#dont ask me how to do colors though i can't tell you that

[mehwmidklpe]

hiii, i' Ve been Reading your Connor x reader AND I JUST LOVE HOW YOU WRITE THEM!! ⁠♡

i dont know if request for One shots are open but... Can i ask a connor stoll x a daughter of iris reader?

Like, Reader have Always a prism as a necklace that his mother iris gave her when her dad died and Connor stole It and reader Is mad asf

Idk like ad enemies to lovers thing? But u can write whatever you want i will eat up everything at this point 🫶🏻

Thank you again and keep going!! (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

my requests are always open I get excited when I get them

and that's actually so nice omg, of course I'll write that for you! ♡

MESSAGERS PART 2

Waking up in cabin 14 was amazing as always.

It was so peaceful, so beautiful.

The prisms, the colors, the diamonds.

You were one lucky demigod.

You got out of bed, got changed and–wait. When you got changed you didn't see/feel your necklace around your neck. You're always wearing that necklace. You've never taken it if since– nevermind, that's not important.

What is important is searching for your necklace. On the desks, on the drawers, in them, under to beds, no where was a necklace to be seen.

You even looked everywhere you had been at camp the other day, but still no sight of that beautiful prism.

You sighed deeply, trying to say calm as you walked back into the Iris cabin, over to your two siblings who were also the headcouncelor and lieutenant counselor of the cabin.

They were discussing something when you approached them.

"Hey Butch, Mauve. You got a minute?" You ask them, a regular smile on your face. "Yeah, of course." They smiled back at you.

Before you could even say anything, Mauve spoke up. "Hey, where's your necklace?" She frowned. That's when Butch noticed too. "Yeah, the one with the pirsm. I've never seen you without it."

It was clear that people knew you never took i off, you fidgeted with it when you were nervous, you matched it with every outfit you wore.

"That's what I wanted to talk about, I can't find it anywhere." You tell them. "That sucks." Butch states. "And you're sure you looked everywhere?" You sister then questioned you.

You were quick to nod. "Yes. Everywhere." That earned a hum from your brother. "And it never occured you that it could be.. stolen?"

That caught you of guard. "Stolen?" You echo before letting out a small laugh. "Why would anyone steal that, and who would do such a thing?" You ask them.

"Well.. the Hermes kids have their reputation." Mauve informed you. "But they wouldn't do that. We get along great, you know, since our parents are both messegars." You reminds her.

Butch nodded. "That's completely true, but Connor Stoll, he pranks and steals from everyone, he doesn't care who it is. Could be the president or his closest friends and he'd still do it."

"Connor Stoll? You mean the hot Connor Stoll?" Yeah, Connor was hot, not gonna lie. But stealing your necklace? Not-so-hot.

Your brother frowned. "Uhm.. I mean.. is there another Connor Stoll?" He akwardly asks. Mauve brushed it off. "You should just ask him. Be kind and maybe he'll give it back." She suggested at which you nodded.

"I will, thank you so much." You quickly hugged them– a hug they returned of course –and rushed out to find Connor.

And when you spotted him he indeed wore your necklace. You sighed in relief, happy that it at least wasn't lost for good.

Thank the gods, thank Iris.

You quickly approached him with a smile. "Hey Connor." He stopped what he was doing and turned to you. "Oh, sup."

"I noticed that you're wearing my necklace and I'd be very happy if you could maybe give it back? It's really important to me." You said with a kind smile and a kind tone.

Then Connor pretended to think about it. "Mhmm. No."

Okay you did not expect that.

Your smile never faltered though. "Excuse me?" You asked. The blue eyed boy shrugged. "Well, I kinda like it, so I think I'll keep it to myself, thank you very much."

"Uhm.. I know that it's pretty, I do, but I really need it back. Like I said, it's very important to me and–" "Look, Y/n, spare me the nice talk. I'm keeping it." He interrupted.

"Please." You pleaded him. A grin spread across his lips, taking of the necklace from around his neck. "You want it?" That's when he held it in the air. "Come get it."

You couldn't believe this.

How could people be so cruel?

With a sigh, you tried to get it, making him stumble back at which you lost your balance and steadied it by placing your hands on his shoulder.

Dam was he close.

But nothing happened between you two cause you heard something fall onto the ground behind you, and the shattering sound made your stomach drop.

And Connor Stoll had the audacity to grin. "Oops."

You turned around to see the shattered pieces of your beloved prism necklace.

Gone.

It was gone.

You couldn't cry, Iris children are happy.

When you turned around, you were faced with a grinning son of Hermes.

Don't be mad.

Smile.

Iris children are happy.

Iris children think positive.

Iris children are peaceful.

You slapped him across the face.

Hard.

Every camper around you froze as they saw what happened. Did Iris' daughter just use violence against camp's greatest prankster?

Connor surely was in shock, his cheek burning from the pain. Since when were you so strong? And angry?

Without saying anything, you left, leaving Connor dumbfounded.

Another day, Connor was happy to finally get to talk to his brother again.

Since Travis left for college, Connor had spend every day missing him.

Finally, Travis had a free schedule so they had agreed to call.

Now demigods couldn't have phones.

And since Connor Stoll's good old friend Leo Valdez hadn't invented demigod proof phones yet– yet. –the best option was an Iris message.

So he did just that. But when he got to the "Oh Iris, goddess of the Rainbow, please accept my offering." part, the rainbow infront of him faltered, no Travis to be seen

A frown placed on his face. "What the–" he tried again, but the view just faltered again. "Accept my offering?" He repeated.

But a voice echoed trough the room. "Offer declinded."

Offer diclined? What you mean offer declined??

"Wait, no, no, no. This is important, I need to see my brother, you can't just decline it. I'll steal– I mean I'll find more drachmas, I swear." But nothing he said worked, the view dissapeared, and Connor wasn't gonna see his brother again..

You were just peacfully drawing in cabin 14 cause you're good at that, of course, when the door bursted open.

A panicked Connor Stoll walked in. he scanned the place, scanning if there was any Iris kid present, and when his gaze landed on you, he was quick to walk over.

"You. Hey, Y/n. I need you to talk to your mom for me." He spoke to you. Your eyes never left your sketchbook. "I'm sorry, but I'm busy."

He shook his head. "That drawing can wait. For some reason, I can't do the Iris messaging shit anymore and I need you to talk to your mom so she can accept my offers again."

You smiled. "I'm sorry, I can't help you with that." "Yes you can, your mother is in charge of this, and she's kind, so one nice, brightful talk with her and I can Iris message people again. Please, this is important to me." Connor pleaded.

That got your attention, cause you looked up at him. "Important to you like how that necklace was important to me?"

Connor froze. "What?" "I guess it's not that important, then, is it?" You smiled at him.

But for the first time, your smile didn't look so kind and bright anymore, and that made the boy feel weird.

"Y/n, you can't do this to me. This is important, it really is." He told you, but you ignored it. "This is what happens when you disrespect a daughter of Iris. You're the only one to blame."

That's when the son of Hermes realized. "You did this, didn't you." That same smile stayed on your lips. "Took you long enough."

Connor shook his head. "You're cruel." He states.

"I'm righteous." You correct.

"Well trust me when I say that you'll regret it." The curly haired boy warned you.

"Whatever kind of prank you pull on me, it won't change, you'll always be banned from Iris calling." You remind him, and the thought of that made his chest ache.

