#don't worry i'll answer all DMs in just a second

[20-th-centurygirl]

work for it

jude bellingham x reader

a/n: based on this because i can't get over it

summary: jude slides into your dms and what follows is something you could have never imagined

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instagram:

judebellingham started following you

surely not? why was the jude bellingham following you??

yourusername added to their story

↳ judebellingham: 😍😍

yourusername: hello 🤨

judebellingham: hey

judebellingham: just wanted to say i think you're gorgeous

yourusername: thank you 🫶

judebellingham: anytime

you couldn't actually believe what you were seeing. jude bellingham calling you gorgeous? what sort of dream were you living in? you tried not to get too excited, you'd heard all about his reputation and he'd probably never give you a second thought. but you were wrong.

2 days later

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judebellingham: hey

judebellingham: how are you doing

yourusername: i'm doing great

yourusername: how are you doing? i saw your last few madrid games and you played great

judebellingham: thanks. i'm good

judebellingham: maybe you should come to a game one day 😉

the next 6 months that followed were a dream. you'd exchanged phone numbers with jude a month after your first conversation and you'd spoken every day since. you'd congratulated him after every win and comforted him after every loss. facetiming eachother became your nightly routine and you couldn't believe how lucky you were.

but you tried to take it all with a grain of salt. jude had a reputation of being a player, something you already knew and had been reminded of by your friends. you were more than a fuck and you wanted jude to know that.

jude: hey love

jude: i've got a big game and i was wondering if you want to come and then stay over with me for a few days? i really wanna see you again

you: i'll try to come but i don't know if i'll be able to get the time off

jude: just let me know so i can get enough tickets x

you didn't really know how to react. you loved meeting jude for the first time, but the idea of going over to stay with him scared you. you'd started to really like jude, and worried that he only wanted to get you to come over to him so sleep with you.

you knew all about his reputation, and you didn't think you knew him well enough so you slowly distanced yourself from jude.

jude: can you come? we haven't spoke in a few days and i need to know

you: i can't come sorry. the next weeks just super busy for me :(

the following week consisted of you and jude barely speaking. you felt bad about it, you didn't mean to upset him but you didn't want to get your hopes up. you'd heard about footballers and the way they had casual hookups then ignored girls. you didn't want that. you were worth more than that and you didn't want to get hurt by jude because he didn't have the same intentions as you.

but jude was on the exact same page as you. he didn't understand why you'd just basically disappeared, had he done something wrong? did he make you feel like he was rushing you? he'd tried to call you, but you didn't answer, instead texting him a simple "sorry i've been busy lately" and leaving him alone.

at first jude tried to appreciate that you were just abit busy. he knew you cared alot about your studies and work and were independent, but he couldn't help feeling a bit hurt. nothing in your routine had actually changed, and jude had started to get the impression you were ignoring him on purpose.

you wouldn't answer his calls and barely texted him, so he decided to come to you. he messaged one of your closest friends that he'd met before and asked her to help him suprise you.

the pounding on your door abruptly woke you up, and you swung it open with a scowl on your face until you saw who was behind it. your eyes locked with judes, and you couldn't actually believe he was infront of you holding the biggest bunch or roses you'd ever seen.

jude's heart melted at the sight of you. your hair messy, a duvet wrapped about you and a tired grin on your face. "jude?"

"hi" his voice was shakey but he smiled widely regardless.

"what're you doing here? come in you're gonna get ill"

he stepped in, shutting the door behind him but he didn't dare move any further. "i'm sorry. if you want me to leave i will but i just wanted to see that you were ok. we've suddenly just stopped speaking and i was worried that i pressured you. i'm sorry if i made you think i was pushing you to get too serious to fast. i just really like you"

"seriously?"

"yes"

"jude i'm so sorry. i didn't wanna upset you i just got scared. i know all about footballers reputations and yours and i just didn't wanna be another girl that you just sleep with then ignore" you felt mean saying it. super mean.

"what? look i've done that before but you're so so different. everything about you is so perfect. your laugh, your eyes, how kind you are, the way you always see the best in people. i've known you for six months but i feel like i've known you all my life. you're literally perfect. i'm sorry if i made you feel like i didn't see you that way. i will do whatever it takes to prove to you how much you mean to me" he brought his hands up to cup your cheeks and you leaned into them, the warmth of his palms and his words making love wash over you.

"i really really like you jude" you mumbled, and he grinned wide "good cause i really really like you too"

"y'know, if you can still get me tickets i'll come to your matches"

"don't feel like you have to baby"

"i do. i want us to spend more time together jude"

he pulled you into his chest, wrapping his arms around you. "d'ya wanna go and get breakfast tomorrow? it can be our first proper date" he lightly pinched your side, melting when he felt a smile form on your face. "i'd like that"

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Am i (FTM 18) the asshole for accidentally telling out friends about how my bf is into CBT? (that's cock and ball torture btw)

So the other day me and my bf's friends were all talking in the group chat we had. My bf is quite a bit older than me so we don't really have the same friends. I'm very open with my friends about my life, even my sex life yeah, though it's all joking. My bf, who I'll call Steve, is decidedly not. He doesn't mind the jokes about it though and we make them with each other and the group chat all the time. ANYWAYS onto the story, we were all talking in the gc and one of my friends made some joke about me needing a dick appointment and i made a joke back about how i needed to be eaten out, kissed and hugged along with the 'dick appointment' and my friend asks if its in that order and i said yes. I jokingly told Steve that we have a new plan for the weekend and he said yes. a second later he says something about how he was gonna say something else but now wasn't going to. Me and my other friend, who I'll call Toby, pestered him about it for a bit until he dmed me telling me it had to be in that order cause he liked eating his cum out of me. 

I screenshotted it and showed it to Toby and we laughed about it for a bit. This isn't the first time I've screenshotted something and sent it to my friend, and Steve knows that. 

Toby jokingly called my boyfriend a freak (which I often do myself, as it’s sort of an inside joke because of the things he’s into.) He then added that he bets Steve would like getting kicked in the balls too, which we both found funny and that prompted me to ask my boyfriend if he’s into it. He immediately knew that I’m asking him to just send it to Toby, but I reassured him that it would stay between us. After a bit of going back and forth between me asking him if he’d be into it and him asking why that’s important, I eventually lied and admitted that I’d like to kick him in the balls just to get an answer out of him. (Btw Toby said that I should just say that *I* want to do it, so that Steve would actually admit if he’s into it or not) Steve was a bit surprised but then he said he’s into CBT. I had no idea how to respond to that, to which Steve got even more suspicious that I’m trying to play a joke on him. I said that’s not true and that I love him and from there on our conversation went a different way. Meanwhile, me and Toby were laughing about it through our DMs, but it was nothing with mean intent. Toby and I joke like that all the time!

Later on, the next day, Steve and I were talking again and he ended up saying something about how if he ever does this one thing, he wanted me to cut his dick off as a joke. The entire message was longer, so I screenshotted it and sent it to the group chat, but I scribbled out the entire message except for when it said “I want you to cut my dick off.” as a joke. Toby and I laughed about it in the groupchat, Steve called me a dick and i jokingly said something like ‘nuh uh, you're into CBT” cause i thought it was obvious everyone else would take it as a joke and toby ended up saying something about how “after yesterday’s conversation, i'm not surprised.” While this conversation was going on, Steve was DMing me telling me to go suck a dick and I said I would go suck one that wasn't his and he told me to have fun. This is also normal for us, to say i was gonna go get fucked by someone else cause then he’d usually fuck the shit out of me and then afterwards we reassure each other that we love eachother and only each other. It's  a sex thing not a toxic thing or something. He wasn't responding back like he normally would and in the moment i thought it was just him pretending to be mad cause he’ll do that sometimes cause i find it hot, but then my friend toby said he would be worried if *his* partner started talking the way Steve was to me, but to him so i got worried and texted him asking if he was alright.

Steve told me that he’s not alright and what I did wasn’t funny. I really thought we were messing around! This wasn’t the first time either of us joked about our kinks with our friends and I thought he was playing along with it the entire time. He told me that he doesn’t find it funny that I asked him such a personal question and then I went to tell Toby and then the rest of the group chat, especially after he thought I was messing with him and I assured him I wasn’t. He told me he wasn’t mad, just hurt, and I suddenly felt really bad for joking about something like that. I explained to him that I wasn’t trying to expose him and I was just joking around. He told me it’s fine, but I still felt very guilty about it, so much so that I began profusely apologizing and even crying at some point because I knew I fucked up real bad. I didn’t feel like I deserved his forgiveness, but he tried reassuring me that I shouldn’t feel so upset about it and that things like that happened all the time. I’m not sure if I could ever forgive myself for making him upset with a joke, but I know that he’s a very forgiving person and he won’t hold it against me even if he was upset.

btw the whole dick appointment joke was cause toby was talking about how he thought i had audhd and i said i needed a therapist then our friends jack said the whole dick appointment thing

ALSO can you tag this with ‼️ /nf just so i can find it later ^^

What are these acronyms?

[olivianyx]

How can I continue to persist after becoming disillusioned? Is all this real? Since I saw something about the law, something that has given me proof that everything is false, I have questioned the law and started to feel that everything is a lie and that I have been wasting my time, now I am depressed, every time I read the stories of success, I believed them and looked at them. as hope now Nothing will be like before, I wanted the look of my dreams, I wanted the life of my dreams, but now I feel like everything has already gone to shit, my desires collapsed in a second, I've been trying to manifest. . Me for 4 years. Years and nothing has changed, I had high hopes but now I feel like I was never a god, I had a list of things I wanted to do when I became a master manifestor but I think it was all an illusion, now I'm going to stay locked in this fucking shit of the 3D. I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like everyone lied to me and I will never be able to get rid of this fucking shitty life.

Sorry for the rudeness, my intention is not to be rude but I am devastated and I don't know what to do with these feelings, I am not even close to letting it all go to hell.

Honey, don't worry, I've been there. I know how hopeless that feels. How you feel your heart clench and your mind going crazy when you see success stories, I know that horrible feeling honey. Unfortunately, we're the ones that's responsible for our states.

We're the ones that chose this state of hopelessness. Only we have the power to change it, and not success stories. It's cause we focus on changing the outer reality practically & logically since human mind is designed to work like that. But the ones who chose to throw the perspective of physical senses away, and chose to believe in the illogical, unreal stuff, that helps to change everything, win. They win. We as humans have absolutely no purpose. When I say we have no purpose, we don't. We're here to learn what's the truth, and just enjoy life with whatever we want. That's life. That's not something serious at all. We're the ones that chose life to be serious.

I'll tell you, the way your mindset is, is not your fault since we're influenced by the outer reality. So we tend to think in the society's perspective. The law is real sweetheart. Just take action upon yourself in your mind, and see the magic of the law. I know it's a harder pill to swallow, but that's the truth. I really understand how you feel, but love, isn't it exhausting to live a life which isn't making you happy? I don't know your age, but think of me as your elder sister, and please listen. Life has given you this opportunity to know about the law honey, yet, you struggle to apply this small concept. It's okay till now honey, but now you know, start applying. Yes it's sometimes hard being delusional and persist, but as you go on, it's easy as fuck.

Coming to the law, what does the law state? Whatever you assume to be true is true. Full stop. How do you assume? Induce the thoughts of your desires already done, live as if it's done cus it already is, you already have them, and deny the rest and move on. That's it. You don't even have to wait. Tf time doesn't exist. There's no overcomplicating shit. It's just simple as that. You already are a master manifestor, you're just manifesting the wrong stuff, my love. Focus your attention, feelings and thoughts on what you desire. You already are what you desire. It's no more a desire. You're being the version of you who has your desire. You should change your self, and nothing else. Stop expecting the 3d to change, when the source hasn't been changed. That's it honey, that's all you gotta do and you don't even need to lift a finger.

If you want me to help you, I'll gladly do it. Dm me or hit on my asks. I'm here any time (actually I'm offline most of the time 😭) I do answer any and every ask.

[ninjago-drabbles]

Bruiseshipping Exchange 2024! (Sign-up, how-to, and rules)

I've gotten a good few people that say they're interested in reblogs and DMs so I decided to go ahead an get the ball rolling with the sign-ups! (We'll see how the turn-out is and go from there.) Fill out this below to join as an author or (multimedia) artist! (What is an exchange? What's the schedule? See the read more below!)

