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The beginning of the end ; e pluribus unum - chapter 1

Theo felt horrible. The right side of her body felt like it has gone under her grandfather's training. Even if it had been a year she doesn't think she could forget the feeling it left her with. Her eye adjusted to the surrounding.

Theo paused.

Wait.

Eye?

Fear gripped theo's heart as she realized that she had been injured and she had left her blind in one eye. Horror gripped her heart as she placed her hands over the badges side of her face. Blue strands fell over her hands and the panic theo felt grew worse. It seems like part of her hair had started to change color again. This time unfortunately it looks similar to how her mana looked like.

Her body had been heavily damaged.

She had undergone emergency healing. Tears gathered in her good eye as she tried to think about why this happen. Her breathing came in a rush of panic as she tried to think.

She was in America during colonial time.

Another master was accompanying her because she couldn't do this singularity alone.

Right.

She wasn't alone. Once she remembered that she could start thinking clearly. It would take a couple of days for a organ to reform with the slow mana output she allowed to happen. It didn't matter she had a job to do. Theo moved to sit up once she heard mashu and the other master come in along with another woman.

That was good. She couldn't afford to stop. Not when she needed to finish the grand order. Besides her body was already falling apart. What's a bit of mana burning gonna do?

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Moonlight lost room! ;

Memories of the beginning

It was cold and raining when she was found. she felt her body shiver due to the water hitting her skin. That was until it stopped.

The girl slowly looked up to see a umbrella over her head.

Green eyes open when she wakes up in random. The air was frigid and her body was cold but not to the point she would die. Her eyes look around as she hear the soft foot falls as a door opened.

Right she in that place.

Chaldea right?

Slowly she sat up knowing the silver-haired woman was ignoring her. She was alone In the back after all. The girl stays quiet until the director started yealing again.

And once again the girl waited for the yelling to stop.

She was tired....maybe shed take a nap.

The next time she woke up pain rocks her lower body and the world around her was on fire.

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It was a quiet night. Nothing to drastic had happened. The room was even pleasant so much so that she was willing to have a cup of tea and attempt to sleep at a reasonable time frame. She has been making so much progress and she wondered if it was enough.

Maybe she could have a good night sleep for once.

Theo had decided for once she's even wear a tank top and shorts. She felt confident in herself and her progress.

" okay...breath.... Just breath... Y-you you can do this! "

Cautiously she walked forward slowly allowing her feet to actually feel the floor. And for a brief moment she felt happy. Happy to be able to be in simple night clothing and not feel dirty or worthless. Happy to be standing barefoot and have her feet flat agents the floor. Happy to dress in less clothing because she gets hot some days under all those sheets

And that's when everything went wrong.

The floor was cold.

It was cold and hard and she felt scared.

Cold.

Cold.

Cold

She was scared.

For a moment she didn't see chaldea. She didn't see her minimal room with its simple design. Didn't feel the warmth it left her when the thoughts of home met her mind.

She was in that room. In that prison . Her body shook and she screamed, her knees hit the floor and her hands covered her head as she panicked. Her breathing was off and everything felt so small and cold.

It was her fault really. Her dumb stupid no good fault. Had she stalled till her older brother came home they all could have been together. Her, her brother and their baby sister. The one she traded her life for. Maybe her grandfather was right. Maybe she did deserve the treatment she got. Maybe she was a horrible peace of trash who messed up everything.

It was cold.

She could feel phantom hands touch her skin and she felt dirty. So very dirty. Could feel blades cut into her and the feeling of pain spasmed against her body.

And she was scared. Scared that she was going to be back in that danm room again.

" no...more... Please.....no more..."

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Birthday thoughts

Another year has a passed. The new year was just a few days ago and theo had hidden away from the celebration. Maybe a small part of herself was waiting to wake up. Waiting to release she didn't come to chaldea. That she hasn't made two wonderful new siblings and talked to a person she wanted to befriend.

That she hadn't meet the legendary king of heroes and start seeing what made him great.