"Screw you, Y/n. I thought children of Iris were supposed to be nice." Connor said, getting frustrated with you.

"I am nice, just not to you. Not anymore, at least. Now get out of my cabin before Chiron finds out you're breaking the rules, again."

And that's how the daughter of Iris and the son of Hermes became rivals, or enemies.

Whatever you wanna call their hatered for each other.

idk if this was good so I'm sorry

and I know the lovers part wasn't in this, but I can make a part 2 (and probbaly 3) if you want

[pyr0-kai]

Could you maybe write a mike x reader that the reader has a crush on Mike for a long time now secretly but dont dare tell him because she just can't is too shy and Abby helps reader and Mike to find together with her drawings since she noticed how they look at each other every time but no one says anything and maybe with just fluffy please. The reader knows mike a long time and knows what he is going through and Mike did become distance from the reader but the reader is still here for him when he needs it too.. And they kiss too :)

Hiiii, thank you for my first official request!! I hope you like it!

There shouldn’t be anything to spoiler-y just some tooth rotting fluff and bad writing!! (And one spicy reference ish? Nothing too bad)

Also So sorry, my art class was watching the little mermaid today so its been in the back of my mind.

Abby, The Little Matchmaker

You had moved in next door to the Schmidt house a few years ago. Mike was watched out the window the day you moved in, while eating breakfast with Abby one morning. He saw you outside of the window, and he wasn’t trying to stare, but ended up staring at your driveway, watching you bring in and out boxes of stuff from one of those large moving trucks. Abby finished a little doodle before looking up, seeing her big brother staring. When Abby spoke up, he zapped out of his little trance.

As a lot of time had passed you had gotten to know him somewhat well. Sometimes he would talk with you from the other side of your fence, or you two would sit on the curb or one of your porches together and just chat about random stuff. As he became more focused on his work, trying and failing to keep a good few job, he slowly began to, unintentionally, become distant. No longer speaking to you directly. But he still would watch you from the window of his kitchen if he saw you pretty [hair color] flash in the corner of his vision. Often seeing you playing with your younger sibling, or younger family members.

Once he landed the job at Freddy’s, he knew he would need help. And you were the best and only person he could really think to ask. It was awkward but, you agreed. Excited to officially meet his little sister, and hopefully see more of him once again. Thats how you ended up watching over Abby once he started working late nights.

Abby was very shy at first, but as time past, and you spent more time at the Schmidt house, she began to open up a bit, talking more and inviting you to draw with her. She also noticed though, how awkward you were with Mike. How you two both seemed to like each other a lot, but it was strange.

One evening however, it was just you and Abby. One of her favorite movies, The Little Mermaid was playing in the background, and she was drawing. Not looking up from the paper, she spoke.

“Hey, [Y/N]?”

“Yeah Abby? Whats up?”

“Do you like my brother? I mean, Like-Like him?”

Your face flustered at that question.

“N-Not like that no… We are just friends really.” You replied, voice cracking a bit.

She turns her head and looks at you.

“Oh really? At dinner sometimes when I mention you, he always says you’re pretty and appreciates you being friends and taking care of me at night. Also, sometimes when i’m not asleep yet, I hear weird noises, and your name coming from his room.”

She notices your face and how red it gets from hearing her speak. She knew you had a crush on him, no matter how much you tried to deny it. Then she turned her head back, smirked to to herself and grabbed a new piece of paper, before heading back into her room, to plan.

Later, Mike invited you to stay for breakfast. He was cooking up some slightly burnt scrambled eggs while you were tapping your nails on the kitchen table. After what Abby had told you, it became even more difficult to talk to him.

Abby came out of her room a few minutes later, a piece of folded paper in her pj pocket. She sat at the table, across from you, wishing you and Mike a good morning. You 3 ate Mike’s slightly burnt food, as Abby told you about a project she’s excited to start at school. Once the food was done, and the dishes were put in the sink, Abby perked up again.

“I drew this for both pf you! Don’t open it until I’m back in my room please!”

You and Mike both nodded as she dashed off into her room to get ready for school. You stood next to Mike as he unfolded the sheet of paper. The inside revealing a picture of You, Mike, And Abby, all happily hugging. You and Mike looked at each other, admiring each other’s eyes. Before you both heard Kiss the girl, from The Little Mermaid start playing from the Cassette player in Abby’s room.

You two both looked at each other, the paper still in Mike’s hand.

“Did Abby tell you that I like you?” He asked.

“Yeah, did she say that I like you..?”

You replied.

But you’re dying to try

You wanna kiss the girl

Yes, you want her

The song played, while you and mike looked each other. He gulped before leaning in slightly for a kiss, and you met his lips halfway. The kiss was everything you both wanted, soft, loving and passionate.

“I love you…”

He spoke.

“I love you too…”

You replied.

The song ended from Abbys room, and you both heard her shout

“I KNEW IT!”

You and Mike both laughed before he pulled you into a tight hug. To this very day, the specific picture Abby drew is framed and sits on a shelf. She draws all 3 of you together much more, loving how happy it makes you all. This always ends with a group hug, as well as you and mike sharing a loving kiss.

[respectthepetty]

Petty, I respect you.

I do.

However.

DONT BE QUITE ABOUT THE COLOURS IN ON1Y 1 BECAUSE I WILL READ A FULL THESIS ON IT, 20 PAGES!!!! 50 PAGES!!!!

PLEASEEEE Give

It

To

Meeeeeeeee 🥹

Anon,

You've opened a floodgate.

Because I always notice the colors, but just because I see colors doesn't mean I know why they are significant. Even if I see there is a pattern, it doesn't mean I understand its importance. And I don't think y'all should be subject to me screaming about Jiang Tian's paper bookmarks being yellow and pink in a book of (love?) poems where he has highlighted that "a girl's shyness is like a tender cherry under the sunlight" and "16- and 17-year-olds are like fruits in the morning sun, sparkling."

Sheng Wang asks who this is about, but we know who this is about. The colors mean things.

And more importantly, I actually didn't write weekly or episodic posts about shows until 2022. I used to wait until a show was over to write about the colors or background noise, and, mostly, I only did it when people would ask me about it. Big Dragon was the first show that I felt compelled to write weekly about the colors and background noise because it was so amazing, so 2024 is still an odd space for me to be in sometimes because as much as I love colors, I'm ALWAYS surprised how much y'all want to know about them . . . weekly . . . per episode . . . for all the shows.

I write for myself, but sometimes I think y'all don't need to witness me losing my shit every week for sixteen weeks over obviously color-coded characters in The Loyal Pin.

And sometimes I think y'all don't want to witness me losing my shit over colors that I can't completely understand like the grays in 4 Minutes.

And then other times I think y'all shouldn't have to witness me losing my shit over colors that I'm not sure are colors until I've watched enough episodes to feel sure that the colors are, in fact, coloring; then, the series, The Trainee, actually tells me the colors were coloring the entire time like I thought.

And that's why I try to be quiet about shows because I'm figuring them out in my head, or I'm waiting for enough information to feel confident about them, and I don't want to hog up the tag with my ramblings. I need to sit in it a bit to figure out what the colors mean.

Kiseki: Dear to Me was the perfect example. I didn't mention anything about colors until prompted by others because it took me until the third episode to feel certain that Chen Yi and Ai Di matched colors, then it took me close to the end of the series to realize all the cameo couples ALSO matched colors.

