#don't unfollow I'll show myself out

[kindahoping4forever]

LukeHemmings: Any bats in the cave?

[crystallizedtwilight]

I really like how you draw what you love in the moment. I am making a shift in my drawing interests as well, but I'm starting to feel guilty. My friends and followers know me as the (insert fandom) artist. Deep down I know what I am feeling is silly. Draw what you love! Who cares! I know that is the truth. So my question to you is, what do you do when those thoughts come to your head (if it does)?

What a thoughtful question! Below the cut:

Thank you! I've been on tumblr for 10 years and I have come to accept that I will always receive certain messages when I begin drawing a new interest:

"Guess you don't draw X anymore" / "Why did you stop drawing X?" / "Are you ever going to draw X again?" / "I want more X" / "When can we expect more X?" / "We're never going to see X again, are we?"

Though I've emphasized many times that this is my blog for all of my art and all my fandoms, every time I switch interests I am swamped with messages like this 3-4 months afterwards. It's an inevitability, because new folks may have missed that this is a "my current interest" blog, and old folks may not like the new content you're interested in.

At first it really bothered me, because I'd draw like 150 pieces of art for a fandom for 6 months straight, need a break, and the next day people will be like "guess you don't care anymore" like all the art I did wasn't enough.

The reality is: I like the idea of managing one blog for all of my artwork. I like how low-stress it is to have one, singular place I can still use a playground for my interests. I think it's a concept some people have forgotten is an option. Dare we call it a portfolio.

I am aware that the more "modern" way to conduct things, if you want to build an audience, is to have several blogs, each dedicated to one of your interests. But the very thought of managing 100 blogs every time I got a new interest makes my skin crawl and I know it would instantly suck the fun out of it for me.

I don't want to do that. I don't want to "build an audience", I just want to have a fun space for me. There are already so many social media sites out there besides tumblr, and if you're an artist that uploads to more than one, multiplying those by each of your fandoms? Sounds like more work than I want to do.

I can't remember the name of the artist, but I recall a few years ago one of the artists for the show Korra was bombarded with these sorts of messages when they started posting art that wasn't Avatar-related. And they said something to the effect of "I gave 2 years of my life to this show. Let me explore something new." And I'll never forget that. I feel the same way.

The theme of this blog is "my art". That's it. My interests change, sometimes circle back, and change again. And that's ok—that's how artists keep art fun for themselves. Every artist deserves a playground where they can share and connect with other people who are also just as excited about their newest thing. That's the joy of it.

Keeping yourself in a box just because that's what people want or expect you to do is the death of creativity. I am at peace with people unfollowing if our interests don't align anymore. This was never a blog for catering to anyone but myself, and that is ok.

So those messages don't bother me anymore. I know they're coming. I know they will always be there. And, every time, I will find new folks who do want to share in my new interest. I think in many ways I like starting over again. It feels refreshing.

But more than that, I know the importance of keep a space for myself online where I can be as creative and fun and silly as I like, chasing after the latest thing that is making me smile.

[adamnablelittledevil]

I don't like Marius de Romanus. I don't think he is a good person, not even by the standards of the books or show. I don't believe he's even an interesting character that could serve as a good antagonist. I don't see him as a necessary and irreplaceable part of the story except for a few punctual aspects. I don't think he has any trait or even one line that I enjoy. I straight-up hate him. I hope they kill him off on the show. I don't need anyone to agree with me, I'm just posting my opinion on my own blog without tagging anything so his fans won't see it. I'm following fandom etiquette. If you have a problem with that, feel free to blacklist my url or block me. I won't take it personally. Just don't unfollow me and keep me as your follower because that's hypocrisy lol. If you don't have problems with that and want to remain mutuals, great, that's fine by me. But I won't tolerate people sending messages that are tone deaf or straight-up rude. I won't answer and just immediately block you, whether you're anonymous or not. I'm not forcing my opinions down anyone's throat and won't let somebody do it to me either. I treat people the way I'd like to be treated. Some of you ride way too hard for a fictional character that at best is controversial and offend real people in the way. You should reevaluate your priorities. Yes, I'm reading the books. My opinion can change as it has changed with certain stuff before. He might end up being my favorite character. I doubt it will happen, but I'll see. Still, in this case, I'll come up with conclusions by myself in my own time and not out of pressure or some condescending and arrogant messages. GOODBYE.

[alienoresimagines]

We're done trying the gentle approach to get me out of this slump so this is just me giving myself a bit of a pep talk to (hopefully) set my brain straight on whatever bs it's on :)

It's so hard to get out of the writer slump when you know the reasons you're in them are wrong 😭

Ever since September I've been caught in a loop of frustration that I wasn't able to write as much, if at all; that what I wrote wasn't good enough. And then my brain decided to turn this frustration in competitiveness and bitterness that other writers were being productive and like?? Brain, who gave you the audacity to think like that, get yourself back together wtf 💀

Sprinkle in some personal but still fandom and writing related issue and I was then caught in a whole "what do I even bring to the fandom/is continuing to write worth it" when the whole point of writing, of creating is the process!! It's to enjoy putting words together and creating a story, I know that. And that's what makes this slump so frustrating, but I can't seem to get out of it 😭

Cue avoiding fandom -> losing Gale and John's voices for fics -> being even more unable to write, all the while feeling terrible for the bitterness that I feel when I want to be happy for the amazing people who create for this fandom, I want to support them with my entire heart because that's what they deserve and me being unable to create anything should never have an impact on the support I give others </3

