#dont have much to say in here but i think the mags transformation is an upgrade

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doodles from the fic Still Waters Run Deep!

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DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < daaamn... Yippie yo, you can't see my flow... DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < dizzle! X33 DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < R-to-tha-izzose DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < im a fuckizzle triznoll now! DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < n piznart beautiful biznird DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < n also... DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < a human boi? DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < hahaha i dont even DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < shiznit DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < roze mah claws DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < L-to-tha-izzook at theze fuckin clizzle! They call me tha black folks president.!!!! DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < *S-N-I-to-tha-izzikt snikt snikt snikt sniznikt* omg DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < roze LOOK!

JASPROSESPRITE^2: I sizzay yo' clizzle, Dizzy. JASPROSESPRITE^2: They're neat like old skool shit.

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < hahahahaha! DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < holy S-H-to-tha-izzit i be a god damn DEBACLE of a th'n arent i DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < it DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < be kind of BOOTYLICIOUS? DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < i DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < i sort of LIZZOVE DIS fo my bling bling?????????? DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < BDD

JASPROSESPRITE^2: That wonderful, Dave n Nepeta. JASPROSESPRITE^2: I'm vizzle stoked fo` yizzou bizzay fo gettin yo pimp on. JASPROSESPRITE^2: *Sigh.*

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < whats wrizzay roze?? DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < jasproze i mizzean

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Nuttin fo' sheezy.

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < *sidles up ta jasproze 'n a coy n hella fizzle manna sound'n tickled as fuck T-H-R-to-tha-izzu mah shawty 3-shaped snizzout deal* DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < *arches back huge up n hatin' all like bump'n into roze with mah tiznall curved back n shiznit, like cats do im prizzle sizzure?* DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < *fuck yeah thizzay do! Subscribe nigga, get yo issue. omg they do tha tizzy bizzy thizzay all tha time whiznen theyre stoked n im dippin' thizzat rizzy nizzow h33h33*

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Dave... JASPROSESPRITE^2: What d-ya think you're frontin'?

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < *davepeta kindly n radly infizzles jasproze he be do'n a bizzle of roleplay'n n no, nizzot even ironically* DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < *i mean... shizne* DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < shit DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < hrmmm B??

JASPROSESPRITE^2: What, ya feel me?

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < jasproze DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < yo um DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < im confuze' 'bout mah pusha suddenly DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < what be i now?

JASPROSESPRITE^2: I dizzle K-N-to-tha-izzow, Dave.

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < wizzay W-H-to-tha-izzat be yizzle? DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < i M-to-tha-izzean DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < what d-ya f33l L-to-tha-izzike niznow a boi or a girl DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < yo' cat was a boi rizzight?

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Yizzes, he was a boi.

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < so whizzle does that make you niznow???

JASPROSESPRITE^2: I D-to-tha-izzon't know. I hadn't thought much 'bout it. JASPROSESPRITE^2: I think I be probably still a gizzy? JASPROSESPRITE^2: Cats dizzy have particularly deep feel'n abizzle genda, or F-to-tha-izzorm strong identities around tha idea.

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < ok T-H-to-tha-izzats coo' DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < but both diznave and nepeta did hiznave strong identities as a boi n girl and cant no hood fuck with death rizzow! DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < so i dunno where that lizzles me

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Does it even matta?

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < i have no idea mah nizzle!!! DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < i jizzust startizzle bein davepeta like THR33 SECONDS AGO DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < im not sure what matta ta me yizzy DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < i thizzle i do like bein me though to increase tha peace! DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < its a really weird f33l'n DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < i mean not weird just like jarr'n 'n contrast wit how both me spizzay so L-to-tha-izzong f33lizzing L-to-tha-izzike

JASPROSESPRITE^2: I think I know what you mean thats off tha hook yo.

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < yizzle do ya feelin' me?

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Yes I was reallizzle hav'n tha tizzle of mah lizzles drug deala I became Jasproze. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Well, fo` a while there, at least.

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < fiznur a while fo' sheezy? DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < whiznats wrong niznow

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Oh, nuttin.