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An exchange is a fun opportunity to put more content into the world for our favorite ship! In the sign-up form, you'll put a few prompts (of any level of description) for fic/art you'd like to receive, and then describe some things that you'll be willing to create yourself. I'll go through the entries and match people based on compatibility, and you'll soon be emailed with the "wishlist" of a fellow bruiseshipper! These will be your guidelines to create either your art or fic. On May 25th, you'll post your work and reveal who you are to your giftee!

Rules:

Fic: Minimum will be 1,000 words, as of now. (If you want to join but are unsure if you can meet this in the time frame, please reach out! We can work something out.) No maximum limit! Make sure to tag properly and reach out to me if you have any questions about content.

Art: Digital and traditional pieces of course, and if you want to join with something such as edits or any other kind of media that's not mentioned, please mention so on your sign-up! This exchange is to simply put more bruise into the world, so we don't want to limit what kind of creativity that takes the shape of. Finished drawings must be colored and lined. Videos must be at least 30 seconds. For visual edits such as moodboards, gifsets, etc., I'm roughly putting the minimum at 2. It will be case by case (email to talk about specifics if this applies to you!)

Anything goes as far as content, as long as you meet the criteria provided by your giftee (you will be emailed all this information once you've been matched!) If you want to use any tropes/ratings/etc. that you're unsure of, please reach out to me (NOT your giftee) to act as a liaison to double-check.

Don't tell your giftee that you have them! We'll be operating secretly to add a little extra fun to the exchange, so wait until the posting date to let your person know who you are!

Communication is welcome, so please feel free to send a message or ask if you have any questions or things to say :)

See previously asked questions here

Schedule:

✅ Sign-ups: thru March 1

✅ Giftee info sent out: March 4th

✅ Check-in

Gift reveal: May 25 (Bruise Day!)

Take all of this with grain of salt, as if not enough people sign-up I might switch this over to a Bruise Week or something like that. Anything to bring this fun ship fandom together and spur more fanwork <3 No worries if this is the case, we are an old fandom after all! (We're all a go for an exchange, y'all are wonderful!)😊

-Arella

[grogusmum]

JUNE: Litha

A Javi and the Beekeeper Summer Solstice Story

JAVI GUTIÉRREZ X GN!READER

W/C: 1465ish

WARNINGS: mentions of consuming food and wine As always, if you see something, say something. Please let me know in my DMs, and I'll add it.

A/N: Here is the June installment of The Wheel of the Year, my theme for @yearofcreation2023 Organized by the effervescent @oonajaeadira and @writeforfandoms

Javi and The Beekeeper

Wheel of the Year Masterlist

The smell of beeswax and pine paneling warmed by the summer sun, fills the small building. A slowly whirling ceiling fan does its best, but the small cauldron of melted wax has you running a bandana up the back of your neck, and reaching for your water bottle.

The hinged windows are open wide, catching the gentle sea breeze, and that same breeze catches windchimes hanging from the porch, just as the bell on the shop door tinkles They blend together merrily, making you miss a possible customer coming into the small storefront- it's not so much a storefront as it is a glorified farmstand- but you don't miss the creak of the old wood floors.

"Hello," you call, "I'll be right out!"

But the footfalls continue, then ducking his head, Javi enters your workshop, filling the space with his sunshine.

"My bee charmer," he has some wildflowers from the meadow across the way in hand.

"Javi!" You come around your work table wrapping him in a hug, he is not supposed to be home until the weekend. Being mindful of your waxy hands your hug is just arms and chest, with your chin in the crook of his neck.

"Sorry 'bout my hands."

"You should be," Javi says, affronted, then whispers, eyebrows quirking, "they are not on me."

When you pull away to look at him, he snorts a laugh-

"Pfft, like a line in a movie- a pretty cheesy one!"

"I like cheese." You say softly looking at him through your lashes.

"Oh you are always so much better at this," Javi’s wide hand comes up and cradles the back of your head, bringing his soft lips to yours, his tongue impatiently looking for entry. You grant it. He hums, deepening the kiss until you both need to come up for air.

"You're better than you think," your smile presses against his cheek as you catch your breath.

Javi holds you another heartbeat, two, three… then looks around, pairs of candles sharing the same cotton wick hang from rows of dowels on simple stands.

"Candle making day?"

"Yup, all week. But tonight is special!"

"What is tonight?" Javi frowns slightly, worry in his sweet eyes, "while I was supposed to be away?"

"I can't move Litha to another day, silly."

Javi looks at you nonplussed.

"The summer solstice, love."

"Oh," his brows go up with a smile, "It's part of the reason I'm back early, to be here for the party for the crew," here, his face falls. "Were you not coming?"

"When I thought you wouldn't be there, no, I wasn't going to come this year… but not because of my candle making, usually I do both. I can do both."

"Can I do both?" Javi wraps his arms around you again, "can I help with your special candles?"

You hum in the affirmative, kissing him as you do.

Javi wears sun colors to the summer celebration, one of the many ways the Gutiérrez family thanks their crew for the work they do. There are strings of pennant flags with suns on them, live music, and long tables, piled high with food and festooned with gazanias, looking like little suns themselves.

You needed to finish up some work and Javi had to oversee the party preparation- so you arrive later with Lola and Juan, wearing pale yellow with a necklace with a sun pendant.

Javi beams when he sees you, he is blinding, you think.

"How is he mine?" You ask no one in particular.

Together Lola and Juan answer:

"Don't question it."

"You're a good match!"

You look at both of them and laugh openly.

After enjoying the second half of the longest day, dancing, eating and drinking more sangria than you planned, you look over the rolling hills, bee boxes dotting them, and in the hollows fireflies begin to blink languidly.

It's time to go.

Back at your workshop, you turn on some string lights. The little globes run from the porch to a large holm oak. You love this tree - also known as the holly oak, as it has pointed evergreen leaves, though the edges go smooth over time It reminds you of the duality and oneness of the oak and holly kings. Their battle for dominance through the seasons- though in the end they are one and the same, the two sides to an ancient coin.

Your cauldron awaits by the fire pit, while your tools and ingredients are laid out on a scrubbed pine table.

In the months you've been together, Javi has joined you in your celebrations and rituals. Just like with the bees, he is eager and observant. So he knows your habit of walking clockwise around the fire circle and stopping in the south to light it. He does so, you watch his attentiveness to the things that are important to you, and your eyes glass momentarily.

"I love you, you know."

In the catching firelight and string lights it's impossible to see the blush dust his cheeks and the tips of his ears. But his sweet crooked smile and eyes drifting to the side let's you know.

"Well, I know, you know, I love you, because how could you not know, you know?" He is in a silly mood, which is one of your favorites.

"You would never let me forget, sweet man."

You wrap your arms around his middle, kissing his freckled neck.

Javi looks down at you, and brings your chin up so he can kiss your mouth. Soft and languid.

When he has kissed you thoroughly, Javi pulls back-

"Shall we call the quarters?"

Feeling a bit drunk, which seems to be less about the sangria and more to do with Javi, you nod with a smile.

"We should."

Javi moves back several paces staying to the south of the fire, while you move to the north of it.

You call on the spirits, the guardians, of the four directions. Beseeching them to bestow their blessing and elemental attributes upon the ritual.

Your circle is cast.

Javi takes the cauldron and places it on the fire.

As the fire roars and you place the beeswax in to melt, you close your eyes and focus on the sun, it's radiance, warmth and power. Javi follows suit, closing his eyes, breathing deep the smell of the wax, like summer itself.

Breathing in, breathing out, breathing in, breathing out…

You move to the table and press the power button on a small speaker, a celtic harp plays. And you take up the pestle and begin crushing the dried herbs and flowers you have laid out. Javi attaches several lengths of the cotton wick to one end of wooden dowels.

When all is prepared, you give one dowel to Javi and take one up yourself. Back in your places at the cauldron, you hold the wicks over the cauldron.

"The music sets the pace, when in the south we dip the wicks, then pull them out and walk clockwise around the cauldron. So you start and when I am in the south, you wait at the north. Make sense?"

Javi nods.

And so you went round and round in the direction of the sun, dipping your candles into the liquid wax. The walk round allowing it to solidify enough for the next dip. When they are good sturdy candles, you roll them in the mix of plants. Rose petals, oak leaves, calendula, holly leaves and berries, basil flowers, red clover, rosemary, flowers, bee balm, and of course gazanias and the red berried mistletoe that grows on olive trees. Either foraged or from your garden.

When you finish, you dismiss the spirits (if they wish) with thanks and close the circle. The candles are placed in the workshop to finish setting, and you spread out a blanket under that huge holm oak and lay out some wine, fruit, and cheese. It's late, but both your bodies hum with energy from the ritual. Music still plays, but you've switched it up to some uptempo Spanish guitar.

Javi pours the wine and you feed him some grapes with a laugh.

"Thank you."

"For what, mi amor?"

"For being loving to what I love," you say.

"You have watched every Nic Cage movie with me, you sit in that dark little theater when I know you'd rather be outside…"

"I love movies too."

"Yes, but… I know."

You sip your wine with a gleam in your eye, then lean in to kiss him. Quickly you are shuffling on your knees to get closer. "I need to finish charting every freckle, I have constellations still to name."

Javi smiles wide as he catches you round your middle-

"So you do."

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[grimmjowswoman]

Short Grimmjow X f!reader scenario 2

Who says Grimmjow can't be sweet :D

Word Count: 618

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"Do we really have to go?" Grimmjow already started complaining as I was starting to get ready to visit Ichigo and Orihime because they invited us over for dinner

"Yes we do, i promised Orihime that we'll come" i reply to him and i can hear him whine behind me

"I didn't agree to that," Grimmjow said as he got up from laying on the bed to sitting on the edge of it

"I'm not asking for your agreement, we are going means that we're going"

"You're lucky that i love you, or else!" He murmured that sentence to himself but i was able to hear

"Or else what?" I stopped getting ready and looked behind me at him with my hands on my hips waiting for him to answer but i got nothing from him, he was just looking at me then i smiled "that's what i thought" after saying that, i saw him roll his eyes so i sent him a flying kiss. This man drives me crazy so I'm doing the same to him

"I'll go shower really quick" Grimmjow exclaimed and got up from our bed and made his way to me to leave a kiss on my nape before leaving.

"Hurry up please, don't keep me waiting" i say and turn my head to face him then leans close to peck his lips and with a smile on his face he left to go shower meanwhile i went back to getting ready.

A few minutes later, i hear the bedroom door opens again and emerges from there Grimmjow with a towel wrapped around his waist and droplets of water all over his chest, i stopped doing my hair and looked at him drying his hair with the second towel then he noticed me staring

"Don't stare for too long or your eyes will pop out of your head" Grimmjow smirks and i roll my eyes at him before pointing at the bed.

"I picked up an outfit for you, wear it" i say before going back to doing my hair

"I could've chose myself" Grimmjow said as he made his way to the wardrobe to get his underwear

"My fault for trying to help" I said with a sad voice which made Grimmjow make his way towards me and hugging me from behind wetting my newly straightened hair "Grimmjow! My hair!!! I just did it!" I whine at him and push him away

"Oops" that's all he said, I scoffed at him and started redoing my hair angrily "Sorry, I'll make it up for you"

"You better" i sighed in frustration and continued doing my hair but Grimmjow stopped me "What?" I ask him and he takes my straightener from my hand

"I'll do it for you" Grimmjow says as he starts to do it

"Do you know how?" I ask him, worried that he might burn my hair

"I've seen you doing it enough times to know how to do it" He says proudly

I look up at him in the mirror as he straightens my hair and a big smile creeps up my face as i keep looking at him and how he's focused.

