#do you know how hard it is trying to understand laws of physics i've never heard of until now

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Vedic Observations 12

Accuracy influenced by the entire chart. Reading for only a few placements will never give the full story, the chart must be read as a whole for accuracy. take this as learner's info + entertainment.

Rahu in 9th House

The person can create their own belief/religious/moral system. They may respect and understand traditional belief's but they have their twist on how they interpret it. Rahu is the unconventional so this person's belief system will not be shared by most around them.

Rahu in 9th aspects 1st H, Rahu creates illusions and fogs up one's understanding of their purpose and self. Finding yourself takes time. This placement is unlikely to be the type of person who knew what they wanted to do from a young and actually proceed to do it. They have obstacles and confusion in finding themselves.

Rahu in 9th H aspects 5th H, this suggests your children could be unique in some way. If Venus is debilitated in D7, the children may be disabled. You could have a surprise/unplanned pregnancy occur. You could have a miscarriage shocking you. Something unconventional occurs in regard to what you create/your children. You could encounter deceptive romantic partners too.

This suggests foreign travel however Rahu is malefic. I've noticed they can have hardship in foreign places. They can have hardship in finishing higher education too. Often, this placement will try their best to seek higher education - formally or informally.

Rahu is a rebel, 9th H deals with the Law in certain cases this gives someone with loose morals. ex: criminals. This placement can find ways to justify their wrongdoings using religion or other corrupt thinking. ex: someone who discriminates and uses God as excuse for their ignorance. Or someone who breaks the law but thinks it's okay because they've had a hard life.

Rahu aspects the 3rd House when in 9th H. The relationship with siblings can become distant at some point. In extreme cases, you can have a sibling die before old age. You can have unique thinking possibly corrupt and/or obsessive thinking.

There may be something unconventional about your father. Depending on the entire chart, the father can be a loser in society or very strict with you. How this manifests will vary - ex: father is of a different religion, father has a unique career, father is foreign from your mother, father is not conforming to the father/masculine role, etc. Your father or his side of the family may live in foreign lands.

For better or for worse, your life/future is majorly dependent on your father and his side of the family. If they are loving and supportive, you will do well. If they don't, you will struggle a lot. They can make your life Hell.

Jupiter in 11th House

Jupiter aspects 3rd, 5th and 7th house from the 11th H. Unless Jupiter is debilitated, it can provide blessings to these houses. Accuracy is dependent on entire chart tho. If these houses have debilitated or malefics in them, you may not see any blessings - however the hardships are unlikely to be worst case scenario.

Aquarius Moon

Feeling like an outsider. Being an outsider. Finding it hard to relate to others. People find it hard to relate to you - some people hate what they can't understand.

I've noticed often aqua moon celebs get comments describing them as "depressing" "monotone" + get jokingly accused of being an alien.

Aqua moons get 1 of 2 reactions when first getting to know someone - ppl are fascinated by them or ppl are weirded out by them. The entire chart will influence the exact experience for each person.

Repressed emotions. Delayed emotional reaction - they can experience something difficult, refuse to think/process it until much later. They'll become an emotional wreck (usually in secret) when everyone else has moved on. Lonely & isolating moon sign.

Parents Appearance:

4th House & 9th House can correlate to physical traits of your mother & father.

ex: Saturn Aqua 4th H - this person’s mom is very tall. Cancer Mars 9th H - their father is shorter than their mother.

Early Death of Parents:

9th H in vedic shows father. This person has 9th H ruler (Jupiter) conjunct Ketu in Natal. At age 11, they had their Jupiter/Ketu dasha+bhukti period. Their father died.

This person has Moon conjunct Ketu. At age 5, this person had their Moon/Ketu dasha+bhukti period. Their mom died.

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I THINK THAT'S THE LAST I'LL BE TAKING OF THOSE FOR A WHILE.

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i’m thinking about how agatha says “my thoughts are not available to you, toots. they never, ever were. so don’t go giving yourself a migraine” to wanda and then “you’ll get a nosebleed trying that hard to read my mind” to billy.

a few things about this are interesting to me, particularly because of the layered ulterior motives she has for saying it:

1- agatha’s need to brag about being stronger lol

2- the fact that it does sound almost protective, the way she chooses to let them know they might get hurt from trying too hard. idk if it was just wanda, i could let it go, but i feel like it’s meaningful that it’s wanda AND billy, you know?

because we know for sure agatha cares about billy and she would try to avoid him hurting himself, so the fact that she used such a similar tactic on wanda makes me feel like it might have been a tiny hidden shred of evidence that she didn’t want to cause wanda any more hurt than necessary, either.

and, most notably,

3- we don’t have an origin story for agatha’s ability to block out telepathy, but to me those scenes might indicate that she taught herself that skill, rather than having been born with it. because maybe, if beings as powerful as wanda and/or billy tried hard enough, they would be able to read her mind. and she doesn’t wanna risk that, so she just makes it very clear that they can’t and sorta hopes to hell they’ll believe it.

aaanyaways, this just crossed my mind and i wanted to share and maybe ask if you have any thoughts on it?

hope you have a nice day!

(also btw re: the tags on your response to my last ask, i completely understand needing to take some time! no need to explain yourself :)

First of all, YES to Agatha teaching herself how to block out telepathy. On the shows we only scratch the surface of her immense self-taught knowledge, which I think is a cornerstone of her character. We get plenty of clues, from a very young Agatha accused not of murder but of stealing "knowledge above [her] age and station," to Agatha being constantly shown learning from books and teaching Nicky, to her whole relationship with the Darkhold, not to mention how she seems to understand Wanda's and Billy's powers better than they ever could.

I imagine her being obsessed with chaos/reality magic as soon as she learned about it from the Darkhold (because it's the only thing powerful enough to go against Rio's laws of nature / bring Nicky back) and as a consequence she learned to block telepathy, or if she already knew how, she definitely set out to become the greatest thought-blocker in history, she's just the kind of nerd who would do that. Plus she's extremely jealous of her inner thoughts and feelings, she regards her sorrows and fears as her greatest weakness, so it stands to reason that she'd be eager to learn how to hide them from everyone. I've talked about Agatha not giving a damn about being physically naked, it's her mind she wants to keep secret, and that is why being so uncensored as Agnes was much more humiliating.

Agatha boasting her thought-blocking abilities to Wanda and Billy has layered reasons like you pointed out – that's what I love about her, she's both complex and very predictable in her complexity. She's showing off, she's proud she's better than them at their own game. She's also calculating because you never know, they could break her barriers if they tried hard enough so better discourage them. And I don't know if she was being protective of Wanda too, maybe unconsciously.

But with Billy there was more overt affection, and I keep thinking how important it is for Billy to have someone in his life that is not constantly screaming in his head, and how significant the little exchange they had on the couch is, in retrospect. "I like it here. It's because it's quiet. You're quiet, Agnes." I like to imagine the whirlwind of thoughts this produced in Agatha, because you know her mind is always going a million miles a minute. In that moment her relationship with Billy was truly born I think, in all its three aspects: selfish (this is Wanda's son with Scarlet Witch-like powers that I can steal for myself), selfish in a different way (this is a magical little boy that I can claim and raise as my own, like I never could with Nicky) and selfless (I'm sorry for this kid born with powers he doesn't understand, I need to protect him.) So yes, I guess that even if she was smothering out the protectiveness she felt for Wanda, with Billy she's more ready to embrace it.

[olivianyx]

How can I continue to persist after becoming disillusioned? Is all this real? Since I saw something about the law, something that has given me proof that everything is false, I have questioned the law and started to feel that everything is a lie and that I have been wasting my time, now I am depressed, every time I read the stories of success, I believed them and looked at them. as hope now Nothing will be like before, I wanted the look of my dreams, I wanted the life of my dreams, but now I feel like everything has already gone to shit, my desires collapsed in a second, I've been trying to manifest. . Me for 4 years. Years and nothing has changed, I had high hopes but now I feel like I was never a god, I had a list of things I wanted to do when I became a master manifestor but I think it was all an illusion, now I'm going to stay locked in this fucking shit of the 3D. I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like everyone lied to me and I will never be able to get rid of this fucking shitty life.

Sorry for the rudeness, my intention is not to be rude but I am devastated and I don't know what to do with these feelings, I am not even close to letting it all go to hell.

Honey, don't worry, I've been there. I know how hopeless that feels. How you feel your heart clench and your mind going crazy when you see success stories, I know that horrible feeling honey. Unfortunately, we're the ones that's responsible for our states.

We're the ones that chose this state of hopelessness. Only we have the power to change it, and not success stories. It's cause we focus on changing the outer reality practically & logically since human mind is designed to work like that. But the ones who chose to throw the perspective of physical senses away, and chose to believe in the illogical, unreal stuff, that helps to change everything, win. They win. We as humans have absolutely no purpose. When I say we have no purpose, we don't. We're here to learn what's the truth, and just enjoy life with whatever we want. That's life. That's not something serious at all. We're the ones that chose life to be serious.

I'll tell you, the way your mindset is, is not your fault since we're influenced by the outer reality. So we tend to think in the society's perspective. The law is real sweetheart. Just take action upon yourself in your mind, and see the magic of the law. I know it's a harder pill to swallow, but that's the truth. I really understand how you feel, but love, isn't it exhausting to live a life which isn't making you happy? I don't know your age, but think of me as your elder sister, and please listen. Life has given you this opportunity to know about the law honey, yet, you struggle to apply this small concept. It's okay till now honey, but now you know, start applying. Yes it's sometimes hard being delusional and persist, but as you go on, it's easy as fuck.

