#dont mind me using tumblr as a diary at 9 am lol

[malecsmango]

Can't stop thinking about how when I was 9 years old my father told me that all gay people are unsafe to be around, they're immoral and they would hurt me as a young innocent child. I already knew them that I was queer and I thought my father would hate me if he knew. I came out as bi when I was 12. My dad beat around the bush and was awkward for a few days but eventually became comfortable with the idea. Then when I was 14 I came out as trans. My dad told me he didn't understand but that he would never stop loving me. For years he mixed up my pronouns, called me the wrong name, slipped up and said casually transphobic things without realizing. But now... Now it's been 10 years. He hasn't misgendered me in so long. Even when I'm not in the room I hear him correct others on my name and pronouns. I don't even remember what my dead name sounds like in his voice.

He recently had a long tear-filled discussion with me about how he's so sorry he didn't know better when I was younger. About how he wishes someone had just outright told him how to be better. How he wishes he just knew how much pain I was in. I break down in tears when I think about that 14 year old boy thinking his parents would stop loving him if he transitioned and how that boy would never in a million years believe how much better things got.

Once a week, I draw up my testosterone shot and call my dad on the phone and he gives me a pep talk while I inject myself. If I get scared, he invites me over to do my injection at his house so I'm not alone. My dad forbade me from having openly gay friends as a child. My dad corrects anyone and everyone on my name and pronouns. My dad said gay marriage should never be legalized when the topic came up at a family gathering in 2009. My dad holds my hand when I get blood drawn to check my testosterone levels. I know that I'm in the minority of trans people when it comes to my relationship with my dad and for that I am so sorry. But I can't help but feel so grateful that my heart is close to bursting because I have this old man in my life who was there every step of the way, fumbling and learning. Growing with me through this journey.

I wish I had a way to fully convince little 14 year old me that it was all going to be okay. To convince him that we end up with everything we need we just have to be patient. Life is so unbearable some days but on those days I get in my car and I drive to my dad's house. I walk in without knocking and am welcomed into a warm, loving home. I cry when I leave because my heart is so full of love and hope that I can't contain it.

[tvansillaf-blog]

GET TO KNOW ME TAG

i was tagged by this simblr @oaski <3

RULES: Post a pic of your simself with your traits and answer the questions!

tags: @gothoasis @centilamp  @amykii  @pirumxsim

questions:

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? archie

2. WHAT IS YOUR NICKNAME? dont have one tbh

3. BIRTHDAY? 12th semptember

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOOK SERIES? girl missing by sophie mckenzie (theres 3 in the series)

5. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS OR GHOSTS? no

6. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE AUTHOR? sophie mckenzie

7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE RADIO STATION? my spotify playlis 

8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLAVOR OF ANYTHING? salted caramel

9. WHAT WORD OR PHRASE WOULD YOU USE OFTEN TO DESCRIBE SOMETHING GREAT OR WONDERFUL? thats amazing

10. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONG? god is a woman and imagine

11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE WORD? i have been watching a lot of james charles lately and i know it is bad but “sister” this answer is by @oaski but literally the same as me hh

12. WHAT WAS THE LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO? i was here by beyonce (the queen)

13. WHAT TV SHOW WOULD YOU RECOMMEND FOR EVERYBODY TO WATCH? kuwtk yeah im basic oops

14. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE TO WATCH WHEN YOU’RE FEELING DOWN?  MEAN GIRLSS

15. DO YOU PLAY VIDEO GAMES? only the sims

16. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? being murdered and terrorists

17. WHAT IS YOUR BEST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? idk haha

18. WHAT IS YOUR WORST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? my everything, okay but being specific is probably my weight

19. DO YOU LIKE CATS OR DOGS BETTER? i love cats but dogs have more personality so dogs

20. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? summer duh!

21. ARE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP? um yus

22. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU MISS FROM YOUR CHILDHOOD? i am in my childhood lmao

23. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND? @centilamp and emily

24. WHAT IS YOUR EYE COLOR? dark brown

25. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? dark brown, the exact swatch that my himself has

26. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU LOVE? lots of people

27. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU TRUST? lots of people

28. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN? lots of people

29. ARE YOU CURRENTLY EXCITED ABOUT/FOR SOMETHING? eating dinner

30. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST OBSESSION? the sims 4 

31. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW AS A CHILD? i dunno if im still classed as a child