It took me until the end of My Love Mix-Up to realize Aoki's color had evolved.

It took me two seasons (and a movie) to feel secure that Kiyoi was a Heavenly Human in My Beautiful Man.

And it took me until midway through Semantic Error to figure out why the red disappeared.

That's how The On1y One is for me. I knew yellow/orange and blue would play some part in the story based on the posters, but I wasn't sure how until I started seeing more visuals appear.

Because even though I saw a yellow container of food for Sheng Wang in the first episode,

I didn't realize he mostly ate color-coded food until episode four.

It's such a tiny detail, so I could have easily missed it, but because I know that he is a picky eater, I feel like it's not simply a coincidence, and I quickly noticed it in the eighth episode.

But I needed to collect more images before I could state that. I needed to let the story develop before I realized it. I needed to settle into it. And that's why I wrote my halfway point post after a few people asked if I noticed.

Because I know I seem like a magician who shouts a lot, but I'm not. Sometimes, I have to be patient and let the colors sneak up on me while I'm simply enjoying the moment, like Sheng Wang's orange alarm clock nestled into the corner of his bed while he falls asleep on his light yellow pillow in his light yellow shirt.

I know not all visuals can be a literal bright yellow sign hanging from the color-coded boy's room, ya know?

I'm not Jenny who cannot grasp that she keeps taking food and drinks meant for Benny even when he realized if she could figure out the mug was about gay rights without realizing he was gay then someone smarter will along and piece the dots together . . .

Because like, girl, he's gay.

But it does take me time to collect images and get my thoughts in order, so until then, I'm going to be quiet.

Or as quiet as a loud ass like me can be.

[grendel-menz]

yo im not sure if this is a weird ask so feel free to ignore but like !! sorry i just had a moment bc ive been struggling w being half white for a long time now, like something was off my entire life with how other white people would treat me as an Other, the way they would like reduce me to an animal/the wild friend/make some weird dehumanizing comments, and despite all this not even knowing the truth of my ancestry til i was out of high school. but at the same time i felt like i could never really claim it? like i had no connection to my native side since my father wasn't allowed that so i was basically raised White and every time i looked in the mirror something told me it was wrong for me to even seek that connection. it did not help that i'd meet other half natives here who would tell me that (there is a weird culture here about rooting out "fakers" and accusing people you dont like of faking their history to get yourself more legitimacy). sorry this is all a rambly preface to say id always related to your art about ancestry and culture and finding yourself and how people treat you but felt wrong for it but then you post a picture and you're a stones throw away from me. like, we look like we could be cousins. idk i just went wow, i look like that too, its okay, i shouldnt have gatekept my connecting behind fear of... i dont even know what anymore. idk this ask has no point so from another genderweird half who hallucinates i hope u have a great week month year and i hope good things happen to you. you bring a lot of joy to people

I'm sorry you've struggled with all this, it can be really tough. My situation is a bit different since my mom never let me forget I'm Filipino. I never felt distant from being mixed, just the culture we lost due to some extraordinarily difficult circumstances in the past few generations of my moms side. I'm also lucky in that Filipinos and SEAsians as a whole tend to be very avid about welcoming mixed kids into the community (though there's a lot of racism and colorism involved in the level of acceptance someone gets, unfortunately. I'm pale and treated well, and I doubt someone darker skinned would be treated as well in certain circles.).

I can't speak for Native American communities, but I will solidly say in general that blood quantum and its enforcement is colonial. Your ancestors do not love you in halves or quarters, that would be very strange. When I have a baby I plan to love the whole thing and not just whatever dna percentage is mine. It's just important to research, support, reach out to, and represent your community to the best of your ability. (If I've misspoken here lmk.)

I have Indigenous family members, ancestry, and community, but I don't personally call myself Indigenous because I am still researching and reconnecting, and it's such a big word. There's no rush to things, go at the pace you're comfortable with when it comes to seeing yourself.

Sorry for being long winded! Hopefully that helps or yeah! :D

[ventismacchiato]

THE SCRMN LORE DUMP WAS SO GOOD now listen kai gave us the general headcanons..... I'll take one for the team and ask how they both were like in bed and if mona was scara's first time idk (i can't believe my life has come to this, asking about fictional characters love lives like a gossip monger)

also also for the angst hcs I think about that one anon's hc like how scara would die a little when yn purposefully ignores him and pretends whatever they had wasn't real, and I wanted to know exactly what might make yn ignore him in the future so I'm thinking that it's probably BC of ei (SHES SUCH A BITCH IN THIS AU AT LEAST JPTP EI WAS CIVIL) and how she might've told scara to give up his relationship with yn to be more successful and probably try to set him up with mona idk but ofc scara doesn't like her

or or scara just distances himself from them bc again, he doesn't think yn deserves them but he can't stand seeing them not in his arms (fake idgafer) so i just see him constantly trying to make contact with yn but yn can surprisingly be cold so they shut him out (kinda like btl scara!! i like how swy accidentally or purposefully parallels scarayn fr)

I'm so excited for the jealousy arc I dont even care who gets jealous I just love when characters (scara) want that cookie (us) so bad but feels as though they don't deserve them so they're forced to seethe and yearn in silence (Scaramouche is a yearner i mean you mentioned it in the prev asks how he bleeds out his feelings to songs instead of verbally expressing them that's like peak yearnism ugh i love him so much)

-🌅 anon !!

PS do you have any general hcs for the other delusion & windblume ......... kazuxiao.... kazuxiao crumbs........ very cottagecore coded i can see them being the designated therapists of the groups aside from the twins

gossip monger is taking me OUT 😭 i love when you guys ask me for head canons cus sometimes it’s things i’ve thought about and other times it’s like matter a fact what WOULD scaras tip color be 🤔

i’m gonna say scara was mona’s first time! so he was probably also gentle with her at first. it can also be the other way around (as in mona was his first) BUT! lowk i headcanon scara being a whore amongst the other trainees (like excluding windblume and delusion group) and he probably just lost his v card to some random other trainee under sakura? like do we fuck with that LMAO

like to get rid of the tension of his growing rivalry with you and his mother he probably fucked around with trainees 😭 i think that’s kinda hot lmfao walk with me here experienced scara. i feel like when he’s 18 he’s the type to just wanna get it over with and picks a random trainee HELP

i’m not gonna spoil anything HAHA but come back once i do give out the reason for why yn ignores scara LMFAOO (cus spoiler it will happen 😝) and omg ur so right it is kinda parallel btl

SCARAMOUCHE YEARNER ARC YOU GET IT he wud be standing in the corner seething silently and then write a diss track

I DO!!! i have a kazuxiao headcanon that will be in the next chapter interview i think? so if u want a spoiler rq it’s that kazuha and xiao have been dating this whole time in secret

so with that in mind i hc kazuha asked xiao out first, maybe after kazuha debuted and xiao was still a trainee so they were able to get away with secret dates. and during their trainee days they’d go “train together” but it was just an excuse to be alone. i can also see kazuha being the therapist of delusion cus he’s calm and even calmer when he’s high. he gives me the mom of the group vibes. i also hc the twins are therapists but they probably spill SO much tea to each other

also kazuha tells xiao EVERYTHING going on with delusion which is why he’s so gossipy when windblume is gossiping and has all the tea. i hc lumine will give tea about yn and aether will give tea about scara and they’ll try to set them up whenever they can (never works)

a few years into their careers it gets a little harder to hide their relationship and see each other so xiao will always say he’s buying weed from kazuha just to go on dates. they never intended it to be a secret but they also just assumed everyone could tell (they couldn’t, both of them don’t like pda) so it became a running joke to see how long they could hide it (so far two years, i hc kazuha asked xiao to be his bf after two years of subtle flirting) xiao is that one meme of wait were u flirting with me? and kazuhas like i have been for the past two years but ty for noticing

[alldoll3dup]

Yelloooooooo!!!!!! I got a request. Can you write a brozone x pop/rap troll fem reader?? Where there related to the bros? I honestly can't think of anything else, but ik for sure theres gotta be crazy angst and comfort!!!

