#do you think yoohyun has had to sit through semiannual suicide prevention training?

[tyrantwombat]

WOAH

wait shit fuck shit

I talk about Yoojin's webcomic suicide attempt under the cut in case anyone stumbles over here

okay so you know how Han Yoohyun found out Yoojin bought that poison pill and IMMEDIATELY jumped to the conclusion Yoojin was planning to off himself? Like, yes, extension and projection (boy's a multi-tasker) of Han Yoohyun's own paranoia and fear of Yoojin being in danger/captured/dead due to his association with him, sure, of course, whatever, but ALSO

In the webcomic (and during the chapters the author apparently had a huge hand in), Han Yoojin tries to death-by-dragon himself in front of Yoohyun right before the regression. I KNOW the Immoral Ones said Han Yoohyun being dead when the regression happened means he wasn't "overlapped" the way, say, Sung Hyunjae was, but...like. What if just a little bit got through anyway? What if?

(Or, hell, it doesn't even have to be that. Realistically, it's way more likely Han Yoohyun is reacting subconsciously to things he's picking up in Yoojin's behavior considering this is less than 24 hours after Yoojin tried to straight up kill himself, and he has no idea that happened, yes, but it did happen and he's watching the aftermath just ??? chewing on what he's seeing. Yoohyun doesn't have to be doing it consciously to still be churning up variables his brain then uses to slam 2 and 2 together as best it can under it's current contextual understanding as soon as it has an excuse.) (Look, Yoojin can pretend as hard as he wants that being flung to the past means Everything Is Fine Now and None Of The Bad Has Actually Happened So Of Course He No Longer Has Trauma About It but that is not how people work, my good man. He reached the point of attempting suicide! That does not happen in five seconds!)

But also consider: Han Yoohyun and reoccurring garbled waking nightmares springing up on him out of nowhere of The Literal Worst Day Of His Every Fucking Life ie. the day hyung almost died and then almost died again on purpose- that was so The Worst, even his past-self who has no idea what the fuck is going on is feeling it. 25yo Han Yoohyun breaking reality because he died with one of his last realizations being exactly how much he hurt his favorite person in the whole world, and therefore not one single version of him should ever know peace again. Accidentally. But also not because if he could have done that on purpose, he absolutely would. Han Yoohyun, to himself: Suffer.

You know. Healthily.

These boys give me anxiety.