#dont get me wrong i like them alot and i think the are sweet but for a while i really didn't understand why she kept them around because of

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y'all ever just watch someone self-sabotage themselves to the point where it's hard to watch

[ssareiids]

HIIII OMGGMG i love ur theme its sauurr cutesie i love it!1!1 i wasnt sure if you take requests or not so feel free to ignore this erm.💔💔

i was wonderign if u could write for spencer reid (PLEASEPLEASPLESE) like definitelt domestic fluff and like it's the two of them baking and uh it goes wrong but reader and spence just giggle like idiots at the mess they made

SWEET ON U!

pairing: s2! spencer x reader

summary: spencer and you both excel in many things in life– just... not baking.

tw/cw: if you're scared of fluff then back off /j LITERALLY NOTHING TO ADD AS A TRIGGER, if smth does count as a trigger here though please tell me.. probably innacuracies in the baking, sorry bakers i had google and a dream

shayli's ted talk: guys i swear i've been writing since my casey oneshot it's just that i'm... i'm employed now🙁.. also I LOVE YEW ANON, guys request things plz... im going through a writer's slump . we dont mention the dilauded here he's happy okay

Today was one of the days that God– or whatever being that resided in the clouds, gave Spencer a day off.

Well, it was more like the day off was forced on him. If you knew Spencer Reid, you knew he didn't take vacations, didn't use up sick days, and would probably win an award for perfect attendance if it existed for the FBI. He had denied himself of a freedom office workers would love to have, up until this very moment.

Hotch has made his words clear, and easy to understand.

"Take a day off, Reid."

Said in that same poker face Hotch always wore, the one that was burned into his eyes with how often he saw it. It was rare for the Unit chief to ever smile, and when he did, no one would be there to see it.

Getting back on track though...

You had a much more positive reaction to his day off, it may only be one day of freedom from case files and coffee mugs that were filled with a caffeine that bordered nowhere near luxury. But you would take it, you just didn't know what to do with it.

When he had first informed you of his day off, you had been overjoyed at the fact you'd finally have your boyfriend to yourself instead of playing a never ending tug of war between the job and you.

The excitement quickly faded when you realized.

You had no idea what to do with him.

I mean, you could just cuddle up all day and sleep the entire day away. But, that wasted alot of time, time that you and Spencer rarely had together.

You then wondered if you should ask him what he wanted to do, but unfortunately, ever since the two of you had begun this relationship– Spencer follows behind you everytime.

Literally and figuratively.

His half awake mind had once followed you to the kitchen when you woke up to go get a glass of water, and let me tell you. Seeing a 6' foot man behind you at 2:00 AM does things to you, and not the good type. You screamed and he screamed back, both in fear.

You knew that he'd go along with whatever shenanigans you had in mind for your couple bonding time, so you brainstorm, maybe not as fast as your boyfriend but you think.

You sit on the couch, criss cross applesauce, while looking down onto the floor. Eyebrows furrowed in deep thought as you scour the files of your mind for an idea on how to spend this rare Saturday.

"You look like me" Spencer tries to joke, it falls flat and slams face first into the floor when you don't respond. Too lost in the rabbit hole you've created to try and say something witty back.

Spencer furrows his eyebrows too, and approaches you warily– slowly, like you were some sort of threat he had to neutralize before sitting down next to you on the couch. "... Are you okay..?" He probes, trying to see if his profiling mind can do him any good in guessing what's up with you.

Then, as if the electrons– or atoms, whatever. Lined up in your brain to form the first idea that would suffice, you sat back up straight. A peaceful glint in your now not squinted eyes as you turn your head to face Spencer.

He looks confused, like... really really confused.

".. Love...?" He tries the pet name as if it would snap you back into reality, and you simply grab his hand before smiling at him.

"We are going to bake."

"... 'Kay."

As you had planned he had agreed to the idea without much second thought. Which was funny since he's so meticulous with the things in his life, maybe he's just gotten used to you bringing chaos into it.

You two had spent maybe about 30 minutes or so wondering what you should bake, you thankfully didn't need a search engine for ideas this time because Spencer was on board with being the recipe holder.

"How about chocolate chip cookies?"

"We don't have chocolate chips."

He responds curtly and you snort before rolling your eyes at him.

"I wonder who's fault is that.." You reply back, and he opens his mouth in protest, but he never actually says anything back knowing that you're right. Giving him a smug grin that said "Exactly."

"How about a Pie?"

"Well... I suppose we do have the ingredients for a normal pie, but we'll also need a variety of fruits, maybe more chocolate, and–"

"SPENCER."

"Okay, let's make a pie."

The two of you retire to your kitchen, getting all the baking necessities and tools out. You didn't even know he had all this stuff in his apartment, and when you asked he said they came with the place when he moved in.

You two learn alot of things about each other through small talk while trying not to get shells in the mixture when cracking the eggs.

You learn that Spencer has a sweet tooth, but you figured that out when you caught him putting 4 packets of sugar into his morning coffee.

Spencer learns that you almost broke your jaw on a jawbreaker once when you were 16, he furrowed his eyebrows and asked why you did it knowing it was called a jawbreaker.

You learn that Spencer has read your favourite book approximately 143 times and counting. You nearly teared up and almost got your salty tears in the melted chocolate.

And Spencer learns that you had a pet chameleon who ran away. He suggested it could still be in the house but just camoflauged, and you threw the cupful of flour at him.

You both stand there in silence, unmoving, like a showdown between 2 cowboys with only flour and sugar at their hands.

Spencer stands there, ruffled in the white powder that now adorns his pyjamas like snow, his face covered in so much of it he nearly looked like a ghost. He only reacts when you start laughing.

You don't laugh gently, or chuckle at the sight. No you laugh like you've just seen the most funniest thing in your life, and in a way... it kind of was. You hold onto the counter and hunch over, laughing like you were hysterical.

He looks over to his back, trying to find a weapon to launch back at you until he lands on the melted chocolate sauce, he glances back at you. Completely unaware of his plans before reaching his finger towards it, ew.. but it'll be worth it.

Once his finger is coated in the gooey sweet treat, he smudges it on your cheek, not carefully nor affectionately, he rubs it on your cheek– shamelessly.

You look up at him and pause your laughter, a look of faux offense swirling in your eyes as you try and find something to retaliate against him.

The innocent unbaked pie crust on the pan lay there, unaware of it's fate to come as you peel it off ready to lunge it at him. Spencer reacts just as fast though and gets his own piece of the pie crust

"Uh uh, don't you dare." Spencer says, raising his piece of pie crust like it was a shield against yours. You squint your eyes as if in focus before flicking your share of the pie crust at him.

He dodges, barely, before trying to swat you with his own. You jump back and almost bump into the kitchen island before grinning and reaching for an egg.

"I have a weapon and I am not afraid to use it!" You reply, holding the egg at him as if it was a knife, Spencer plays along and drops his pie crust onto the floor and raises his hands into the air "Ok! Ok! I surrender!" He says, his voice squeaky in defeat.

You two eventually agree to a ceasefire before getting to work on recreating the pie crust that you two had used in your food fight.

This time you work in silence, a comfortable one that came easy after the little playful banter you just had, you worked better this time since you both had gotten used on how to start and how to use all the baking tools.

After the pie crust had been filled with the melted chocolate and had been sent away to the oven, you two both fall back onto the couch.

Or it's more like you land on the couch and Spencer lands on you.

"Ah– hey!"

You shout when you feel his body weight practically jump on you, he grins toothily in his little victory when you let him stay ontop of you, knowing that you really didn't mind.

The two of you sit there in silence, waiting for the timer above the stove to ding so you both can try out your creation, there isn't much conversation.

But you didn't need to talk, your touches on his carefully done hair, and his head buried into your neck spoke enough of the love that blossomed nicely between you two. It got you thinking.

It had you imagining what you would be doing if you never met Spencer, if you never had a sudden surge of confidence to ask the pretty boy at the library out, or if he had rejected you. It had you wondering what fate held for you, the idea of fate itself.

DING! DING! DING!

You nearly push Spencer off of you when you hear the alarm's call, apologizing hurriedly before rushing along to the oven, with Spencer following right behind you, even if he was in the middle of having a very good nap.

He grabs you the oven mittens and urges you to be the one to get the pie, you don't question it, he was clumsy with his hands– half awake or not.

The oven door opens like the gates to heaven, in it's wake an aroma of chocolate and sweetness follows, sending you and Spencer into a momentary trance before you finally get it out of the heated space.

You both try to reach for it until you remember the thing is still... extremely hot.

Neither of you have the patience to wait for the sweet treat, so you leave it out on the fire exit, hoping that the windy breeze of the night cools it down enough, and that there aren't any pie swipers nearby.

The two of you giggle like little kids waiting for the smoke of the pie to dissipate and the heat to finally turn cool. When Spencer announces it's been 15 minutes, you finally grab it back into the safety of your home.

The sound of plates being taken from the dish rack and a knife being taken fills the kitchen alongside your giddiness, you bring it onto the counter with an eagerly waiting Spencer with a knife.

"You sure you can cut it?"

"I'm not 6."