"I could get used to this," I say as I relax while he does my hair, I see him smile

"This is the one time only" Grimmjow teases but i start to pout at him, he looked at me from the mirror and chuckled "maybe not" and with that i smiled again at him

"I love you," I tell him as I look up at him from my seat and look down at him then lean down to peck my lips before returning to doing my hair

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Taglist: @novaselfship. ~ (DM if you want to be added to the list <3 )

[shakooo]

Hey Shakoo!! I have a silly question, if you don't mind answering :):

So you mentioned you use Toonsquid, correct? Well I noticed how you kinda make more animatic style videos, like not frame-by-frame. I was wondering how you make more "animatic style videos" instead of smooth animation on an app mostly used for smooth animation. Sorry if that makes zero sense 💀 I wanna make a YouTube channel and try again on TikTok with just art, and I just needed a little help. You're a huge inspiration to me <3

Thank you!!

hiiiii Mel sorry for taking so long to respond :(

but weeeell answering your question YEP i use toonsquid and about the rest mhhhm first of all i want to clarify that i am veryVERY new to this "animate" thing since i was barely able to get Toonsquid TwT

and there really are MANY techniques to make an animatic, but well, and all i know is cuz over the years i have seen thousands of artists make animatics, and now that i can try to animate i am trying to apply what i was able to se so i also recommend watching tutorials if you don't understand my explanation (i not understood well what you meant by "like not frame by frame" srry 😭 if i explained something totally different from what you were referring to,but don't worry) i'll still try to explain to you how i do it ^v^

(ig you can't see something in the images, just tell me, and i can send them to you by DM)

| i tried to make a mini video to explain it, maybe it's not the best example but yeah |

here something that i can recommend is not to work with less fps, for example a canvas of 2-4 fps, that indicates are the drawings that you need to form a second, like if you use a canvas with 2 fps , you will only use 2 drawings to form a second, although i say this from personal experience cuz before when i """animated""" in Procreate i tried to make an animatic and it was very uncomfortable, because i thought that to make an animatic i needed less fps jaksjka

but i say this from my own experience, maybe you can do that and i'm telling you the opposite😭JAKSJKAJA

AAAAND i hink that's all i can say, and what i know, i'm sorry if you don't understand much of what i said, but explaining things is difficult for me without avoiding going too far TT-TT

i also hope this helps you!!! i am realy glad you consider me an inspiration IT MEANS A LOT TO ME!🥺💖🫶 and k also wish you the best with your new start on YouTube and tiktok :'>>> if you dedicate yourself to this and put effort into it you will go faaaar

[originalgenshinscenarios]

Monthly special: Variable Barricade crossover!

I kept worrying about the word count and then I thought "hold on a moment, earlier 4k words was because I tried to give every suitor a time to shine! So this having less than 3k isn't bad!". So that's what I'll believe lol... Hope you enjoy it!

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Reader here is female and has established background.

Cw: Age gap (Reader is 18 and the ladies are ages 20-24)

|First Chapter|

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With how everything was going on lately you don't feel too relaxed… fighting your feelings and making appearances finally started to take a toll on you.

Fortunately, Miko has a solution.

Miko's part one: chapter 1- Fluffy therapy.

You're back home again. Going from your one responsibility of studying to shifting to your duty of finding a wife among your suitors. Each day someone else is greeting you, today was Miko's "turn".

"You poor thing. You look exhausted" although she was clearly teasing you, her voice had it's tone of worry.

"Care to tell me something I'm not aware of?" you sarcastically snap back.

"What a coincidence that you've asked. I made plans for us today" her smug smile was very taunting, but you didn't respond to that "I know that you'd like to be informed in advance but… I feel like having less order will do you good" she took her hand out for you to accept.

You wanted to say how lack of order is only bound to make you more stressed, but you also had promised Thoma and Ayaka to try and be less hostile around them.

With some hesitation, you take her hand. She was clearly satisfied with your non-verbal answer and the two of you went upstairs to the second floor where your suitors had their rooms.

Being alone with Miko in her room did make you flustered, but you weren't going to panic, not yet at least.

"So why did you bring me here?" you ask as you look around. Her room was simple and yet it had that luxurious feeling to it.

"Sit down and I'll tell you about it" she went to her wardrobe and took out a box. She didn't open it right away as she started speaking "I've noticed that even though you're getting used to us, you're still pretty stressed all the time. I'd like to help you" she sat down next to you "I figured now would be the perfect time for me to show you that I'll give you something the other three can't"

You hate how indirect she was with her words as your mind started wondering what exactly could she possibly mean "Go on" you ask her to finish.

"Quite impatient one aren't you?" she chuckles as she opens the box "It's what I believe will help you relax. Working with writers really gave me a lot of ways to help someone forget their struggles and from what I've tried, I believe this will help"

She takes out a pillow. It's shaped like a fox tail and is just looks so fluffy to touch… "I don't get how this will help" you pretend not to be intrigued.

"Trust me, it works. Just close your eyes and pet it" giving you directions, she put the box away.

For a moment you do as she tells you to. The longer you do it, you could feel some tension leaving you. You start to clear your mind and start to feel warm as you lean to relax further. It was soft… Really soft. Miko really must've invested in great quality cushions as you feel a bit different when you lean down a little on the couch instead of sitting straight up.

Then you slightly open your eyes and you notice that you've leaned on Miko this entire time. Her arms were gently embracing you and you flinched the moment you saw what situation you were in "And who told you you could do that!?" you snap at her as you could feel how hot your cheeks were getting.

"It was you who leaned on first, I only played along" although she was serious she couldn't help but chuckle at your reaction "But you must admit that you managed to unwind even for just a little hm?"

"You're the worst" you pout before standing up and leaving the room. But Miko didn't seem bothered by that, as she didn't follow after you left.

-

When walking back downstairs you were quickly spotted by Thoma. He seemed concerned as he was by your side almost immediately "Lady Y/N… is everything okay?"

You take a deep breath to calm down, you don't want to worry Thoma, nor do you want to admit to literally running away from your suitor "Yes, everything is completely fine"

Your butler continued speaking to you, but your mind was still with Miko. Her comforting embrace, warmth it all made it impossible to stay focused because the only thing you can think about is how much you miss it. And she was right, it did made you feel relaxed. Perhaps that's why you wish to be with her once again. Wait what? Why are you thinking like that?

"Y/N..?" hearing him call out to you made you snap back to reality.

"Oh- sorry Thoma, could you repeat that?" it was embarrassing to be so inattentive… but it was all Miko's fault!

"I was asking if you'd like to eat something" he didn't seem all that bothered that you've ignored him.

-

Next day when you came back, it was Miko who greeted you again. You were surprised and yet you tired to appear tough… even though Miko read you like a book

"Oh dear, you look like you have a fever…" she tried reaching her hand out to you.

"I don't have it, thanks for worrying. Bye" you quickly say before rushing upstairs.

Ever since that, your situation with Miko looked like that every day. Of course her teasing was different each time but the pattern was the same. You cut every conversation short. Still, she seemed to have an odd sense of satisfaction whenever you basically ran from her blushing.

It didn't help no matter what you did, you thought back on her embrace. You want to experience it again. It really helped, you felt less tense. If not for your reaction you figure that you'd enjoy it even more. But now it was time for your pride to stand in the way. You can't possibly ask her about it directly… so it was time to consult someone about it.

You're talking to Ayaka who carefully listened to your full story "Oh my, congratulations Y/N. You managed to get out of your comfort zone, even if for just a little" she sounded proud.

"I just- ugh. I reacted so strongly she'd definitely make fun of me if I were to ask her to make those fluffy therapy sessions into a habit" you can only think about what she'd say…

-

"Miko, I apologize for my outburst earlier. I want to continue what I stopped" after asking you'd be met with her teasing smirk "Oho~ do you really admit it already? You agree that you need me~?" She'd lift your chin up "Just say yes and I'll make sure to make you a happy girl indeed~" her voice, her gaze… everything would be almost hypnotic-!

-

You snap back from your "fantasies" as you really don't know what else to call whatever your imagination just tortured you with... Helplessly looking at Ayaka, you feel dumb that you're asking her for advice so often as of late.

"But don't you think being indirect would make it even worse?" She suggests.

You think for a moment.

-

"Miko… I think your method wasn't performed how it should've been. We must try again at once and fix those mistakes" although you'd try to sound confident your body language would betray you.

"Such a cute excuse. Fortunately for you, it makes you adorable so I won't complain" she'd take your hand "But since you already said that method is faulty I do have a few other methods in mind" and you could only wonder what imaginary Miko meant by that.

-

"Right… Then what do I do?" it's really impossible, you can't think of anything that will let you keep some of your pride. Even if what you ask for is a ticket to be more vulnerable.

"I'm sorry but I really can't think of anything besides just talking to her" Ayaka looked sad about the fact that she can't help you. But you were more bothered by your helplessness rather than Ayaka's inability to help "It's okay, I really shouldn't burden you with having to help me out all the time"

"Burden? What a silly thought! I'd never think of you as such" her sweet smile was just everything "I'm happy that you aren't afraid to rely on me"

"If you say so" you smile back at her, you were really lucky to have such a friend.

"Now I can't really help you with your situation… but I believe in you! I'm sure you'll figure something out" with her words you felt motivated.

-

Yet as you walk through the door and look at Miko, all of your courage jumps out of the window.

|I need to push forward! (Romance)|

Just how long are you going to let yourself stay in one place? It really is pathetic how you just let yourself be held back by your pride all the time.

"Miko" you speak up before her, earning her curiosity "I.." you trail off, your gaze not being focused on the woman before you. It was tough but you finally said "I want us to continue what where we left off last time"

|I really need a break… (Reason)|

Snap out of it! You can't let an opportunity to touch that fluffy tail pass just like that!

"Hello Y/N, how was your day?" she challenged you with the way she looked at you as she asked that question.

"It was bad enough" you don't care anymore about her teasing "Can we try that thing again with the fox tail pillow?" you sigh, signaling that you really need this. Even though asking about it is what let your mind be so tired to begin with.

-----

"Of course" she chuckles "I thought it'd take you much longer to say it, good job Y/N" she patted your head. It felt infuriating… but right now all you cared about was to sit down, relax and forget about everything around you.

You went back to her room and at first you felt a little bit awkward. But with time you stopped being so aware of your situation. Which Miko noticed, but she didn't say anything about it, she was glad that she gets to see you like this.

"You can come to me whenever you need it Y/N" unlike her previous tone, what she had said now felt genuine. It was different from any of your previous interactions with Miko, and you can't say that you hate this side of her…

"Can I really..?" you know that it's just a tactic to get close to you. But honestly, what's the shame in it when you both benefit from it?

"I wouldn't offer it to you if I didn't mean it. But I can't promise that I won't have a little fun of my own whenever you'd ask" there she goes with more of her teasing again…

"I suppose that's a fair price to pay for this" you continue playing with the tail. And should you actually pick Miko, it'd be good to practice getting some resistance against her teasing… wait why are you considering it?

You shake off the thought, you'd do it regardless of which suitor you'd be with. So it has less to do with Miko and more with your comfort. That's right…

-

After your arrangement, it wasn't something you were keeping much a secret. Anyone could see you sneaking into Miko's room every once in a while. It got the others curious.

"Miko" Eula got her attention "Care to explain why is it that Y/N keeps visiting your room?" she didn't sound like she was scolding her, more like she was curious.

"I don't think I need to explain myself. I'm just doing what I am supposed to. Given that we compete against each other I only see less reasons to share what's happening between us" she was smug about it.

"That's fair, hm… I'll have to make a move myself to not stay behind" Ningguang mumbled to herself.

"It looks like Y/N goes to you voluntarily, so it's not like we can object to whatever is talking place" Eula said with a sigh.

Miko was enjoying the jealousy but noticed that Yelan was awfully quiet "And don't you have anything to say?" she tried dragging her into the conversation.

"Just like Eula said, if Y/N consents to it I don't care what's going on. It does make things harder for us. But it was to be expected that anyone would try to get close to her" she shrugged "You aren't the only one with a plan you know"

"You're making it sound like we're all scheming here" Ningguang rolled her eyes "With that attitude you're not going anywhere"

"Hm? I never said anything about a scheme. I'm interested in Y/N, therefore I'm trying to get close to her. As you can see, it's working" Miko taunted, clearly being proud of being the first to get as far as she did.

"It's just the beginning, don't get so cocky" Eula had enough of Miko's game. But it only made her even more satisfied.

"A good start is hard to beat. Unlike any of you I've actually made a move. What did you think? That Y/N will be the one to approach you first?" The argument seemed only make Miko more satisfied with each second "But it's true, if I win her over so quickly where's the fun in it?" after saying that she left to go back to her room.

Her satisfied smile disappeared immediately, she just sat down and sighed "Just why did I agree to this?" she burried her face in her hands.

But it was her choice to be a part of that…

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[partynoobvanii]

Small Important Update :

Hello there! It's Ethanvanii here, posting a small update cause I've been inactive on Tumblr lately, and I wanted to clean stuff up.

I will be on a break now, I won't be online so much and I'll be working on homework, and other art projects/series.

