#dont forget the isz

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Somewhere in a cozy San Francisco Apartment

Fanart by deviantart;s Pre07 posted by Ken Goodman on Pintrest

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I just wanna hold you kid

Yea. I just want to hold u kid. But da life i live... I gotta have more to give... Nd right now im livin w. no payment... Only god kould save me kusz im feelin alil forsakened... I need to have a little more patient... All disz money coming goin to savingsz.. Nd my rent paymentsz... Im just tryin to get it... Two interviewsz hopefully I just have one I go too... Nd baqq to work i would go to... Ima be down to Earth... No laughin till I see da money grow nd i kan elevate... But i gotta concentrate... Kant take a break gotta keep goin lik da police chasin me... GTA... Your favorite game... I gotta get to disz money at da moment like itsz my GPA... I gotta own it.. Flourish... Lik i got more in storage... I wanna be payin mortgage nd own shyt.... Blowin my own fireworksz on my own turf watchin it from my own porch w. My own Porsche nd more.. W. Paper work to do it... Watch my niqqasz go foolish... Nd blow money lik we stupid... Fall in love w. A shawty nd tell her it wasz all cupidsz doin... She would laugh at my silly movementsz... Help me w. Resolutionsz nd komin up w. Solutionsz... Neva watch me lose it kusz she would be my one influence.. Tellin me wat to do wit da money for da family... Busy clappin wen da kidsz turnsz to graduatesz... Nd laughin to da bank... Livin it happily helpin each other thru tragediesz.. Prove our love thru trust... Only lust we have isz wen we pourin up... But it wasz all a dream... I just hope u kan see i want to live it big... Take u on tripsz... Make it to da tropicsz.... Have da rollie goin nd u fall asleep to the ticking nd tocking kusz u kno ur Dad will neva stop it lik dat watch of hisz... I wanna promise dat nd lock it... Drop off dese kicksz w. Some more giftsz... But im waitin on disz check... But i feel lik it must feel lik i forgot but i swear i aint forget... i wanna kome baring giftsz nd money... I kno itsz more den dat but i just feel funny if i dont have it... It feelsz tragic... Not being dere... Shyt... Ima aware it looksz lik i need to grow a pair nd just be dere... But i will only look lik i just kare to be dere w. Nothin but dat chair... Atleast i kan sit contemplated that im makin somethin if im workin... Nd im not lovin da feelin at all... Nd itsz disz company puttin my money on stall... I swear i seen it komin in tall... Still do... If itsz true... We get paid... Datsz all i need... Nd i will be ok... God have mercy.. Im feelin misery... Im in my feelingsz... Nd i kant deal w. Dem... Im tryin hard but to dem itsz all pretend... Lik i aint da one waitin... Nd dey hesitating nd it makesz my business look messed up... Shyt pour me a cup... Kusz ima needa a lot of luck so y not get fuckd up kusz disz shyt already fuqd up... Ima need a jug of liquor and a new liver... Give me a triple shot of all da cognacsz... All da brown stuff in one cup... Kill me now blow me up!. Suicide if I dont get enough... Suicide if i dont kno ur love... Nd i just want u to kno.... Dat i kare even if u dont knoe... Yea...

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Another day in  the life of Maxx and friends Fanart by LimeGreenSquid

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The gangs all here! Well almost...even the great northern Crabbit. Sticker by BJManchester

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The Maxx Vs Mr Gone with a few Isz thrown in for good measure Fanart by Izkit00

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A triumphant Maxx! Fanart by David Ferreira

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Is that Gunslinger Julie? Fanart by Clint Basinger ( Can’t forget the isz!)

[jokah128-blog]

