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#two tpot#tpot#bfb#bfdi#xfohv#osc#my art#art#eleanors ancient sea#mine#i havent been able to focus on anything meaningful because of school. ggggrrrrrrrrrr#dw im gonna go hard this summer i promise
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Hey hey, i get what's like trying to live up to people's expectations, I've been there as well (tho last summer.. things did not turn out the way it should.. I felt scarred, especially people out there who are trying to choose some paths for me, even if I didn't want to, but I am working hard with studies and hoping for the best) you are doing your best, and that's what should matter, "high grades" never defines your IQ or anything like that, you are working hard to get the promising future that you want and that's truly matter, it's okay to have ups and downs in your grades, it should never make you feel horrible if you made mistakes, you should be proud that you are a hardworker, and I know, that things will go well for you and you will go to the college of your dreams!! Just don't overwork yourself! (Like I did last year) take breaks whenever you need to, be confident in yourself!! (If you don't, then I will attack you with support and reassurance >:3) you are great just the way you are!! You are good to go sis! 😊💗💗🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶
Cuss the culture, don't listen to those schmucks who make you feel tired and upset, you are great!! >:)
Also you sent me a thanks doodle which drew a smile in my face 🥺🩷🩷🩷🫶🫶🫶
Here is a doodle of me wishing you the best luck!! You can do it!! 💗💗💗💗💗
THIS.
This kind of reassurance. WAAAHHHH THANK YOU❣️ you're such an opposite to me (im a negative thinker in life but in here im gonna attack with meme guns Xp)
I also gave up on being an academic achiever. Now, what i only want is to survive.
Man I've open up wayyyy more than i should be, but its okay dw. Its nice to have someone listen to some of my problems aside from my irl friends (i rarely open up to anyone, even to my parents or my friends. I just shrug it off and make a joke out of it but the worst is when it becomes to much and i cant laugh or smile unless the crisis im having is over)
But yah anyways, its nice to have someone listen to me. Thank you for reassuring me and cheering me up, Melody🤧
#ask answered#siren screams#fishies<3#did i say thank you too much-#nah I'll say it again#a big THANK YOU💜💗💜💗💜
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Broken Arm
Tw: Major character death, reference (slight reference) to self harm- unrelated to the death dw im so sorry im so sorry im so sorry im so sorry im so sorry im so sorry im s- g/t mean girls
The air smelled of disinfectant mixed with depression.
I couldn't tell if it was that or the pit of anxiety that was making me nauseous as I stare numbly at my arm, freshly casted. The bright lights and hushed voices of the hospital didn't feel real. Like, I knew I was here on Cady's shoulder, leaning against Aaron, but at the same time, I wasn't here.
Or I'd rather not be at least.
I hoped I could wake up from this nightmare. Any minute now Damian would nudge me awake, school day over or something.
But this wasn't a dream because the pain was all too real.
I stare blankly down the hall. The hall where they rushed him.
Damian got hurt the worst.
My stomach tightened thinking about it.
Cady had her head in her hands mumbling about a concussion. Gretchen set with her hands folded neatly in her lap, looking out into nothingness. Both Karen and Regina were crying softly, looking shaken up.
The sound of doors slamming down the hall makes us all lookup.
Ms. Hubbard runs into the room, teary-eyed and bewildered.
"Where?"
Karen points down the hall. "They won't let anyone in."
"What happened?" She says after getting a good look at all of us. "Jesus are you all okay?"
It wasn't hard to see where Damian got his motherly instincts from.
"Janis, your arm!"
Ms. Hubbard rushed over, promptly scooping me off Cady's shoulder.
"Know how they say tinies shouldn't ride unsecured on a shoulder when in a car? This is why." I motion to the cast. "Somebody blew through the intersection. Hit driver's side, right-right uh, where Damian was." I look. down, swallowing hard. "I fell."
"And this is why we have safety regulations. Who else got hurt?"
Mama Bear Hubbard went around the room making sure everyone was okay. It was a nice distraction from what was going on down the hall. For all of us.
"Cady, I'm very grateful you wore your seatbelt otherwise it could be worse than a concussion."
"Gretchen, I hope the scratch on your arm heals."
"Regina, maybe take a nap you'll feel better."
I couldn't help but smile.
Ms. Hubbard lifted me to her shoulder and I sat down as she found a seat next to Cady.
Everything felt harder with one arm, but one thing Damian takes after his mom is walking smoothly without bouncing or sudden jolts.
The waiting room was silent again.
It feels like we sit for hours.
Maybe it was.
It was probably only minutes.
A doctor emerged from the hallway where Damian was.
Ms. Hubbard stands quickly, silently scooping me off her shoulder and handing me to Cady. She rushed over to the doctor and we all watch wordlessly.
We can't hear what they're saying but body langue isn't had to read in these situations.
They talk for a bit before Ms. Hubbard's hand shoots to her mouth.
The waiting room once filled with clicking of keyboards and buzzing of lights was now filled with gut-wrenching sobs.
Aaron wrapped his arm around me, pulling me closer. We all knew whatever news was coming couldn't be good.
I didn't want to hear it.
But I listened anyway.
A week.
They say he has a week.
At most.
He was awake but- in pain.