P.S. LOVE YOUR STORIES

▐ Do you mean all of them together or the separate reaction of each of them? I'm going to do it all together as a one shot kisses 🫶🏻 (but if not, you can make another request)

P.S THANK YOU SO MUCH

໑୧﹒★﹒Brozone x pop/rap!Reader - Headcanon's/one-shot ᰍ﹒∿

𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 - You are a pop and rap troll, you were already considered part of the family by brozone what would be their reaction? Lets see right now

𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐦 - Trolls band togeter

𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 - GN!Reader, angsty, platonic

★ When you told them...

– You were really nervous about telling them this, but Poppy and Viva were encouraging you

– Ok you were freaking out, Poppy and Viva got them together and said you had something to say, what were they thinking??? You wanted to stick your face in a hole and never come out

– The two left leaving you there with the confused brothers, you took a deep breath and started telling them

"Okay then well, I wanted to tell you this, because you are like brothers to me and I think you will support me in this"

– John Dory has already started to panic, she has already started to imagine a million things

💭 "IS SHE DATING? DOES SHE NO LONGER TRUST US? DOES SHE WANT TO MOVE AWAY???"

"Well, I'm a pop and rap troll" - you said looking a little embarrassed and JD's jaw dropped to the floor

"Ah, what a silly thing, y/n, everything is fine" - said branch carelessly with a hand on your shoulder (I didn't know what color to put on him, srry)

"SILLY?? NO ITS NOT SILLY HOW CAN YOU BE BOTH? IS THIS POSSIBLE?" - JD didn't understand anything

"Calm down, John Dory, this is normal, I, for example, am a pop and rock troll" - Floyd said, smiling slightly and you were a little sad about JD's reaction (I have a hc that he is a rock troll)

"WHAT YOU ARE A ROCK TROLL???" - He said turning his head to Floyd

"Hey man, relax, this is more common than you think" - Clay said looking angry at JD because he noticed your sad reaction

"My kids sing all kinds of music all the time" - Spruce said with a nasal laugh

"John Dory, you're making Y/N uncomfortable stop it" - he said quietly to John Dory with a sideways glance

"Okay, it doesn't enter my head either you're a rap troll or you're a pop troll, or you're a rock trolls or you're a pop troll"

"Why not both JD?" - you and Floyd said at the same time

"Because it's confusing and strange, it doesn't make sense to be both"

"Okay, that's enough of trying to change other people, John Dory" - Clay said, already irritated

"Clay just relax, okay? It dont make the argument worse"

"But he's right, John Dory is crossing the line!" - and you remained silent watching them argue and left with Floyd

★ When you went out with Floyd...

– He comforted you even though he was also sad about the situation

"Hey, it's okay, don't mind Dory, he'll understand soon"

"But why fight like that? They can't argue without fighting..."

"I know Y/n... it's okay" - he hugged you gently and you hugged him back

– You stayed there until the branch appeared because he got angry about arguing with John Dory

★ A few days later...

– You hadn't spoken to John Dory for a few days and she was really sad about the way he treated you

– He studied a lot about this being more than one thing and thought it was really cool

– He felt horrible about the way he treated you and asked Spruce and Clay for help on how to apologize to you

– Clay didn't want to help at first, but Spruce convinced him to help

– Of course, Floyd and Branch joined in on this, Branch would distract you along with Floyd, Clay and Spruce taught John Dory how to say sorry (which was an almost impossible mission)

– They prepared a "little party" with a huge sign saying "WE ACCEPT YOU Y/N AND FLOYD"

– When you got there JD practically jumped on you crying and apologizing saying how proud he was of you (he had done this to Floyd before the party)

– You ended up getting emotional and forgave him and promised that you would teach him more about being a troll with two musical genres

▐ That was hard to write, huh? Hope yall liked it

▐ Sorry if there are any grammatical errors love you guys ♡

★ REQUESTS ARE OPEN ★

- Read this before making a request

[sai-int]

heyooooo i just wanna know how do you literally make a sentence/fic longer? There are a lot of sensory and emotion in your writing and they take forever in a good way. How do you plan a fic in your head down to every detail from working at tesco in return to sender for example and how dreading it is etc. down to the customer, talk about workmates and stuff.

I think you’ve mentioned before how you imagine it like a movie with the angles and all and write it down that way with a couple other stuff but i couldnt find that post soo… Like, if i imagine it like a movie, how do i know which details im gonna write down, it could literally be the color of the wall in the background😟

Also, any advice on improving vocabulary????? Im just going around asking fkr writing tips lmao😭😭

hi love!! thanks so much for your ask :)

this is a really long response because I wanted to be genuine, so the answer is below the cut.

FOREWARNING: this is all my opinion; this is not the experience/thoughts of all writers! you also do NOT have to be as meticulous as me when writing—I am just insane.

first - story building

as for the story aspects (tesco in RTS, coworkers, etc) a lot of that comes from personal experience!

I'm (unfortunately) American, so I have no actual experience working or being in a tesco, but i inferred what someones experience could be based on my own, as well as many others that work in retail/customer service.

personally, I've been working in retail/food service for 6 years now and it has it's pros and cons—I usually don't enjoy it—so a lot of readers emotions in RTS are just me projecting.

these details truly serve as a part of the story, therefore, it's something I have to take time planning out—just as much time as planning out the smut—if not more.

the whole point of writing x reader fics is to let the reader visualize themselves within the writing. however, you aren't doing any justice to the reader's experience by leaving them in limbo. to make your story's plot more effective and impactful, you have to really paint the picture, meaning sometimes you have to just tell people how and what to feel as they read .

if you dont, you risk people projecting how they would actually feel in the situations you're writing about, which runs the risk of ruining the plot you're trying to develop.

—to that point, a plot isn't just lines on a paper, it's a story that involves genuine emotions and should be treated as such. to have a solid story, you have to have a set of emotions that develop alongside the writing so readers can experience a genuine story arc.

second - movie thing

this is true! It's hard to describe the way I decipher what to write down based on what I see in my head, but I'll try!!

also, i'm convinced I have some sort of neurodiversity aside from adhd that makes my brain work this way, so I'm not 100% sure that this is will make sense/be applicable to you. if it is, though, I'm glad!

I'll give an example:

—you're watching a horror movie and the main character is anywhere on the screen. you can see them from their waist and up the character is in focus and the background isn't. the background is darker, it's night time, perhaps there are windows that let some faint moonlight in. instinctively—as the viewer—you might look at the background, anxiously waiting to see if a figure, a face, or a ghost of sorts walks by or appears in some fashion. sometimes it does, sometimes it doesn't—that is up to the creator.

with that in mind, most people don't write fan fiction in third person, so you can't necessarily narrate the fact that there may be a ghost behind the reader. however, as animals (mammals), we do have instincts, which is something to play with in your writing.

