#dont mind me bouncing around fandoms as my interests wander

[deniigi]

Hello! Just dropping by because I just binge read "so young I almost drowned" and I wanted to let you know I'm in your walls.

I'm obsessed. It's incredible and intriguing and the dry humour of both the prose and the characters is freaking hilarious. 12 yo Merlin being a cryptic almost cryptid and 13 yo Arthur being a soft terror is not a dynamic I ever envisioned by now I'm overwhelmed. My deepest sorrows for Detective Gwaine Morgan who has to deal with them, on top of a string of murders. Also, it is really not nice of Kay to sit on Arthur, but I understand the impulse. Also also, thank you for giving us Hunith and Balinor; every scene of them with Merlin is especially precious to me.

Hello!!!

I am so pleased that you are enjoying it. It has been nothing short of a GREAT fuckin time to write.

Tbh it's been years since I set foot in the Merlin Fandom and I went through 61 pages of fics before I realized I was sort of grasping for something that I couldn't find which was:

1) Balinor and Merlin content not centered on grief

2) Arthur trembling like a chihuahua in a purse.

I joke. Sort of.

I'm super intrigued by Arthur Pendragon as a person with a lot of confidence and a lot of anxiety at the same time. I am also really intrigued by how BBC Merlin portrayed him versus Wart in The Sword In The Stone.

They're not entirely different people, but Wart is so curious and so eager to please that I couldn't help but insert some of his more honest emotions into a young Arthur.

I want to think of him as someone who Uther despaired of in the 500s. Like he was totally convinced that if he didn't force Arthur into social conditions that would "harden" him then he would be consumed by nerves and melancholy.

I can absolutely see him consulting with Gaius constantly about ways to balance Arthur's humors to make him vigorous, excitable, and masculine and I imagine that, through that no doubt traumatic process, Arthur sort of made himself fit the masculine ideal his father and other knights around him worshipped.

As for Merlin, I think i just wanted to write him being this wild child with very little regard for social convention.

Once you get to chapter six, you will sort of see why he is so dismissive of the people around him and so eye-rolly at everyone telling him what to do :)

Together they are like a sticky wet dough on a counter that you cannot touch without consequences.