And it's so frustrating to open a doc only to stop since "it'll never be good enough (compared to...)", because babe, WHO CARES, if you enjoy the story you wrote then Boom, goal's achieved, you write for yourself, not for some poor soul you single handedly decided to put on a pedestal somehow 💀 Not getting comments months after a fic has been posted does not mean your works don't matter or anything, and even if they did, then what? You're still proud of them and had fun writing them, and that's the most important thing!! Why do you care so much about being told your stories are worth reading 😭 If you had fun writing it, than it was worth writing and if one person (aka you!!) likes reading it then!!! Guess what, it means the story is good; stop relying on other people to show you your worth ffs😭

So it's back to square one of appreciating fandom I guess because the Horrors are persisting despite my best feelings and logic </3 time for a mota rewatch and tiptoeing on tumblr to ease myself back into it 🫠

PS: While in this slump I had to unfollow/break off some moots (though I've made you unfollow me too because it felt even more wrong otherwise) because my feed was absolutely clogged with mota which I usually love but in those times, seeing 10 times the same post only made me feel like a failure that I couldn't the same feelings as I would have 4 months ago 💔 but I promise, it was nothing personal at all and I'll probably end following you again if I manage to get past this slump 🥹❤️

[epickiya722]

Hi, I just wanted to say your blog has gotten me through all the my hero academia discourse from the epilogue leaks that have came, out I just find it so frustrating Remembering when chapter 430 came out the leaks taken out of context again. Seeing people hate on midoriya is frustrating to me as a midoriya lover and a bakudeku shipper. Being in fandom is so tiring will definitely be taking a break from my hero academia until Dec 4 when the volume officially comes out.

First, you're welcome!! ദ്ദി ( ᵔ ᗜ ᵔ )

Second, you should take your break!

I'm with you on how frustrating how this fandom can be. I am, too, a Midoriya fan (you already know I'm about to say he's my #1 tied with Miruko) and being a multishipper, I have came to like BakuDeku.

I'll tell you, seeing how everyone is reacting, I frankly find myself highly annoyed.

I don't discriminate, so I'm annoyed with just about everyone right now.

From saying this is canon and this is ruined and whatever else isn't helping anything.

It seemed almost no one learned.

The full chapter isn't out yet and people want to start ship wars.

BakuDeku's now coming for Horikoshi's throat are doing exactly what others have been saying for years, you are really proving what antis and others have been trying to call you folks! They've been calling the shippers "toxic" and now with the leaks out, BakuDeku are acting out. I thought you were better than this! Don't be attacking people, hello? Let alone the fucking mangaka???!!!

You can ship BakuDeku! Don't feed the haters what they want! DO BETTER!!

Oh, the other ship shouldn't celebrate so soon either. "Horikoshi has been hinting IzuOcha since the beginning. BakuDeku's were delusional into thinking their ship would be canon."

Show me you're an ass without telling me. Case and point.

First, can we drop that word, "delusional"? I hate it.

Second, I don't know if anyone is really paying attention, but the most Horikoshi has done with IzuOcha was make it feel one-sided. Izuku barely shown anything towards Ochako except being flustered around her like once or twice because she's a girl. Just like he has done with other girls.

BakuDeku shippers weren't delusional to ship them because look at the manga, just look. They even have a volume cover that looks to be a reference to Spider-Man and Gwen Stacy!!

What I hated about Ochako having a crush wasn't that she had a crush. It's Izuku, why wouldn't she like him? What I hated was the fandom chose to only recognize her for that. Whether you hated or loved Ochako, it feels like injustice to her to think only her crush on Izuku was important and then assume from barely fucking nothing that after eight years, he wants to date her because his possibly drunk ass looked at her and thought "I want to make her my wife, she's so pretty".

Sorry but it's a played out trope.

And after reading his previous works, Horikoshi making the main boy and girl canon don't even seem like his forte. It just don't feel right.

Now, them dating isn't bad and I know some people think "it will ruin Ochako's development" but again... how we know that with very little information?

And Izuku, my favorite green bean... this fandom really doesn't get you. I have unfollowed and blocked so many people within just year alone because of these bad takes about him.

"Bakugou should take that suit back". Bakugou isn't the only one who contributed to that suit. Yeah, he gave the most donation but saying that just makes him sound controlling. Don't do that. Don't make him sound like someone who would deprive someone of something just to control their actions. Bakugou fans, come on now.

After all the years of Bakugou being hated? Don't do that to him. I mean, I'm already disappointed in some of you, but come on.

Izuku ain't do nothing wrong that we know of! Cool your jets, first!

We don't have no full translation. We don't have all the pictures. The leaks gave to little to darn near nothing.

We don't know everything, but apparently it doesn't matter to anybody, does it, friend? (I meant the friend part affectionately!)

Again, I'm annoyed at just about everyone right now about this. Nothing is canon until everything is out on the table and every little detail is seen.

People were acting like 430 was such a terrible ending even before the whole chapter came out and now seeing them go "I guess that chapter wasn't so bad" is so funny to me. Oh, now it doesn't?

[s-talking]

⌘ 𝒐𝒐𝒄; update + the new beginnings.

hello everyone ~ ! i hope that you all had a wonderful christmas / holidays & finally get to kick back a little, & if not, i sincerely do hope that the new incoming year will be filled with much better times & only good memories this time around. as for myself, i just really wanted to thank everyone who stayed & didn't unfollow me despite previous status on the blog being long outdated by now.

i did say i would be back somewhere in mid-september, but it' s almost new year's now & honestly, i've debated for the longest time as to how i should approach this. i never was the type to write anything too personal. still, it's almost new years indeed & i believe i should be a little more open for once than give an illusion that my lack of presence here was due to waning interest towards my online friends or this little hobby.