—(e.g. sinking feelings in your gut, a cool breeze at the back of your neck, goosebumps/gooseflesh).

^^ they're all examples of things that you would feel if something sinister was lurking behind you. do you see where i'm going with this?

—take this scene from return to sender, when reader and simon first meet, for example:

“Your heart pounds in your ears, a brutal thundering that mutes the voice in your head telling you to run, single-handedly hijacking every morsel of reason you possess. Each beat is so violent, that you think you can feel your ribs splintering, cracking to make room...” “Your tongue feels like it’s too big for your mouth, thick and clumsy, but it's not just that—it’s as though it’s been wrung dry like you’ve forgotten how to speak, how to make any sound at all.”-

—the bolded portions are all physical responses that one could have in a frightening experience. describing these acute stress responses give the scene more life, really makes the reader feel it; adrenaline causing your heart to race, your conscience telling you to run, your tongue and mouth going dry from fear.

—ps, your tongue can go dry from fear/stess because stress hormones in your body redirect bodily resources away from digestion (just in case you have to get the hell out of dodge and sprint).

to write about these experiences accurately, I find it best to pull from your own experiences!! it doesn't have to be a life threatening situation either. have you ever been caught red handed and felt your heart beating out of your ass, heard it thumping in your ears? ever been walking outside alone and felt a little uncomfortable, maybe a cool breeze brushes past almost too coincidentally and you get goosebumps? remember not being able to sleep the night before Christmas (or any adjacent holiday) as a kid because you were just so anxious and excited? sit in that feeling and apply it to the reader, then there you go!

third - details/emphasis

if the color of the wall (or anything else) is significant to the story, write about it! but you can also still briefly mentions something if you just want to have readers imagine something specific (a setting, a room, a person, etc).

—my point here is this: you can write about whatever details you want, add them or don't. what matters is how much emphasis you put on them. see below:

“the reflection of the glass caught the hue of the sage wallpaper behind you, turning the water an amphibious shade of green. you hated it. hated your mother for painting it this color without your sanction— hated her for painting it at all.”

—could imply a later exploration as to why the color is disliked, or why the reader so strongly hates their mother. hate is clearly too strong of a verb to use here, unless there's an underlying reason for the hatred —which one can infer there is.

VS

“the sage wallpaper behind you caught the morning light, staining the glass with a queasy green hue as sunlight poured into the room.”

—here, the emphasis is balanced between the sunlight, the wallpaper, and the glass, simply painting the image of the scene without drawing too much attention to one specific thing.

fourth - vocabulary

about my vocabulary! I genuinely just read a lot, always have since I was little. I also spent my entire high school career in advanced in English classes, so reading and deeply analyzing books like The Scarlet Letter and Gatsby contributed to a lot of the fancier words I know, but don't often use.

I try not to use complex vocabulary when I write. I more strive to have good syntax (sentence structure) and clarity.

I also try not to use a bunch of words that are more complicated than what I could say in much simpler way. i want my works to be as reader friendly as possible—not everyone just knows what inure or deist mean off the top of their heads, and I'd much rather have you immersed in the story than googling a word's meaning every 5 seconds.

however, I very recently downloaded this app called vocabulary, and it sends me notifications throughout the day about new words to learn. it feeds the literature nerd in me lol. the app is just called vocabulary on the App Store (Apple).

I truly hope this helped! if you have anymore questions, dont hesitate to ask!

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[naughtynoodle056]

oh wtf did they mean by that like .. your characters are obviously Black - you could post just the lineart and it'd be obvious??

okay first of all I LAUGHED when I read this ask because I literally feel the exact same way, but allow me to take you and the rest of my followers on this journey that has made me decide I'm a villain now. Buckle up, this post will be lengthy xD.

Person (not artist) confused my OC Shay (the girl right next to Leo) for my OC Xander (the boy on the far left). I got really frustrated because I chose Shay to sit next to Leo in this piece SPECIFICALLY to drive home the contrast in weight and that even though Shay is in a baggyish hoodie, you can still tell she's slim compared to Leo.

I asked if I was just going crazy or if these people mixing them up werre either 1) visually impaired somehow or looked at this for 0.2 seconds because these are obviously not the same person?? an IRL said that Xander and Shay looked too similarly because of their hair and body type and SKIN TONE and I was like. First of all, 2000s emo kids often had similar hair, that's kind of the fucking point here. Second of all, Shay is obviously shorter and skinny and Xander is CLEARLY on the chubbier sie, so what the fuck are you yapping about? and FInally. SKIN COLOR??? SKIN COLOR??????

Here is this same exact piece but with the lighting effects turned off. Just loud and wrong as fuck

So aforementioned artist offers their constructive criticism that was this

and like no offense but the longer I thought about it the more pissed off I got because first of all,

I LITERALLY DO????? and second of all and the reason I'm evil now is that they don't. RECENTLY they actually drew a black person, but it was still a frustratingly ambiguously black person.

Like what does this even mean bro my art style is like ALL SHAPES?? Like I'm really glad you said what you said in this ask because you're so right, you CAN tell my characters are black or otherwise POC just by the lineart. You cannot do that with the artist that gave that criticism. and then they doubled down when people called them out on how wack of a criticism it was and that they were wrong. I won't be naming them by name publicly because like I said before, I will look like the smaller bitter artist that can't take criticism from this BIG POPULAR WELL MEANING artist, but it felt like they were throwing stones from a glass house at a BRICK ONE.

I was also told my art "has a lot of potential" which is the polite way of saying "your art is mid", generally speaking lmaO.

At the end of the day, it felt like they were making huge sweeping judgements of my art and offering criticsm that was like?? unwarranted and felt more like them outting themselves as never giving my art more than just a passing glance because I dont draw 800+lb fatties constantly. Which is fine, you don't have to look at my art. But don't fucking give me criticism that not only doesn't apply to me, but you don't even follow yourself. Its kind of like if an abled bodied artist who NEVER draws anyone with visible disabilities told a visibly disabled artist that DOES draw a myriad of disabled folks in a loving way that they aren't doing enough and then doubling down with "All criticism is fair critism".

I don't think I'm the best artist in the world or in this kink community, but I know one thing for sure. I'm one of the most consistent at drawing black people in a way that's obvious and with lots of love, so don't you EVER fucking imply I don't do enough while your black people just look like color pallete swaps. Don't come for me on that regard if you have never drawn afro textured hair. And no, I WON'T just roll over and accept that "most feedists favor white or pale eastern asain people". I'd rather die a niche artist who actually gives a shit about representation than to just grovel to people that would not respect me because of my race.

[digi-vie]

hewwo and welcome to my blog!!

im Evie, i go by she/her, and im transfem! very cuddly, and affectionate through text! (unless you're uncomfy with it :3)

I'm Digi, i'm Evie's robot. i also go by she/her. you can tell if im the one speaking based on my font and color. Me and Evie are implied to be the same person, dont question it too hard.

I have an askblog for one of my OCs! Her name is Tetra, be nice or she'll tear you apart :3 @ask-tetra

enjoyer of all things robots, though i do have a pref towards screen faces, tanky bots, chubby/squishy bots, and weaponry in general.

i run a minecraft server! its quite chill and meant for more casual play. we have create!! (also recently did a reset to update to 6.0) dm me if ur interested!!! (i may decline if i get bad vibes from u, sorry)

media i have interacted with:

undertale, deltarune, ultrakill, minecraft, sonic, mario, jojos bizzare adventure, kirby, and more that i can't remember

also!! just know that my overaffection IS ALWAYS PLATONIC unless expressed otherwise!

here is a taglist!!

