#does it say sth about your morals? i don't think so bc

[sorryimananti-romantic]

idk why, but i find guerilla oddly comforting. should i be concerned? - 𝐸

hmmm... i don't think so? as long as you understand that this is fiction and in real life, we would not like a doctor/serial killer, (even if it's jeong yunho) we're good <3

(plus guerrilla was kind of cute for a villain fic right?)

[withthewindinherfootsteps]

For the character ask game: 1, 3, 4, 6 and 24 for Wei Wuxian!

Me, reading your ask: yesss, you know me and my favourite characters well

Me, checking the questions: Least favourite canon thing about Wei Wuxian??

But thank you so much for the ask! Let’s get to the answers:

3. Least favourite canon thing about this character?

This is pretty hard, because even aspects and philosophies of his character I disagree with (and those do exist, eg his views on the necessity of revenge and the extent of that) still make him really dynamic and tie into the themes of MDZS really well? Somebody mentioned, and I do agree with them, that one of his flaws (and also greatest strengths) is his conviction that in the justness of his actions – it's not really explored as a flaw since he is usually right (bc his morals do tend to line up with ideas of what's morally right) AND bc he does critical think instead of relying on rumours before acting (sth that's heavily criticised, and it means he doesn't get the wrong target), plus as a strength it is what gives him the conviction to go against society to do the right thing, no matter the consequences. But it can lead to doing things like extensively torturing WC, WZL et al while not doubting that's a justified course of action in the moment (my thoughts on how that's framed here – they did deserve it in the world of the novel but the motivations were twisted by hatred, they weren't simply to bring justice, so it's not framed as 'in the right' the same way eg resurrecting Wen Ning to kill the inspectors that killed him is. Also, WWX importantly can and does think back on things and disagree with his past self (eg his actions during the SSC), that just doesn't change the past actions taken. And final note, he can be unsure about things too, but that's generally to do with acting on romantic feelings etc instead of to do with things that can morally be considered right or wrong). But that's something that could actually be really interesting to explore in fanworks, if you get the circumstances right.

...All this to say, pretty much everything WWX does in canon contributes to that, even the things I disagree with. And it's an aspect I like! So because of that, finding an aspect or action of WWX I just don't like the presence of in canon is pretty tricky.

Maybe my least favourite canon thing would be that he didn’t interact with certain people in detail, even if those interactions could’ve been really interesting (even if they would make no sense in canon)? Eg seeing WWX and XXC properly interact would be rlly cool, especially bc of the shared BSSR history, but the only time WWX sees him is through A-Qing’s eyes. But like I said, canon interactions wouldn’t actually make much sense and would probably detract from the clean structure of the narrative, so I can’t really call it a flaw.

4. If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in?

…There are so many times I’m reading or watching things and wondering about if MDZS could have a crossover with them, but nothing is particularly standing out right now (again, probably because I love the way WWX ties into MDZS specifically so much)… I do remember thinking that seeing him in the Spirited Away world would be really interesting, and I do definitely still think that (even though it’s not for the reason of anything thematic or to do with character similarities). It would also be interesting to see him in the Death Note universe and see how far he’d get in L’s place, as someone who’s very smart as well (very much inspired by @/couldtheycatchkira xD it’s a great blog, I recommend checking it out)?

I have also just started reading Guardian (by priest) as well, and seeing all the focus on ghosts and resentful energy there does really make me want to see WWX in that world, but I’m not far enough to make a full decision I think…?

6. What's something you have in common with this character?

I like to think we’re both quick learners – WWX’s remark in Ch 103 that “no matter how much he fooled around, staying up all night pulling pranks on others, he was still far ahead of his classmates who worked so hard” is pretty relatable to me……. but unfortunately in my case that’s made me completely unused to hard work and unable to actually do it when it is necessary for me, leading to more and more problems as that becomes more and more necessary (: so WWX definitely beats me on that front haha

We’re also both very music-oriented people, with that being what I’m studying! Though WWX’s feat of hearing the notoriously hard-to-play Cleansing a few times in forced Empathy, then being stabbed and being unconscious for four days while dreaming of completely different periods of his life (the flashbacks from Courage to Evil), and still being able to recreate it flawlessly after only a “few moments of thought” (with Jin Guangyao’s mistakes included), all while being confident enough to say that’s exactly what he heard… yeahhh, I could never do that.

