#ellie walker headcannons

[viaviainternet]

okay i’m making this post strictly about ellie because, yes, she gets love from the fandom, but not enough love. so i’m making it my job to make this post about her

so i’m going to start with like things she’d enjoy (music, movies, books, etc.)

okay, so with music, OBVIOUSLY lorde. the way ellie manages to be every single song in lorde’s discography amazes me.

obviously a swiftie. i mean come on, she has august written all over her.

she also gives me major debut vibes?? maybe it’s just the hippie-nature-esque about her, but i know she’s rocking out to picture to burn and our song.

she also cries to the archer. she IS the archer.

she is also a ldr fan. not in the jealous girl/unreleased music type of fan, but the nfr/lfl/ultraviolence type of fan

she’s the type of person who makes playlists for literally any type of occasion

she for sure had a melanie martinez/marina and the diamonds/ mars argo phase in middle school. no doubt.

literally anytime she’s playing taylor swift, she makes everyone stop their conversations so no one talks through the song’s bridge.

i feel like she’d secretly be good at singing. she plays it down when singing songs at parties and shit, forcing her voice to be bad, but if she actually tried she’s pretty good.

movies! okay, so, yes, canonically ellie doesn’t watch movies or shows, but i think when she told david that when they first met, he couldn’t believe it, and every night they watched a different movie.

i think she’d really enjoy the movies black swan, and jennifer’s body (i mean, it’s natalie portman and megan fox, who wouldn’t).

and scott pilgrim^. and i love how whenever i post about ellie, michael cera somehow shows up.

when david and ellie watched pitch perfect together, she literally memorized the entire riffoff from the first movie.

she also ironically (but also unironically) LOVES the percy jackson movies.

okay now on to books! i don’t think she’d read much, just because it’s not really her thing, but i do think she has a couple favorites.

i know for a fact one of her favorite books is the seven husbands of evelyn hugo, AND daisy jones and the six. and she cried at both.

okay now these are just going to be random headcannons of her

whenever she gets into arguments, and if it’s getting really heated, she’ll just start yelling at the person she’s arguing with in french, and that’ll normally shut them up. and no one knows what she’s saying, and they’re too scared to ask

she’d give really good hugs. just like genuine hugs that instantly make you feel better.

everyday on the first day of school, when she meets her new science teachers, they always make a periodic table of elements joke, because her name is element. it used to be annoyed by it, but then she just started using it for herself, and her new instagram handle is “@/periodictableofelement”. she also uses that joke when she’s actually on her period, and she finds it to be the funniest thing in the world

she still has her childhood stuffed animal, and sometimes even sleeps with it when she’s upset

she has this exact tapestry hanging in her room at ellingham:

after the party on the first day of school, she noticed how david was looking at stevie, and kept teasing him about how he was giving her the googley eyes. she was hands down their biggest shipper, and kept it on the dow low

she spends literally all of class on pinterest. she considers it a “hobby”

she sends random pictures of young justin bieber (like bowl cut bieber) to david during classes when she’s bored, and he’s gotten in trouble from accidentally laughing to loudly

she wears a ring on every finger, and most of the time they’re fake, so her fingers are always just green, and she’s learned to deal with it and actually pulls it off, and makes it look cute

she makes friendship bracelets with david.

she made her own junior jewels shirt, and after she met the new minerva students, she made them all sign it

okay so those are all i can think of right now!! i hope you enjoyed reading this post as much as i enjoyed writing it :)) i want to keep making posts about ellie since no one does, so hopefully in the future i will

[davidcarner]

Wanting It All Ch 3, The More They Stay the Same

A/N: *Voice behind fort* Welp. There's where fanfic's line is. Okay, so this A/N may be longer than the story, but let me try to explain my headcannon and maybe it will help…althought it might not. Let's start with the easy one, Daniel. Take a deep breath and go back to Season 3 where Sarah was trying to decide between Chuck and the spy life (notice I didn't say Daniel because she was never picking Daniel over Chuck) Take Chuck out of the picture and what did she have? Something she understood, something safe. Now throw in having a child, by accident. Sarah grew up with half a parent, and she was trying to give the child so much more, plus she was stuck in DC (more on that coming out in future chapters). So did she try and see Daniel? Yes, she was trying to make it work. I know, blurg, but remember this is All-American hero Daniel, not Ring controlled jerkhead. It didn't work, though she tried and tried, for her son's sake, and as soon as her time was up, she was almost gone. Given what she saw in the DVD….most of you have figured it out that two seventeen year old kids got conned, that was the shove in the back...although she would have applied for that job anyway.