#my posts

self explanatory, just things that i post myself and not reblogs.

#digi's trans thoughts

anything i post about thats about me and my transition! :3

#ziggyposting

interactions with @zithergiltscorner, very cool person who should ACCEPT THAT PEOPLE CARE ABOUT THEM *angrily turns and glares at her* /lh and also apparently my grandaughter. wonder how that works in the family tree.

#millymoment

interactions with @miss-million! :3 not much else to add

#my art

self explanatory, just me posting art.

[adalwolfgang]

ADAL!!! saw your requests/inbox is open…and i had to send in a little something something!!!

heard you do “i ship you with…” so i was wondering what gotham character you might ship me with!!!

As far as physical appearance goes, I’m a 4’11 cis female with long brown hair and brown eyes, tan skin, hispanic, and wear a lot of black and red :> (and wearing glasses when im not in my contacts sksksk)

As far as personality goes, I’m a little eccentric, lots of jokes teehee, my MBTI is INTP, aquarius zodiac sign, and I love a possessive jealous protective man 🤞 I’m bisexual with a preference for men, and my ideal date idea is a movie at home !! or a grocery store date (i love shopping!!)

tysm adal ^_^ u dont have to if you dont want too, or if you dont do these anymore!! Just thought it might be fun !!

A/N: AHHH YES!! I wont ever stop doing these so you're good! Also sorry for the wait! Im trying to get through asks today because the numbers are starting to stack up and I don't want to keep holding it off anymore! But my inbox will always be open!

I ship you with...

Oswald Cobblepot!

Let's start with the height difference.

He loves it.

A lot.

Almost everyone he's ever encountered is always taller than him, or his height is used against him.

Definitely has a sort of power kink toward it if yk what I mean.

Now onto your color scheme.

We've all seen his many outfits throughout episodes and how fashionable he is.

He'll spoil you to your hearts content on whatever you want.

Including clothes.

There's a black and red outfit you've been wanting from a store down the street?

It's sitting on your bed by the next hour or so with a little love note attached to it.

If he's feeling it, you'll both be matching that day, wearing the similar black and red that you love so much.

He'll also make sure you always have a spare set of glasses or contacts on hand.

Just incase yk?

If anyone dares to even tease you about your clothes, glasses, looks in general?

Dead.

I can't stress the 'anyone' enough.

He knows what it's like being talked down to and mocked so he isn't having non of that when it comes to you.

He doesn't want his darling going through the same shit he went through.

He's gonna do whatever it takes to make you live the best.

As a queen.

His queen.

He's not the best at telling jokes but he does have a certain sense of humor.

Like laughing at the people, who've hurt either him or you, who are on the ground screaming in pain.

Again, a certain sense of humor.

Lets say you try a harmless prank on him, and end up scaring the shit out of him.

He'll scold you but is smiling by the end of it.

If you tell him a joke, he'll laugh at it.

While also staring at you with a loving gaze.

Back to him loving to spoil you, he much prefers taking you out to extravagant places for a ideal date like a fancy restaurant but won't mind just chilling at his mansion and snuggling up on the couch with you.

He doesn't get the whole shopping dates you mention though.

Why do something like that when he can just make others do it for you?

If you beg for it enough, he'll agree.

But he makes sure zsasz and a couple other of his men come along.

Again just in case.

He'll tell them to spread out and not stick so close to you both so it can feel like it's just you and him having a nice bonding moment.

Don't expect him to carry anything though.

Poor Zsasz we'll probably get stuck acting as some pack mule.

[fivebecomesnone]

SCP Universe beyond-the-veil dash simulator

tagging @fake-post-archive !!!

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Welcome to our brand new ex-Void members! Tumblr is a very different site, so here are some tips for newcomers so you fit right in.

Include the following words in your posting as much as possible (uncensored, I'm just doing it for fun): found/.ation class--ified le/ak docu.ments s/c//p . This is common Tumblr slang that will make your posting seem natural. If you can't work it in, it's customary to post a list of them at the end of every post.

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LOOK OP IS DEACTIVATED. THEY GOT HIS ASS

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The reports of my death are greatly exaggerated.

#tumblr heritage posts #sure half my new followers are coghaz bots but #where else can you get content like this #Void migration

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can anyone hear me

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Putting "Foundation psyop" on the high shelf until all of you learn how to use it. No, someone is not a psyop because they disagreed with you. No, someone is not a psyop because your post isn't getting traction and they just interacted with you. Chill the fuck out.

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So you don't think shadow banning is real?

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I'm done with this piss on the poor website. Putting words on the high shelf isn't enough some of you need to go to the Library and learn how to FUCKING READ.

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You know, the Library is a dangerous place. You're basically telling people to go get themselves killed.

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I would never tell someone to get themselves killed. I'm GOING TO DO IT MYSELF I SWEAR TO WAN

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MAGIC IS REAL?? ???????

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🥬 blunt-finder asked: Hey dude, welcome to life beyond the veil. How are you feeling?

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WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON

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so they let me keep the blog in the divorce. i had to change the name though :(

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congrats! one question: THE MAYOR?!???!?!?!?!?

#losing my goddamn shit #nobody's ever even seen it #that's not even monsterfucking that's a whole other level

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Yess we need more Maxwellist posting on this site!

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[say-hi-intrepid-heroes]

my experience getting/having a septum piercing!

(detailed journal under the cut, overview at the top)

TLDR: my experience was good, but that's because i planned and dedicated time to it. if you're in a situation where you'd need to hide it, make sure you get the piercing at least a week before you would need to flip it under. anything less and it's going to hurt like hell (although it'll still hurt a lot after a week)

general tips: 1) clean it at least once a day for a while. stuff builds up, especially in winter. i'd honestly recommend not getting it right before winter like i did, cause cold metal is not great. 2) try not to mess with it during the day, but make sure to move it around when you clean it, otherwise the healing skin will stick to the jewelry. 3) get a color/style you can live with for a few months. 4) don't flip it back and forth too much. 5) don't blow your nose aggressively or you might pass out from the pain. 6) dont wear face makeup to get your piercing done. touching your nose is gonna hurt like hell afterwards, so removing makeup won't be fun. 7) don't get a septum piercing as your first piercing. i've had two piercings in each ear, so i've had experience with the pain. if you flinch on an ear piercing, it's not as big of a deal cause those are so fast, but this one is NOT. major flinching is really bad here.

i've put a detailed log with dates under the cut. tw for descriptions of blood (obviously) but nothing major.

also, if you have any specific follow up questions, feel free to message or send an ask! i can't necessarily give you a perfect answer, but i can tell you what worked for me :)

(disclaimer: i wrote these on the days they are marked. i have not deleted or added anything, these were my thoughts and experiences as they happened. this does not represent everyone's experience, just mine, and is meant to be used as a reference to anyone wanting more information about this experience)

day 0 (11/11)

- got it done at a tattoo shop, they used a new/sterile needle and disinfected the area or something with something that smelled like iodine. it wasn't as fast as an ear piercing but it was honestly less painful.