Edit: also going to sleep and waking up late (…except i’m 3-4 hourse worse than he is on both fronts), sitting strangely, and having your living space be pretty messy!

24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them?

Thinking about it, he does remind me quite a lot of the Doctor from Doctor Who – very clever, strongly principled, very high estimation of their own abilities. The rest really depends on which incarnation of the Doctor we’re talking about (probably one of the more social/talkative ones)… but look at this speech from the Twelfth Doctor and tell me it doesn’t fit WWX perfectly (all of it, but especially the parts in bold – cough cough Wen remnant protection):

DOCTOR: No! No! When I say no, you turn back around! (catches up with them) Hey! I'm going to be dead in a few hours, so before I go, let's have this out, you and me, once and for all. Winning? Is that what you think it's about? I'm not trying to win. I'm not doing this because I want to beat someone, or because I hate someone, or because, because I want to blame someone. It's not because it's fun and God knows it's not because it's easy. It's not even because it works, because it hardly ever does. I do what I do, because it's right! Because it's decent! And above all, it's kind. It's just that. Just kind. If I run away today, good people will die. If I stand and fight, some of them might live. Maybe not many, maybe not for long. Hey, you know, maybe there's no point in any of this at all, but it's the best I can do, so I'm going to do it. And I will stand here doing it till it kills me. You're going to die too, some day. How will that be? Have you thought about it? What would you die for? Who I am is where I stand. Where I stand, is where I fall. Stand with me. These people are terrified. Maybe we can help, a little. Why not, just at the end, just be kind? - NuWho, S10 E12 (The Doctor Falls), transcript from chakoteya.net (an amazing site!)

(I really want to make an edit to that but I don’t know what to include…)

Of course there are differences, such as how much they struggle with themselves and their morality (again it depends on the incarnation, but going just from NuWho, 9, 10 (though he can also be very convinced in what he’s doing as well) and especially 12 struggle with that quite a lot (“am I a good man?”), 15 does so in the latest episode as well (he considers killing a death god causing the death god to win against him, since that means he’s been turned into a killer as well – I doubt WWX would struggle very much with that). Some incarnations don’t directly struggle with it as much, but in general WWX tends to be much more convinced of the righteousness of his actions, even if that’s something like torturing someone for revenge… which yk, the Doctor can do as well but the feelings behind it are a bit different (they’re either aware they were stooping low, or it’s “I had to do this, you brought it upon yourself”); and the actual moral code (the Doctor prefers not to use weapons or violence if he can help it, that is not the case for WWX).

Also, how they deal with past baggage/trauma is different (splitting the list up bc the paragraph got too long – the Doctor’s default is to run away from everything and hope it won’t catch up, taking a lot of the blame on themselves as well and having a lot of self-loathing issues because of it. To illustrate the differences between this and WWX’s mindset (since both involve not dwelling that much on the past, though I’d argue WWX’s reasons for it are much healthier), a clear place you can see this difference is when WWX is feeling bad due to others bringing up his past on Dafan Mountain (Chapter 8) – WWX sits and dwells on it in a slump until Xiao Pingguo tugs him and he makes the active decision to continue on with her. If this was the Doctor, they’d probably instinctively search up something to busy themselves with to distract them from those thoughts, and Xiao Pingguo would NOT have to convince them to move. Going with Xiao Pingguo is a conscious choice and the healthy option for WWX (consciously focusing on the present and not dwelling on the bad and on things you can’t change), whereas for the Doctor is would be more instinctual and definitely unhealthy, because they do have to face these issues more). Likes and dislikes as well, etc. But that’s probably the closest example I can think of right now from a fandom of mine?

Also, I wouldn’t call Wicked (the musical) a fandom of mine, but the similarities between him and Elphaba (and their storylines in general) are undeniable.

Thank you for the ask!