Meanwhile I Heard U Wasz Looking To Rival

Meanwhile, Herd You Wasz Lookin To Rival... Well Letsz Go Thisz Mile To See Who Getsz Tired... Put On Dem Shoesz Nd Dont Do It For Style... Do It For Disz Title... Im Sending Shotsz No Rifle... I Swear It Onda Bible Ima Take You 2 Trial W. A Smile... If Thatsz Wat U Desire... My Love Burnsz Lik Fire... Y Retire Wen Im Not Even Tired... My Fightersz Put Up Ur Lighter... Now Put Dem Up Higher... Nd Spark Dat Bitch... Watch It Get Lit!. Pullin All Sortsz Of Shiftsz Lik Im Riding Sticksz.... Addysz Got Me To Pull A Triple... I Dont Foul On Dribblesz Or Wen Im Inda Middle Of Guarding... Im Hardly Offending Nd More Defending On Wat Im Depending On... Play It Lik A Song... Hit Every Note W. My Wrongsz... Nd Go Long... Ima Keep Goin On... Like A Marathon U Need To Hit Metersz... Im Not A BabySitter So Im Not Gonna Baby U... Ima Your Dad So Ima Teach Ya... Ima GrandMaster... A Pastor... A Thrasher... I Make Noice Lik Da City Compactor Wen I Back Out My Handsz... Thisz Isz Godsz Plansz... I Hope U Understand... I Got Faith Inda Big Man... Da Hand That Writesz Everythin In Stone... Stone To My Brim... Ima Brilliant Revolutionary Intelligent Militant Soldier... Hard To Move Lik A Boulder... Dust Of My Shoulder Wen U Try Me... Leave Ur Face Lookin Sloppy... Ur Old Newsz Lik A Floppy Disc... Ur A Fake Lik Lip Syncing... Thinkin We Dont See It... Fuq... Im Ova Here Thinkin... Nd Making Movesz But Itsz Lik U Want Me To Go Krazy... Bout Timesz Ive Lost... But U Wanna Throw It At Me... Lik It Wasnt Timesz Ive Lost... Like It Wasnt Timesz U Did Wrong... Lik Im Suppost To Be Happy Remember Wen I Wrote Dat... I Aint Have Nobody... But... Here I Am Lookin... Here I Am Being A Man About Minesz.. Missin Time Kusz Ur Makin It Hard For Me & Minesz.... Kall It Having A Job Nd Workin For Da Spot... Den U Wanna Flip Shyt Lik U Aint Got A Different Schedule To Chill W. Da Kidsz? But Itsz Ok.. Ima Stay Upset But Ima Keep Doin My Best... Shmokin Away All My Stress... Look Up 2 God... Wat A Fuqin Mess... I Think Ima Fall Under Alot Of Stress... Heresz My Distress... Im Kallin... Shyt... Another Weekend Wit Da Kidsz? Cool Shyt... Now Da Weekend Of Fathersz Day? Cool Whip... Chasing Dat Money Ever Since... Kusz Shyt Makesz No Sence... I Wana Comprehend... Kusz I Think I Forget... To Understand What It Isz To Be A Man... Den I Try To Understand Dont Slaughter Ur Name... Dont Put Da Blame On U For Wat U Do Nd How U Move... But Dey Say Itsz All Inda Movement... Ur A Snake But Ur Not Even Gucci...

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Paraphrase

Yea. I hear wat u sayin all i kan do isz paraphrase it.. Ace of spade for da toast... Liquor tasting got my liver wasted... Datsz all mothafuqahsz got to say... I get to say i pray for each day to get better nd even if the weather isz whether or not the topic i wanna be in da tropicsz... I wanna live in fantastic placesz where i dont hesitate to look at wat im buyin just go on w. Ur spree... No need to say please... No need to look at me.... Just look at da mirror smile at urself nd remember datsz who helped u out... Im only here for disz one time disz isz ur life.... Live it right.... Father God nd Mother Nature i feel you... We not alone... We in our own zonesz... Annexed... W. Perkysz nd XanaX... Mental Problemsz dat u kant help solve them w. Fake asz solutionsz... Tellin me im sad kusz i aint madd but bkusz im born dat way.... Fuq isz u sayin? Your judging me off rip... Let me dip kome back dripping... Ice nd tingsz... Let me drown my feelingsz... Let me find my healing... Let me try my thing without forgetting who i really am... Let me stand... Im only human... I kan run... But im limited... Im not build to race a car.... Im not build to fight handsz on w. A Jaguar... Im only human... The heart of a Gorilla... Go real... Sit back nd watch... U kome around my cubsz or around da squad we will stomp... Warning... Not all of usz are Gorillasz... Da jungle big... But disz side livesz.... All of usz in peace... But fuq w. Usz nd we will... Reconcile... Nd u wont admire us anymore.... Deresz da door... U wanna walk out u kan... U better be sorry... Kusz i wasz.... Im alwaysz sorry.... Sorrow dont bother but wat doesz isz u takin usz asz a joke.... Truth spoke nd will be spoke but dont... Dont try me... Im not just anybody... I dont catch bodiesz... I make them fight me...

