#doesnt help that yesterday i fumbled a bit and got so embarrassed bc i messed up and now thats been stuck in my head like i couldnt even

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im trying to write an open job application but im so scared of putting a foot wrong with this that it makes me rethink even wanting to do paid work there bc the position would make me a person of authority within the location should i get the job and the thought of that makes me sick but also thats the only paid job they have. so i am trying to write this application while it feels like im going to humiliate myself forever and ever lol