Coming to the law, what does the law state? Whatever you assume to be true is true. Full stop. How do you assume? Induce the thoughts of your desires already done, live as if it's done cus it already is, you already have them, and deny the rest and move on. That's it. You don't even have to wait. Tf time doesn't exist. There's no overcomplicating shit. It's just simple as that. You already are a master manifestor, you're just manifesting the wrong stuff, my love. Focus your attention, feelings and thoughts on what you desire. You already are what you desire. It's no more a desire. You're being the version of you who has your desire. You should change your self, and nothing else. Stop expecting the 3d to change, when the source hasn't been changed. That's it honey, that's all you gotta do and you don't even need to lift a finger.

If you want me to help you, I'll gladly do it. Dm me or hit on my asks. I'm here any time (actually I'm offline most of the time 😭) I do answer any and every ask.

[riansdiary]

Hi honey. A month ago I'm trying to manifest a sp in my classroom that I've never talked to. But I like him a lot and I don't know if I am his physical type.

And even, I did affirmations in robotics and audio. But I see him with the 3p is a re popular girl, it hurts me because he knows I like him and every time, those thoughts come to my head when I affirm. Besides, I'm affirming out of pure love for my sp and self concept. I don't see anything in the 3d and I only have two weeks left to see him, we used to look at each other a lot and I'm always afraid that the 3d doesn't reflect anything. Now I see that he shares things of love

Hello! 🤗

It doesn't matter if you're his physical type, you can manifest his type to be you.

You shouldn't pay attention to the circumstances and the 3d because what you focus on grows, meaning you get more of it. Instead, why don't you focus on the fact that he's so head over heels for you. He can't think of anyone but you. He's only thinking about you. He likes you and no one else.

You were paying attention to the old story and letting it change your thoughts. What you have to understand is that the 3d is a bit delayed, you shouldn't give up so quickly and look for it in the 3d because that will cause you to put your attention there and ruminate on those negative thoughts. I really recommend my newspaper analogy for anyone who's having a hard time understanding the law and how it works.

That's only because you keep finding it in the 3d when the 3d is looking at you for validation. The 3d is just following and reflecting your thoughts and assumptions. When you check or look for it, you can make it right by not paying attention to that anymore and thinking your affirmations more gently and reminding yourself that this is what the truth is now. You know the ending of the story already.

You're not supposed to look for it or for movement. Think of it like this. You're thinking you have it and you were living in the end. The 3d starts conforming and moving whether you see it or not. Then when you saw the old story and reacted, you are pulling yourself back to the old story and are thinking thoughts like it's not working and it's not doing anything. The 3d just reflects your thoughts, assumptions and who you are being so what do you think will happen after that? You're back to square one because you said so and you let the 3d change your thoughts instead of not giving up and reminding yourself that no I have this now and that's the truth. Continue to keep your thoughts aligned with you having your desire and persisting. That's only standing firm in your decision that you have this now.

Using my newspaper analogy, you as the writer of the newspaper were finding and looking for the latest news to write and then you saw the old news you wrote. The writer has a job and must write a newspaper. You as the writer kept focusing on the fact that you have no latest news and you panicked. What am I gonna print? So you took one of your old editions and printed it. This is what you do when you look for it in the 3d but you forgot something really important.

You are the writer of your life and you "write" what you wanna see. Write in this case means thinking thoughts or any techniques out there. You write what you wanna see, not the 3d so why the heck would you let the 3d dictate your world when it's just your old thoughts? Write favorable thoughts, helpful thoughts, thinking that you have this thing now. The only thing you did wrong was to let the 3d change your story. You keep writing what you wanna see even if you don't see it yet because anything and everything will move to get you what you want if you keep up with thinking the thought that you have what you want.

It's not that you don't have it yet. You have it in the 4d which is the real reality which also means your mind so technically you have it now. The 3d reflecting that will happen naturally as long as you don't let anything change your mind and keep thinking thoughts that are in your favor. Keep thinking he's your boyfriend or whatever you want him to be and that he likes you and no one else no matter what you see. I know it's easier said than done but if I can take my attention away from the circumstances by doing what makes me happy and focusing on good things then you can do it too!

I feel like you might be a bit too attached so try focusing on yourself and making yourself happy. What I mean by that is take care of yourself, do things that you love and make you happy and distract yourself away from the 3d or circumstances.

Don't be afraid of the 3d not reflecting anything. Please don't assume that, assume that the 3d is conforming so fast and that it worked and it happened so fast. Think thoughts that are in your favor. Say that everything works in your favor because that helps.

[msallurea]

hi, a few months ago i sent an ask about changing my ethnicity and i saw other people sent some too after but i haven't had any results.i don't know what to do anymore. i tried listening to subliminals i created, i tried repeating affirmations. i tried to do the 3d and 4d things and assume i have it, but i'm not understanding anything, i'll be 100% sure that my desire is mine than i'll be hit with reality and it's so hard for me. i don't feel like i'm manifesting anything, i feel like i'm being delusional. do you have any tips to help me? what can i do? i feel so hopeless and i hate feeling this well, i tried to detach and i'll keep trying but could you give me any tips or any help? tysm <33 i've also never saw anyone manifest this so i can't find any success story which usually motivate me a lot

Hi sweetie, i understand your frustration. I will try answering as concise as possible however i will onky telk u the basics of what i know the law to be. I cannot tell u personalky why you do not have your desire because well, if u say you have done everything right..this ask would not be sent. However i digress and im sure we have all felt like at some point we just didnt have what we want because we didnt "see" it. That is ok. You do not need motivation. What u need is discipline over your own mind. Motivation is fine but if it cannot bring u to be discipline when that motivation no longer exist, you do not need it. However I do recommend just going easy on yourself, the 3d can already be troubling don't double work yourself even more making it harder than what it needs to be. (Edward art let go meditation helps with this also)

Feeling a little delulu is normal and it's alright if u feel like u aren't making any progress. However with that being said when being in the state of wish fulfilled and manifesting in general it sounds like your spending more time focusing on it not being here rather than accepting its already done. The law is well..a law. If you're doing everything u just told me then the 3d actually has no choice but to reflect itself..that's IF you're actually doing everything u just told me. U say u assumed it is done yet you're here wondering well where is it, that in itself is also an assumption you have chosen to believe in..cuz u see that's not how it works. An assumption though false and though physical evidence denies it if persisted in it will harden into fact.

You need to understand that you as the outer man cannot manifest, that is why you as the inner man should not base your fulfillment of your desires upon the senses aka the 3d reality. The 3d can only show u what u already have in 4d. Accept that the outer u cannot do anything, only you as the inner man can. Who is the inner man? It is who you are in imagination, it is who u assume yourself to be within. You and I could meet each other in person right now, I could think you are gorgeous however you as the inner man may feel you are ugly and in return I could tell you you are gorgeous 1000 times and still, you would not believe me because in your mind you have assumed that you simply aren't attractive (this is just for the sake of examples do not take any of these personally)

If u do not feel fulfilled u are not fulfilled in imagination. Truly being fulfilled that u have what u want is knowing that it is already yours WITH OR WITHOUT THE 3D SHOWING U. True persistence is staying firm in your assumption REGARDLESS of if the 3d is showing u opposite.

You're not here to pretend that it's in the 3d we know our desires aren't in are 3d yet especially if our circumstances are all in our face, your only job is to accept that it is done in imagination. Why? Because imagination is your true reality. The only reason it feels like it is not is because you are not treating it like it is. You must accept the fact that every assumption you have made true in your mind is reflected out into your 3d, like a mirror. Who created that? Not the outer man, but the inner man and u as the inner man can change that. The outer man does nothing more then reflect what the inner man already believes of itself. If I asked u if u were pretty or ugly what would your answer be? You say pretty outwardly it doesn't matter what beauty standard u do and don't fit you'll appear pretty regardless because that is your assumption of yourself. The same if your answer is you are ugly that is what will be reflected out into your world.

I will use Neville Barbados story for example. Abdullah told Neville the moment he walked out of his prescence he was no linger on 72nd Street of New York but he was in Barbados, weeks even months passed by and Neville saw nothing. Neville doubted. Neville did not understand that if he was assuming that he was already in Barbados why was he not there? Abdullah told him once more "YOU ARE IN BARBADOS" and slammed the door in his face. Despite the 3d showing opposite, Neville once again imagined that he was in Barbados every night, walked in the streets as thought he was in Barbados seeing the balm trees and coconuts and shit even if in the physical reality he was walking the streets of New York..nothing like Barbados at all. However he used his senses of imagination, he saw himself as the inner man being in Barbados despite the outer man being in New York. Soon enough he eventually made it to Barbados and that is how his desire was fulfilled.

That is what I mean, if u are truly being persistent and truly assuming your desire was yours regardless of what the 3d was showing u, I have a feeling u would not being asking me this and more so telling me about your success story.