Ms. Hubbard was in the room right now talking.
Visiting hours for today would be over soon but if we all spoke for ten minutes each-
Ten minutes wasn't enough.
Ten minutes won't ever be enough.
I'd have more time tomorrow.
A week.
The news made my head spin.
I couldn't just have a week left with Damian.
We were supposed to have the rest of our lives.
We were fric and frac. You never saw one without the other.
It can't just be a week.
Ms. Hubbard stepped out of the room, glancing at all of us. If her teary-eyed expression mirrored our own, then we all looked like a mess. I felt like a mess.
"Janis," Aaron said softly, rubbing my uninjured arm. "You wanna go in first?"
I didn't, actually. I didn't want to go in at all. I didn't want to go in and have the situation solidified. I didn't-
"Yeah. I'll go."
Cady didn't move but Karen came over, lifting me gently off Cady's shoulder.
Aaron leaned back by Cady's neck as Karen walked away.
The whole group looked distraught, I could only imagine what I looked like.
I looked down as Karen opened the door to the room. My finger trailed over my cast, as I looked everywhere other than the bed in front of us.
"Hey, guys."
My head snaps up at the voice. Damian sounded in pain just to talk. The tears in my eyes were back.
I wasn't gonna cry in front of him.
He deserves better than that.
Damian didn't look like he had just been hit by a car. I don't know how I expected him to look. Maybe completely casted like in the cartoons. Instead, he just looked pale. There was a bandage on the side of his head right by his hairline and his entire left arm was wrapped up and gauzed.
The side the car hit.
I swallow thickly, trying not to cry.
"You guys don't have to just stand by the door," Damian said with a humorless laugh.
"Right." Karen set me on the table next to the bed and silently waved a quick goodbye.
Despite the slow beeping of the heart monitor, the room felt deafening quiet.
"Hi," I say flatly.
Things were never weird around Damian before. We always knew just what to say to each other and when. But- I was at a loss.
What do you say when your best friend is dying in a hospital bed?
There's no go-to small talk for that.
"You okay?" Damian asks me. His eyes don't have their usual shine and I force myself to look away.
"Yeah."
"You sure? I can't imagine your arm feels great."
"This isn't about me." I cross my arms over my chest, as best I can with the cast.
"Janis," Damian frowns. "What's wrong?"
"What's wrong? Damian! You're in a hospital bed and you're worried about me." I step backward, blinking violently to stop the tears from falling.
Damian smiled sadly. "I want to make sure you're okay. I'm dying there's nothing they can do."
"Don't say that."
"Janis, it's true."
"But you don't have to say it!"
Damian doesn't say anything to counter my outburst, he just sits there quietly.
It's almost worse.
Great.
My best friend is dying and I yelled at him.
I'm a shitty friend and a shitty person.
Damian deserves so much better. So much more.
But I can't give it to him.
All I can do is yell and be a little bitch.
Maybe I shouldn't have come in.
This was a mistake.
I glare down at my boots, almost like it's their fault.
My vision is blurred with tears that I refuse to let fall.
"Jan?" Damian says after a while.
I look up expecting to see anger because I yelled. Resentment, bitterness, something.
But there was none.
Damian looked at me sadly, more worried if anything.
"C'mere."
I step to the edge of the table as Damian reaches out. I can't imagine it doesn't hurt and a familiar pit of guilt forms in my stomach as normal when I'm being a nuisance.
Damian scoops me up gently and I try to ignore how his hands shake underneath me, or how they aren't as warm as normal. I try to ignore the way his face has lost all color. The way his eyes look dull and lost.
I try to ignore the fact that my best friend is fucking dying.
He holds me gently against his chest, something he has done so many times before. Whether it was to watch a movie on a Friday night or for a mid-day nap during the hot summers. But this was different.
His heartbeat was concerningly soft. The comforting beat was faint and dull.
Tears burning in my eyes again as I leaned backward into Damian's cupped hand.
He was dying.
My best friend was dying.
My giant was dying.
Damian was dying.
"I love you, Janis," He whispered, his fingers cupping around me more. "So so much."
It's futile to hold back the tears now. I try unsuccessfully anyway. "I love you too."
There are tears in Damian's eyes too and something about knowing he's crying too makes it so much harder to stop the flow of tears. I cover my mouth as I try to bite back a sob, being wildly unsuccessful.
"Damian, I can't- I just-"
My brain can't put together sentences.
Damian is dying.
It's the only coherent thought my brain can make. Like a broken record with the needle stuck on the same part.
Damian is dying. He's gonna die. There's nothing I can do to stop it or help. He's dying.
"Hey," Damian hold's me closer. "You're so strong. You'll be okay. You're the toughest person I know. You've been through so much and you will get through this. Okay? You're so brave and I know you'll be okay. Just promise me you won't do anything stupid."
I don't respond. I can't make that promise. I cant-
"Janis. Please. Do it for me." Damian sounds so feeble, so scared, so broke.
To see Damian, the person who had always been my rock and safe place, the one with the level head who always knew what to do, look as lost as I did-
"I'll try. I promise."
"Okay." He said softly. We didn't talk for a bit, we just sat there. I tried to convince myself it was like normal. Like any day I'm just held to Damian's chest.