As shameful as it sounded she was afraid to be back in her 'room' on the cold hard floor with new chains around her ankles and a single stale treat to celebrate the new year.

Come April sixth and it would officially be a year since she came to chaldea. Two since she's been thrown away.

But that question was....did she even have a birthday?

"....."

Silence was all that met her as she looked at her walls. Her room was plain with nothing. Thin sheets on her bed and a barely soft pillow was all the real noticeable belongings she had unfortunately, her clothes were all chaldea given.

"....that's right....chaldea is my second chance huh? So...dose that mean April 6 is my birthday?"

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The beginning of the end ; e pluribus unum - chapter 2 singularity aftermath

the moment the mad king was down theo knew it wasn't over. Celtics weren't known to give up. No they preferred to be defeated in battle. It was worse that this was the child of light. Theo looked over at nightingale and held out her hand like she was going to use her command seals.

"Oh! Stars! "

Theo sat in med bay in chaldea thinking about how she ended up like this. Why did she ends up in the med bay again?

The last thing she remembered was that they needed to deal with the demon piller of war.

was this a dumb idea? Most certainly since she didn't know the full ramifications this spell had.

"I give this body and soul! "

Right. Medb had been desummoned and had given cu- no. She didn't know that cu. She couldn't call him cu like he was a friend. Besides they had to fight him threes times to....she needed to use two command seals.

It didn't help she had to use a still-developing spell to help nightingale use her noble phantasm beyond it's normal limits.

it didn't help that she was still feeling weak due to Londons gas and her damaged body was still healing. Maybe that's why she didn't hold back and used her last command seal to let them use their noble phantasms. . .

"For all the world has to offer! "

She had been so desperate.

To use that spell that utilizes all the mana in her body and transfer it to another if needed. What a dumb ass she is. The amount of mana she gave was to much at once..... What would have happened had that spell killed her? What would have the other master done? She wasn't supposed to be a burned.

Maybe she could get out of the med bay soon and finish the next singularity.

the world around her started fade as she fell forward. She couldn't quite hear anything either and it didn't help that her body felt numb.

" fall and repent! : Damocles"

She hoped mash and the other master was okay.

" idiot. " she mumbled to herself as she sighed while laying down. Her eyes felt so heavy.

Maybe.

Just one hour of

.... sleep.

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Memories of nobody

You believe it was a warm spring day. Petals fell and caressed your cheek. The breeze was crisp and it filled your lungs. Gentle hands played with your hair.

Wait?

Slowly you open your eyes and are meet with the blue sky and pink? Is that what pink looks like? For a moment your reminded of a certain pirate captain. Once again you're pulled from your musing by that gentle movement of someones hands.

" you know...it was really hard to get you here....big sister "

That voice! You know that voice... it's the most important and most beautiful voice you've heard. It was soft and bell-like. Tears gather as you try your damnest to stay strong.

" Lelia"

Was that your voice? It sounded human. Full of emotion and happiness. Your heart hurts. When....when was the last time you saw your sister?

You want to reach up to touch her. You wanted to hold her hand and cry. But you were scared that you would hurt her. Scared you would ruin her.

" you could, stay here...with me."

It was a option. One she didn't want to take.

"Ah.... I can't"

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Moonlight lost room :

First summoning

Theo couldn't breathe.

Her lungs burned and her head hurt. Something was pressing agents her legs, theo knew she was impaled. In all honesty, she should be dead.

Maybe it was the small tiny part of her that wanted desperately to live. The tine tiny human part of her that continued to make her fight and live.

She couldn't breathe but she knew she wouldn't die from these injuries yet. Not with how her body numbing her legs and spike keeping the blood in her.

Weakly theo tried to pull herself out from under the rubble.

It was a fool's errand.

Really it was a wonder on why she continued to fight. Why she continued to live. It seemed hopeless really. Her dull lifeless eyes look onwards to the hellfire landscape. Until small

Maybe it was because she was being selfish want to live.

She wanted to live.

"....please.... "

It was a selfish wish down to her very core. She knew she was going to die anyways...