So in a kind but firm tone I will tell u, you are already that what u wish to be, the only reason u are not is because u assume so. But that is ok. Do not let your physical senses of this world tell u who u are within for that is delusion. You have already succeeded in having your desire, in fact I'm not even seeing this as an ask but u telling me your success story of how u have manifested your desire because that's exactly what u did. I mean technically this is a success story..just not a fulfilled one but an unfulfilled one. But that is ok because u can make it a fulfilled one if you truly follow the advice

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College Resources

hey y'all so I have a degree in math, and have been tutoring college level math, stats, physics, and study skills for a few years now and I have several certifications as a college level tutor and in my years tutoring I've picked up a lot of absolutely essential things you NEED to know to pass math classes (and others!) if you have a hard time in math class, which unfortunately most schools will not teach you

so if you're in college (or high school, but some of these will be college specific) and you would like to hear my Professional Tips for how to survive math in college I have compiled a list of things I think you should know below the read more! I'm going to put a couple general tips at the top though for people who aren't taking a math class

alright, welcome to the read more! let's start with some general things

ok I'm starting with a kind of tip before the tips: if you are disabled, talk to disability support services at your school. a lot of times they provide services to attain a diagnosis if you don't have one, but if you do it's typically pretty easy to get accommodations and if your teachers try not to follow them, they will get in A LOT of trouble (I'm in the us so idk how disability laws are in other countries but here this is a big deal for universities bc public funding etc and if you make a complaint they will be FORCED to comply). I'm not saying bad experiences never happen, I've not been to every school in the us and I'm sure there are places that suck abt this, but I literally would not have been able to get a degree in math without accommodations (I'm autistic and have dyscalculia + memory issues) so it was worth every annoyed sigh by a dumbass teacher (which honestly rarely happened. most of them were cool). some possible accommodations include, extra time on tests, separate testing locations, formula cards, ability to use notes etc etc

I work in a free tutoring center at my local community college. while I won't say these are definitely universal, every college I have encountered (in the US, where I live) has one of these. Google the name of your school with tutoring. there is a very high chance you have free tutors available in a variety of subjects who are ready to help you. you should utilize the fuck out of this bc ur already probably paying for it in ur tuition

my favorite resource ever is one you may have heard of but I'm reminding you of it anyway. the Crash Course YouTube channel! it has free comprehensive videos about various subjects (including anatomy, physics, biology, economics, statistics and lots lots more). the videos are about 10 minutes each and they're incredibly easy to understand. they're an amazing way to study for finals. trust me on this one. they actually now have real introductory college courses that you can take for credit (tho I think you have to pay for that?) through YouTube so check into that!

take notes!!!!!!!! for real. seriously. even if you've never had to before. trust me. and don't just copy exactly what the board says, write what your teacher says out loud as well, that is often the most important stuff. I highly recommend investing in a few colored pens and/or highlighters. anytime the teacher says something important (such as formulas in a math class or a grammar rule in an English class) either write it in another color, or highlight it. color coding your notes even the tiniest bit will help you tremendously when you're studying and doing homework later. this doesn't mean having a color code so elaborate and strict that you're spending more time and energy figuring out the right color than listening and writing. I usually do the bulk of my notes in black then things like formulas or whatever in one bright color and extra bits of info from the teacher in another, this way it's easier to find the important stuff later on

if you've got a couple extra bucks, invest in a mini stapler. you'll be shocked how often those lil bitches come in handy

DO NOT EVER purchase your text books before the classes start (unless you get like an email before class starts telling you you need the book, but this is pretty rare tbh). half of your teachers are going to tell you on day 1 that they don't use the book at all. and honestly almost all of your books can be found by googling the name + pdf. just triple check that you have the correct edition!

speaking of emails, CHECK YOUR FUCKING SCHOOL EMAIL. I am so dead serious about this one. set up notifications on your phone. if you do not check your email you are going to show up for cancelled classes, miss assignment corrections, and generally not do nearly as well in your classes. I know this sounds fake but holy fucking shit please for the love of all that is good and holy check your fucking email. seriously.

the best way to study for your finals is to look at past tests and homework! if your teacher isn't a total dick they'll give you back your tests and homework. when studying for your final, go through and redo any that you got wrong, and look over the ones you got right. teachers usually take final questions from old tests and homework so if you do this it's very possible you'll study your exact finals questions. if they won't give you these back, reread your notes (in a way I'll describe in a moment)

reread your notes the same day you take them or very soon after so the lecture is still fresh in your mind! when you do this, grab a colored pen and take notes on your notes. I know this sounds ridiculous but it's actually a very important study tool. if you come across something you wrote that is confusing, write out an explanation. write down extra things that will help you understand the material. if there's something that you don't understand or don't remember PLEASE ask your teacher. some of them won't answer email so catch them in office hours or after class if you can. at the end of the semester when you're studying for finals, do this all over again but through your whole notebook for the semester (not all at once. pls take breaks lmfao)

if your teacher doesn't offer it up at the end of the semester, ask "can you please tell us some of the topics we should emphasize when studying for our finals?" (you can also say this in a far less pretentious way but I've found that professors are more likely to give you a real answer if you talk like this ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) I'm ngl, some of em will be assholes about this. they may laugh at the idea and snarkily say "look at your homework" or some shit equivalent. roll your eyes at these old bitches and move on. but many if not most will at least give y'all some idea of what to expect. and crucially: write down what they say and use it as a study guide

okey dokey!! that concludes the general section. now I'm gonna talk about some math specific stuff that will help you a lot if you struggle with math!

starting with an easy one: get a good calculator. please for the love of GOD do not get the TI-30X IIS unless you love it and are EXTREMELY familiar with all of the different operations. I'm sorry but this calculator sucks ass and it will hold you back. for about the same price you can get my personal favorite the Casio FX-115ES Plus (1st edition only, I haven't tried the 2nd edition bc I don't like change) or an FX-991 EX. if you're a Texas instruments guy get a TI 30XS or if ur doing calc and shit I'd get a 36X pro. I just prefer Casio personally lmao. in all likelihood your math teacher will be a calculator nerd who can teach you how to use any of these but there are also lots of videos made by calculator nerds on YouTube as well

so next I just want to emphasize how important your notes are. you cannot pass a math class without good notes unless it's a class you've already taken or something, and honestly even then I'd recommend you write some stuff down because the thing about math is there are a lot of different ways to do the same thing. which brings me to my next point

pay attention to the process your teacher uses to solve problems (I'll give an example in a sec) and especially to how they write the process down. if you're like me and you have trouble with the whole "show your work" thing this will help a lot, because you can use what your teacher writes down as a guideline for what you should write down. for instance, you may have learned about a math concept like permutations and combinations in high school one way, and then be taught a completely different way of performing the calculation in college. if this happens, ask your teacher about your way. sometimes their way is better for a specific reason and it's really important that you learn it. sometimes they'll say it doesn't matter just do what makes the most sense to you. sometimes you will also not get full credit if you do things a different way too so be careful and pay attention to what your teacher says abt it. you may have also been taught to show some steps in an operation but not others and your new teacher may want all of them. or none. or different ones. unfortunately math has a lot of variations

similarly, if there's a concept you don't understand, start by asking your teacher about it first bc they may want you doing a specific thing. if they're not helpful and you don't have access to a tutor turn to the internet. here are my recommendations for resources: Khan Academy has videos and examples explaining concepts in pretty much all types of math. usually really helpful because they'll show you several different methods and use different explanations, MathWay for classes that come before trig/calc. you can use it for those but it's a little more annoying lol specifically in regards to graphing and solving integrals and shit. this tool has A LOT of stuff in it but is best as a calculator to check your work on stuff and for showing you graphs that have transformations and shit like that from college algebra. it's got settings for different math types and even chemistry tho!, for more complicated graphing I'd use Desmos. you can use this in all classes but it's just a bit more complicated imo and it's more made for complex operations so I prefer to use MathWay as much as possible bc it's just more user friendly., there's also Symbolab which a lot of my fellow tutors really like but I personally tend to use the others more, Wolfram Alpha is a pretty well known one. tbh I find it kind of hard to use sometimes so i usually use it as a last resort lmfao but it is really good!, this last one is calculus specific (including things like calc based physics ofc) but derivative calculator and integral calculator are everything to me. could not have gotten through calc 2 and 3 w/o these mfs

OK THIS PART IS REALLY IMPORTANT!! we're going to talk about how you can make your math tests WAY easier on you and massively improve your chances of passing. here's what you're going to do for every test

1. when studying for your test, go through and find ALL formulas that you used in the unit(s) your test is over (this includes formulas you learned previously but used in this unit as well!!)

2. commit them to memory. easiest way to do this (besides practicing using them!!) is to rewrite them a few times including what you use them for and what all of the symbols and letters stand for

3. when you go in to take your test, spend like 5-10 minutes beforehand, right up until they make you put everything away, studying and rewriting these

4. the SECOND the test hits your desk, flip it over and write down every single formula immediately (including as much extra info like when to use and variable definitions as possible). now you won't have to try to remember them 30 minutes in when your brain is frying!!