But it wasn't normal.
His breaths were shallow, my arm ached, and the unspoken goodbyes hung heavy in the room.
There was a knock at the door after a while. Gretchen stood there. "It's been ten minutes."
"Oh, okay." Damian nodded, bringing his hand away from his chest.
I didn't want to leave.
Not yet.
I thought we had the rest of our lives to hang out. Not we only have a week.
At most.
Ten minutes isn't nearly enough.
"I'll be back tomorrow," I say, hugging his finger. "I love you."
"I love you too, Jan."
I let go and allow myself to get picked up by Gretchen, despite wanting to just stay and cry.
I can't bring myself to look back as we leave. Cady is waiting outside the room and steps in the second Gretchen walks out.
The rest of the night is a big blur. I slumped against Regina the second I was lowered to one of the tables and for the most part, zoned out. But I couldn't sleep. The events of today flashed before my eyes every time I closed them.
"Hey, Janis?" Regina nudged me. "You wanna stay with me for the night?"
My initial reaction was to say no and go home, but-
I thought back to my promise I made to Damian.
It would be easier not to hurt myself with somebody else around.
Besides, company didn't sound like the worst thing in the world right now.
"Sure," I say softly.
Regina stands, pulling me up with her. "Gretch is gonna drive us."
"Okay."
Gretchen lifts both of us as she brings her hand to her shoulder.
I climb on numbly. My movements feel sluggish, like each limb has a fifty-pound dumbbell attached.
We wave goodbye to Ms. Hubbard as we leave. She's driving Cady and Aaron home them coming back. Every part of me wanted to ask to stay with her. I know she'd say yes but- she needs time alone with her son.
I can't be selfish.
Karen is also getting a ride home from Gretchen and she holds Regina and I as Gretchen drives. No more on the shoulder when someone drives.
I spend the entire ride looking at my cast. The plastics around me talk but I don't pay attention. They don't expect me to.
Regina and I get dropped off at the edge of tiny town. Its a bit of a walk to the George's and we treck in silence.
It's dark out.
The tiny area of Northshore doesn't have many streetlights, but the lights from houses illuminate the sidewalk well enough.
I stop at my house first, grabbing a few things for an overnight trip.
My parents aren't home.
I'm glad though. If I saw them right now I may start to cry all over again.
I think I've done a pretty good job of bottling up my feelings from today. Not that it's healthy.
I can't have everyone worrying about me though. We have to worry about Damian.
Tomorrow felt so far away.
We make it to the Geroge household and Regina turns to me, speaking softly. "I'm gonna go fill my mom in more. You know the way to my room. Make yourself comfy."
I nod, turning to the stairs. I hear Regina and Ms. George talking as I step into Regina's room.
It didn't change much since we were in eighth grade.
Our rooms used to be identically pink. Same bedspread, same pink-themed boy band posters, same fairy lights.
Then the pool party happened.
My room changed drastically.
Regina's shed the old posters.
I toe off my boots leaving them at the foot of her bed and shed my jacket, letting it fall to the ground next to the books.
I flop back onto the plush mattress, the twinkling canopy of lights above me.
Turning on my side and bringing my feet up to curl into a ball, I'm mindful of my arm, trying to ignore the way it aches.
If today went as planned- what would I be doing right now?
I'd be with Damian obviously.
My eyelids feel heavy but I can't sleep. I don't want to replay the memories of earlier.
I don't want to even think of the nightmares that could stem from it.
We had been so happy.
I was on Damian's shoulder bickering about him playing more broadway songs.
"Driver gets aux. Not only does the driver get aux, but this is also my car, Jan."
"But-"
Damian chuckled shrugging his shoulder a bit, making me lose my balance.
"Hey!"
Cady grinned at us from the passenger seat. "Today was fun guys!"
"I agree," Karen said.
The skies were turning shades of purple as Damian drove home. The gang had spent the day a couple of towns over just exploring. It was the little things like that where they had the most fun.
Damian flicked on his headlights. "I didn't think we would stay that long." He says honestly.
"Yeah, who knew exploring a town square could be a full-day event!" Aaron said from his spot in Cady's hands.
I grinned leaning against Damian's neck.
The plastics sat in the back seat talking amongst themselves, Damian or Cady occasionally chiming in.
Despite my very clear opposition to it, show tunes were playing softly through the speakers.
I look out the driver's side window at all the houses we passed. People sat on front porches talking, others walked their dogs.
We were on the main road so all roads we intersected with had the stop sign, not us.
That made it easier for me as the tiny. I didn't have to worry about stopping short and going flying.
It happened so fast, none of us really had time to react.
Gretchen made some offhanded remark about the music and how it was "Janis's favorite".
I scoff, glancing out the window-
-only to see headlights.
"Janis."
I jump, Regina had walked into the room.
"Sorry, got lost in thought."
"I figured."
I sat up, swinging my feet over the edge of the bed as Regina sat next to me. "You okay?"
"As okay as I can be."
Regina tsks, wrapping her arm around me and pulling me closer. It's one of those times where you know talking won't do anything so you don't try.
The headlights.
The impact.
The pain.
Damian.
It was all slowly catching up.