in truth, my surgery turned out to be something entirely else: a complication of which not even my surgeon or her team ever expected. & it's very serious. i didn't know how to handle the news & just needed more time for myself to let the reality sink in, hence my prolonged disappearance. i'm so very sorry to my close friends who left me worried messages or any unanswered check-ups / other good-natured things. i suppose i just drew a short stick in life & didn't know how to deal with it, but know that i'm extremely thankful for everyone who sent me even as little as a nudge. you have no idea how much it meant ( & still means ) to me, so once again, from the bottom of my heart... thank you. i will be messaging you all back very soon.

now while i do not wish to get into the matter of what i was diagnosed with, i will say that thanks to my loving & extremely supportive family, i managed to somewhat lift my dark perspective of helplessness & sorrow into one of hope, & so instead of dropping my little writing hobby & art altogether, i will continue on, but this time with adjustments.

i will be updating my rules to clarify that i'll be perm. semi-hiatus & will no longer pressure or guilt myself to replying when i just physically can't. to those who enjoy active blogs with prompt response times, i will sadly never be one of them no matter how much i adore our ships or interactions, so if you wish to leave after this notice, i will completely understand & not be upset, especially if we only just met.

on the flipside, to those who don't mind waiting, not much will change. i will still pour all my heart into writing captivating stories, join in the silly memes & roll with lil chit-chats as i always have, just with much less sorries & feelings of guilt in-between. now that i finally got my answers, i can say that i simply wish to start anew with new adjustments & self-acceptance as the first step.

so, before the new year finally starts, i would like to thank @chronicparagon for always being there for me even though i often wasn't present & for always, always, always showing so much care, understanding, & support that even on the worst days i found myself smiling. you have a heart of pure gold & in my mind, a halo from all the good things that you do. i feel blessed to have met you, my dear friend.

i would like to thank @truethes for being so kind, cheerful & supporting despite having so much on own plate, ( & for the fact you never changed your pic so we are now officially passing our first anniversary for matching avatars! lmao ) but seriously though. whenever we write, i fall in love with writing all over again. that means a lot to me.

i would like to thank @spectralhunter for being my sun, in every sense of the word. without you, i would have succumbed so many years ago & especially on that day in september, but you never let me. you are my muse. my passion. my everything, & when you finally return here, i will once again write tales with you as if we never stopped.

i would like to thank @umbralrosa for always kicking down my door whenever i shut myself in, & for always inspiring me to daydream, which is more than words can say when it comes to an artist like me. without daydreaming, what is there, really? our chats & mutual drawings are all so precious to me, & i hope my art for you shows that.

i would also like to thank @whispers-in-daydreams, @yuichiroswife, @tunichtgxt, @diverse-hearts-ocs, @gossamerlaced & @awesomeuchuu for not only leaving me good wishes last time, but also for being such strong individuals yourselves. we all have our troubles & cross to bear, but for as long as i've known you all, i was not only captivated by your muses & writing, but also how you continue to do what you love despite life being life. i feel grateful for your interest in me / my muse regardless of my disappearances & i hope that in the new years, we all can fun as we always did, no matter how fast or slow. i love writing with each one of you & that has never changed. if you will, i would love to pick up from were we left off ♡

now, as we move to the new years, expect to return of activity & as means of a new begging, new art from me. this above being the very first piece. thank you for reading & leaving sadness behind, a happy new years. ♡

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

Muting wicked and every name and word related to it. I can't stand it anymore. I could make fun of it for a while with the constant crying in interviews, but I've had it. I cannot relate to a single thing connected to musical theatre mindset and culture. And it looks bad and that director is simply too stupid and should just shut up.

There are days when the kpop brain is something I can brush off or even comment on it, but then there are days when I just simply loathe being in the same space with such braindead people. I'll end up unfollowing all the acc on twitter once again.

The results of the elections on Sunday are still mindblowing to me, although it has become obviously clear that social media really makes us live in our own bubble. To see such a large number of people (apart from the ones lacking an education or literacy) actually having the same ideology as some extreme far-right wing politician who is the embodiment of the worst traits and ideas someone could have right now. It is dangerous and it's not looking good for what might happen in two weeks. I can't get myself out of that depressing mind.

I put the Christmas tree up already because I am too impatient. Could have been a nicer experience if my dickhead moron of a neighbour hadn't blasted club music the entire time. I tried so hard to set the vibe and have a good time and by the end of it, I just kept swearing without going to knock on his door cause I don't wanna mess with someone who does not seem like a reasonable person.

And honestly, sometimes the more I expect something to feel nice and turn out well and I make all these plans and I get excited and then when it is actually taking place, it's not nearly the same as how I wanted it to be. The reality is simply disappointing.

All theater shows and operas for Christmas are sold out. I had no idea I had to be fast in getting tickets the minute they are announced. And now there is nothing left to do for December.

[saffiroll]

Some things i gotta discuss!

"Where is the Camp Camp content"

I had to adress this sooner rather then later. Truth be told i am branching out to new fandoms, new communities. Don't worry I haven't given up on Camp Camp yet, it just isn't my main interest or focus anymore and i can't force it to be my main focus like i did before. I still love CC and i'll always be happy that it pushed me this far that it allowed me to start writing and improving my art skills!

However, the CC community and fandom has made me feel very...drained? So many things i made were so similar and so boring. The fandom has a lot of bad apples too, the enviroment of said fandom recently hasn't been making me all that excited or happy (this isn't targeted to any creator btw! It's just my brain and feelings). I thought of so many CC stories and ideas that i ran out of things to experiment with. I needed something new, a new place to share my creativity. That's why my posts have been focused on Object Show's lately, it's something new. New characters to explore with new dynamics, new storylines. Plus the shows and content are still there and active. This new fandom and community i found myself in feels so much more freeing in a way. I would say that about any new fandom i joined. I feel more relaxed and happy.