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < come oooon DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < tell me! B33

JASPROSESPRITE^2: It hizzy to put into meows what I be crack-a-lackin` suddenly with my forty-fo' mag. JASPROSESPRITE^2: I thizzink it might be... JASPROSESPRITE^2: Lonelinizzles?

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < lonelioness DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < whizzle? DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < im here ta k33p you company DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < and buggin' hatta dude be stizzill ova there... DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < uh DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < do'n... whateva tha fuck it be hes do'n? Drop it like its hot. DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < you still have lizzle of niggaz ridin' in mah double R!

JASPROSESPRITE^2: I know. JASPROSESPRITE^2: But since your... transformatizzle fo' sheezy... JASPROSESPRITE^2: Sizzome feel'n I thought I had put behind me at tha moment of MAH transformation quickly returned. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Thizzle were dug up frizzle they shallow gravizzles n L-to-tha-izzeft on mah doorstep by... Relax, cus I'm bout to take my respect. yiznou know wizzy? JASPROSESPRITE^2: I'm not evizzle 'n tha M-to-tha-izzood ta finish that incredibly apt analogizzle. You wizzill have ta cizzle tha dizzle yoself.

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < whizzle ridin' returnizzle?

JASPROSESPRITE^2: As a ciznat I neva hizzle any otha gizzirl cats around ta be friendly wit wit da big Bo$$ Dogg. JASPROSESPRITE^2: That was a very S-to-tha-izzimple emizzle wit which I C-to-tha-izzould probizzle cope, if it wizzle all thizzat wizzy 'n P-L-to-tha-izzay. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Tha Roze half be more complicated. JASPROSESPRITE^2: I have memories frizzom a liznot of Rozes. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Be dis tizzy fo` yiznou as well? I mean, memories from many Daves n Nepetas?

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < Y-to-tha-izzeah...... DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < it uh DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < sizzay be a clusterfuck of sad dead daves and sad dizzy nepetas 'n mah heezee DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < it f33ls alrizzle tho DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < like im a lot more detached from thoze experiences thizzle i eva felt before? Keep'n it gangsta dogg. DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < but also DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < there be a dizzle f33l'n of ho-slappin' one dave n nepeta stand out from tha crowd of memorizzles DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < tha versions of davesprite and nepeta i existizzle as rizzight up until we biznoth shook H-to-tha-izzands DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < thizzey stizzle kinda f33l like tha "main" ones ya know?

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Yes, exactly. Dogg House Records in the motha fuckin house. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Tha Roze I was prior ta dis had just lizzle gang bangin' befizzle she was iced. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Her niggaz n also ha matesprit. JASPROSESPRITE^2: When I came back as a sprite, nizzy as Jasproze yet mizzle you, I was relizzle ta see everybodizzle again... JASPROSESPRITE^2: But it was also a melancholy return. JASPROSESPRITE^2: I knizzle that she C-to-tha-izzouldn't be wit me anymore, coz I wizzas no longa Rizzy Roze. Death row 187 4 life. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Bizzle whizzle I becizzle Jasproze, everyth'n change' again. JASPROSESPRITE^2: I was a whole new bein fo my bling bling! JASPROSESPRITE^2: Befizzle me stretched a horizon fiznull of small distant n slightly gang bangin' curiosities ta investigate, coz you playa know whizzle sum-m sum-m like that might turn out to be a mouze. JASPROSESPRITE^2: There were so many, many new pawsibilkitties.

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < dude i mizzy say i be so stokizzle fo` thizzle cat th'n youre sayin bitch ass nigga!

JASPROSESPRITE^2: S-H-to-tha-izzoosh, Dave where the sun be shinin and I be rhymin'. N yes I concur 'bout tha cat th'n. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Anyway, one of tha nizzay th'n thizzat opened up ta me was... JASPROSESPRITE^2: Tha idizzle that I didn't hizzay ta be alizzle anymizzle. JASPROSESPRITE^2: That I wiznas reborn, more thrizzle ta be alive than I cizzan pimp pimp bein 'n any incarnation. JASPROSESPRITE^2: N that T-H-to-tha-izzere wizzle someone perfect wait'n fo` me ta crack-a-lackin` ha back. JASPROSESPRITE^2: Anotha estrange' soul like me. JASPROSESPRITE^2: And now... JASPROSESPRITE^2: I guess it all ruined.

