#either way this image popped into my head when I was thinking of a bday drawing
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A birthday gift I did for my pal Silver over on instagram! (ā ļ¾ā āā ć®ā āā )ā ļ¾ā *ā .ā ā§
#Tremily#my ar7#I feel like motherstone maybe did this concept many many years ago?#either way this image popped into my head when I was thinking of a bday drawing
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like weāre made of starlight (Peter/Lara Jean)
Summary:Ā āLara Jean, youāre a person before anything else.Ā I stopped having a perfect image of you in my head a long time ago.ā / Peter and Lara Jean go camping in December to catch the Geminids.Ā Oneshot. A/N: squeaking by and getting this in before the new year, whoo!Ā belated bday fic for @adribug .Ā Iām a little rusty writing for these two but I hope you enjoy some couple fluff >.<
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I have this theory about love.
It involves layersāso that a relationship might have its gooey childhood phase, and then its teenage years, and if you're lucky you eventually get to the sweet, solid outer coating of an adult kind of love.
"Like an onion," Peter says, the first time I bring this up.
I frown. "I was thinking more likeā¦ candy. Like a tootsie pop. Orā¦" I look out the window, to where the dense green forest blurs by, a solid backdrop behind the other cars whizzing down the highway. "Or tree rings. So if you sliced a relationship, you'd be able to see its stages of growth. And the deeper the feelings, the wider the ring. Or maybe width should be determined by the length of timeā¦" I'm puzzling through the specifics of my metaphor now, wondering what my relationship with Peter would look like, if it were documented in tree rings.
"Like that lab we did in environmental science," Peter says, drumming his fingers on the steering wheel.
I feel a bit bad that he's driving, especially since he already drove four hours to pick me up from school. "Y'all are gross," my friend Marcie said when we found him waiting at the Old Well. Marcie's like that. I introduced her to Peter the first time he came to visit, back in early October; she gave him a hard time then, but I could tell it was because she was testing him. By the end of the day, he'd definitely passed.
Today, we spent some time walking around so Peter could stretch his legs and eat a late lunch, and then it was back in the car. There's supposed to be a big meteor shower tonightāthe Geminidsāand Peter and I thought it'd be fun to actually camp out to see them, in the woods with a tent and everything. We made reservations at Jones Lake State Park, which is about two hours away. I couldn't have planned it more perfectly; our schedules are both wide open because of Reading Day, though I still have two finals coming up later this week, and Peter has one.
I offered to drive, but Peter had to take the van in order to fit our camping gear, and I'm not as good at handling bigger cars. I make up for it by feeding Peter bites of the special sandwiches I prepared: muffaleta with an olive-oregano-onion mix, pepperoni, prosciutto, and provolone. As Peter pulls away, chewing, several crumbs stick to the corner of his mouth.
"So where are we in all of this?" he asks.
"What?"
"You said there was teenage love and then there was 'adult love.' Which one are we?"
I consider. We're both technically adults, in the barest sense of the word, and I can see how a semester at college has already changed us. College Peter has gotten more muscular from all his lacrosse practice. He moves with less swaggerānot in a bad way, but as if he doesn't have as much to compensate for. It's a quieter kind of confidence, which I like.
But then, of course, there are all the ways that College Peter is exactly the same. He still calls me at night, right before either of us falls asleep. He still smells like Dove soap, the soft, clean boy-scent I've come to associate with comfort, and he still makes my heart beat fast when he looks over with that crooked smile of his, the light from the dying sun catching in his eyes.
I tap a finger against my lips and smile back, considering.
"I'm still figuring out," I say.
*.*.*.*
We get to the park an hour before closing.
Loose sticks and gravel crunch under our tires as we pull into our campsite. I'm out of the car as soon as Peter parks, marveling at our view.
"Peter, look, isn't it gorgeous?" We're right by the shore of the lake; in front of me stretch the placid waters, like a mirror of the sky. The surface is so still it looks like glassāI feel like if I throw a pebble at it, I'll shatter something.
Peter grunts as he starts to unload our equipment. I hurry to help him. The food takes some time to get organized. Even though it's just the two of us, I wanted the full experience, so I bought all the ingredients for s'mores. Then there are the sandwiches I made for us to eat for dinner, with plenty of extras because I know Peter will get hungry. Finally, the burritos I prepared for breakfast tomorrow, wrapped neatly in foil so that we can just heat them over the fire.
