#dont feel bad err if you do

[happyyft]

I triple dog dare you to turn into a hamster

IM GONE..

[ajearthlinggg]

exposing you based on your fav will wood/wwatt song (my longest post)

A lot of these have nothing to do with the song. They're basically headcannons lmao. My Blake Jennings is showing

No instrumental chnt except Rhumba sorry

i started this in June enjoy

EIAL

6up 5oh copout: its low hanging fruit to say you hate cops, and I'm taking it. You hate cops.

Skeleton Appreciation whatever the fuck: Covid RUINED you

Front Street: you like Heathers

Aikido!: how's that obsessiveness and inability to let go going?

White Knuckle Jerk: you also like nu metal for the same reason. (Its incredibly horny)

Cover This Song: same as Aikido but only with your exes omg do not text them they are assholes

Thermodynamic Lawyer: PLEASE take time to calm down when you get overstimulated I promise if you don't do anything abt it you will have such a terrible mental breakdown

Red Moon: YOU LISTEN TO MALE MANIPULATOR MUSIC STOP TRYING TO HIDE IT YOU CANT BE IN THE RADIOHEAD CLOSET FOREVER

Lysergide daydream: I honestly do not like this song at all so you get a pass (don't kill me)

The First Step: you're usually quiet but you know how to SCREAM.

Jimmy Mushroom: you're usually quiet but- I'm just kidding. You're always quiet

Chemical Overreaction: you're usually quiet but if- I'm just kidding. You are never quiet

Everything is a lot/dte: insomnia. I dont know why,but insomnia

Self-ish

self/ish: closet theatre kid

2012: fast talker to a not comprehendible level

Cotard Solution: turn off the v-sauce it is 2 am

Mr. Capgras: turn off the 🌽 it is 2 am

The Song With Five Names: you have incredible taste. You can't describe that taste, but hey, its incredible

Hand me my shovel: you were the only talented kid in your elementary music class

Dr. Sunshine is Dead: you love the smell of cigarettes

TNA

Suburbia overture: BPD BPD BPD BPD BPD BPD BPD BPD BPD BPD

222: your English teacher loves you (you're so goddamn gay)

Laplace's Angel: your English teacher hates you. How do I know? Because you can't pronounce anything (its la-plass-es not la-place-is)

i/me/myself: you have to beat off the fake fan allegations with a stick everyday

Wbtta: hey queen. How are those hyperfixations going

Outliars and hyppocrates: you spell the title wrong every. damn. time.

bbw: same as 2012 but holy shit triple it.

Marsha, thankk you: dyslexia and ADHD

Love, me normally: I get it. I'm not even gonna expose you. You already have it bad enough

Momento Mori: you are just SO quirky! (knives whisper things to you when you hold them)

Icimi

Tomcat Disposables: you'd shove photos of your pets in your friends faces even if they were dangling off a bridge

Becoming the last names: you either have wonderful parents in a happy relationship or your parents have been divorced for years and you will never relate to this song

Cicada Days: stop using self deprecating humor around the wrong people PLEASE

Euthanasia: this song is a masterpiece I have nothing to say about you.

Falling Up: WONDERFUL TASTE. AMAZING CHOICE. NO RECOLLECTION OF YOUR CHILDHOOD.

That's enough: you love Alex g you just don't know it yet

Um its kind of a lot: you either already love Scott pilgrim or it will happen. Its a canon event

Half decade hangover: omg twinn!! I have an addictive personality, too!

(I feel like this is a good time to say don't take these too seriously)

You liked this: ...what?

The main character: you can't relate to the song, you hate yourself

Sdrr: IF I SEE ONE MORE PERSON TAKING THIS SONG SUPER SERIOUSLY IM GONNA LOSE MY SHIT YDHZJABXV

Bfb: ur just a silly lil guy

Willard!: you're a therian. There is no human explanation to this.

white noise: you love pink floyd you just don't know it yet

Atkf: HOW TF DID I FORGET THIS ONE anyways you get bad habits (nail biting, staying up too late. Etc)

CHNT

Yes to err: you are still waiting for chnt season 2 BC you want to see what happens with Adam

Your body, my temple: I have a strong feeling you have a tummy ache right now

Venetian Blind Man: you love nobody sexually you just don't know it yet (this is a very ace choice idk why)

Rhumba of Death: you LOVE Halloween

When Somebody Needs You: Tyler the Creator is probably your favorite rapper

Live

Trww

Self/ish: You can't sleep if your room has the SLIGHTEST amount of light in it

10-4 6-up: unlike the original, you don't just hate cops, you hate anybody who can tell you what to do (your teachers are probably just trying to do their job. please)

Cotards Solution: you can't sleep without background noise

Dr Sunshine Lives!: You never get sick physically (mentally on the other hand...)

Where do you get off: omg the horniest of the horny. Gerard Way on stage levels of horny. Nine Inch Nails levels of horny. (Or you really like Umbrella Academy idk why)

Aikido: you can't relate to it. You hate everybody

Take a break grab some water this is getting long

Thermodynamic Lawyer: you have gotten kicked out of restaurants because of how loud you are

Front Street: WE GET IT. IT'S BETTER THAN THE ORIGINAL.

Wasting away again: I am so sorry holy shit

Hand me my (x), I'm (y): you suck at algebra

The First Step: you wish you could do the AUGHHHHHHHH

2012: severe social anxiety

Mr capgras: literally the opposite of 2012 (live)

Chemical Overreaction: you know so many random fun facts

Fibrodysplasia: I'm not even gonna talk about your mental issues because I will be banned from this app (which is pretty much impossible)

Icid

Cicada Days: you also get a pass fuck I'm so sorry

The main character okay you ACTUALLY can relate to it

Icimi: OMG I LOVE YOU

atkf: you cry every day even if you aren't sad

Becoming the last names: please don't become a Disney adult

Vampire ref: LISTEN TO MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE I KNOW YOU'VE BEEN PUTTING IT OFF AND IK YOU LOVE HOT VAMPIRE MUSIC

Half decade hangover: oh my god talk to somebody it'll be okay I'm so sorry

Tsw5n: you love the way he says "what the fuck"

Euthanasia: once again, ANOTHER PASS. IM SO SORRY I HOPE YOU'RE OKAY

Jimmy Mushrooms: You. Me. Marriage. Now.

Laplaces Angel: you listen to LitWTC

i/me/myself: you were trying to separate yourself from the normal i/me/myself fans

The first step: idk why but you REALLY like lemonade

skeleton appreciation day: you can NOT play any instrument

tomcat disposables: you love concept albums

White noise: unlike cotards, you need to sleep in SILENCE

Love me normally: arctic monkeys. that's all I have to say. idk what about them but, yeah

misanthrapologist: GAY QUEER LGBT HOMOSEXUAL FRUITY ZESTY ROMANTICALLY ATTRACTED TO PEOPLE OF THE SAME GENDER

Falling up: wonderful taste once again please don't become a Disney adult

thats enough let's get you home: you say "YIPPIE!!" a lot

And if I did: god made you shy because he knew if you weren't you would be unstoppable

[khoipyan]

HEY BBG!

You call them your bbg; yes, babygirl! Because why not?

gn!reader (you/your), in this context it’s implied you’re using it jokingly

characters; multi — riddle rosehearts, ace trappola, deuce spade, trey clover, leona kingscholar, ruggie bucchi, azul ashengrotto, floyd/jade leech, kalim al-asim, jamil viper, vil schoenheit, rook hunt, epel felmier, idia shroud, malleus draconia, sebek zigvolt, lilia vanrouge

notes; err i got this idea at 11:04 pm on march 31… don’t ask

He raises a brow, maybe even rolls his eyes, but honestly could not care less. Why would he? Do continue your shenanigans, but if you’re looking for his attention then you’ll have to try harder than that.

Vil Schoenheit、Leona Kingscholar、Jamil Viper

Mildly confused at the out-of-the-ordinary petname, but politely smiles at you. It’s not a bad petname and he would let you call him your babygirl, but… why specifically babygirl, exactly?

Trey Clover、Deuce Spade、Ruggie Bucchi

Mildly AMUSED at what you called him. He doesn’t care much and he lets you have your fun! Why not? It’s not like it affects him.

But on the other hand, what if he started giving you petnames? Maybe he’ll retaliate and start calling you babygirl. Or, he’ll find weird nicknames to start caling you.

Lilia Vanrouge、Floyd Leech (this mf would call you BBQ instead of BBG)、Rook Hunt、Kalim Al-Asim

“I am not a young infant. Why would you address me as such?”

And then awkwardly proceed to explain the term ‘babygirl’ to him.

Malleus Draconia、Sebek Zigvolt (kinda?)