5. go through the test and read each question carefully. if you can't remember how to solve it within 30 seconds skip it. you might only do 4 or 5 questions (maybe less depending on the length of your test) after the first pass, but just go back to the beginning and do it again, giving urself a little more time w each pass. this will ensure that you're not spending 45 minutes on problem 4 and having no time to get to the rest of the test. additionally with math it is extremely common to basically find the answer to how to do one problem while you're doing another problem. doing the ones you know first will also boost your confidence and help prevent anxiety from wiping ur brain. this is a really really important part of math tests

6. before you hand your test in, make sure you've written SOMETHING down on EVERY SINGLE QUESTION. even if you have absolutely 0 idea whatsoever what to do, there is always a chance for partial credit. a lot of times, you also know more than you think you do. so even if you can only do half a step of the whole process, half a point is better than 0!! if you really have no clue what to do, make something up. I know this probably sounds ridiculous but I'm so deadass. once I was taking a physics test and could not for the life of me remember what formula to use so I just made one up based on my vague idea of how it worked lmao. I wrote off to the side "I know this isn't how physics works, but I can't remember that so just pretend I'm god for a second" and I got like 75% of the points bc the teacher appreciated the effort!! there were fucking countless times when I was taking a test and I got to a point where I knew the steps of what I was supposed to do but could not figure out HOW to actually DO the math. so I wrote in words my understanding of what the next steps were. even though I didn't finish answering the question, I always got points for trying. this is what teachers are wanting from you. effort. so PLEASE write literally anything even if you're just making that shit up (just explain your reasoning in words to the side, as long as you're using logic you're really getting the essence of math anyway). you would not BELIEVE how fast your grades will improve by doing this. I tutored a girl who went from Ds to Bs within literally 2 weeks of starting tutoring just because she stopped leaving any questions blank and started getting partial credit

that's all the important stuff I can think of for now though I'm sure there's much more so I may update this in the future!

of course everyone is going to have a different experience and relationship with math. so adjust all of these tips to fit how you learn best. please try to remember that learning math is a very important part of developing your critical reasoning and logistical analysis skills. these are essential to understanding and interacting with the world and math is just a way of exercising those muscles. trust me when I say I know how infuriating math can be. I have dyscalculia and a math degree. I've spent so many hours crying over math you probably wouldn't even believe me. but it's worth it! and frankly, if you're in college, you're paying a lot of money for this class. you deserve to get everything you possibly can out of it

above all, if you're having trouble ASK FOR HELP. ask your teacher, ask your classmates, ask the head of the department, ask student services, ask Google!! and if you need help you can always ask me! :) I love helping people with this stuff and even if I don't know the answer to your question I'm pretty good at knowing where to look for them!

[onefleshonepod]

Can we ask what you were excommunicated for? (I've never known anyone who was excommunicated and I'm desperately curious, sorry)

yeah sure! it's not super well understood by the general public so i'm happy to explain. this is baily btw; kabriya wasn't raised religious.

i come from an irish catholic family on my mom's side so i was baptized as a baby and had my first communion and confirmation and all that. however, i'm an atheist and no expert on canon law, so this is just my personal understanding.

basically being excommunicated isn't getting kicked out of the church — that's very hard to do and as of 2010 is functionally impossible if you've been baptized as a catholic. excommunication is intended (or at least has been since the 1983 code of canon law) to be a form of censure to encourage people to repent and come back to participating fully in the church.

if you've been excommunicated, you can't participate in sacraments like the eucharist or catholic marriage, and you can't have a catholic burial. you're expected to still go to mass weekly and eventually change your ways and be absolved in confession.

however, the key thing that the general public doesn't get is that no one really checks. for most reasons for excommunication under canon law, you incur a "latae sententiae" or automatic excommunication, so it basically only happens in your own head.

a bishop can impose excommunication for certain things (e.g. a californian priest was excommunicated in 2020 for refusing to acknowledge pope francis as the legitimate pope), but this doesn't really happen to regular catholics. no one's realistically going to stop you from taking communion at mass if you've done something that would incur excommunication. you would have to deliberately tell your priest in public or make some kind of announcement to the congregation in order to be, like, physically prevented from taking communion.

there are only a few ways to get excommunicated if you're not a priest or bishop.

canon 1364, if you're an apostate (reject the catholic faith entirely), a heretic (reject tenets of the faith as presented by the church), or want to create a schism in the church;

canon 1367, if you throw away communion wafers/wine or use them for sacrilegious purposes;

canon 1370, if you try to physically hurt the pope;

canon 1379, if you're a woman and try to become a priest;

canon 1398, if you have an abortion.

interestingly enough, there was a decree from pope pius xii in 1949 that excommunicated people for being socialists or communists, but that's kind of been in legal limbo since vatican ii in the 60s as far as i can tell.

for most of these, with the notable exception i guess of hurting the pope, no one at your church is going to know unless you tell them. so it's functionally kind of your own decision to make if, for example, you don't believe in god but want to continue going to mass and being part of a catholic community.

however, if you consider yourself an ex-catholic and want to be officially removed from the rolls of the church and not counted as a catholic anymore, that's a different story!

most ex-catholics use apostasy as their reasoning. until 2010, there was an official process called defection where you could write to your bishop and state where and when you were baptized, describe your apostasy (both your personal feelings and how it has manifested in your life), explain that you understand it means excommunication, and state that you don't consider yourself a catholic anymore and want your name taken off the official rolls of catholics.

i did this in 2009. my description of my apostasy was essentially saying that i think it's unlikely that any kind of god exists, i don't believe in any of the tenets of the apostles' creed, i hadn't gone to church or participated in any sacraments like communion or confession in years, and furthermore that i considered the catholic church to be fundamentally misogynistic and homophobic institution responsible for uncountable colonialist crimes, crimes against children, and discrimination against women and queer people.

however, since pope benedict xvi abolished that act in 2010 and all reference to this process has been removed from canon law, if you've been baptized into the catholic church, they will count you as one of them forever :)

[fatherlybeast]

how are you gay in turkey? are they not homophobic as fuck? did they try to kill you? or you dont live there anymore?

Hello,

I obviously can’t speak for every LGBTQ person living in homophobic countries, but my experience as a gay dude in Turkey hasn’t involved fear for my physical safety. No one has ever tried to kill me, to answer your question. Have I faced challenges because of my sexual identity? Definitely. But I've never had to fear for my life. Maybe it’s because I’m straight-passing, or maybe I’ve just been lucky. I know people who’ve had it much worse—brutal experiences, even. So, that's a thing for sure.

Does this mean there aren’t extremist people here? Not at all. There are people who believe in a "gay agenda," thinking that LGBTQ people are part of a secret organization sent to attack family values or other conspiracies. These individuals often mock and ridicule the LGBTQ community. Some Pride parades have been shut down by the police, and there have been many hate crimes as well. So, as I said, I’m just speaking from my own experience.

By law, every citizen—gay or not—is protected from mental or physical harm. But how does that translate into daily life in Turkey? LGBTQ people, especially those who present more "fruity", if I may, often face discrimination and bullying. Turkey is a large and diverse country, and depending on where you live, people can be more accepting. Some will see you as just a person who happens to be gay, rather than reducing you to just being gay or as a threat to the continuity of society and it's "values". That’s not the common experience, especially in rural areas, but it’s been my experience since my early 20s.

Before that, I had friends who turned their backs on me or said things like, "You’re just doing it for attention." They were teenagers too, so in hindsight, I understand that they might not have fully grasped the situation. Still, it was hurtful at the time. Ouch!

After high school, I left my hometown and met my then-boyfriend. With him, I could be out and open—we’d go to cafés, restaurants, the movies, hold hands, kiss—just do normal things every other straight couple does. I didn’t need to hide or feel afraid. Of course, it was young love, you know? You feel like you can do anything because you have someone by your side. Even if someone harassed us, I felt like it would be okay. That experience was life-changing for me. Before that, such things were only something I saw in movies or TV shows or imagined in my head. So in regard to your question, this is also something a gay guy can experience in Turkey.

Weirdly enough, I feel like nowadays gay people take such connections and relationships for granted. But that’s a different topic.

From my observations, younger LGBTQ people (born in the 2000s and later—and I’m not that much older than them, which might explain some of my luck) are much luckier when it comes to finding supportive friend groups or safe spaces in general. I’m in the final stretch of my 20s, and almost two decades ago, when I first hit puberty, I realized I wasn’t just into girls, but I didn’t even know there was a name for what I felt. "Being gay" wasn’t something you could just ask about or learn easily. I really had to claw my way into being understood and accepted, in a way. And such psychological struggle does affect a person deeply. So you are right, it is not easy. -But in a way, these experiences are also how we mature. -

All I knew was that it wasn’t "okay" to be this way. There were no TV shows, discussions, or Netflix series about it—nothing. Some shows featured LGBTQ characters, but they were rare and hard to find, and never in Turkish. It was easier to come across endless porn than any genuine representation. I remember discovering the movie 'A Single Man'—you have no idea how happy it made me back then, even though the movie itself has a tragic story. It taught me one simple thing I simply didn't know before: men can romantically love each other. Before that, feeling constant terror and uncertainty because of the urges I had was my reality . I thought I was some freak of nature for having crushes on other fellow boys.

Imagine this: back then, as a kid who had just hit puberty, all I had was a Wikipedia page titled "homosexuality" that I read countless times to try to make sense of myself in secret. Then I found chat rooms down the road, which were often predatory in nature and unsafe for teens. But many teens, including myself, ended up in those spaces because we wanted to feel like we belonged. My experiences there weren’t great, but I also made my first gay friends and had my first encounters that way. But that’s a whole other story.

This question found me at a strange time I suppose, and I guess I could go on and on about it all.