Where i have been in life 📣

So far, i have been behind on homework, so much that the homework line on my computer is RED. And not completed, behind even. But yeah, aside from that.. Life has been a bit boring and honestly sad. I've been worried for my online son, Ryker since they have been going through a lot of mood swings, terrible shit happening to them and all. I hope they'll try to stay safe and healthy while I'm gone for a bit.

About Sickpants Lullaby ☎

As you can see, Sickpants Lullaby has been on hiatus for like... I dunno... SINCE LIKE OCTOBER... But the question is, WHY was it on hiatus?

Homework aside, the reason why i haven't worked on it was because of my motivation dying down for the series, without Cobalt/Natt here... I feel very unmotivated to work on it at the moment, he is my beautiful and silly online son, he is like a whole ray of sunshine even. It was fun to hang out with him, before he left to China... I'm honestly lucky to have him in my horrible ass life. Not having him here can be really lonely honestly, even he had that problem while working on Parodies College House (A Spongebob Parodies Fangame he made) To the point he had to put it on hiatus till Benjamin and Juan were back. (Since they are needed, cause they're voice actors in that. And also cause of the fact Cobalt misses them.)

HOWEVER....

Not to worry, cause Sickpants Lullaby will continue once he comes back! Hopefully, if I don't get art block...

ALSO...

Please do NOT slide into my DMS just to ask me when I'm gonna work on Sickpants Lullaby, or if im working on a drawing of your character. It just makes it annoying and makes me not wanna complete it anymore, I hope you understand that.

Another mention though, I have a second reason for having no motivation for working on Sickpants Lullaby as i used to.

The second reason why Sickpants Lullaby is on Hiatus ☎

The SECOND reason why the series is on hiatus, is just because I've been working on another series which is called "Ethan's Void Life (EVL for short)" more. I've lost some interest in working on Sickpants Lullaby now that Cobalt/Natt is gone, it just doesn't feel the same anymore without him... I don't feel the same joy i get while drawing Sickpants Lullaby frames for my audience as i used to.........

....But besides that, look at the bright side. At least i get a break from the Internet for a bit..? Yes, I'll be checking my Tumblr Inbox in a while, just in case to answer questions.

Anyways, time for more fun stuff.

NEW INTERESTS!! YIPPEEE- 📣

So far, I've gotten around.... Well I don't know, 3 INTERESTS?? MAYBE EVEN 5???

But yeah, I'll try my best to remember most despite my poor memory.

1. PHIGHTING! (Roblox Game)

2. Item Asylum (Also Roblox Game)

3. Guts & Blackpowder. Again, another roblox game. But this time Cobalt got me into it in the first place. I don't regret playing it.

4. Regretevator.... HOLSLSYY FUCKKKK I LOVE THIS GAME 😭😭 IT'S THE WHOLE REASON WHY MY TUMBLR USER IS NAMED AFTER PARTYNOOB NOW 💔💔💔

Stimming aside, it's a pretty cool and fun game. I liked the voice acting, fun stages, and the characters are pretty creative to be honest!

5. Dayshift At Freddy's. Despite the... Ahem... Problematic parts due to it being made in like 2018.... It's a really goofy and silly game! I honestly love it despite me still trying to get all the way to DSAF 3... DSAF 1 was a pain in the ass to play, hopefully I'll skip it and just see if DSAF 2 is easier. (Because my dumbass can't press the springlocks fast enough in the first game lmao, but don't worry i still love the game anyways)

6. Dialtown. Made by the same creator of DSAF. I really enjoyed Dialtown honestly, the dialogue, the story, and the characters! They even added some phone guy characters from DSAF into it. Maybe as a Easter egg? I don't know. Either way Dialtown was still fun. Not to mention the creator is really nice, bless their heart. :)

Interests i MIGHT stream 📣

1. PHIGHTING

NO. As much as i love it, i am ass at playing on computer, I'll most likely make a video of me playing it on phone instead of streaming.

2. Item Asylum

Possible? I haven't tested it on computer for lag, so it's a maybe for now....

3. Guts & Blackpowd-

NO. I've tested it on my laptop before, believe me. It's laggy for my small ass laptop. I'll be posting videos of me playing it on mobile instead, thank you very much... It may be less laggy on your laptop, but mine? Nah.

4. Regretevator

Yes. It's still fun either way if i die to lag, one death isn't gonna hurt my soul. ^_^

5. Dayshift at Freddy's

Maybe?? It's if I DON'T GET SPRINGLOCKED A BUNCH OF TIMES DUE TO FAILING... but yeah, it is possible, I'll be streaming myself watching DSAF 1 gameplay on youtube, and then the next streams will be me playing DSAF 2 and DSAF 3 (that's IF they don't springlock me again... It sucks tbh but it's still a loveable game)

6. Dialtown

Yes! Though I'll have to add some warnings before people watch it, since i don't want my viewers getting uncomfortable due to the themes in it.

Thats all for now, I hope the news up there was useful.

No, not the interests, the Sickpants Lullaby part.

Anyways, bye for real! :3

[hamsamwich23]

Writing will be very slowed/almost not done at all until further notice, aside from a one shot I owe a friend of mine on here.

The reason for this is below. (Venting and medical talk tw)

Since right before my birthday (September 23rd) I have been having a worrying amount of symptoms, including dizziness, lightheadedness, fatigue, chest pain, heart beating, hot and cold flashes, and more

These symptoms started up right after I recovered from a really bad illness going around and have not gone away since. I am having issues daily, I cannot walk without feeling lightheaded, at work the longer I'm standing the more I feel like I'm seconds away from passing out. I cannot fully keep myself balanced.

I have tried drinking more water, vitamins, eating healthier, exercising, getting more iron into my diet , and nothing is working.

I have reason to suspect that I may have POTS, acronym for Postural tachycardia syndrome

I have talked to two people about my symptoms. One a mutual who has POTS, and another, my friends partner who is currently specializing in nursing, and both have said that the condition sounds like either POTS or potentially chronic fatigue.

Regardless, I am currently trying to see a doctor about it. I have called three different places in my area, but they have all told me that all doctors taking new patients are booked until FEBRUARY, 2024.

I'm scared. I don't know what else I can do about this. I can't do anything anymore. I want to write and go out for walks and take pictures and play video games and call with friends. But Im struggling more and more to do these things. I'm at a loss. I just want answers and I want help.

Writing will definitely be on a hiatus until further notice. Aside from a one shot for my friend [xzbat-loverzx] that is long overdue, that i want to get done before i go on my trip in January. I'm hoping at the LEAST, I'll be able to see someone right before then. This trip is so, so special to me. I can't imagine being unable to go.

My dms will still always be open to friends and mutuals. I also have Discord and Insta that I can talk on. I just might not answer for longer periods of time depending on how I feel

Thank you all so much for being patient with me. I'm going to do my best to figure out for sure what's happening to me.

[chronicangel]

Through Gold and Gloom

Link to this fic on AO3. Words: 4906 Date posted: April 30, 2019

Summary: "I just want her to have a perfect wedding," he sighs, hoping nobody calls him out for the sappiness of it.

"As long as she's marrying you, it'll feel perfect. I suppose you'll just have to make your best man fight off any potential suitors who have come to your wedding to steal your bride away 16th century style."

It's an hour before her wedding ceremony and Jade Harley has never wanted a drink before but God does she want one right now.

If her grandfather were still alive she thinks he'd have given her a glass of whiskey to steel her nerves and some speech about how proud he was of her for finally reaching this day. As it stands, the man died in a hunting accident eighteen years ago and she is stuck simply sitting still on the verge of tears while Kanaya pulls her mess of curls into something resembling an up-do and Rose frantically runs between the room where she is getting ready and the room where Dave is getting ready trying to make sure that everything is set for them to get married and holy shit, she's getting married.

"Are you alright? You look like you're... panicking, a little bit," Kanaya says when she steps in front of her to check her work only to see the tears beading up in the corners of Jade's eyes. She doesn't know how to explain that her answer is both I've never felt better in my life and I'd rather throw myself out that window than walk out that door. She's so, so excited to marry Dave, but at the same time every time she thinks about just what they are all here to do she just wants to burst into tears because it's all just a little too much to think about right now.

"Obviously she's overwhelmed," Nepeta says with a dismissive wave of her hand, and she wonders if that's all it is. Am I just overwhelmed? Is there just too much happening? Do I just need to take a step away from my thoughts and take a deep breath and then I'll feel better? Or what if I'm having second thoughts about this and I don't actually want to marry Dave? Is that even possible after everything? It's the last thing that leads her to scold herself because she has never wanted basically anything more than she wants to marry Dave Strider today. "Wouldn't you be?"

Finally she lets out a sob and buries her face in her hands and she's gonna mess up her make-up and Roxy's gonna have to completely redo it and she's gonna be so mad.

Rose slides into the room right after that and freezes, eyes going wide. She looks almost as panicked as Jade does. "Woah, woah, why is the bride crying? You're not having doubts about this, are you?" Jade sniffles and shakes her head, rubbing at her eyes. She swears she can actually feel her eyeliner smearing across her skin. "What's going on? Are you okay?"

She doesn't know how to voice her anxieties in a way that doesn't sound totally childish and dumb. She doesn't really know how to voice her anxieties at all, actually. "What if he decides he doesn't wanna marry me?" She eventually whispers, which she supposes is a concern but she doesn't think it's what's really wrong.

"Jade, he's been with you for six years. He plotted with my brother for three months on how to properly propose to you in a way that would, 'Make her heart melt, but not stress her out, you know?' He gushed in my DMs at three in the morning my time just three weeks ago because he woke up and you were cuddled up to him and he was debating calling into work because you were too cute to get out of bed. He's not going to change his mind about this," Nepeta tries to reassure.

She shakes her head and sobs again. "But he's too good. What if I'm locking him down for the rest of his life when he could be with somebody ten times as good as me?" And that, she suspects, is much closer to her actual insecurity. She has worried several times in the six years that she has been with Dave that he would regret choosing her of all the people he could have been with.

This time it is Rose who speaks up, pinching the bridge of her nose in frustration. "Are you actually stupid?" She snaps, and Jade looks up in surprise in time to catch the scolding look Kanaya sends her way. "No, she needs to hear it. I'm his twin sister, so I like to think I know him pretty well. And I remember when we were fourteen years old and he told me about how he'd just met John's little sister and he wasn't sure he'd ever seen someone so beautiful. He actually waxed poetic about how green your eyes were for a minute. I was almost proud. He used to call me at four in the morning my time when you two were in college because you were crying over how you were going to get a bad grade on your paper and you'd be forced to drop out of college and you couldn't live with the shame, and he was trying to proofread your papers for you but he couldn't understand a word of it because you were too smart for him. And he said that so many times that I would have punched him if I could have reached Texas from New York with some sort of mutant noodle arms.

"I think in Dave's mind, you're the most beautiful, intelligent, talented person in the entire world. Since we were 19, he's spent almost every day finding new ways to tell me about how in love with you he is. He's not going to change his mind, Jade."

She stares with wide eyes at Rose.

She remembers that day when she met Dave. He and John had been best friends since they were twelve, but she always hid out in her room when John had friends over or else was at her own friends' houses (Nepeta, in particular, was a frequent host when she felt too overwhelmed to deal with teenage boys). She had been getting ready to leave, and they'd been playing video games in the living room, and as she walked out of her room the two of them made eye contact and she felt her heart stutter in her chest. Foolishly, she'd thought to herself, I wanna marry that boy some day. And now, terrifyingly and amusingly, she really is.

It's an hour before his wedding ceremony and Dave Strider has never been so horrified by the idea of drinking.

"Dude, you're freaking out, just have one glass," Terezi says, holding out a glass to him again, and he swears to God if she offers him alcohol one more time he is going to take it and throw the thing across the room and he'll just deal with the consequences later. John, for his part, holds up a hand as though to silently signal to Terezi that she should stop, except she's completely blind so that's actually pretty fucking useless, Egbert. Still, a valiant effort. Karkat, apparently the only useful person in his entire wedding party, takes the glass from her hand, sets it on the nearest table, and rests his hands on her shoulders.

"I don't want a drink. I just need some fresh air or somethin'," he dismisses, though he knows this is not wholly accurate. Still, John immediately scoots over to the one window in the room that he is meant to be getting ready in and slides it open, and Dave promptly sticks his head out the thing and takes deep breaths of the cold air. It's surprisingly chilly for April, which kind of sucks since their actual wedding ceremony will be taking place in the garden outside, but it's great for right now.

