#doing some cocomelon shit to myself over here

[the-holy-ghosted]

getting in on the cool people hobby of taking screenshots and posting them with those professional looking captions by watching the movie for screenshots and then forgetting to take screenshots because im watching the movie

[girlfriendsofthegalaxy]

tuesday again 9/5/2023

moving closer to your best friend means hanging out in big groups a lot of the time. while this is theoretically good for mental health or whatever, in practice i overextended myself this weekend and am going to wake up tomorrow with the mental equivalent of a sore lower back

listening (2x bonus)

very fond of måneskin's new single HONEY (ARE U COMING?). sonically different from their other stuff, lyrics and tone-wise another incredible sad banger! spotify

my sister viewed the film Party Girl (1995, dir. von Scherler Mayer) last week at a party in philly and sent me this song featured in the film with no further explanation. Double Cross by First Choice (a Larry Levan remix) has what i want to call bollywood strings, a flute, and the funkiest bassline backing up some really classic disco vocals. First Choice were a group out of philly, which no one at the party knew at the time, and this blog calls this specific remix "dancefloor soul" which is probably as good a descriptor as any. i have had it on loop for a solid week. lyrics include

Love stealing, double dealing, two-timing lowdown son of a gun

which is just so much fucking fun to sing in the car. spotify

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reading (2x bonus here also)

i read the mandalorian comics in between volumes of berserk, which feels a bit like saying i took a break from watching the evil dead franchise to watch some cocomelon.

the mandalorian comics are a remarkably uninspired nearly shot by shot breakdown of the episodes. not in the way most film/tv comics are, where they’re very clearly traced screencaps, but screenshots redrawn. this would be interesting if the artist was not contractually obliged to the very flat marvel comics style. i am constantly reminded of how the mandalorian is simply…not very good. it’s entertaining as a spectacle of television to watch, but there are not a lot of fun ideas in there. something that made me fucking scream with laughter are these panels of baby yoda

pápá, your son is So high

back to the other series with a dark haired, roaming, grouchy, reserved man on a mission. unfortunately i don't have a lot of berserk thoughts just yet, i am waiting on vol 4 to come off my library holds and my brain is still digesting it. anyway i think not wanting random "friendly" embraces from strangers is a very reasonable thing for guts to dislike and i truly do not understand why ppl in-universe get so fucking offended. unfortunately reading these late at night did lead to an unpleasant sleep experience.

bitches love a fucked up interior space that can't ever actually exist (it's me i'm bitches)

not to be all therapeutic but im trying to be Curious About and Gently Interrogate why i get a real bee in my bonnet once a year to read some horror comics/manga when i am big squeamish baby about film depictions of those things. i think mostly bc comics gore is so much more stylized than some of the very effective practical and cgi effects? and crucially nothing is actually like writhing around on screen it’s a still image? does anyone else’s brain have a much easier time handling still images over moving images of gore? much to consider

as with many other things, me reading berserk is indirectly @dying-suffering-french-stalkers ' fault

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watching

i have viewed the first four episodes of Fire Force, the urban fantasy mercenary firefighter anime and do not think i will be continuing. while i have a great many questions about the worldbuilding (gravitational anomalies?? genetic predisposition to spontaneous human combustion?? solar god nuns??) it has a dead mom plot, which i am allergic to. this is also a 7.5-8 on the Ass part of the Weeb Ass Shit scale, and has a lot more casual assault than i try to encounter in anime. it's by the soul eater guy, remember the level of Stuff going on in soul eater? a little bit more ramped up groping and stuff that makes me say out loud "wow i don't like this" than soul eater.

the animation re: aforementioned fire is really top notch tho. visually complex and interesting television program.

how i found this: me and my best friend and my best friend's husband morosely poking around the anime section on hulu, looking for something to fill the spy x family void. this ain't it tho

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playing

i have no fun genshin tidbits to share bc i am grinding talent mats while catching up with the podcast episodes of the road to partizan and i don’t have much to say about the not-fun parts of gachas. why am i playing something if it’s not inherently fun? great fucking question

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making (3rd 2x bonus)

very uninspired (derivative, even) abbreviated sofrito thing over rice. with heavy application of Worcestershire sauce it was fine. no pics

also i finally bought a couch bc salvation army had 50% off everything for Labor Day. this is a question of ethics vs money i have decided for myself, and encourage you, the reader, to go off and quietly make your own philosophical choices without explaining them to me in detail.