I look at my arm. "Today didn't feel real."
"I know," Regina said softly. "I know."
My phone rings from where I left it still in my jacket and we both jump.
I fish it out of the pocket, frowning at the caller ID. "It's Damian's mom."
"Pick up."
"Right."
I raise the phone to my ear, my mind racing through all the possible reasons Ms. Hubbard could be calling.
I just hoped it wasn't-
There was crying on the other end.
-that.
"Hello?" I say shakily.
"Janis, the doctors were wrong. They- he- oh god. Damian-" There's a breath on the other end and I feel like I'm gonna puke from anxiety. "Damian died. He-"
For a second I think I misheard her.
"Wait- what?"
Then there are tears on the other end.
I didn't mishear.
Ms. Hubbard talks some more but-
I'm not listening.
I didn't mishear. I didn't mishear. I didn't mishear.
I had to have misheard.
But I didn't.
The phone in my ear feels like a dull buzz. My brain isn't understanding what Ms. Hubbard is saying.
It didn't make sense.
We were supposed to have a week.
I was supposed to see him tomorrow.
Tomorrow.
We don't get a tomorrow.
Damian is gone.
The realization clicks and it feels like a punch to the gut.
No.
I sink to the floor, my phone falling out of my hand. Its the least of my worries right now.
No.
The world around me doesn't feel real. It doesn't feel important. I'm vaguely aware of Regina by my side, pulling me into a hug and talking on my phone.
No.
I'm vaguely aware of the tears falling from my cheeks. I'm vaguely aware of the way they hit Regina's shoulder, the mascara staining the designer fabric.
I don't care enough to pull away.
I don't care at all.
I went from spending the rest of my life with my best friend, to a week, to never seeing him again.
In a matter of hours.
It didn't feel real.
But if it hurt this much when it didn't sink in- then I don't want it to sink in.
Regina placed my phone down, her arms wrapping tightly around me as my body shakes with sobs.
Only four hours ago we were trying out different ice cream flavors a town over.
We were making fun of Gretchen and Regina, posing like basic white girls for the camera.
But now-
I'm dimly aware of Regina talking but my brain cant process.
Damian's dead.
My best friend.
My other half.
The person who would stand by me for life.
Someone I could always count on.
Someone I love.
Was dead.
"He's gone." I whisper, my voice thick with tears.
"I know." Regina sounds just as broken as I bury my face in her shoulder.
"He can't be gone."
"He is."
We stop talking after that. We're still in the middle of Regina's bedroom floor but the thought of moving right now feels unbearable.
Doing anything right now feels unbearable.
What's the point?
He's gone.
He's gone. He's gone. He's gone.
It physically hurt.
I couldn't move, I couldn't talk, I couldn't breathe.
Each shallow inhale was met with forceful cries.
He's gone.
Regina hugs me tighter as another sob escapes my mouth.
I know it's late and for the sake of others in the George household I should try and quiet down but-
Damian's gone.
I feel a spot of wetness through my shirt and realize- Regina is crying too.
Who wouldn't? Damian is gone.
The mom of the friend group, the light whenever one of us was sad, the only one who was willing to stick up for tinies regardless if he knew them or not. He was sweet to everyone, and always welcoming.
That was rare in Northshore.
Now it's gone.
Now he's gone.
My mind kept saying it but it didn't feel real.
He couldn't be.
No.
Damian was my rock. I needed him. He needed me. We needed each other. What am I supposed to do now?
He cared when no one else did.
He made me feel loved and important when no one else would.
Even as I sat here in Regina's arm, I never felt more alone.
More lost.
Damian was dead.
I wouldn't get to see him tomorrow- I wouldn't get to see him ever again.
"Regina-"
"Shhh, I know." Her fingers ran through my hair gently removing the knots from the day. "I know."
But she didn't.
She wasn't there when I hit rock bottom. She wasn't there when Damian was. She didn't know how much I needed him.
I slump into Regina, completely drained of tears. She continues her work on my hair, it would be a lot quicker if she had a brush but- it felt nice.
"I miss him," I say bitterly. With the tears out, I felt angry. Angry at the world for doing this. Angry at the driver for blowing through an intersection. Angry at myself for not doing more. Not being able to do more.
"Hey, stop that." Regina says suddenly, grabbing my nonbroken arm.
Huh?
Oh.
I had been scratching my thigh without even thinking about it.
My fishnets were ripped and four long red lines stood in their place.
It didn't come close to breaking the skin, but Regina gently held my hand anyway. "Remember your promise to Damian."
"How?"
"He wanted to make sure you were okay, no matter what happened. I mean- we all do- but you know Damian."
"Yeah," I say softly. Of course, Damian was more worried about me even-
Even on his death bed.
Because he’s dead now.
He’s gone.
I frown, pulling away from Regina.
"I'm tired."
She nods. "Okay, you go to bed, I gotta- make a few calls, okay?"
"Okay."
I don't bother to change into the pajamas I brought, I just flop down on Regina's bed.
I can almost hear Damian telling me to change out of my fishnets and remove my contacts and take off my makeup- all the things I should do.
But the second I'm lying down- there's no getting up again.
I don't want to ever get up again.
He's gone.
Damian is gone.