The tent takes a little more work, but we get it finished in time to watch the sunset. The meteors aren't expected to become visible until 7:30 PM, and they probably won't be at their peak until well past that, so Peter and I entertain ourselves with a puzzle and a deck of cards. I've recently started watching magic tricks on YouTube and figure that Peter's a good a person to try them out on, mostly because I know how to distract him.
All in all, things are going well, up until I need to use the restroom and remember that we're in the middle of nowhere.
When I bring this up, Peter looks unconcerned. "Just go in the woods, Lara Jean, haven't you ever been camping before?"
"Of course I have!" Twice. "But it's all dark and cold outside, and the trees are too far apart. I'll feel exposed."
"There's nobody around. And you'll be out in the open for five minutes, tops."
"Easy for you to say, you're a boy. You can justā" I pantomime the motion with my hands, which makes Peter redden slightly. His eyes dart around the tent, looking anywhere but at my face. After a beat, he heaves a sigh and gets to his feet, grabbing his fleecy orange and blue Cavaliers blanket.
"What are you doing?" I stare at him blankly.
Peter stares right back. "Coming with you. I'll hold up the blanket as a screen so you can do yourā¦" he gestures aimlessly, "ā¦business."
"Oh." My voice goes small. "Well, that's okayā"
Too late. Peter has a hand on the small of my back now and uses it to usher me out of the tent. I barely manage to grab the bag of wet wipes before we're both out in the cold, tucking our chins against our necks and hunching over to keep warm. Peter sets the pace; meanwhile, I stumble after him with the flashlight, casting a wobbly yellow beam on the ground in front of us.
Camping out in a cozy tent under the stars in order to catch a meteor shower? Romantic. Having your boyfriend accompany you into the woods so that you don't have to pee alone in the dark? Admittedly less so.
"Is this good?" Peter stops and looks back at me, gesturing toward a copse of trees. If I squint, I can make out the light of our campfire in the distance, but we're far enough away that if I shut off the flashlight we'll be plunged into relative darkness. I do that now, handing over the flashlight to Peter and fumbling blindly with all my layers. Margot taught me that it helps to find a thin tree trunk to hold onto for balanceāthen you can sit back just like you'd do at home.
Behind me, there's a rustle: Peter holding up his makeshift blanket-screen.
"Don't look!" I hiss.
"I can't see anything to begin with," Peter argues, but I know he probably has his eyes squeezed shut anyways. The air is biting cold against my skin, the woods eerily quiet, and I'm suddenly self-conscious. It's a weird feeling, to be made vulnerable by something soāmundane, as Margot would call it.
"Can you also, likeācover your ears?"
"Lara Jean," Peter says, and it's in his I'm trying very hard to be patient voice. "Look, you're a person before anything else. I stopped having a perfect image of you in my head a long time ago. Just pee."
I pause. "That'sā¦ actually really sweet, Peter."
"Always the tone of surprise," Peter grumbles, but I can tell he's pleased.
We know each other well, that way.
*.*.*.*
"Remember the poem you gave me junior year, for Valentine's Day?"
I say this with my ear pressed against Peter's chest, trying to hear his heartbeat through the puffy jacket he's wearing. From this angle, it's easy to pretend we're in a snowglobeāthe sky seems to curve over us like a dome, the stars suspended like tiny flakes of glitter. Peter shifts to put his hand behind his head.
"The moon never beams without bringing me dreams / Of beautiful Lara Jean. / And stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes / of beautiful Lara Jean," he recites. "I'm still flattered that you thought I could come up with that, even for a second."
"It's not too late to start trying now," I say, batting my eyelashes at him.
Peter laughs. I like that I can feel the rumble of it right against my cheek, all warm and chocolatey. He's been fiddling with my hairāone of his fingers gets caught in a snag and he untangles it gently, the way Kitty taught him how. I file that gesture away. When I have a daughter, I'll tell her: it's important to be with someone who has careful hands.
"Maybe I'll take a creative writing class next semester," muses Peter. "And then I really will write you an actual poem."
"I'll keep it framed in my room if you do," I tell him seriously.
"Speaking of rooms, you never ended up helping me decorate mine, by the way. It needs some of yourā¦" His hand flails. "Pizzazz."
I giggle. "Say that again."
"Pizzazz?"