32. WHO OF THE OPPOSITE GENDER CAN YOU TELL ANYTHING TO, IF ANYONE? my shishtar

33. ARE YOU SUPERSTITIOUS? idk what that means and im too lazy to google it

34. DO YOU HAVE ANY UNUSUAL PHOBIAS? i dont think so

35. DO YOU PREFER TO BE IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA OR BEHIND IT? both

36. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HOBBY? playing the sims and dance

37. WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ?  idk

38. WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? umm idk some christmas film haha

39. WHAT MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? i used to play piano but i stopped ges bo cause it was sooo boring

40. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL? an alpaca

41. WHAT ARE YOUR TOP 5 FAVORITE TUMBLR BLOGS THAT YOU FOLLOW? oh no i dont want to be rude @pirumxsim @oaski @amykii @centilamp @gothoasis

42. WHAT SUPERPOWER DO YOU WISH YOU HAD? invisibility

43. WHEN AND WHERE DO YOU FEEL MOST AT PEACE? asleep

44. WHAT MAKES YOU SMILE? lots of things (idk lol)

45. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? um NO

46. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK? doctor pepper lol

47. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A HAND-WRITTEN LETTER OR NOTE TO SOMEBODY?  idk the date but it was christmas cards

48. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? yus

49. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE? when people eat with their mouth open and when people put their phone like on the side but dont turn it off

50. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO A CONCERT? yes

51. ARE YOU VEGAN/VEGETARIAN? no

52. WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE, WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GREW UP? i used to want to be a dentist

53. WHAT FICTIONAL WORLD WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE IN? nowhere idk what to write

54. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU WORRY ABOUT? lots of things

55. ARE YOU SCARED OF THE DARK? kind of

56. DO YOU LIKE TO SING? yes, but im really bad

57. HAVE YOU EVER SKIPPED SCHOOL? i dont think so

58. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE ON THE PLANET? my bed

59. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE? in my bed

60. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? a dog

61. ARE YOU MORE OF AN EARLY BIRD OR A NIGHT OWL? night owl

62. DO YOU LIKE SUNRISES OR SUNSETS BETTER? idk

63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO DRIVE? no

64. DO YOU PREFER EARBUDS OR HEADPHONES? earbuds

65. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? no

66. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GENRE OF MUSIC? pop, mixed with anything… but always a little pop

67. WHO IS YOUR HERO? idk

68. DO YOU READ COMIC BOOKS? nope

69. WHAT MAKES YOU THE MOST ANGRY? people talking about me behind my back

70. DO YOU PREFER TO READ ON AN ELECTRONIC DEVICE OR WITH A REAL BOOK? don’t mind

71. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? dt

72. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS? yes

73. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? phone case

74. HOW TALL ARE YOU? idk like 150 cm

75. CAN YOU COOK? i can cook super noodles!

76. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU LOVE? food, music and food

77. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU HATE? some people, sport and fortnite

78. DO YOU HAVE MORE FEMALE FRIENDS OR MORE MALE FRIENDS?female

79. WHAT IS YOUR SEXUAL ORIENTATION? straight

80. WHERE DO YOU CURRENTLY LIVE? with my parents

81. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TEXTED? my dad

82. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? yesterday cause i was tired lol

83. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE YOUTUBER? deligracy

84. DO YOU LIKE TO TAKE SELFIES? NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

85. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE APP? instagram

86. WHAT IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARENT(S) LIKE? good

87. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOREIGN ACCENT? i like lots of accents

88. WHAT IS A PLACE THAT YOU’VE NEVER BEEN TO, BUT YOU WANT TO VISIT? austrlia but cba to go on a 24 hour flight

89. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 12

90. CAN YOU JUGGLE? no

91. ARE YOU RELIGIOUS? nope

92. DO YOU FIND OUTER SPACE OF THE DEEP OCEAN TO BE MORE INTERESTING? no

93. DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF TO BE A DAREDEVIL? no

94. ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO ANYTHING? no

95. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE? yus

96. CAN YOU WIGGLE YOUR EARS?  no

97. HOW OFTEN DO YOU ADMIT THAT YOU WERE WRONG ABOUT SOMETHING? like 1% of the time

98. DO YOU PREFER THE FOREST OR THE BEACH? beach

99. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIECE OF ADVICE THAT ANYONE HAS EVER GIVEN YOU? idk lololol

100. ARE YOU A GOOD LIAR? yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuus

101. WHAT IS YOUR HOGWARTS HOUSE?  ravenclaw

102. DO YOU TALK TO YOURSELF? no

103. ARE YOU AN INTROVERT OR AN EXTROVERT? both kind of lol

104. DO YOU KEEP A JOURNAL/DIARY? no i tried then i got bored and played thee sims

105. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES? yes

106. IF YOU FOUND A WALLET FULL OF MONEY ON THE GROUND, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? id probably ignore it or tke like £5