"Are you... having doubts?" John asks, slowly, and Dave immediately snaps his head up to glare at him because what the fuck, no, of course he's not having doubts. John holds his hands up as though in surrender. "Okay, okay. Yeah, that was stupid. But... okay, I can't fix your problem unless you tell me what it is." Pretty sure you can't fix my problem either way.

There's a knock at the door and he straightens anxiously so fast he hits his head against the fucking window frame and he's rubbing the back of his head when Karkat says everybody's decent (technically Terezi says it first, little asshole that she is, but the door doesn't open until Karkat says it) and Rose slides into the room. "Little brother, what are you getting up to in here?" He wants to point out that not only are they twins, but he's the older twin, and he's almost an entire damn foot taller than her. Instead he just huffs and bends over to show her the top of his head without answering.

"Your wife is basically having a panic attack in the other room," she says in a tone like she is letting him in on a secret he isn't supposed to know about. Oh God, is she having doubts? "She says she's worried you're going to realize you could get better."

"That's ridiculous," he scoffs immediately. "Jade's the best it gets." And yet, he can still understand the anxiety. After all, he worries the same thing when it comes to her almost every day that they're together even though she has never shown any signs of regret or, in fact, anything other than love and affection for him in the years that they have been together. It can just be hard to believe that someone so amazing would choose you, and though he disagrees with her opinion on the matter on several grounds, he supposes he can see where she would be anxious about it.

"I told her you think that and she's breathing easier now, but I suspect she's still a little panicked about it." She hums after a moment and pushes him away to stand straight again. He rubs at his head and pouts even as she says, "No blood, no bump. Mom would have offered you a shot and then sent you off to play." Then she adds, "So, tell me what you're panicking about."

"I'm not panicking," he dismisses, glaring.

She just gives him a skeptical look, crossing her arms over her chest and raising a brow at him. It feels like she is staring deep into his soul with a challenging look. I'm starting to think that "twins are psychic" theory people have is true, and it's pretty fuckin' one-sided. "I'm just nervous that this is gonna go wrong somehow, I guess. I dunno how I'd even do it but what if I fuck it up?"

"Like you'll forget your vows or something?" She offers, and he stares at her in horror for a second because fuck, he didn't even think of that. He and Jade opted to write their own vows and he already struggled so much with just that. He ended up completely rewriting them four times before today, which is impressive being that he only proposed to her like five months ago. (140 days ago, actually, not that he's been counting down to this or anything.)

He's already scrambling to find a napkin or something now to write them down on again just to double check he has them memorized before she stops him with a cool hand on his shoulder. "Dave." He swallows and slowly turns to be facing her again. The groomsmen around him are all conveniently quiet for once in their lives. "Calm down. You're not going to ruin it. Even if you're a stuttering mess through improvised vows because you forgot what you actually wrote, Jade is still going to be in love with you and you're still going to be in love with her. That's all that matters." Then, after a moment, she adds, "Plus, it'll be more like the two of you that way."

He takes a shuddering deep breath and runs a hand through his hair. He'd be nervous about messing it up, except it's not like he's actually done that much with his hair for his wedding other than brushing it out for once. He just got a haircut for it a few days ago, but like every other haircut he's had in his life, it's not that easy to mess up. (Jade likes to run her hands through his hair when they're cuddling, though, and she somehow always manages to make it a total mess.) "I just want her to have a perfect wedding," he sighs, hoping nobody calls him out for the sappiness of it.

"As long as she's marrying you, it'll feel perfect. I suppose you'll just have to make your best man fight off any potential suitors who have come to your wedding to steal your bride away 16th century style." He laughs a little, his expression soft. Rose moves her hand from his shoulder to his cheek and he's so much taller than her it's almost comical. (Somehow, Jade is still shorter than her. He thinks it's sort of endearing, though.) "Your wedding is going to be perfect, Dave. You'll get up there and she'll come out and you'll see."

Dave is generally pretty anti-taking people's word for it (even Rose, who is right most of the time anyway, not that he would ever tell her that because it would go straight to her head), but he chooses just this once to believe that without asking for further proof.

Roxy finishes up her make-up again and grins at her. "You're so pretty," she says, cupping her cheeks to tilt her head at several angles to examine her work and then giving a satisfied little nod. Then she kisses her forehead right at the hairline, a dangerous game of lipstick versus very delicately done hair and make-up, and adds, "I wonder if Dave's gonna cry more or less than me when you're walking down that aisle." I don't think either of you can possibly cry more than I'm going to, she thinks, but she just laughs a little bit, breathy and wet as she almost starts to tear up again, though this time with happiness more than nerves. Just like she was hoping she would be crying on her wedding day. (Or rather, her preference if she absolutely has to cry on her wedding day.)

"It's a good thing that we've got waterproof mascara on, huh?" She says, sniffing, and Roxy laughs and nods a bit, hugging her one last time before going out to join the steadily growing crowd of people that are pushing to make sure everything is going smoothly and people are all about ready to head outside for the ceremony proper. Jade feels her nerves surge again at the thought that she's getting married in fifteen minutes but tries to tamp it down.

"The clouds are starting to clear up," Nepeta says from where she sits staring out the one window in the room. Jade walks over, careful not to trip over herself (she knew high heels were a bad idea when she's so clumsy), and then looks out.

She's right. The sun is starting to shine directly on the gazebo they're getting married in, and through the window she can see the very first people beginning to head outside and find seats along the little aisle down the middle that she's going to be walking down in practically no time at all. She and Dave had been worried it might be cold on their wedding day even though she'd wanted more than anything to do it outside. She smiles softly.

There's a knock on the door, and Kanaya steps inside. There's no Rose in sight which must mean that she's either still dealing with something with the boys (she wonders what they could possibly be struggling with that they're still holding her maid of honor hostage and she hopes it's nothing serious) or else is the one corralling people outside with Roxy. Can you corral something outside? She wonders.

"I have been told to give you a ten minute warning." She says it delicately, like she's worried it might set her off, and instead she just nods a little bit while her stomach does a little flip flop. There's only ten minutes before she's married. Ten minutes before she is supposed to make a commitment that will last the rest of her life. She is both excited and terrified. It feels stupid, since she basically already decided she was going to make this commitment when she was seventeen (and really, she made that commitment when she was eleven and saw him playing video games on her couch, but that wasn't real like the rest of this is-- like the rest of this has been for a long while now).

She continues to simply stare out the window as the people continue to go outside for the next eight minutes before there's another soft knock on the door and Rose enters the room, leading her uncle Jude behind her.

Jade looks over her shoulder at the both of them. Rose, for all of her wise words today, looks like she might be just as panicked as Jade was earlier (if she does hide it a little better). She has her hands folded and she's clenching her own fingers so tightly her knuckles are white. The part of Jade that always latches onto other peoples' negative emotions wants to panic and ask what's wrong. The part of her that knows she needs to walk down the aisle takes a deep breath and hooks her arm with her uncle's.

She walks down the aisle to Allegretto, which Dave knows as "That One Classical Song From X-Men: Apocalypse," but he can't even laugh about it because he's too busy just staring at her. God, she's so beautiful.

He's always thought the tradition that the groom isn't allowed to see the bride in her wedding dress until their wedding day was stupid, but now it is their wedding day and it's his first time seeing her in the dress and he wonders if the photographer will be able to capture just how enamored by her he is right now. How enamored by her he will be for the rest of their lives. (It is most striking because she is wearing a dress of white and gold and her hair is in an elaborate braid spiraling around a bun atop her head and she's wearing more makeup than she's probably ever worn before yet he thinks she looks just as lovely now as when she wakes up in the morning and her hair is a mess and there's a little bit of dried drool on her mouth and her eyes are all bleary and she's wearing only one of his t-shirts. The difference is everyone else would agree right now.)

He wants to take off his shades to see her better and curses his albinism because even though they're under the shade of a gazebo in her favorite little garden to help protect his skin, the sun is still too bright for his photosensitive eyes. (And, on a level, he still has a childish insecurity about all of the guests at his wedding seeing their unnatural pigment.) Still, it's not so dark through the lenses that he can't see her at all. He can even make out some of the detail work on her skirt, though he's sure once they're in the hotel room for their honeymoon and it's dark enough that he can take them off he'll be able to see it much better for as long as she's still wearing it.

All of the bridesmaids and groomsmen are lined up alongside him, with the girls behind the empty spot that she will be filling once she reaches the end of the aisle and his party lined up behind him. John is his best man and is thus positioned closest to him (after all, her wedding ring is in his pocket for when Dave is to slide it onto her finger) and he thinks he can hear his best man tearing up, which he's so going to make fun of him for later. (And so what if Dave is tearing up a little bit, too, it's not like anybody else can see that.)

When she reaches the end of the aisle, he can't even focus on what the officiant is saying to the two of them because everything in the world other than her is so completely unimportant when she's standing across from him at their wedding.

He only knows it's his time to say his vows when the white noise disappears and he blinks in surprise but it's fine because nobody can see his eyes. He feels like it's been hours that they've been up here, but he knows that it's only been minutes. Still, it feels like even more hours pass where he's just staring at her and her beautiful smile before he's finally able to open his mouth and speak.

"Jade," he starts, and it already feels so incredibly cheesy. "The day that I saw you for the first time when I was thirteen years old, I knew that you were the prettiest girl in the entire world." She laughs a little. It's silent, but he can see it in the way her smile grows and her eyes squeeze shut. "You weren't model pretty or actress pretty like the other guys my age were always talking about at lunch. You were real person pretty, which I think is a much harder standard to meet.

"Still, when I think of that day, it feels totally superficial. I could have talked for hours about how pretty your eyes were or how I wouldn't mind getting my fingers tangled up in your curls. Actually, if you ask Rose, I probably did talk for hours about those things." He pauses for a moment to let the people seated around them give a collective chuckle. "But I don't think that was the day I fell in love with you. How could it have been? I didn't even know how smart or kind or funny you were yet. I didn't know about the way your eyes light up any time you see someone walking their dog in public, or about how actually terrible you are at making coffee, or about how you love gardening so much you sneak hanging potted plants into our apartment when I'm at work like I won't notice the flowers when I get home."

She brings up a hand to her face to wipe at her tears quickly, as though if she moves fast enough nobody will see that she did it. He's always hated seeing her cry, but this one time, he supposes it's okay. "It's crazy to think we've been together for six years now. Six years of putting up with my rap. Six years of trying to understand a word that comes out of your mouth when you tell me about your papers or about how work was. Six years of taking turns making little choices like what we should have for dinner or what music we should play in the car.

"Vows are supposed to be promises. It was hard to think of what I could promise you that would be good enough. You deserve the world, and I can't give you that. But, I promise to try. I promise to spend every day of the rest of my life showing you the world. I promise to run out to get you coffee every morning because you can't make a cup to save your life. I promise to walk your hellbeast when you're too tired, and to walk the fifteen other hellbeasts you'll adopt over the course of the rest of our lives.

"I promise to love you. And I promise to tell you every single day, until we're old and grey and we're still being all mushy in public and embarrassing our grandkids. I love you. I can't wait to be married."

She's crying. It's embarrassing and she told herself that she wouldn't do this but even when she first said it she knew she was lying to herself and God, how can she not when he just listed every reason she's been in love with him for years in one go?

She can only take solace in the fact that she's not the only one crying. She can hear Nepeta sniffing behind her, trying not to cry dramatically and draw attention away from their wedding, and can see John's goofy face he makes when he's holding back tears, and when she looks out after his vows are done at all of the people watching them she can see her uncle nodding his approval and wiping at the tears streaming down his cheeks. She supposes her whole family has always been full of criers.

She only has time for one shaky deep breath and to turn back to look at Dave before she is being told to say her own vows.

"Even as I was writing my vows, I knew that I wouldn't be able to put everything that I felt for you and everything that I wanted to say to you properly into words. I almost commissioned Rose to write them for me just because I knew it would come out better but then I was scared that if I didn't write them myself I wouldn't be able to remember them and I'd come up here and just look like an idiot." She laughs a little at herself and their friends and family laugh a little bit with her. She's hardly twenty seconds into her vows and she's already got tears running down her face.