"Cute." I pinch his cheek, which makes Peter roll his eyes. "What kind of vibe were you thinking?"
"I don't know." Peter's brow furrows. "Some string lights might be cool, for starters. I like the ones you have. Maybe not in pink, though."
"We can look through Pinterest together," I promise. "And then we'll goāoh, Peter, did you see that?"
"Yeah," Peter says, and then we're both pushing ourselves up on our elbows, craning our necks. More silver flashes streak across the sky, like the briefest glimpse of fish scales. A parade of meteors, of falling stars.
On the blanket, Peter's hand covers mine. He squeezes.
"Make a wish."
*.*.*.*
We go back inside the tent at around 2 AM. Cheeks numb from the cold, I immediately kick off my shoes and pull on an extra pair of socks before wriggling into my sleeping bag. Peter is close behind, already yawning, and as I turn to watch him, I realize that this is the first full night we're spending together, all by ourselves. No curfews, no one waiting for us to come home. I don't even know if Peter snores, which is a strange thing to think about, a piece of information you wouldn't expect to be missing after dating someone for almost three yearsāafter knowing them for even longer.
And what if he does snore? What if it's so loud it keeps me awake all night so that I'm cranky and can't stand to look at his pretty-boy face in the morning? And what might he learn about me, up close?
"Go to sleep, Lara Jean." Peter grumbles, his eyes shut. "I can feel you looking at me."
Scoffing, I retort, "You like being looked at." And then I roll closer, so that we're almost nose to nose, our knees bumping gently against each other, swaddled in our sleeping bags.
Maybe this is the difference between teenage love and adult love. Shedding the mystery and the allure of nighttime for the promise of morning, when we'll be at our barest. The bad breath and the messy hair and the little annoyances; the wanting to be close in spite of it all. Or maybe it's all the same in the end, night bleeding into day, and I don't need any more theories when I have the real deal right here, sleeping soft and slow. Waiting for me when I wake up.
I close my eyes.
#tatbilb#covinsky#peter kavinsky#lara jean song covey#otp: my first love story#jenny han#my writing#fanfiction#ff: tatbilb#anyways shirley !!! i can't believe how many years it's been#i'm so glad we finally got to meet irl and look forward to more meet ups#thank you for always being so funny and relatable and encouraging#hang in there and keep kicking ass at your pharm program !
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Get to Know Me Uncomfortably Well (Filled Out)
@southeastasyano wanted me to completely fill out these 100 questions and a bonus one, and an anonymous asker wanted me to answer just a few. So here ya go! Go on and stalk me, young ones.
For the questions below the cut, I tag: @southeastasyano, @fukigen-na-boy, @prfm-au, @prfm-us, @housekinoame, @cosmog-explorer, @jenmarii, @chrism-sol, @p-r-f-m, @securitylucy, @a-chan-san and @jeffhardys!
What is your middle name? I never use it on my passports or regularly, but I do have a middle name. But I donāt wanna say it >///<
How old are you? I am currently 17 years old!
When is your birthday? June 24th!
What is your zodiac sign? Cancer (yes, Iām that mentally unstable b*tch)
What is your favorite color? Green all the f*cking way!!
Whatās your lucky number? 3
Do you have any pets? I had two fish, but they died when I was 11 :ā(
Where are you from? While I was born in London, United Kingdom, my family originates from Sri Lanka
How tall are you? I am 6 foot 1 inch.
What shoe size are you? I am only UK size 7.
How many pairs of shoes do you own? I own only five pairs of shoes.
What was your last dream about? It was a dream in which my best friend committed suicide... Yeah, it was grim, and was more of a nightmare :(
What talents do you have? I am pretty good when it comes to learning foreign languages, and I play piano maybe kinda semi-decently well? I can also do that thing where I can show the red bit inside my eyes, and I can fit my whole fist in my mouth.
Are you psychic in any way? Ask @prfm-us
Favourite song? āNew Americanaā by Halsey orĀ āI Know Placesā by Taylor Swift orĀ āWarm Bloodā by Carly Rae Jepsen...
Favourite movie? It would have to beĀ āThe Emoji Movieā
Who would be your ideal partner? James Wright <3 Well, he is my bf so, um, yay?
Do you want children? Yup, Iād love to see my kid go through life and me be likeĀ āha, I remember when I went through that shizzā
Do you want a church wedding? Well, Iām a Buddhist and I donāt know how they do weddings, so I guess Iād be fine with a civil ceremony of sorts..?