He replies stubbornly before squinting his eyes and focusing on the slice he's about to cut, you look away to pass time as he cuts his own slice, but then look back when you see that he's taking... forever.

"Spence?" You ask when you see he hasn't even made an indent on the pie, raising an eyebrow when you see the focused glint in his eyes usually reserved for crime scenes and cases– not for cutting a pie.

"Shh..." He hushes you with a raised finger before finally making the cut, clean and simple, before handing it to you.

"I cut the pie for you in pi." He says proudly, as the joke flies over your head, which is usually supposed to happen to Spencer, not to you.

"... What?"

"You just don't get it." He shoos you away from the thought with a gesture of his hands.

extra:

"Hey, Spence.. about your joke earlier." You bring it up as the two of you lay in bed, social battery well drained after the events of today.

He only hums in acknowledgement of your conversation starter before allowing you to continue.

"Did you try cutting it for me.. in the size of pi or something? Like... pi as in the number..?"

"ты никогда не узнаешь."

"STOP DOING THAT."

shayli's ted talk: i used google translate for the russian so don't judge me... heh.. ok bye i'm gonna disappear and not write for another month.. maybe..

written by @ssareiids

[m1sa-w1sa]

Can you do all the fatui their react to that y/n was hiding traumatised past and that blaming them self and hide it all , and of course they comfort y/n beaxuse they always help the fauti with their problems

(Okie dokie! Coming right up!)

You are mine and I am yours

Pierro

•He probably found out if you told him upfront or he found you crying someplace

•when he told you spit it out he was shocked it would’ve been torture to go through that

•even if he might not be the best he would try everything that he has to make you feel better

•If it you were dating he would hold you close by your waist whispering nothing but sweetness in your ears

•If platonic he would make you a cup of tea or your favorite dish letting you cry on his shoulder

“Everything is alright dear..”

Capitano

•He would know somethings wrong when you started acting distant, maybe slightly sloppy on missions, more sleepy

•If he saw you crying he would quickly ask whats wrong his mask covering his slight worried expression

•If Romantic he would pull you close wrapping you in his coat with him sitting on his lap or just standing with him

•If Platonic he would take you for a walk maybe get you ice cream or something to eat after to make you feel better making sure to check in with you time to time

“You should’ve told me sooner.”

Dottore

•So you guys had little meet ups when your not with the other harbingers but if you miss that meet up he would go find you himself

•If he saw you in your room he would tilt your chin up as you tell him everything

•If romantic he would stay with you laying your head in his lap while doing his paperwork

•If Platonic he would hug you just really that patting your back soothing you slowly

(Your gonna have to know him for a really ling time for him to act like this towards you)

“Your foolish for not saying anything”

Columbina

•If you two were by each other sides alot she would quickly notice your different personality she would confront you

•When you tell her either platonic or romantic she would sing you a soft lullaby with your head on her lap as she would just caress your cheek softly

“Poor little you why didnt you say anything?”

Arlecchino

•Arlecchini works with kids so its noticed rather quickly

•It doesnt just go away lightly Alrecchibo sits and talks to you

•Romantic she would hold you on her lap letting you talk

•Platonic she would make your favorite food or drink

“You know I care..”

Punichella

I think I spelt his name wrong

• I dont really know how to write for him so ill try my best

•He is kinda like the cool grandpa that gives you good advice so im not going ti do a romantic for him

•He would make you tae and sit and chat with you letting you cry on his shoulder

Scaramouche

•Hes more colder than the others but if your with him most of the time hes going to notice

•When he finds out he would make you speak trying to get every single thing off of your chest, If romantic he would sit and cuddle you, kicking out anyone else that comes in

•A little same with Platonic hut your just next to him holding his hand tightly

“Idiot..”

Sandrone

•Again with her going in depth is a little hard for me but anyways!!!

•She would confront you immediately asking you questions about it

•Both romantic or Platonic she would carry you with her on her robot holding your hard caressing the back of your hand with her thumb softly

“Quite stupid to not say something..”

La Signora

•She loves you lots Platonic or Romantic

•she knows what pain feels like same with Scaramouche

•Either Platonic or romantic she would play with your hair brushing it out, doing different styles, adding accessories anything just to clam you down

“Your hair is tangled”

Pantalone

•So when he found out he would be worried for you

•He would ask you to tell him every single thing you like to tell him

•Both Romanic and Platonic he would take you shopping, spoiling your rotten only difference if romantic he would also take you on dates aswell

“Pick anything you like darling..”

Tartaglia

•He has siblings so he also notices quite quickly so he would find you as soon as possible to sit you down to have a chat

•He would cuddle you for maybe more than a hour as you talk patting your back, caressing your hair

•He would spoil you aswell and if romantic he would take you on dates aswell!!

(Finished!! This was fun but also pretty hard to write but i uope u enjoyed!)

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what do you think of Berdly deltarune?

I like him! I think he's an interesting little guy, and I enjoy the role he fulfils in the story. He's a redditor and he sucks alot but by God is it funny to watch him be a redditor and suck alot.

There's specific parts of him as a character that I think deserve to be discussed (primarily how the character is fundamentally one with sexist beliefs) ..but alot of berdly negative I think goes too far in on the him being sexist angle (he is, but let's be real he's 15 and capable of learning. If we were supposed to think he's sexualizing noelle or susie he'd be written more overtly like burgerpants is). My own stance is that he's a play on the 'white knight' sort of 'nice guy' with the subversion that he's not actually interested in noelle romantically. But does still think he 'deserves' her. Not quite an incel but playing with those tropes.

He is weird and pushy ABOUT romance and I think that angle of the character provides an interesting dynamic with suselle (being that noelle has to learn how to stand up for herself) and the player and kris ourself since we can go directly against what kris wants by saying yes to him. He's basically the annoying team member you can't get rid of that is 'harmless' enough to not really be a threat so much as he is a device for other characters development. (Sidenote, I don't like calling his actions harmless and I'd really rather people not defend him being pushy with romance as him being autistic and not understanding social cues, he's inept sure but that sort of behavior does need to get called out and I hope there's some scene in the festival where he apologises or something.)

Of course me seeing him as more of a plot device atm doesn't mean I don't think he's a character in his own right, I enjoy the inferiority complex he's got going on and his friendship with noelle is very sweet to me. The lightnerds.. they talk vidya games togetehr... As weird as he can be he's just one of those people who you just can't spend alot of time around without wanting to strangle them. Like queen said. Nothing REALLY wrong with him, he's just annoying.

I also think there is a potential for something deeper with his character, and him being avoided because of his behavior does have potential for angst.. but I don't care for reading into it that deeply or blaming his isolation on outside factors that don't recognize the fact that berdly: is a jerk. He's an ass, he's rude, he's self-important and condescending...all of those are the reasons for people avoiding him. It's his own fault. He's that kid in high school who insults your handwriting and keeps talking to you when you're trying to ignore him. You may have a few casual conversations with him and be able to have fun on occasion courtesy of being in a small town without more options, but he still acts like he's better than you for no real reason. It's his biggest character flaw outside of the romance thing and probably my favorite thing about him. Love characters that keep fucking things up for themselves. I think the scene in chapter 4 of the library where he starts spluttering when he realizes susie doesn't want to hang out with him if he's being a jerk will be something that comes up again, if his arc continues. Ideally it'll be something like this

He keeps being pushy with noelle + susie + kris -> they ditch him -> He realizes they dont actually like him that way-> he eventually apologizes -> they hang for a bit -> he reverts to being kind of a jerk again -> they threaten to ditch him -> he realizes his error a second time and then apologizes again -> character arc fulfilled.

Not that he'd be completely fixed, he seems the sort to need multiple lessons, but I think being friends with susie would be good for him? She wouldn't put up with him like noelle does or ignore him like kris does, she'd call him out and stand on it in a way that I think would help develop him...the issue is he needs to get over his crush on her and a few(alot) more beats of self reflection before he's able to be #normal about it. Susie needs more friends too but well.. as good of a friend as she'd be for berdly being a better person I'm not so sure he'd be a very good friend to her without a lot more development. His interactions with her post realizing he can be stupid were funny but I need him to stop flirting yesterday. Idk this parts more an aside. They COULD be gamer buddies...but im unsure of it.

