#emosh because of a stressful week so far

[tundrakatiebean]

Really grateful for the interactions around alcohol stuff I’ve had lately. In one stream I left because the alcohol in the game was upsetting me and the person came and apologized for not realizing how it might affect me (not their fault and we had a good talk about that). And the. Today someone said that it looked like [avatar representing me] was holding an alcoholic beverage and I replied kind of like “haha I hope not, been sober for two years” and they changed it to a nonalcoholic drink and congratulated me.

It’s just . . . Nice to be around people who treat you kindly and celebrate your victories with you. The longer I spend time around other people who actually like me the more I understand the way I was used to being treated wasn’t right and I deserved better.

[dodgerkedavra]

Im saying this with my full heart. You are a blessing. Thank you. I love your fic so much and have been obsessively reading them. You’re currently helping me cope through the first stressful weeks of college and i just need you to know that the way you write HPDM has touched my soul. I love how they take care of each other in each and every fic you write of them and so far I havent met a fic by you I didnt like. I don’t often read fic from the same authors over and over again(though i really should do so more) but you’ve become one of my favorites. Thank you for all the world building and the way you portray them. ❤️❤️❤️

I am saying THIS with my full heart: you are an angel. At this very moment I am lying in my bed and before I saw this I was having a lot of Sad Thoughts as I am wont to do, and I had just begun to have my usual Dramatic Thoughts about how maybe my stories don’t Mean Anything to People and I Should Just Disappear into the Fictional Night. And then I saw your note and the sun came out from behind a cloud; the rain stopped. (This is true!! It really did! For a second. It’s raining again now. LOL.)

I have to tell you—I am so, so honored and deeply joyful that my stories are making your first weeks at college a little easier. I was a complete wreck when I went to college. I was so homesick and nervous and everything felt very huge and terrifying. I wish I had known about fics then—I would have clung to them with everything I had!! But I didn’t know, and I hadn’t started truly writing yet, so I couldn’t even tell those stories to myself.

I’m feeling very emosh now because I write Drarry out of love and obsession (of course!) but also because I love writing the ways they care about and for each other and I always hope that some of that caring reaches through to the other side to whoever is reading.

Such a time-travel paradox!! If I could go back and give these stories to myself my first month at college, I would have become someone different, and maybe I wouldn’t have written these stories. Maybe everything worked out just the way it was supposed to so you can have them with you now. I very much love that idea.

If there’s anything ever I can write for you, some wish you have, please come to my inbox and tell me!! I mean it. I am so grateful to you for writing this note and for reading my stories. I hope college becomes more peaceful and you feel more at ease. Thank you so much for telling me my stories were there at the right moment. I’ll be here, writing some more ❤️❤️❤️