Are you religious? Not at all, and Iām not really sad about it either.
Have you ever been to the hospital? So many f*cking times, honestly. Some werenāt as bad, whereas there is one in particular that will always be my worst ever day alive.
Have you ever got in trouble with the law? Nope, Iām pretty submissive with the law, Iām too scared of punishment haha
Have you ever met any celebrities? When I was in primary school, I was chosen to go meet the Queen and that was pretty cool. We gave her like this bouquet of flowers and she didnāt seem very appreciative. (Just kidding, I love you, Lizzie)
Baths or showers? I prefer baths, but I always have showers because otherwise I might never come out.
What colourĀ socks are you wearing? Iām wearing black socks which sayĀ āThursdayā in green font. And yes, it is Thursday where I am, my OCD is too much.
Have you ever been famous? Well, Kyary tweeted my video once and I f*cking YELLED, but no, Iām pretty irrelevant!
Would you like to be a big celebrity? No haha, I wouldnāt be able to handle that much attention to be honest.
What type of music do you like? Electropop, I guess is what it is. I also like modern 80s pop (does that make sense) and also EDM.
Have you ever been skinny dipping? No, haha, I think that just isnāt a very common thing in Britain.
How many pillows do you sleep with? Just one, under my head.
What position do you usually sleep in? I sleep like a fetus does in the womb. Enjoy that mental image.
How big is your house? 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms. Not amazing, but my family is somewhat well-off.
What do you typically have for breakfast? Basic cereal, generally.
Have you ever fired a gun? Yup, I spent a short while in my schoolās combined cadet force before deciding that it wasnāt for me.
Have you ever tried archery? No, I think I have terrible hand-eye co-ordination anyway haha
Favorite clean word? If you mean normal, random word, then my favourite is kumquat.
Favorite swear word? My favourite swear word on itās own is c*nt because I love how it rolls off the tongue, it just sounds like pure spite. In an insult, definitely f*cknut or f*cktard is a common resort for me.
Whatās the longest youāve ever gone without sleep? 4 days, powered by a coffee each day. And I wasnāt even tired, people basically forced me to have coffee.
Do you have any scars? I have one on my leg from a surgery where they put a metal screw in my hip to make sure that it grew straight (well I didnāt turn out straight, but my leg did). Also, I still have a few old ones on my thighs and wrists...
Have you ever had a secret admirer? Ahahahahahaha, as if anyone would go to that effort over someone like me.
Are you a good liar? If I do say so myself, yes, I am. Or was I lying there?!?!?!?!
Are you a good judge of character? Ask @prfm-us
Can you do any other accents other than your own? I can do an LA valley accent..?
Do you have a strong accent? I have a strong British accent, and then I have a semi-strong Essex accent layered on top, so words likeĀ āfamā andĀ ālitā just sneak their way into my speech.
What is your favouriteĀ accent? Canadian and Australian are my favs!!
What is your personality type? Unstable, but caring..? <3
What is your most expensive piece of clothing? I have a Ā£45 tie that someone gave me as a bday gift. Yes, I donāt get spending tons on clothes...
Can you curl your tongue? I can do it into a U shape and that weird W shape thingy.
Are you an innie or an outie? Innie. Is this really helpful information to you?
Left or right handed? Right handed!
Are you scared of spiders? DONāT GET ME STARTED. I get terrified of the worldās smalliest spiders and I will legit scream and chuck my phone across the room and everyone else will just be confused.
Favorite food? Profiteroles..?
Favorite foreign food? Um, maybe, poutine? Tim Hortonās? Basically I love Canada.
Are you a clean or messy person? Clean, always clean. I cannot function in a messy environment.
Most used phrase? āI put the SAD in Social Anxiety Disorderā. Yes, I am too real sometimes.
Most used word? Well, itās probablyĀ ātheā,Ā āaā orĀ ālopsidedā
How long does it take for you to get ready? Literally around ten minutes.
Do you have much of an ego? I mean, I donāt have a shred of self-confidence, so no..?
Do you suck or bite lollipops? I donāt know what this shows about my gay self, but I suck... yeah.
Do you talk to yourself? When Iām intensely lonely or need to calm myself down.
Do you sing to yourself? All the time. I cannot listen to any music without dancing and/or singing to it.
Are you a good singer? Hell no!