He couldn't be.
It wasn't real.
I had to wake up from whatever hellish nightmare this was.
I look down at my cast.
A painful reminder of reality.
A painful reminder of today.
I twist so I'm on my back with my cast resting on my chest as Regina leaves the room, leaving the door cracked behind her.
"Hey Cady, I have news. Aaron with you?"
guys- listen. this could be the angstiest shit ever or not at all- ive read it so many times im desensitized. So yeah, sorry if broke your heart, ill try harder next time if I didnt. now who wants fluff? or tiny swap p2 lmao @realmisspolarbear @musicallygt @smallsoysauce @sourishlemons
#g/t mean girls#tiny janis#giant damian#tiny regina#giant cady#giant gretchen#giant karen#tiny aaron#i dont wanna point spoilish tags#just-#whoops
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university!au: day6 wonpil
first of all i will definitely do poorly on this because,,, you know,,,,, he’s so precious and i don’t think my words can do it justice ksbdjshs i wanna make the sweetest scenario for him
but i suck at sweet stuffs smh bye
name: kim wonpil
major: modeling (i still cant believe this is an actual major im living under a rock smh)
other activities: member of music club, keyboardist and main singer of the university band
jae calls him “the backbone” of the music club because wonpil participates in all club events, he always takes part in weekly activities, and he actively finds new recruits
jae on the other side pops up once in a blue moon to play guitar, do shit, then disappears
don’t worry ever since jae starts dating the newest member who happens to be wonpil’s bestie he’s more active now
honestly more than half of their club members joined because wonpil made them to
he’s persuasive and convincing okay you would end up eating rocks if he told you it’s good for health
but he’ll never do that ever bc he speaks no lies okay he’s like the sweetest person in the earth
he’ll cry by the sight of cute puppies, do i have to explain further
wonpil was nominated as the club president but the other candidate park sungjin who’s also his roommate beat him by one vote
well he prefers to be just regular member anyway, that way he can still do a lot of things for the club but with less responsibilities
you see he’s really nice, he’s caring, he’s hardworking, he’s confident, he knows how to present himself and he’s hella attractive
he’s taking modeling as his major do i make myself clear
everyone LOVES wonpil
and i mean sometimes it’s just not only a platonic love but like an “i will give you my heart and soul please marry me” love
too bad he’s oblivious af
someone: i,, i like you wonpil,,,, d-do you like me too?
wonpil: of course!!! you’re my friend!!!!!!!!!
someone: ….oh ok
accidental friendzone
but you know he doesnt actually mean to do that, he just doesn’t think anyone likes him like that
moreover he already has someone in mind
aka the coffee shop girl
aka Y O U
yeah hello guys i am: still lame
the first time he met you was on exams week
everyone was busy and stressed af and running on almost no sleep
except maybe wonpil
not because he was fully prepared but more like he forgot exams week was coming until the day before so he just decided to wing it lol whatevs
anyway his roommate aka sungjin asked him if he could go buy him a double shot espresso so wonpil did
he rarely visits coffee shops tbh and when he does he always orders vanilla latte with extra syrup for himself
wonpil seems to be that kinda person who tries to enjoy coffee but can’t handle the bitter taste its so frickin cute and trust me you think so too
so anywayyyy yeah he never saw you, aka the new barista, before
it was ur first work day as well btw and he was ur first customer
he didn’t know why but watching you being nervous made him nervous too
just imagine a stuttering costumer and a stuttering barista
everyone watched you two with anxiety
but even when wonpil was a nervous wreck he didn’t forget to smile and before leaving he said to you, “thanks, have a great day!!!!!!!!!!!”
honest to god it made your whole day better
anyway let’s move on to the second meeting
he comes back and this time he orders a vanilla latte, but being the clumsy ass that you are, you slightly confused his order
he receives his coffee and takes a sip and he freezes
you ask whats wrong and he’s like,, uh nothing,, the coffee is just,,,, kinda bitter today??? ha,,,hahahhaha,,,,
you stand still
wait
he asked for EXTRA SYRUP not EXTRA SHOT you dumbfucc
you offer to make him a new one and he refuses saying it’s fine!!! but you still feel bad so you insist but he’s like no!!! i gotta stay awake anyway i have an important quiz today i have to study! by the way uhhhh i’ve never seen you around until recently???
you introduce yourself and he introduce himself blablabla it’s awkward and your palms keep sweating for some reason
before wonpil left, he didn’t forget to say “have a great day!! i’ll see you around then!!!”
he’s so sweet uwu
seeing him and making him his vanilla latte (extra syrup) is one of the best parts of your job tbh
and he visits every single time you’re working which makes it better
why is his smile so adorable what the fuck
and there’s something about the way he walks that keeps you looking i mean boiiiii does he know how to present himself holy shit
that feeling when you see someone so beautiful you want to cry
the more you see him the more you want to know about him
what major is he in? what is he usually do outside the class? what kind of person is he? does he have a lot of friends? what’s his hobby? stuffs like that
too bad he always comes when it’s busy at the cafe so you can’t talk too much
neither he ever tries to initiate a conversation with you except his usual “hello! how are you today?” and “thank you, you make the best coffee! have a nice day!! see you!!!”
let’s admit it you highkey have a crush on him and EVERYONE knows
wELL it’s because you always wear that expression like "goddammit why must kim wonpil be so cute if he ain’t gonna ask me on a date” whenever you watch his back as he leaves the cafe
and EVERYONE but YOU knows wonpil’s so into you
whenever someone says something like “just ask him for his number he’ll definitely give it to you” you’re like “wtf nO that’s creepy and he won’t!! he doesn’t even know me!!!”