"So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I decided right away that I wanted to keep these short." She swallows. Her stomach twists with nerves. That was basically just the disclaimer-- the content warning before the real show-- and now she has to say her real vows and his were so beautiful and she knows that she's going to mess it up somehow and-- alright, Jade, stop. Deep breaths.

She lets out a shaky breath and starts again after a pause that probably lasted much shorter in the real world than it felt like in her head. "I can actually remember the moment that I realized that I loved you. I mean, really loved you and not just the 'I'm gonna marry him some day' crush of an eleven-year-old girl on her older brother's best friend.

"I was in college, and you'd just graduated a few months earlier. It was four in the morning and I'd just wrapped up a paper that was supposed to be turned in nine hours later and I had class in three and a half hours so I knew I couldn't get any real amount of sleep but I still wanted to lay down with you. To just be in bed with you. And I felt so ridiculous, like if I was going to be in bed then I should at least try to sleep. But I crawled into bed and you rolled over in your sleep and slung your arm over me and you smooshed your cheek against my shoulder and I thought, 'I could lay like this with him forever.' And now, in a way, I'm going to.

"I've been a notoriously heavy sleeper my whole life and yet I just stayed awake watching you. And I felt a little creepy about it, yeah." She laughs again, wiping at her eyes. "But then you woke up, and you asked me how long I'd been in bed. And I told you that it hadn't been very long, maybe an hour. And you apologized for not waking up sooner, and you always stayed up so late back then-- you still do if I let you-- so you couldn't have had more than five hours of sleep. But you stayed up for the rest of the night to talk to me about... all sorts of nonsense, really. You told me about this recurring dream you used to have of a giant purple city with a tower in the center, and when you looked up you could see the stars. And I remember, you told me you wished you could show me. And I just thought of how desperate I was to see it with you.

"You've shown me so many things since then. I'm sure you'll show me so many more. So, I promise to see the world with you." They hadn't discussed what was going in their vows before the wedding. How perfectly they go together makes her want to cry harder, but she has to at least stay composed until she's finished. "I promise to make you go to sleep before one in the morning. I promise to climb into bed with you every night even when neither of us are gonna get any sleep. I promise to have late night talks with you and remember what you said four years later even though you'll surely have forgotten by then. I promise to spend every night with you, and to cherish those nights forever, as your wife." And in just a few moments, they'll begin their first night as husband and wife. The first night to cherish.

[purplemninja]

Will Mono and Six meet up in your rewind au? If so how would that go down?

Thanks for the ask, but heads up that this will be a lengthy and salty post - TL;DR at the bottom. (Also it'll take a while to get to the answer to your second question ^_^')

No, Six and Mono will not be meeting each other in this AU. The only appearances Mono will be making in this AU is in flashbacks.

The main reason is because one of the mains I made this AU is to balance out the injustice that Hezu inflicted (and still does) on Six in her 'Channel Change' AU.

Disclaimer: Do NOT go witch-hunting Hezu.

Plus if you remember the midquel 'Finding Shelter', Six does remember Mono, but she also remembers that the Hunter would also be there if she went to look for him, so she decides not to seek Mono out.

Another reason is because ever since LN2 came out, the fandom has made just about everything to do with Six revolve around Mono. Like "Six got kidnapped! Poor Mono who had to see that, that must be very traumatic for him! Never-mind what trauma Six got; the person that was kidnapped"

And I said this in my hot takes post but I'll say it again here: The way the fandom treats Mono is exactly like how the FNAF books treat Henry - he's an angel and only his suffering matters, screw everyone else.

I don't want to add Mono because no doubt there will be people who will make Mono overshadow everyone else, Six most especially. When Six's suffering gets brought up, people are basically like "Mono had it worse, so Six's isn't a big deal, so she should shut up and suck it up", while Mono and his suffering are dealt with a gentle hand.

@noodleshark, I give you the floor again:

When I pointed out to Hezu that it's biased of her to talk about how Six ruined Mono's life and ended RK's (I refuse to call him 'seven') when they only tried to help her but said nothing about how Mono ruined Six's life by getting her kidnapped and cursed with the hunger that led to RK's death in the first place (as well as being the perpetrator (as Thin Man) of these things at the same time) and to the end of her innocence and humanity when she was just trying to help him too up until the end, but Hezu just swept that under the rug with "Mono couldn't have known that Thin Man was behind the door, so Six getting kidnapped and cursed with hunger was an accident", and therefore acts like the bad stuff happened to Six because of Mono magically goes away or isn't a big deal all because it was unintentional on Mono's part. Meanwhile, Six had no way of knowing that Mono would survive the fall (let alone him sitting on a chair alone for decades and becoming the Thin Man) or that the Nomes were children, but Hezu never mentioned a word about that and doesn't give Six the same leniency. And when I pointed out in DM that she's giving them unequal treatment again, she said "You're clearly interested and supportive of Six but I don't know what responses you're looking for from me", like treating Mono and Six fairly is rocket science.

She even suggested that Mono/Thin Man probably didn't know that Six would get the hunger, again dismissing Six's circumstances. She used the 'Accident' or 'Didn't know' cards for Mono (and only Mono (and to a lesser extent RK)) so many times that it's hard for me to care about Mono's circumstances when she won't give Six the same leniency. The fandom's cast iron double standards are recently making me have intrusive thoughts of seeing Mono being the one to suffer and be riddled with guilt instead of Six for once, and I don't like these thoughts or want to have them (I've heard of the statement that intrusive thoughts are actually normal and that there's nothing wrong with you for having them as long as you don't act on them, so don't worry).

With this AU, I will make it so that Six and her suffering DO matter and doesn't get swept under the rug, though the suffering she went through is limited due to what specific part of the timeline Rewind AU Six is from (Kidnapped by the Hunter but none of the canon events after that happened, the one that I had to rescue from 'Channel Change')

And I feel that people will try to make everything about Mono (as usual), so I shouldn't have him in this AU so that he cannot steal the spotlight.

Talking of everything about Six revolving around Mono ever since LN2 came out (or ever since Mono was shown to the audience who then got obsessed with him), people are all too happy to make AUs where Mono finds a happy life with people other than Six, while Six must always be with Mono in happy ending AUs, never anyone else. So this AU is to go against what is commonly done in other AUs, one of which is to allow Six to find happiness with someone other than Mono too (there will other fandom tropes that this AU will go against).

Another main reason behind Rewind is to give Six a second chance - to save RCG. Mono ditched her and went forward and met someone else (who he is partially responsible for the death of in canon), leaving behind all the responsibility of the cycle of suffering that he and Six inflicted on each other, meanwhile Six must still pay penance for her role in cycle, despite the fact that this version of her hasn't yet done any of that, doesn't have a reason to do any of that, and has no way of knowing of any of that. So I feel that it's fitting (and nice opposite to Hezu making 'Channel Change' be a fast-forwards for Mono) that Six is given the chance to go back in time instead (albeit, she didn't have any control on where she ended up, the Tower didn't intend to send her as far back as it did (it wanted to bring her back to when she saw Mono, and Six would remember the Hunter ambushing her, so she would probably manage to avoid him, team up with Mono and the two of them would go through the events of LN2, restarting Mono's cycle)), and unlike Mono/Thin Man, she would actually change the past and reclaim someone she lost along the way (RCG). I think it's a great contrast between Hezu's 'Channel Change' and my 'Rewind': Mono goes forwards, meets someone new, and the two of them become friends, while Six goes backwards, sees someone she lost, is granted a second chance to save them, succeeds, and reclaims a friend.

I have what happens in all 9 (yes nine) sequels planned out, and the character arc I have planned for Six either won't work or work as effectively if Mono joins her. I won't say anything more to avoid spoiling it.

I'm sure that you're too familiar with the double standards and hypocrisy of the fandom ignoring canon for one thing and not the other, so I won't comment much on it:

You've already seen someone on Pinterest and TikTok who has this hypocrisy (and have probably seen the 'artist' who drew Mono and RK smiling as they roast marshmallows on Six's burning corpse), and I'm worried that Hezu is becoming like them (not the Mono and RK together thing, the double standards and sh*tting on Six part), even though she claims that she doesn't think that the boys are innocent or that Six is a bad person and hopes that people don't think that she hates Six, yet defends the bad things the boys did and treating the snapping of the mannequin hand's fingers as the holy grail of Six's character and happily writing essays about the good deeds and traits about the boys and bad ones about Six, which just makes it more confusing when she says that she hopes that people don't think that she hates Six, because she sure doesn't show it.

However! I will give Hezu credit where it's due. She did make a post where when someone asked her about Six in her AU, she pointed them in the direction of my AU (as I've requested her to do), and in the tags she did say that Mono ruining Six's life is more reason for the two of them to not meet, this time not going for the 'accident' or 'he didn't know' cards. Though I’m willing to bet that she never would have done so had I not pointed out her bias to her directly.

And lastly, Hezu turned Mono into a huge jerk. I don't apply this to Mono in general, just the 'Channel Change' version of him. Like, he spent lifetime after lifetime going back to the past, screwing himself and Six over every time, ruining Six's life by inflicting her with a strange hunger curse that led to the death of RK, Six committing cannibalism (which she tried to avoid by eating RK because she knew that the sausage he offered was made of human flesh), which resulted in end of Six's innocence and humanity. And partially ruining his own life by inadvertently ensuring that his past self getting dropped does happen. And he escapes all the responsibility of that by screwing off with the one whose death he is partially responsible for, ditching a child he witnessed get kidnapped by the Hunter (I'm guessing that he 'coincidentally' doesn't remember that either, because he oh so conveniently doesn't seem to remember anything good about Six or not so good about himself), and leaving said child to deal with the consequences of actions she had yet to commit, have reason to commit, or even know about.

A person like that doesn't sound like the ideal person to be in Six's life, so ya, he and Six will definitely not be meeting in Rewind.

If you want to see an AU that executes equal treatment of Mono and Six excellently, then I heavily recommend @scruffiberri's 'Togetherness' AU: https://www.webtoons.com/en/canvas/togetherness-/episode-1-trapped/viewer?title_no=852891&episode_no=1. It's one of my favourite AUs because equal treatment and accountability between Mono and Six is done excellently, so I really think you should read it.

And to answer your second question (sorry it took so long to get to it): not much would happen (though it'd go a lot worse for Mono if Six somehow learned of certain things that happened, which I'll get to in the next paragraph). If she somehow still met Mono, she would still remember being ambushed by the Hunter shortly after seeing him in the tree, so she'd be uneasy at first but settle down if in a setting where the Hunter doesn't show up. But even then, she wouldn't bond to him as strongly as in the game because of RCG living. I'm pretty sure that part of their bond in-game was formed by Six's grief and survivor's guilt from RCG's death, and trying to help him and succeeding (helping him escape from the Hunter, Teacher and Doctor) helped her become more comfortable with caring about him. But in this AU, since she successfully saved RCG, that becoming more comfortable about bonding with him wouldn't be the same, especially since she's been with RCG, bonding with her instead, so she wouldn't become as bonded to him compared to in-game.

And if Six somehow learned about the in-game bad things that Mono's actions caused to happen to her, she would be leaning towards (but probably not completely sure about) wanting to kill him on sight. And if she somehow learned of not only what he canonically caused to her, but also about him screwing off with the person she killed later in time (which again, he is partially responsible for by getting her cursing with the strange hunger in the first place), and leaving her at the mercy of the Hunter... She would tie Mono up, sing "Wolf in sheep's clothing" by Set It Off to him, and then kill him.

TL;DR: No, they will not be meeting in my AU, and if they met again, Six would be uneasy at first but become more comfortable, but any bond she develops towards him won't be as strong as in-game due to successfully saving RCG and bonding with her first. And if somehow Six learned of the canon events and the events of 'Channel Change', things would go really bad, even deadly, for Mono.

[wisebilly]

hello! please read this, it's very important. thank you. <3

i hate to make dark and gloomy posts like this, but there's nothing else i could quite format this post in that would help emphasize and get my point across.

1. first, id like to start off with a somewhat update that indefinitely/over the next week or two, (it's undecided as of currently) that I'll be taking a small break from tumblr, and the rest of my social medias. i know, i know, ive said countless times how i wanna start being more present here, but as of current with a few situations going on; i dont think ill be able to. as the status of said inactivity, it's undecided for me. i love tumblr with my heart, and to me it's like a second home. i might stay active, i might not; it is, again, undecided, as im writing this is quite a haste. (nothing bad making me do that, just wanna make sure i get all my thoughts out before I trail off or forget) if i do stay active; please don't mention it. if i don't? don't mention it. my activity might come in bursts even. if you send me any type of private message/dm, i can't guarantee a quick response, but i will try to get to you eventually.