Imma stop jabbering real quick tho lmao

To summarize, Turkey isn’t the best place to live as an LGBTQ person, but experiences can range from terrible to fairly chill, depending on where you are, given how diverse the country is. That said, I believe future generations will have an even easier time accepting themselves, finding safe spaces, and creating better environments for themselves and others with different identities. At least, that’s what I hope for them.

Thanks for asking, it made me think about things I hadn’t in ages. xx <3

[adambja]

Hi Adam

I don't know why I'm telling you this to be honest hehe,but as my fav blogger I want to ask you for advice.

So I discovered the law last two years and for 8 months I tried using subliminals each one month but no matter how hard I stuck to one subliminal it never gave me results.

Then last year I read motivation on loa and all in other bloggers post but I never manifested anything no matter how hard I tried,I tried to be the creator of my reality,I pretended to be living my dream life even though I was broke asf and my family was suffering,ppl called me stupid but I didn't care,even when I never got results I believed it would come soon,I literally kept convincing myself for a year,I worked so hard but nothing happened,I never Manifested anything,and then I heard about the void state,I didn't believed in it but then I saw success stories and I believed it immensely,I thought there's still hope for me,for months I suffered but I pushed through and tried to get into the void state every day and every night,I worked on my self concept,I applied the law in every way but then nothing happened and then my dad fell ill,I was worried and I kept affirming to manifest his health,I affirmed in tears and I was fed up.i wanted to pay you for a custom tape because I thought it might help me but then I had no cent on me,so I could only keep affirming and affirming but nothing happened and then my mum died,she couldn't keep up with all of these,I had no siblings so yeah,then the dad died too.but I still didn't give up I didn't want to but it's useless,right now when I see any blogger giving ppl motivation,it annoys the hell outta me,I know I might be wrong but the law never helped me so now I'm gonna be sent to an orphanage home tomorrow in which girls are constantly molested each time,I literally pass by and see guys trying to touch them and I don't wanna go there please I need your advice,I'm tired of all these you are the creator speeches it's annoying to be honest,I wouldn't say I didn't try enough because I did extremely well,my phone is the only thing supporting me right now pls I need you to tell me what to do,it was my dad's gift to me on Christmas,he worked so hard to buy me one.ive tried every method possible

Most of y'all think you've had it bad??? I've faced worse,I don't even have access to my own house because of my fucking family members y'all give up immediately you try something

I tried for over 2 years but I never got anywhere and I need help,I'm going insane,if there's anything you can do to help me please do if there isn't then it's okay

First of all

My name isn't Adam it's adambja baby it's A GIRL HERE AND THIS IS WHAT I CALL A TRAUMA DUMPING THAT'S it

I didn't read anything because I am about to sleep I am so tired but you are welcome to talk to me privately and we will see

I understand your frustration and all your feelings and all this anger about some bloggers here saying the same repeated things over and over!

It's not my responsibility either cause I am not even like them hopefully I helped a lot of people here!

But when you send me a message make sure you tell me about what you want from the tapes if you are gonna buy them BECAUSE I DON'T MAKE CUSTOM TAPES FOR FREE you gave me your whole life thing how would I even help you if you aren't paying me for your personalized tape or coaching!!!!

I CAN LITERALLY HELP YOU IN ONE MONTH WITHOUT ANY VOID SH IN YOUR NORMAL PHYSICAL REALITY I DID HELP A LOT OF PEOPLE WHO HAD THE WORST SITUATIONS YOU CAN EVEN IMAGINE!

This is the issue here guys

This is MY ISSUE okay? Stop trauma dumping instead tell me WHAT DO YOU WANT TO HAPPEN!!! NOT WHAT HAPPENED CAUSE IDGAF ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED I AM HERE TO MAKE YOUR NEW REALITY HAPPEN

Again the old story MUST BE DEAD!

Also baby you need tapes NOT TALK NOT WORDS YOU NEED TO REWIRE YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS MIND

How SHOULD I MAKE THE OLD STORY DEAD, ADAMBJA?

Just tapes THAT'S WHY I AM MAKING TAPES WITH BENEFITS ITS BETTER IN MANY WAYS

And that's what I am originally a coach for!

[catchyhuh]

If each of them would ever have YouTube / Tik Tok account... What would their content be?

i tried so hard to really and truly answer this but i just kept thinknf of this throughout

lupin: started as a joke but he IS having fun with it. he’s mostly just fucking around there’s like NO production quality there it’s just. viddy oe. and thats the case whether its youtube OR tiktok, either way it’s going to be quick cutesy spur of the moment junk. if he ever really went all out, he might make some kinda digital calling card (he has made video cards before to inform his targets he’s about to rob their asses lmao) but it’d be some stupid hilarious shit. like imagine those video wedding/graduation invitations with the poorly animated stock resources and generic acoustic guitar music. text slides in that says “i want that statue dumbass” (cymbal fade sfx) “so yeah i’ll be taking that” (dramatic text pan) “seeya thursday, can’t wait :)”

jigen: no profile pic no real username. just like jigen76943 with the blue j icon. NO tiktok. NO tiktok for our guy. insists lupin shouldn’t be using tiktok either as its shortening his already horrible attention span. jigen doesn’t really post videos too much, but if he does it must be something very important to him, really only uploaded so he doesn’t lose it. there’s a handful of videos from some of their vacations (whether its an intended vacation or just ‘oh shit we’re in spain. we should have fun with this’ type deal) but it’s almost all privated. he’s not really showy about stuff like that

fujiko: she had a momentary lapse of judgment when making it, because she thought, easy way to sucker in idiots and make some money off that ad revenue. but also… do you REEEALLY want the world knowing exactly where you are, what you’re doing, at any given moment? well. no. but if you heavily screen every tiny fraction of your video before even THINKING of posting it, maybe nobody will be able to tell you’re literally sitting inside the taj mahal. posted a makeup tutorial once while she was already wearing a full face of less obvious makeup just because it was funny to her to see comments insisting she was so much prettier “without makeup.” so yeah like everything else in her life she’s found a way to rig this for money and her own personal entertainment

goemon: Nay. you know i don’t personally subscribe to the “goemon cant understand ANY technology he’s so archaic teehee” philosophy, but this ain’t even about that, it’s about the fact that goemon is the only one who’s initial reaction was “you want me, a wanted criminal, tagging the people i have been around and locations i have been to? for ‘clout’????” at best he just uses jigen’s phone to watch random stuff that interests him, and like, he’s not PHYSICALLY RECOILING when fujiko tries to show him a funny tiktok, he enjoys the fun of it. but he’s not making one, and if he has anything to say about it, he will not be featured in lupin’s bullshit

zenigata: doesn’t even have his own. he’s like a background feature when (SURPRISE YATA SNEAK ATTACK) yata posts. yata will be like “wow the louvre!!! look!” and take a lil video and zenigata’s just in the background looking bored out of his mind. in the louvre. he’d never BULLY zeni into participating, but once yata becomes aware of the fact people are playing where’s waldo with his stuff, he might try to have fun with it. q&a with the inspector. share some life advice with the audience. and the whole time zenigata’s like “um. uh. don’t break the… law?” and the commenters eat it UP. zenigata thinks its stupid but he tells yata he’s doing it because yata enjoys it, and that's it. however secretly you know he’d fucking love the attention

so final verdict: unfortunately i believe all of these people would be baffled and horrified if i explained how many times i've rewatched defunctland's disney channel theme video in full. but they could have a little fun with it

[thehydromancer]

Lordship at Last; A Scrub's Tale

After 268 hours (I know) and 173 levels (I KNOW), I finally cleared my first Elden Ring run. I... love it. It took me a long time to realize exactly why, but when it hit me it made perfect sense. The whole game is the Water Temple. I don't think I need to explain that to anyone. A simple statement, but the more you think about it, the implications are layered and sublime. I vaguely recall an ancient game mag interview with some dev or another who, when asked what his dream project would be, described a grittier Zelda with more subtle storytelling and more interesting uses in combat for traditional equipment such as the hookshot. I remember loving the concept, and later Breath of the Wild/Tears of the Kingdom. Elden Ring though feels like the logical conclusion to exploring the freedom and flexibility of modern fantasy adventure games, the masterpiece bookend to the world of possibilities that the OG NES Zelda began to reveal to us.

And what a journey its been. My first Souls-like game, starting out as a bandit named Torrent (IMAGINE MY SURPRISE WHEN THE GAME {I THOUGHT} ADDRESSED MY CHARACTER BY NAME IN THE FIRST FIVE MINUTES!!!), not understanding how shields worked, and grossly under leveling vigor (hell finished with only 40 before hearing after the fact that 60 is typically the goal). Dying to the lake side ruins bats again. And again. And again. Standing in the Church of Elleh thinking I was safe, studying the Limgrave Tree Sentinel with my shiny new telescope, only for it to drop the walls on me. Not understanding how elemental damages work till the last 3rd of the game. Breezing through some bosses only to be kneecapped physically and spiritually again and again by a pair of mangy mutts, cocaine bear, biblically accurate angel bubbles, or simply a zombie holding a torch causally away from their body. Spending the first half of the game dying in numbers that would make Rosus himself say 'hey slow down there partner, thanks for putting my kids through Raya Lucaria with all those runes you lost, but I really need a break.' Forgetting I'd picked up the crystal tear for cleansing during the Mohg fight, instead trying everything up to and including Law of Regression to clear the triple ring status effect during the fight.