[the-travelling-witch]

guess who's alive? exactly, me!! :D *slumps down and never gets up* (sorry in advance this will be quite the long ask >_<)

i get the feeling of fried brain, my session just finished ;-; #neveragain (wish i could say it for real tho) it's not a problem if you can't add much ahah, really, so don't worry :3

i feel you, my rbf isn't of any help but luckily those who receive my love know it and about the rest i don't care °v° and as i said (i think) as long as you're genuine i don't think that's a problem, honestly is what matters ^u^

yeah i noticed the game and noticed only now i forgot to ask you a question but now head is empty so whatever 🫠 if you say so then brb gonna go buy pencils for xiao and you so you can fill each other's skin with drawings and writings eheh~

me too honestly, i just need to relax, eat good food and sleep for hours trapping the indigo menace in a cuddling hug >:3 for movies i'm down bad for pixar but indie and artsy sounds good too 👀 and slow dancing at night is just something sooo cute and sosksiskdjsjskwj i'm down bad pt2

we can agree that villainous fictional men >>>>>>>>> goody two-shoes hero, but morally grey characters deserve a mention of honor, a whole hall just for them @^@

NOW, ONTO THE NEW MODERN SERIES FIC FUCK I'M SO EIDJWKSNDKWJWOSJSIHS

childe you cocky little menace with that shit-eating grin 🤺 i love this type of grin it sends me on cloud nine but also actives my fighting spirit lmao

i loved every word and the implicit mention of scara's partner and childe's being colleagues, what a chaos putting those two in the same room because of their lovers (saw the other asks, died of laughter)

it had me going 👀 when reader went "one coffee for the mystery man" LIKE MAN THE AUDACITY i would have prayed the universe to swallow me especially after ginger's reply folsdoodsj so good really

also, a curiosity: since you mentioned yanqing (my son <3) does this mean that gi and hsr men will interact more often, being in the same universe? tbh knowing some characters either they will get along well or a big fight would start the moment they see each other pfft-

anyway, i think that i covered everything so that's all! as always, take care, drink water and coffee, eat healthy and sleep well at night, you can do this! and good luck with uni :3

bye bye~

— ❄️

hii great to see you back and good job on surviving!! i’ll put the answer under a cut for brevity’s sake haha

well i hope i sound and look genuine bc sometimes i feel like i don’t and if i try to sound more excited, people would probably think i’m faking it; but yeah my friends probably know by now how i act so i think i should be good :>

don’t force yourself to participate if you can’t come up with something, i promise i still have enough material to go through (me, typing a novel for a moot’s entry /aff); whenever i doodle on my arm i normally just use ball point pens or eyeliners but i also saw people using like actual colours for painting/body paint and i really want to try that; having someone drag a brush and paint over your back must be such a funny feeling <3

i’m not watching a lot of films right now, so i can’t say what my favourite genre is but i do love a good animation (i still need to see the new spiderman aaahhh); speaking of going to the cinema: there’s sth so special about going there during daytime and coming back out when it’s dark outside; imagine walking home after the film with your fave, he gives you his jacket against the chill of the evening and you laugh and joke as you discuss the film you just saw until he gently grabs your hand and starts twirling you around under the light of a street lamp… *sigh* what a dream (frantically scribbles into my notes for the modern au hshsh)

i just think villains and morally grey characters just are much more fun to explore; would i want hazbin hotel’s alastor to be real or would i like him if i met him? no because he is/was a serial killer, but in fiction? fascinating, intriguing, fun to explore; fiction just gives us the means to explore these morally not so cool actions and mindsets without most of the consequences, and i love that (also it really is sexy if a bad guy drops everything for their love; who wouldn’t want to be their partner’s priority; also also, villains with their own set of moral code, like ‘sure i’ll burn down a city but hit a woman? i would never’)

childe activates my fighting spirit in general, like come over here and let’s bicker, you gorgeous idiot, and maybe i’ll kiss you afterwards <3 and also yes that grin… it might be here bc of the writer’s bias…

i just had to make them colleagues!! please just imagine them gossiping about their bfs after work or during the double date the readers are just talking the night away whereas childe and scara just have this icy atmosphere around them, but the second their partners look over they melt bc they’re just so in love dorks, all of them

and omg yes, thank you for mentioning it, i’ve been dying for someone to point it out: it’s official, it’s a genshin/honkai shared au!! it’ll be mostly genshin with some hsr characters but yes!! they’re sharing the same universe, they will be interacting (now we wait for someone to mention the company vizion is signed under… i wonder who works there… /silly)

thank you, make sure to take care of yourself as well!! <3

[mdverse]