'Idiot! Don't do that. Don't beg for something you don't deserve. '

But....

" I.....i.....i want to live...! "

Her vision started fading once she felt magic rush forward.

The last thing she saw was silver and a soft green glow.

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She's staring at the bottles as she stands alone outside the base . It's a nice night outside. The stars are out. Snow is falling.

She's cold.

Her lungs struggle to take in the air she so desperately needs and yet....she doesn't care.

At that moment all the progress she made meant nothing. The leaps she's made to get away from the horrible mindset she had was gone. Dead expressionless eyes look at the bottles for a long time. All this time while she was getting better her older brother was hurting himself.

Her heart hurts.

Robotically she throws the bottle down into a circle made from runes in the snow. A pop and then she feels a slight pinch in her feet. Still, she makes sure to throw the bottles in the circle until it's all broken.

Soon enough a small well contained fire is lit as the liquid and glass is set ablaze. She doesn't keep track of how long its burning. Nor does she care.

Her feet are cold.

Once her task was done theo walked back into the base. Her movements were that of someone in a daze. Blood, and water was seen trailing behind the dazed master.

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Camolot: Restoration complete!

Everything hurt.

" you knew.....dying seems nice. Maybe I'll even get a proper nap "

She didn't wake up right away after the rayshift back and this is what happened.

All that just for a misguided want of a perfect world. A utopia for all the good people.

It hurt to breathe, to sit and most importantly to think. Her heart was heavy with all the death that happened during this singularity. They were servants and summoning them was possible but... Bitterness and anger hug around her as she sighed.

What a joke.

She knew that an ideal paradise wasn't a thing. While she wasn't ' human ' she knew all to well how being pure wasn't a thing. Everyone man and God was flawed.

But how many had to die to prove that?

How many people had to pay with their lives to prove their ideals.

But..... The idea of sacrificing yourself for others.

Just how much do you need to love them to do that?

"......its gonna end soon...."

The master moved to stand up only to fall. A pained gasp left her as she covered her mouth. Slowly she pulled off her medical clothes reavling how the runes burned onto her flesh had changed.

They moved.

They were alive.

It was disgusting. How each mark spread's like roots into her arm.

She needed to get up and make preparations. She didn't have any time to lose after all...

But just for a moment she thought about giving up. Just for a moment she thought about letting one of the other masters deal with the two final optisctucals.

But she had people she need to protect and she wasn't going to let everything go because she was weak-willed.

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Masters interlude;

memory's of nobody

Theo didn't remember what it was like before that day everything changed. No. It was more akin to remembering something painful. It hurt to remember because it was the 'end'. The end off all things safe. Of all the moments she was Theodore. If she remembered correctly she was five? Six? It was around the time she should have learned mage craft. At least that's what she believed.

Leila had come to my room crying. I stood up quickly not wanting to see her tears. She was my baby sister. My heart. The day she came home i wanted noting more then to protect her. And what type of sibling let's their younger sibling cry. I remember her begging me not to let grandfather hurt her. For a moment i just thought it was a exaggerated lie. Until i heard mother shouting with father. Mom never shouted. She was to sick. Her lungs we're too far gone.

I remember hiding Lelia in my closet and covering her with my blankets. I remember telling her to wait for big brother. " I'll fix everything okay?" What childish words. But they were the only comfort i could give.

I remember walking down to the living room. The feeling of old wood on my bare feet was something i don't think i could forget.

" your not using my daughter's for your sick games!"

Those were the words i heard my mother say to both my father and grandfather. In that moment my sick mother was standing. Her hands shaking. Voice wavering and yet she stood defiantly.

I didn't want to see that. At the time i still loved my mother. At the time she still cared about us. About me.

" I'll do it "

Everything in the room changed in that moment. A look of undescribable horror crossed my mother's face while my father looked at me blankly. I don't think my grandfather looked at me that whole time.

I think I heard my mother begging at that moment but I was lead out by my dad. Of course, I had no idea what I gave up but I don't think i'd care.

I didn't want to see my sister cry.