#don't eat too much because you'll end up leaving earth's atmosphere

[abbeyofcyn]

(Junior has appeared to deliver a plush!)

Lin might gift this to Raph later knowing it'll be treasured

@tmnt-oc-comp

[straightouttaneptune]

Goodbye

Pairing: Thor x reader

Warning: Angst, Sizzling angst. Character death. Avengers: Endgame. (That movie alone is a warning). My baby Thor crying...

Summary: As a member of the original 7, you saved everyone in Endgame. Natasha and Tony are still alive and they get to have their happy endings, but can Thor?

A/N: Hey! I found this sitting in my drafts, so thought I'd share the angst while writing the requested fics. Hope you like it, it's my first angst with Thor... Italics are memories/past, and normal text is the present.

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He knew. He knew that mortals had their lives limited. He knew that their bones were as fragile as glass. There weren't a lot of situations where they'd survive after just one stab of a dagger.

That you'd pass away much earlier than he would. 

But seeing you fight side by side with the Avengers, with him, he must've deceived himself, because you no longer inhaled or exhaled the oxygen in the atmosphere. Your soft eyelids were shut closed like a veil concealing your astonishingly beautiful irises. Your heart failed to beat any longer, your skin paled from the lack of blood. Your body laid limp yet weightless on the white satin, holding a bouquet of baby blue peonies close to your chest. 

"My dove, you said these were your favorite?" Thor pointed at the bucket full of blue peonies. You were visiting a local flower shop with your love, thinking it would be nice to light up the compound with them.

"Indeed they are." You smiled at the peonies, mentally tracing the outline of each petal. Thor was entranced, wordlessly observing you and the light that seems to radiate off of you.

"May I ask why?" Thor secured his hand behind your back. You leaned into his touch, moving your gaze up at him.

"They remind me of you."

He watched with hooded eyes as Tony Stark closed the polished wooden casket, embellished with golden designs. Fit for a queen. He couldn't take his eyes off of you, even after they lowered you down into the Earth.

Everyone in the entire world insisted on burying you into some sort of landmark, seeing as you died a hero. But it has always been your wish to find peace under the green hills of the Avengers compound. 

He could hear quiet sobbing from the rest of the team, even from Avengers like Natasha and Bucky, both trained not to show sentiments. Thor was in a state of denial, but a part of him knew that you weren't coming back. That part of him made tears flow out of his eyes like a never-ending waterfall. 

The whole Avengers were there, from the 6 of the original 7 to everyone else that joined in as time progressed. And they were all here because of you. Thor didn't know whether to be proud or depressed. In fact, he didn't know what to do with himself now that you weren't there to pull his hand places.

When everyone left him in the pit of darkness, you stayed, holding up a flaming lamp that became his only light, bringing him back to life. Asgard had fallen, his family and his best friends were all gone, but he had you. 

But you weren't here anymore. Your flame has met its end.

"I am... inevitable."

You stared right at the mad man's eyes, gritting your teeth. The wind pushed away locks of hair that fell out of your ponytail, having Thanos clearly see the woman who was about to destroy him.

"Hm." You blew a puff out of your nose as you watched him snap his fingers just to be met with nothing. His confused expression didn’t last long, confusion turning into surprise when he looked over at you.

You raised your hand up, all of the infinity stoned placed into Tony's gauntlet that was strewn on the ground. He laid a few feet away from you unconscious. Everyone else was either being overpowered or unconscious, and you couldn't ask anyone else to do it anyways.

Energy coursed through your veins, briefly feeling like your arms might fall off. You grunted, feeling the whole extent of the powers in the stones. 

Your eyes glimmered with determination, a content smile gracing your lips. 

"Goodbye." 

Your fingers snapped, and it was the end. Overbearing amount of power coursed through your merely-mortal body, making every system crash down in a split second. Millions of emotions ran through your mind. But you didn't feel hatred or feel like you were forced into doing this. For the first time, you really saved the world. You finally felt worthy of the title hero. 

The first one to wake was Natasha a few feet away. “Oh, Y/N." She ran up to you, helping you rest against the concrete. 

Your back crashed on the broken piece of concrete, legs barely helping you up. Your slightly blurred vision spotted Thor, running towards you and throwing away his Stormbreaker somewhere. The rest all piled later, staring at you in disbelief. Some were already crying. 

"You-you did it, Y/N." You tried to console her, seeing the tears glossing her eyes. She took your hand in hers, pressing her lips up to your knuckles. She moves aside to let Thor talk to you, falling into Clint's arms as soon as she let go of you. 

"My dove." Thor's callused hands felt nice on your hot cheeks, closing your eyes and leaning into it. "No, no. My love, please. Look at me." He cupped your cheeks as you opened your eyes lazily, feeling slightly buzzed like sleep was inviting you to it with open arms. 

"I love you." You whispered out, barely able to stay conscious. But you'll fight it for as long as you could. 