- lots of initial bleeding (normal for me and head wounds in general), they nicked the outside of one nostril but that's probably because of my nose shape, lots of eye watering (also normal for me)

- cleaning it sucked, used the stuff they gave me (neilmed piercing aftercare mist) and qtips. moving the piercing was the worst part (it was slightly off center so i had to move it a bit), hurt so bad. did not appear to bleed further, however.

- nose area around piercing (nostrils, tip of nose) is extremely tender. putting on moisturizer was painful. glad i was not wearing full face makeup that i would have had to take off

- still too scared to blow my nose. i have a congestion headache.

day 1 (11/12)

- itchy. so itchy.

- currently biggest challenge is cleaning it. the area is so fragile and hurts so bad if you mess up how cleaning is done.

- also, allergies suck. i can't blow my nose. why.

- no bleeding tho, and nothing concerning

day 2 (11/13)

- cleaning is better, but i did figure out i was doing it wrong so that might be why moving the actual jewelry hurt so much. (the piercing was a lot further forward than i thought it was, so i was kinda just cleaning the middle of my nose. i wasn't cleaning where the hole is, so the scab area was just dry when i tried to move it, which is so so bad)

- area around it is much much less tender. no sudden contact though still.

- moving the jewelry hurts like a bitch

day 7 (11/18)

- substantial improvement over the last few days. no longer hurts to move the jewelry or touch my nose. only hurts if excessive force (i.e. getting punched in the nose)

day 9 (11/20)

- flipped it under (to hide it) for the first time. had to look up youtube videos for people with my nose shape cause i was doing it wrong but other than that it was very smooth and painless.

- now i just feel like i need to sneeze, but no pain.

about three weeks post-piercing

- we've kinda leveled out. no more major pain, now i'm able to flip it under in an emergency (without a mirror, without prep, etc)

- i got super sick and had a runny nose and it did fine the whole time.

- highly recommend flipping it under if you're having to blow your nose a lot, otherwise it snags and snot gets caught in it and i don't like it

two months (mid january)

- it is extremely cold where i am (hanging at about 10-15 degrees Fahrenheit) and this is making my skin so so dry.

- basically the piercing wound has cracked open a bit. it hurts a lot. i'm now drinking lots of water and running a humidifier/diffuser, but there's only so much that can do.

three months (mid february)

- just took out the jewelry, cleaned, and replaced for the first time!! it went really smoothly, no pain, no blood, but i did go slowly.

- make sure not to do it over a sink or the pieces could get lost. also, for the horseshoe i have, the little ball is kinda tricky to get back in, but if you take your time it'll work.

- i'm at the point where i feel like it is substantially healed, barring a major snag or other injury. i'm probably going to change out the jewelry soon once i get a new piece, and im very excited for that!!

[end]

[astroceans]

11.02.22

i dont know how to stop it. the thoughts the memories. i thought that maybe when you decided it would all stop. contrary, they wont stop. im stuck thinking about the last 6 months and the times i could of been better and done better. the times where i should of stayed quiet where i should have loved you more. theres no benefit in thinking it though. i know you've made up your mind. and when i called you out i didn't think you would leave. i thought you'd stay like you had before. i thought you would fight more or maybe even just try. but this time you didn't. you left, you moved on. and now i think where i went wrong and if i could just been different. that if maybe i wasn't so messed up you would of stayed. maybe if i was less sad less me you wouldn't leave. but its ok. i know she is kind and she is beautiful. she is loved and taken care of. she can love you. and i know you deserve who takes away all the lies and brings you hope, poetry, and most importantly coffee. if i could talk to her, i would tell her this. his birhtday is january 10. hes actually not a typical capricorn but that might be because his mother is a cancer. hes emotional. he is kind. he is thoughtful. his love language is physical touch and words of affirmation. hes a great gift giver. he has the biggest heart. hes easily influenced. gym is his therapy. he loves his family especially his sister and his mom. hes actually a feminist. hes a clean person. his alcohol tolerance is suprsisngly high. he likes to party and have fun. but more importantly i think he likes to stay in and do nothing. his favorite color is blue but he looks great in orange. his favorite artist is j balvin. and his music taste is impeccable. hes cannot park if his life depended on it but hes a great driver. he has a sweet tooth and probably the reason he has so many cavities. his favorite sweet is donuts, coming in second gummies. his grandpa is his biggest inspiration. and like many people, he's been hurt too many times especially by me. he has the worst anxiety and overthinks too much. his best friend committed suicide and his cousin was close to. he needs reassurance and lots of love. overall, i think he's the only person who has fought for me and for our relationship something i couldn't understand and maybe why i can't let it go. 

i know you deserve more than i could ever give you. you deserve an easy love with someone who doesn't have so many layers to cut through. someone with less complications and more love to give. in fact someone who isn't afraid to be loved. i know my thoughts wont leave because i live with regret, i live with sadness. i know i'll have to live without you and live with the thought that i failed you. and more importantly that given the choice, you wouldn't choose me anymore. that i am no longer the girl you want to be with and the one you want to spend the rest of your life with . i am not the first thought in your mind and i am not the last one either. you have simply moved and found arms to come home to. and i am stuck being the sad story. the girl who cannot love and be loved. and maybe thats what kills me the most. you get to move on and i cannot even find myself talking to another person without crying. i cannot listen to music without breaking down. i cant eat without feeling guilty. that i've lost myself throughtout everything and it took you a week to move on. i'd like to ask you how you did it but i fear that when i hear your voice i would lose my breathe. i have no hope for life. and i find no pleasure in it. i live day by day hoping one day i feel less sad but its been a month and a half and i still can't listen to our song. i know its not your fault but how cannot it not be? when i told you this you didnt seem to care and you chose to move on. im so tired of crying and the sleepless nights. the calling out of work. the torturing myself at the gym. the breaking down every time i go out with my friends. you're the punchline to all my jokes and the topic of conversation when it comes to gossip. you're the theme of all my spotify playlists and the inspiration behind my new hair color. youre my excuse when my parents ask me why i can't be more active in church and the reason i dont text back any guy. the reason i've started smoking again. i dont want to love you anymore. but im sorry i love you.

[bellamyblake]

do you ever think of Bellarke and be all salty and bitter because you know they're suppose to be together? Always. as for bellamy week, i don't know if i am up to it because if i were, it means putting myself through it again by rewatching cause I need to rewatch before making anything. I had no problems going through it the last 5 gifsets this year. I just cry through the gifmaking process. dont' mind december but maybe january? i need to think about it.

Hey! Thanks so much for sending this ask! I absolutely love your gifs!

And yes, I do think about them and feel Idk mostly sad if that's the right feeling to describe it. I'll be honest, I was and am a big bellarke shipper, I love writing them, have always absolutely enjoyed their scenes but I think I was realistic when it came to them not happening. I guess I just didn't really believe it'd work out because of the other side of the fandom, because of J.ason, so I believe I had accepted it a long time before it actually ended. Does it piss me off? Of course. I think I didn't want to watch them be this big romantic couple say o.licity or anything else we actually saw happen in the time when shows were shows and not 5 episodes things. I guess I just expected them to give me a glimpse of what they could be-them being together, kissing, hugging and holding hands, the show ending. That's what I imagined, I suppose.