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tll me evrything aplease

tws: cheating, vague mentions of drug use, suicide (1ce by pill 1ce by gun, its not grqphic but you can drfo tell whats happening), age gap (srs isnt tech a child but i dont think that makes anything b8r in terms of morality)(during prongsfoot: srs is 19 james is 27 and in remus x james remus is 27 iames is 45),everyone dies except for rjl (v rare occurence), outing (regulus outs james and sirius), i don't know what time frame this is, i have NAWT read or watched cmbyn bc it's too sad, ships that happen in order: wolfstar, prongsfoot, bitchkiller, jily, remus x james, james x gun (none r endgame except the last 1), ALOT of typos @mrstellmeafuckingsecret this is part one btw bc tumblr is 2 sec from crashing

SO sirius + co. Have a second family home in Italy theyv3 be3n goingb2 since they were babies and like orion is a professor and needs an intern and he usually gets a young woman but him and walburga fight abt this so walburga makes him get an older man (even tho on fridays wc are the days orion works tye latest, she gets the gardener to come 20 minutes early) anyways enter stage right: james

The home is in the Italian countryside bc regulus hates the noises of traffic and in the more rural areas there lives Remus and he's a sweet boy srssage and him and sirisu have an on off rlnship (its on off bc even tho its implicit bn them that they're in a rlnship even when sirius is away srs ALWAYS cheats w other girls and rjl is in the rural part of toen so he walks like 3 miles 2 get service 2 talk 2 sirisu only for sirisu to not respond.....he makes gifts for srs and srs barley responds and saves up his savings for like a month to buy sirius lipgloss after sirius said he wanted one )

Umm anyaways..jfp comes and sirius is v annoyed bc ??? Now he has to LIVE w this hobo??? But they warm up 2 each other and srs was always a Lil mean to regulus but when james was w him he'd acc Bully him and he'd run off wo regulus (he had his bugs hed be fine) and make fun of regulus 2 james bc even tho there's only a barely 2 yr age gap bn them sirius NEEDS james 2 see him as more mature and walburga doesn't like james bc he's taking her bby away from her but since she's a poised matriarch and needs to b a good hostess since her husband is lowkey tweaking 99% of thr time (the other 1% is when hes passed out drunk) she can't threaten him w one of their special occasion knives

And James has to remind himself of the decade of an age gap bn them but how would he do that when sirisu is in absurdly low hung swim shorts and is sprawled by the pool all gangly limbs and silky black hair and open pretty mouth and and his YOUTH bc he's a practically still a child and this is wrong wrong wrong wrong so james is v inconsistent w his behavior to sirius

One moment he's staring at Sirius w his mouth practically dropped open and he's making winky faces at sirius and he's just staring at Sirius from behind his sunglasses and the next he's blowing sirius off and snapping at him w words that cut cut cut and sirius wants to dig his fingers inside those cuts and show james his insides and he's intrigued bc how could he not be? No one has ever treated him like this

and all the while Remus is at his cottage w his sick grandma (who in siriuss opinion should just kick the bucket at this point) in his 2 bedroom house where he lives w 4 ppl and sleeps on a mattress on the floor, staying up late and making anniversary cards for him and sirius. and regulus is watching his older brother sneak off w a complete stranger rather than talk w him abt bugs like they would when they were 8 and all was ok back then but all is not ok rn bc what was so nice abt james anyways?? He doesn't kno 5 languages, he doesn't play 3 instruments, he doesn't kno siriuss breakfast order when Sirius was 9, he doesn't stay up hoping PRAYING that sirius would open his eyes and realize that regulus is-and has always been- RIGHT. THERE.

Anywho ..1 day james kisses sirius under the trees near the pool and sirius can feel his whole world upend but then james pushes him away and srs asks why and james says srs is so young and srs says that's not the rzn and james says that it's all a joke to sirius and sirius says that acc he's still in a 4yr rlnship w a boy so... and james starts yelling at him and sirius kisses him and they make out and have sex and all is good!!!

But guess who also spends his time under the trees near the pool? Collecting bugs and rocks to show his father now that his brother is practically gone?

Regulus tells his parents and he's happy bc finally sirisu would get his dues and maybe after that they might even make up w james out the house!!

Walburga who is ever so composed tweaks. Tf. Out. And James is shocked bc walburga smiled at him and made sure to tell the servants to serve him his eggs abit overcooked bc uncooked eggs make him nauseous and she always made sure the wine of the night would be jamess favourite and now she's screaming at him and ...is that A KNIFE???!!! so umm yeah he takes like half his stuff and skeddadles (coward)

and walburga then screams at sirius and sirius is shocked bc walburga is never mad at HIM and walburga is shocked bc she swore to herself that she'd never yell at sirius and the day he was born he was born STRONG and beautiful and perfect (and not like regulus who was born a stillborn(and he wasnt even orions and so he was contaminated and weak and far too soft and)) and now she was screaming at Sirius and she must have stopped at some point bc when she blinks she's in her bed and she can hear Sirius cry and she doesn't comfort him and infact feels childishly vindicated even tho he won't stop crying and (and the next morning he was gone and the only person left was) regulus.

It's all HIS fault bc why would he tell her that when he knew it'd make her upset at sirius and didn't he understand how pERFECT sirius was??? So she cries and yells and cries and yells and cries and yells and doesn't notice (even tho she does and there it is again that childish vindication) it when regulus takes her sleeping pills up to the bath 2 wks after sirius left and she doesn't care (she does. bc regulus still had her blood if not orion's) bc sirius is GONE

Sirius after running away goes 2 Remus first to beg 4 some cash so he could catch the bus to the hotel james would be sure to be at, and him and remus haven't talked in DAYS and so he doesn't kno that remuss grandma has (FINALLY) kicked the bucket and remus opens the door and app asking for cash first thing is not??? ok??? Bc remus starts yelling at him w red rimmed eyes and sirius is confused bc ?? Bro u got upgraded from having to live w 4 ppl in a 2 bedroom house to 3ppl in a 2 bedroom house ????

But Sirius leaves and stays at a shady pub w the little cash he has and has to share a room w a man w piercings and tattoos and green hair and drugs and he's lonely so they fuck and get high and fuck and get high and fuck get high and get high to fuck and fuck high and he forgets abt Remus and forgets abt regulus and his mother and his father and the stupid gardener who comes 20 min early and he forgets james and and

JAMES ! He tries catching the train and gets the money from the man under the pretense of getting more drugs and goes to the hotel but james left a day ago ashen sirius was busy getting high n fuckin and he breaks down right there in the lobby bc james was probably back at his family home in America and well ummm yeah...he dies(?) In the streets (its v much a lucy gray bird situation i dunno u dunno)

[shuxiii]

Hows of us— hanni x reader x minji (subtle)

Note: AHAIAHUA KATHNIEL REFERENCE 😋 And this might have been rushed since this has been in my draft for ages and i did not proofread.

Synopsis: Two old lovers meet again but feelings have changed yet one stays the same

As we grew older, our perception of life and love becomes more profound and different, it was no longer something we see as only happiness but also a fleeting moment and a painful experience.

Thats what it always had been with you and Hanni, it was a fleeting love and a painful end.

As you both gradually grew old and matured, everything changed.

She became more ambitious of her life and focused on everything but you.

And of course it always led to many arguments and constant silence but in the end of the day you still loved her, alot.

It goes the same for her, she loved you too, a lot—to the point she worries so much in your life, she was worried about your future about everything that involved you—but that's what is love, right?

worry is a sign of love. It says that, even though I am okay, I am selfless enough to suffer vicariously for you. And isn't that the definition of love?

Of course it was, Hanni loved you.

Even in your dreams and aspirations she loved you.

She knew you always had a burning passion for music—it revolved around you, it was your comfort and your sanctuary.

People around you have always told you, its a diffuclt path to go through—how its an uncertain and indeterminate.

But that didnt faze you at all it only made you want to prove them wrong.

Thats what made Hanni fall for you, it was your over-burning passion for something you love.

She admired the way your eyes glistened at something you adored, just as they did when you gazed at her.

It was like that, it used to be.

Sometimes there are times, its better to give up on things that are too late. But you never did.

08.16.2020

“Yn when are you going to stop this?” She looks at you with tired eyes.

Here it goes again, the same argument.

“You already know the answer, Han” you sigh “I’m not going to give up just yet.”

“Dont you think you’ve done so much already?” She grunts “You’re just going in circles, Yn.”

“Then I’ll keep going in circles if i have to!” You raise your voice. The stress and frustration evident to the tone of your voice.

“Yn, I’m only worried about you!” She frowns “But this is getting you nowhere!”

You felt yourself scoff at her words.

“There you go again, with the same lines” you sarcastically laugh “Han, if you were really worried about me then support me instead—I’m doing what i love why wont you be happy for me?”

“I am happy for you, I was happy for you!” She pauses “But all this stupid pinning for a dream that wont even happen is making you lose yourself—you’re just chasing for something thats far out your reach, yn!”

“Stupid? Is this what you ever saw to it? Stupid?” You stood up from your chair as now you were faced at her with a frustrated look.

“I’m trying my best here and all you think of it is fucking stupid?”

And at this moment of argument, Hanni would have softened her eyes or held onto you and whispered apologies and sweet words but it seemed like it changed now.

“I didn't see it as stupid at first yn, but it's not even a certain future!”

You felt yourself lose her, she seemed so out of reach now. Before she was always there for you—now it seemed like she was against you.

“You’re just like the others!” You felt something wet hit your cheeks “Do you even love me?”

You knew she would say yes without hesitation or contradiction but the look of sadness in her eyes made your heart ache.

There was a silence.

“Do you love me, han?” You stammer.

“Yn…” a mumble

“Do you love me, han tell me!”

“I love you, yn”

There was a pause.

It was the answer you wanted but it didn’t feel right anymore.

“I love you, but this dream you want is getting nowhere and I cant love someone who’s future is uncertain.”

She avoids your gaze as you saw tears fall on the polished floor.

