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i used to read mha fanfics on Q, I need to delete my library asap what the flip

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Happy Pride Month Chat!!!!

AUGH I love this pride month since I know who I am for now! That’s always convenient! /Gen

I’m gonna be sappy under the cut. Feel no obligation to read I just love pride and I get emotion. HAPOY PRIDE MOTNH GUYS AND CHAT!!!

Last year was absolutely dookie in terms of like, my entire year, especially the summer- and what did not help at all I think was starting to question my sexuality and my gender at the same time. During the month of June.

That is when now, as a totally mature one-year-older, I realize that the expectation I was putting on myself last year was very unfair to me! I felt like I needed a label that would dignify my fluid sense of self, like I needed to contain that gooey mess of gobblygook in a cardboard box. Obviously, that did not work.

I realize now that I am a very inconsistent person. I change every day, every minute and every hour. I have grown to adore that part of myself and have taken away certain restricting labels or just. Added some that give me a little breathing room! For example, I used to identity as transmasc. Well shit, I don’t think I’m masc most of the time. Hell, most of the time I am a flamboyant piece of gay garbage and I wear dresses and I am FIXATED ON THIS MAROON DRESS I FOUND AT DILLARDS AND I WANT TO WEAR IT TO PROM SO BAD AND I

But I just identify as simply Trans now, because I like to acknowledge that obviously I am not Cis, but I’m not a man. I could be. I could not be. That’s not up for the courts to decide and god doesn’t even know. Shit sometimes I don’t even identify as trans. Sometimes I look in the mirror and I’m like wow, what a fine normal Cis boy going about his daily life looking like if mike wheeler’s dad was just a little gayer. As I said it’s all subject to change and I love it.

Last giant paragraph I’m gonna write at 6:29 am on our lord’s June First is about my aromanticism.

Listen to me. I want to put the flag in my mouth. I LOVE THE FLAG SO MUCH. LITERALLY LOOK AT IT THE GREEN THE GREY THE BLACK THE EVERYTHING. GGHUUUUAGHJJJHHHHH.

Okay okay fr. The journey to my wonderful aromantic self was wayyyy harder than it needed to be. I think that in itself makes me appreciate that part of my identity so much more than I appreciate the other parts. Cause I mean, thank god I live in a relatively accepting(?) conservative area, cause when I came out as trans in ye olde sixth grade, people didn’t really question it and I only really had to fight with my health teacher this past year! And that god damn English teacher, yeah, fuck her. No one really even challenges my aromanticism that much cause it’s not as obvious as pronouns or gender- but just that year long agonizing rock climb I had to do last year to figure out that I wasn’t obligated to romantic love makes me so appreciative of myself for sticking through and just. BEING.

And sometimes it makes me sad when people categorize aromantics as the “LOVE IS DEAD” and “IM A LONE WOLF AND I HATE ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS” people cause ! That is not me bro! I freaking love romantic relationships I watched Our Flag Means Death and I cried too many times to talk about! And there is absolutely no shame in being an aromantic that has that attitude, but aghhghrhh stereotypes. Aromanticism is a spectrum like anything else. If you’re aromantic, I love you and your identity. Platonically of course. Was that funny

Okay. Okay I should wrap this up

I just love the el gee bee tee community. It’s so cool how people find their identity on purpose and just fucking own it.

Have a happy pride month if you read this novel length spiel, and don’t let some insolent fucko have a say in your identity. Slay!

[lesbianbernardsumner]

I guess its over now, but it couldn’t have been that bad right?! After all, I’m still here, and you all helped me through it!!

