#dusting off a spot on the shelves in my mind to put shane wright

[jiminy-crickets]

insanely jealous that you have managed to get to the fandom elder feeling, i've made it 11 years of being a dan and phil fan (im 22.... so a bit over half my life) and uh.... i still feel new to that fandom, and I also try and be pretty open about the fact that i am New Here™️, February was when I arrived, the one that was 10 months ago, I am NEW, The only thing anyone should be looking to me for expertise in is how to RPF out.

I do try and keep my like, real posts first hand based, whereas my more memey posts and in and tags I will go full headcanon/fanon portrayal of players (its the RPFer in me)

ALSO ✍️✍️ taking so many notes about shane wright, i knew some of that in the abstract (from my beloved kraken mutuals) but the details help to colour a lot of the *waves hands around* recent drafts in a different light.

I will say, that when i mentioned connor saying "If" it wasn't even in the context of first overall, in my many hours of delving into his pre-draft interviews he was constantly saying "I don't know if i will go first" and when he said "if i get drafted" he meant like... AT ALL, and connor..... buddy.... you ARE going to get drafted!!! it's just gonna happen.

also, hey shout out to shane wright covid conscious king! he ain't no super spreader!!!

and also elliottee reedman is BACK in my bad books after JUST getting out only minutes ago (he said something nice about the sens) smh....

and best believe i WILL be looking at those links once hockey is done for the night and i can dedicate my full attention to him.

AND ALSO, FUCK THOSE CUNTS WHO SENT HIM HATE, fucking coward shit, god damn.

saw the tags on your rb, and as a fellow "connor bedard has autism" headcanoner, i would love to know more of your thoughts 😈

it's less of a headcanon and more of a divinely correct vibe check. but like am i wrong...???? although I do see it more as they're the same flavour of ND with different presentations, like Connor is hyperfocus ADHD, and Macklin is inattentive (this comes from someone with mixed presentation ADHD¹, they also tried to diagnose me with austim but my legs were too long i make eye contact BUT!!! 93rd% "indicating that Cassie has many behavioural characteristics similar to youth diagnosed with ASD." raaaaa 💪💪💪 93% is an A!! i ace even the tests i fail!!!) Plus his rigidity with his diet, is bonkers for someone that young (and it's been going on since he was like 14-15)

Like especially with the way that Connor's constant practicing, after practice until the zamboni kicks him off, and then on off days and optional skates hiding his gear to make him take days off?? that is pretty classic hyperfocus ADHD. And especially with the way he blames the teams loses on himself, like please sir seeing you in the mirror is not good for my health!!

And with Macklin, people often mischaracterize inattentive ADHD with not being motivated or good at routine and while yes those two things are a normal part of human life, and more-so with ADHD, he has shown many times how deeply he cares about hockey........ but I think (and also remember i am projecting) his father being THAT hands on with him and his brothers training (even now which yuck, you have your own job get your grubby paws off of your kid's job) has made him unable to self propel, and get himself into that routine? (AND AGAIN I AM PROJECTING) like something Macklin has said a few times is how the shift to a pro-hockey schedule has been hard, and yes it is an adjustment, but he has been essentially living away from his parents for YEARS, two years boarding at Shattuckk, one year (presumably) billeting in Chicago while playing in the USHL, and one year in college at BU, and I think the real shift is that... daddy is planning his workouts again, full time not just summers (also, the travaling doesn't help) AND THAT (i am projecting) is HELL to someone who built a routine, and any hope of getting back into one was dashed when he went of IR for his hip after one game. the boy needs CONSISTENCY!!!!! And until they get him 1) away from his freak father who has his hands al over his development plan, and 2) on simple routine with max five types of days (home game, home practice, home rest, away game, away rest) he will not get situated.

BACK TO BEDARD <33333

the man loves rules and procedures. him at his first training camp all doe eyed and "wanting to make the team!" so much that Kyle Davidson... maybe it was Luke Richardson who said it...??? either way his coach or his GM pulled aside his MOTHER to tell them that they needed to start looking at apartments. Before getting drafted it was never "when" it was "if i get drafted".... like dude.... it's gonna happen! Whenever he get's sen't to the box its always a "they hate me, don't they know I am unable to break rules!! not because they don't apply to me but because I can NOT break rules!" vibe (I am only kinda projecting on this one)

and I do think the type of media around them during their developmental years up has affected them, Macklin's media was always focused on his father, which reinforced his reliance/dependence on him, whereas Connor's was focused on him which encouraged him to focus on himself and what HE can do to improve.

also Connor has that DOG IN HIM

^ connor bedard real not fake (also my childhood psychologist had this PROMENENTLY displayed in her office and i think seeing it every two weeks had an adverse affect on me)

¹ and a bunch of other learning disorders, dyslexia, dysgraphia, dyscalculia, audio processing disorder, also anxiety, depression, and cutie patootie disease (fatal 😔)