“I love you so much, yn” she chokes from her constant cries “but I’m leaving for university.”

You felt your whole world crash in front of you, everything was turning and drastically changing, and that made you dizzy.

“What?” You stutter “what do you mean, han?”

“Let’s break up.”

All you could do was stare back at her eyes glinting as her tears covered her vision and the light reflecting on it, yet despite the sadness and defeated look she had, she effortlessly made sadness look pretty.

“Im sorry, yn.”

You hold onto her arms as you hugged her tightly in desperation.

“We can talk about this, han—like we always do.” You pleaded “just…just dont leave me, please.”

“I have to go.”

And no matter how much you hold onto her she eventually let go of your grasped, as you felt your knees give up.

“Han, don't do this to me? You promised you wouldn’t leave me!”

She looks at you one more time with glistening eyes before going out the door—out the door where your memories together lingered, out your life, and out of the love you gave all your effort and time—a love that can't be broken just like this, yet it did.

You try to chase for her but the rain blinded her figure from you, you try to hold onto her wrist as the rain damped you.

“Han, please…I dont know what to do without you,”

“Yn, you’ve done so much already, but I cant love you anymore.”

And just like that you were left with only the loud rain and a broken heart.

Since then the love that stayed with you for her grew to become ambitious and hateful—ever since she left you. You wanted to prove her wrong.

And as you became ambitious and resentful you began to lose yourself, your old self.

You drowned yourself in your goal, you began to forget the point of the future you wanted as it was covered with flaming anger for the person you once loved.

08.16.2023

“Yn, don’t forget you have a meeting with our collaboration this afternoon,” yunjin, your manager said before leaving you alone in the studio.

You could only nod as you were too distracted with your guitar and notes.

you scribbled and grunt every time the words didn’t fit each other.

You hear a knock and despite such vague knocking you knew who it was as the sound of the door opened and footsteps go to your sitting figure.

You felt an arm wrap around your shoulders.

“Hey,” she says, and despite not looking at her, you could feel her smile from her voice.

“Hey,” i say with a grunt.

“Having a hard time?” She asked, noticing your frustration.

“Yeah.”

You sigh eventually and drop the notebook from your hands as you finally faced her.

“It’s okay, I know you can go through it, you always do” she holds your hands with so much gentle.

And you felt all the frustration that bubbled up disappear in one go as the frown that stayed in your face replaced with a warm smile.

“What will I ever do without you?” You laugh, and hug her tight, she always knew how to make you smile.

She giggled as she hugged back your embrace and her scent covered your whole body.

Minji, was a friend you could ever ask for. she pulled you up in your darkest times. You didn’t know what would happen to you now if you didn’t meet her at all.

You both held each other in silence, she broke it.

“Meetings about to start we should go” she says, her head against your shoulders.

You could only hum in agreement as you let go of her touch that lingered against your skin.

You smile as you walked together, you gaze at the vinyl’s that were hanged on the walls.

You’ve always wanted to collect vinyls ever since you were a kid, yet you couldn’t just afford one, but now that you’ve reach the future you’ve committed to, you could buy millions of it.

Despite that, you don’t. you have never bought a single one at all. It no longer had any merit to you anymore, it had no sentimental value for you.

The thought of sharing all your dreams and goals to someone hurts you, its like once you share a part of your world to them, suddenly they become a part of your world, they align both in you heart and when they leave suddenly the thoughts and goals you’ve shared to them leave too.

As you and Minji both reached the room, you felt some kind of force stop you for a moment and that didn’t go unnoticed by Minji.

“Hey,” she brushes your hands against hers “are you okay?”

that made you break free from the thoughts you could only nod back in response.

It looked unconvincing, but she didnt press further.

Minji opened the door, she went in first.

Her figure blocked the view of the room yet you could see two figures or even three.

But as every second that went it felt like time stopped and your whole world turned over.

you gradually went in the room became more clear in your view and her eyes came in view back to yours.

Suddenly it felt like the weight of the world fell back on your shoulders, the sight of her made your chest heavy and your throat grow a lump.

You didn’t know wether your mind was playing tricks with you—you wish it did but your manager proved you thoughts wrong.

“Yn, i want you to meet Ms. Pham and Ms. Marsh”

You thought maybe it was a lookalike, a different person with the same face of the girl you once loved, but her gaze and her small frown was too vivid in your mind.

All you could do was stand motionless as she stared back at you like a stranger—like no memories lingered between you.

“Yn?” Minji whispered.

You didn’t reply both your eyes and attention focused on hers.

“Yn, are you okay?” Minji repeated herself, now grasping your arms with warmth and that made you breathe again.

That didn’t go unnoticed by hanni as her eyes looked between your hand intertwined to Minji’s.

“I’m sorry,“ was the words you whisper against your breath.

“Just got a little starstruck at Ms. Marsh’s beauty,” you say the truth but also the lie, ms. Marsh is pretty, but she wasnt the reason that took away the air in your lungs, she wasnt the reason why your heart felt heavy.

The tension that once filled the room, turned into polite laughters.

But you could only give a tight lip smile, to masked the perpetual ache that enveloped your heart.

08.20.2023

Ever since that day, your past and presents were aligned and it brought so much chaos in your life.

Out all of the people in this world it had to be her that you had to collaborate with.

You were now alone in the studio as Minji and your manager went out to buy something while you stayed to focus on writing.

Few hours into your composition you heard the faint sound of the door open, you didn’t budge as you thought it was probably Minji who just arrived in the studio now.

Yet the sound of someone else’s voice contradicted that, but not just any voice, it was hers.

“Hey,” she says.

You didn’t reply, still focused on the paper you were so busy with.

“Can you hear me?” She tries to get your attention again.

“Why are you here?” Your back still facing hers.

“Am I in the wrong room?” She jokes, “I’m here for the composition for my artist collaborative song, of course.”

You felt your head boil at her remark, as you gripped tightly on your pen before getting the courage to face her.

But now, you wished you didn’t because as the moment you looked back at her, her eyes were solely on yours.

And it made your chest burn in a certain way, a way you couldn’t help but hate.

“Hey,” she says again, now more closer to you.

You couldn’t say anything back as the proximity of her body with yours took the voice out of your throat, and that was easy for hanni to read, of course it would be, she has loved you long enough to know how you act and, yet, you didn’t change at all.

“Are you okay, yn?” She pretends to be clueless.

“I’m fine.”

You, first break the stare, going back on your composition but the loud banging of your heart remained.

After that tension moment between you two, both of you just sat in silence before the others arrived. Yet, the sound of your heart banged loudly enough to cloud your thoughts.

08.31.2023

She knocked loudly on your door that night with a bottle of whiskey on her hand, her words gibberish as she tried to talk to you.

And maybe it was the liquid courage that had Hanni looking back at your orbs, making her realise all the time she spent without you was only missing you in days when her world turned all crazy and out of control.

Because, when her world was in the midst of chaos, you were her solace.

“I still love you.”

Words that felt dangerous to speak out loud, but when alcohol and a sense of longing collide together those words are like sounds that await to become music.

Hanni, knew she would regret it as she opens her eyes in a new morning, but what does she have to lose? She already had so many regrets in life, how does this one make any difference than the rest.

You.

You were her first and greatest regret. Ironic to call it great when all it’s been for hanni was pain and loss in her end.

09.01.2023

“Love, please” she whispers, as she looks at you with so much desperation and that angered you even more.

“You dont get to call me that hanni,” your hands formed a fist tightly enough to make your kunckles white.

“You left me remember?” you laughed and the sound of your laugh made Hanni’s heart ache, she used to adore the sound of your laughter but now it only made her feel small and pitiful.

“You choose to leave me, but i cant blame you for that you had your own dreams and goals its your life and im merely someone you loved.”

“I still love you,” she mumbled enough for you to hear but you ignored it.

“But its not the reason why i hate you. I hate you because you were just like the others you told me my dreams were uncertain and unrealistic you told me that i cant reach my future, you left me because you lost faith in me and that hurt me because i thought you were different.”

“Or maybe i was just someone who thought they finally found their home, someone they could always be safe around, someone they could count on when times got rough. The person who saw something in you that nobody else could. The person that cared for you more than you could possibly imagine.”

You couldn’t hold it back anymore the past that you bottled the past 3 years couldn’t hold stay inside anymore.

“Yn—“ she tries to hold onto you but you only took a step away from her.

“Han, cant you see I’m tired?”

Hanni felt her heart beat louder when she heard you say her nickname again, she missed it so much— too much that she felt her tears fall.

She wanted nothing but to hear that name again but not in this way. Not in the way she expected it.

“Yn I’m sorry,” it was the only words that fall off her lips.

“Isn’t it a little too late for that han?”

“I know, I’m sorry.”

There was a thickening silence as you gaze at her small figure, you took a glance at her trembling hands.

Whenever she was nervous or sad she’d always have shaky hands and you always used to hold it back with yours to make it stop.

If it were different you would have held it by now, you would have hugged her, you would have kissed her by now.

“I’m sorry of the last three years of pain I caused you. I never wanted that.”