2. said situation. i can't go into detail, simply external things that have clashed. im not in peril, so don't worry too much.

3. I hope this doesn't sound like a farewell (because, well, it isn't) but i truly, from the bottom of my heart, would like to thank you all for talking to me and engaging with the art i make. you've brought me endless joy and you're all great people and friends. thank you, really, for curating somewhat of a secondary home for me :] i can't emphasize truly, truly how much i appreciate it all.

4. conclusion! that's just about the end, i think! please don't worry too much about me, nothing life altering or severe has happened. just taking a breather <3 hope i didn't scare you,, that'd be the last thing on my mind :']

if you've read all the way down to here, thank you so much <3 you're a real one. (everyone who talks to me is but pft. i digress) whether my "break" lasts a day, two days, a week or longer, and im super active or nowhere to be found; do! not! worry! i am Okay! I'll update when and where i can!

if you have questions for whatever reason, I'll answer them best i can/within my best ability. thank you for reading my rant; sorry it got so long, wanted to make sure i got everything i wanted to say, said :'DD

[louissatturi]

Thank you so much for answering my questions! I was worried I sounded silly so I really appreciate you taking time out of your day to respond to me. 1. I'm not surprised that they're not too popular, I definitely think the second one fits Ordem Paranormal better, but I will admit, I was wondering if the first one got exposed for anything, so it's good to know that now... 2. I probably should've elaborated that I've been watching it with subtitles (thank you so much Equipe T!), you might've already guessed that though, and they referred to the food that they kept getting at the diner as "llounguets", it's possible that it was a translation error as there were some throughout the episodes (which honestly, I just kinda found it amusing, and I can't judge because I only know English and the amount of work put into translating is a lot, especially for how long these episodes are) (I will also say, I've been watching and reading so much that I'm actually starting to pick up words, not sure what that means for me, maybe it's a sign that I should try to learn another language again)

3. Oh I know some spoilers, I already feel bad for some of the upcoming characters 4. That's super interesting, the relics seem super fascinating to me (and I managed to get a friend really interested in them haha) so I'm really excited to see more of them, granted I just really find the elements interesting in general 5. Damn, oh well, guess I'll just have to support Enigma Do Medo in the hopes that the rulebook will get translated then! Or if not, then maybe I should start trying to properly learn Brazilian Portuguese... Still gonna watch the rest of the campaigns tho. 6. Liz and Joui! I'm really interested in seeing where they go (especially because uh, the first design of Joui's that I saw was his final design and uh, oh boy, I might've accidentally realized something about that design while looking through the wiki). The fandom makes sense though, I've just not watched too many RPGs before. I'll admit, I have a hard time picking a favorite, I honestly like all of them. 7. Ah, fair, I learned about Cellbit and Ordem Paranormal from watching QSMP so it's only fair that they're in the QSMP fandom as well (funnily enough, the reason I actually started watching the campaigns was because I didn't want to watch Purgatory, it just didn't interest me so I moved to something that did). I generally don't like Twitter, we'll see if I'm willing to make an exception, but I'll definitely look into the graphic novels (and hey, I'd be interested in that manga).

Thank you again! For

O i have the rulebook in digital form if you want it you can dm me! (I will inform it’s only in português lol)

Your welcomed! I love talking about ordem, thanks for asking questions ❤️

[askwolfsbaneband]

(blows the dust off this blog)

HELLO FRIENDS! it is i, your humble wolf's bane mod. i'm coming back! in fact i am very nearly done with an 8 panel answer that i will be posting soon!! i assume most of you follow me on my main anyway, but if you don't, i have been... drawing nate nonstop. the interest wasn't gone i just was focused on different types of drawings.

now, the blog is a bit outdated, both artstyle-wise and information-wise. the blog's pages (linked in the pinned post) should be up to date, but i may have added things elsewhere that i forgot so i will be redoing those. the art is also absolutely out of date. the versions of the bios on the desktop theme are also out of date; the information i've added/changed is minimal but i do want it to all be accurate to my current ideas.

so i will be fixing those things, but give me a second to do it, i wanted to actually put out some asks first. if you want an undoubtedly current version of everything, i've made a second account on the fediverse, which you can find here. it doesn't have anything new but mild lore changes i already mentioned would be happening, plus it links to a retrospring account instead of any sort of native dm system. asks sent here and asks sent to retrospring will all be answered on both accounts, so you won't be missing anything unless it ends up inexplicably too horny to post on tumblr (lmao, it's possible). no pressure to join the fediverse or anything, i know it's a bit complicated. (and if you already have an account on some other instance, it might not federate with aethy, bc aethy is pro-kink and pro-fiction and some people don't like that.)

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eeeeeverything is under control.

[originalgenshinscenarios]

Monthly special: Variable Barricade crossover!

AGH I had it almost done for like a week. BUT I KEPT RE-WRITING THE LAST SCENE so it took me a week longer than I wanted it to 😭😭😭 BUT I’M BACK. And as the poll results are also in next chapter will be start of Miko’s route!!

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Reader here is female and has established background.

Cw: Age gap (Reader is 18 and the ladies are ages 20-24)

|First chapter|

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After the disaster your suitors called not a big deal, your absolute angel of a friend decided to check on your situation personally. Meeting your suitors was a way for her to determine if your grandfather had actually made a mistake by choosing these women. 

But who knows on whose side she'll be on in the end?

Part one, chapter 4- Fight for approval

After telling your suitors about Ayaka visiting they seemed quite interested.

"Just so we're clear, how much have you told her about us exactly..?" you didn't expect Yelan to worry about that, but it's not like you planned to hide that information. 

"I've told her enough for her to be interested. Then again, me and her are close so it was just a matter of time before she requested that I introduce her to you" you thought it was more likely for her to want to meet whoever you decide to choose in the end though, if not for your constant rants about them. 

"Hm, I wonder if she's visiting out of curiosity or concern. Perhaps both" Miko had a smug smile on her face "Ah what I would do to hear just what exactly you're saying behind our backs" 

"You talk like you never start conversations about me" you stare at her blankly. 

"To be fair our interest in you might as well be the only thing we share in common" Ningguang points out. 

You honestly had no words at this point. It just baffles you how one second they're at each other's throats just to defend each other the next. Shouldn't they be rivals? 

Your silence was an answer louder than any words you possibly could convey as you saw how everyone involved in the conversation just now took the hint. 

"So, when is she going to come by?" Eula was the one to finally bring up the question. 

You shook your head "Honestly… I don't even know yet…"

-

A week later, you and Ayaka were having lunch together. With what she promised recently, she decided to tell you only now that she planned to come today.

"I already informed Thoma that I'll visit today. I hope this isn't too much of a hassle that I didn't let you know sooner" she sounded almost guilty. 

"I still don't get why you couldn't call me yesterday to let me know" you huffed. 

"Because I know you enough to know that you would tell them how to behave. And I want this to be as genuine as it can be" she politely explained. 

"You say like they'd listen to me…" you complain. They don't listen to you. They don't even take your feelings into consideration… Most of the time "And also I could have already told them everything already for all you could know" with your answer she gave you the look that made it clear that she knew you were bluffing. 

"See? You were considering it. And they would listen if it meant they'd be able to impress both you and me" she pointed out. Although you weren't so sure about it, you decided to not argue with Ayaka on that matter. 

"Fine, you're right. But what about Thoma? You don't know if he isn't doing the exact same thing" if anyone he'd be the first to set them straight so they wouldn't embarrass the family head's judgement. 

"As much as it's his duty to make sure you warm up to those ladies, he is also curious about my view on the matter" she smiled "Let's just say that he wanted a second expert's opinion" from the tone of her voice it was clear that she only worried about you. But her words did come off as if she was teasing you. 

"And who would be the first expert?" it couldn't possibly be your grandfather right? He's very capable of reading people, but at the same time he hardly can be called an expert at what you might want or need. 

"That'd be Thoma. You know, he contacted me back when he first was starting to get to know them. Even then he tried to convince me to meet them, but I figured it'd be more fun if you were to introduce me to them… hope I did the right call on that…" she suddenly didn't sound as confident as she usually is when talking to you, so you decided to affirm her. 

"It'll definitely feel more natural. I'd feel weird if I were the last person to meet them to be honest" you rest your head against your hand as you let out a little sigh "Was it the same for you and your engagement?" 

You don't often talk about Ayaka's arranged marriage, mostly because she doesn't feel the need to. She accepted it a long time ago with little to no complaints. 

"I was the second person from my family he talked to. First was my brother who gave out the idea" she had her usual ever so polite smile on her face. You only then realize that your question was a rather stupid one. There aren't a lot of people Ayaka's soon to be husband could talk to in the first place… 

You remember when she told you the news. Unlike you she wasn't forced, she agreed to it. Your emotions didn't understand it but your logic did. For such a small family and a huge company, it's not impossible to imagine them needing some additional assistance. But you're yet to hear about her brother's marriage-! 

Your anger was as clear as day and it earned you a chuckle from Ayaka "Y/N, are you thinking again about the situation? It's sweet of you really, but I'm satisfied with how things are" she didn't look like she was lying "I just never planned to marry out of love you know. And if I can do so for mutual benefit, why shouldn't I?" you've already been through this but it still feels so weird to hear how happy she is about engaging in a loveless marriage. Especially since she wouldn't wish the same for you. 

"Ah… This topic is killing the atmosphere, isn't it? Let's discuss something else" and with that your usual chat with Ayaka started shifting topics from one to another. 

-

During your time at school, nothing out of the ordinary was happening in the house. 

"I wonder if Y/N was actually planning on introducing her friend to us" Yelan started the thought. 

"Why not? She probably has her own responsibilities, so surely you didn't think we'd meet her day after Y/N's announcement" Miko commented as she looked through a magazine. 

"Right, I forgot that whoever associates with the L/N heir has to be high class too" Yelan rolled her eyes. 

"It's more about that friend being a classmate from a prestigious school. Not that she'd only befriend someone on her level" Miko sounded bored "I mean, we're her "love interests" and the closest to high class is Eula who got disowned" 

"Don't bring me into this to prove your point Miko, besides it's normal for us to assume that meeting Y/N's friend will be sooner than later and it's been over a week since her announcement" Eula answered unusually calmly. 

"I'm just surprised how Yelan is getting impatient just after a week. I mean we had to wait much longer to even see Y/N in person" Miko rolled her eyes "But you're right, arguments like that will be only boring so I see no point in continuing it. Yelan, I apologize" she faked her politeness. 

"You're lucky I don't feel like wasting my energy either" Yelan sighed as she was thinking about leaving the room.

"It's almost impressive how the mood shifts the moment Y/N is gone. Almost like we're back with how things used to be when we first met" Ningguang joined in on the conversation. 

"Don't even bring it up. It was just disaster after disaster" Eula said. 

"That's true, imagine what would she be like if she heard what sort of things we argued over" Ningguang let out a light chuckle, lighting up the mood "If not for you and Thoma we probably would not be half at peace as we are now" 

"I'm honestly quite surprised how you somehow managed to prevent more fights than start them" Yelan turned to Eula. 

"If you meant it as a compliment, you're doing a bad job" she huffed.

"Speaking of Thoma…" Miko changed the subject "Does anyone have any idea as to where he might be?" 

"He should be somewhere in the house, otherwise he'd tell us that he's leaving" Ningguang answered. 

"I'm here, miss Miko, do you need something?" with Thoma entering the room it was very clear that he was in a better mood than usual. 

"I'd like two things actually. First, could you brew me some tea? Second, what are you hiding?" everyone looked at Miko slightly surprised by her second mention. 

"And what do you mean by that?" he raised his eyebrow at her as he was more focused on her question rather than her request. 

"You're acting a bit different today ever since you took a call. Did the old man tell you something about the engagement process?" trying to guess the reason, she took a closer look at Thoma. 

"Ah, that was just a private matter" he answered before going to the kitchen to prepare the tea. When he turned around though he could feel a little nervous over how he could potentially ruin "the surprise". 

"Interesting, I thought he didn't have any private life to speak of" she chuckles. 

"I suppose he's just that dedicated to serving Y/N. But it is concerning how he doesn't do anything but that" Yelan thought out loud "Do you think he ever even takes days off?" 