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Dead End

4 Daysz Left. All i kan say isz Yea. Yea.... Yea. 24 boutta go 25 itsz live. Fuq lit. My blunt should be lit. Ur boii making shyt happen kusz i dont quit. Niqqasz askin if i wanna sit but im standing for my shyt. Wachu got to say? Lik i aint pray for thisz day. Lik i aint say i wasz gonna make it nd i went nd did it. Ya problem isz ya live ina fiction wishin instead of goin to go get it. But ya kan keep wishing bad on me. Ima just Smile nd say cheese. I kno u see da big picture. Lik ima show u wat u took to long to figure. Wat u told me to forget nd i couldnt stress it more den enough. Disz paper. But ya hatersz. Kusz im makin minesz nd ya living liesz. Talkin bout everythin should be free. But diapersz aint free. Ya thinkin foolish. Look atcha lik ur stupid. That wall street mentality talkin bout occupy a park wit a bunch of nonsense kusz u wanna make centsz instead of makin dat actual bread. Ya made no sense. I kept my head nd continued ahead. I seen da end. Ran it. Passed it. Wasnt 1st but i did it. Now im livin. Im not da shyt but i kan take an hour shyt w. Out gettin botherd from it. Alwaysz been a father. Disz isz just da next chapter. Made it from da bottom w. All ya actin hostile kusz to ya nothin matterd. Im not even flattered. I got my purpose. Watsz yoursz? Choresz? Clothsz onda floor? Court? Wat more? Fuqq a friend ova? Watchin who i kall my friendsz kusz now im startin to see da dead endsz.

Yea. 25. Nd im feeling so alive. I want disz forever. I wanna keep livin it better. I wanna go out w. U daddy. I wanna go out w. U mommy. Son. Renny. Josenny. Renston. Billy. I know i been angry w. Slite depression. But i hope u all learn my lesson. That life isz a blessing. Every1 livesz w. All da help they kan get. Try not to 4get who wasz dere. 1 Million dollarsz soundsz real. I wanna make myself clear. I know disz isz da 1st year i felt so gudd ina while. I miss Chino. Wish he were here. Rest In Peace My Niqqa. Hope u see thisz shyt here. My love... sweat... nd tearsz... My fear... Wasz i wasnt gonna be dere.... Nd i wouldnt have been enough... Dat tough time niqqasz seen me w. Nd had me lose my mind... But some niqqasz dropped a good word... Nd i went to church... Nd i prayed... God help me thru dese rough timesz... I kno ur on ur own time... I kno u got better for me nd minesz inda future... I kno not to loss faith in u bkusz of small inconveniencesz... Ima Just keep listening... Da devil will never reel me in... Forgive me for any sinsz i will do nd did... Shytt... Keep me guarded from my enemiesz.... Ima watch everyone closely make sure dey dont drain me of my energy... Keep my demonsz seemless nd help me at my weakest... I owe it to most.... Heresz a toast... Dust off da dirt nd knew my worth wasz everythin i ever thirst for... So u kan enjoy blowin commasz but i wont unless itsz for my dad nd momma nd da kidsz in my life... Letsz get baqq to real life... Wachu thinkin thisz strive isz? Y u wanna kno my business? Kan u really get it?... Isz it a 7 or a 6 for u? Watsz ur truth? Wat do u see doin w. Ursz?... Kan u imagine a tour of da world nd seein all da wondersz? I wonder... Have enough money for u and ur lover... Or just to get urself outta any trouble... Kan u pull a double stunt... Make a double jump... Get over lik a range rover in mud... Lik make it happen a second time inda same time frame? Or inda same week... Niqqa iim weak.... X.x... Told u i laugh about everything... Hope ur appealin.... Fuq u nd ur feelingsz... Learn to deal w. Dem... Comprehend im not tryin to offend u... Just bein truthful isz brutal... Stop gettin hurt for wordsz... Get hurt touchin disz money.....

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Desire

Im at an all time low but u wouldnt kno... Still mean w. Da flow even if i take it slow... I keep da tempo wen i drive her nd speed it up lik a professional nd hit every stroke till i hear her yellin out Jokah... Hit her w. A stiff one to her gut... A thumb in her butt.. Yuck!.... Not enough air in her lungsz to run another one... But i still get it up... A Sip from our cupsz got usz fuqin up w. Love... But nothin went wrong from da strip of her thongsz to usz sharing toungesz... Got a string attached so we strung... Sprung up... Da way it feelsz wen we touch... Da way it feelsz wen we're done... Just makesz usz forget wat made usz scream at each other... We seem lik da best loversz nd wen we fuqin da neighborsz are in trouble... I might make her a mother... She isz like no other... Wonder if it would be fine w. Her brothersz... Now...