“he literally only comes when it’s your shift and he always makes sure you’re the one taking his order you oblivious dumbass”
“it’s just a coincidence”
“…..yeah whatever”
but they’re right wonpil’s crushing on you hard
at this point sungjin can even draw a portrait of you although he hasn’t actually met you before
that’s how much wonpil talks about you
from your whole adorable appearance to how cute your little cough is, or how he adores your little smile and the sparks in your eyes when he compliments your coffee, or he’ll describe your apron what the fuck and how he thinks your look so good in white and blue
sungjin’s so done with him
“just ask her out you stalker”
“nO I CAN’T!!! SHE’LL THINK IM CREEPY!!! SHE DOESN’T EVEN KNOW ME”
“well i bet she remembers your face by now since you always drop by when she’s there”
“but she meets a lot of people everyday there’s NO WAY she can remember me”
you see the problem now?
then one day jae decides to play matchmaker
by “playing matchmaker” i mean he follows wonpil to the cafe and straight up tells you, in front of wonpil’s face and everyone there, “yo this friend of mine wants to take you on a date and he wonders if you’re interested”
you are: blushing
wonpil is: dead pale
you: o-oh… i’m–
wonpil: yO HE’S JUST JOKING HAHAHAHA IM SO SORRY oH My gOd jAE LET’S GO
he drags his tall friend aka jae out of the cafe and since then he never visits again :(
im sad now ugh i told you i suck at sweet stuffs like this
fast forward it’s summer and the university wonpil’s attending is holding a summer festival that’s open for public
well,,,,, you decide to go and you ask some of your friends to tag along
you’re not sure what you’re hoping; maybe you just want to see how the place wonpil’s studying at looks like, or maybe you do wish to meet him by accident or something yanno like a drama
whatever
you promised yourself that if you don’t see him today, you’ll get over him
but if you do see him, you will ask. him. out.
well jokes on you babe he’s there performing on the stage with the band
he’s,,, he’s singing,,, and playing keyboard,,,, omg his voice
as you already know im uncreative soooo by impossible coincidence somehow his eyes spot you in the crowd
btw i imagine them singing Pouring but i think you can pick any songs you like
he’s so taken aback that one second he’s singing and the next second he sees you and his eyes widen and he’s like “I’m falling for–hUH? why are you here??” to the microphone
don’t worry the others cover for his mistake while trying not to laugh
everyone laughs too while looking around to find the person whom wonpil sees
you’re embarrassed as fuck you want to curl up and hide forever
but your so-called-friends don’t let you get away that easy okay it’s your only chance
dw dude wonpil feels the same he wants to immediately get off the stage and die
but sungjin will literally kill wonpil in his sleep if he doesn’t do anything it’s now or never
poor boi has had enough of this pining shit
so after the band performance wonpil has no choice but to approach you
“h-hey! so you watched our stage!”
“y-yeah! it was great!! didn’t know you can sing so well”
“h-haha thanks”
“y-you’re welcome”
silence
more silence
wonpil clears his throat and, “so…”
you blink fast, “yeah…?”
“um uhhh do you wanna see around? i can take you”
“oH of course”
What Am I Even Writing Anymore
well remember your promise earlier? about asking him out?? no???
is it too late to chicken out and forget the whole thing now
you barely know each other it’s so awkward and he looks so fine today and you really don’t wanna push him even further now but if you hesitate longer who knows someone else will ask him first and just the thought alone breaks your heart a little bit
so it’s time to grow a pair and take risks cmon dude you can do this
one
two
“anywaysijustwonderifyou'refreenextsaturday?”
wait
it was!! not!!! your voice!!!!
“huh?”
wonpil clears his throat and repeats slower, “i just wonder if you’re uhhhh free next saturday?”
o shit
o fUck YeAH
you cough a bit before answering, “y-y-yeah i guess??”
“ok um i like, have two tickets for movie if you want to come with me”
that’s like the lamest invitation and you yourself gotta admit that lmao
but oh kim wonpil,, dear,,,, there’s no way i would say no
so you two go on a date
or “casual outing” as you two call it
but everyone knows it’s a date okay even though you two didn’t have any skinskip oops
it’s okay it takes a bit of time but you’ll get there
i mean, since then you two go out together almost every weekend so ye it won’t be that long until the awkwardness wears off
wonpil just cherish you so much he’s afraid he’ll scare you or hurt your feeling by accident so he never boldly initiates anything
the first time you two finally holding hands is when you two go skating, and that’s just because you two are so bad at that
gotta hold each other so you won’t keep falling aye romance
you don’t know this but trust me wonpil talks about it for days sungjin almost decides to move out
he’s still insisting it’s not a date tho
“you know what, i can already imagine you two in like 10 years, standing at the altar and be like, do you marry me as a friend or what? unclear”
“do you think we’ll get married?????”