CUT. THAT. OUT.

Riddle Rosehearts、Sebek Zigvolt (2),

DUDE. OUT OF ANYTHING TO CALL HIM. BABYGIRL? BABYGIRL??? SERIOUSLY?

Epel Felmier、Ace Trappola、Riddle Rosehearts (2)、Jamil Viper (2。Look, he may not look like it but everyday you give him internal conflict /j)

Eyes widened but suddenly they narrow, he smiles at you gently. However, it’s very menacing, almost as if you could almost feel your entire soul melt from the intense eye contact he was giving you. This room is getting hotter by the second, the guilty beads of sweat coming down your head only verifies that.

Please stop looking at me like that, I’ll refrain from calling you babygirl in public.

Jade Leech、Jamil Viper (3。you can tell through that smile that he’s annoyed w/you calling him that out loud LMAO)

‘ermnm i think i’d rather u call me your twstcord e-kitten tbh

im not srs i was jking plz dont call me thyt out loud or ill die im begging you

also u up for a match rn i could rlly use sum help’

Idia Shroud

( due to be edited at anytime )

[aeruia]

⌕. WIND BREAKER

⟳. ONE PERSON , TWO PERSONALITIES

character/s : sakura haruka , nirei akihiko , kaji ren

warning/s : mention of getting disowned in nirei’s part , idk maybe angst if u squint ..? , ooc , if i miss smth lmk :33

note : this has been in my notes for ages and i’m only posting it now.. i feel like im ghosting and then pop right back up whenever i like it anyway !!! idk if i did it right ?? i feel like i dont have this is so out of the request but err you guys judge it alr !!

꒰ the request . wbk masterlist . masterlist ꒱

sakura haruka — 758 words

you and sakura met at kotoha’s cafe, you were picking up something when you heard about a new person moved in makochi so you going into a kotoha seems like a perfect timing for you to ask who’s the new person. makochi rarely gets these kinds of things and that’s how everything circulates quickly or how people can spot the difference if they are new to the town or not.

“ kotoha!! i’m here for my weekly updates about the town! ” you delightfully call out as you swing the door open with a smile on your face, walking on to one of the stalls and sitting — not noticing someone is staring at you. “ glad you’re back, [name]! ” she said after finishing wiping the plates, walking up to the counter to talk with you.

“ heard there’s someone new in town and is going to furin high? ” you asked, excited about what she’ll tell you next. “ him. meet sakura haruka! another furin boy that’ll help you out! ” kotoha replied, as she pointed at the boy that was one stall from you.

you looked at your right seeing sakura has been looking at you for a while. “ well.. nice to meet you! ” you greeted him and smiled while sakura just looked away and started eating again.

your visits in the cafe became more frequent than before and always having she placed your drink down in front of you. you smiled before thanking her, taking a sip of the drink you ordered.

the door swing open revealing sakura and his friends. you ignored it as you continue to sip your drink when you heard sakura’s name being mentioned — turning your head at who mentioned it as you saw sakura standing there with his hands on his pockets. “ sakura! here, come! ” you called as you wave your hand at him to come and sit next to you. the split haired boy scoffed but obliged as he sat next to you with a frown on his face. his friends started murmuring as he leave him alone going into one of the tables.

you started the conversation by asking how he’s doing in furin, sakura replying short and fast but you didn't stop asking him.

six days go by yet sakura never caught a glimpse of you in the cafe. he was expecting to talk to you everyday like the two of you used to be.

sakura’s day has been tiring after walking around for hours and also helping the townsfolk. ” hi, sakura. ” you greeted with a smile while sakura is puzzled about the sudden change of greeting. your voice wasn’t loud it was just enough for him to hear.

he slowly walks towards where you’re sitting as he took his seat beside you while kotoha left the two of you as she prepared something for sakura.

sakura is puzzled why you’re dressed up like some big shot. you explained everything to sakura as he can just look at you like he’s in a daze. he has taken a liking to you and he knows it by just waiting for you to come to the cafe everyday.

fifteen minutes later, someone called out outside the cafe making you look into the door, quickly giving sakura an apologetic smile he watched you leave the cafe, seeing a man waiting for you outside as he couldn’t help but scoff.

kotoha definitely saw that as she grins, sliding the plate in front of him as she leans into the counter. “ sad, she’ll be leaving? ” she asked as if it’s not obvious enough. the boy scoffed once more as he picked up the utensil. “ guess she told you she’s getting married then? ” she asked, sakura ignoring her as he continues to eat. “ it’s an arranged marriage. ah, i’ll miss her so bad. ” she said more talking to herself.

that day, sakura quickly left and walked away from the cafe straightly going to his apartment.

he arrived faster than he anticipated. “ sakura! ” the voice was all too familiar to sakura as he looked up to see you there, running up at him which made sakura surprise. “ why are you here? ” was the first thing he asked when you two had settled down at his apartment.

“ to make a long story, short i left my home! ” you happily said with a big grin on your face. “ you’re happy about.. that? ” you nodded giving him a thumbs up. sakura sighs as he feels a small smile creep up into his lips, before he looks away as you tell him everything like a storysteller.

nirei akihiko — 401 words

he helped you reach the product you couldn’t get your hands on. you thanked him, asking if the ones he has on his basket were the things he’s planning to buy.

he refuses, you insisted on paying for it as you two go back and forth about it. in the end, nirei accepted which made you happy, taking the basket from him — walking to the cashier to pay for all of it as he followed behind.

that’s where you two became friends, making you two inseparable and hangout almost everyday.

few weeks later, nirei looked forward to catching up with you since the two of you had been busy.

he was too busy thinking of what he will say to you as the next thing he knew he bumped into someone, making him stumble a bit. “ sorry for bumping in- ” he apologizes as he looks up to see a man and woman in front of him but the woman in front of him looks like you which made him pause. “ [name]? ” he said quietly as he gazes at you and the man beside you. the man beside you elbowed you gently as he looked at you before he whispered something at you, you smiled and nodded. “ nirei, meet [man’s name], [man’s name], meet nirei. ”

the introduction was short and the three of you talked for a while before the two of you were leaving as you are running late from your family’s dinner.

the discussion in your family is over. you left without saying a word only declining the arranged marriage which will resort to your father to disown you, you and your father never got along.

cursing and kicking pebbles as you arrived at nirei’s house, knocking as you wait for a response. it took a few minutes but someone opened the door revealing the person you’re expecting to see. your mood lightened up when you saw nirei while nirei on the other hand is baffled to see you there. the duo settled on the living room as nirei grabbed food in the kitchen, eating while you told him everything.

nirei can't help but be sad as he listened to you talk about it. " besides, i like it here better. " you said to nirei grinning as he smiled back, entirely relief you won't be leaving anymore he's also fine if you will live with him for a couple of months.

kaji ren — 554 words

you met kaji ren at a candy shop as you were craving sweets that day plus the candy shop you always go to has the best candies you have ever tasted. you spotted a strawberry flavored lollipop in a lollipop stand, walking over to it as you noticed that there's only two of them left. you reached for the two lollipops yet someone was also reaching for it which you stop and just let your hand fall from your side. awkwardly standing there as you put a hand your head looking around before walking away to find another candy to buy.

" hey, wait. " a quiet voice called out making you turn into your heel as you looked at the owner of the voice. he didn't say anything and completely stretched his arm out for you to take the two lollipops that was in his hand. " huh? " tilting your head to the side. " take them, i.. i'll just look for other sweets here. " he answered, his hand still stretched out so you took one, thanking him before leaving to pay.

and that's how you met kaji ren and the unexpected friendship you made in makochi when you are just there for a small vacation. you had fun hanging out with kaji ren with some of his friends as you can't help but be sad to think that you will be leaving makochi in a few days.

the next few days, you only hang out with kaji giving him his favorite sweets or things you think he will like. kaji is certainly confuse on why are you giving him so much stuff these days. you can't keep it a secret anymore so you texted him to meet at the place you two first met, the candy shop. he arrived earlier than he expected as he waited for a minute when he saw you dressed into something formal.