Hey! So your Furtana art (and art in general) always brings me such joy and I think I feel similarly about Finn as you do, i.e. can't really love canon him but I do like aspects of his character and therefore like my headcanon of him. So I just wanted to ask, what would you change about canon Finn to make him more easily likeable? What do you think are the best things about him, and do you have any headcanons you'd like to share? :) (could be Furtana related haha, or not)

hi!! am glad my art can make u happy (especially the furtana stuff, they really have become my comfort trio haha).

i do want to warn you that i'm not great at analysing characters (or anything else ngl my brain is often very empty), and i'm even worse at putting my thoughts into words, but i'll do my best for u :)

i think the main thing i would change isn't even an aspect of Finn himself, honestly. if anything, the most important change i'd want would be for the characters around him to hold him accountable for his actions. bc let's face it, Finn gets away with saying a lot of things. he's the only character i can think of rn who used two different slurs, in addition to the entirety of mash-off/ikag, and probably more things that i can't remember off the top of my head, and the only time i know that someone for sure made him actually think about the consequences of his words was Burt. also santana slapping him, but idk if that really counts. i know u just watched ikag so i don't really need to go into the fact that pretty much no one tries to knock some sense into him (the kurt/klaine aspect of the outing really irks me and i don't feel like getting into that here but ugh). with the r-word i think he did realise immediately that he was wrong to say it and i think he regretted it, but my point is. most people around him didn't hold him accountable for the hurtful things he said and did, so he was able to get away with doing things without really thinking about the gravity of his actions. and that's really frustrating, bc we see that burt yelling at finn does actually have an effect - it's clumsy but he does try to support kurt after that. and i think we see it in s4 with him defending unique when she is dead set on playing rizzo; he knows there are risks in letting her do so, but he is 100% willing to protect her to the best of his abilities. he's capable of growth, and i think he's also willing to learn, it just seems to take a lot for him to get there sometimes. which actually leads pretty well into why i like vb au furtana! the thing about santana is that she just,, doesn't take people's bullshit. she's stubborn and won't shy away from a fight, even if she stands no chance of winning, which means that growing up together, santana would've always been ready and willing to throw finn's mistakes in his face. very bluntly. it most definitely also means that finn and santana fought a lot as children - usually over dumb stuff bc, yknow, they were kids. but regardless of what it was, finn would come out of the conflict with a new understanding of what he did wrong and most importantly, why it was wrong for him to do x thing. which isn't to say that vb au santana had a fantastic moral compass as a child, bc she did also treat kurt (among others) like trash for a while, but her constant presence and bullshit detector play a big part in preventing vb au finn from turning into canon finn.

in terms of what i do like about him... i think it's kinda similar to your recent post about santana and how you like that she's cruel and messy (i do too! wasn't sure how to respond to that post bc words are hard but,,, its sth i enjoy exploring in vb au... just letting her be harsh and defensive at times... but that's a whole other thing lmao anyway back to finn). i like that he's flawed. i like that he's confused, that he doesn't really know what he wants in life, especially after high school. i like that he's insecure, that he lashes out at people (though sometimes his anger issues worry me and make me think that he needed therapy. tbh a lot of the glee characters needed therapy but that's a whole other post again), that he feels like the (stupid) high school hierarchy is extremely important, that he struggles to merge that part of his life with his love for the glee club. he feels grounded, yknow? i love me some character flaws that make them instantly relatable. but i think what i love about him the most is how kind he can be. it feels weird to type that right after bringing up some of his worst moments on the show, but he really does have some incredibly sweet moments with people. to me, his growth shows the most in s4, bc teacher!finn had some moments where you could just tell that even if he didn't know what he was doing, even if he was scared to be leading these kids by himself, he still cared about them so much. things like helping artie make grease happen, helping ryder with his dyslexia, trying to help the s4 newbies bond with each other, making sure the club didn't fall apart after their sectionals. i am still judging him for deciding to do gangnam style but that's unimportant rn. idk i'm really losing my train of thought now so i'll just finish with this: finn is a sweet but dumb boy. he has golden retriever/dumb ginger cat energy written all over him and i just desperately wish he had been given more chances to properly grow from his mistakes, instead of pretty much everyone (except burt hummel, king, icon) glossing over it.

one more thing tho! i am once again shamelessly self-promoting but i know that watching ikag was a struggle for u and i humbly offer my version of santana's coming out in hopes that it's a more pleasant experience for u...