Back to da present... Tryin to meet my endsz... Where are dese so kalled friendsz? But ima just play pretend... If i need to feel happy i just shmoke... If i try to fix my pride the more it getsz broken... Lik dont try to hold me... Better yet leave me alone wen i say i want my space... Get out my face when i say im ok.... Itsz irratating... Itsz irking me... Dont worry about me... Im at an all time low but ya dont kno... How i really let go... Lik kill me now!. God... Im feelin down... But da people around me dont understand... Make dem.. Ok... Well im not finicially stable but im ready and able nd im almost dere but lik itsz unfair how i bare by myself... Only help i got are my conscience.. my friendsz nd family... I want a companion... I want my own family... I wanna be happy... I wanna make a woman happy... I hate alwaysz talkin to my friendsz about my problemsz... I want a girl to help me forget nd solve dem... To relieve me of my stress... A relationship... But ya dont get it... Im ina mess dat takesz 30daysz to fix... Nd im still in it!... A turmoil datsz burning in soil... Lik im stressed!. I might start shmokin packsz of ciggerettesz again... Lik i kno im kute but i want a women to admire me too... Even wen i get lik disz... She dere to pick me up... Offer me a small cup to throw up nd toast to usz a toast to trust... A toast to da past nd livin it rough... Cough up our lungsz w. A blunt...

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Today I Thought About Killing You

Yea. Today i thought about killin u.. It wasz an interesting point of view... Wit Rationality nd fuq nationality nd geography nd how u kame in w. A Segragated army... Considering neglect and shyt...

Still separating nd Annexing hoodsz... Takin goodsz....

Yea. Today i thought about killin u.. It wasz an interesting point of view... Wit Rationality nd fuq nationality nd geography nd how dey took history nd turned it into what dey wanted... Most of us haunted w. Nightmaresz about da government adding bordersz nd bountiesz.... Boundariesz that are set for some to advance nd some to stay in the same place... Tell me to my face thisz isz justice... That if u were on my side wat would u consider doin? Will u follow ur own instructionsz... Will you do everythin u said for me to do? Nd when i get dere will it satisfy you den? Comprehend u dont bite da handsz dat feed u... We are all equal... We are all the people.... Caged nd locked away in hell somewhere lik a sequal tryin to shed light but disz fight getsz u more tight w. Da devil nd den he tellsz u... Pick up dat metal... If not be an Angel nd win that medal... Show dem u... Show dem Ur mouth runnin nd tell dem ur livin it lovely... But niqqasz isz around u not tellin u da truth... If we really wanna get disz started we would stop being hypocritesz nd stop livin in a fiction... Depict it.... Y we all on da run instead of confessin to our sinsz... Kusz it hurtsz to lose wat u think u won but u aint win.... U killed an innocent mansz or womansz son or daughter... Dey had time to fix dem up... Let dem live alil stuck den pick dem up from da rough wen it got Tough... But they stop usz from sharing our thoughtsz... Nd let usz rot in jail for a small arguement dat dey rather not deal w. but make u feel how real it getsz wen u forget deresz an arguement to settle but u settle for da best they give u... W. All da issuesz nd dey give u a tissue... Lik kry it away or change... Da pain of seein urself in chainsz... How much kan we take?... How much time do we have to face b4 we find it a disgrace... Nd loss faith nd learn to hate rather den appreciate dat we got out safe... Dat wasz a brake to break disz habit formin.... Skeletonsz inda closet wont close it... You gotta destroy dem... Or ignore dem nd continue...

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Im Sorry Part 3

Da led just left my head. Im pretty sure im dead. Shyt not being there isz da shyt i most regret. Meeting u wasz da moment i will neva forget. Being with you would be da only momentsz i slept. I stayed up all night tryin to not stress bkusz my life wasz such a mess. I knew it wasz all a test. God sent me signsz i still accept. But signsz dat u wouldnt expect. Kusz i wasz ready for thisz. I knew i had experience this feeling before. I knew i couldnt just walk out da door. I knew i had to clean up my act lik choresz. I knew i wasz better den thisz. I knew i wasz better den thisz. I got myself in a chokehold w. Disz. Im lossin it. But i already lost it. Shyt.

Damn.

Rey.