" is there an occasion? " he asked, taking off his headphones making it rest into his neck as he eyed you, you shook your head only smiling at him. " long story short, i need to leave and i just wanna say goodbye before i leave. " the male felt the time froze right in front of him. he was left speechless as he just looked at you with an unreadable expression, you explained everything yet kaji can't really process everything you are telling him.

the following day, you were about to leave when you remembered kaji. you can't leave him, you don't want to leave him therefore you explained everything to your driver before running to find kaji. the driver was stunned sighing. " i'm glad i really get paid enough for this. " he said as he gets on the car before driving away to let your father know of what do you like to do.

you sneak up at the platinum blond haired boy as you poke him at his waist making him jump, turning around to look to see who it was, seeing you stand in front of him. " can't really leave you alone, who'll annoy you if i'm gone? " you explained with a pout on your lips making kaji look away with his eyebrows furrowed.

he's glad you won't leave and marry some guy you don't want to marry and you two will have more time to hang out.

date posted : 120124

[orobaxis]

Hiii! I loved your last Ominis X reader fic so much 😍 I really hope you write more!! I have a few prompts I’d love to read but feel free to pick and choose any ones you like because I’ll take any Ominis content you give 🥰

- Reader gets hurt and has to go to the hospital wing. Ominis is super worried and spends as much time as he can with them.

- Reader falls asleep on Ominis’ shoulder (or vice versa)

- Ominis getting bad dating/flirting advice from Sebastian to use on reader. Queue a facepalm from Anne and a very confused reader

- Reader comforts Ominis after he receives a particularly bad howler from his parents

- Ominis and reader each trying to build up the courage to initiate their first kiss.

these are all so sweet oml!! ! happy valentine's day everyone! thank you for all the love! <3

valentine's day chaos

ominis gaunt x reader (hogwarts legacy)

word count: 1200

prompts:

-Ominis getting bad dating/flirting advice from Sebastian to use on reader

-Reader gets hurt and has to go to the hospital wing

-Reader falls asleep on Ominis’ shoulder

and another ask: Loved your Ominis story! More pleaseee! Maybe from the prompt list: “are you really so oblivious?” I feel like that’s so very Ominis to say haha!

beware of spoilers in the comments/tags/reblogs!

ominis was doomed the moment he started to ask sebastian

unfortunately for him, he doesn't really trust anyone else for this super secret task he has appointed himself, and who else would he ask if not for his best mate sebastian? (literally anyone else)

"you want to ask y/n out on a date, do you?"

ominis tries to hide his shock, "what makes you say that?"

sebastian shrugs matter-of-factly, "well, it's valentine's day, and you've been talking about y/n all day today"

they both turn their heads to the sounds of y/n and anne laughing as they play summoner's court

"i have an idea on how you can woo y/n," sebastian suggests, and he basically sees ominis' ears twitch in interest

"well?" ominis starts, almost irritated, as he waits for sebastian, "what is it?"

sebastian smirks, "i know she will appreciate this and you will successfully woo y/n. women love grand gestures of love, y'know."

cut to charms class, all four of you are (kind of) listening to professor ronen talk about some softening charm when

BAM! the door burst open

you crane your head to see...

dwarves

three of them, wearing golden wings and carrying harps, making them resemble cupids...if not for the scowls on their faces

it may as well be goblins from the way they scowl and look around the room

you and anne exchange curious looks, wondering if professor ronen has somehow hired these dwarves, but judging from the curious look on his face as well, you doubt it

you miss sebastian elbowing ominis, an excited look on his face, and whispering, "here they are"

"y/n l/n?" one gruff dwarf calls out

you shrink next to anne, unsure of what the dwarf wants, but you have a sense that it wasn't good

professor ronen, bless him, is very confused, "um... excuse me?"

"are you y/n?"

"err, no...but--"

"y/n l/n?!" all three dwarves shout

anne pipes up, "here! she's here!" raising her hand to point at you

you try to glare at her, curious and anxious about the dwarves

one dwarf tosses you what appears to be a box of chocolates, which you almost drop, while another one clears his throat before reciting in a gruff voice

"y/n l/n, the sound of your laugh

is like my calming draught

i wish we would hug

you are a beauty and me, a lousy dugbog"

"dugbog??" ominis hisses at sebastian, who looks proud of his creation

everyone in the classroom giggles as the three dwarves try to do a pirouette and then vanish

"oh y/n," anne exclaims, "that was so..."

"sweet?" sebastian suggests

"embarrassing!" anne retorts with a laugh. behind her, you dont notice ominis turning pale (paler than he usually is already) before sending a mean elbow into sebastian's stomach (a hex too)

as the class tries to transition back to class, you see looks on their faces, excited to see what is inside the box

you open it and you see a chocolate frog

"oh," you sigh, relieved, before smiling, "this isn't so bad."

when you bite into it however, you feel your stomach turn

professor ronen and anne must have noticed how green you looked as the professor quickly produces a bag in front of you

you proceed to empty the contents of your stomach into the bag

anne frowns at this, "it's a vomiting valentine! it's a nasty thing you usually send to someone who broke your heart on valentine's day!"

"quickly, miss sallow," professor ronen instructs, "please take her to the hospital wing!"

this time, it was sebastian's turn--appearing greener than a frog.

"sallow, what have you done?" ominis hisses, "i thought you said this would work!"

"the dwarves worked, didn't they? they must have picked up a different package, she wasn't supposed to get the vomiting valentine!"

"you oaf!" the gaunt boy huffs as he and sebastian follow you and anne out of the classroom and to the hospital wing, ignoring professor ronen's shouts

-

thankfully, nurse blainey is able to solve your...valentine's malady

ominis, however, is so consumed by guilt, and in his head he just keeps regretting having asked sebastian for help

so when he and seb find you recovering in the hospital wing, he's relieved

and he decides that this should be the time to apologize

"some valentine's, huh?" you smile at them

in seb's quest to ask for ominis' forgiveness, he manages to drag his sister away from the hospital wing

you smile at them and wave, before turning to ominis, who looks stiff as a board, "ominis, are you alright?"

his voice is hard, "you got hurt."

you gesture to yourself, "this? oh it was nothing," you wave your hand to dismiss it

"no," he replies, "you got hurt...because of m- some stupid, stupid valentine's day prank. and you got embarrassed by those dwarves too."

you can see how much this is affecting ominis, so you try to reach for him, settling for his hand

you pull him closer to you, telling him to sit beside you on the bed, "i'll move over, sit here with me"

ominis hums, and sits beside you

"it's all sebastian's fault"

you turn your head to look at him, confused, "seb?"

"yes, he ordered those dwarves...they must have switched the package with the vomiting valentine"

hearing this from ominis kind of deflates you, and you unconsciously turn away from him

"oh...sebastian did those for me? does he...like me?"

ominis gapes in shock, eyebrows raising, "no! i mean...yes, he did all those...but he doesn't like you! he doesn't hate you either...i just meant--"

he sighs, "i asked him for help on what to give you for valentine's day...so this was all his idea. i thought...you'd like these grand gestures and--"

"wait," you perk up, smiling. ominis can hear the joy in your voice, "you...like me?"

now it's ominis' turn to look in your direction, head tilting in curiosity, "yes, of course. are you really so oblivious?"

you laugh, in shock, in relief, as you clutch his hand happily. "i guess i am. but even with the dwarves and the vomiting valentine, this day is still good."

"what makes you say that?"

you blush, mustering the courage to lean in and rest your head on his shoulder. he smells good, feels warm, safe. "well, because i just found out the person i like likes me back."

ominis hums happily at that, visibly relaxing.

you two don't say anything else, but you quietly relish in each other, his hands wrapped around yours

and slowly, he rests his head on top of yours, feeling your breathing becoming even

and ominis closes his eyes, taking in your scent, thinking, "yes, perhaps today wasn't so bad after all."

the twins come to check on you two in a while, and sebastian sighs in relief when they see you two resting, with your head on ominis' shoulder and his head resting on top of yours.

all's well that ends well

until...

"you won't be getting away with this, sebastian," ominis calls out.