“oh dear god”
but yeah
you two will get there
somehow
just take your sweet time and give wonpil all the love in the world i beg you
that’s it YAY i think imma work on sungjin’s next wish me luck im running out of lame cliche ideas now lol bye
#day6#wonpil#day6 imagines#day6 scenarios#day6 fanfic#kpop scenarios#kpop imagines#kpop fanfic#how to tag smh#three down two more to go!!!!!!!#sungjin and dowoon leggo#this is so lame imma cry snandjsnjdnf
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Tagged by @sukkanen to answer a few questions about my OCs!!! Thank u i am honored LOL now lets get into it
Some OC questions
1. Your first OC ever? i had this “RPC” who was just a naruto oc and her name was Kiki and she was rlly like over the top happy go lucky but had an angsty backstory bc i was emo and she was like blind in one eye but she covered her good eye with hair?? and she was an orphan I shipped her w like 6 different naruto characters #noshame
2. Do you have a personal favourite among your OCs? Charlotte is definitely my fave honestly !!! Second fave is Hayden tho (her brother, but actually hes my oldest current OC )
3. Have you ever adopted a character or gotten a character from someone else? YES!! And i haven’t used them bc im trash but i love them,,, i promise,,,,,, i just dont know what to do w them yet,,, 4. A character you rarely talk about? I have a lot of OCs like this, but the ones that are still alive are Luna and Lulu who r best friends, and i made them w my friend @papperie as like background friend OCs for hers!! 5. If you could make only one of your OCs popular/known, who would it be? ...this is a double edged sword bc ofc i want my favorite OC, Charlotte, to b most popular, but then she’s gonna get reinterpreted constantly and like i wouldnt be allowed to have her exactly how i want her? 6. Two OCs of yours that look alike despite not being related? UHHH most of my OCs actually are related but if im not careful Aureli and Charlotte can start to look similar
7. Are your OCs part of any story or stories? YEP that’d be all of them!!! if i dont make a story for them they die inevitably 8. Do you RP as any of your OCs? If you do, introduce one of your RP OCs here! I used to,,,, mostly as Hayden!!! I miss RPing haha but i havent done it in SO LONG 9. Would you ever be willing to give any of your OCs to someone else?
NO i would b so emo,,, once they are mine they’re mine !! altho ive considered making adoptables 10. Introduce an OC with a complicated design? Dont have any LOLLL all my OCs are slice of life tbh so they end up being very casual, ALTHO currently im in the middle of designing a princess so that could very well change soon! 11. Is there any OC of yours you could describe as a “sunshine”? AURELI,,,, mischevious sunshine princess, shes kinda oblivious to things but she likes causing play trouble and embarrassing her gf 12. Name an OC that isn’t yours but who you like a lot SARA, i love her she belongs to @quillsareoverrated, id add more but im 2 lazy 2 draw but like name wise I love Fordic and Laura ( from sukka and spacey )
13. Do you have any troublemaker OCs?
AURELI, also Hayden, but he just causes his own trouble and ruins his own damn life which isnt what i think u mean LOL
14. Introduce an OC with a tragic backstory
uhhhh maybe Hayden again, he did end up running away from home and then going into shady business to survive and then he tried to die and failed //shrugs
15. Do you like to talk about your OCs with other people? YA I DO but then they get bored or like dont rlly care abt my OCs and like,, its hard to try and talk abt your OCs when ppl clearly r not interested 16. Which one of your OCs would be the best at biology (school subject)? PROBABLY LULU, shes the only OC who i even think COULD be good at biology,,, 17. Any OC OTPs? YESYESYES Charlotte and her wife Hayden and his husband,,, AURELI AND SARA,,,, Summer and Vi I HAVE A LOT MORE 18. Any OC crackships? ya,,,, I like shipping Lulu with Claire and Luna tbhh ALSO ALEX i ship her lots ALSO I ship Charlotte with everyone who will LET ME
19. Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and explain why) Hayden and Charlotte, theyre so old and like theyve evolved so much, but especially Hayden who is still like..down in the dumps and bad at everything and like extremely dependent on his husband and like....i relate but every day he tries his damn best even tho its hard to see if he’s getting anywhere,,, he tries his best and i should too he means a lot to me,,, hes been w me like 8 yrs
20. Do any of your OCs sing? If they sing, care to share more details (headcanon voice, what kind of songs they like etc)? no lol all my OCs are tone deaf LOL which is funny bc i love singing 21. Your most artistic OC UHHH NO CLUE,, Charlotte is a top notch ballerina but shes not creative really... Maybe Luna?? Shes a cute model and i think shes a fine arts major iirc 22. Is there any OC of yours people tend to mischaracterize? If yes, how? YA,,, definitely Charlotte, people tend to see her as a character who is cold but opens up when u get to know her, but not rlly shes rather cold LOLL she just has a soft spot for her wife 23. Introduce OC that has changed from your first idea concerning what the character would be like? HAYDEN,,,, he used to be so rebellious and like angsty and now he literally just sucks at everything but tries to be good ALSO charlotte because she literally was just Hayden as a girl and now look at her,,,,, 24. If you could meet one OC of yours, who would it be and why? Sevastyan!!! He’s only half mine, but im ready to marry him he is big and buff and TALL AND BROAD and boring as hell but thats ok 25. The OC that resembles you the most (same hobby, height, shared like/dislike for something etc?) Lelija! Hayden and Charlotte’s younger sister who gets picked on by lit all of the siblings besides Hayden and Adeleine ( So like 8/10 siblings ), shes chub and unkempt like me
