#due to statistics but um being gay in the suburban or rural and even most of the quote unquote urban areas is not a position in which | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

5-htagonist · 1 year ago

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now. being an "alt queer" type guy. i have befriended many other alts and queers. i believe i am witnessing for the first time a lesbian who is like a stright girl who acts gay. the "cottagecore"esque. the pop indie. the taylor swift.

#most normal lesbian i have ever knowingly met #which tbf it just seems like she has a good and loving family who supported her thru her life including severe life threatening depression #so it might just be that shes well adjusted for a gay person LMAO #*a gay person round these parts in the south that is lmao. i would assume most ppl who hypothetically would read this are from an urban area #anywaaaaysss perhaps one day ill rid myself of the envy that comes with being a child with SOMEHOW unnoticed audhd due to my guardians not #due to statistics but um being gay in the suburban or rural and even most of the quote unquote urban areas is not a position in which #you get much support much less direct support #i have a compulsion to analyze why certain things rub me too Normal and it usually comes back down to resentment over not having emotional #support as a child LOL #sorry im so stoned and on adderall. i got immediate release ;)#normal people scare me and i hate i can say that kind of unironically #its not even like strangers yknow its when im familliar enough with a person to see how well adjusted they are that i start to get a little #disturbed #maybe this is the opposite of that one study that says nts distrust and can detect autistics upon first impression #lol #its like how other day i wrote an insta essay on how tswift triggers resentment bc she is popular and represents belonging

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