Y wasz u taken away? The one we looked up too. How kan u do thisz afta all da shyt we been thru? How will we tell Reydin inda future? How could you do this to your mother? How could you do this to your father? To your sister and brother? Their sonsz nd daughtersz? They would never know ya love. The different type of love u had for usz. The way u went off on usz. The only way you knew how to teach usz. I remember looking at you losing ur mind and losing track of time but u knew what wasz right. You knew that it wasz all a matter of time b4 u shined. B4 u had it all together. B4 u had it all in line. Den u metioned imagine wat mommy had to go thru. Imagine wat daddy had to go thru. U had a different point of view. U heard everythin da youth would say nd take wat u herd from da older men. Lik remembering wat u did asz a youth. How u explode wen u thought we were doin sumthin stupid and tell usz stop being foolish. Then how you would apologize kusz u knew u were angry. Damn. Wheresz your integrity?. How you leave da family in disz insanity? Why didnt i see u werent strong enough? You were alwaysz tough. When did it get so rough? How u take mommysz apple in her eyesz? Now she dont even kry. Now she diesz inside. Daddy caught a heart attack. How will he live w. Out hisz oldest and only son? You were da 1 who told me to stay strong. You were da one who told me it wont be long b4 u see your son. U told me me to be strong!. Where did it all go wrong for you?

Im sorry. Just know i was alwaysz worried. Damn.

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Im Sorry Part 2

Yea. Yo. Jokah. Take disz blunt. Shyt we know u been thru a lot. But itsz not lik ur not doin wachu gotta do. Shyt ur lik da only dude i knew to live up to hisz word. I kno da world getsz dark. Letsz spark. Heresz me tryin to shine a light in ur life. Thisz your year. U bring tearsz to my heart. Wen u fall apart i get broken inside. I kno u try. We see u look up 2 da sky. Some of usz dont even try. But ur a good guy. Ur son will kno u 1 day. Just stay strong. U kno she's wrong. It wont be long b4 he knowsz watsz really happening. Just keep ur son laughing. Dont make it all seem tragic. He probably innocent lik u once wasz. Dont make him go krazy. U go away now he might hate u even if u are in heaven. Nd if u believe ur gonna see it den u feel it. U kno shesz not to appealing w. All ha lil dreaming. He gonna need sum1 to lean on wen he think she doin wrong. Keep running disz marathon. Ur gonna be iight. Keep up w. Da fight. Breathe. Take ur time. Heresz a shot nd a lime. U kno itsz sour wen u bite into it, right? Datsz how it isz to live disz shyt. Bitter sweet. It kan be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare. Nd we kno ur dere. We kan see u kare. We see ur tryin to bare. We kan see u got a grasp on thingsz... Get off disz edge ur on.... Letsz take a walk... Heresz sum chalk... Remember wen u wasz young... U would count up nd do some hopsz. If U fell, U will get right baqq up. Lik life isnt dat tough. U kno u hurt for a lil den u gotta walk it off. We here to talk. Niqqa take dat rope u got around ur neck... Put it in ur handsz nd letsz tug both endsz. Whose gonna win? Test ur strength. Letsz jump rope. Ur niece gonna wanna double dutch 1 day kan u practice now for dat day? Kan u take disz asz a life lesson? Keep repenting. He doesnt resent u anymore. Ur dere now. He knowsz ur more den just Rey now. Rey. Itsz gonna be ok... Imagine him a man... Imagine wat u kan have planned for wen dat time komesz... Just keep ur head up... Just keep drownin in disz kup... Here... Itsz all ur tearsz... All ur fearsz... Remember when u thought he wouldnt love u. Dat u might not be enough... Well u were wrong... Wat about ur sister? U think she wantsz to see her bigger brother quit? Her day 1 niqqa? Ur brother might not be hittin u up kusz he probably tryin hard to get dat scholarship... Shyt be proud of him... Look at ur niece... She loves you... Remember dat hug? Damn... Rey... Jokah... Y so seriousz? Ur hilarious!. U make dey day even if u dont see it or u just seein thingsz ur way... Damn letsz take a walk again... Look at da pavement... U not dere n.emore... Look at ur room... Look at dat bed... Remember? Niqqa take it to da head!. He will neva forget u did ur best... He will neva forget.... Lik u should neva forget... Wat isz it u regret? Da past isz da past... Just continue doin wachu gotta do bro... Dont quit... Here take a sip... I kno itsz hard sumtimesz but u gotta keep pushing. Keep doin wacha doin.... We see u... We kno u... U alwaysz loved him right? So continue to fight... Shine ur light wen it getsz dark for him... U gonna leave him w. No father? Just imagine taking him on a charter. Just imagine takin him across da world.... Just keep imagining... Just keep striving... Dat time will arrive... But u need to keep surviving... Even if itsz killin u inside... Just keep thinkin about ur sonsz life... Keep dreaming!. Nd make it happen!. Make him laugh lik u alwaysz wanted... Dont stop it!. Keep crackin jokesz nd poking him... Show him... You... Dat YOU Will Alwaysz... Alwaysz Love Him....