107. DO YOU BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE ARE CAPABLE OF CHANGE? yes

108. ARE YOU TICKLISH? ifdk if i still am i used to be

109. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A PLANE? yes

110. DO YOU HAVE ANY PIERCINGS? no

111. WHAT FICTIONAL CHARACTER DO YOU WISH WAS REAL? regina georgen and DAMIEN

112. DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS? no

113. WHAT IS THE BEST DECISION THAT YOU’VE MADE IN YOUR LIFE SO FAR? to buy city living haha

114. DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA? kind of

115. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES OR CONTACTS? neither

116. DO YOU WANT CHILDREN? yussssssssssss

117. WHO IS THE SMARTEST PERSON YOU KNOW? dont want to be rude so im skipping

118. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING MEMORY? uhh is this done yet

119. HAVE YOU EVER PULLED AN ALL-NIGHTER? no but nearly

120. WHAT COLOR ARE MOST OF YOUR CLOTHES? black grey and navy

121. DO YOU LIKE ADVENTURES? noo

122. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON TV? yes

123. HOW OLD ARE YOU? 123456789

124. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE? gO dIe In A hOlE haha that was like the biggest insult in year 5

125. DO YOU PREFER SWEET OR SAVORY FOODS? sweet 

FINALLY IM DONE

[corasohn]

hey again :))) just catching up on things i was mentioned in sooo this one is the 11 q’s tag and its going under a read more since a few ppl tagged me :-o ! so @bakchangg @artfulkey @dearestjonghyun & @tuuzmorado thank you for tagging me 💗💓💗💞💗💕💕💞💗  

bakchangg’s questions

what was the last song you deliberately put on to listen to? peekaboo :3

what do you celebrate at the end of the year, if anything? nothing tbh we just watch the countdown and drink lol

movies or tv shows? tv shows

space or ocean? space !!!

do you have a favorite shirt? yes!!!! i love my girl power shirt or girls supporting girls shirt orrrr my black v neck

last game you played? uhhhh uncharted 

did you eat breakfast today? no :///

what is your opinion on socks? theyre nice i love the fuzzy ones in winter and i have pokemon/kpop/sailor moon/animal socks as well so!

whats something you absolutely hate? uncooked onions. godless.

do you think you read fast? kinda but i tend to re read if i go too fast cause then i cant fully understand, you know???

rain or snow? R A I N

bella’s questions

How much sleep do you get? What do you do when you can’t sleep? i dont get alot tbh i tend to stay up and overthink like many others ._. so i actually listen to my nighttime playlist or watch/listen to yoongis vlives/album reviews. His voice really lulls me to sleep soooo !! thanks yoong ^^ 

What’s your best feature (physical or mental)? my eyes/lips and how open minded i am, but ofc theres probably things im still closed minded about. So slowly im learning/understanding more

What are the top 3 things you admire about your bias and why? which.. one bella.... lmao ok uhmmm ill just go with onew. i admire how considerate he is and how he takes the role of being the oldest/leadr very seriously ;; i adore his understanding towards specific topics that are hard to discuss and his personality is just- he really makes sure youre ok and will always have a shoulder to cry on/friend to depend on :’) idk... hes my first bias and will always be number 1 tbh i just really love him. i want.. i need him to be happy. as long as he’s happy, i am too.

If you could tell your bias anything what would you say? @ namjoon, wear a dangly earring asshol*!!!!!

Whats an album that you haven’t listened to for a while but will always hold a special place in your heart? probably shinees hello or year of us. for hello, lucifer era was when i discovered shinee and hello is still my fav era. and for year of us i just.. really love y.o.u and it was a song that i had on repeat for  s u c h  a long time!!

Why do you study/work in the area that you do? right now im just attending college and just doing my best lol

If someone wanted to befriend you, what should they do/say? just say hi ghfjhdk you can literally talk to me about anything. me & @mimisgf became friends from talking about harry potter and the houses kjhgfkd not even kpop lmao. but then we discussed who in nct would belong in what house haha so yeah just send a message about anything really!

Out of the people that you know irl or online, who is the most similar to your bias and why? no one really lol but, me and my cousins/sisters just joke about my one cousin whos a virgo saying like “wow, you’re really like joon.. he’d do this...” “virgo antics” “you’re just as clumsy as joon lmao ” stuff like that but shes like “lol i know.” 