Biggest fear? Losing those who are closest to me. Oh, and f*cking spiders.
Are you a gossip? Nope, I guess iām just not in that circle.
Best dramatic movie youāve seen? I canāt name the best Iāve ever watched, but I recently watched a British-made film calledĀ āI, Daniel Blakeā and I really liked it.
Do you like long or short hair? Short hair.
Can you name all 50 states of America? No, Iām British.
FavouriteĀ school subject? German or Physics!
Extrovert or Introvert? Introvert 100%
Have you ever been scuba diving? Yup, Iāve been in Sri Lanka
What makes you nervous? The dark and silence.
Are you scared of the dark? Oh, I just accidentally answered that. Yes, I am.
Do you correct people when they make mistakes? Only when itās appropriate, I donāt want to bother people!
Are you ticklish? VERY ticklish! If you touch my neck, Iāll be on the floor in a few seconds.
Have you ever started a rumour? No haha Iād get baited out so quickly.
Have you ever been in a position of authority? I was an editor for my school newspaper? I mean, it wasnāt that thrilling at all
Have you ever drank underage? In the UK, the legal drinking age is 18, Iām 17, and although Iāve never gotten hammered or drunk vodka and stuff like that, I have had very light alcohol for the taste!
Have you ever done drugs? God no, and I intend never to!
Who was your first real crush? Ugh, it seems so immature when I see it now, but there was this cute guy called Josh in my class who kept paying so much attention to me, so I asked him out, and he was likeĀ āHowād you know I was gay? Oh, and Iām not interestedā. Yeah, I cried that night haha
How many piercings do you have? None!
Can you roll your āRās? I can <3
How fast can you type? Around 75 words-per-minute (I used an online typing test just now!)
How fast can you run? I think I run pretty slow! In school, I was just average, in the middle, but Iām not going to be winning any fun-runs :P
What colourĀ is your hair? Jet black, but any other colour would look out out place on my brown skin :D
What colourĀ are your eyes? A relatively dark brown, but they are still visibly brown in the sun.
What are you allergic to? Nothing, as far as I know :)
Do you keep a journal? I keep a kinda mood tracking thingamajig through an app calledĀ āPacificaā. Itās great for anyone tackling stress or any mental disorders such as depression, anxiety, bipolar, etc. But other than that, I donāt keep a journal as such, no.
What do your parents do? My father is a physiotherapist, and my mother is a fraud investigator; she works for the government to find people who are illegally claiming benefits.
Do you like your age? No, because itās tooĀ āin the middleā! If I was below the age of 14, Iād be able to relax and be pretty carefree, and if I was above the age of, say 25, I wouldnāt be studying random crap that will never come up in the future and will actually be doing worthwhile things. Instead, Iām 17 and I need to study stuff that wonāt come up even in my degree, and itās almost impossible to find motivation right now.
What makes you angry? People making mistakes when I literally warned them not to; they were just that f*cking ignorant.
Do you like your own name? Some people know, but no, I donāt like my name. I feel like it just sounds a weird, so whenever I tell someone my name, I always include some disclaimer likeĀ āOh, itās a weird Asian nameā.
Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? Nope, I havenāt thought of any! I mean, unless I name my kids Dan and Phil...
Do you want a boy a girl for a child? Call me sexist, but I want a boy!
What are you strengths? I can fit my whole fist in my mouth, and Iām pretty good at languages.
What are your weaknesses? Iām quite sensitive and sometimes I get carried away with jokes.
How did you get your name? Well, my parents called over some kinda psychic name-giver as soon as I was born, and theyād use my star sign, read my palm and use God knows whatever info they could make up, and then name me based on it. That gave meĀ āYasathā, which Iām pretty sure meansĀ ātreasureā or something.
Were your ancestors royalty? No, but they were pretty high up in government jobs :]
Do you have any scars? Thatās Question 39, so just refer back to that :3
Colour of your bedspread? It is white and brown. Hey, itās like me! Sorry, bad joke.
Colour of your room? It has generic, textured cream (I think) wallpaper.
Does it ever get better? I like to think so, and itās usually the only shred of hope I have left. But if you think it will never get better, then it wonāt ever get better, because you wonāt let it get better! So yeah, just have that small light at the end of the tunnel in mind whenever youāre starting to lose hope in yourself <3
Jeeeeeeez, that was long! I hope someone enjoyed that at least haha
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