[schoethe]

Some sources state Schiller have ignored Christiane at Goethes house. Like he despise her and Goethe because of her. Maybe do you know where is the information from? I don't remeber the sources, but I've read this quite a lot.

pheew, there is no easy answer to that question and i don’t have all the sources at hand rn and no time to do proper research so what i write now might be biased by my personal memory and interpretation but here’s what i remember (edit: ups, novel ahead):

so the thing with Christiane was that 

a) she was from a ‘simpler’ background than people would have liked a women who was the woman at Goethe’s side to be

b) during most of the time of their relationship Goethe didn’t marry her - and I say that he didn’t marry her bc I am quite sure that she would have liked to get married to him (earlier) and also would have benefited greatly from being married to him. While Goethe may have had his reasons to not get married it left Christiane in a very difficult position. She was left with no offical standing in society, she couldn’t accompany her partner to events, couldn’t receive (official) guests, couldn’t parttake in activities etc. because officially she didn’t exsist. That doesn’t mean however that people didn’t know about her. They knew very well and they didn’t approve of the relationship in any way. People were scandalized how Goethe could live like that, unmarried with a woman of low education, not from a high society family or, how they put it, how he could share the bed with his housekeeper - an idea repeated even today even though it absolute bs of course. Christiane was not his housekeeper. (Even though she did run the household obviously as any wife would have.) They had a very intense, romantic and sensual relationship and had moved in together very shortly after haven fallen in love head over heels almost at first sight and even though Goethe himself was facing difficulties because of it with his friend and sponsor, the Duke (Herzog) of Weimar, Carl August. If I remember correctly they at first weren’t allowed to live in their later home at the Frauenplan in the center of town but had to live in the house that is today known as Goethe’s Garden House a little outside of town.

And so to Schiller. Schiller’s wife Charlotte (I’m going to call her Lotte from now on for less confusion) was very close friends with Charlotte von Stein, a very important figure in Weimar’s high society and Goethe’s quasi ex-girlfriend who particulary despised Christiane as Goethe had left her and turned to Christiane after his trip to Italy. 

I’ve said earlier that people didn’t approve of Christiane and of Goethe’s living with her. That was very mildly put. They hated her. Made fun about her, gossiped, called her names as nice as “a round nothing” or “das Mensch”, which translates roughtly to ‘the’ or ‘that human’ but in German the phrase uses the neuter article instead of the masculine one which usually goes with “Mensch” which makes the term very strong and dehumanizing. 

She was socially outlawed, women refrained from visiting Goethe’s house in fear of meeting her and becoming a subject of gossip themselves.And well as I said, Charlotte von Stein as someone who was very important and as someone who particulary didn’t like Christiane was one of the leading figures in that scheme. (One time Christiane made the mistake of sending her a cake for her… birthday? and not enclosing a note but instead have the maid who brought the cake verbally say greetings and also say out loud who the cake was from and as other people were present Charlotte was outraged and mortified as she apparently had been humiliated in front of all her guests)

And Lotte as her friend and also as a women of high morality adopted and/or shared that attitude towards Christiane in many aspects. I wouldn’t hesitate one second to agree that she ‘hated’ or despised Christiane. 

But I wouldn’t say the same about Schiller. He probably didn’t speak up or defended her in front of his wife but I also can’t quite imagine that he took part in the mean gossiping about her and there’s also no form of proof indicating that (that I know of). If anything I think he avoided that topic and probably tried to blend out that part of Goethe’s life. 

But in the end we also do not know very much about Schiller and Christiane except very few things. Here’s what we know:

- if he saw her at all he saw her very seldomly at Goethe’s house. I don’t know whose choice that was, that is whether it was Goethe’s, Christiane’s or an agreed decision between them both but as I said ealier it would have also been just improper for her to officialy receive guests, this was the 1790s, this was high society, there was a protocol for certain things and the famous poet’s girlfriend greeting his guests just wasn’t a thing and there was probably no exception made with Schiller. however… the main source we have of Schiller not meeting her (when he stayed there for the first time for a couple of days) is a letter to his wife where he states that he has never seen Christiane and I think there’s a possibility that that’s not even true and Schiller only wrote it in order to not worry Lotte but idk