Camp Camp will always be a show i enjoy, and i love looking at all my (and other people's) art, and i'm so grateful that it allowed me to make so many new friends! But, it's time for me to try something new. CC posts might come once in a blue moon tho! Haha

For anyone who followed me exclusively for CC contenr, you can unfollow me or you can still stick around. It's your choice.

That's about all, hope this made sense.

Bye bye sapphires! Saffi out!

[turuin]

Inktober

So, in a few days it will be Inktober again.

Many (ill-informed and arrogant) people think Inktober is a silly thing, a show-off, a stupid challenge that has nothing to do with art, and generally despise those who partake in it. We will not talk of such people: they are just another specimen of the archaic "internet troll", and we know well one should not feed trolls. They are only expressing themselves to grief others, or to spoil their fun, and this is pretty much their top aspiration for their internet persona - and I think this speaks volumes of what kind of people they might be in real life.

I'll tell you this instead: Inktober was the very reason why I started considering my stupid office-time doodles something more than that; and, potentially, the very thing that made me understand a couple of important things about art in general.

So, it boils to this: you have a list of verbal prompts, one per day, which you pick from many lists. Yes, there is an official Inktober challenge, set up by Jake Parker and normally available on Instagram and on its own website. Parker was part of an internet controversy, a couple of years ago, about having stolen the idea for an Inking Textbook from another very good artist, Alphonso Dunn; whether you choose to use Parker's prompts or entirely different ones, though, is entirely up to you. I have skipped them, back then, and then I started using them again a couple of years afterwards. They are handy, and you can use them without sponsoring Parker at all, if you feel like it (he has trademarked the Inktober brand for sketchbooks but you can't really trademark a challenge, so hashtags are still free to use).

List controversy aside, the fun thing is that it asks you to draw once per day, possibly with ink (but not solely, and rules are entirely up to you about the medium you want to use whether it is digital or traditional) for a total of 31 days, the whole month of October.

Back when I started, I didn't think myself capable of doing this until the end, and surely my skill was much lower than today. And yet, Inktober taught me many things:

stick to the plan, but if you skip a day, or multiple days, don't worry! Nobody is paying you for that, and there are many people who will keep drawing from the list well into November, but when you decide to draw for the day, put yourself into it - don't do it just because. Inktober is not about speed or skill, it's about challenging your brain and hand on interpretation and execution.

share your art. It is basic? Share it. It is made at the top of your abilities? Share it. People are insulting it? SHARE IT. You have to be able to disconnect emotionally from your art when it is done. You like it? Fine! You don't like it? Fine! I've made it. It is there. Do what you will with it. I have already accomplished my goal: the process.

It will be an occasion for you to learn. You never used ink? Try! You never used ink pens? Try! You never used an old brush with dried ink on it to create strange effects? TRY! Inktober might as well be about trying anything that crosses your mind. Also, you don't need expensive tools; a sheet of paper and a ballpoint pen can, and often will, be enough.

People mock you because you do Inktober or are stressed out because you post Inktober updates? That is a perfect time to remind them of the existence of the "unfollow" button. It does wonders with people who live in troll caves.

You feel like you need to vent? You feel like you're being left behind and stress because you think you will not complete it? First of all: VENT. Your blog / page / online space is yours and you should keep in mind that whatever you post has to do with YOU, not others. People may not like what you post, it's fine. They can unfollow, or start their personal rant in their online space about you - at the end, we are all passing by, if people want to live their life in anger or ranting about your art or your blog, it's their liver, not yours. No, that's not a typo: I'm actually referring to their liver, which probably will not be in very good conditions to start with.

People give you unsolicited advice or opinion on your art? Gracefully nod, and forget about it one fraction of a second later. When you will need advice, you will ask for it, and welcome it. My suggestion is you stick by that rule for pretty much everything in your life: you should be asking, that is of paramount importance, and learning how to ask something is at least as important, but nobody should force you into their opinion. TL;DR: fuck'em opinons.

Again: don't fall in love with your art. It's a piece of paper; you can burn it afterwards. You already possess that art within your hands. It is lost forever? It's ok. You have made it. It existed. You ceased caring about it as soon as it was on paper. Let it go. It is not yours anymore. Let people make what they will of it. You are already unto the next one.

So: I will partake in Inktober, and vent, and chat about it, and post art. I will also do this in our community, https://www.tumblr.com/communities/ars-gratia-artis , and for the time being, I will allow people who want to share their art, participate in the community and not be toxic about it, to join with a link. I would also very much love for community members to attempt Inktober, even with a little doodle whenever they are able. It's fun, I promise!

If you want to join our community, Inktober or not, here's the link:

[hy0ung]

Hii my stars! 🌸✨

How are you? I'm fine, thank you. Came here for a little chat, maybe a vent and announcements, so let's start with this post, and you will be able to go back scrolling real soon, I promise!

First of all, announcements:

1 - Requests OPEN FOR ANY GROUP/IDOL: I know I said I'd stick only to my Tinybebe little bubble, but some kind people asked me about other groups, and I enjoyed doing readings for them, so now I'm fully open to other groups too! ✨🩷

2 - Christmas event + shipp game coming: Most of you who follow me probably came from my shipp games, where you could get a reading on you and your bias. As I said, I stopped doing these readings for free because they were a lot, demanded a lot of energy, and some people didn't even show any gratitude, even a thank you or feedback, and they unfollowed me as soon as I did their reading. So yeah, now I only do it as paid readings, but as promised, I'd host some events on special dates, like Christmas! So please be tuned in, because soon I'll drop the post with the infos and rules! 🎄🎁

3 - Paid readings: I have a special post dedicated to it, so if you want to buy one, this month I'll do a special promotion: buy one, win one. So, by buying a reading from me, I'll gift you with any other you choose. I await you in my DMs! 🌸✨

4 - Kindness: I would really appreciate it if you could please keep it friendly. You know me, I don't back down in a fight, and I'm not afraid to speak out or even argue when I feel the need to, but I still would appreciate it if you were polite in your asks. It keeps this community cool, easygoing, and friendly. Recently I found this site called Grammar Check (I'll put a pic here) that helps me to translate and fix the grammar mistakes, because, as you know, English is not my first language, and it helps me to be able to post quickly for you, but please, have some patience. I still have a weekly job, sometimes I work on weekends or in extra shifts, and I'm still at the university, so yeah, it could take some time. Please be kind and empathetic! 