Ever so slowly, painfully, learning the ins and outs of the game. Slowly morphing from a dex curved sword user with throwing knives and a bow to a mage knight desperately cheesing his way through the last 60 hours of the game. SO. MUCH. BACKTRACKING. I must have revisited Stormveil over the course of 100 hours, finding something new every time. Exploring every nook and cranny in the world, scrapping runes together as hard as I could in the early game, only to be shocked at how easy leveling became in the second half of the game. Hosting tryouts for every Spirit Ashes like I was assembling the outer-gods-damned Avengers to fight Thanos wielding the Elden Gauntlet. ACCIDENTALLY STUMBLING UPON DRAGON ELDEN LORD, WHOOPS SORRY SIR(S?) DIDN'T MEAN TO DISTURB YOUR ETERNAL TIMELESS SLUMBER! In the end, somehow, managing to defeat all demigods and I'd guess 95% of the bosses in the game. I know I missed a few, and there was 3 or 4 I purposefully decided to ignore for my own sanity (if Blaidd had been half red wolf he'd of been the next Elden Lord I swear).

Bosses that gave me the greatest trouble at the time;

Margit (pretty sure we killed each other at the same time, so I never got his runes)

Godrick (I'd like to think it'd be a different story now that I've developed some skill and muscle memory but boy was this a grind)

Dragon Tree Sentinel guarding Lyndell (probably over 50 deaths, just the worst, only read about the additional summons later!)

The Elden Beast (how do pure melee builds beat this guy!? I had trouble keeping up with it using various ranged spells, the opportunities to stab it felt few and far inbetween)

Bosses that I was shocked at how easy they were based on memes/carbot/the community;

Radahn (only demigod I beat my first time, still an awesome battle)

Placidusax (one of the most enjoyable fights in hindsight, really felt like I was hitting my stride with the ebb and flow of battle finally)

Malenia, Blade of Miquella (in fairness was probably grossly over leveled by this point, downed in 3 or 4 attempts)

Radagon (the cheese was real but I was also serving it)

Special shout out to the meteorite staff and rock sling spell, the true MVPs of my run and the breakers of bosses, especially dragons. The carian knight sword and grandeur skill had an incredible run until I was able to nab the Sword of Night and Flame, and eventually the Dark Moon Greatsword itself, fulfilling my transformation into Fierce Deity Tarnished. Loretta's War Sickle was surprisingly fun as well for non boss fights.

As I look ahead to the DLC and meander/experiment through a NG+ or 3 while I wait, I can't help but wonder, probably a true dark horse theory... are we, the Tarnished, in some way, shape, or form... Miquella? Why would Malenia, instead of seeking him out to rescue her beloved brother, wait for him in the one place she knows he isn't... convinced he'd return... when it was I, Tarnished, all along who returned? Silly I know. But Torrent (I hate that I have to specify this, the horse) also reacted to Torrent (the Tarnished) in a way that felt more meaningful the second time around after having experienced most of the story. Why would Melina choose us (assuming we were her only attempt) over all others? Did she even truly know?

Alright that was a lot. I wish I'd kept a running journal of my play through, there was just so much wonder and discovery. I look forward to picking up Bloodborne and Lies of P to continue feeding my new addiction!

[evelhak]

Well, you asked for it ;)

2, 16, 22, 33, 39, 63, 71

I guess I did. I wish I could return some questions, though. ;)

2. How old are you?

I am sweet 30. And since that's a disappointingly short answer, let me reflect a bit. It's so weird, because before I really became active on tumblr again last year, it never would have even occurred to me that someone would question my presence in a fandom because I'm too old?? (Especially because 30 is still quite young as a human being, and culturally even younger than it was some time ago...) Maybe I just wasn't in the right places, but I honestly never saw it happen before, and all of a sudden I was witnessing and getting really unfair hate because... my brain is fully developed, and I've been around the sun more times than a teenager? Well, the way I see it, and this might not be what some KnB fandom teens want to hear, the characters are now the same age as me, or a year older, depending on how you look at it. Yes, they aged with me in my brain, and that's just as valid a take as pretending fictional characters are forever the age they are in canon. And by the way, you don't lose the right to reflect on your past as you get older, or to vibe with characters who are the age you were in that past and going through similar struggles. This should not be a threat to anyone, this should be a comforting thought. I know I'm preaching to the choir, writing this here, but it's almost every day that I see something that makes it relevant to keep saying these things.

16. Favourite movie?

This is always such a hard question. I have several, but since I have to pick one, let's go with The Railway Man this time. It's different to my other favourites because I've only seen it once, and I can't bring myself to watch it again, because the torture scenes are too much for me to handle. But I think about it constantly. It's based on the true story of a man who initially plans to hunt down his torturer from WWII, but is able to forgive him instead, and hear and understand his side of the war experiences, and his guilt. Not only do they accept each other's apologies, the two become life-long friends. This is by far the most cathartic movie I have ever seen in my life. I cried in my room for an hour after watching it. It simultaneously contains the worst and the best humanity is capable of, and that's what makes it so special, and I'm tearing up now just writing this. Especially because it's based on a true story, this movie is such a lighthouse to me, because it's proof that love and forgiveness and healing beyond comprehension do exist, and I'm not a fool to believe in it, no matter the circumstances.

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

No, I don't think so, by any stretch of imagination. The closest would be me keeping my drunk friends from getting in trouble, by preventing them from picking a fight with a security guard.

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

A smoothie, an avocado toast, and (decaf) coffee (because caffeine gives me panic attacks). Yes, I am such a basic millennial.

39. Do you have any scars?

Yes, many, but most of them are very small. I don't have any interesting stories about them. Ran into something, got hit by something, surgery. Normal things.

63. Biggest Fear?

Losing everyone I love, or a slow and painful death. I don't want to engage my imagination there, but if you imagine the most painful thing that could happen to a human in general, emotionally and physically, for the love of god, don't tell me what it is, but that's probably my worst fear.

71. What makes you nervous?

Being observed closely while I'm doing something for the purpose of evaluation. Having to get something right on the first try. Performing anything physical for the first time. Those job interviews where you have to pretend your interviewers are your students, audience, or clients. Having to advocate for my personal needs, when they are in conflict with the interest of the other person and especially a group. Anything where I have to make sure I'm seen and heard.

Thanks, this was both fun and emotional to reflect on. ♥︎

[silversiren1101]

Let's goo how about 1 and 26 for Minoreg, and 8 and 15 for dracolich?

Hey Cassy! Yay! Questions for both couples! Also, little NSFT :3

1. What, specifically, was the catalyst for their physical attraction (if applicable) to the other character? In other words, what in particular had them like “Oh, they’re…hot…”

Minovae: she pretty much found him attractive from day one. He has a strong jawline, piercing eyes, dark complexion, bright purple hair, and is pretty fit/toned?? I actually have a person headcanon of mine that before he started Bleaching he was absolutely conventionally attractive and got a lot of attention for it and that just annoyed the shit out of him. I've mentioned before I see him as having a nice warm brown skin tone before, so combined with his deep purple hair and what used to be golden eyes? Absolutely was a little dreamboat.

Absolutely drove him crazy.

She, like many others, found him quite attractive from the minute she laid eyes on him.

Funny enough, she actually finds him more attractive with a bit of silver in his hair.

Regill: Golarion's most demisexual and demiromantic man... he knows she's objectively attractive but it does nothing to him until he's actually consciously in love with her. I'm going to let you in on a little dream smut fic of mine I've been rotating in my thoughts for like a year now.

After they kiss and start their relationship, he only figures out he's not 100% asexual when he wakes up in the middle of the night from a rather... colorful... dream, absolutely rock hard and completely bewildered "oh shit... what the fuck." Like, he's not a virgin, but he's never been physically attracted to anyone specifically. He's never fantasized about anyone or seen anyone as sexually or subjectively attractive. It's been over a century since he's had sex, and he fucked when he was younger only out of need of physical release because he had no outright desire otherwise and found the urge itself frustrating and humiliating. Only once he became a Hellknight did he quell those urges completely, but... oh, Mino... it's a massive shock to him and the demisexual panic is real. He tries to just go back to sleep and ignore the dream and the raging hard-on and the wild implications of something he didn't even think possible, but he physically can't because of how uncomfortable and insistent it is. Has to take care of it and he immediately finds his thoughts just filled with trying to figure out how she sounds when she moans and imaging her blissful face and her in the throes of pleasure and it's game over for him, lmao! He has such a hard time looking her in the face the next day.

Funny thing is, she's been doing much the same on her end pretty much every night.

26. They have an argument with their partner—what is it about? Do things stay respectful, or is there some shouting and accusing going on?

They are both extremely respectful in their disagreements. She knows him so very well, and knows how he's changed but also how he used to be, and understands he's at a crossroads with her having come back to him and he's trying to grasp some of his old brightness and pull himself from the grave he was sliding into before. Their arguments usually revolve around how they would handle a situation in their duties as Hellknights and military leaders. As both lawful people, they almost always agree when something is a crime. They disagree about how something should be solved. You know: execution vs rehabilitation, understanding the extenuating circumstances and intent vs. outcome... She remembers he wasn't always as harsh as he is now and he has opinions on how merciful she is, but also knows if her judgement is ever proven wrong she will take full responsibility and whatever blow herself.