If you could drastically change one thing about your life with no negative consequences what would you change? my mom grandma/grandpa to talk to us in spanish and english ._. my mom wanted us to be bilingual or tri but my grandpa told her we didnt need to learn spanish and that we should just know english so... yeah.. ://

You have the opportunity to spend the day with your bias in your hometown. What do you do/where do you go with them? well for all 3 its the same but, specifically for nam i’d take him to this one huge parking lot that you can see a really nice view of the city or this tall hill in south sf with a great view as well ^^

Post a selfie (of yourself or your bias) that you love. :-)))))) this is a fav. its the first pic i saved of him :-D (wait. let me just say rn i emailed the pic to paste it in here & i expected to see only that pic but there was another one sent with it jhgfjldhf plssss wtf i didnt even choose the other one lmao😂😂😂😂  ill put the other one too... why not.)

[look at this loser. cutie ._.]

jenny’s questions

Who is your bias kpop group and when did you discover them? SHINee/Bangtan ! shinee, i discovered them when the lucifer mv literally dropped lol. And i found bts when no more dream mv was released. But i did see/watched that video of them acting crazy in their old studio where they always released their diary logs many times but i just didnt know how to search for them back then lol

What is your favourite hair colour on your bias? Provide example/s I will enjoy them. if youre a fan of pinkmon well.. :)))))) if not, welp, you are now! 

ok the last one doesnt really do justice but LISTEN!! its pinkmon.!

3. Who are your favourite vocalists? jonghyun ;; and luna ! 4. Favourite female soloist for research purposes… suran hyuna sunmi and ailee!!! dont make me pick only one :((( 5. When did you first get into kpop? 2009 but officially in 2010 6. Do you consider yourself a part of many fandoms? not really tbh, i mean, i stan but im not really part of alot of fandoms.. 7. Favourite none kpop hobby? i like to read up on astrology  8. What is the best book you’ve ever read? Why? probably the book of birthdays. ngl. it has so much info on zodiac signs and it tells you about your birth number, health, and realtionships with others ^^ 9. Is there any piece of art that means something special to you? i dont have one at the moment but i hope one day ill find one. art in general is really inspiring and beautiful. 10. Have you traveled outside your home country before? Where would you want to go? i have not, sadly T.T but id like to go to mexico or japan :D or soemwhere in europe! 11. If you could live in any other time, when would you? im actually ok with the time im in now haha i dont really wanna experience the past/future tbh.

lu’s questions

1. Post one of your most loved pictures of your bias and say what you like about the picture. 

ok it took forever to find it but its not really this picture... its another one, but in a different angle. Anyways this is one of my fav pics of namjoon cute :3 

2. Post one picture of your female bias and explain what made her your bias.

tbh it was both of these pictures that made me bias her even more but joy is my bias ever since i watched their 1st appearance on weekly idol. i thought id bias wendy when they debuted but its joy :D 3. If you could pick 6 idols to make a collaboration who would you pick and what song? hmmm i actually just wanted a btshinee collab but with more members this time ;; but i also would like to see rapline with stray kids rapline aka 3racha! and the song would be self-made. i would like to see what type of song theyd create together! ^^ like chan and namjoon working on song and changbin with yoongi sharing their lyrics with each other while hobi and jisung discuss the flow of the rap and more. it would be nice to see bts rapline give pointers/advice basiaclly share their wisdom with the kids :’) 4. What song was the catchiest for you this year? peekaboo 5. You favorite hair color in your biases (male and female)? Post pictures! refer to the picture of dark haired nam and icc era of joy lol those are my fav hair colors on them (but pinkmon is also a fav...) 6. Where would you travel for your dream vacation? mexico, somewhere in europe or in asia! 7. In your opinion what comeback was underrated? tell me what to do/just one day :((((( 8. What’s your favorite food? i... love all food.... 9. From your favorite kpop album this year, which song would you have picked as a title track or a second promotional track? bangtans gogo as a second promotional track tbqh!!! idk for a title track... dna was good. 10. What’s your favorite choreography of a girl group this year? hhhhhhhhh twice likey <3 11. Taemin’s MOVE or Sunmi’s Gashina? XDDDDDD BOTH!!!!!!! i cant choose o n e

thank you all for mentioning me ^^ & here are my questions:

Favorite outfit on your bias from any era ^^ pls put a few pics :D

A song or a video that helps you sleep?

What idol interation did/do you want last/this year?

Is there a favorite cover song you like from your fav group(s)?

What color do you think your bias looks the best in?