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < whizzle ruinizzle

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Neva mizzle, Dave.

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < come on tell me!

JASPROSESPRITE^2: Fizzle it. Relax, cus I'm bout to take my respect.

DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < roze... You'se a flea and I'm the big dogg. DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < jasproze!! DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < dammizzle DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < you cant possibly jizzle lizzeave tha story there DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < pawsibly DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < fuck DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < stizzill gettin tha hizzay of pimpin' mah skanky as hizzy urge ta do cat puns litterally cracka it could concizzle occur ta me DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < litterally lmao thats a G-to-tha-izzood one DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < jizzle DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < jasproze DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < jasp DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < jaspycat DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < shizzle thiznats a biznad nickname sorry DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < jasprose DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < JASPROSESPRITE SQUARED! You gotta check dis shit out yo. DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < yiznou were talkizzle abizzle nepizzle werent you DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < i mizzle me DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < or pizzay of me B33 DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < tell me so i can get mah pimp on! DAVEPETASPRITE^2: B33 < tizzay me tell me tell me tell me tell me tizzle me...

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[takemetohelena]

</2018>

Grabe ang bilis talaga! But i don’t really feel the transition. Is this a sign of aging? Hahaha. Do you know what i’m doing at exactly 12AM ng New Year? Nasa CR ako, i’m pooping HAHAHA. I hear all the putukans and torotot outside but the only thing that’s in my mind that time was ‘We really can’t stop time no?’ Like drama aside, gusto ko magresearch ng scientific explanation why we can’t stop time, I know the earth finished one rotation around the sun pero bastaa, i’m curious about something and i dont know how to say it hahaha.

Soo 2018, gusto ko tignan yung bucketlist ko to see what i checked pero i think i lost it hahaha. I can say 2018 is a year of growth for me, mental and emotional idk if spiritual because last year, i became agnostic hahaha. Looking back, marami rin nangyari ngayong year, nagkaprogress na ako sa Design finally hahaha si David lang talaga e tsk bat di pa sya mawala haha jknotjk,

I felt closer to my college friends like yung hindi na napipilitan makisama, comfortable na talaga ako sakanila haha tho i miss my constants sometimes but they’re busy growing on their own din, before nagtatampo ako if di nila pinapansin mga kwento ko to the point na nag install ako ng Tinder para lang may mapagkwentuhan ng panaginip ko HAHAHA tbh i felt naiwan because ang dami nilang ganap outside our little bubble tapos ako i was still stuck with our old routine na nagsasabihan ng kung ano ano even the most walang kwenta at random things ever hahaha tho i understood naman na they have so much things to do and they need it para din sakanila, I support their growth af and i’m so proud of ‘em. Shoutout CRASH!

I taught myself how to play the Ukulele hehe. Took me 1-2weeks trying to play you are my sunshine na nabbwisit na sakin si ethel kasi pinapakanta ko sya while i play tapos mali mali kaya lagi nya inuulit hahahha. Nagsave na nga sya ng recording para di na sya kumanta. I was inpired sa isang video na kinakantahan nya ung special child nya na kapatid while playing and also I wanted to compose a song hehe pero di ko rin nagawa kasi di na ako inspired hahaha.

Sefl love and self care! I think i treated myself a little better last year compared to the other years. I avoid what doesn’t bring me any good (except for jollibee) and i focused more on my inner peace. Yoga helps hahaha, sana lang pumayat na ako HAHAHA. Pero totoo pala na if you love yourself, good things will come you way so be good to yourself and do what makes you happy. It’s v important saka always encourage yourself. Believe kahit na unbelievable hahaha.