[vancalox]

ok i have avoided talking abt my datv thoughts but now ive finished and slept on it here it is. this is huge btw and really just a way to process my thoughts for my own peace of mind. and get out what i need to say. so yeah word salad below

2 disclaimers before i start. firstly i think im going to be SUPER blunt and clear about my thoughts on this post but then i will mostly be putting the matter to bed in my heart bc i am not someone who delights in being a hater nor do i take comfort in it. i will take from this the things i enjoyed and keep my distance from the rest. second disclaimer: ultimately i think i will still enjoy being a part of the fandom and seeing other people enjoy the game, because it will endear it to me and maybe take away the pain im feeling right now, so this isnt a long rant to make you feel bad about enjoying the game if you do like it! in fact quite the opposite. it comforts me that there are people who find value in the game and i hope in watching you play it i may be able to eventually be able to say the same

that being said . obviously i didnt like the game

which is an extremely difficult thing for me to say. i went into this game thinking "i will at the VERY least enjoy the game. not love it but at least like it. but im sure ill love it". it really is quite distressing for me that it didnt even really reach that bar for the most part. i TRIED to like it. i begged this game to give me ANY handhold at all that i could cling to, to forgive and like this game. i think the things i liked err more on the technical side. the graphics i loved, the character DESIGN was *fantastic*. the art. the pacing. the vague vision of what they were obviously nebulously aiming for. and honestly, i mostly enjoyed the main plot although i wish it had been more disciplined and constrained with the lore it was trying to expand on. act 3 was fantastic and naturally i am happy and fulfilled for the most part by the conclusion of solas's story, who i still believe was and is the best written "villain" of dragon age. sorry logang and meredith nation but i do still stand by this.

but thats really about it. as a disclaimer i am not an origins puritan or a da2 diehard or anything like that. i have loved (almost equally) EVERY single iteration of dragon age which has been released. i am one of the few people who sees equal value in inquisition and origins. i love them both so deeply. i couldnt pick between them.

for me what i love the MOST about dragon age - and which every single previous game has always nailed despite other flaws - is the characters. right under that is the world's capacity for introspection. and unfortunately nothing in this game provided that for me

regarding the characters: i do not care about a single one of them unfortunately. or at least i do not CARE about them the way that i have CARED about the other previous games companions. companions i would write banter about !!! just for fun when i was bored!!!! i would say my only exception is harding, but even then i care about her only because i care about her due to inquisition. overall i just found them all so ..... shallow. and devoid of any of the conflict or nuance or ethical quandries that make biowares stories so compelling - and sure, usually controversial! i would give ANYTHING for this game to have been controversial. for a unforgivable RO, or a problematic fave, or a cancelled wife. did bioware forget that their most beloved or at least enjoyed characters are people like anders, merrill, mordin solus, blackwall, sten, loghain, SOLAS??? i dont understand HOW they could have forgotten that, because solas is literally right there in game and handled (in my opinion as a fan) well. love him or hate him or dont care about him, he is such a hallmark of great bioware writing (in dai if nothing else) - characters who are not EASY to like. characters who are not SAFE to write and who WILL generate criticism from all sides because they are written boldly and unapologetically, strengthened by a foundation of consistent ideals, clear objectives and beautiful faults. characters that do not NEED you to like them, but instead invite you to engage with them critically. solas, even to someone who hates him, is nuanced and morally complex enough to muse and fight over for 10 whole years. hes IN this game, just as ethically murky as ever, but the morally grey hallmark of biowares writing really does kind of live and die with him alone. the rest of the companions feel like they barely made it out of their concept phase. what are lucanis's flaws??? genuinely asking. other than being a murderer who exists in an organization which buys and trains literal child slaves of course, but i'll get to that in a sec (because bioware sure as fuck didnt). um, i guess you could say hes broody?? and emmrich too. what actual flaws does he have?? he has a fear of death, as we're TOLD, but it does not really reflect in the overall convesations we have with him over the course of the game. mostly hes just.... a little bumbling i guess. bellara's flaw is being a scatterbrain. harding's is that shes..... angry??? but shes not???? fucking come on. i really felt the lack of actually being able to TALK to these people at the end of act 2, when i realized i still felt like i havent really MET any of them. and yet here rook is talking about found family and being a team. ok

and then there are the romances. which from my perspective - having romanced taash - and my friends who have romanced lucanis, neve and davrin..... WHAT romances. davrin's full romance is 20 minutes in a 30 PLUS HOUR GAME. solas had the least amount of content out of any companion in inquisition and was a last minute unintentional RO and still had like easily 50 minutes of content. so why did these romances feel like nothing. actually nothing. i was so excited for taash, but their romance straight up felt like neither rook nor taash even wanted to be there. i forgot they were technically together at certain points. zero chemistry. zero intimacy. all TELLING zero SHOWING. if you had told me that i would be saying these sorts of things about a writer like trick weekes a month ago i would call you fucking crazy to your face. i cannot reconcile that taash was written by the same person who wrote solas. i cannot reconcile that mary kirby - who wrote the fucking chant of light - wrote lucanis. its so dire. its devastating actually.

lastly i want to talk about my other point - bioware's famed emphasis on introspection and ethically quandries. again, i'm genuinely experiencing a sense of profound whiplash because when it comes solas's character you can still see it. its still there. they actually doubled down on making him worse than he was in trespasser which i LOVED and thought was so incredibly promising. they could have caved to solavellan fans and uwu-ified him but they didnt. thats great.

but where was that energy for literally anything else. everything has been defanged - even minrathous, the capital of the tevinter slave trade, does not even ADDRESS the elephant in the room of slavery. and i know because i played a shadow dragon. so tell me why i as a shadow dragon am happily allied with the crows, who solely exist to assassinate politicians and BUY SLAVES. THEY BUY SLAVES. THEY BUY SLAVES AS CHILDREN AND TRAIN/TORTURE THEM TO MURDER. HELLO??????????? there is no commentary made about the mages/templars. there is no discussion of the treatment of the elves in the north or Anywhere. there is no discussion of why exactly blood magic is or isnt acceptable - they simply tell us its bad. all the theories of the last 10 years were answered with handwaved comments or bare bones codex entries that honestly stripped so much nuance away from so many things (the blight, my BELOVED) that i dont know how im going to go about fixing it or making it right in my head. the introspective nature of dragon age always went hand in hand with player choice, but there really WAS no choice in this game as so there IS no real capacity for other interpretations or schools of thought. it is so..........................bleak.

i think the thing that finally made it click in my head that this game had fundamentally let me down was the gloom howler quest. and i know im not alone on this. for those of you who dont know - the gloom howler, "isseya" was the protagonist of the dragon age novel "the last flight". i would HIGHLY recommend you read it, especially if you're an origins fan. super bleak, super political, not flashy at all in terms of magic. it was set 500 years pre origins, during the 3rd blight. isseya is very similar to characters like loghain and solas in a way - a richly complex, beautifully intricate, terribly thought provoking character who did HORRIFIC things for the most NOBLE reason you could imagine, under the most traumatic of circumstances. im tearing up just thinking about her story, and how the title "the LAST flight" foreshadowed that her story had a definitive, bittersweet, finite and peaceful ending.

and then this game did THAT to her. turned her into a grotesque caricature of what she was. stripping her of her nuance and her capacity for atonement or forgiveness. and once again, i do not fucking get it. she was obviously brought back because she is a parallel to the solas dilemma. so WHY is she not afforded the same opportunity for empathy that he is. why is bellara's brother not either. its insane. its literally insane. i cannot begin to imagine the oversight or laziness or WHATEVER IT WAS that occured to have this game turn out this way.

there are innumerable other problems with the game that im not going to get into because what ive said above is the main crux of my problem. introspective and character. those are all i really wanted from this game, and like..... i thought we would get that. because the game centered around solas. and i know people dislike his fans for very fair reasons, but i hope those who know me know that i enjoy him not because hes hot (he is though) but because he is terrible. i love him because they made a character who was TERRIBLE, and then gave you the task of using your head and refelcting on your own morality and values and deciding and arguing and meditating over whether he is worth loving anyway. to me, solas is the person i point to when i want to describe why i love dragon age. its complicated, its nuanced, it is terrible and wonderful and everything in between depending on the angle you look at it from. and so having the writer of a character like THAT in charge of the whole game filled me with hope and dissuaded so many of my fears for this game. but i was wrong apparently.

so now im left with a feeling akin to survivors guilt. genuinely. because at the VERY least, despite me saying all of these negative things, i at least finished the game crying happy tears and being overjoyed that my favourite character was handled well and got an ending i enjoyed. and yet that happiness *i* got to feel and that glimmer of good writing was paid for at the expense of literally everything else. i feel almost personally responsible in a way, which sucks. im sorry to all the people who did not enjoy or care about solas, im sorry that you really did get nothing out of this game. i hope we can all be comforted by the trilogy we have and will always have, and i hope we can all take what good parts we enjoyed out of veilguard and make peace with the rest

leaving this youtube comment my friend sent me which is unfortunately a summary of how i feel about the game as a whole.