Top 5 songs that you have been listening to non stop in 2017?

If someone in your fav group can go solo or start a unit, who would you want it to be?

Any songs you want to rec others to listen to (kpop/non-kpop)?

Top 10 blogs you enjoy seeing on tumblr?

Your opinion on drop earrings/ripped jeans/chokers?

Whats one goal you wish to accomplish for 2018?  

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[rontufox]

I completed this way too long of meme thing

1: My name? Brian! 2: Do I have any nicknames? Rontu!

3: Zodiac sign? Sagittarius!! 4: Video game I play to chill, not to win? Breath of the Wild.... if I owned it 5: Book/series I reread? Island of the Blue Dolphins lol 6: Aliens or ghosts? neither, ugh 7: Writer I trust enough to read whatever they write? Furudate 8: Favourite radio station? I haven’t listened to the radio in like... 3 years 9: Favourite flavour of anything? how the heck am I supposed to answer this? 10: The word that I use all the time to describe something great? SO COOL 11: Favourite song? Aru Machi no Gunjou by Asian Kung-Fu Generation 12: The question you ask new friends to get to know them better? I don’t make friends 13: Favourite word? bro

14: The last person who hurt me, did I forgive them? yeah 15: Last song I listened to? T.O.P. (the second ending song in Sonic X.... lol) 16: TV show I always recommend? HAIKYUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 17: Pirates or ninjas? *groans* 18: Movie I watch when I'm feeling down? hm.... I only watch movies when I’m happy 19: Song that I always start my shuffle with/wake-up song/always-on-a-loop song? just...... tons of cheerful chiptune by Malmen 20: Favourite video games? platformers 21: What am I most afraid of? yes I’ll totally tell you 22: A good quality of mine? strong, optimistic 23: A bad quality of mine? distrustful lol 24: Cats or dogs? both 25: Actor/actress you trust enough to watch whatever they're in? NONE 26: Favourite season? WINTER!!!!!!!!!! 27: Am I in a relationship? I give and get so much love ✌🏼✌🏼✌🏼 28: Something I miss? Angel’s Landing, I really wanna hike it 29: My best friend? my bro 30: Eye colour? BROWN!! 31: Hair colour? brown 32: Someone I love? my bro 33: Someone I trust? my bro 34: Someone I always think about? MIGHTY THE ARMADILLO 35: Am I excited about anything? my wonderful life 36: My current obsession? my Sonic fic 37: Favourite TV shows as a child? Power Rangers, Sonic SatAM, Rocko’s Modern Life, Powerpuff Girls, DBZ were my most fav 38: Do I have someone of the opposite sex that I can tell everything to? I have no idea what that is 39: Am I superstitious? no. 40: What do I think about most? how lucky I am 41: Do I have any strange phobias? fans.  I thought it was just ceiling fans, but at some stupid camping retreat I was forced to go to, there was a rotating fan whose sound kept making me feel like I was gonna die??  I was terrified man idek 42: Do I prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? both are cool 43: Favourite hobbies? drawing and writing 44: Last book I read? Island of the Blue Dolphins 45: Last film I watched? Interstellar 46: Do I play any instruments? nope 47: Favourite animal? FOX 48: Top 5 blog on Tumblr that I follow? I don’t like doing ones like this 49: Superpower I wish I could have? cliche but I wanna fly 50: How do I destress? listening to music, writing, and hanging with my bro 51: Do I like confrontation? no. 52: When do I feel most at peace? when I’m alone 53: What makes me smile? Mighty............ 54: Do I sleep with the lights on or off? off 55: Play any sports? I love soccer 56: What is my song of the week? gosh I don’t know 57: Favourite drink? almond milk tea now 58: When did I last send a handwritten letter to somebody? oh shoot... uh... like a year ago? 59: Afraid of heights? NO.  I love them 60: Pet peeve? you know what.  I hate when people are like “knock on wood” or like “you jinxed it by saying something!”  my gosh, shut up, can anyone ever say anything without people doing that?? 61: What was the last concert I went to see? my gosh this is boring 62: Am I vegetarian/vegan/pescatarian? no 63: What occupation did I want to do when I was younger? I wanted to work with animals 64: Have I ever had a friend turn enemy? yeah you wouldn’t believe the horrible stuff 2 people did to me in highschool/college 65: What fictional universe would I like to be a part of? idk 66: Something I worry about? I used to always worry I’d leave the house without a shirt on without realizing it.  I haven’t worried about that since my surgery LOL 67: Scared of the dark? no 68: Who are my best friends? mind your gosh dang business, but, you already asked this 69: What do I admire most about others? kindness 70: Can I sing? no but it’s fun 71: Something I wish I could do? hmmmm.... fly still lol 72: If I won the lottery, what would I do? idk it’s so boring to think about cuz it’d never happen 73: Have I ever skipped school? I guess?  by faking being sick 74: Favourite place on the planet? myself 75: Where do I want to live? Colorado 76: Do I have any pets? a cat named Sarai 77: What is my current desktop picture? a flowery place with pine trees and snowy mountains in the distance 78: Early bird or night owl? early 79: Sunsets or sunrise? gosh these are in EVERY meme thing 80: Can I drive? yup and I love to sing when I drive 81: Story behind my last kiss? I kissed me cat on the head 82: Earphones or headphones? earphones I guess 83: Have I ever had braces? gosh yes 84: Story behind one of my scars? my top surgery scar is where I got top surgery 85: Favourite genre of music? idk I love chiptune and r&b 86: Who is my hero? NISHINOYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HERO HERO 87: Favourite comic book character? I kinda hate comic books 88: What makes me really angry? when characters be mean to Mighty 89: Kindle or real book? I.D.C.