it will be arriving on friday bc that is when the strapping young men who own trucks are available. my front door is a very non standard size and i have a very awkward front stair, so i needed something that could fit under the overhang while standing on its end. this one was the best size and (fortunately) the cheapest at $150. it is some sort of extremely flammable early polyester and 100% has a grandma’s soul trapped within its fibers. i will probably buy a cover at some later date to deter miss macaron but in the meantime we will do the strips of brown painters tape, which does successfully deter her. this really really does not want to be steamed so i will also be procuring some chemicals.

here are some other couches i could have bought but didn’t.

[nattyontherun]

actually i like this rather a lot so i'm reposting for Me purposes,,,,, plus some fun facts about hearthfire cos why nawt? :]

it was supposed to be literally a oneshot... every new chapter was supposed to be the last but it kept chugging along... sigh... it was supposed to be 15k max and now i don't even know how long the "heartfire-verse" as it were, will be before i decide everything is done though, to be very frank, the main storyline is complete!

i wrote it without an outline in essentially five weeks between a. graduating, b. moving to a new city across the country, and c. job-hunting

funnily enough, i edited and wrote some parts of "the two-body problem" WHILE waiting for an interview as well as the results of said interview (i passed btw! i am an employed girly!), namely the scene where kkss are walking through the streets of kiri!

the coda of HF was initially supposed to just comprise of the scene in the wildflower field. the scene with sasuke at the graveyard was supposed to be in ch3........ but the ending of kakashi's scene was SUCH a good conclusion to the fic i moved it over and i like it better that way

at least half the fic was written while cocomelon was played in the bg so if it's extra angsty, it's probably cos i was extra suffering lmfaooooo

sakura and naruto weren't supposed to play as prominent a role in HF--it was supposed to be way more pared down. i kinda don't regret it though, they make for such interesting outside perspectives into the plot--especially sakura.

more on that, my favorite scene of the first chapter of HF *is* the sakura-pov scene because it's so intrinsically selfish, it calls to that lil shit in me who LOVES the drama

there was supposed to be more itachi in HF but i just couldn't bring myself to write him more into the plot even if just in flashbacks--i cannot describe to yall how DONE i am with him sksjnssbs i tried to correct that with "like stars shine through the pyre" but ig in doing that, i basically confirmed for both the readers and myself that itachi, from this point of the future, is almost purely shisui's problem? ish. sasuke's moved on enough not to be thinking about him every damn day anyways, and i like that for his character. he deserves a life without the shadow of itachi looking over him

speaking of, more about like stars: it was supposed to be 3k (if that) and focus solely on why shisui decided to take sasuke's eyes......... then i wrote the first scene and decided past-me was a small minded idiot and rewrote my entire outline

part of the reason i wrote like stars is because i think HF-sasuke is very pure--which canonically, ik that's how kishi describes him and it's certainly how he approaches the world, but i generally subscribe to the notion that victims don't need to represent a certain level of sanctity to be worthy of affection, sorrow or empathy yk? so while i don't really put him on blast as i do itachi or even sakura to some extent,,, i wanted to paint him out to be more human, abrupt and awkward and just a little bit self centered

i was actually struggling to find the writing juice for ch3 of HF because i thought the interlude was so damn pretty how would i bridge over to normal segment??? yk. i almost scrapped the entire first scene which is basically the same as what you see just without the abscess analogy or the ending conversation with sakura--but then i found out via twitter that itachi put 12yo sasuke in a 2-month long coma and decided only god would keep me from writing and further lambasting him peripherally. nothing says hatred like obvious disdain without visible recognition

my lovely friend @sugarbunbie who looked over some of the scenes--half of ch2 and all the more intimate kkss scenes AND the entirety of the two-body problem--DOESN'T EVEN GO HERE. never watched naruto, barely knows the plot--she loves me vv much guys djshsjshshsbsbs i adore her, pls if u like mdzs, yoi or kinnporsche go read everything she ever wrote mwa mwa

and that's basically all of it for now mwahahahahahaha, i just needed a reason to repost and i remembered all the bullshit i was doing behind the scenes while writing HF and decided i might as well share,,,, aren't i so resourceful? lmaooooo

these two assholes in that one bathroom scene in hearthfire