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wolfwarrior142 · 10 months ago

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Have always really appreciated Callum talking about his conflicting emotions at the end of 306. About how he was so angry and sad about seeing Avizandum dead, because the dragon killed his mother, but also confused because that same dragon was the father of Zym, the Dragon Prince, a baby dragon who they all love and are determined to protect. Who also never got to meet his father, because Callum's stepdad killed Avizandum months before Zym hatched. And that happened because Avizandum killed Sarai, mother of Callum and Ez. It's a cycle, if you will. And Callum, who is now 14 and lost his mother when he was around 5 years old, is feeling such conflicting emotions about seeing Avizandum's stone corpse frozen in time.

I really love how mature that discussion is. Even one of my coworkers who I got into the show commented on how well done and impactful that little scene was. Yeah, loss and mourning can be like that. Even when there isn't a cycle of revenge involved. I've been there as well, experiencing similar emotions. I'll always appreciate how they did that scene as it was an important topic done in a very realistic way.

#ive been there with my ewe Tris who died a little over a year ago. not the same circumstances and not nearly as much turmoil involved #no cycle either #but i had immensely conflicting emotions when i looked at her 2 lambs after i lost her. those boys carried....SO many conflicting emotions #not to mention their dad who i still would like to personally kill. ive never said that about a sheep before because i dont normally say #that about animals in general. but if that bastard hasnt broken into Tris' pen and bred her. she wouldnt have been so emaciated and she #wouldnt have died. and if her boys hadnt been born. she wouldnt have needed to eat grain so fast that she choked on it because she was so #hungry. cuz she carried lambs to term when she was 11 years old and we had no idea she was even bred until her lambs were on the ground.#she had a full year of wool on her and we didnt expect her to still be fertile. we had no idea. so we couldnt feed her differently. and she #ended up so skinny that she could hardly produce milk for her boys. so we gave her grain like we do with all our ewes but especially her.#and one night she ate it so fast that it lodged in her esophagus. and we couldnt get it out no matter how hard we tried. and she worked #herself up so much that her heart gave out. she literally died in my arms. after id had her for 11 years. after buying her at the age of 2 #months old. she literally collapsed while i was holding her head. i could only hold her up because i was grabbing her wool. but she was gone #and i sobbed for 5 minutes straight. and when i saw her boys again only about 20 minutes after. i had so many conflicting emotions. i was #more conflicted about an animal than id ever been. Tris wouldnt have died if they hadnt been born. but they also had no choice in the matter #this was their dad's fault. and they were hungry lambs who saw their mom pulled out of their pen and never come back. at only roughly 2 #weeks old. they were hungry but so nervous and scared that they didnt want to come up to us to eat. i was still extremely conflicted about #their existence but refused to let them die because of it. it ultimately wasnt their fault. and they didnt deserve to die from it. they #were tiny baby lambs for fuck's sake. so i tried to get them to drink. despite how conflicted i felt about them. and a few days later after #i finally had Tris buried in a 4 foot grave i dug by hand. i had enough time during my free time to try to get them to drink. because they #didnt deserve to die because their mom died and i felt insanely conflicted about it. i always felt conflicted by them. sometimes id cry #while i was in their stall trying to get them to drink. because there was just a lot. thankfully they survived and were healthy enough to #be used to meat. and we made sure their end and life in general was as humane and relaxed as we could make it. because i was firm about the #fact that they deserved a good life. despite the massively conflicting feelings.#this all happened 1 year ago. in fact Tris died the day after my birthday last year (which made this year's even worse than usual. had a #bit of a breakdown the day after. especially when i was driving home after work and the urn pendant with her wool in it on my necklace #reflected off the setting sun onto my visor. its never done that before or since. and its the shape of a heart for a reason. made me cry so #much when i saw that). emotions can be so conflicting. especially surrounding loss. even moreso when theres lots of stuff involved and part #of you wants to take your anger out but the logical part knows you shouldnt. and im so happy that a show with so much loss like TDP #covered that for one of their main characters #the dragon prince

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