#dr entry 56

[darlingstarstuff]

dream journal. 56.

[lucid dream achieved]

july 13th, 2019

holy moly. so. i found out about subliminal audios right? and i i think i found the perfect one. after a couple days of dry sleep, i listened to this subliminal six times, once before sleep, the second when i woke up early morning, and guess what happened? i remember five whole dreams, and one of this was lucid! i think i need to continue to exercise my recall however, since while i still remember these dreams, they are spotty, like distant memories. still, this is amazing!! planning to use subliminals and research them extensively now! anyway, onto the dreams.

my first dream was a little interesting and coherent. i was sitting in a hotel room with like ten other people and all of us were sitting in chairs or on two beds just watching movie in a dim room. it was a robin movie, the character from dc, in this 3d animation style that was like the lego movie, but more with action figures then lego dudes. the premise of the story was that robin didn’t want to be a side kick anymore, he wanted to be like the full fledge heroes.

so he want to the base of… archer? he looked like an archer, but was voiced by ryan reynolds, who had these statues of big name super heroes. robin would go to each one, and somehow able to shift aspects of himself to mimic these heroes, in his attempt to be better like them. but then suddenly the tv we were watching it on went haywire and flipped through channels. everyone was like ‘hey, wtf!” and i grab the remote to change it back. but the remote was acting weird too, and wouldn’t change the channel immediately. the others turned their heads angrily t me, when i finally got it to change back into the movie. i sigh in relief, someone on my left chuckles and i whisper to them and laugh too, “wow they were ready to just annihilate me there, haha.”

the second dream was short, it was just a dream about jenna marbles and her dogs- and instead of peach she got this little grey girl chihuahua instead, and she was this lumpy little baby. you can tell dogs apart simply by their barks.

the third dream was… i don’t know. weird. kinda gross but not in a body-horror way. i had a dream that my skin was peeling, maybe form sun burn? and i start to carefully peel it off like whatever, but then the dead becomes like a shell almost, hard, and i have to crack them off. but if i crack the pieces off my skin too early, the skin itself becomes red- not irritable or painful but just red, and i could see the stark difference in color between the red and the normal color of the unaffected areas. it was… really weird, i don’t know.

fourth dream was my lucid dream. it didn’t start lucid, and was set in the 1950s i believe, and i was getting out of a car with a guy that i think was supposed to be my boyfriend? idk. we were coming back from a train station. and as we were walking down the actually crowded streets of night i become lucid. i rub my hands because whenever i realize this, the dream never fails to try and destroy itself. rubbing my hands always fixes it. eventually i ditch the guy and go on my own in this house. another party. unfortunately, there is a point in this dream where i don’t think i’m fully lucid but still aware of what’s going on. like, i’m aware, but don’t have the clear enough conscious to change anything, so i’m just aware of the ebb of flow of the dream.

actually i tried to get a npc from far past to come, but- he never looked right at all, he get shifting, until he was a completely different entity all together. mega fail. i’ll try again later. i’m looking into making a servitor or something of that sort so i can practice energy and spiritwork, something simple of course. but in order to do that i have to make sure that the dream doesnt have its strings on me like it did last night. i need to remember my plans and goals of lucid dreaming.

one final dream, something with story and a little fun.

hellboy wasn’t part of an organization, he was just an alcoholic friend that was good at fighting and shooting guns. we both go to this large household, and come face to face with these albino warrior elves. we get into it a bit, thinking each other the enemy, but eventually we realize we’re actually supposed to meet and help each other with a common enemy between us, so we calm down and get to talking. apparently there’s this type of monster that’s going around kidnapping baby humans, and the elves had a device in order to lure the thing in, and all of us were gonna kill the thing. however, the device needed these crystals to be put into its mechanisms and at first we were like ‘lol okay? so do it.” so they slide the crystals in, close the hatch, activate it and… nothing happens. we’re all confused and the elves open the machine to find that the crystals were just straight up gone.

i turn to hb like “omg did you steal the crystals or something you big oaf” and he gets mock-offended and makes a point go taking off his big jacket and fwipping it up and down to show he didn’t somehow snatch the crystals. we bicker, but stop when we realize something. in the very household we were in, there were human babies in cradles. perhaps they were supposed to help in luring the monster, but when we look, the baby human has been replaced by a baby chimp, wearing a onesie and everything. everyone fucking flips and we go upstairs where we knew two other babies were being kept. we were too late. and we don’t know what happened.