“I’m sorry that of all the people it had to be you, the person who only ever wanted was to love me. I’m sorry that i was the reason that you lost your sense of self worth, I’m sorry if you felt like loving you was hard, because truth be told, you were the best thing i loved and i still love until now.”

You could only look her in the eye with so much pain, it was the words your old self would have wanted to hear, you wished to hear.

But hearing them now felt empty, to you, it went in one ear and out the other

“Han, leave,” you whispered, “please leave.”

You avoided her gaze afraid that if you did, you’ll come back crawling to her and you couldn’t bear to afford that pain again.

After a moment, you slowly opened your eyes to find that she was no longer standing there — she left.

It would have been a lie if you said you didn't have at least a piece of her still in your heart, but even if she did you couldn't bear to love her anymore, not again.

But even then the room you both once shared—you didn't touch it at all or even clean the dust that as built throughout the years that has passed when she left you.

Because you still hoped through the years she would come back, and she did. But its too late.

You walked in the room that once lingered with so much memories and with each step you took it became heavier.

You brushed off the dust that covered the wooden chair in the room.

You didn't know why you went in here when it was the very same place she left you all the arguments and constant fights in this room.

You glanced around with a heavy heart, but something attracted your eye: a box half-hidden beneath the wooden bed.

You knelt as you lifted the fairly large box out of the bed.

The box seemed so familiar, then it dawned on you, it was Hanni's memory box, she must’ve left it before she left off for university. before everything.

You were hesitant to open it but with enough courage you did it.

And as your eyes gazed inside, all your pictures were together, from the first time you called it official, from your first gig in a bar and every anniversary you had.

You felt yourself reminisce with a pang of pain against your chest.

One thing drew your attention: it was a coffee stained piece of paper folded yet crumpled like it was meant to be hidden.

You gently opened it afraid it might break at any moment.

But as you read the first line you could feel yourself get lost in the pain again.

“Dear, Yn.

I know we argue almost everyday now and i know you’re getting tired of it. I am too.

I know you’re sick of everyone that as been putting you down from what you love the most, i know it has been frustrating you.

I’m sorry, I’m sorry for not being the best girlfriend to you lately—i try to be but i’m going through my own hardships myself and i dont want my feelings to burst on you.

I know I’ve said so many hurtful words to you that i didn’t mean. I know you think i hate you at the moment and i know you don’t feel my love at this time.

But, I want you to know that despite our disagreements, my love for you remains unwavering and unconditional.

i know that lately, I've been falling short of the person i promised i'd become, the person you deserve.

Yn i see how much you're struggling, how much you're hurting, and it crushes me.

but i cant do anything because the truth is i don't know how anymore.

Yn, don't give up on us. don't let go.

I swear from now on, love. I promise to be more patient, understanding. I will strive to listen to your dreams and aspirations with an open heart, knowing that they are an integral part of who you are.

Please remember, that I am here for you, and I will always be your biggest supporter.

I want you to know. I need you to know, that you're always going to be the greatest love of my life.

I love you more than my life.

whatever happens in the future, I hope you reach the future you’ve always wanted, regardless of your challenges.

I know you're not the kind to give up just yet, and that's what makes me love you endlessly and tirelessly; don't ever allow anyone, even me, to stop you from doing what you genuinely love.

I love you so much.

Yours forever,

Han.”

You felt the tears that once masked your face fall onto the crumpled paper grasped within your quivering hands.

Suddenly it felt harder to breathe as you read the letter over and over again, it just didnt feel right.

You crouched down with all your effort, holding onto a vinyl that had become dusty after being there for so long.

It was your favorite song.

She got you the record you'd always wanted as an apology.

Your legs eventually gave into the trembling and you fell to the floor, your exhausted sobbing echoing the empty room that was once filled with so much memories.

Your mind became inundated with numerous thoughts, and the pain you experienced was more intense than the day she broke your heart.

It was ironic. So ironic that she was the one to let go first.

The tears that ran down your face didn't stop, they couldn't, and you had no control over them as your breath was stolen away from you.

You would have been okay that day, everything would have been still alright but you know too well it wouldn’t because dreams reach farther than love could.

And the love you once knew could never be worth so much.

[pinky27freak]

Twisted Wonderland OC

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Biographical Information

MC: Veronica Prime

Gender: Female

Age:16

Birthday: September 18

Starsign: Virgo

Height: 167cm

Eye color: Hazel

Hair color: chocolate brown

Homeland: Earth, USA,

Family: Patricia Catherine, Hydra, Unnamed mother & Unnamed Father

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Professional Status

Dorm: Ramshackle

School year. First

Class: Unclear

Occupation: student

Club: Unclear

Best Subject: Herbology

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Fun Facts

Dominant hand: Left

Favorite Food: Queso

Least favorite food: shepherds pie

Dislikes: toxic masculinity and Feminism

Hobby: Reading

Talents: Drawing

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School uniform summoning lines

Summon: Oh hey! Wanna hangout later? I want to see if Crowley can actually fly....

Groovification: Gosh, i need to dye my hair again! And its growing out too much! Gotta keep this cute lil persona up and running!

Home: I'm this close to painting our dorm different colors. Dont get me wrong i love this place but.. is very drab...

Home 1: Alot of these boys act like they don't care but deep down are very sweet. Vil gave us things for our house, Malleus regularly checks up on us. Trey even makes sure we have been eating properly!

Home 2: At some points in time it feels like Ace and Deuce live here from how much they come over! Not that i mind the company though.

Home 3: Poor Grim tried to eat a butterfly yesterday. I love that lil guy to death but it makes me nervous that he will eat anything.

Home tap 1: I'm really happy to have found alot of old books in this dorm. I love reading so much so it helps pass the time. Professor Trein even offered to lend me some of his to keep me entertained! He's so nice!

Home tap 2: Oddly enough, i haven't yet thrown a party at this dorm.... Kalim x Veronica party collab coming soon to a dorm near you!!

Home tap 3: Guess who fell off of a broom really high up a few days ago? Me! I was riding it with Epel and just lost my balance, and boom fell dowwwwwn. Ruggie, Leona, and Jack were also there. I actually think i scared Leona for a minute, poor Jack and Epel were beside themselves. Ruggie did help me to the infirmary though. I gave him a doughnut as a thank you.

Home tap 4: I confronted Idia about otome games, he has been avoiding me since. I should have lead the chat with 'Hey i love otome games do you got any recommendations?' Instead of 'Soooo i hear you play otome games?'

Home tap 5: My favorite dorm to hang out with? Honestly i can't choose, i love them all so much! But at the moment im partial to Octavile, Jade let me see a whake shark and his likable points went up.

Home groovy: Sometimes i really miss home, badly. But my friends have started to feel like family. Especially Grim, Grim is already family.

DUO:

[VERONICA]: If we don't win this fight, imma use my cute charm to get Malleus to win it for us!

[PATRICIA]: GRACIOUS you can be dramatic. Leave this to me!! *insert karate sounds*

[crushedsweets]

ANSWERING ASKS PT 4?

ok this is like 30+ asks LOL its mostly stuff about me/my art with a little crp sprinkled in im sorry... ill make a post thats actually answering the crp asks with real answers that arent "ILL DO IT EVENTUALLY I SWEAR" lololol

YOURE BOTH SO SWEET i havent been this passionate about smth in so long so hopefully im here for a while... thank u guys for indulging me. it makes me happy to post LOL

with love pls dont call me that buuuut. ninakate. ticciwork. ninatoby. ticcijack. ninajack. notice how its all in the same group...

hiii i dont plan to anytime soon! IF I WERE TO, cody and rouge are probably 'next in line' to being put in my AU, but i have no plans to actually commit to that

omg ok its funny cuz rn i HAVE ONE but its just me in it cuz im too lazy to organize all the bots and verification and whatnot. im also nervous about making a server cuz of some online occurrences that happened after u sent this HAHA so i'm kinda putting it off... but i reblogged tombs server and im sometimes active in there if u wanna join that one!

ffrhrughagahhhh

no ur right theyre such a power couple. i know we joke about toby being useless bf and clocky being badass gf but they're both really cool together.

I FORGOT I MADE THE TWILIGHT COMMENT LMFAAAOOOOOO I NEED i need. i need toby to find a random twilight shirt at a thrift and snag it for kate.

ME TOOOO its so delightful. i have so much fun playing with them like barbies.. making them kiss n whatever. LMFAOOOO so silly but yk

JEFF STANS ARE SO FUNNYYYYYYYYY i like you guys. laughing jack stans scare me but thats cuz that damn clown scares me... nothing that yall have done. youre just braver than me. LOL

i will not do this...

no literally its really bad. i hold horrible grudges BAHAHA but im working on it. im getting over my purple beef

omg. i listened to it and that was really cool. i like that thank u sm for sharing

IDK WHAT POST UR REFERING TO BUT YOURE RIGHT. LMAOOOOO

IM SORRYYYY im so sorry. i feel like this fandom is so small and most of the fans dont really ship in general so it suuuucks shipping here.. but i love them..

oh my god i need to i keep forgetting. the nina art i jus tposted of her holding th eknife was kinda.. kinda referencing her behaviors..

i do too!!! ive been neglecting them so bad im so sorry..

like the IEPFB tea party scene

I NEVER DID IT ANON IM SO SORRY IM GOING TO HELL

is this a song

i have not! i havent read alot of stories actually... i kinda like doing my own thing with them HAHA

omfg i had a clocknina drawing but i ended up privating but i think i should unprivate it...

ok actually im sorry i just am bad at requests omfg LMFAOO IM SORRY im so focused on nina ... forgive me...

