#does this count as spoilers?? ig technically?? anyone who knows me knows my

[night-dragon937]

YEAH LET'S GO MY STREAMER MAN DID IT I'M SO PROUD YEAHHHH

[grade-a-certified-slut]

Haikyuu jjk au

Ok so I made this one day over quarantine with my bestie(wife) the plot goes something like this:

 Daichi Sawamura is trying his best to navigate high school while also being a special grade sorcerer. (kinda corny sounding ik but bear with me) Ever since he understood his situation he’d wanted nothing to do with it but his strong sense of justice has kept him from abandoning the very thing he hates. 

This au is essentially me being awful and biased and you all get to watch the man crumble as he tries his damndest to uphold a normal life while also being a sorcerer. Yes we on that living a double life shit :)

Warnings: daichi getting his shit kicked in 24/7 (so like violence, bodily harm, blood, etc), bad mental health, self sacrificing bullshit, cursing, characters might be a bit ooc but i try my hardest not to let that happen (daichi is probs the biggest offender of this but it makes sense???? ig you’ll see), 🤮mahito🤮, uh manipulation, Uh does not follow the manga eventually bc canon makes me sad and this is my au so i’ll do as i please

s’hard to write down warnings for a story I’m still in the middle of writing but that is all i can think of off the top of my head. I’ll add later

Um I feel like I should mention this outside of warnings so it doesn’t get lost but it’s still a warning: there are mentions of schizophrenia often. Let me explain, so obviously we’re not really aware of how people react when their kid, out of nowhere develops a cursed technique and the family are non-sorcerers so i did my own take. kinda spoilers but it’s literally talked ab early on in the story so whatever. Daichi is born to a family of non-sorcerers and develops his cursed technique at the age of 5. As any normal child would, he freaks the fuck out when he sees curses bc that shit must be scary for a child to see if i find them gross and awful to look at. His parents, as any decent parents should be, are concerned as fuck and initially the doctors are like “boy’s got an overactive imagination” and after two years of futzing around they finally decide to diagnose him with childhood schizophrenia (a thing that doctors don’t like to diagnose until a person is like at least 13 but it can happen earlier). They put him on meds, etc, etc. I do not have schizophrenia nor do i personally know anyone with it so anything I write about it is after I’ve done intense research. I’m aware that it doesn’t affect everyone the same way. I’m not technically writing a character with it he just kinda goes a long with pretending to have it because, really, no one would believe him if he tried to convince them otherwise and he had no fucking idea what was going on when he got the diagnosis. He does take antipsychotics, i could find little online about what that could do to a person who didn’t need it so (quora doesn’t count i dont trust jackshit from there) fuck it this is fiction all it does is dull his cursed technique and make him just generally feel like shit. long rant over but that’s my take on a sorcerer being born to a non-sorcerer family. (Like ik in jjk there are people who are the only sorcerer in their family but they never talk ab it so i gotta improvise bitch and i mean this was the most logical conclusion to me ig)

I’m sorry that was so long but I really felt like I needed to explain myself on that last bit. I just don’t wanna say anything and people like get confused or misinterpret things so yknow might as well put everything out there lol. anyway any feedback on the concept is welcome. I already have a good chunk of this written out so I’ll get to posting it eventually.

Have a good night/day/evening!

[bitchsexuality]

@animaliae

ok first off i’m sorry i took so long to reply!! i’ve been busy in the most tedious way possible so my brain’s not exactly my best friend right now. second off: THANK U SO MUCH these were so fun to answer!!

i’m putting all of these in the same post because i started talking and i could not Shut The Up, and i think one atrociously long post is better than four long posts when it comes to like, scrollability. scrollpastability? scroll-Something. and putting it under a readmore too for the same reasons

SO, from top to bottom:

weirdest character idea for D-N-D:

it’s an idea i’ve already had because i can’t come up with anything right now dksjfgbd, but

once i made a druid for a D//N/D-based CRPG who only cast spells when they gave him something edible (in theory ofc, the game didn’t let me eat my summoned bears... thankfully...), so i ended up with nothing but goodberries and several animal summoning spells. then i proceeded to cheat my way through the game, which defeated the point sdfgsd, but it was still fun concept-wise

also made me spend too much time wondering if the entangle spell’s vines could be eaten. i mean you can’t eat the WHOLE thing but maybe you could like, munch on it a little, or try to slurp it up like a noodle. it wouldn’t be tasty, it wouldn’t be easy, and it most definitely would not be healthy, but it’s like. the principle of the thing 

if ur asking yourself WHY i did that… well there aren’t THAT many D/ND-based CRPGS out there and i’d already played that one —several times, in fact— so i wanted to try something different :0

i mean it’s not THAT weird tbh, but he’s the only OC i can think of right now that soooooort of fits? and my brain is like, a tundra of creativity at the moment. a deep tar pool that absorbs all inspiration and drags it, kicking and screaming, to its viscous doom. well you get the idea. or i hope you do because i sure fucking don’t

ideal ending for one of my characters:

hmmmm for like, original fiction characters i more or less have all their endings planned out? most of them ARE ideal because i am fully in control of their destinies and i am also a softhearted lidle bich who prefers stories with relatively uplifting/happy endings. or tbh even the ones that aren’t technically happy are still ideal in terms of character arcs, development, etc