As for Ellie….*ducks back down before he says this* To her, Sarah is Jill. Don't throw things. She BROKE Chuck's heart, PLUS Sarah was Ellie's friend. Think back to the episode where Chuck asked about closure with Jill and her reaction. In my mind, Ellie's thumb hovered between delete and call. Did she make a bad choice? Yes (did I, we shall see. I thought it was right but a LOT of you don't seem to agree with me.) This is about healing multiple relationships, not just Chuck and Sarah. We deal with C/S first, Ellie, later. I love Ellie guys, and I'm not trying to make her some vindictive monster, but a human who saw her brother (and he's more than a brother, we all get that) hurt because of one person. As for Chuck's reaction…well, he knows how she feels, and this Chuck is a little different. His best friend hasn't betrayed him, because he never made friends with Bryce, Jill hasn't hurt him because he didn't get attached. Chuck is a little colder, a little more guarded, and we don't like that Chuck, and Sarah doesn't, so she has to heartwarm him, but she has a doctorate in heartwarming Chuck Bartowski, and that is this tale.  

Sorry for the long note, but I had to let you know where my head was. Am I wrong? I have no idea, but its what I think in this scenario. I hope you all hang around. I'm just glad you guys didn't see the original version if this is your reaction to this one. For the record, Daniel is not getting involved like some of you fear. Welcome to Wanting It All Ch 3, The More They Stay the Same

Disclaimer: I don't own Chuck, and for all he's been through, don't, deep down, you wish you had the family that sticks by him like he does?

"I hope I didn't mess up," Ellie said, looking at Chuck's phone. Now Sarah Walker wasn't on there anymore, which means she couldn't hurt him anymore. She needed help. Devon would say she's interfering, but he didn't understand, only one person understood Chuck like she did, and while it loathe her to call him, he was the one person that could help. She grabbed her phone and called him.

"Morgan!" she nearly yelled. "Sarah Walker is back!" There was no answer on the other end. Morgan was in shock, she knew and he was trying to figure out what to say. Ellie realized there was no way Morgan knew who she was talking about. "Sorry, Jenny Burton! She's now Sarah Walker, and she's back, and she got invited to his birthday party."

"Whaaaaat," he said, scared to lie to Ellie.

"She saw him, gave him her number, now I deleted it, but you know how he gets. I need you to keep an eye on him Morgan. This is serious. This is Defcon 5."

"Ellie, are you flirting with me?"

"MORGAN!"

"Sorry, sorry, got it, keep an eye on Chuck." He heard Ellie hang up. This was bad. This was real bad. He looked over at Sarah's house, and her vehicle was there. He took a deep breath, headed over to her house, and knocked on the door. Sarah opened the door, an eyebrow raised. "We have big trouble, Ellie." Sarah didn't say a thing, she just stepped to the side and let him in. "Chuck told he saw you or something, and she deleted you off of his phone." Sarah hung her head. "Sarah," he said quietly. She looked up at him. "You promise you're 100 percent on the level with me?" She nodded. "Because if I go against Ellie…." Hope sprang into her eyes. "I mean it's Ellie, you know?" She nodded. "Okay, give me your number, and get mine and Chuck's out of my phone." She pulled out her phone tears in her eyes. "Seriously, where'd you fine that phone?" Sarah laughed.

-ooooo-

"You erased her out of my phone," Chuck said calmly the next morning. Ellie was standing there, hands on hips, ready to fight if necessary. He already had his new contact up, typing in the number he had memorized yesterday. He was owed answers. He was getting answers.

"I did," she said. Chuck nodded.

"If she sat in front of you and Casey and answered all of your questions, him confirming everything, would you believe her then?"

"Probably not."

"At least your honest," he said as he walked out the door. He knew exactly why she did it. He knew she was bitter, and it was more than what Sarah did to Chuck. It was about a broken trust that Sarah had with the Bartowski family. Ellie was the guardian, and while Chuck was mad, he had expected it, hence why he had memorized the number.

"Where are you going?"

"To work, I know I have to be here at 7 for your party."

"You're going to invite her aren't you?"