[actualbird]

/ spoilers and thoughts for luke's 4th bday card, SSR Journey Beyond + some deranged theorizing

i really liked this card story!! it was a refreshing novelty from most of the other luke SSRs released this year which tended to err on the side of "sickeningly sweet and romantic but not really telling much of a story" because this card story was different, it actually had a PLOT. WITH STAKES. WITH A BIG BAD VILLAIN FROM 2 YEARS AGO (SSR Dark Swirl) WANTING TO TAKE REVENGE ON AGENT RAVEN. i was very hooked, i found the entire conflict between Bright and Luke (and Rosa) interesting and entertaining, this story actually had me invested in what would happen next (which i havent felt for a while, with recent luke cards). i found that the flashbacks to the past were very valuable too, and my heart all but broke upon learning how Luke and Rosa missed each other all those years ago because they were BOTH yearning idiots who went to visit the other in their respective cities. IDIOTS. THEY DESERVE EACH OTHER.

all that said though, the thing from this card that ended up sticking in my mind the most though was the memory Professor Carlson shared where Luke told him he was giving up his studies and his position in Professor's Carlson's research group to join the NSB

because

what

i talked about this with Chika @khickuwa last night and we both agree that Luke's sudden desire to join the NSB looked like it came out of nowhere. of course, we know the backstory that he crossed paths with the NSB due to that transnational case that he got caught up in, but like thats one thing to be Aware of them. it's a completely other thing for Luke to sound so genuinely excited to join the NSB, to say that it's his dream, to sacrifice his prestigious position at the research group, to give up his studies in a field of study he'd excelled in for years. thats....a lot to sacrifice. why would he do this?

this card makes me desperately want more lore about the specificities of that transnational case Luke got caught up in, it makes me want to see the exact scene where the NSB interacted with Luke because like

holy shit, what did the NSB say or offer to Luke to make Luke literally shift gears on his entire life so definitively? did they appeal to Luke's deep seated sense of heroism, is that all it took? possibly, but if im to put on my Theory Goggles for a moment, this all gives me the feeling that like...the NSB wanted Luke specifically.

when the NSB found Luke, he was nothing but a particularly bright college student, but thats nothing out of the ordinary, there are tons of bright college students out there. so why did they extend recruitment to Luke specifically? perhaps because the circumstances of the death of Luke's parents has more to it than meets the eye, perhaps they were connected to something the NSB was investigating. i dont have any theories for what exactly they got caught up in, but i do know that if like....if the NSB had information on the death of Luke's parents...

that sure as hell would be one damn good hook and bait for Luke to bite onto

the NSB: there's more to your parents' death. if you join us, maybe you might be able to learn more about what happened and uncover the mystery---

Luke, before they even finish speaking: here's my application

while this is all just a theory, it's somewhat supported by an AU card, SSR Dreamlike Drama. in that story, Luke's parents were killed and he spent his life tracking down the perpetrators so he could enact revenge. as much as Luke in the present likes to say that hes Over It, he still misses and loves his parents (as is evidenced greatly in SSR Burning Reminiscence) and them being a trigger for him to change the trajectory of his life is still within the realm of possibility

this whole post is all over the place but my general conclusion is that like......Luke's life is so much more complicated than it originally appears. whether it's his later ties to the NXX substance due to his condition, or the possibility that his parents were connected to it when he was still a small child, it's like....i enjoy thinking about AUs where Luke lives a normal life, but man, it seems like he's almost destined to end up in this web no matter what he does.

[jennywritesz]

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au where tsukishima is a scientist at college and you're his apprentice

740 words

warnings: none + slow burn

chap 1/ ??

Kei Tsukishima, a senior at college– a biologist with an aura of mystery, stepped into the laboratory with dread. Today marked the first encounter with his new apprentice, a moment he awaited with equal parts curiosity and annoyance. The thought of him having someone watch his every move made his skin crawl. As he adjusted his glasses, his eyes had a hint of mischief, already concocting a string of remarks to test the limits of his so-called apprentice. 

In the corner of the lab, amidst humming machinery and arrays of equipment, stood the young apprentice, (y/n). She obviously had determination, her eyes gleaming in an intellectual frenzy. Your presence was a stark contrast to Dr. Tsukishima's sternness, yet there was a hint of shared intellect that was possibly the start of a great partnership. 

“You must be Miss (y/n) I presume?” His voice cutting through the quiet laboratory hum. 

You nodded, offering a wide grin. “Yes, Tsukishima, it’s such an honor to work for you.” 

He turned around and went back to work, motioning for you to come observe. You stood on your tippy toes trying to get the best possible angle, he took notice of this. You sighed in annoyance.

“Too short to see the table?” He grinned to himself. You felt your face heating up with embarrassment. You slightly nodded, feeling all your pride leave your body. In this instance you didnt think height would be such an important factor, but considering he was doing a presicion experiment and he had to have the table basically up to his chest– height was a major factor.

He would never admit this out loud but, he thought it was kind of cute. Maybe this apprenticeship would work out. You had heard plenty of stories from past colleauges about how mean and rude he was, but you didnt think it to be true.

“That must suck.” He snickered. 

You thought wrong.

“I see why people call you so salty.” you remarked back.

They dont call him salty, you just felt the need to say that.

“Salty?” He glared down at you, you forgot how scary he was.

You said nothing in response, just stared at him in defiance. 

“Cat mustve gotten your tongue.” He looked away and continued his experiment, lowering the table so you could see. Maybe he wasnt so bad after all. 

You never really had gotten to know him. You had just heard stories and seen him in pass you in the hallway. Even then he didnt seem so bad. He always had this mysterious allure that made him sort of attractive, your friends never even bothered to hear you out; they wouldnt get it. You always watched him from afar, and now youre working for him, it feels kind of weird to be working for someone thats only a year older than you– he was good at what he does though.

“Are you even listening to me?” he scoffed in disbelief. This snapped you out of your trance.

“Of course im listening! Why wouldnt I be.” you rolled your eyes. You werent listening, but you cant let him know that.

“Oh really..” he paused. “Well then, I want an essay on how beneficial each finger is to the body. Turned in tomorrow.” 

Your jaw dropped. Who does he think he is? Some teacher?!

“Err.. of course.” your voice had an underlying tone of disapproval.

He took his goggles off and lowered the table completely.

“Help me clean this up.” he ordered.

You didnt realize you had spaced out that entire procedure. What kind of apprentice are you. Clearly a lousy one. 

As you finished cleaning everything up, you noticed Tsukishima struggling to wrap a bandage around his hand. You wondered what happened to him. You didnt realize it, but you were staring at him pretty intensely. 

“I cut my hand on the door handle yesterday, they finally fixed it after that.” He said with a straight face, that almost convinced you to hold his face.

“Do you need help with the bandage?” Your eyes widened at your own response. What came over you?

“Ill be fine.” he said back with a monotone voice.

Your face flushed with embarrassment, again. How many times can one embarras themself? 

“You can go now.” That was his way of saying leave now.

You took off your lab coat and grabbed your regular jacket and headed out for the night. 

[davidchiemcore]

transcript for DRDT Prologue Episode One! going to make this a series where i (hopefully) write down all the dialogue for drdt, if i dont get burnt out. at the end, ill post a google doc with them all together

???: ……

???: Fuck!!

???: Fuck, fuck, fuck, this really hurts…

???: Ouch, I really wasn’t expecting her to attack me like that.

???: I made a massive mistake to trust them. I can’t rely on anyone.

???: All by myself, I have to end the killing game.

???: And even if I can’t do that…

???: I have to kill Teruko Tawaki.

???: No matter what.

Prologue: Distrust and Despair

Teruko: …I had a weird dream.

Teruko: Huh? Where am I?

Teruko: When I opened my eyes, I found myself resting on a bed in an unfamiliar place.

Teruko: This looks like some sort of hotel room.

Teruko: Wait, how did I even get here? I have no recollection of coming here.

Teruko: The last thing I remember was–

Teruko: Ah! I was going to the entrance ceremony of Hope’s Peak Academy!

Teruko: But this doesn’t look like Hope’s Peak at all, much less any sort of school. Just what is going on?

Teruko: …

Teruko: No use staying here, I suppose. I think it would be best if I left this room and tried to find out more about this place.

Teruko: I stepped out of the room and found myself in a hall with 15 other doors exactly like the one I left.

Teruko: Do all these doors lead to rooms like the one I just left?

Teruko: They all have nameplates on them. The one I came out of has my name.

Teruko: Teruko Tawaki… That’s me.

Teruko: I don’t recognize any of these other names, though.

Teruko: I tried each door. They were all locked. Seems I’m also locked out of the room I just left.

Teruko: No good, I guess.

Teruko: I should keep exploring.

Teruko: AH!!

Teruko: I walked to the end of the hallway and rounded the corner, when suddenly–

Xander: AUGH!!

Teruko: *CRASH*

Teruko: I crashed into another person pretty roughly, knocking us both to the ground.

Teruko: O–ouch! That really hurt…

Xander: …

Teruko: Are you alright? Sorry for knocking you over like that.

Xander: …

Teruko: Ah-! You’re bleeding! Are you okay?

Xander: Oh. Yup. I’m fine…

Xander: Heh heh……

Teruko: E–eh??

Teruko: All of a sudden, he collapsed.

Teruko: Um–Hello??

Teruko: No use… He’s unconscious.

