think including that “as well” is important, because it’s Tsuna putting himself in a similar position to Kokuyo, and they clearly react to that.) 

And yet, despite this strong empathetic connection, he has the outsider position. He can see how much damage they’ve done to themselves, how their path only lead them to be in chains again, and how, even if they did succeed, they wouldn’t actually find any happiness in it. 

TL;DR - Kokuyo is his first serious encounter with the mafia world, not only of the dangers that it brings, but also how it hurts the people within it irreparably, and he immensely empathizes with them despite the harm they’ve done because he can see himself in their shoes very easily. Yet he can also see how their goal of revenge wouldn’t have done them any good. 

So by the time Xanxus comes around, Tsuna has already been introduced to the violence of the mafia world, and the Varia are all mostly adults, so they’re not formative in those ways.There is an empathetic connection in Tsuna and Xanxus’ situation (questionable parenting, secrets that should NOT have been secrets), but, while I think it’s important that his second antagonist was also someone he could empathize with and understand how things happened, what ultimately makes Xanxus formative is... 

He reinforces the same message that Mukuro brought. 

The message of seeking power and revenge and causing so much harm en route to that, but ultimately it both not working and it not being something that will ever make the seeker happy. 

And it’s this message reinforced by the mafia world, whether by accident or on purpose, that this is the way it should be. 

By the time the ring challenges Tsuna on this is how the Vongola is and you’re going to have to deal with it, I imagine that they are what he thinks of. 

He thinks of the Estraneo, of how the mafia world got pissed at them, lashing out at even children who tried to escape, and brushed them all under the rug, only to be surprised when those same children took out their pain and disgust and anger onto the rest of them until it became a problem they couldn’t ignore anymore because literal Families were being destroyed. Of a trio of damaged kids his age, wrapped up in chains, behind bars, because that’s how the mafia is. 

He thinks of a kid in the opposite situation, given the world and allowed to go wild because he’s told that it’s his right, lashing out for all the opposite reasons, only to break down and self destruct at finding out he doesn’t deserve it by right. Of a teenager getting trapped for years in ice, suffering, all because of the mistakes of the mafia adults around him who never reigned him in and didn’t tell the truth. 

He thinks of all this, looks the ghosts of the Vongola’s past straight in the eyes, and tells them they can fuck right off. 

At least, that’s how I figure it. I don’t think his reaction would have been that strong, even with his common human horror at the memories that were forced onto him, if he hadn’t had the experiences he did with the Kokuyo Gang and Xanxus.