THANK YOUUUU youre very sweet i appreciate you!!! <3

YEAH he's...one of the more tragic people. 100%. all loss

WHAT IS LIUJONJACK LOL WHOS JON??? ALSO LIUOTPS IS FUNNY

wdym ? !

LMFAOOOOO HEY ITS NOT A BAD COMBO THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH BEING A NINAKATE SHIPPER........

THANK YOU CUPCAKE i really like nina.. or my version i gues si dunno.. i like everyone else's nina too. i like this nina we got going on together

ok i keep grouping these together but also making them seperate im so bad at organizing these asks but HAHA I LOVE THEM TOO i swear ill try to get some ticciwork stuff out soon!!! my spring semester is almost over so hopefullyyy..

this is how you know i suck ass cuz this was christmas time and im replying NOW. im so sorry. i initially planned to draw them hanging around a tree but i didnt get around to it then got embarassed and never replied.... but i agree it would have been cute. ha di notfailed. LOL

[nickssidewitch]

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it won't but it will get bad for all of u the day im proved to be right and I can sue all of u for doxxing which is illegal, screenshotting and recording messages without permission which is also illegal, determination of character which is clearly illegal, also all the death threats i receive off u and others at the end of the day i know my truth and the day all of u are finally shut the fuck up will be so fucking sweet, i think that's the best thing about people not believing me in the end im still telling the truth and it's going to be so fucking funny watching all of u little keyboard warriors shocked, like nick says ur people behind a screen with nothing better to do but bash someone u don't know i do not care what any of u have to say about me u have nothing on me or against me like I can't prove im dating chris u can't prove im not and all ur little text messages from me don't prove that im not also when the shit i told u about Kiki like the space camp packs or Chris's merch or matts merch or any collabs I've mentioned happy and are proven true what tf is ur excuse gonna be then because I've done that multiple times I've said what video they will do or what collab or where they are going or what they are releasing and then they have done it i understand coincidence but there is 5 of us (me, chris, matt, nick and nate) on here that have all posted shit that has been true many many times now u say ur a psychic well then u should know how many coincidences it takes for something to just be real, im sorry I'm dating chris I'm sorry to all the chris girls mad at me i understand how it feels to like someone and not have them I am a fan of other people myself i was a teenager fangirl for one direction ffs i know exactly how yall feel but that shit is no reason to bully and harass someone whether u like me or not, at the end of the day i don't post about them anymore, star does but i can't control what she wants to do, but i don't I think matt posts music, chris shares memes and nick is never fucking online, and nate has never posted anything and only ever messaged 2 people which is star and another friend, we do not cause any of u harm if u didn't look for us u wouldn't see us. I'm not deleting my account i have many friends on here some who believe some who don't but love me regardless im not asking people to believe me because I know till our video goes up no one will not even those who say they do will believe me fully but I don't care it doesn't cost anything to be kind to someone, something Kiki u do not have the capability to do, ur a sweet girl with a gift and u use that gift in the wrong way u could make a career out of ur readings yet ur wasting it on telling people about 3 boys sex life, which i find ironic btw how hated I am for posting a few small hints about dates or gifts from chris yet u post about 3 boys dicks u dont even know all cos some mystical being said u can .... that's fucked up, u may have permission from their "spirit guides" to talk about the boys sexual nature but u certainly don't have theirs and it's fucking creepy thinking for even 1 second they will be fine with what u say which alot of it is extremely wrong btw, something else I find funny is u say uve been doing this professionally for 10 years ... that would make u 13 .... no 13 year old is a professional psychic 🤣 the way people easily believe ur account shows ur the one brainwashing people by using the boys the boys dick size 🤣 the sooner people open their eyes to who u really are the better, but i hope u find meaning in ur life one day kiki and can stop bringing other people down because ur bored. ur 23 for fuck sake grow up

We didn’t doxx you nigga, your information is public. Doxxing is when you share people’s privated information and hack into things to get it.

Defamation of character is when someone’s lying on you, which nobody lied since all of the screenshots are from YOUR word of mouth that YOU typed out.

The only suing that CAN happen is the triplets suing YOU for defamation if they were even on this app in the first place.

You aren’t refuting anything because everything that I, and other people stated are REAL things. That’s why you’re threatening with legal action that YOU don’t even understand, as you used defamation and doxxing incorrectly— just like you didn’t know how NDAs worked in order to create that false NDA story AND how you didn’t know that Laura has no authority over the boys and that it’s the other way around.

You say you don’t post about them anymore when that’s all you do and that’s all you’re known for. You haven’t made any sort of name for yourself other than being “the stupid fake delusional pedo bitch who fakes dating the triplets and is rude to people who don’t believe her”

“I have many friends on here” And you’re gonna treat them the same fucking way once they see how much of a scumbag you are to people at the end of the day. I can tell you that they already sense how evil and weird you are already, but some are just too nice to cut you off. God bless them.

And I WAS kind to you from the fucking start, but then you started to come at me sideways, so of course I’m gonna retaliate with rudeness. You get what you paid for.

You’re talking about how bad my tarot shit is when you do the same shit as me dumbass! You’re Pagan! We’re cut from the same cloth. AND YOU ACT LIKE YOU DINT MAKE SHIT UP ABOUT THEIR SEX LIVES? YOU WERE TALKING TO ME ABOUT THEIR FOOT FETISHES, THEIR PISS KINKS, HOW THE GAY ONE AINT GAY AND HOW THE STRAIGHT ONE IS GAY, AND HOW THEY FUCK EACH OTHER EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE SIBLINGS!!

GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE!! You understand how spirituality works, but the sexual shit I SAY is NOTHING compared to what you say that invalidates their WHOLE IDENTITIES!!

I’m 23 and you’re PUSHING 30 on skme dumb shit.

[avorbl]

Avor's Watchlist

Summer has begun but school is still in session for another four weeks.

Currently Airing

25 Ji, Akasaka de 8/10 What a well done show two weeks of insights into Hayama have allevated this story.

Beauty and Mr. Romantic 8/50 Im still planning to watch

Deep Night Side Story: The Two of Us 1/6 Last week was a bit hectic so I didnt get to it but the first episode was nice enough

Fake Buddies 5/? This lighthearted comedy continues to delight with each installment

With you I Bloom 7/8 Young men dancing with swords while disaster looms give me more

Knock Knock, Boys! 3/12 Its enjoyable and funny but I fear this one of the shows where if you get hung up on the wrong hint youre going to be disappointed.

Love Sea 1/10 A MAME show ... Look pretty boys half naked!

Mayfly Angel 3/? The story seems a bit inconsistent like they tried to make it longer

My Love Mix-Up! 1/12 Fouth seems to self-assured resting in himself to take on the role

OMG! Vampire 4/8 There is alot of air between the good parts

Only Boo! 10/12 I dont think I can recover from the shift in tone here

Under the Oak Tree 4/10 Nice music to cliche plot

Wandee Goodday 6/12 Colourfully loud a whirlwind taking you with it

We Are 10/16 Its still airing

What I am catching up on

Celebrity Danshi wa Te ni Oemasen 6/10 I expected more

Gym Affairs 9/24

Love in the Air 7/13

My Best Boyfriend 1/17 Picked up from the bveginning 01.06.2024

Never Twice 8/72

Ossan no Pants ga Nandatte Ii Janai ka! 3/11

Sell Your Haunted House 4/16

Unstoppable High Kick 16/167

Still on my watch list

Fermat no Ryori 3/10

Fight for My Way 0/16

Given 1/6

I Feel You Linger in the Air 1/12

Kore wa Keihi de Ochimasen! 2/10

My Lovely Liar 5/16

One Spring Night 2/32

Qing Qing Zi Jin 20/40

She and Her Perfect Husband 20/40

The Great Shaman Ga Doo Shim 2/12

The Uncanny Counter 3/16

The Undateables 4/32

Finished in the last two weeks

Blueming 30.05.24 9/10 A BL about how you look at people and what you see (in them)

Living with him 30.05.24 8,5/10 I expected a domestic healing slice of life story and got too much angst in the second half

Can I Buy Your Love from a Vending Machine? 03.06.24 9,5/10 A sweet work place romance with a little angst. And some colours

She Loves to Cook, and She Loves to Eat 2 01.06.24 9/10

You Made My Day 01.06.24 7/10 Well shot multi purpose marketing

Dropped in the last two weeks

Be Your Star 8/20 07.06.24 -/10 This was going nowhere good

[merwynpersonalhub]

GO NUTS!! RICK OR LOTTIE WITH MARCO!!