"I love you, oh, I love you, Y/N." Thor cradled your head, tears falling freely onto your hair. He repeated his words as if doing so would somehow help you.

You couldn't form any more words, but you could raise your hand up to his jawline, tracing them, feeling his beard prick your fingers and quietly thinking about how you'll probably never be able to do so again.

"I will meet you again in Valhalla, sweetheart.” He tried his best to smile, reassuring you that this wasn’t the end. “You're okay." He said to you, but more to himself.

He took your other hand and intertwined his fingers with yours, squeezing lightly as you slipped away. He shook violently as your head tilted, life leaving your eyes, looking away into nothingness. "No, no, no..." 

Valkyrie placed her hand on Thor's shoulder that was still shaking vigorously. His head fell and he cried into your shoulder, his hand still clutching yours. 

Not a word came out of anyone, just Thor repeating your name with thunder cracking in the fuming sky.

"Thor." He turned around slowly at the low voice, Valkyrie standing there in her tailored black suit. "The funeral's over. We're going to visit her memorial." 

When Thor didn't bother moving, she walked over beside him and looked down at her grave with him. "She was an extraordinary woman." 

"Guys! I made cookies!" Your sing-song voice echoed through the Avengers floor at Stark tower, immediately attracting the Earth's protectors to the kitchen.

"Y/N's cookies?!" Sam and Clint almost ran into the kitchen at the same time, but you'd say Sam was a tiny bit faster this time.

"They look delicious, my dove." Thor wrapped his arm around your middle from behind, making you giggle in surprise.

"Mm. Want one?" You beamed at him, holding up a chocolate chip cookie to his mouth. He smirked at you playfully before taking a bite, earning some whines from the other Avengers who were eager to eat your cookies. 

"Okay, okay. I'll put it on the counter." As soon as you placed the cookies on the marble counter, they were gone in an instant. 

"Oh no, you don't!" 

"Try me, Legolas."

"Oh my god, you can't even digest the food you fucking toaster!"

"Many apologies, but Miss Y/N's cookies are far too delici-"

"Turn him off!" 

"Drown him in rice." 

Thor chuckled at the fiercest fighters on Earth fighting over his love's cookies childishly when he had a carton of them Y/N made especially for him where they couldn't see.

"You are extraordinary, my dove." Thor spun you around and pressed his lips to yours lovingly, wrapping you up in his affection. His hands traced the curve of your waist as he deepened the kiss, making everyone else scramble away from the kitchen.

"She was," Thor replied, his throat and nose gave off that burning sensation before thick drops of tears flowed down his cheeks again.

[simplybennnnett]

hi I am here to rant about how much I HATE that mack kept fitz's death from deke

so let's depict this line by line... starting from his conversation with daisy

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Daisy: What have you been told?

Deke: Well, Mack was pretty cagey on the details-

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deke has been gone for a while (being amazing)

so here's what we know:

he just found out everyone went to space

he probably thinks they went just cuz

mack told him about it

mack did not say anything about fitz in that moment

mack is the biggest jerk on the planet

no the universe

mack literally had a chance to tell deke. who cares if he left then, he's back now, he's here, just let him know where is only 2 family members are. it's literally not hard to say:

"hey, jemma and daisy went to space to go get fitz, because fitz didn't make it through the battle but there is another fitz in space and he is perfectly fine"

that's literally one of the easiest ways to say it

~~~

Mack and May are talking about something, Deke walks in:

Deke: Why didn't you tell me!?

Mack: *sighs* Might want to give us a minute.

May: *rolls her eyes* Gladly.

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THIS!

mack was waiting for this conversation to happen

he knew eventually deke would find out and he just... didn't say anything?

please someone point out the logic

and don't say "it was just too hard for mack to talk about"

cause no.

it wasnt.

he has no problem talking about it now

and then there's may

deke walks into the room and sound so unlike deke

he's clearly mad

distressed

upset

you can hear it in his voice

this isn't deke coming to bother someone, this is deke legitimately looking for an answer. even if you don't know his question you can hear how serious he is. but may rolls her eyes and uuuggghhh her reaction just makes me so angry!

it's not hard to tell when someone is upset, I really don't understand why people cant get out of their pretty little heads to see that maybe they are not the only ones who have some problems

can you tell I'm sensitive on this subject???

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Deke: Fitz died. He died, and no one was gonna bother to, I don't know, send me a text?

Mack: It was complicated-

Deke: Yeah, no kidding.

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okay but it wasnt.

you know what is complicated:

fighting aliens

finding out you are an alien

losing a limb

losing TWO limbs

robots who are too human

time travel

time travel to the end of the world

THE END OF THE WORLD

things that aren't complicated:

texting a friend to tell him one of HIS ONLY FAMILY MEMBERS has died BUT it's okay because they have a way to get him back

it's not complicated. mack just didn't tell him. period.

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Deke: Besides the fact that this completely proves my entire multi-verse theory 'cause I'm still here,

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he was scared

deke was legitimately scared of what would happen if the time line changed

he probably spent all the time he was gone wondering if one day he would *poof* out of existance

he was scared

and he wouldn't have had to been if SOMEONE would have told him

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Deke: -there's a second Fitz! And-and you sent a team out to find him, and you didn't tell me that either?! That's not complicated. That just sucks!

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and he's right!

it does suck.

it would have taken mack 20 seconds tops to text him and that is the literal least he could have done

he should have said something

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Mack: It was the call made at the time.

Deke: Well, maybe you shouldn't be making the calls because that was bad one.