Teruko: …

Teruko: I can’t believe I accidentally knocked someone unconscious within minutes of being awake. I feel bad…

Teruko: I should find something to treat him with. Maybe there’s a medical room around here.

Teruko: After a little bit of searching, I stumbled upon what looked to be an infirmary.

Teruko: Let’s see. There’s bandages, gauze, various medicines–perhaps some ibuprofen?

Xander: Yeah, that would sound pretty nice.

Teruko: Alright, I see–

Teruko: Wha–AH!

Xander: Oh, sorry, did I scare you? I didn’t mean to sneak up on you like that, really!

Teruko: Y-you! Were you just pretending to be unconscious??

Xander: Err, no. You did actually knock me unconscious. Well, I’m fine now.

Teruko: Oh. And, your eye…

Xander: Like I said, I’m fine now. Don’t worry about it.

Teruko: Are you sure? You were bleeding; that doesn’t seem like an injury to brush off.

Xander: Like I said!! Totally fine! I’m a tough guy, I can handle it.

Teruko: I’m still really sorry, uhm… uh, what’s your name?

Xander: Oh! Ack, how rude of me! I forgot to introduce myself. I’m making a terrible first impression.

Xander: Alriiight! The name’s Alexander Matthews. But you can just call me Xander, it’s much cooler sounding. I’m the Ultimate Rebel, nice to meet you!

Ultimate Rebel - Xander Matthews

Teruko: Ultimate?

Xander: You must have heard of Hope’s Peak Academy, right? An exclusive school that only accepts students, known as Ultimates, who possess extraordinary talents.

Xander: It just so happens that I’ve been accepted there! Pretty incredible, huh?

Teruko: Ah,you’re a freshman of Hope’s Peak? I am too. We might be classmates.

Teruko: I should introduce myself as well. I am Teruko Tawaki, the Ultimate Lucky Student.

Ultimate Lucky Student - Teruko Tawaki

Xander: So you’re the Lucky Student, huh, Ms. Teruko? You’re the one who’s got accepted by the lottery.

Teruko: Oh, right. That’s correct.

Teruko: Unlike the rest of the students of Hope’s Peak, my talent of luck is a little unconventional, so I hope you won’t find it too strange.

Xander: Strange? Why would I find it strange?

Xander: Everyone who’s got accepted into Hope’s Peak is given an incredible opportunity to build their own skills and talents so that they can later shape the world!

Xander: Even if you were selected by lottery, not scouted like normal students, you still have got just as much potential as every other Ultimate to develop into an even more amazing person!

Xander: As you know, everyone who graduates from Hope’s Peak goes on to become incredibly influential and important. That’s why being an Ultimate, no matter what kind, is a huge deal!

Teruko: I’m well aware of that. It’s just that… for me, it’s more than just lacking a talent.

Teruko: I’m cursed, you see.

Xander: …Cursed?

Teruko: Cursed with horrible luck.

Teruko: No matter what I do, I always become victim to misfortunes and accidents. I often fall or break things, or worse, injure myself. So do those around me.

Teruko: No doubt, your recent injury is probably as a result of the influence of this curse.

Xander: I see, that makes a bit of sense. It must be difficult living like that, I’m sorry to hear that.

Xander: And yet, despite that, you’ve still been selected to be the Ultimate Lucky Student. Maybe it was some twist of fate.

Xander: Even misfortune can be overcome or adapted, so I would take the fact that you’re here at this academy as a good sign! So, don’t give up hope!

Teruko: Ahaha… Aren’t you full of energy.

Teruko: By the way, just what kind of talent is “Rebel?”

Xander: Oh, are we discussing my talent now?

Xander: To be frank, I’m actually sort of pissed at the Academy for having given me this title. Calling me a “rebel” just makes me seem like some sort of unruly, lawless kid, which I am *definitely* not!

Xander: It's almost an insult to all the hard work I’ve put in throughout my life!

Teruko: Hard work put into what?

Xander: Revolution.

Xander: Simply put, I’m the sort of person who feels very strongly about everything. So whenever I see something that feels wrong to me, something unjust, I’ll do whatever I can to fix it.

Xander: For example, exposing corruption. I’ve got quite a number of corrupt government officials jailed. Society is messed up, and it’s up to me to change it.

Xander: Of course, in order to make any sort of impactful change in this world, you need to break the existing rules. That’s what got me the title of Ultimate Rebel, I suppose.

Teruko: Wow, I’m not quite sure what to think of all that.

Teruko: Or even if I can believe the things you just said.

Xander: Hey! You better not be accusing me of lying!

Teruko: But at the very least you seem to be very passionate and energetic.

Teruko: Moving on… Do you know anything about this place? I seem to have woken up here without knowing how I came here. And I was supposed to be going to the entrance ceremony of Hope’s Peak.

Xander: I was just about to ask you the same thing!

Xander: Have we both got kidnapped, or something?! If that’s the case, I’ll be pretty pissed at whoever’s responsible.

Xander: Err, sorry for getting worked up again.

Xander: But yeah, it looks like we’re in the same situation. Woke up in a mysterious room without knowing how we got here.

Teruko: What a perplexing situation…

Xander: No use just standing here. I’ve got an idea. We should look around, see if there’s an explanation somewhere. At the very least we can examine our surroundings for clues.

Teruko: Right. We may find something new.

Teruko: These large doors are conspicuous. We should check inside.

Xander: Fine by me!

Teruko: Xander kicks the door open forcefully.

Teruko: You could have just…

Teruko: Used… the… han..dle…

Teruko: Eh?

Teruko: We found ourselves in a large room full of chairs and a large, ominous screen at the back. But more importantly…

Xander: There’s other people here?!

Teruko: 14 other people stood in front of Xander and me.

David: Ah, have more people arrived?

Ace: Maybe they’re our fucking kidnappers! We should ask ‘em a few questions!

Arei: Are you two freshmen of Hope’s Peak Academy as well?

Xander: We are. Is this our class?

Whit: Whoa, new people. You guys got any idea what’s going on?

Charles: Don’t be ridiculous. I sincerely doubt that these two can bring any new information to the table on our situation.

Teruko: So, it seems our whole class is here.

Xander: Just what is going on? Have the rest of you blacked out when you were entering the Academy?

Levi: Yes, that happened to the rest of us as well. Our situation is awfully strange.

Veronika: Maybe the Academy is trying to surprise us! Wouldn’t that be fun?

Hu: If you two are in fact our classmates, why don’t you introduce yourselves?

Hu: I know this situation isn’t ideal, but at the very least we should be acquainted with each other before we try and figure out what’s going on.

Teruko: Ehm, introduce myself? In front of all of you?

Teruko: Wouldn’t it be better if I just talked to you individually?

Eden: That’s okay, then introduce yourselves to us one by one.

Charles: Excellent, another 10 minutes of time wasting. Why don’t you two take your time blabbering about insignificant things, it’s not like we’re in a potentially life-threatening situation.

Teruko: …Yeesh.

Xander: Hey!

Xander: Let’s talk to everyone together. That way we’ll both be way less nervous if we’ve got a friend by our side.

Teruko: …

Teruko: Thank you, Xander.

[freakroth]

Young love [Chapter 6]

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Err sorry this took like 4 months to make

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"I'm sorry about what happened with you and chuuya.."  i say quietly and look at him. I feel as if everything that happened between them was my fult. 'i shouldn't have joined that drinking game.. maybe then we wouldn't be in this situation' i think while putting my hand on dazai's shoulder as a way to try and comfort him. 

"It isn't your fult.. its mine.. you got dragged into this because of me" I see him look down at his lap seeming like he was thinking about something. "is something wrong...?" i ask him quietly and i hear him sigh slightly, "...I've just been feeling quite down.. since what happened between me and chuuya... and that i miss my dad.." He mumbles under his breath and i can hear that hes trying not to cry in front of me. "..Your dad.? what happened to him? if you dont midn me asking" I sit down next to him while keeping a small distance from him. It takes a while before he actually says something "..He.. He died.. when i was 18.."

I just sit there in silence since i'm a bit shocked, i didn't expect him to tell me his dad fucking died!? I thought he was gonna say something like "My dad and i stoped talking because of a big fight we had!" Or something like that! "..oh.. thats terrible.." is the only thing i say before i just shut up and try to figure out what to say next, 'WHAT THE FUCK AM I GONNA SAY?? I'VE NEVER COMFORTED SOMEONE WHOSE DAD DIED' i panic a bit on the inside.

"..I.. uhh.. would.. you like a hug?" I open my arms slightly and i see him look at me for a bit, before hesitantly moving closer to me until we are actually hugging. "..just know you can talk to me about anything you want.. i may not be the best person to comfort someone but i will try my best" i say nervously while patting his back. I hear him chuckle at my bad attempt at comforting him. 