90: Favourite sporty activity? hiking 91: What is one thing that isn’t tight in schools that should be? you think there should be MORE rules?

92: What was my favourite subject at school? science 93: Siblings? got a little sister 94: What was the last thing I bought? dinner for me and my sister 95: How tall am I? 5′1 !!!!!!!!!!!!!! 96: Can I cook? NO.  I AM INEPT 97: Can I bake? have never tried 98: 3 things I love? I love my life I love my friends I love myself 99: 3 things I hate? idk cilantro, loud sounds, uh people who waste my time 100: Do I have more girl friends or boy friends? I don’t know what those are 101: Who do I get on with better, girls or boys? ugh 102: Where was I born? NOSEY 103: Sexual orientation? ACE✧ 104: Where do I currently live? ...........get away from me 105: Last person I texted? my cousin 106: Last time I cried? a few days ago I guess 107: Guilty pleasure? making fun of stuff I hate with my bro 108: Favourite Youtuber? I really like Diabetus from Retsuprae 109: A photo of myself. *lazy* 110: Do I like selfies? tons, people prolly hate it 111: Favourite game app? I guess snapchat doesn’t count but I don’t have any game apps 112: My relationship with my parents? blunt 113: Favourite accents? idk 114: A place I have not been but wish to visit? idk 115: Favourite number? FIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 116: Can I juggle? pff, no 117: Am I religious? no 118: Do I like space? yeah~ 119: Do I like the deep ocean? it’s okay I guess 120: Am I much of a daredevil? I used to be 121: Am I allergic to anything? my skin’s kinda allergic to water? 122: Can I curl my tongue? yeah 123: Can I wiggle my ears? sometimes 124: Do I like clowns? gosh I DONT” CARE 125: The Beatles or Elvis? anyway 126: My current project? my Sonic fic 127: Am I a bad loser? I’m not competitive so 128: Do I admit when I wrong? yeah I try to be proactive 129: Forest or beach? FOREST 130: Favourite piece of advice? "If....for SOME reason, someone thinks you're lame, they're wrong.” 131: Am I a good liar? LOL NO 132: Hogwarts house / Divergent faction / Hunger Games district? BORING 133: Do I talk to myself? I sing to myself 134: Am I very social? LOL NO 135: Do I like gossip? no it’s usually stupid 136: Do I keep a journal/diary? no 137: Have I ever hopelessly failed a test? I don’t think so 138: Do I believe in second chances? lolllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll no 139: If I found a wallet full of cash on the ground, what would I do? I’d give it to whoever’s in charge or whatever 140: Do I believe people are capable of change? it’s rare 141: Have I ever been underweight? always 142: Am I ticklish? my gosh this question makes me wanna slap it 143: Have I ever been in a submarine? no 144: Have I ever been on a plane? way too many times 145: In a film about my life, who would I cast as myself, friends and family? this would never happen, no one could be as short and handsome as me 146: Have I ever been overweight? no 147: Do I have any piercings? no 148: Which fictional character do I wish was real? I don’t 149: Do I have any tattoos? no 150: What is the best decision I have made in life so far? just keep trying to improve man 151: Do I believe in Karma? no 152: Do I wear glasses or contacts? I wear reading/computer glasses 153: What was my first car? why would I remember that boring piece of information 154: Do I want children? no 155: Who is the most intelligent person I know? ME 156: My most embarrassing memory? idk sorry I’m too lazy to think 157: What makes me nostalgic? Sonic 158: Have I ever pulled an all-nighter? yes it was horrible 159: Which do I value more in others, brains or beauty? those aren’t what I value 160: What colour mostly dominates my wardrobe? gray? 161: Have I ever had a paranormal experience? no 162: What do I hate most about myself? how I can’t hear or talk very well 163: What do I love most about myself? how I’m ace and loving and optimistic 164: Do I like adventure? yeah!