I know that a few days ago I said I would be more active, and then I disappeared again, and I'm really sorry about that. Some of you don't know, but in addition to going through financial difficulties, I've been going through a difficult emotional period. I've suffered from anxiety and depression for a long time now, and although I manage to live well most of the time, this year I've had more relapses than usual. I've had problems at home, health problems, and that's made it hard for me to be here constantly.

But I'm really determined to change that. I always get motivated at the end of the year, making plans for the next year and organizing my pending tasks. So yes, I'm working on it! I'm changing my mindset and my habits, and in this way, I'm managing to stabilize myself, and that has helped me lately, so I believe I'll be able to keep my presence here.

I want to interact more with you, so if you've read this far, know that I'm grateful for your presence and your support. Thank you so much for waiting for me and for understanding me. I will work hard and do my best to make this blog a comfortable, safe, and happy place for you! ✨🩷

[fcrgottn]

I have rewritten my rules for sake of clarification

Rules under read more please like to let me know you read them

• Please don't god-mod or metagame. It's not fun for anyone if your muse somehow knows details about my muse they're not supposed to, or if you write what my muse is doing. It is fine however if you mention a small action that would make sense in continuation of something my muse did in a previous reply.

• I am mutuals only, although I am not very selective. This rule is only to help me keep track of who I roleplay with, as it's easier to remember people's url if I can see them in my followed tab .If you’re interested in interacting, feel free to follow me and I’ll check your blog. If your roleplay blog is a sideblog please have it written somewhere or give me a heads up, as I don't want personals following me and might block you if I don't know you have a sideblog

• If I follow you, I'll generally wait around one or two weeks  if you're active, or more if you're low activity, to see if you follow me back. When it's not the case,most of the time i simply unfollow.

• If you follow me and have not been followed back after a month, you are free to send me an ask about it. Chances are I simply forgot.

• My activity here is very sporadic. There will be times where I post everyday, and others where I may not post anything for weeks. Please be patient. I am physically and mentally disabled, and while I don't have a job, I don't always have the energy or motivation to write.  A lot of the times I have brain fog that makes it difficult to concentrate. I also struggle with memory issues.

• English is not my first language.  I have been fluent in it for years, but there are still moments where even simple mistakes evade me. You are welcome to kindly point these out to me. Please just don't be rude about it.

• There will not be smut on this blog,as this is not a topic I'm comfortable writing. However, this blog contains and mentions other heavy topics like violence, suicidal thoughts and idealization, death, and attempted murder. They will be tagged accordingly. If I ever forget a tag, please do let me know.

• If I say or do something you're uncomfortable with, please let me know. I want everyone here to have a good time.

• Reblog memes from the source. Unless the source is deactivated, reblog from the original poster and not my blog. I am not a meme source.

• I have never and will never use AI to write my replies. If you use AI to write your replies you are not welcome on my blog.

• I am uncomfortable with drama and callouts, please don't send me any. By this I do not mean that I think all of them are useless, but I get very stressed over them, and so they make me genuinely sick.

• I format with small text. If you need me to use regular text, let me know. If you need image descriptions for my icons or art,let me know.

• Please don’t use irl face claims in your threads with me. It makes me uncomfortable. For those with liveaction muses : if you have an alternative animated faceclaim, and you use this one in our interactions, I have no issue interacting. On that note, please tag your threads that have irl face claims

• I will tell you if I want to stop a thread and I’d be thankful if you did the same, as it stops me from having to guess and worry.

• When continuing a thread from an ask, don’t reblog the ask. Make a new post and tag me in it.

• Please ask me before turning an ask into a thread.

• I will not write more than 3 threads with one person at once. One liners threads and crack threads do not count.

• You do not need to match my writing. As long as there's something I can go from, it's okay. I am also okay with iconless threads

• I do not care much for graphics. While I do like have something for myself, it's not something I require from anyone.

• All art on this blog is mine unless stated otherwise. My icons come from the show itself and have been edited by myself.

Shipping

• Spinel is aroflux asexual  so shipping will be sparse, but is still welcome. I will only ship her with characters that are 18+

• This goes without saying but every ship is a separate verse. I will not write cheating on this blog

Tagging

• If you need anything tagged, let me know and i will tag it. If I ever forget, don't hesitate to remind me.

• I tag trigger warnings with tw:trigger

Fandoms I will not interact with

• South Park, real people fanfiction fandoms, Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss, Harry Potter

• Exceptions might be made for multimuses who don't have only muses from these fandoms. In those cases I will simply just not interact with muses from that fandom.

[mastergeeka]

I’m coming up to about a year of being a NRB fan which means we’re almost at a year since it all went to hell, shall we say. Brilliant timing on my part, thanks so much Universe. But because how much time has passed, I want to take a look back on everything. Time gives a new perspective as they say. Also, I'll be real, I've had these thoughts in my head for months at this point and I need to get them out.