ONE- YOU DID IT WRONG/SILLY dfhchb but eh ill ramble about the relationship stuffies! if you want me to do random rambles you gotta send "Go nuts" by itself bc i dont want to ruin peoples chanches lol OK SO IMMA DO BOTH. since rick is mentioned first imma do him and marco first. Marco was mostly scared of him because of how big he was. I mean look at him!! Hes huge!! Marco and rick actually sorta had a long long while before they got to the "friend" part. And even then it surprised him. Because marco would try to talk to him and he never really says anything back but then one day marco just.. asks if hes being annoying because hes always l:l And Rick just basically goes "Why would you think that? You are my friend." and marco just sobs inside. I feel like if i have to explain their dynamic its "the chaotic asshole x the one who calms the asshole down/ stops it". Rick is a very loving person in my head. He just doesn't show it alot because hes not used to it! Because depression CANNNN make you just. not want to do anything. Hc anon on the other acc I LOVE THE RICK AND MARCO HEADCANONS. JUST HIM LIKE...making sure no nuts are in marco food when he works at a food place or giving him a little extra stuff or just cute shit like that is so adorable. Legit its like...somewhat sun x moon type shit. Marco is more out there, chaotic, very open with his love/affection and rick is more to himself, not talkive, gets out of trouble as soon as he can, doesn't show much but its so cute vfbjcshjbdsd i hate that wornoutsleep is sorta a ship i rlly like i love that canon marco pulls FOUR BITCHES!!!/silly

OK LOTTIE TIME!!

I like to think they met by carmen. Like her arguing with marcos boss while marco is just...trying to look away and see a small little cutie lottie staring at him. Since he looks funny!! I like to think they have a very very sweet family bond since both their parents arent good people. So marco is usually like..idk like the person she goes to for some questions or advice if she had no one else to help and he helps as much as he can. After a while she just. sleeps over often and marco is just "Oh...eh nothing bad will happen" and spoils her like how he does in the secret blog. It just takes a bit for him since unlike blog marco. Canon marco doesn't rlly like roy that much- they argue and silly shit but its nothing serious. But when he gets sorta close with lottie he just.. like "ok protect this child with my life." and they are just so fucking silly and cute- like fdhjd i love them i do i do they are the silly found family

[adoredmarigold]

Questions!! Yay!!!!!! I've got a lot to ask about, I'm sorry

1. What are your favorite ships other than david and lingard (tbh in some way that ship reminds me of kirk x bones, not sure if youre into star trek tho xd)

2. Ava or Tripp?

3. Favorite S2 characters? Do you have any S2 ships?

4. What do you think are the best possible and your favorite endings of S2, S3 and S4??

5. And of course, I wanted to ask, whats your opinion on Bonnie.

I feel like I've been asking you some questions before but I dont remember excstly what it waasszzzzzzddsdszs if I already asked some of these questions IM SO SORRY but I cant say no to asking twdg questions

hello :) 1. VIOLENTINE!!!! It's such a lovely ship I will defend it with my life, istg Violentine haters have yet to bring up a valid point as to why they don't like it. I have some crack ships like Eleanor x Kate or Eleanor x Ava, I don't have much to say about them I'm just gay and wanna ship my girls together lmao. hmmm, I've been seeing some Mark x Lee stuff to and that looks pretty cute. Ermmm this is making me realize I actually don't ship much in twdg lmao, I guess I also ship Clouis and Gabentine Clouis is sweet and has good moments but I just don't find them as compelling as Violentine (sorry Clouis shippers). As for Gabentine I guess I would say I ship it, but more so in a "first crush/puppy love" kinda of way, The relationship never becomes anything serious they're just kids with a crush on each other and honestly I don't need them to become anything more than that. aaaannnd I know nothing about Star Trek but you're gonna make me look into Kirk x Bones now, thanks. 2. Well if we're just talking about the characters in general then Ava, she's so underrated imo. BUT, if we're talking about whether I choose to "save" Tripp or Ava during the execution, I always choose to let Tripp live. I'd rather have Ava die here than get that stupid fucking death she gets in ep 5, Tripps death in ep 5 is a lot better cinematically and writing-wise. 3. Sarah :) She's been my fav season 2 character since the season first came out and I will never forgive the writers/fandom at the time for how they treated her, SHE DID NOTHING WRONG. As for ships I guess I don't really have any for season 2, I mean Alvin x Rebecca I suppose though I'm not particularly invested in either character. Never been a Nick x Luke fan, I get the appeal but it ain't for me. 4. I can't really say which ending for each season is the best cause it's all pretty subjective, but I will give you my favs :) I guess I don't really have a fav ending for season 2? I choose the alone ending each time just cause I can't deal with Jane and Kenny's bs, don't hate either character but Clem doesn't deserve to put up with their bullshit anymore, she's the main character it's fine let's just ignore the logistics of an 11-year-old going off alone with a newborn. I also like the Wellington ending alot though! Not only because it's the best location for Clem and AJ to end up at but it also gives a satisfying conclusion to Kenny's character imo. Kenny spent all of season 2 trying to keep Clem and in the end AJ by his side for ultimately selfish reasons and he became extremely violent and unhinged in the process. So to see Kenny finally be selfless and be willing to give them both up to ensure their health and safety really redeems him for me. Kenny loves Clem and AJ but I really don't think he's fit to take care of them, this is the best possible Kenny ending for me. 5. Bonnies cool. It's been awhile since I've played season 2 and 400 days so I am in a desperate refresh of her character, but from what I remember she was interesting. I def think the fandom goes WAY too hard on hating her, from what I remember she's not really any worse or better than any of the other adults in season 2, she's extremely flawed but hell who isn't in The Walking Dead. I get being frustrated with her but the lengths people go to shit all over her character is kinda insane to me. So overall I guess I don't have much of a strong opinion on Bonnie, she's an interesting character with alot of flaws but I don't think she's evil or cruel. I hope her and Mike where able to get away and join a community or something. Also, I distinctly remember her being my fav 400 Days character and having a crush on her when I was a kid lmao. wowie okay that's all I gotta say, and don't worry you're all good! If you (or anybody really) send me a question and I don't reply it's probably just cause I forgot to or I'm stumped on what to say. CRIES

[ask-pokeprofvoid]

Pelipper mail!

[Oh! It's a letter from Polaris!]

"Dear Dewdrop and Drea,

I think I’ve gotten a proper hold on how the mail system works here, which is a plus! Looks like letters from me will be coming in on Tuesdays and Fridays, providing that nothing goes wrong.

It’s been a bit chaotic with the Walrein, but it seems like things are settling down. Wallace has been a massive help in settling them.

Drea: Oh, Opie is a very cute nickname for me. I like it a lot :) Zeze and Nini are also very cute. It’s nice to know that your school has a wide array of teachers giving lessons. And you’ve made friends, oh that’s excellent Drea! I love working with Dragonite, they’re always very sweet and gentle with their trainers. I would love to meet your new friends when I come home.

Oooh, I see. I’m glad to see that you’ve found a safer alternative to Pokeblocks while I was gone. Nana is an excellent cook so I’m sure that they are delicious.

Dewdrop: Everyone is safe :) Yes that’s very important. First bristles on the babies!! Augh, I can’t wait to come back and see them, I’m sure they’re so so cute.

Also, I would like to contest, I think that I personally am the Lucky One in this relationship. Your family has always been so kind and welcoming towards me.

Ah, nightmares…I’m sorry Droplet :((( I’m trying to resolve the Walrein issues as soon as I can. I’ll be on the plane home literally as soon as physically possible.

I miss Liam, and Cobbler definitely misses his Criminal Companion.

Sorry for the shorter letter today, it’s been so so so busy handling the Walrein. I haven’t had too much time for much else! I’m writing this letter on my lunch break. Bird says Hi!

Lots and lots of love from me, we are staying safe

Your Starlight."

[Attached are a few photos of the Walrein line in the sanctuary. Once seems to be Wallace, based on the old burn on the back.]

Hi again Opie, Uhm I have a question. when you get home can you help me with the service pokemon stuffs again? I know Mis Mom miss Viv has been talking about it alot but i am very nervous :-( BUT!! She says she will ask Uncle Ingo to help train me a strong pokemon so I wont be scared when going outside! ALSO!! I caught a little Larvitar that uncle is gonna train up for me!!

Dune and Liam have been cuddling more and more!! [Theres a image of Dune and Liam cuddled in the sun with Liam grooming the old persian.]

[There is a piece of tape, seemingly being a easier way for Andrea to leave room for Vivianne, the Washi tape being magikarp themed]

Hello starlight :) I am so glad that everyone is okay and remember what you tell me 'dont rush yourself'...or was it the other way around? I don't remember haha. Mischeif decided to use bounce on me yesterday, was funny since he is still quite weak. Knowing Queenie though? She'll get them in fighting shape quick, Shes always loved sparring with the little karps.

Rememeber to not over-work yourself though Starlight. You need time to recover and rest too! Also, Tell bird me and Drea said hello :)

Love you from the bottom of the ocean to the furthest part of space, Your Dewdrop <3

[remotely-radical]

I think I've always had a weird relationship with sex.

But it seems way worse since last year. I just feel basically no connection to it. I don't want it, even with a girl i fancy, my drive isn't crazy like everyone else seems to be. I just don't get it.

