#ed vents

[lookitseddie]

i've said it before but having a personal baymax would actually, genuinely, heal me :(

[nicotine-and-caffeine-x]

[medical-angel]

I feel terrible. I can't remember if I always feel this bad over a little ear infection or if restricting and exercising is making the healing process a lot more arduous on my body. I know that I'm high risk for infections and always a slight breeze away from going to the ER, but like. I've barely made a dent in my weight, and if I gain any of it back I'm worried it'll get out of control. I want this to be over as soon as possible. I don't know how much longer I can stick with this "meal program" just to hopefully get attention and credit from my family and doctors.

[saddi3grl]

[onevibrant]

Pants getting loose is so fun but also unsettling like wdym I used to be fat enough to fit into those?

[riceballkittykie]

THIS MONTHS CHOICES ARE NEXT MONTHS BODY

[lanadelreyrexii]

i feel ashamed that i have an ed and i am not skinny

[littlelilaclina]

if you’re an 3d account please reblog this!! i need more mutuals<4

[fvckyujay]

“Binging because you ate two cookies

Is like

Stomping on your phone because you dropped it”

[lookitseddie]

turns out i'm the one who is responsible for my future. it was nice knowing y'all, but i'm screwed 🙏

[nicotine-and-caffeine-x]

Y’all. I’ve finally been depressed enough to restrict again. Restricting made me manic and honestly, turning that mania into positive energy. I deep cleaned the whole house (kitchen twice bc dogs that shed) and I even started to laundry that was piling up. While I do not condone restricting just to do so, being mentally ill is confusing but I’ll take the motivation it is giving me.

[meamoon34]

Is it just me or is it so easy to starve and then the moment you eat all of a sudden your body remembers it can consume and nothing is enough

like STOOP you don't need this, shhh quiet down

[rararahp]

gym bros undereat and call it a cut and nobody bats an eye, i undereat and society.. society says i have an ed

[angelieebnes]

Control yourself.

You are the only one in control, not your family, not your friends, only you. You’re the only one who is in charge.

When you overeat like a pig, you’re the one who is deciding to do that. You’re the one who is picking up the fork and gorging yourself like an animal, and then you complain about how fat you are.

It’s completely your fault that you’re fat and you’re the only one who can fix that.

[ieato2]

be better than good enough.

be skinnier than her.

be the skinniest in the room.

have the power.

being skinny is powerful.

[poison-barbzz]

You know for somebody who let's their ed rule their life, I sure do suck at having an ed