By the time I was seeing information about the situation, I was already like a third of the way through binging everything the channel had ever made. My real life was going through a particularly rough patch and I was definitely using NRB videos as escapism. I ended up deciding that the videos were a source of joy that I needed at the time and since Adam had left and Carley wasn’t appearing on the channel, no matter who was lying vs. telling the truth, my watching of the videos that already were posted would not greatly benefit or punish any involved party so until more details came out, I just tried to ignore the situation. I basically tried to live in a world where both parties were innocent until proven guilty and it was just a really sad misunderstanding or that it never happened at all.

The word “tried” in all those statements is doing a lot of work. Most of the time it worked and I was able to escape reality for a bit, but sometimes my brain would say something like “Am I a bad feminist for not immediately believing the woman, do I just want her to be wrong subconsciously and that’s what’s making me waver? The rule of thumb is believe victims when they speak out”,

“But the ideal of believing the woman/victim doesn’t apply here, no victim has come forward, Carley is just saying that she heard about it and maybe Carley’s just been misinformed or she could be making up rumours. I want to believe that a person can redeem themself and if he took accountability the first time, surely that deserves some credit? That’s what we want people to do after all, take accountability and grow, so we should reward that behavior with trust”

“Sure, but be realistic here, what does your own life experience say is more common and therefore likely with this sort of thing. Don't be naive” and those voices would go at each other, back and forth until I gave up and went to do work or something. So the silver lining there is that at least this kept me from slacking too much. Isn’t that something? I give all this preface to show that this situation isn’t something I’m taking lightly.

Now that I’m in a better place in my real life, I decided I should actually look at everything that happened and see if I could draw any more conclusions to help satisfy the curious/nosy part of my brain. Unsurprisingly, I haven’t been able to crack the case wide open but one thing is clear, and getting clearer by the day: The rest of the cast are on Adam’s side. From the cast members unfollowing Carley, them liking Adam’s statement proclaiming his innocence and his plan for legal action, to recently Jon’s Kickstarter game having a quote from Adam on the front page. These are forms of public support that would be the safest to use if there was a legal battle happening in private.

What this means to me is: Just from a logical standpoint, whatever I believe about Adam, I have to extend it to the whole cast. I can’t condemn Adam but not condemn the rest of the cast. The rest of the cast either know the what happened or didn’t look into the situation enough before standing by Adam. That means if I believe Adam is guilty, I must therefore believe the rest of the cast is complicit and at the end of the day, I just don’t want to do that unless the evidence makes it impossible not to do so.

I really like watching the channel and I don’t want to force myself to stop watching or feel complicit in supporting bad people unless I have to. So until evidence comes out showing otherwise, I believe Adam is innocent. I have to. And if I am wrong, and I must stop watching/supporting NRB as a whole for ethical reasons, at least I gave myself a little more time to enjoy it before I have to say goodbye. Is that selfish? Yeah probably, at least a little if I’m honest, but it’s an understandable level of selfishness that I could forgive someone else for, so I can forgive myself for it, if it turns out for the worst.

And I want to also say that I still think it’s possible Carley isn’t a liar as well. This is not a “Carley is lying” post. If I’m applying innocent before proven guilty to Adam, it’s only fair that I apply it to Carley as well. I’ve tried my absolute best to keep my reasoning consistent across the board with this. I believe she believes what she said but I think it’s possible she could be wrong. And wouldn’t that be nice, if it turned out both parties were innocent and there was just a big confusion? I’ll admit it’s not the likeliest scenario, but I’m still hoping for it. Basically, the more people involved in this that are revealed to not be huge jerks, the happier I’ll be. That’s what dictating my best to worst case scenarios.

The whole reason I wanted to make this post is to remind everyone, including myself, that we as the public still don’t know much of anything. We have 4 comments on a YouTube video on one side and vague PR statements on the other. That’s pretty much it, officially. The rest is just based on how the people involved are interacting with each other and the like. That leaves a lot still up in the air and that’s really frustrating. Uncertainty is one of the worst feelings and I think it’s easier to just say Adam’s guilty and move on than to keep being uncertain about this for so long. Because if he is guilty after all that, we have to process that, on top of having dealt with the terrible uncertainty for this long so we want to “bite the bullet” now, so to speak. It’s less emotionally risky to just assume the worst now, deal with it, then push it into the past and I think there’s a significant portion of fans that did that or that are trying to anyway. The drawback there I want to point out though, is that it ignores the possibility that there is a happier ending to this. Additionally, condemning Adam but trying to stick by the rest of the cast may feel like the simplest & easiest solution at first, but it’s not a realistic one or one that works with the very few pieces of information we do have: the actions of the other cast members.

My goal with this post is not to convince people to either side. That would require me to pick a side and as I think I’ve shown, I can’t. My goal in making this post is to encourage people to keep their minds open to the possibilities out there and remind them not to jump to conclusions too soon. Because one year feels like a decent estimate to me for how long legal stuff like this lasts and I think it’s possible that people could speak freely soon. At least, that's what I'm hoping for and I want other people to have hope, too.

[hot-take-tournament]

Omg the reblog person is so real for that. I understand that Tumblr doesn't have an algorithm so liking doesn't functionally do anything but I get extremely anxious about reblogging so the guilt trips are really awful for me (and I assume it's the same for others with similar issues.)

Uh- bit of a tangent/rant below. For context I'm an "Audhd-er" (I think that's the term people use, it means I'm autistic and I have ADHD)

I understand most of the time they are over-exaggerating their feelings on the matter. In posts about reblogging stuff from writers and artists it's always kind of a "LIKES DO NOTHING SHOW YOUR LOVE WITH REBLOGS LIKES MEAN NOTHING"

I've always found that a bit odd. As someone with two mutuals (one of whom is rarely online) and 1 normal follower my reblogs really aren't gonna do much so I mostly reblog stuff my mutuals might like and occasionally make my own posts. (Keeping everything else private for the most part) When I get a like it always brings a warm fuzzy feeling because it means someone enjoyed my reblog or post enough to share with me that they liked it.