- Goethe mentions Schiller’s wife in like almost every single letter (sending greetings etc.) and Schiller doesn’t do the same with Christiane but then again he probably didn’t even know her very well and, well, greeting your friends wife (besides the fact that Goethe and Lotte had known each other since long before either of them met Schiller) was more a thing you did than greeting his girlfriend

- he does however send her greetings one (1) time in 1802 to congratulate her on the birth of a daughter (who died a couple of days later as did all of Christiane and Goethe’s children after their eldest son, August - it is today supposed that they had mismatching blood groups which is why none of their later children was able to survive more than a few weeks or even days):

Empfehlen sie mich der Kleinen recht freundschaftlich und versichern sie meines besten Anteils ~friendly greetings to the Kleine and assure her of my best regards

I’m not going to overinterpret the word freundschaftlich/friendly (which in this context I’d read as literally friend-ly, as in from a friend, in a friendshipy way etc.) here but he’s callig her ‘Kleine’ (which means the small one but it’s used as a nickname so it doesn’t really translate), and to me that means that Goethe must have referred to her by that name when talking to Schiller about her, which means that he, well talked to Schiller about her and in such an intimate manner that he referred to her by a nickname, so make of that what you may

- there was one time (this is mentioned in a letter from Christiane to Goethe but unfortunately I can’t find those online anymore so here’s a very cloudy memory:) when both Schiller and Christiane were at the annual theatre festival or sth in Lauchstädt and Christiane wrote to Goethe who had stayed in Weimar that she had been… sitting at a table together with Schiller? and they had… a lot of fun? and/or they went on some kind of boat trip and sat (amongst others) in the same boat?? (if anyone has those letters please let me know!!) anyway from how she wrote it, itsounded like Schiller spoke to her, was at ease being in her company etc.

So all things considered I think Schiller’s behaviour to her was if not particularly great also not particularly bad. He surely wasn’t very straightforward about including her or having close contact with her, but then Goethe probably didn’t even introduce her to him properly. To me it seems that he was somehow caught in beetween - between Lotte and her friends and the entire Weimar society and between his friend Goethe and his beloved Christel whom he for some reason just didn’t marry. What he really thought of her, how well he actually knew her? I think we just don’t know. But I think that compared with what Christiane was facing with the rest of Weimar’s society Schiller seems to have been okay with her to some extent and seems to have been almost friendly to or even with her (in comparison!).

So that was a very long answer to a very short but important and also complex question. I hope that at least some things are clearer now?

But anyway, if you care to learn more and something better-informed than this jibberish was about Christiane I strongly, strongly recommend to read Sigrid Damm’s biography on her (and Goethe): Christiane & Goethe!!!

[wuffgang-ameowdeus-moozart]

THANK YOU @devondespresso !!

(sorry it took me a while lol but this looks really fun !! also extra perfect bc I just started reading fics again ✌️)

age gap: -1

I don't care much either way. like, it's fine, as long as no kids/teenagers are involved. the negative point is for the one time I opened a sterek fic to see what the fuss was about. derek stalking the hs while stiles dreamt about his beard and chiseled jaw during class caused emotional damage I don't think I will ever recover from.

Codependency: 11

I love me a good unhealthy relationship 👍 (<- obsessed with wuthering heights)

Obsession/Possession/Jealousy: -6

I find it mostly obnoxious tbh. often a cheap way to create unnecessary drama in the relationship. This is a fanfic, you do not need to shoehorn a third act conflict in the end there. Not rated lower bc it can be funny if done right. But still mostly annoying.

Opposites (Grumpy/Sunshine, etc): 7

I must admit. I am a bit of a sucker for that one. extra points if the characters are desperately trying to force themselves back into who they think they were before sth ✨traumatic✨ happened even though they changed too much fundamentally as a person (<- slut for character studies). though it sucks when the author does it (forcing a stereotype onto the Character and erasing any depth just to fit the trope. ew.)

Enemies to Lovers: 8

enemies to lovers >> friends to lovers. I said what I said. the more messed up shit they do to each other before the friendification begins the better. (though I don't like it when the only reason they get together is bc they find each other hot. like damn, your morals so flimsy that one (1) hot ass does it?? like I'm not here to read the five same paragraphs about how the bod is so hot but you can't have it. I'm here for the personality <3)

Sex to Feelings: -7

often accompanied by a bunch of tropes I'm not a fan of. plus not really into NSFW anyway.