(i might be giving myself way too much credit there though skdjgbdksjfg)

and —though this is super unlikely and mostly just me deceiving myself at this point— i do want to publish what i’m working on rn, so talking about endings would be a spoiler for something that does not exist and probably never will outside of my idiot fool head. so i’m gonna talk about an old OC that i’m not doing anything with anymore!

her name was elina and her entire deal was that she came from a family of very powerful witches who owned a, uh, i guess you could call it an archive? or a library?? idk, it was just an ABSURDLY large collection of magic-related books, and it pretty much contained all known arcane knowledge (though come think of it, “all known arcane knowledge” can’t have been THAT much because the archive was just one room. a huge fucking monster of a room yeah but like. still just One)

so anyway, her family members were very dutiful + responsible when it came to the archivelibraryroom thing, but they were also too traditional for her tastes? like they didn’t bother practicing/using magic, or experimenting, or looking for anything outside of books; they only cared about written things, and even then they did nothing but get the Very Important Books, put them in the archivelibraryroom and forget about them completely

then elina ran into a group of other magic-users who were investigating a weird phenomenon in her hometown, and she asked her family about it, but they essentially were like “oh if it doesn’t affect the books we don’t care lol anyway it’s your turn to clean the archivelibrary now”

but yeah i’m sure y’all can tell where this is going kjdfgbd elina was the typical YA protag in that she was super rebellious, so she turned her back on her family and left her house to help the group of inconveniently yet stereotypically teenage magic-users, made friends, learned about magic, blah blah blah

the issue is that i never gave that story an ending? like the closest thing to it was a vague “uhhhh elina goes back home to find the archivelibrary is burning down and pulls some kind of mysterious water magic out of her ass to save it; then her family apologizes, they begin to respect her and she stays with them to keep caring for the archivelibrary, But With A Progressive Twist”

the issue was that after writing around two chapters i realized i didn’t actually Have a plot, so i didn’t know what story that ending would be... ending... and since i couldn’t think of anything + i wasn’t THAT attached to the characters anyway i just gave up on it

but now that i’m thinking of it again, just for the sake of ending the Story That Never Was, i feel like making her earn the respect of her family just because she saved the books + proved she actually cares about that too is, idk, shallow? out of character? 

because she believed that her family’s fixation on history + Neatly Documented stuff was holding them back and making things worse for everyone. she left her home behind because her ideals re.: magic —that it should grow and change to fit the context + people’s needs, and not the other way around— were so strong

OOF THIS IS GETTING SO FUCKING LONG KSDJGB i’m just gonna stop here and say: elina’s new ideal ending is pretty much that while she ends up in friendly terms with her family —because, in spite of their fundamental disagreements, they never hurt her— she doesn’t go back home and chooses to travel around the world instead, helping people in whichever way possible and freely sharing her knowledge with anyone who’s willing to listen and, at the same time, learning from them

i mean, the concept’s not too original ksjdbg just something i thought of super quick, and that’s just a half-assed attempt at closure for an OC i made when i was like… 9

headcanons about my favs:

ok this one’s hard because i’m not into any like… fandom things right now? i haven’t found anything that rly interests me or that i could see myself being passionate about, which sucks because i do kinda miss being into stuff with Established Content :( 

so i’ve been focusing on my OCs + original stories and such. and i’m not sure if OC headcanons count as headcanons because i control canon so technically everything i come up with IS canon. then again it’s headcanon too because it’s a canon from my head because that’s where ideas come from. okay wait i’m not making any cents here x 

but uhh knowing me i might think of something right after publishing this, so if that happens i’ll come back and edit this post :0

also just saying but if any of y’all know of something i could get into then lmk, i’m open to suggestions! preferably free stuff though... i’m beset by capitalisms

a favorite scene that i loved:

i can’t remember any in particular right now, either from my #content or somebody else’s SDFKJGBDF god my mind 😔 well i mean i’m gonna be a little bit full of meself and say that i’ve written things that i really like, especially imagery-wise, but i Also want to publish those someday… like i’ve also written original/OC-related stuff that i don’t plan on publishing, but i’m not THAT proud of them tbh :/

i was —emphasis on was— trying to write a short story about jasna (one of my D-N/D OCs, a cleric of oghma) that never really went anywhere, but i did post a snippet on my OC blog, and that’s what i hate the least out of all my recent attempts at writing? so i’m just gonna put it here again ig sdfgs (not actually linking to the OC blog post because it’s kind of a mess rn, i need to fix the theme + clean it up a bit)

if you got this far and read all of this nonsensical verbal monster: i love u with all my heart and i would legitimately die for u.