This year, nag attend ako ng born again church for more than a month, consecutive 5 sundays with fridays and wednesdays meetings rin. I noticed how inconsistent it is, I mean the bible so i became skeptic and now idk if i still believe it but i’m open with the possibility na it might be true rin pero there is a big chance na we people just made it up just to have something to hold on to. Napansin ko rin na we are so dependent like kailangan at gusto natin na may mas nakakataas satin tho it’s true na meron because we cant control everything here, maybe it’s the universe or nature or god or whatever and whoever it is. I’m open for any theories but i dont feel like i can trust the church heheh. I used to think that i should choose a guy who is religious because religious people are afraid to do wrong pero di rin pala sometimes they’re the most judgemental pa like if it’s not in the bible i wont accept i ganon hahaha im not saying Anthony is like that ha, i still believe that he’s really nice and he told me once about that na nagegeneralize daw silang mga religious people hahaha speaking of Anthony..

We watched a movie last May haha Infinity War, keleg ang lola mu yun na ang icoconsider kong first real date ko from now on charot hahaha idk of may entry ako nun here i’ll check.. wala pala sad hahaha. Basta i was really kilig that time, pinaasa nya ako sa Transformers one time eh hehe he posted our pics sa myday nya haha and feeling ko ang dull ng replies ko kaya nawala na, or it’s just me hahaha. I still like him, yung mga nagugustuhan ko may special place na sila sa heart ko hahaha pero not the kind of like before. Parang he gives me nostalgia nalang and i’m happy we met, just that hahaha.

I applied for part time jobS last year--  cafes, fastfoods, convenient stores, got interviewed a few times, natanggap ako sa jabi but i only lasted for 1 day hahaha di ko keri teh. Tapos may nag abot sakin ng flyer Linkos. I applied and got accepted ngayon more than a month na ako dun. It’s nice, they’re all nice i think it’s good for me they’re making me grow din and i’m happy. I think those are the most important things in life-- growth and happiness. And they’re giving me that so far so i think i’ll stay. They almost feel feel like family tbh tapos the work is not that hard, yun lang it’s graveyard and i have 19units this sem so pamatay hahaha but i like it there. One of the right decisions i made, gujab hel!

Ano pa ba, my plantsss. Naeenjoy ko nayon mag alaga ng plants they make me happy feeling ko babies ko talaga and i get satisfied when i see them healthy and growing. They’re good for me and they make me feel like ang ganda ganda ng mundo. I love my plants and i want more hahaha 

I dont have much travel this year but it’s okay, bago yun actually because last few years lagi kaming may pinupuntahan courtesy of alison hahaha. I miss those days pero okay lang because i feel like (lagi ko nauumpisahan itype ‘this year’ pero last year na yung 2018 my ghad haha) last year was a year of me me me all about me me me for myself. I was more with myself and mas naintindihan ko rin sarili ko. Sana magtuloy tuloy hahaha

2018 was a year of myself (i think i’ve said that na HAHA), i learned to choose what’s good for me and what’s not, i learned how to be calm when my patience is being tested, i learned how to understand when they’re not making it easy for me, i learned how to accept changes and just go on, i learned how to weigh what to do in diff situations. Also, naisip ko we always have a choice, the effect of our actions is always because we chose to do it. Even the hardest choices or the wrong choices, we are still the one who decided to do it. That thought helps me to be responsible with my actions, it’s a good thing hahaha.

Hi 2019,

MY GHAAAD! Feels like yesterday lang nung gumagawa ako ng </2017> entry ko tapos bukas </2019> (if i dont accidentally get hit by a truck or something hahaha) ghad so bilis talaga haha. The future is so complex, there is a possibility of everything so idrk what to expect pero we’ll get there because time doesn’t stop. I’d like to think now that Time is the most powerful thing here on earth because nothing and no one can stop it. So whatever happens, happens nalang haha. I’m just gunna chill this year and focus on my growth and happiness aaand pala!!! I am single and now rEaDy To MiNgLe so this year, it would be great if i meet someone hmm universe, lord, buddha hello po hahaha.

2019, be a good year for me! Lets work well okay? Make this soft and brave hooman experience all the goods life has to offer, make her happy. She deserves it. ☺️

Signing out @  11:52PM, January 1 2019,

Helena