"No," he said, pausing at the door. "I already have, Ellie." He turned to look at her. "Ellie, she already has my heart, nothing can change that. But maybe there was a reason why at 17 she did what she did, and maybe, just maybe we can get past it. I don't know, I have no idea, and frankly, I'm not counting on it, but damn it, I need to try, because you, Ellie Bartwoski, you, told me when you love someone you can't go far enough. For eight years I haven't moved, I haven't lived, I've existed, and I'm tired. I am so tired of this. She has my heart, she has my soul, and frankly, after seeing her yesterday, I think I have hers. What does it matter if I get my heart broken if I don't even have it? What does it matter that she hurts me, when I hurt and ache every damn day. Yesterday, seeing her, it didn't take the blink of an eye for EVERYTHING. Every damn feeling I've ever felt when it comes to her to come rushing back through me. I felt alive yesterday. I have to know. I have to know what happened. I have to know what I did wrong, and if she breaks my heart again, then she does, but I'll know. I can't go on not knowing anymore." Chuck left, leaving Ellie standing there crying.

"Damn IT!" she yelled in frustration to the empty house.

-ooooo-

2010

"Jenny, can you run to the store for me?" Jack asked. Jenny looked up, the dreamy look on her face turning into confusion. This was beyond not good. This was terrible. She'd fallen for the schnook. It would have been better if he was a regular guy because Jack could have counted on him to do something stupid and he could get her away. But this guy, Charlie…he was going to turn her into a minivan driving mom with 2.3 kids. He knew what had happened last night at the prom. He knew why she looked like that. She was planning the future with him, and he wasn't flinching. They were talking about colleges, they were talking about where to stay, and they were talking about forever. "Can you go to the store for me?"

"Dad, Chuck's going to be here in a minute."

"Then I guess you better hurry." She rolled her eyes and left. Jack sat on the front porch, and just like clockwork, there was Charlie. "What are you doing here?"

"I'm here to see Jenny," Chuck answered, confused.

"I don't know what to tell you, Kid, she ain't here. I assumed she was with you." Chuck looked stunned. "If she shows I'll have her call you." Chuck nodded, and left. Jack got up, went inside, and found the letter he had hidden. It was a real simple letter he had forged a few weeks ago. It was time to go, today. The letter said what had happened between them was a mistake, and he couldn't see her anymore. Short and sweet. That's how it worked. He was sure there would be tears, he was sure he'd have to console her, but she wouldn't question it, because for whatever reason, even with the schnook loving her and encouraging her, she didn't see the beautiful woman she was. She didn't have the fortitude required to question him, yet. If they stayed much longer she would, and then she'd be stuck in that life. He was doing her a favor, and one day, she'd thank him.

-ooooo-

Chuck looked at the text he had received in the car. It was Sarah's phone number and the text simply said it was from a friend. He got into the Buy More system and looked up the phone number the text had come from. It was there, like he thought it would be. His choices were very limited as to who had done this. It was a last generation phone, so it was cheaper, but he still doubt very much Anna had done it. That just left one person. One person who believed in him and Jenny Burton, now Sarah Walker.

"Chuck, buddy, what are you doing here?"

"Morgan, it's so good to see you," Chuck said, faking a panic. "I have a huge problem. Ellie deleted Sarah's phone number from my phone, and I got so upset I smashed it, so know I have to find that number."

Shock was on Morgan's face. Chuck grinned, he couldn't have planned this any better. "Well, I mean it must have been a shock, her being back in town." Chuck nodded. "How are you doing about this buddy?"

"I'm surprisingly okay, I just have one major question and I think you are the man who can help me get to the bottom of it."

"Chuck, I'm here for you, you know I'll do anything. ANYTHING."

"Okay, so here's what we got to figure out." Morgan nodded. "How do you know who Sarah Walker is?" Morgan sat there a moment.

"You know what sucks?"

"What's that?"

"When your best friend is a freaking genius."

"Would you like to answer the question?"

"No," Morgan said honestly. Chuck grinned at him. "So, she works for the State Department," he began. Chuck leaned back in his chair.

"And you saw her."

"I stormed out. I did. And then mom made me take a lasagna over to my next-door neighbor's house."

"So something good did come from you sleeping on the couch."

"Dude, can I please come back?"

"Are you still el buffo?" Morgan shrugged. "No. Did we get the contract?"

"Who do you think you're talking to?" Chuck continued to stare at him. "I liked it better when you were more retired than semi. Yes, we got it."

"Good, now I have somewhere to go." He stood and went to roll down his sleeves. Morgan shook his head. He made a noise to indicate "like this?" Morgan gave a rapid head nod.

"Not that you need it." Chuck grinned. "Dude, she is so…"

"I know, Morgan, I know."

"Chuck, you need to listen to her. You deserve it. You deserve her. She deserves you." Chuck nodded and headed out.