alright this is gonna be messy and im not gonna autocorrect/proofread it but heres the essay on why i loved 2020.... While 2020 was, pretty objectively, one of the worst years for modern humanity. The obvious virus and all its, various strands of natural disasters, impending war threat, gender reveal parties, you get the gist. But i would love to just... look back and see how it treated me. See how it ran :). January/Febuary/March - the months are bunched up cause the least amount of stuff happened in them, but thats not to say that the stuff wasnt... good!!!! After all I met my first online friend (that im still friends with of course) @smilez4milez..! I cannot believe you withstood me for so long tbh........... youve been here the whole time!!!! thats obviously an achievemnt!!! Our circumstances for our meeting do not matter... trust me. April - Got my gender transed and i then id’d as demigirl!! and also had a birthday, i turned a whole year..... i believe this was also the time i... started using discord??? yeah, that sounds right :0) May/June - OOOH WEE DISK HOARD AAAAAAAAA. Ahem, Miles got me into Chuck E. Cheese and the Rock-Afire Explosion, i hold those special interests dear and close to my heart. Around the time i also made friends with @teamgay0tix (<3). Miles decided that he was gonna make an animatronic discord server. Titled the Robot Zone, Miles employed Sarah, Me, and another friendo named Teddy as the moderators. Not long after i met... so so many cool and epic people... uh off the top of my head @worthape, @bahrlee, @boredwiththislifetime, @retrowormz, @knave-woods, @verae. Not all of those were met in May/June but yknow gotta save time >:) and im sure im missing someone gdvhbuydhbdyh. WE UH RP’D AS CEC/RAE CHARACTERS!!!!! THAT WAS FUN :)!!!!!!! I DONT HAVE MUCH ELSE TO SAY AS MAY AND JUNE WERE SIMILAR MOTNHS IN TERMS OF FUN. SYHBDREYS. Oh and my laptop broke! So I was on my iPad for about 3 months!! Also my gender got transed AGAIN!!! I then-ID��d as genderfluid :o). July - HI CASPER @arcadecarpetz!!! THIS WAS THE MONTH WE FIRST MET!!! WE DO NOT TALK ABOUT THAT INTERACTION </3. So I got into the beatles late June/early July!! looks at my url lookat how that turned out huh...  Other things that happened during this month include... meeting @lovecore-ashe!!!!! I joined a certain discord server for a certain emoji blog we both happened to follow and... July was great i dunno why im being all stingy with the details etvfertyghdb August - Oh boy!! I discovered some cool epic things about myself (Emp knows.)!! got much better in the art department too!! I believe I also made friemnds with @hmmdotjpg here! They’re cool! Otherwise not much actually happened. Oh and @verae I FUCKING LOVE YOU/p September - HA! Here is when I got my shiny new laptop :), and with it i also got into Clone High!! Started to also get into Yellow Submarine, a movie which, I enjoy :). And a certain yellow submarine insta post got me and @arcadecarpetz to meet again!!! Now we’re on much better terms!! heh-. This month I left the Robot Zone, no matter how much it hurt, I simply didn’t want to be there anymore. I had got way too into animatronics and I was... very... very... burnt out. The final days of this month were good, I rewatched Yellow Submarine after a 10-Year Hiatus. It was good! :) October - SPOOK!!! HA!!! -COUGH- So you know how The Beatles like broke up in 1970... yeah i got into one of the bands made after them.... Wings good. I made a few more drawings for arcadecasper that im especially proud of, uh... OH YEAH AND I MADE A KETCHUP PRIDE FLAG FOR EMPRESS!!!!!!!! It is also now my most popular post! Cool!/gen .Two of my friends approached me and said they got into the beatles because of me that was pretty swagchamp. November - All of my memories from this month are MUSH. i literally dont remember what happened <3... oh wait yeah we got hte evil man out of office... that was preddy epic... OH RIGHT DESTIEL- December - My favorite season!! The end of the year was pretty swell. It was like everything good that happened to me was settling, getting cozier, just... being better. Like gently stirring the salt in a soup bowl... okay thats a weird analogy- I got into lemon demon too! And uh very glad i did. cause now i can say that cabinet man wishes you a karkalicious 2009 and i can actually understand it./j And all the lessons from all my friends I (probably indirectly) learnt this year... Like @smilez4milez!! You taught me to always be proud and glad!!! @teamgay0tix you taught me that affection always overpowers hatred. @boredwiththislifetime, no matter what your friend is doing, as long as its not hurting anyone, support them!!! @bahrlee, become a vampire/j. @hmmdotjpg, changing for yourself is more important than becoming someone you arent in front of other people. @worthape i dunno... i... bugs???? Im just glad you were here too :). @retrowormz you kinda just made me funnier!!! @knave-woods bro i literally idolize you tsygvfbsyh. @lovecore-ashe, drink ketchup and dont give a shit about what everyone else thinks/hj!! @verae, !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY YOURE LITERALLY JUST MY BEST FRIEND GSYHVFTEYWSH and of course, last but most certainly not least, Casper @arcadecarpetz WHERE DO I START ON HOW EPIC AND SWAG AND POGGERS YOU ARE AND HOW GREAT YOU HELPED MAKE THESE LAST FEW MONTHS... HHM- Well, maybe ill just leave it at “You pretty much taught me how to not be a jerk” okay!!! Man i got really sappy here wgvrtedgyshb I’m not sure if any of that is comprehensible!!! Its 2pm and i still havent actually started the day, but i wanted to write all of this down before it left my head. I know im missing probably important stuff but yknow... i have brainworms :O/j You are all... so cool... i just wanted to get that out...