The only time they've ever really had a real bad fight was the night they got together, when emotions were raw and so much catharsis was needed from how badly he was hurting from her cruelty beforehand (maddened beast) and his own confusion with his emotions. They only get close to that again when her martrydom-tendencies arise, leading to him getting stern and raising his voice to make her see reason (because gods, she has given enough of herself and if anyone deserves rest, it's her).

Later on, any 'arguments' are mostly civil disagreements on their parenting, lol. Regill is a pretty protective parent to their daughter while she is a "let them make mistakes and figure it out" one. They always have each other's backs and provide a united front to their little girl but in private they definitely have rather inspired talks on raising Jesyll and what is okay for her and what isn't (in their eyes).

Dracolich time.

8. What scares them about entering a relationship?

LMAO. Wow so much.

Morolai: Their relationship starts purely sexual and with massive power imbalance because of her absolute control as dom and sadism. Maegar was a moron but quite attractive, and now there's a more interesting being inside of that very hot body that is her new favorite toy to pester and bully. She has no fears about this sexual relationship: she's beat him once and knows she can pretty effortlessly kill him on her own if he so much as raises a finger against her. He lives because she allowed it and will die if she demands it, you know? When things start to shift to "uh oh that wasn't hate sex" right after the canon events of the game end, that's when she gets scared. What is she feeling? Why? WITH HIM?! AN ANCIENT PATHETIC CYCLOPS LICH?? MY FUCKING ANIMATE SEX TOY (that also makes me laugh and has really great riveting conversations to talk to and remarkably witty and so very loyal--)!?She is fearful of being subservient in anyway, losing power and control, being vulnerable, etc. But she is also far too arrogant and stubborn to bow down to even her own fear. Fine, so she doesn't hate him and isn't totally disgusted, is even a little endeared by this wretched creature who amuses her so much and also learned how to please her like such a loyal pup.

Vordakai: Ahahaha, so please remember he is canonically the weakest and most pathetic of his 'class' of acolytes. He only stole the title of Vordakai from the real Vordakai because he survived Earthfall by pure fucking luck. I really play up how pathetic he is so... absolute virgin. Taking Maegar's body for himself, and said body is VERY into Morolai and finds her immensely attractive is where his troubles begin and the humiliation and fear starts. What the fuck is he feeling? Why is this body doing this? Why is it around her? This gross disgusting fleshy body disobeying his control and giving in to impulse! Especially once she realizes it and physically teases him to the point he willingly approaches her for more, he's terrified and horny, horny because he's terrified and terrified because he's horny; vicious cycle. Eventually though he figures out the pattern: be a good pet and get rewarded. Sometimes she's into it enough he gets a little more than before, gets to see a little more of her own pleasure and enjoyment and for some reason that's... he's very curious about it all.

By the time the weird feelings-not-feelings start, he's not scared of them anymore so much as he's just, like, dissecting everything like a bug. Morolai is his queen, his gilded cage, the name that replaced his god in his mind as a dark and terrible mortal goddess. He's treading dangerous ground but ultimately knows he lives only by her right and... well he might as well enjoy it, because she is a worthy mistress.

So... I hesitate to call it love they feel, or a romantic relationship. They enter into a forever-companionship where they fuck and enjoy each other's presence, and understand each other and their secrets against the rest of the world around them. She is absolutely in charge and has all the power still, but rather than it being a captive and captor thing she's kind of replaced his fervent worship of Charon in his mind and everything he does with and to her is out of a very fucked up sense of devotion.

15. What, for them, constitutes a level of intimacy that they would only rarely share with someone? This can be physical, emotional, etc.

Morolai: It's all about power with Vordakai and constantly asserting her dominance and that she doesn't fear him. Part of this is actually purposefully displaying vulnerabilities around him or letting her guard! She is so self-assured in her power and his inability to kill her that she do such a thing almost to rub it into his face... at first. At some point it becomes genuine.

One of the big moments is when her wings first appear, violently erupting from her back during the fight with Armag in his tomb. They are extremely painful until the skin around the exit-holes scars over, and that first night back she's soaking in her private tub for hours just trying to soothe the pain. She summons him in the middle of the night to demand her rub in a magic healing poultice into her back the wings right where they emerged. So, laying flat on her front on her bed, totally nude and clearly in pain and weak, she allows him to straddle her and care for her wings in such a way when they're so sensitive and painful.

It's definitely one of the first moments of "devotion" that solidifies in his mind, an act of loyalty and genuine devotion to his queen and mistress. She trusted him with this. He's been a good pet. Especially since he gets rewarded for that, too.

Aside from that, letting him be on top is the biggest thing for them. Her giving up control and letting him worship her in that way solidifies their relationship and his loyalty as her supplicant and companion.

Vordakai: Well, she knows what he is first of all. This one I'm still working on, but... he tells her his real name. Vordakai is a stolen name from his master who perished in Earthfall, so he had to have a real name before that. The curse Tristian placed on him worked because he made Vordakai his whole being to the point that it supplanted his actual name as a "true name", but he does remember his original one. Eventually, she is granted the honor of knowing it.

She refers to him only as Maegar Varn and that name from then on, which actually means a lot because the curse on him lasts for as long as anyone knows the name Vordakai. Her not spreading knowledge of the name "Vordakai" is kind of working in his favor, which she does willingly.

From this list of questions!

[sarah-dipitous]

Hellsite Nostalgia Tour 2023 Day 139

Defending Your Life/Cold Blood

Mmmm, so, if it feels like I'm not invested in these episodes because I don't say much, it's because the two small highlights of my day could not go toe to toe with the avalanche of bullshit I had to put up with at work today. Like, no doubt they were nice, but the number of times I got interrupted with one task because people are impatient (read: can't wait more than five LITERAL seconds) and the woman I was working with was slow as hell (like, physically would not do her job with any haste in order to take any amount of pressure off of me who was already helping the greater portion of clients, had to tackle all of the "coming back from vacation" things, AND kept having people bring new issues and items to my desk), so that's gonna be my defense if this is not what it normally is

"Defending Your Life"

Plot Descriptions: Sam and Dean investigate murders of people who have their guilty pasts come back and kill them. Could Dean be next?

Would I Survive the First Five Minutes??: HOW guilty does your past have to be? I'm just saying. We're all guilty of things. How bad do those things have to be to warrant this? Because I don't think I've done anything that would necessitate it

You're right. It IS weird that you're working a normal case. It's been FOREVER.

God. Can't wait for Sam to find out what Dean did to Amy. That'll end well.

How recently did the guy know he was going to die? He paid for three years worth of flowers for the grave of a girl it definitely seems like he accidentally killed. So I guess, it has to be THAT bad.

That dog just teleported through that wall...to kill a dude at a diner. Sure, why not?

How the absolute fuck is this happening?? So. These people go to a random apple farm and a random bar and then all of a sudden, they're marked for death???

Bet it's not a ghost and it doesn't sound like a demon, so I don't think this guy is all that protected

So, is it the bartender or the guy in the baseball cap who got JUST ENOUGH screen time but didn't actually say anything?

Omg Dean...........psyching himself up to potentially get laid. It's......it's kind of adorable, honestly

Ruh roh. Dean got taken...so, it looks like the guy in the baseball cap is Osiris because Sam's on the phone with the bartender

Yeah, I told you that salt wasn't gonna do shit

This is FASCINATING. Do Egyptian gods have to abide by American law?? Sam's trying to play lawyer for Dean, and it's...not going well. He was, after all, just pre law.

Osiris isn't exactly playing fair in this trial with his witness calling and questioning. (Unless he calls Amy...)

Yeah...Dean knows he fucked up there. So now he's been sentenced to die (what else is new for the Winchesters??)

Why would Osiris send Jo to kill Dean when she never blamed him. That's......a lot.

Cool cool cool. Glad we're still keeping this whole Amy thing a secret.

Wonder how that's going to shake out, Sam not feeling guilt about his past anymore...

"Cold Blood"

Plot Description: The Silurians are awake, and angry. The Silurians are preparing for war, a war that could decide who gets to live on earth, The Silurians or-the humans...

Genuinely love how tough Amy acts when she really just got lucky.

It's hard to feel like the Silurian they have captive is wrong...do I like her actions? No. This man had no idea that there was a whole underground civilization that...seems to have been driven there by humans long ago. BUT...her rage is understandable

There's so much set up and it's kind of boring (or I'm tired, who's to say?) but I also can't find it in me to just dictate the action either

Amy and the guy who was taken at the beginning of last episode have found the Silurian army, they're poised for war but they're not doing anything yet.........no one seems to be ACTUALLY DOING ANYTHING. The Doctor's trying to convince someone he's not human, Rory's just apologizing for not being the police (never apologize for that, babes), and another dude is dying of Silurian poisoning.........but they're all moving so freaking slowly

This woman is having one of the worst run of days. My day seems like a walk in the park compared to having your husband and son abducted and your dad poisoned all by the same species who are now trying to wage war on yours.

Yeah...she...fucked it up for everyone. Sure she only used a taser, but damn...you REALLY REALLY fucked up

It does suck that this ONE Silurian wanted the war and orchestrated the start to it.

It's sad watching this negotiation session for a couple reasons: 1. that one lady's actions are going to fuck it all up, and 2. the lady scientist's only concern is how allotting space for the Silurians to come up to the surface to live is what benefit could the possibly bring to humans? And it's giving really gross vibes.