For a while me and Dazai just sit there talking about stuff like school and other things that have happened in the pest few months. "who do you think made up the rumor about us hooking up in the bathroom?" i suddenly ask him and he goes quiet. after a few seconds he opens his mouth to answer "If i'm honest, i have no idea, i don't really know anyone who would do that. Like, there are some petty bitches here but i'm pretty sure no one would be that petty to do that, and we don't really have any enemies i would say" He says and looks at me, "or? have you made any enemies?" i look at him and shake my head, "no, i can't recall becoming enemies with anyone, and if i'm honest i haven't really talked to anyone other then you, chuuya, our next door neighbors and like 4 other people" 

While me and Dazai talk about the rumor, we hear Chuuya walk out of his bedroom to go to the bathroom and we both quiet down. "...I wasn't expecting to see him up this late.." I whisper under my breath and get up to go to my room. "I'll go to bed now so i don't have to bother with Chuuya if he wants to pick a fight" i say to Dazai and he just nods. 

When i get into the room i kick some clothes out of the way and walk over to my bed, 'My parents would kill me if they saw this mess' i think while throwing my shirt onto the pile of clothes. I quickly puff up my pillow and lay down in my bed while pulling the blanket over me. While trying to fall asleep i listen to the rain drops hitting the window quietly. I toss and turn for a bit before i find a comfortable position to lay in. 

After some time i just take my phone to scroll on it for a bit since i can't sleep, and while on instagram i see someone commented "Fucking homewrecking whore" on one of my posts. "..bitch.. you look like monkey with a birth defect.." i mumble while insulting the person back. 

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This chapter is a lot shorter then the other ones since i got lazy(again) also sorry for no new chapters since february 💀 Anywasy there might one more chapter coming but idk yet, i'm on summer break so i have more time now. sorry for any spelling mistakes if there are any!

[bizzybomba]

Log 0.1, DIY medical procedures

Tw for implied self mutilation, gore, medical procedures, and face trauma/wounds

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Everythibg is so groggy right now im havign a hard time typing... A few hours ago I thibk I I mustve fallen or somethin or or hit my head- bleeding a lot- roommate says we cabt afford hospital and ER is four houbrs away migth die not sure

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My roommate got the bleeding to stop- I feel a lot better now but still super light headed- I dont think I lost too much blood cause I'm still alive but definitely enough to warrant at least four layers of bandages- I haven't seen my face yet- well not without the bandages- idk how bad it is

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It's been a few weeks- I finally took the bandages off- it's bad. Really bad- my roommates been changing the bandages for me but she's not home right now so I needed to do it myself- it looks like someone took sandpaper to the whole left side of my face and then cheese grated it... It burns a lot so I think now's a good time to put my basic medical knowledge to use and disinfect it, then I'll probably need to cut out any rotten flesh I can find- if there is any- this might take a while

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I cleaned out my face then rubbed it down with alcohol wipes- hurt like a bitch but I managed! I also managed to soak that side of my face in warm salt water I made and OH BOY WHEN I TELL YOU I CRIED LIKE A BITCH! but the point is my face is clean now- I also managed to pry my left eyelid open- I can't see out of that eye go fucking figure- it's all gross and milky white so chances are I'll need to get rid of it too- updates soon! I hope

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Okay I've been freshening up on my understanding of human anatomy, looked at some papers and watched lots of videos! I did this so I know what I'm doing when I try to pry my eye out so it doesn't get infected- updates soon!

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[aby55-of-the-ab5o1ute]

Code And Bones HeadCanons #1

Manor B was actually pretty loud and rambunctious. they often ended up injured or having broke stuff. The Elliotts were very angry with them for that.

Manor R often stuck to being around Tessa or N, though sometimes got stuck with Cyn. She was still very anxious back then but tried to play it off more.

Manor B and R never really got to meet eachother since they occupied different sections of the manor.

Cantor has bandages around his torso since his original idea to look like a DD was to remove his core and shove it into a different body. He decided against it mid-way though and just.. kinda slapped bandages on. If you were remove it you could see parts their core showing through.

Cantor is able to see perfectly fine out of their double eye!

Cantor is surprisingly good with kids when not in "solver mode". They actually DONT KIDNAP THE CHILDREN, and dont let them do anything too dangerous. Cantor has been placed in charge of kids before, and while they dont enjoy it the most they arent bad at it.

R's wings are not functional due to them being constantly used to shield to the point of rust, burn, and parts falling off.

B's wings are more bee like and are functional!

R's tail was accidentally ripped off by J, who tried to pull in R to use as a shield for her but accidentally ripped their tail off instead.

Cantor suffers from nightmares and sometimes isnt able to tell if he woke up or not, leading them to do dumb shit.

Cantor LOVES "weird/gross" flowers and carnivorous flowers. "Corpse Flower? OH FUCK YEAH GIVE IT TO MEEEEE". They do NOT care if others find it gross.

While sometimes N cant hang out with Thad and Cantor (Thats like almost never but it does sometimes happen), he makes it a point to ALWAYS drop off baked goods for them. every single week or so.

N and Thad have keys to Cantor's lab, and sometimes go in to talk to them, get them to touch err.. snow, or make sure they arent dead.

Thad has a custom skateboard Cantor made for him, at first it did almost kill Thad a few times but now Thad has gotten a hang of it and can make others eat his dust!

Cantor got.. a little silly and tampered with N's headlight sensor thingies, so now their blue. Doesn't effect N at all, it just got a few weird glances when the others first noticed.

If sleeping in the same bed, N, Thad, and Cantor will sleep in a VERY specific way. Thad and N cuddling together, and then Cantor barging in and jumping on both of them, laying across both of them.

Thad has tried to dye his hair before but it looks absolutely awful when he does it lol.

Thad wakes up with a more raspy voice (which often gets N and Cantor flustered).

N snores in his sleep.. very loudly… if he goes to sleep first most other people wont be able to sleep after.

Uzi and R have caused fires in the kitchen before, they just get a bit distracted!

Uzi has gotten R into nightcore and now sometimes R will play nightcore songs when doing stuff.

When Khan first found out about Uzi dating a Disassembly Drone he kinda.. freaked out a tiny bit.. but Nori freak out a LOT. The two warmed up to R though since she was always polite.

Whenever R comes over to Uzi's home she always does chores. She doesnt have to, in fact Uzi tries to get her not to, but she feels bad for being there and feels she has to make up somehow.

Uzi has bracelet making kits and sometimes makes bracelets with Thad.

Uzi has a playlist of music specifically for when R comes over since R gets overstimulated by some louder types of music.

R has picked up on Uzi's "bite me!" and has started using it a bit.

Uzi often calls R "butterfly" or "shyfly".

J loves whenever B does her little buzzing thing whenever she's relaxed. Sometimes J will just lay on B and listen to the vibrations.

J is one of the only people who can actually touch B's wings. B doesn't like most people touching her wings since they're somewhat fragile and sensitive.

Whenever B does J's hair for her, her hair somehow always is way fluffier than normal.

Sometimes when B is tired or half asleep, she'll nuzzle her face against J.

B tries her best to get J to relax whenever she overworks herself, she hates how J sometimes visits and is clearly about to pass out.

B sometimes awakens to J having sent her like 20 links to things she think B would like.

J and B are busy and have opposite sleep cycles so they don't get to be together too often, which upsets them, but they make sure to at least set aside one day per week to hang out.

J finds peace in organizing stuff, its calming to her.

J had a custom NON JCJenson pen made for her by Cantor, it can change to basically any color, and is very nice to click.

J's hair is actually incredibly long and fluffy, but she doesn't take the best care of her hair so she often just shoves it into pigtails. B tries her best to fix it whenever she can though, and sometimes J can be spotted with her hair down whenever B recently helped out with it.

J has a whole entire bow collection, and she sometimes wears yellow bows instead of her usual black (especially when visiting B, the yellow reminds her of honey so.. yeah :3).

[vampykween]

HI MICCC :3 hope you are well!! i’ve been brainrotting about ur singledad!simon and here’s a list of scenarios nd thoughts that’s been plaguing my mind

what if poppy got into a fight at school? the fight was short because you pulled them apart almost instantly - but she still got her hair pulled and a scratch on her cheek, and poppy knows from simon that fighting isn’t the best option, but when simon answers your call and hears poppy’s crying in the background, how would he react!!

the way kids like to overshare and have no filter, i can see poppy casually telling you stuff like “yeah my daddy has no friends” or “daddy doesn’t talk much”.. and then when simon comes to pick her up, maybe you two have a small convo and you accidentally slip up and mention what poppy’s told you about him.. then he looks and poppy and you like 🤨what else did you hear..