-ooooo-

"Mommy, are we going to Mr. Chuck's party?" Jordan asked.

"I don't know baby, I never heard from him," Sarah replied. There was a knock on the door, and Sarah was hoping it was Morgan. She went over quickly, opened the door, and couldn't help the grin that was on her face. There stood Chuck. "Of course it's you."

"Were you expecting someone else, say, shorter, a beard, and a way with the ladies?"

"Morgan has a charming twin I wasn't told about?" she asked, smirking, falling back into their own teasing ways.

"Oh, Morgan's charming, it's just you have to understand the language he speaks." He paused, and then decided what the hell, just do it, it's what they always did in the past. "So here's the silver lining of what happened." She raised and eyebrow, curious as to where this was going. "That heterosexual life partner thing you were always were worried about being something more…I found out it was heterosexual." She burst into laughter.

"God, I've missed you," she admitted. She was there, no façade, no wall, just her, right there in front of him.

"I've missed you, Walker," he replied, winking.

"Come in, Bartowski, I don't need the neighbors gawking any more than they already are."

"I have it on good authority that one is using binoculars right now." He turned and waved toward Morgan's house. Sarah chuckled as he entered. "Hey, Jordan."

"Hey, Mr. Chuck, happy birthday! Did you get any cool presents?"

"I haven't got any yet."

"I didn't buy you one, but I have one for you." Chuck grinned and looked up at Sarah.

"Runs in the family," he said, grinning. She smacked his shoulder. "What?" He went and got Chuck a piece of paper and brought it too him. Sarah's eyes were wide, she wasn't 100% sure what it was. Chuck gasped. "Did you really…did you….did you draw me Spider-Man?" How did Chuck know that was Spider-Man? Jordan was nodding his head. "And that's his spider-sense going off." How could he tell that? "Thank you, Jordan."

"Is it the best present ever?" he asked. Chuck looked up at Sarah. She nodded.

"Not quite," he admitted. "Your mommy kissed me once, and that was the second best present I ever got." Sarah looked at him, tears in her eyes.

"YUCK!" Jordan said. Chuck burst out laughing. "Wait, you kissed my Mommy, what about my Daddy?"

"Well, that was before your Daddy was around."

"I miss Daddy."

"Jordan, your Daddy will always be your daddy," Chuck said softly. "You get to miss your daddy any time you want to. I miss mine, and I haven't seen him in a very long time."

"Why did he leave?"

"I don't know, Buddy."

"Jordan, we moved away," Sarah said gently. "You know he never lived with us." Chuck looked up at her. This was one of the million things he needed to talk to her about.

"Did he not love us?"

"He loves you baby, your daddy and I…it's complicated, but he doesn't live with us because it didn't work out between us, not because he didn't love you."

"Why didn't he come see me more?" Sarah blew out a breath, she had stepped in it and didn't know how to get out of it.

"You know, Jordan," Chuck began. "Sometimes adults forget that the best thing to do is just to say what we feel. Kids are better at that adults. They say what's on their mind instead of worrying about how someone is going to react." Sarah looked at Chuck with wonder. "And sometimes we get worried about the wrong thing instead of telling those we love we love them."

"Mommy, did you get Mr. Chuck a present?" Chuck turned toward her, a smirk on his face.

"Nope, smirkers don't get presents."

"Huh, that's changed." She giggled, and turned toward the door, hearing a knock. She opened the door, and he heard a gasp. He turned and there was a tall, good looking, dare he say superheroy looking man.

"DADDY!" Jordan yelled.

-ooooo-

"Bartowski, I really need to talk to you," Casey said. John was Chuck's security consultant. After he had come out of college ready to take on the world, Chuck had discovered holes in the NSAs security. He let the NSA know, expecting nothing in return when John Casey showed up one day. Casey was a liaison between Barsoft and the US Government for two years, until he retired from the NSA and joined Chuck at Barsoft full time. They still worked with the US Government from time to time using John's government connections. He still had access to files, which apparently, he had been accessing for his apparent homework on Sarah.

"I'm the wrong Bartowski, John. Whatever crazy thing Ellie is thinking, she's probably right." Casey stood there, ladyfeelings everywhere and he was surrounded by them. "What I'm saying is, it doesn't matter. I love her." He turned to John. "You ever loved someone and you know you do regardless of the time that has passed." Casey grunted. Chuck was pretty sure that was the agreement grunt. "That's Sarah, or Jenny."

"Chuck, they're CIA." Chuck turned to look at John.

"Oh," he said.