26. Have you ever had to change your OC’s design or something else about them against your will? Nope, there are things i changed bc they felt over done or they were just old and i was done but never against my will? After all theyre MY OCs im not going to change anything i dont want to??? 27. Any OCs that were inspired by a certain song? Nope!! Maybe by movies or comics, but not songs. 28. Your most dangerous OC? UHHH Victoria (Charlottes wife) could fucking kill a man LOLL and would for her wife 29. Which one of your OCs would go investigate an abandoned house at night without telling anyone they’re going? Charlotte bc she thinks she is tough and doesnt need any help with anything, this is how she dies probably 30. Which one of your OCs would most likely have a secret stuffed animal collection? HAYDEN,,, Shoving them rapidly into his closet when company comes over bc he is mortified but they make him feel better Unsecretly tho i bet Aurelia has 67789767897668976 covering the bed and no one can stop her 31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really) Charlotte would have an annoying fitspo blog w like minimalist pics of nice apartments and cute girls tbh I bet Aureli would have a blog dedicated to cute stuffed animals, rooms filled with pink and white furniture.blankets, and tons of lingerie and cringey quotes abt love 32. Which one of your OCs would be the most suitable horror game protagonist and why? HMM... TBH Hayden would be the best bc he would cry the entire time and u would relate to him and try ur best with subpar skills LOLL for ACTUAL horror tho Probably Victoria, shes kickass and wont lose, she’d be OP 33. Your shyest OC? Lelija! After being picked on for years its no wonder she’s shy, especially talking about something she likes bc she doesnt want to be made fun of for having interests 34. Do you have any twin characters? Hayden and Charlotte! I made hayden first, and honestly most of the time theyre in seperate verses, but they ARE twins if theyre in the same verse! And Charlotte is older she’ll have you know. 35. Any sibling characters? Hayden and Charlotte have 8 younger siblings LMAO Aureli also has an older sister named Aurora! 36. Do you have OC pairs where the other part belongs to someone else (siblings, lovers, friends etc)? YEP YEP YEP Charlotte and Haydens wife/husband Lulu and Luna are friends of my other friends OCs Aureli is in love with Sara!! I prefer to make OCs in pairs with other people!! I love it !!!!! 37. Introduce an OC who is not quite human
AURELIIII shes a robot girl!!! She can do pretty much anything other girls can but shes a robot
38. Which one of your OCs would be the best dancer? Charlotte. No question. After all she’s one of the best ballerinas in the world in her verse so BUT Also April and Summer can dance p well!! More contemporary!! 39. Introduce any character you want here is Lulu i keep mentioning!!! its been so long since i drew her i kinda forgot but shes best friends with Luna and is engaged!!! Not to luna unfortunately but dw Luna is doing good too
40. Any fond memories linked to your characters? Feel free to share! Not really!!! I have a bad memory so LMAO even if i did i cant remember them on command
41. Has anyone drawn fanart of your OCs? If yes, maybe show a picture or two here (remember sources & permissions!) YES AND I LOSE MY SHIT EVERY TIME, most of them r on twitter tho ( This one is by Sukkanen on tumblr !!! I LOST MY SHIT,,, )
42. Which one of your OCs would be the most interested in Greek gods? probably hayden, he loves stories and storytelling and religion so
43. Do you have any certain type when you create your OCs? Do you tend to favour some certain traits or looks? It’s time to confess Short w round faces and big bright eyes and long long hair, always girls tbh, i know who i am and im ashamed LOL, also girls who are bratty !!
44. Something you like about your OCs in general i like how hard they work, all my OCs basically do their best and try their hardest and like they stumble, or sometimes just suck at what theyre doing and dont get better but like i value that 45. A character you no longer use? the first one i drew, KIKI, she fucking embarrasses me but every time i try to revamp her i cant bc im attatched. 46. Has anyone ever told you that you treat your OCs badly? YES,,,, EVERYONE,,,, I LOVE TO MAKE THEM SUFFER 47. Has anyone ever (friendly) claimed any of your OCs as their child? YEP, LOTS OF MY FRIENDS 48. OC who is a perfect cinnamon roll, too good for this world, too pure My OCs are honestly all assholes besides aureli so shes defaulted even tho she loves mischief 49. Which one of your OCs would most likely enjoy memes Hayden 50. Give me the good ol’ OC talk here. Talk about anything you want If you want, you can tag your ask answers with #yetanotherOCmeme so I can check them out too `v´9 OCs are magical and every character u love was someones OC at one point. I am rlly attached to my OCs and afraid to put info of them out there because i dont want people to like..take them and make these connections i cant control but like then i see other ppls OCs and i want to!!! SHOW PEOPLE!! Its a weird line, but i love OCs and i wanna know abt more of them!!!!
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