Oklfldldg how does simon do father daughter nights! is he the type to play competitively in games with her or does he always let her win? does he like taking her out to eat or does he prefer cooking at home :3

AAAA okay last one i promise:3 how do the other kids react to poppy’s behemoth of a dad? are they scared? do they think he’s a mafia boss of some sort? or do they find him incredibly awesome and think he’s a giant from those action movies

(ofc u don’t have to do all of them if u don’t want to OR if u don’t want to spoil anything for the series, just some thoughts! take ur time<3)

hi bby! i am very well right now actually and this made things even better, i could kiss your brain truly mwah <3

i will be saving these ideas because this gave me much needed inspiration and motivation for this series. also sorry if i didnt go as in depth with these, but the longer they sat in my drafts i realized i was never going to remember to finish oops! also i hope you dont mind i will be stealing the oversharing poppy idea if fits perfectly with what i have going for part 3 hehe

✴︎ I feel like simon would be fuming, at whom he’s not even sure. I imagine that some kid said something rude and snarky to her and she couldn’t take it anymore and popped on them, and you’re shocked because poppy is normally such a sweet little girl. Simon would definitely hug poppy close because seeing his baby hurt cuts like a knife, takes her out for ice cream and then chides her because omg! has she lost her mind fighting at school, but also he’s a tiny bit proud she’s a fighter like him. 

✴︎No because Poppy would most definitely do this, in her head she’s just rattling off mundane things about her father, but you’re sporting a frown because there’s a tiny part of you that hates the idea of Simon being alone with just poppy. Not that it’s any of your business though (you would definitely have to remind yourself of that).

Simon is groaning at his daughter’s perceptive nature and how willing she is to share every thought she has. When you waved him over to where you were during school pick up, Simon was praying something bad hadn't happened.  “Mr. Riley, err Simon, sorry.” you correct yourself quickly at the raised eyebrow look he gives you. “Is everything okay… like at home?” you’re mentally face palming at the way you blurted out the very intrusive question. You sense his shock by the question by the almost imperceptible widening of his eyes. “Why-” he looks down at Poppy who’s swinging her tiny hand in his, not paying any attention to the conversation you two are having, “What did she say to you?” You wring your hands nervously, the older man’s deadpan stare makes  you feel like you’re in trouble for some reason. “Poppy mentioned to me that you don't have any friends or talk much to anybody. I don't mean to pry, really I swear. Kids will tell you anything, i'm sure you know. After what happened with the family tree thing and-” You're cut off by Simon’s large hand settling on your shoulder, clearly an attempt to calm you down and halt your rambling, but it has the opposite effect and all you can think about is how enormous his hands are and the weight of it grasping you.  “No need to apologize, Poppy talks my ear off about you. I’d be surprised if she didn’t talk to you about things. And you don't need to worry about me, luv. Im fine being alone, i've got my little petal and that’s enough f’me.” There’s an aura of wistfulness in his words, that makes you want to push him for a more truthful answer, but you chide yourself at your thoughts. You barely know this man. Whatever longing you think is in his voice may as well be a projection of your own sadness; a failed long term relationship will do that to a person. 

✴︎Definitely loves to play games but does not let Poppy win because he wants her to learn how to lose and be okay with it. (You would applaud this btw, this is every teachers’ dream. Trust me on that). Their father-daughter nights also will be movie nights with as many sweets as poppy desires because Simon won't bend to anything but her little puppy dog eyes. I feel like even though he’s not the best cook ever Simon would go out of his way to cook Poppy’s favorites for her. Especially like on a saturday morning and wakes her up with breakfast in bed because why not spoil his little girl if he can. 

✴︎I think it's a mix of both really. I imagine Poppy goes to some nice fancy school because why not lol. And some of Poppy's classmates have snooty rich parents who turn their noses up at Simon so their kids are kinda wary of him too. I think Poppy would hype up her dad so much at recess time. Telling stories of how he used to be a ‘super cool soldier’ and all the other kids would be staring in awe like omg your dad is so cool, my dad just does people’s taxes lol.

[okkramapokja]

man the world kinda hates me today

i woke up from a p long nap just 10 minutes ago because i was forced to go pick up the food we ordered downstairs. i just grabbed the first jacket i saw and went down, didnt even check to see if i looked okay. i was waiting for the elevator when i heard some foot steps coming from the opposite row of apartments so im like err i really dont feel like talking to anyone right now i hope they dont come in with me (its been a long day ok!) and blah blah. the door opens, i go in, they go in ahhhh. its a middle aged couple. he says hi and asks me how i am. i lowkey paused for a second bc the gears were srsly turning in my head like is this actually happening right now and then i finally said 'good'. i really hated myself in that moment bc the polite thing to do would be ask him how he is after right but i was still pretty dazed so i did not!! anyway he asks me if i just moved in and by that point ive somewhat woken up and got myself together and say nope. then he asks me when i moved in and i said a few years ago to which he replies with oh wow thats a long time ago, why hasnt he seen me till now. i laughed a little bit and smiled while i walked out and i think i heard him say see you again but i dont remember. i am super duper duper annoyed i wasnt a very good conversation so i really do pray we meet again in the near future. ive never met them before but they seem really friendly so i totally wanna get to know them. i hope my demeanor wasnt too bad theyd turn away or anything hahhahaha 😬😬. i know i wasnt rude but i really had little to no life in my responses guys!!! anyway after that i was going up and my card wouldnt freaking work so i had to follow this lady up to the 15th floor and all the way back down to mine so yahoo!

[lizaluvsthis]

I heard you were on the past gacha era (is it gacha life?) How did you experience the things there?

The gacha era was uhh... err... was uhhh...

Gacha was quite- a habit of old me for making cringe contents... and ehh... making things interesting more as of... depressing- 🥲

I grew out of that phase- I left the community after seeing how badly driven it went to the point it got too toxic I am NEVER going back there again-

But for other appropriate contents, I do love how Gacha is getting used by alot of people to make good and creative stuffs. (I could almost feel the pain where people animated in gacha life 2, the twinning- i cannot...)

Gacha is well- a fun roleplay game and designing cute chibi characters-

And no I do not find Gacha CRINGE just by automatically seeing it, there are one of those cringe contents of gacha where they put a maiddress kawaii owo boy who'd be saying "dance if you hate me" and well- I honestly feel so bad for that person who created this because they need therapy-

(/contents are made in satire dont take it srsly)

THE FOLLOWING IMAGES YOU SEE BELONG TO MY OLDEST VIDEOS- yes. I have them in my old yt channel and it was... well- i dont know what i was doing with my life at that time but I was CRINGE

[dandyshucks]

i feel like i should say something, some kind of apology or smth, idk ^^;;

i would looove to say that i won't display symptoms ever again or that i'll "do better" to keep it under control but honest to god i am doing my absolute best already, and the only way i could do better w my current state is to get medicated but that's not an option rn (this small town only has one psychiatrist and he's ... not good at what he does. sigh). i will of course continue to try very hard and keep working on things the way that i can and look for new ways of tackling the brain scaries and coping with it!

my main way i've been dealing w trying not to display symptoms publicly is just to err on the side of extreme caution and try not to post anything here that isn't strictly "i love this fictional character teehee", but sometimes i feel stifled by that rule and want to connect w ppl on more than just "yayy my bouyfriend". like i want to be Me but ,, i think Me is probably just,,, not all that great ^^;;;; so i'm thinking maybe it'd be best if i just take a step back again and go on a mostly-hiatus for a while until i get the welfare and disability stuff sorted out (but that could take. several months. so idk 😭😭) bc its been rly having a bad effect on my mental health and stability, ack !!

i also feel like i need to tell everyone that they do not Need to interact w me or respond to anything i say ever, that you should only do so if u Want to, not because u feel Obligated to, but that implies that i would ever have the power over someone to be able to "make" them feel like they have to do smth and that in itself is an egotistical thought which is "bad". so. gestures vaguely at this paragraph. i just have to sit and hope that nobody feels like they Must interact w me in any way, but i do not know how to express it without sounding dismissive or ungrateful or presumptuous or egotistical. when i say "i appreciate this!" it's just that - i appreciate it, but i do not expect it, so please don't feel pressured ever!

anyways, i appreciate the patience and kindness ppl show me (though i do not expect it dsfjkl) and i will continue trying to keep the unwell brain stuff under wraps as much as i'm able to (and i absolutely understand if ppl cannot deal w that and leave! i won't be offended!). i haven't actually said sorry in this but do know i feel badly about it and i'm trying to figure out how to fix this so it doesnt happen more, i just dont know if a "sorry" is really any use here fdsjkl