I used to enjoy sex still, with a person, i do love doing things and pleasing them, I don't really care for being touched or pleased, I don't care about the finish line for me.

If it were 100% up to me, i think alot of my sexual partners would never of touched me. I get into for their pleasure, when they are the ones really craving it and wanting it. I think I learnt how to have sex. I learnt over the years sex was the norm and craze. There wasn't any other way to build a connection with someone.

I don't wanna have sex with anyone anymore, till I really know them.

I've never felt this distant to sex before my ex. Though I've always struggled to maintain a high drive sex life I've realised and self reflected on. She made me just hate it, despise it even. I feel bad to a degree though.

As yeah, I can openly admit now, it wasn't a good trait for me to have, to lead someone to think i am think sex freak fuck machine, into all these things they are.

Its conflciting though, because im like, hmm, she treated me so poorly, so does it counter it? Or?? Idk? I dont think it does, because what if she was the most angel sweet and never caused me anything? That's a not thing to do to someone. So it doesn't justify it even if they did shitty things to me.

But then i over think again, and feel, well.. she did put all that pressure on me to be this sexual deviant. That she "was too hot to be exclusive with someone who wont fuck her" and she knew how wrapped around her i was, how far id go. Or maybe its a thing she does, she likes to see how far someone will go just for her attention and love. Some weird egotistical thing maybe?? Idk, that whole relationship is still so confusing to me and I still haven't decided on the type of person she actually is. If it really was me, or partly me. Or both.

I do know now and accept it wasnt 100% me like she tried making it out to be and clear her of her wrong doings.

Anyway, im so fucked up sexually now from it, i cant even have casual sex, because i need to be emotionally invested, but even then, sex doesnt phase me much, which if im with a highly sexual person, just ends up hurting them, making them feel gross, unwanted and undesired.

But sex most of the time doesnt feel good for me. I dont even like cumming, it feel wrong after, just this sense of dread or some kind of weird feeling. I dont wanna be touched, entered or gotten off.

Which are feelings ive had before her, so i can't exactly pin point exactly what it is. But she definitely has put those feelings on steroids.

Which is ironic, because she has such a high ego and genuinely seems to believe everyone wants her so bad, everyone wants to fuck her, shes just so hot and sexually attractive.

Yet she made me despise and hate sex and in the end had no desire or want for sex with her. I feel so guilty, as that's such an awful thing to feel for your gf right? Like mid sex checking out, wanting to be else where, not enjoying it. I should never of let it get that far.

But I just HAD?? To please her, meet her needs, didnt feel like any other choice, it was always poor her, she is so baby and needs to be taken care of, and I needed to care for her and so anything for her. Even at my own expense.

It just got harder and harder. The more depressed and bad I felt, the harder it was to hold her. How can I hold her and deal with her feelings and needs, and also maintain my own? How can i manage two people's needs when im barely able to do mine? Which is why i started having more and more boundaries, I needed a break, I needed myself back, I needed my time. Which ofcourse, caused more problems. It was so selfish of me to do that right?

How dare I want to go home and see my family instead of doing non stop physical and emotional labour for someone who hates me.

Like fuck, I really felt I gave my life for her, and it wasnt enough, nothing, NOTHING would of been enough for her.

Regardless off all that, I still feel bad for not wanting sex but trying ti play off I did.

But like come on, not only my sex drive is lower anyway, normally I can still have sex as long as they are being pleasered as thats a big deal for me.

But so many rules, so much effort and energy was needed to have sex.

I couldn't scratch iches, because when i did. It became about her. That im not focused on her 100% which means im not engaged and now she feels sexually rejected and have to console her, apologise, and make her feel better.

I couldn't change my arm positions when it started to be in pain or go numb, same reason, I wasnt 100% there and now she feels horrible.

Couldn't look away for more than a second, same reason,

On top of that, the shit, oh the shit I had to fucking speak. Had to be constantly talking, had to talk about all these fucked up scenarios and say so many things I never would of had come out my mouth. I hated so much of it. Made my stomach litterally feel swirly. I always hated myself so much after sex and that type of sex.

But I had to carry on, I had to be happy and sexually satisfied and into it. I could never, never speak of how I felt.

God can you imagine if i ever spoke up? If i said it didnt like the sex? That it makes me feel horrible? Fuck it would never of been about me, it would of just instantly been her feelings so bad now. That im shaming her. Traumatising her, abusing her. What ever she came up with.

It wouldnt of been "oh my God baby im so sorry, we never have to have that type of sex again, I know i have kinks and fantasies that you can't fullful."

It would of been how I am awful, dont love her, not attracted to her, disnt want her, that im a peice of shit. I make her want to kill herself etc etc.

How dare I make her feel sexually shamed, that others have done that, and me not being into it = shaming her .

She acted that way with porn. She showed me something and I just couldnt stomach it, and expressed sorry, thats just not for me, but its okay she likes it.

That turned into her saying this is why she doesnt open up, that she is closed from me now, I think she is gross or whatever word she used i cant remember. Anyway, it was a huge negitive reaction to me just not getting hard at some porn catorgory that is fucked up in my opinion. But I disnt even express how it made me feel, i just expressed its not my thing, I tried being so so gentle.

So how can i deny the sex demands she wanted? How could i say, sorey, im not that into this and makes me uncomfortable.

I didn't want that happening, I disnt wanna fight about it. So i just had all this sex instead. Now im traumatised from it and can't have sex at all with anyone.

Lile even watching porn and having sex i wasnt fully in board with, it was okay and I adapted, but also wasnt fully relaxed in. Like fuck no wonder it took me so long to cum, normally its like 2 minutes lol. But sometimes I just could not and struggled to, alot of dissociation and trying hard to be into it and think yea this is hot and I love this.

Anyway, its 3am, im tired, head filled with lots, needing to get that out, i repressed so many feelings with her, now I get to share them. Even though its to no one and ill never be able to share it with her. It feels therapudic enough to post on tumblr lol.

Not that i could even share it with her if I had the chance, unless she was fully willing and able to have a civil conversation, really come from an understanding point of view, and seeing my side. Otherwise its pointless, she will jsur focus of "SEE YOU LIED, YOU ARE THE ABUSERRRRRŔ!!!!" and just use it against me.

No. Thank. You.

Goodnight tumblr <3 my therapist for when I dont have my human therapist <<33 :--))

[therealslayla]

Lonely darling

Nobody really talks about how lonely you can feel when your disconnected from things you love and was once so passionate about. How lonely you can feel having a partner, and friends but yet still feel so alone even with them. How you no longer are intune with your selfcare, self practice, your way of being you tending to you. You stop pouring into yourself, but what caused it? So much. Is it we begin to feel lonely when our cup is empty? Or do we begin to feel lonely when we are pouring into everyone elses cup and now theres that brief moment when there is nothing left to pour back into your cup? Its very beautiful yet painful how the human bring can work, and how much is controlled by it or what can affect it. If you set a routine for yourself for months or even years your brain and body becomes custom to it, but the moment you get a new job that doesnt align with it, or meet new friends that schedules arent yours then you start compromising but then it throws your routine off track and then the brain becomes overstimulated and the body is now confused. Anything little mishape, or wronging can cause a major corruption/breakdown in the kingdom (the brain), causing everything else to eventually fall down. I wonder why when we do feel so alone, we feel sadness? But even when others are there we still feel the same sadness but now its even more noticable, you begin to feel guilty for even thinking that way, you begin to question if you are the problem and just dont know how to live and be and happiness was never a emotion of yours, you just fooled yourself over the many years with things like shopping, gaming, gossiping with friends, watching movies, anime, masking it with makeup, content/influencer ideas, isolating yourself, drinking, partying, even using relationships to feel that void, thats still a void. Sometimes its so empty but also feels so loud, its so dark but so much attention is on it. When you finally start feeling better or back to "yourself", it feels as if a part of you has disappeared or died during the process, like your body went thru a spitriual death. Why are we more comfortable venting online in many different ways (depending on talent) then expressing it in person. Why is it easier to be yourself with strangers, then with people who known you for years? Is it the judgmental eyes and looks they given overtime when you were being yourself and finally peeling a layer back and you caught them? Was it the way you expressed your emotions and your partner would dismiss or deflect them, making you seem too sensitive or dramatic? Was it the growing up with parents who werent emotionally available? or parents who was abusive, and neglectful? Why as we get older the questions become alot more, the pain becomes immunity, the healing becomes annoying and too much to bare, the loneliness becomes so visible its no longer lonely because everyone can see it, except no one cares to acknowledge it. Why is it when your all alone you can type this, and express this on a saturday evening, with your two cats watching you and your dog sleep in his kennel? Why do i feel lonely with such beautiful things? Why do i feel lonely while having a partner i live with, sweet loving cats, and a dog, and good aqquaintences, and a job. Yet i still feel so incomplete, yet i want to cry, scream, run away, start over with a new idenity, why is it that no matter what i do this feeling of loneliness finds itself hitting me throughout the day. Why is it that im so lonely it keeps my brain up and active even when its supposed to be resting and having my body carry all the sorrow and stress of it? Why am I my biggest critic?