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I almost feel a little. dumb for making this post, but I want to talk about it.

Lux, Lux I am so sorry.

I am so sorry for everytime I got angry at you and didn't properly apologize. For everytime we fought. For being the reason you lost an arm, the reason you lost your dad. For giving you so much grief for working with Mouthpiece and getting a Charter item. I am sorry for anything and everything I have ever done. For destroying Bonesburrow, destroying the Mason's grave, hunting you down. For being such a menace to you at the start.

I am thankful you let me be your ally. Let me be in your life. You are, were I guess, like a daughter to me. I think I love you more than anything else on the server. Which, I know, is probably a bit of a shocking statement. Me? Love something more than my rats and chaos? Hell, me picking you over Astron, my long time companion, is probably odd to hear. But it's the truth.

I'm not sure if you knew it, if you could tell, but I loved you so much. I was proud of everything you did. I was amazed by the Wardens, and your little Ink Blots. Markhett was an amazing place that you made, even with everything that happened, you managed to make spawn so nice. I loved watching you learn how to use L'Ancre. Even after months of using it, it still brought me pure joy to see your happiness and capabilities. I was overjoyed when you moved in with me and Astron in the cabin, knowing that I could keep a better eye on you. When we ran through Neverend together, ultimately finding joy in our creation.

Folly. I am so sorry that I failed you. That I let you die. I should've never taken the Mark of the Benefactor. I should've given it back to you immediately. I should've died then, not you, never you. You shouldn't have had to suffer as much as you did on that wretched server. You shouldn't have had to die in the place you made for peace. Folly, you should have lived. You should've been allowed to have a peaceful life. I shouldn't have taken peace for you, from everyone on the server, and I'm so sorry I did. You, all of you, deserved so much better than the hell I caused. By myself, and the unintentional uprisings of Blake and Diansu that I brought about because of my initial hunt and Freebird.

Luxintrus, I adore you more than anything else, and I am so deeply sorry for everything that had happened. Please, please, know I love you more than I have loved anything.

- Doctor4t / RAT , Content SMP

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im so sorry regretivator kins when you first started popping up ok this blog i thought you were Content SMP kins because theres ALSO A CHARACTER NAMED FOLLY THERE

anyways does anybody hear me am i alone in this?

-Doctor4t kinp

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