165: Do I believe in fate? my GOSH.  NO 166: Favourite animal? you........... already asked this......... 167: Have I ever been on radio? no 168: Have I ever been on TV? yeah 169: How old am I? 29! 170: One of my favourite quotes? idk does it look like I can be bothered to do that right now 171: Do I hold grudges? yes 172: Do I trust easily? LOL 173: Have I learnt from my mistakes? yup 174: Best gift I’ve ever received? reciprocation 175: Do I dream? y-yeah? 176: Have I ever had a night terror? I’m not really sure what that is 177: Do I remember my dreams, and what is one that comes to mind? sometimes, once I had a dream that I flew up into the clouds, they were pink, and on the other side collected on top of a cloud was a big wide, crystal clear lake 178: An experience that has made me stronger? honestly just all the younger people in my life and seeing how I can help 179: If I were immortal, what would I do? not die 180: Do I like shopping? it’s fun if you’re with someone 181: If I could get away with a crime, what would I choose to do? get a particular person killed 182: What does “family” mean to me? friends who love 183: What is my spirit animal? shut up 184: How do I want to be remembered? idk....... I hope people tell me what they think of me while I’m still alive 185: If I could master one skill, what would I choose? identifying rocks 186: What is my greatest failure? trying to become an art teacher I guess lol 187: What is my greatest achievement? me~ 188: Love or money? would you stop 189: Love or career? anyway 190: If I could time travel, where and when would I want to go? idk........ that’s too big a question 191: What makes me the happiest? me 192: What is “home” to me? *shrug* 193: What motivates me? ME 194: If I could choose my last words, what would they be? this is really dramatic 195: Would I ever want to encounter aliens? no. 196: A movie that scared me as a child? Jurassic Park when the t-rex had the kids pinned under the car 197: Something I hated as a child that I like now? onions?  I have no idea 198: Zombies or vampires? I hate both 199: Live in the city or suburbs? IDK 200: Dragons or wizards? I hate stuff like this 201: A nightmare that has stayed with me? gosh when I was a kid I’d always have this nightmare that was mostly a smell...... and a weird feeling/pain... my gosh 202: How do I define love? it’s wonderful and kind 203: Do I judge a book by its cover? idek if you’re talking literally or figuratively either way BORING 204: Have I ever had my heart broken? yeah 205: Do I like my handwriting? yup 206: Sweet or savoury? savory 207: Worst job I’ve had? the one I had before we got a new CEO where basically I did everyone’s jobs 208: Do I collect anything? not really 209: Item of clothing or jewellery you’ll never see me without? underwear I guess 210: What is on my bucket list? fjdksl 211: How do I handle anger? I leave til I’ve calmed down 212: Was I named after anyone? no 213: Do I use sarcasm a lot? not that much 214: What TV character am I most like? idk 215: What is the weirdest talent I have? I can burp very loud and long on command 216: Favourite fictional character? MIGHTY THE ARMADILLO

[raaven-nerd]

50 Question Studyblr Tag!

I saw this a while ago, and really wanted to do it, but never got around to doing it until now! 

GENERAL

What country are you studying in now? Sydney, Australia

What’s your major or specialization? none? I’m still in high school lol

What year are you in? I’m in year 9 :)

What courses are you taking (/will be taking if on break)? I take all the mandatory year 9 courses (maths, science, English, geography, history, careers, phys ed), as well as drama, Japanese, and agriculture.

Favorite course? Drama! It’s so much fun. After that it’d probably be Japanese, and then science.

What languages do you know? Want to learn? English and Cantonese (which I speak at home but i can’t read/write) and I am learning Japanese at school. I’d like to learn Mandarin, French and Latin, but I had to drop French and Latin at school because I could only study one language :((

What language do you study in? Do you think in a different language? Nup- English only! Though very very very rarely I might think in Cantonese if I’m surrounded by my family who are only Cantonese speakers

Career aspiration? Vet or psychologist?? Idk I’m still in year 9.