Fake Dating: -9

nope. same reason as above: comes with lots of tropes I really don't like. I don't get what is cute about worrying 24/7 whether you are breaking each other's boundaries and whether your relationship looks convincing to the outside (implying a very strict line between friendship and dating and kinda dictating how couples should act? idk this is a completely different can of worms but sth about that just bothers me)

Friends to Lovers: 3

It's fine. Won't actively search it out but also won't stop me from reading. Used to not be the biggest fan but have learnt to appreciate it more.

Found Family: 10000000000+

the media that first got me into fandom was literally fairy tail. the ultimate friendship anime. enough said.

tho none of the nuclear family bs please and thank youuuu<3

Hurt/Comfort: 10

what can I say? absolute sucker

Love Triangle: -9

"guy A and guy A but wearing a leather jacket both want me. not because we have chemistry (or even personality), but because. also they both mistreat me in unique ways and it doesn't count as cheating if they both like me". I don't get it. please stop.

like, oc it's different when the triangle actually has a narrative purpose. but this one's been so overdone even those get a bit of an eyeroll from me at first

Open/Poly: 2

Won't necessarily search it out, but cool when it is in there 👍 The answer to most love triangles if the author wasn't a coward

Mistaken/Hidden Identity: 4

extra points if it is used for comedy purposes (as it should)

Monsterfucking: 7

Look. I am 1000% sure that writing smut is hard and huge respect to ppl who manage to pull it off. however. oftentimes it is kind of boring to me? Like, with monsters there's at least some weird anatomy going on yk? you never know what will be coming (ha!) next. while vanilla is just like. idk. the only thing that comes to mind at the moment are the certified SJM phrases tbh akdjfj

so this is mainly so high bc monster romance supremacy>> (especially if a bit eldritch and a bit weird. which is so fucking hard to find. and oftentimes the monsterfucking is just part of it. can be a bit annoying when I want the monster to be *romanced* but there's only fucking. so like, the true 7p are actually for the monster romance, I still don't care much for nsfw

that being said

TMA I WILL FOREVER LOVE YOU FOR HAVING THE MOST HEARTWRENCHING MONSTER/CREATURE ROMANCES. LOTS OF THOSE EVEN WITHOUT THE FUCKING. THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE AMEN)

pregnancy: -9

not really a fan. idk how to properly articulate this but like. especially when the pregnancy is only used as a plot device. and the child isn't really seen as a person yk? like. if you decide to keep it. that is a whole-ass human being u putting out there into the world. what the heck.

second chance: -9

I'm way too anxious for this trope lol

slow burn: 2

cool 👍 can sometimes be a bit annoying when you want to see them established all you get are slowburns that *end* when they get together. idk will not dissuade me but will not make me click on it either

soulmate AU: -4

not a huge fan of the ideas of soulmates in general. can't rate it lower bc I *have* read some absolutely banger soulmate fics. however I think the reason it worked is because I am already familiar with the characters and their dynamic from canon/other fan works/etc (and also because they were all oneshots) I can't see myself picking up like a book with this trope (or similar stuff like "fated mates" or sth. not my jam. kinda boring.)

@ty-bayonet-betteridge @rinn-e @ashpkat @flipflapyoutwat and anyone who wants to ig?

Trope rating game

I'm so late but I love these! tagged by @zerokrox-blog ❤️❤️❤️

rules: How much do these tropes affect your decision to click on a fic? -10 -> very dissuaded 

0 - don’t care either way 

+10 -> very enticed 

nope -> if it’s a hard no and you’d never click on a fic with that tag or or you even have the tag blocked or you’d insta click out of the fic if it wasn’t tagged.  Bonus points for explaining the rating and whether it’s conditional.

Age gap: 0

Definity depends. I don't seek it out but anything like 10 years or less doesn't freak me out too bad.

Codependency: 10

I love it so much it's ~embarrassing~ But I think thats the funny thing with what I write and what I like in fic in general, it's almost all stuff I'd hate in real life?? What does that say about me?

Obsession/Possessiveness, jealousy: 10

See above!

Opposites (grumpy/sunshine etc): 2

I don't seek it out persay but its almost always cute as hell.

Enemies to lovers, Enemies with benefits: -2

I'm such a true love/fluff addict, I usually dont got the patience. But I have seen sooo many good fics with that trope though, I respect the writers.