OMG, this woman is the WORST. She's going about all of this in all the wrong ways.

Yeah, I love the optimism here, but it is naive (or I'm cranky). This one kid would be at best made fun of forever for trying to convince people that lizard people live under the Earth's crust and we need to prepare to share the world with them.

Man...if the Doctor hadn't stopped to investigate the crack, Rory would be alive right now

[rexismycopilot]

Rex's Master List of Fics & WIPs

I've had a couple requests for a master list of fics, so hopefully this is helpful :D I've tried to organize it in a logical way, but... it's hard...

I also added the prompts/WIPs I'm working on :)

Smut

Top!Obi-Wan/Bottom!Anakin

i've been waiting for you Rating: E Summary: Anakin and Obi-Wan's relationship is relatively new and Anakin is unsure of how to ask for what he wants.

quiet the mind and the soul will speak Rating: E Summary: Anakin struggles with meditation. Obi-Wan helps him see the good in him.

a lesson learned is a lesson earned Rating: E Summary: Anakin learns a lesson and Obi-Wan learns one too.

to love is to trust Rating: E Summary: Obi-Wan and Anakin navigate their first mission together after starting a romantic relationship

no gift is more precious than trust Rating: E Summary: Obi-Wan and Anakin continue their sexual exploration

easy isn't always simple Rating: E Summary: Anakin finally gets what he's been asking for

jealousy is the path to chaos Rating: E Summary: Anakin and Obi-Wan find themselves on a diplomatic mission to Mandalore where Anakin must deal with his jealousy of Satine.

most powerful is he who controls his own power Rating: E Summary: Obi-Wan worries a little too much, but not when it comes to making sure Anakin is safe and comfortable.

choose what is right, not what is easy Rating: E Summary: Anakin doesn't use his safeword when he should have.

a true heart should never be doubted Rating: E Summary: Anakin notices all the little things Obi-Wan does for him

to seek something is to believe in its possibility Rating: E Summary: Anakin teases Obi-Wan to get what he wants. Spoiler alert: it works.

struggles often begin and end with the truth Rating: E Summary: Anakin has a backlog of mission reports. Obi-Wan helps him out.

where there's a will, there's a way (chapter 1) Rating: E Summary: Anakin can't seem to stop his mouth from running in Obi-Wan's presence. Obi-Wan is having none of it.

those who enforce the law must obey the law Rating: E Summary: Anakin tries to break Obi-Wan out of his bad mood, but his first attempt goes awry.

what can go wrong will (chapters 2,3,4,5,6) Rating: E Summary: Five times they try something new and things go (slightly) awry and one time they try something new and it goes very right.

deception: epilogue Rating: E Summary: Anakin and Obi-Wan renew the physical part of their relationship after Rako Hardeen

understanding is honoring the truth beneath the surface (chapter 1) Rating: E Summary: Anakin asks Obi-Wan to take control.

who a person truly is cannot be seen with the eye Rating: E Summary: Anakin purposely avoids doing what Obi-Wan tells him to do.

great hope can come from small sacrifices (chapter 2) Rating: E Summary: When Anakin and Obi-Wan are captured by Dooku, they must keep their relationship a secret.

fail with honor rather than succeed by fraud (chapter 1) Rating: E Summary: Anakin tries to be in charge for once, but Obi-Wan doesn't give in easily.

honesty exists beyond the most intricate truths Rating: E Summary: Obi-Wan makes Anakin's fantasies come true. Lots of aftercare ensues.

disobedience is a demand for change Rating: E Summary: Anakin acts like a brat for feeling guilty about something. Obi-Wan gives Anakin what he's looking for.

there is no heart for me like yours Rating: E Summary: Anakin wasn't even aware what he was doing, but everything Anakin did was turning Obi-Wan on like a switch. When they are finally alone, Obi-Wan makes sure he knows the effect he has on Obi-Wan.

to love is to burn, to be on fire Rating: E Summary: Anakin and Obi-Wan attend the coronation of a queen of Naboo.

faint with love Rating: E Summary: Anakin catches Obi-Wan teaching younglings and realizes how much he loves certain qualities of Obi-Wan's.

fear not for the future, weep not for the past Rating: E Summary: Anakin still feels guilty about their argument and wants to make it up to Obi-Wan.

to be loved is to be fully seen and known Rating: E Summary: Anakin tries to get alone time with his hand, but keeps getting interrupted. Eventually he succeeds, but realizes he wants a little more.

Top!Anakin/Bottom!Obi-Wan

a plan is only as good as those who see it through Rating: E Summary: Anakin tries to show Obi-Wan what he sees.

what can go wrong will (chapter 1) Rating: E Summary: Five times they try something new and things go (slightly) awry and one time they try something new and it goes very right.

fail with honor rather than succeed by fraud (chapter 2) Rating: E Summary: Anakin tries to be in charge for once, but Obi-Wan doesn't give in easily.

Hurt/Comfort

a great student is what the teacher hopes to be Rating: M Summary: Anakin has doubts about how to be a good master for Ahsoka. Obi-Wan is there to help.

arrogance diminishes wisdom Rating: T Summary: Anakin underestimates a pirate threat while on a mission. Obi-Wan and Ahsoka are there to rescue him.

accepting help is harder than offering it Rating: G Summary: When Anakin returns from a dire mission, Obi-Wan must cope with his unexpected emotions.

he who faces himself, finds himself Rating: T Summary: Anakin finally confesses to Obi-Wan the dreams he's been having.

adaptation is the key to survival Rating: T Summary: A mission goes wrong and Obi-Wan and Anakin are stranded when Anakin falls ill. And then Obi-Wan catches it too.

who we are never changes, who with think we are does Rating: M Summary: Obi-Wan shows his insecurities. Anakin helps him feel better about it.

understanding is honoring the truth beneath the surface (chapter 2) Rating: E Summary: Anakin asks Obi-Wan to take control.

where we are going always reflects where we came from Rating: G Summary: Obi-Wan struggles with bad memories from his past.

when we rescue others, we rescue ourselves Rating: G Summary: Anakin disobeys during a mission and is injured in the process.

great hope can come from small sacrifices (chapter 1) Rating: E Summary: When Anakin and Obi-Wan are captured by Dooku, they must keep their relationship a secret.

the first step to correcting a mistake is patience Rating: T Summary: Obi-Wan helps Anakin relax after a trying mission.

the wise benefit from a second opinion Rating: E Summary: Obi-Wan feels guilty when Anakin uses his safeword.

facing all that you fear will free you from yourself Rating: G Summary: Anakin begins having panic attacks. Obi-Wan tries to help.

without darkness there cannot be light Rating: G Summary: Anakin experiences sensory overload after coming home from a mission.

who you were does not define who you are Rating: M Summary: Anakin begins skipping strategy meetings and lying to Obi-Wan about it. Obi-Wan finds out.

balance is found in the one who faces his guilt Rating: T Summary: Anakin goes on a questionable personal mission for the Chancellor. The Council does not approve.

you are the first victim of your own anger Rating: T Summary: When Obi-Wan assumes Anakin is looking for trouble, Obi-Wan supplies him with the release he thinks Anakin is looking for, but things don't go quite right the first time around.

a failure in planning is a plan for failure Rating: E Summary: Anakin and Obi-Wan are interrupted by their comms just as they are getting started

Fluff

a secret shared is a trust formed Rating: T Summary: Anakin indulges a little too much and can't seem to stop talking about Obi-Wan... especially to his padawan.

every home has a heart Rating: M Summary: Every home has a heart. In Anakin's, it's the couch. Five times Anakin and Obi-Wan use the couch and one time they don't.

unfinished business Rating: G Summary: When Obi-Wan, Anakin, and Ahsoka visit a moon for a recon mission, they find out a secret fear of Obi-Wan's.

always on my mind, always in my heart Rating: G Summary: Anakin and Obi-Wan spar - Obi-Wan cares for Anakin.

TCW Arcs

deception Rating: M Summary: Obi-Wan is involved in a covert scheme to save the Chancellor, but must keep the majority of the details from Anakin.

AUs

Stay Next To Me Rating: E Summary: Obi-Wan has recently gotten out of a long-term relationship and joins Grindr with a friend's insistence. But he seems to be falling for the relentlessly teasing barista at the local coffee shop.

I'm the Satellite and You're the Sky Rating: E Summary: Ahsoka finds she is not quite as well-suited for an elective college course as she thought and hires a tutor to help her through it. Anakin quickly falls head over heels for him.

WIPs/Prompts (in no particular order)

Anakin uses his safe word, but Obi-Wan doesn't hear it

Child of the force

Obi-Wan needs affection (5+1)

Satine's death

Zygerria

Anakin has a panic attack during battle

Quinlan returns to the temple for a mission

Jedi Obi-Wan/Sith Anakin

Sith Obi-Wan

"Stay Next To Me" Anakin POV

Personal trainer AU

Anakin has a panic attack during a Council meeting and storms off

Post Shadow Warrior Arc

Obi-Wan drinks alone

Anakin's arm

Anakin or Obi-Wan uses their safeword in a battle

Anakin & Obi-Wan fight (really bad) & angry fuck then soft fuck

Anakin & Obi rough fuck

Anakin questions if Obi-Wan likes their relationship