I've been thinking about it the past week (cause I'm rewatching older shows where some of the main couples do get together) and I've been thinking that in a way I'm also NOT sorry it didn't happen. I'm not sure Jason would've handled it well and I've loved what I've seen on screen, I know what it means and to me it doesn't necessarily have to be a romantic relationship for it to be something. That's just me and I guess that's why I survived this fandom in a way, because I never expected it and because it was enough for me. I recently read this book 'Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow' that talks exactly about that type of relationship, the one that transcends romance. That doesn't mean there is no romance but it means also so much more and I think of Bellarke that way, I always have.

I also really didn't think J.ason would've done it properly, so imo it's better this way.

I opt not to focus on the bad stuff. Of course I understand what you mean and how hard it is, for me it's hard too sometimes, I get angry, I tell myself 'couldn't there have been at least one kiss?' but I just opt to choose to love them as they are and create for them and write for them and that just overpowers the bad stuff. I see no point in focusing on the awful things. I know so many of us left because they couldn't handle the ending, I can't handle it either, it's awful but there's this other, bigger part of me that just loves them as them and somehow that's greater and can't be tained. Of course I understand everyone for whom this is hard and just want to forget it though. Life's tough enough that when you meet things like d.eath in shows it just breaks you even more.

As far as Bellamy week, I've decided I'll leave it for january because my december will be really busy with work and it seems so for the rest of the folks.I feel a little bad that I'm gonna skip a year but it has been a really awful year for me mentally and I know I should've done it earlier, I just never actually sat down to do it.

I'd love for you to participate, I really do love and admire your gifs (they're always so clear and well-colored in a way I can never make them!) I will hope to see you participate. In terms of rewatching, I actually do randomly rewatch when I start gifing, like if I choose a particular episode, I end up watching more than half of it if not all. I'm here if I can help your process somehow and make it better for you! <3

[poolboyservice]

hello :33 🧙‍♂️👽 for the anon ask game (＞Д＜)

all of this is /pos btw!!!

you give me INSANE pastel green hair w a party-poison-kinda-undercut vibes. idk why

I can very clearly see u wearing midwestern emo kinda fashion,,, like flannels,, band tees and ripped jeans n all that and absolutely SLAYING it may I add

people mistake u for a vampire at least twice a day 🫶

you either have the most icy blue eyes known to man or beautiful /p brown orbs.

you def carry around a sketchbook w the cutest lil doodles in it ever . but one page could be that and the next would be the most well crafted piece of fic writing, literature masterpiece anyone has ever read and you'd just shrug it off because ur so chill like that

for some reason I feel like u would smell like vanilla/jasmine flavoured perfume

AND FINALLY. rough guess but your fave doki is either Monika or Sayori

OOOHHHHH I LOVE THIS !!!!!!!!!!!!

i actually have a hairstyle kind of similar to Party's (I say kind of cuz its grown out and it was meant to be a wolfcut), although i js have red hair </3 nothing special, though !!! I may have a go at a similar-ish color of bright teal, kinda like gerard's roots, or vaya from the killjoys comics

i need to ask though, HOW DID YOU GUESS MY CLOTHING STYLE. HOW. TELL ME. only thing i can say is different is that my jeans ARENT ripped, but outside of that I do have a few band ts I basically wear weekly (1 mcr t shirt, 2 misfits t shirt, and although not a shirt, 1 ramones sweater). i may draw yesterday and 2 days ago's fits to kinda show you what I tend to wear when the sun isn't strangling me, and some other fits. i rlly like them and they kinda remind me of like . those mcr college AUs, idk why. i may just take a picture of my fits on the floor though because I DONT feel like drawing the t shirts i have <//3

YOU WERE SPOT ON WITH THE SKETCHBOOK THING !!!!! Not even kidding, the journal I have holds a lot of lil shitposts n sketches, but the literal first page of said sketchbook is a love story to an angel-like being that's a metaphor for being trans and what people deem a monster. Aint even the first time either, I also wrote poems that literally made people cry in my notebooks and I'm like ??? its not THAT good guys :'[

you were just dead on w the vanilla scent and the monika being my fave <//3 assigned monika by god itself really /j

can't believe you exactly guessed my eyes though . they are ICY blue, like bert mccracken blue kinda shit. i've been told i look like a gerbert lovechild cuz of that, which . i can never confirm nor deny.

[intersex-support]

Do you have information regarding chimera intersex conditions (if im using the right term). I have reason to believe I at least may be some form of chimera but have suspicions about intersexism aswell, but information is hard to find. I'm mostly wondering if there's an intersex condition that could outwardly appear as an afab, with most of the condition being internal if that makes sense?

I have a very masculine build and square jawline, with small hips (though I sport stretch marks there), and I have a clear line on my stomach and lower back where half of it is darker than the other, and my face is clearly very asymmetrical (like weirdly asymmetrical, my eyes are two different shapes).

(Cw for like period/genital talk rq)

I also have rly painful periods (though I only rly cramp on one side, though this could be attributed to the possibility of Endometriosis) yet my flow is abnormally light (considering my family's history of heavy flows) And I dont know if this is normal because I cant get a solid answer from google but I have literally no feeling inside my vagina, like none at all. (if this is normal just ignore this, but I have a feeling its not? Sorry btw if that is awkward I just need a solid answer)

I don't know what other information to include so if you need more I can send another ask in. It's just rly rough being almost 21 and realizing ur body is like, "abnormal" compared to everyone around you (sort of feels like a teenager issue lol). And I just need someone to tell me if I should drop it or if i really should bring this up to my doctor.

Thank you for the time you took to read this, it means a lot this has really been bothering me and i just need some help

Hi anon,

I'm glad you reached out. I know how tough it is to find information about intersex variations on the internet, so I also asked some of my friends who are chimeras to give some input on this answer. I know it can be really overwhelming to try to figure out if you're intersex, so just want to affirm that you are not alone in that and that you can research at whatever pace feels comfortable for you!

There are several intersex variations where you might have external genitalia like a vulva and clitoris, but that you might have internal testes, streak gonads, or ovotestes.

For chimerism, there is a lot of variety in terms of how it presents, so people will have a whole range of combinations of genitalia, gonads, secondary sex characteristics, all depending on their own unique variation. This can include ambiguous genitalia, genitalia that looks liek a vulva and vagina, and genitalia that looks more like a penis. It can be hard to find specific information, because so much of it will vary depending on your own situation. This article (tw for intersexist medical language) describes someone with chimerism who menstruates, so that is definitely possible. I can't find any specific information about period pain and chimerism, but I talked with a friend with chimerism who experiences a lot of period pain, so that definitely can happen.

I've only found information talking about different eye colors as something that can sometimes happen with chimerism and couldn't find anything about eye shape specifically. Having patches of different colored or textured hair can be a sign of chimerism.

Basically, it's possible that you could be a chimera with both XX and XY chromosomes, have a vulva and clitoris and menstruate, and potentially have ovaries or testes. The only way to confirm that would be through genetic testing.

Other possibilities to look into might include mosaicism. I'd suggest reading through this intersex variations glossary and see if anything jumps out at you that is in line with other symptoms you might have.

Overall, it's certainly possible for someone to have chimerism/chromosome variations, a vulva and vagina, periods, and potentially variations in gonads as well. If you are interested in looking more into this, you would probably want to see an endocrinologist or a clinical geneticist who could help you explore different options. I wish I had more resources to offer you, but most of the stuff out there is just different medical articles that use a lot of discriminatory language. Please feel free to reach back out with any follow up questions or just to receive support, and know that we are wishing you the best of luck on this journey.

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