"Do you understand what that means?"

"The Central Intelligence Agency?" Chuck answered, knowing he was making the big man testy.

"Bartowski, she's after something."

"She's a CIA agent?" Casey hemmed and hawed for a second. "Well?"

"She's a former CIA analyst, resigned." Chuck looked at him. "The guy you described is probably Daniel Shaw, CIA superagent." Chuck just stood there. "It's a cover, I'm telling you."

"So she doesn't have feelings for him?"

"What part of this are you not getting, Bartowski?"

"What part of this are you not getting, Casey? I. Love. Her."

"Who have I got to fight off now," he heard the voice behind him. He turned and there she was, smirking.

"Aren't you missing someone, about yay big?" he asked, and put his hand against his body where Jordan came up to him on.

"He's at my place, with his dad, I was hoping I could take back some cake?"

"Absolutely," Chuck said. Casey grunted and hurried off. "So he's staying there, huh?" He took a drink, the question in his eyes. Sarah stepped close, sparks seemed to shoot off their bodies toward each other.

"Yes, until I go home and then," she let it hang and smirked at him. "He's goes to his hotel room."

"Harsh," he said, winking, feeling relief inside.

"He had his shot, he's in love with someone else, she's dead." Chuck nodded. "That's why we were together to try and get over the person we couldn't have."

"Couldn't?"

"Do you want to do this here?"

"Probably not the best place," Chuck admitted. "Oh crap." Ellie stormed up to them and Sarah straightened and looked her right in the eye. Chuck could see the fear on Sarah's face. Chuck reached out and took her hand, and her eye contact with Ellie broke. Sarah looked down at their hands and then back up to him.

"Damn it," Ellie hissed and stormed off. Chuck started to take off after her, but Sarah stopped him.

"Chuck, this is on me, I've got it," Sarah said. Chuck looked at her.

"Sarah, that's Ellie. That's insanity." Sarah took his cup, and drank the rest.

"I'll need a refill when I get back," and with that she went after Ellie. She found her in the room Chuck stayed in. She was staring at the prom picture from so many years ago. "So the day after prom I came home from the grocery story and my dad gave me a note that Chuck had written telling me it was all a mistake." Ellie looked up at her. "Ellie I was 17, you know what happened that night, but you don't know my life before then and neither does he." She took a deep breath. "Dad was a con artist, and I helped him." Ellie stood. "The one thing dad always preached was love was for suckers, and some guy would always use you. I got the letter that afternoon, Dad said it was time to run, and I never questioned it. A few months later we were arrested, and I was told I had a choice. Go to jail or join the CIA for seven years. I got a degree out of it, I became an analyst, I wasn't cut out for the spy life because some nerd changed me too much." Ellie snorted. Sarah smiled at her.

"For two years all I thought about was a curly headed nerd and how could he have written that letter. I met someone, an agent, and he had lost his girlfriend. He loved her, I loved Chuck, and we…" she fiddled with her fingers for a minute looking at them. "We were good together. The problem was we had had great. We, we had had perfect." Tears were running down her cheeks. "I got pregnant, and I tried to be a mom, and a girlfriend that he'd want to marry, but we had an understanding. He was going to do whatever it took to take out those that killed his girlfriend, so he refused to get close to anyone, and I wasn't her." Ellie shook her head in near disbelief.

"He again told me nearly the same thing at Jordan's four-year-old birthday party…well, after, he missed it, because he didn't want to hurt him. He handed me a dvd my father had made." Sarah stopped. Ellie was enthralled. Sarah nodded to psych herself up and blurted it out. "Dad told me the truth. He said that he had forged the letter to "save me" and one day I'd "thank him". He said he was wrong. I resigned, came back here and began to rebuild trying to figure out how to fix this mess and tell him everything but it scares me to death. And then, then to top it all off, Jordon's dad, is reassigned to LA for "cover" purposes. Daniel is supposed to try and win me back. He explained he never had me, and never would. He's here, he's going to try and be in Jordan's life for his bosses sake, and part of me is thankful for that. Really, but Ellie…Ellie, whatever you need me to do." She took a breath as the tears continued to stream. "Whatever you need me to answer, say, confirm, take a test on, you name it, I will. I need him, Ellie. I got to live for 8 months and I need him. So you tell me, Ellie. Tell me what to do, and I'll do it." Ellie stood up, walked over in front of her, and pulled her in for a Bartowski hug.

"You just did, Sweetie, you just did."

A/N: Hoped you liked it, reviews are always welcomed…til next time.

DC