~~~

okay I have like 3 things that I need to point out now:

1. mack made the call

mack made the call not to tell deke. maybe he consulted jemma, but honestly, I doubt it. jemma is such a family person she probably wasn't even thinking about anyone else but fitz at that point AND she probably assumed someone would tell deke maybe like *cough* the director who shouldn't be director *cough*

which leads me to the next point

2. he really shouldn't be making the calls

this is more toward the writers than it is toward mack

daisy should have been director. she has been loyal to shield and coulson longer than mack. she was there through the hydra problem, the alien problem, the outer space problem, the robot problem, and the time travel problem and she was closest to coulson right behind may. if not daisy then it should have been may. it should not have been mack. it just should not have been.

3. mack cannot come up with a justifiable reason as to why he didn't tell deke

OKAY AND NOW THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE

he can't.

he doesn't tell him why he made the call he just says he does. deke had a right to know and mack didn't tell him and he had no reason to keep that from him. there was no reason.

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Mack: It looked like you had other priorities besides being apart of this team.

Deke: Oh, this team? You mean the team that I helped bring back from the dystopian future?

Mack: Yeah, you did that. Then you left.

~~~

This makes me so mad.

I have to admit I had to read a Wikipedia article to remember the deke's story but even before I did that, I know that he did not grow up with a good childhood. he lived in a place where people killed each other for food. he lived in a terrible place with no trees no sky no nothing. he lived in the freaking middle of space. he lives in a place with blue aliens that constantly tried to kill them.

and then he comes to earth

and there's trees, and there's a sky, and there's everything.

people aren't always trying to kill him there's food everywhere, he finally has it all.

there's just one thing looming over his head

if the timeline changes, will he stay on Earth?

I don't know about you but if that question was on my mind constantly, you bet everything you own that I am out doing the most that I can before I spontaneously disappear.

deke had every right to leave.

he had every right to go live his life, to go build a company, to go see the world, to go experience things. he had every right.

and even then. Even if he didn't have the right to leave, mack still had no right to NOT tell deke.

deke was still a family member to fitz, he was related to him. that gives him a right to know!

anyway mack is a jerk lets move on...

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Deke: I would have gone on the mission to help you find him.

Mack: I believe you.

~~~

you can tell he doesnt

he doesnt believe him. at this point he is doing anything he can to deflect the conversation away from him.

mack probably just forgot to tell deke, but instead of just owning up to that mistake, he is creating excuses and deflecting the conversation away from his own mistake by guilting deke and telling him lies.

he will do or say anything to get deke away and to have him stop pointing out his own mistakes

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Mack: And if we get things settled here on the home front, you'll get your chance. 'Cause I'm gonna pour every resource we have into getting back out there and bringing them home.

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if deke hadn't found out, I doubt mack would have given him this chance. he probably would have continued on life without him. mack does not believe the deke is capable of anything good. He's just saying this to make deke happy and to make him content.

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Deke: *nods*

Mack: But... until then, I need someone smart enough to fill their shoes.

~~~

if you watch the scene closely, right before mack says this he kind of looks around, like he's trying to find something to give deke.

he wants deke off his back.

a part of me thinks that mack thinks the deke is a joke. I don't think deke could do anything to earn mack respect at this point.

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Mack: Maybe you can put that google-sized brain of your to work and help crack this tech.

Deke: What, you tryin' to flatter me?

Mack: Absolutely

Deke: Well... totally worked.

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and if he wasn't trying to flatter de ak, and deek didn't take it so lightly, I would think that Max was making fun of him. sorry. maybe this is a stretch. but this is what I got from this scene.

also maybe put this into perspective.

deke lived in a dystopian world where he had to steal things to be able to eat. The chances of survival were low and nobody liked him. everyone thought of him as a traitor but he was really just doing what he could to survive. I think that he would give anything for someone to tell him that he is doing something good.

I don't even live on an alien planet and I strive for people to tell me that I'm doing something good.

deke is not self-centered.

immature? yes.

naive? Yes.

but self-centered? no.

He's just looking for validation and acceptance. and nobody on this stupid team is giving it to him.

except for jemma

but she's in space so.

no wonder he builds such a big company with a good atmosphere. it's what he wants. it's the environment he wants.

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so basically what im trying to say is mack is a jerk and i hate him... thanks bye ;)