If you couldn’t be #8, what would you be? Doctor?? Idek tbh. Maybe a teacher but kids are crazy sometimes lol

Moment you knew what you wanted to do? Idk, my family’s been a big influence on me, and I’ve always wanted to be a doctor since I was little, but that’s changed slightly as I’ve gotten older.

STUDY ENVIRONMENT

Where is your favorite place to study? At school in any classroom tbh or in the school library

When is your favorite time to study? Early morning right after I get up or in the afternoon after school

Clean desk or organized mess? Clean desk?? Idk I try to keep it clean as possible but bc I have so many subjects books and pens are everywhere, but I clean it up quickly bc I can’t handle messy desks.

Music or no music? What type? Music. Anything tbh. As long as there’s some noise in the background, I’m happy.

Name top 3 worst distractions. My dog, YouTube, friends (when they text me and the notifications that come up on my phone)

Exam time, dress up or dress down? School uniform lol

Exam time, hair up or hair down? Hair up in a ponytail - it’s my default hair style for school and it keeps my hair out of my face, but I can still play with it :)

Favourite outfit for studying? Leggings and a T-shirt

Favourite study scent? um?? I dont really use scents when i study so ???

STUDY TOOLS

Name 5 things you would consider your ‘study essentials’. A highlighter, a black pen, white out, reinforced line paper and my laptop

Hardcopy books or pdf online? Both? If I had to choose one, probably pdf because its easier to transport

Favourite study snack? drink? Cookies/chips with chocolate milk

Favourite pen (or pencil)? Papermate Inkjoys

Favourite notebook/paper? Idk I’m not too fussy and I just buy the cheapest lol

Name 5 apps/tools that help you be productive. Google Docs (allows me to do my assignments on the go), Todoist, Google Calendar, Forest, Google Drive (textbooks + resources saved there)

How many pens/pencils/markers are in your pencil case? 4 pens, 2 pencils, 0 markers (but 2 highlighters, if they count as markers)

Backpack or purse? Backpack

How many notebooks do you have? Wayy too many lol I’ll just list the ones I use (and I’ll include my exercise books for school) so 1 for each subject except drama so 9, one for random notes, one for planning each day out (but not a bujo) and one for drawing

STUDY HABITS

How do you motivate yourself when you’re not motivated? Watch study related videos on YouTube

Pump up routine before writing an exam? Bag packed with all materials, all pens have ink, whiteout isn’t about to run out, go through notes in my head, or listen to music, and keep calm :)

Crammer or pacer? Pacer

Type of learner (kinesthetic, auditory, visual)? Visual

How do you plan? (digital, planner, lists, no plan, etc.) My diary, and I also jot things down in a notebook and in Google calendar/todoist

Preferred note-taking method? Handwritten

Do you make to-do lists? How? Yea, I just write out a list in a notebook

Do you stick to your to-do lists? Mostly, but if something comes up, or there’s a lot to do, there’s not much I can do about that

Group study or independent study? Independent, unless the group is with people who are actually going to study

Average number of hours of sleep during exam time? 7-8, pretty much what i normally get 

Ever pulled an all-nighter? Ye once, and it wasn’t even for anything important, I just got caught up in reading lol

STUDY MENTALITY

What do you do to recover from getting a grade lower than expected? I don’t normally get too worked up over grades. I’d feel a bit disappointed in myself, and it’d stick in my head for a bit. But I’d forget about it pretty quickly because whenever I get grades, its always during school where I’m with my friends, and we discuss other things to take our minds off it.

One advice you’d give others? I mean, I’m only in Year 9 but don’t stress the small stuff? Just take life as it comes, and sometimes there’s not much you can do about what happens. Try hard, and work hard, and you’ll achieve your goals eventually.  

What are you most proud of right now? I got Dux of English last year, and got an award for outstanding academic excellence in my area in Year 6 

Favorite quote to keep you going? “Working hard is important, but there is something that matters even more. Believing in yourself.” - Harry Potter

Favorite way to destress? Socialising, drawing, or watching Youtube/movie

OTHER

Favourite 5 studyblrs? ahh there’s wayyy to many to list out: some include: @studyquill @emmastudies @studyign @optomstudies @universi-tea

How often do you check Tumblr? 2x-3x a day?? idk it depends on the day

Hobbies when you’re not studying? reading, drawing/animating, 

Favourite compulsory-reading book? There aren’t really that many books I’ve had to read... I remember once in Year 6, I had to read Warhorse by Michael Morpurgo, and I quite liked it. 

First nerdy joke that pops into your head. I once told a chemistry joke, but there was no reaction.