I've only had one post that breached containment and it was a fun weekend of checking out the blogs of people who liked it! All in all I think maybe people are just unaware of the anxieties that come with being online and the people who experience those anxieties are too anxious to really speak up about it. I mean look at me I'm chilling behind an anon mask rn (I rarely send an off anon ask lol.)

For a website dubbed by its users as the neurodivergent website, some people forget to consider that learning and working within the culture of a social media platform can be extremely stressful for many types of people, let alone an autistic person such as myself (the ADHD doesn't help either). Some of us would prefer to lurk in our private blogs, only coming out of our comfort zone when we feel ok to do so.

All in all, a reminder to reblog is perfectly fine, but please refrain from the guilt-tripping and social obligation type of thing— or at least be aware of it and try not to be offended if one of your mutuals struggles to reblog.

Now this is all my personal perspective, other people will likely have completely different experiences but I wanted to share in case people were confused on why it's an issue for some people. Thanks for reading this whole thing and I hope you have a lovely day <3

I think I get what you're saying -

For a lot of people it genuinely takes a surprising amount of guts to put themselves out there on the internet in any way, even if it's anonymously, and that includes things as simple as reblogging a post.

It's not just Tumblr either. You also see it on Reddit and Twitter, and in online games where people just want to keep to themselves and not interact with strangers. Some people just want to lurk, maybe liking or upvoting, but not commenting or reblogging, because that feels like making yourself more "visible" somehow, in a way simply liking posts doesn't.

It's difficult to put into words, but I feel it's kind of like being in a university lecture with 50+ strangers. Liking is sitting in the back quietly taking notes. Reblogging is like putting your hand up and giving an opinion when the professor asks for one.

It's true that only reblogging actually contributes anything functionally, but there are plenty of people, especially neurodivergent people, who might struggle with that kind of thing, but still want to show some appreciation, or just save it as a bookmark.

So, I think that's partly why that kind of guilt-tripping or threatening reblog bait can be so stressful. Tumblr is a comfort app for a lot of people, who just want to curate their own little private space. Reblog baits are like someone banging on your door, telling you that you're actively doing something wrong by keeping to yourself, and (in the case of "I'll block/unfollow you if you like/read but don't reblog" baits) people will hate you for doing it.

It also implicitly takes away the sense of control you have over your own personal online space. Ideally, you should be able to do whatever you want with your own blog - no one should dictate your own online experience. So, if you just want to reblog things you like or want to share, at whatever pace you feel comfortable with, there shouldn't be anything wrong with that.

But reblog baits seem to suggest that you shouldn't have that control, and there are certain things that you have no choice but to put on your blog, and it has to be right now. And I feel that sense of having control suddenly snatched away from you without warning could also be a major source of anxiety for a lot of people who see Tumblr as a source of comfort.

With all that in mind, while I do believe that it's not quite this simple, considering artists and writers, and especially those who rely on commissions, do need exposure from reblogs, I also feel it's difficult to blame people for finding very aggressive reblog baits stressful, especially when you're suddenly blindsided with them.

At least, those are just my initial thoughts based on what you said, but absolutely let me know if you disagree with any of this or feel I misrepresented what you meant <3

[theschizotypalsolilquy]

Well

Apparently I need to reintroduce myself and hopefully clean house.

Hello

I'm Piper. I'm in my mid 40s and have been on mental disability for the last ten years. My blog name should help you with that. I've got a plethora of other mental illnesses too.

I don't know what you Dementors think this blog is, but lemme just lay some truths down for you.

I'm not nice.

I'm not here to feed into your delusions.

I'm not here to validate or invalidate your opinions on the nature of the relationship between Jungkook and Jimin.

As I'm also, it seems, one of those idiots who gives antis a platform, lemme lay another truth down on yall.

I'll tag however I see fit.

Maybe I tag those fucktards because I need other people to see some of the vile shit that's being said.

Ya know. Spread awareness.

To be on the lookout for homophobic yns or solo stans who like to spread vicious lies not only about Jimin and Jungkook, but other members as well.

Like how there was a bitch on Twitter saying that Yoongi killed four people in a DUI accident last night. Luckily it got taken down, but people were still falling for that shit.

This fandom is fucking toxic, and a lot of people ignore that. Why, I have no earthly idea. Supposed ot7 accounts who don't call out any group who slanders Jimin and Jungkook, but get all up in arms protecting other members.

And before you call bullshit, realize you're in denial about this fandom.

Yall wanna just blame shippers. But every corner of this fandom reeks of toxicity, from solo stans to ot7.

It's not like there's not receipts to back that statement up either.

Some of yall act like the moral police. And it's quite hypocritical.

Sure. It would be nice to just be all rainbows and puppies 24/7 and oh we all get along and love all the relationships between members group hug!!!

But it's not. And I'll show that ugly side and call it out.

It's about time eyes were opened to just how some of this fandom is treated by the fandom as a whole.

Like a blog I love and follow, an anon was sent in to tell them to stop posting ugly pictures of the other members because they were just there for Jimin and Jungkook.

Da fuq??

Be better.

So, in conclusion:

My blog. My rules. You don't like the things I post, or the beliefs I hold? Well, there's this handy thing called an unfollow or block option.

Imagine that

IMAGINE THAT

My feelings will not be hurt if someone unfollows me. I implore you to do so.

And if you keep following me, don't bitch about the things I post.

Peace. Love. Dope.

[diezmil10000]

hi 👋 you can call me diez or chisi

i am from spain and i like to draw lesbians. this is my main blog, if you're only here for my art and not for my reblogs you can follow my art-only blog!!

