#don't wanna overdo it with perfectionism

[biazerod]

Some bits from the "undercover mission" scenario :D

so the plot was that there's some dude to seduce on fancy party in fancy mansion for some mission reasons. And the assumption was that Spy would be the one to do it but basically Engie gets drunk and steals the show XD

meanwhile Spy and Heavy uncover some other evil plot, probably with ppl from Spy's past

[cyberpunkaddict]

2023 Letter.

Here we are again. It’s been a year since my last letter. This is my last post for 2023. I included a bunch of unreleased VP again.

Read the letter below:

This year has been a rollercoaster in many ways. It’s really easy to focus on the negative because it seems to take up so much space. But it’s important to take some time and think about the positive in life too to get some perspective.

Life is made up of tiny moments of happiness after all. ❤���

The Cyberpunk 2077 community is very important to me. "Stuff" we may or may not agree with is bound to happen no matter where we are, IRL or online. But no matter who you are, in the end we all want the same things; feel like we belong, make connections with people, escape real life for a while, have fun and feel safe.

I'm a broken record lol, but... Without you there wouldn't even be a community whatsoever. Thank you for being part of it and making it fun! ❤️

So, back to reminiscing on 2023...

If you know me, you know I'm a stubborn perfectionist. With that comes pessimism, but I’ve grown and gained a more positive outlook on life, which is something I’m proud of. It's not often I'm proud of something, striving for perfectionism and all, so admitting this is a huge achievement for me. I know I'm always gonna be a perfectionist when it comes to my art though, but that just forces me to be a better artist, so it's not all bad... As long as I don't overdo it, which is something I'm working on. My goal for 2024 is to stop being so hard on myself and upload more to Tumblr. ❤️

I started doing OC gif giveaways this year, and I definitely wanna do more, and not just gifs but VP too. I do these because I want to spread, excuse the cringe lol, happiness and positivity. I love to give back. It gives me purpose in life.

I started modding as well, which I wanted to do for months, but I was too scared because it seemed so complicated... But I did it. I'm proud I went out of my comfort zone for once.

So, Dear Everyone ❤️, once again...

Thank you for sharing your incredible art, writing, cosplay, mods, and the list goes on. I hope 2023 treated you well, if not, let's make 2024 beyond amazing! I want you to know that you make my day better no matter what is happening in my life. The simplest joke in a tag or a simple hi in a DM make me smile and laugh. And if this is how I feel, just know you make other people you've never met before feel this way too. I think that's pretty cool.

One day I might have to leave Cyberpunk 2077 behind, because that's how life goes sometimes. And that’s sad to think about... I’m not ready to put it behind me yet. At the same time it means that this community, and my OCs and yours will always have a place in my heart.

I will never forget you.

Here's to another year filled with lots of happy moments. ❤️

Bye 2023! Hello 2024!

Vicky

To everyone who made it this far, I have a little surprise... I’d like to do VP with one of your OCs. Comment on this post and tell me what you’re proud of in 2023. In a week-ish I’ll pick a random person (from the comments). :3

❤️❤️❤️

[nighttime-tea-party]

I reread wanderlust after you updated and ive been wondering. does ciel have an eating disorder? he mentions eating little so he can binge on junk food later n that got me thinking. btw loved the new chapter!!! tysm for updating!

Thank you so much for reading everything TWICE!! Omg! The patience!

Interesting question! I can see what you mean. In the end, it's up to the reader to interpret whatever they want into the work. So I'll say it's up to you, as the reader, to decide on that! It would fit in quite well with the general mental health themes of the story, wouldn't it?

But if you wanna know my intention when I'm writing Ciel and the way he eats, then no, I don't intend for him to have an ED. Most days he eats pretty normally, it's just on special occasions (meeting/working with Sebastian, doing social media stuff) that he goes all out on the junk food and maybe holds back a little with food for the rest of the day. But even then that's mostly so he can fit more junk food into his limited stomach space, not because he stresses about his weight. He's blessed with a good metabolism. Which I imagine canon Ciel must be too if he stays that skinny with all that cake lol

I actually think between the two of them, Sebastian is the one more likely to develop an ED. Not in the traditional starving yourself kind of way, but more like anorexia athletica. With his perfectionism issues, I can see him overdoing physical exercise to make up for what he feels he lacks. Someone's asked me before how Sebastian and Ciel would cope with the pandemic, and back then I think I said Sebastian (at the point we were in the story back then) wouldn't know how to cope financially and literally run away from his problems because running/jogging makes him feel better. But if he can't feed himself and always has to work out for that sweet serotonin, this behaviour has the potential to take on a bad dynamic. That being said, Sebastian doesn't have an ED either! But I can imagine it.

I hope this helps! :)