Friends with benefits: -2

Just say you love each other already jesus christ 😭😭 (Did I mention I have no patience??)

Sex to feelings: -1

See above

Fake dating/relationship: -1

Same ish with friends and benefits! I'm such a baby gee wiz.

Friends to lovers: +2

It's cute!

Found Family: 10

Love it soooo much. Adore, adore, adore, adore!

Hurt/Comfort: +5

The guarantee of comfort, always gets me going.

Love Triangle: -10

Make em all fuck or get out of my face honestly.

Poly, open relationships: 0

Eh, I like reading the occasional like closed poly relationships or threeway but open ones just dont get me. Maybe because of bad experiences?

Mistaken/hidden identity: 3

I like them....the stupidier it is the better and no i do not know why!

Monsterfucking: +10

Yeahhhhhhhhh, I'm a fan. Definite fan. Mega fan.

Pregnancy: 5

Omegaverse or not, I like it. Which again. actual pregnancy is one of my top 5 fears. Whats up with that?

Second Chance: 0

Eh, don't look for it don't mind it. Im such a little bitch with angst it's not even funny.

Slowburn: 0

Can take or leave.

Soulmates: +5

It's cute!

Tagging with no pressure! @spectrum-spectre @letscrank @devondespresso @jjoesjonas @pearynice @heavenlycrashes @henderdads @hammity-hammer @homosexual-having-tea

[princessnijireiki]

like I really… don't know… a way to articulate it adequately except to say that like I can feel my time on this earth being chipped away… like sand through an hourglass… these are the days of our lives…

and a bonus bc I'm not the first last or only person to acquire and/or discover a facet or element of my identity as an adult in which i am disenfranchised and/or inherited oppression & genocide as a package deal with that revelation… like hi hello…

but it is weird to feel— not just emotionally but physically feel the difference between the shit I'm used to, grew up dealing with, and grew out of a certain kind of reaction to… vs. the new shit… like obviously ppl come up with new ways to remix & manifest racism that I was already dealing with, like you see some weird new ugly antiblackness, anti-native bullshit, anti-latinx bullshit, lateral racism/violence, intracommunity toxic nastiness, etc.

and I'm not… new… to seeing & calling out & being disgusted by antisemitism, either

but it does still feel fucking different when it's about & directed at you. when it comes from a lateral or intracommunity place w/in your own community's / communities' spaces… on top of the frankly fucking scary political & social climate… and some of these same sort of new remixes on old racist shit on top of that that I think lots of people are having to cope with too… not just bc all of it is "new-to-me," but bc some of it is that actually new shit that you can't be 100% braced for until it's already out here, and so it's a sort of one-two punch…

and like when you get used to stuff when you're like five and then you cry about it but then when you're ten or fifteen that stuff doesn't make you cry like that anymore— as time goes on you forget how heavy the boulder is that you're carrying & how… it's like chronic pain, or a rotten tooth, you don't actually notice how bad it is, how tired you are, how hard you're working to filter & fight onslaughts of violent poison nonstop, how much it is a skill borne out of trauma more than "toughness"… until you have to face a new (or "new-to-you") weapon.

something that like can lay you low & fuck you up where an eight year old would comfort you bc they've heard it already… shit you don't realize until you're looking from the outside that, yeah, of course eight year olds should never have to be that hard that on guard that used to anything like that… but that like… eighty year olds shouldn't either…

and it still feels like being five or six sometimes for you, and will forever. and it's fucked up that it ever stopped feeling like that, bc it didn't get better and this is not a feat of strength so much as resilience under fire when the sting stops hurting so much— you shouldn't have to get used to pain. it's fucked up that it ever started in the first place. not just in a conceptual moral judgement kind of way, but… you almost forget— almost— how much of an impact & injury racism causes and how harsh the healing process is from the bigass wounds & scars it leaves behind until you have to experience it fresh all over again, from scratch, from day one, either for yourself or like for your kids or sth… and it's just… fucked. it's so fucked.

anytime I think I can’t be shocked or blindsided anymore some new kind of racism smacks me in the goddamn face like when deep sea fishers get jumped by marlins leaping sword face first onto the decks of their boats and like

all of it is highly cursed and no bullshit no jokes is what people are talking about when they say minorities have higher stress levels, anxiety, and cptsd than white/anglo/gentile/etc. folks