(FAQ under the cut)

what software and brushes do you use?

i work on ibisPaint X and Krita on a Samsung Galaxy Tab S6 Lite. i use a lot of different brushes for lineart but mostly these ones:

are your commissions open?

i will never do commissions, but thank you for your interest.

will you someday sell your art through an online shop / convention?

no, but feel free to print my stuff in good quality paper if you want to hang it on your wall.

how can i financially support you?

i have no need for that right now. please give your money to other artists or organizations.

can i repost your art / use it for edits?

i don't encourage it, but i don't mind. asking for permission and linking back to any of my social media would be appreciated too ♡ just don't use it for commercial purposes (sell merch, use as streaming layouts, etc)

how do you do X part of your drawing?

i recommend checking my speedpaints if you're curious, the name of the videos is the day i finished that drawing in YYMMDD format (as in, year-month-day). i also made a tag for my art thoughts, but if you still have a question feel free to send me an ask and i'll try my best to explain it!!

where did you learn anatomy?

i used to watch a lot of proko and sycra videos (on youtube), and also do gesture/figure drawings from photo references and k-pop dance practice videos.

when / why did you start drawing?

i started taking it seriously when i was 15. seeing lesbian fanart was what caused my gay awakening and i felt like there wasn't enough of it, so i decided to get better.

do you do traditional art?

i kind of dislike it, actually. i have filled over 1000 A4 sheets and 7 sketchbooks over the years, but it's all quick doodles to practise or warm up. when i bought a tablet i could carry around i stopped drawing traditionally as often, but i still find myself drawing in my sketchbook from time to time when i want to sketch midlessly or get better at something.

do you draw nsfw art?

very rarely, but i only show it to my friends. i do consume a lot of nsfw content tho, just not in public 👍

how do you keep yourself motivated?

a combination of drawing only what i like and a strong desire of seeing more lesbian art. that's why i mostly make fanart and almost never participate in art trades or make art gifts. i also don't want to make a career out of drawing.

have you gone to art school?

i have a college degree in graphic design, but it has almost no correlation with the kind of art i share online. before that i never studied art academically.

are you seriously a furry?

yes.

are you seriously a communist?

you call me a communist, socialist, leftist– i just want people to be happy and i heavily oppose capitalism on its fundamentals.

are you an anti or a pro shipper?

i am neither, i don't care about this.

are you aware that you follow someone who did something problematic?

i mostly follow other artists, so if i've been following someone problematic for a long time it probably isn't that deep for me to unfollow them.

do you have any ocs?

plenty! but i don't like to talk about them in public

can i be your friend / talk regularly with you?

i don't like to talk to strangers, but if i'm following you feel free to interact with me at any time~

what's the name of your cat?

yonyon ! she's a female cat but i treat her by any and all gendered terms

why have you disabled your DMs, story replies and sometimes comments?

because i dislike interacting with fandoms, especially big ones. i draw for myself and for the lesbians with niche interests, so i don't want to read weird comments, block overly friendly DMs or watch strangers have a public debate about my moral standards. i'm very thankful towards all of you who love my art tho, even if i can't read all of your positive thoughts!! also, there are plenty of ways to contact me, they're just not in plain sight 💋

[lunatic-pudge]

Hello! I just wanna throw my two cents in about the Postal/TCC stuff going on. I'm also gonna use this post to be honest and transparent about my experience with TCC as well.

Back when I was about 16, I was into true crime. I basically grew up learning about it cause my family would watch true crime shows and me, and my siblings had unrestricted internet access also.

Now, back when I started getting into it, this site was brimming with TCCers, people constantly worshipping serial killers and school shooters. And I'll admit it, I fell down the rabbit hole as well. It was a very short lived, but strong attachment I grew to Columbine, especially Eric Harris. I believe it came from a place of loneliness. Being an outcast and not really having friends, it made me feel like I had a connection to him. But I never wanted to hurt people.

Thankfully, I grew out of it pretty quick when I found myself in a weird situationship with a guy who I should've never talked to, but thanks to him, I snapped out of it. I feel so horrible for being so into TCC. It's my biggest regret, and I cringe when remembering it.

Seeing the state of the Postal fandom now with TCCers trying to worm their way in brings back the cringe memories. RWS has always said that violence should stay in video games. They'd be disappointed if they saw this mess. I know RWS aren't the best of people, but they understand that this shit isn't okay. We need to do better as a fandom and not allow these people in. Dude isn't a school shooter. Practically, the whole point of Postal 1 is Dude not getting the mental help he needs and kills the whole town. There's nothing glamorous about it. There's nothing to idolize about the murder of innocent people. It's a scenario that has happened too many times before in real life.

I don't want TCC mixed in with Postal. I will not stand for it. I understand wanting to learn about true crime and having an interest in it. But too many of them are so deeply obsessed with these real-life murderers and it's not okay. I feel like I understand why they are like this, and it's not too late to change and talk to someone about it. You gotta learn to break yourself from it and get away from the web.

Now, I take full responsibility for what 16 year old me was doing. I knew better, and yet I still continued with it. I'm nowhere near like that now at 22. Hell, if people want to unfollow or block me for it, then they're welcome to. I want to be fully honest with everyone since this has been getting so much attention. I've looked through my blog and have deleted any TCC posts that I had reblogged. If you see any posts that I might've missed, PLEASE let me know so I can get rid of it immediately.

My blog is to be a safe place for people to go to, and I don't want to be a haven for people like TCCers. They're not welcomed here. I want to right my wrongs and be a better person.

If you read this, thank you for reading. I felt guilty having this weight on me. Again, if you choose to unfollow and/or block me, you're more than welcome to. I'm taking full responsibility for 16 year old me's actions. This is unacceptable.