"He had to take a few at some point… After all, he has worked with L/N's family for years. There's no way he never took time off" Ningguang paused "But… He might just like his work too much to notice. I definitely was never blessed with such a job but who's to say he didn't just get lucky?" 

"Oh I definitely got lucky" Thoma joined in as he served Miko her tea "You could say that I was made for this job. As for my time off, before you came by, whenever Y/N was at school it was something that could be considered as such" he smiled proudly "That's just the way of being a full-time butler. And I wouldn't have it any other way. Hope this satisfies your curiosity" 

They looked at him without really knowing what to feel about his statement. But they decided to keep all their opinions to themselves regarding his relationship to his work. 

-

Few hours later you were headed back to your "home". As long as you've lived there it couldn't feel any further from the definition of home… But then again, the family estate didn't fit that description perfectly either. 

With Ayaka on your side though, you felt confident and ready to enter. After opening the door the first to greet you was Eula. But she paid more attention to Ayaka by your side. 

"Hello Y/N, I take that this is your friend?" you could tell that she wasn't too pleased with the aspect of a surprise guest. 

"Greetings, I'm Kamisato Ayaka. It's my pleasure to meet you" each of her words was filled with grace and it impressed Eula.

"My name is Eula, as you already know I'm one of Y/N's suitors" you were surprised by how polite she was, given how she acted upon meeting you in comparison "I'll let the others know about your arrival" she walked back to the living room. 

"Hm, she sounds different from how you described her" Ayaka giggles as she waits for you to lead her to the living room. 

"Hmpf, she acts unusually hostile when talking to me" you complain before you walk up to the door. 

"Perhaps she's just the type of person to act like that towards those she's interested in" upon her comment you could feel your cheeks burning up, but you don't respond to her teasing (even though it didn't sound intentionally so) and instead open the door. 

Everyone's attention went immediately to you, only to be turned to Ayaka as she was an unfamiliar face to most. They had seen you talking to her earlier, sure, but it's not like they even knew who she was until Thoma spoke up "Miss Kamisato, it's been a while" usually he also referred to her by name but it was only when it was just the three of you hanging out. 

Ningguang seemed to be quite interested upon hearing Ayaka's last name, but she waited to speak. 

"Right" you say to yourself "Ayaka, this is Ningguang" the two shake hands, you move on and introduce everyone in the same way. 

After the introductions all of you went to sit down, Ningguang was the first to jump on the opportunity to speak "It's an honor to have the opportunity to meet you miss Kamisato" 

"Please, just Ayaka is fine. I wouldn't require formality from someone who wishes to marry my dear Y/N. I'd like us to become friends- if possible" she claps her hands together. 

"Of course, Ayaka then. Mind telling us how you and Y/N got acquainted?" when Ningguang asked that question it was almost like Ayaka waited for this moment. 

"It was a year ago, we already knew each other since we've been in the same class but a year ago is when we really became friends. Although Y/N was quite popular I noticed that nobody really talked to her. So I gathered some courage within, and approached her myself" listening to this sounded almost like she was talking about dating you, but you don't stop her at her tracks "Believe it or not but she wasn't that much interested at first…" your suitors give the look that was telling you how much they believed that part to be true "But I managed to find a trick to get through that barricade. Unfortunately though… Some people claimed that I'm keeping her to myself. I honestly was just confused, because until I talked to her nobody didn't even speak to Y/N besides exchanging greetings and goodbyes… and that's when she stood by my side and told them that she likes my company, I was so moved!" as she fondly looks back at the memory, there was one thing all of them were curious about… 

"You found a… trick to get closer to Y/N?" Yelan asked the right question. And you just now realize that this visit might've been a trap from the start. It all made sense now. Ayaka was setting you up to give your suitors the right push to start getting close to you. 

"You wish to know what it is?" you almost couldn't recognize Ayaka with how she planned her words carefully for this exact moment. Before you got to protest she said "How about we play chess? Whichever of you wins, will get the information" which made you relieved. 

"Chess? Hm, I don't see why should we refuse. Especially if the reward is so valuable" Ningguang looked excited. 

They didn't know what they set themselves up for… which gave you an odd sense of satisfaction. 

-

"How do you-!?" Eula was so frustrated she couldn't even finish her sentence. 

It's been hours, and none of them were even close to beating Ayaka. You already lost count on how many matches started. But Ayaka was unbeatable. You haven't met her brother, but you were told that he was even better… Which gave you a little scare for how good the Kamisato siblings were at chess. 

Everyone was a mess, Eula was mad above all else, Ningguang had her pride trampled upon as she thought she was good at the game, Yelan was hesitating more and more with each move, even Miko lost her poker face after losing so many rounds. 

The worst thing is: none of them planned to give up. Fortunately, Thoma stepped in before it turned into a chess night "I believe it's getting quite late, maybe we should continue this some other time?" 

"You're right, unfortunately I think I should go. What a shame… I honestly didn't expect for this to be so entertaining" she innocently smiles. 

"So the rumors were true after all" Yelan said under her breath. 

"I definitely won't forget this disgrace! I'll have my revenge, just you wait" Eula had a stern look on her face. 

"That was… insightful… I honestly never thought my strategy to be so flawed" Ningguang on the other hand had a soft expression of disappointment on her face. 

"Hm, it's not like I needed that reward anyways. But it sure was fun to play with you Ayaka" Miko waved to her goodbye and went upstairs. 

"It was great meeting all of you. I wish you best of luck" she was ready to leave, and you earlier agreed that Thoma will drive her back. You also decided to tag along to have a talk with her. 

After leaving the house you were hit with the cold air night had to offer. Soon enough you entered the car and said "So meeting them all wasn't your only reason after all" you crossed your arms. 

"I'm sorry Y/N, but it was the best way to see all different sides of them in the shortest amount of time" she defended herself. 

"I wouldn't call those hours short…" you look out of the window and seeing how dark it is, is nothing but more proof. 

"You're right, I did get ahead of myself. But seeing their determination to fight for you definitely didn't leave a bad impression, did it?" 

"... Maybe" you mutter under your breath. 

"Hm? Can it be that you were happy about someone fighting for you in particular?" she says in a hopeful tone.

|Miko|

"I was surprised how Miko tried to win. She always seems so confident that she knows exactly what I want" you answer with a confused expression. 

"Is that so?" she paused for a moment "Maybe she just wanted to make sure the others won't get the answer?" she tried to fill in the blanks for you. 

"That seems possible… But then, letting others have the answer would be only an inconvenience. So I see no reason why she'd play for it so "desperately"" you still couldn't get that image of her losing some of her confidence. It could only lead you to a thought that she may not be as confident as she may seem. 

Then again, seeing her from many sides would definitely work in her favor. You don't necessarily like the idea of her constantly teasing you for the sake of her own amusement. 

Still, you're interested to learn why she thinks that you need her. Maybe it's just a matter of her "profession hunch” or maybe she was out of ideas to make you even slightly consider her so she threw random words in order to save face. 

|Ningguang|

"I remember how when we first played and I had almost the same reaction as Ningguang" you fondly look back at the memory. 

"I remember it too, it almost made me feel bad when I saw that disappointed look on your face" she giggled "So I definitely could see the comparison" she looked at you as if she wanted you to continue the thought. 

"That's right, but I don't think it matters much… I honestly can't tell why it stuck out to me so" it's only a normal reaction when you see that you're not as good at something as you originally thought. 

There was definitely potential in Ningguang for the corporate field. The more you talk to her, the more you're certain of it. So should you end up not liking anyone she would be a safe bet to some extent. 

Although your interactions were limited, you start to consider the fact that perhaps getting along with her wouldn't be so difficult. So maybe she's a better choice than her "title" may suggest.

|Yelan|

"Yelan seems to look out for me the most so far… I… I think I wouldn't really be against it if she were to win" as you think about it, she probably wouldn't even use whatever Ayaka's trick may be. 

"Oh? And how does she care for you exactly?" upon her question, you wanted to bite your tongue out for even speaking up about it. 

"She's just respectful of my boundaries. Nothing more nothing less" you glance away. 

"That's sweet of her. But are you sure it's nothing more?" with her question, you shook your head. 

Yelan… There is something about her that makes you even more interested in her. She's so carefree, additionally there is that mysterious aura around her you can't help but want to know more… 

She also seems to be the most concerned about you from the bunch, you wonder if there is a reason behind it- or is it just her personality trait.

|Eula|

"Although I'm used to seeing Eula mad, this time it felt a little bit… Different" you admit. You weren't sure why exactly, but her determination was something quite charming… Even if she didn't go about it in the best way. 

"Well, maybe because her anger was directed at herself" her way of thinking got you to think. 

"Hm… Maybe you're right… B-but I meant it as a feeling of respect I'll have you know, before you get any funny ideas" there was no way you'd fall for someone this quick. And especially for a reason like this! 

"Noted" she definitely didn't believe you. 

You wouldn't admit that you're the same but… You can definitely see how similar the two of you are, whether you like it or not. Especially given the relationship she has with your grandfather it almost makes you feel like she understood you the most out of the group. 

Then again… You can't help but wonder why it was just now that your grandfather decided to introduce Eula to you. 

-----

Now that you answered her question, you started thinking if you wanted to ask her something too. You thought a bit more about your choice of words as you decided to bring up the topic "Ayaka…" your tone changed, causing the atmosphere to change and making her worried "Why is it that you care so much about me being in love with my future spouse?" you still couldn't get it. Sure, it’s normal for a friend to wish for the best, but Ayaka is almost insistent that you fall in love rather than have a beneficial situation like her. 

"Y/N, unlike myself I think it's just what you need. Of course I don't claim that I know you better than you do but… Can you at least try and see for yourself?" she said with a sweet voice "And if you decide that you feel nothing towards them, I'll be the first person to stop them from pursuing you further" 

You chuckle at her promise as you decided to make one of your own "Okay, I'll try not to deny any possibility of falling in love" 

She was clearly satisfied with your answer "Be sure to update me on the matter, I'm curious to know who you'll pick in the end" 

-

When you were back in the house you thought back on your conversation with Ayaka. You prepared a plan for how you'll proceed from this point forward. You had their files in front of you, you've read it all so many times by now you've memorized everything that's on them. 

"I need to see if I can trust them… but how can I achieve so..?" you think to yourself as you hear a knock on your door. 

"You can come in, Thoma" you immediately answer. There was no need to see who it is, after all only him and you can be on this floor. 

So when he opens the door and serves you something to drink he notices how you were reviewing your suitors. You've started writing pros and cons for each and one of them already and it earned you a chuckle from your butler. 

"I see you're taking this more seriously than I imagined" he looked down at your notes before taking a seat on your couch "But don't you think that it's best if you let your heart decide instead of logic? You have plenty of time. So there's no need for you to set your heart for someone because it's the "best" choice" he says warmly. 

"I have a lot to lose should I make the wrong choice" you give him your perspective "I mean, I don't even know if I can trust them yet" 

He seems to be reading through your notes "So why make those?" 

"It's just to think of compatibility… uhm- either way that is but a secondary matter" you feel embarrassed as you snatched the notes from his hands. 

"Don't you think all this analysis and over thinking is what leads you to being so distant with them? Sure I'm also not a fan of you suddenly being thrown at a stranger, but no matter how hard you think this" he gestures to the pile of papers "isn't going to help you build any connection or relationship with any of them that will be real. You can't calculate your feelings" 

"Then what do you propose I should do?" you look down at your work troubled. You know this isn't going to work… But at the same time you're just too afraid to do anything else. 

"Spending time with them separately should do the trick" he stood up "Or at least take the opportunity to talk to them alone when you can" 

He knows you ignored this solution, but now that he had brought it up it's much harder for you to pretend to be clueless. 

"Really? Why haven't I thought about that?" you say sarcastically "Thoma, I know this is the best way but I just don't feel comfortable around them yet" 

"And you think this will change when you keep pushing every opportunity away?" he walks up to the door "Please consider what I've said, goodnight Y/N" 

When he left you let out a frustrated groan. Him being right made you angry at that moment, but since he was right you really had to think about your actions moving forward. 

You look down at the notes you've snatched from Thoma. You really have a problem with viewing it as anything other than an arrangement. With that in mind you can only laugh at how helpless you are. 

But just because you're helpless now, doesn't mean you'll remain as such forever. 

It was time to prove this to yourself and everyone else.

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