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While still in yokai form, the enormous, serpentine and black-feathered dragon was all too happy to curl around Luna and make a nook for her back to lean against. He, meanwhile, was content to sleep the afternoon away. (bye i had to--)

          “ Stop!--

                    Stop... I just... I need a minute. ”

          Stopping dead in her tracks the middle of a forest grove, sequestered and cloistered by a low hanging canopy of trees, she dropped down among the tall grass, shivering and breaking out into a cold sweat like she had been stricken with a sudden chill as she huddled her knees closely to her chest. Oh, how she wished it could have been so simple. The weakness, the exhaustion, even the overwhelming bouts of nausea... the fact that it had taken a withered old crone and a human no less to point out what should have been glaringly obvious was, in a word, ironic. Most women in her position would have seen and read the signs by now, but she never had imagined it to be possible for someone like her. For someone who was supposed to be lifeless and barren. So for the first few days bleeding into the coming weeks, she ignored it. She even went out of her way to hide it from him because she thought it would naturally go away soon enough. There was no point in letting him fret over nothing... or so she thought.

          Now that she couldn’t deny the truth of it any longer, her whole world had been thrown into complete disarray. She was a wreck, a nigh unrecognizable shade of her former self. Her sense of calm had been shattered, her face drained of color as she went white as a sheet, eyes anxiously fixated on the ground as she tried swallowing the bile in her throat. But it kept coming back... and now that she knew why, never before had she felt so helpless.

          This shouldn’t... no, this can’t be happening. I can’t have children. I don’t want children. This isn’t what I’m meant to do. I’m more than this. I’m not some fucking witless broodmare! And yet... how could I have been so blind? How could I have been so fucking stupid as to not once even consider it?

          Maybe I should get rid of it... but I couldn’t possibly tell him that. He seemed so overjoyed. Him knowing that I even thought of such a thing would just break his heart. But this... this doesn’t even come close to a miracle for me. It’s more like the opposite. I’m just so fucking scared... I feel like I’ve lost all control. I feel trapped. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.

          As she continued to lay low, wretchedly pulling at and balling her hair in her hands, she heard a slither come around the bend and encircle her from behind. Smooth ebony scales rubbed up against her back like a cat yearning for attention as the dragon’s massive head nudged her aside with only his snout managing to fit on her lap. Even in this form, it seemed he was just as shameless as ever. But his eyes... those familiar, scorching red eyes were strangely a comfort, knowing that try as she might, she would never be rid of them. She would never be rid of him. And he wouldn’t treat her any lesser for it.

          No wonder he had been keeping her close, refusing to be parted from her. Maybe he knew before even she did.

          “ ... Idiot. ” She scoffed, a latent whisper barely audible under her breath as she wrapped an arm around the scruff of his neck and curled into him. She was still a long way from being alright with any of this... but having him and trusting him to be there for her was a start.

@asaraltu

[cipherr]

Whimsical Vanilla-chan, Melody Doll, Symphonia of Birds, Day Dream Carnival, Fancy Paper Dolls, Holy Night Story, Twinkle Mermaid ~

yaaaaay thanks :D

Whimsical Vanilla-chan: What pets do you have/want to have?right now i just have Dundee, the big stinky birb. i really want another budgie though, and we’re working on that ;w; i’ve also always wanted horses but that’ll probably never happen. or cats!! i want a kitty. but i’d have to be mega careful of having a kitty while there are birbs around.

Melody Doll: What types of music do you listen to?predominantly rock/symphonic metal, or whatever i find catchy on the radio :’3

Symphonia of Birds: Favourite type of bird?i gotta go with a budgie :’D i really do love all birds, but budgies forever have a super special place in my heart. i’d for real kiss all the birds, though.

Day Dream Carnival: What do you daydream about the most?  bein with the bf ;w;

Fancy Paper Dolls: What accessories would come with a doll version of you?lots of different pairs of thigh highs :’DD and probably a hairbrush let’s be real. and stuff to do my nails! (not like it would work on an actual paper doll, shh)

Holy Night Story: Favourite thing to do when it’s night time?i think i do most of my youtube bingeing at night, particularly horror games :’3 gets the Spoop Juices flowing

Twinkle Mermaid: Favourite type of fantasy creature?i can’t decide between dragons, unicorns, and hippogriffs :’D i was gonna say ‘aliens’ but i’m firmly in the camp of “the universe is Too Big for us to be totally alone” so i don’t think it would be fair for me to categorize them as fantasy :’D

i love these, they’re so creative, THANKS