#do not clown in my notes I s2g

[demonicintegrity]

Just saw a tiktok comment that said “it’d be great if people got over 9/11 as fast as they get over school shootings.”

And I’m not gonna lie, that stunned me. Holy shit that was a comment. That did shift my perspective on things so I looked up a few things:

Death toll of 9/11: 2,977

Number of anti Muslim hate crime in 2001: 481 (it was just 28 incidents the year before.) (and 2015 anti Muslim hate crime jumped to post 9/11 levels and then anti-Muslims assaults surpassed the 9/11 levels in 2016) I tried finding if there was a death toll associated with this but couldn’t.

Hate crime instances in 2021 alone (for any reason): 7,262

Death toll from school shootings (includes suicides and domestic violence): 279

Total death toll from Covid-19 in the US alone: 1,174,691 (do you remember hearing “a 9/11 a day” at some point? Cuz I do)

I can’t find an exact number of people who’ve died as a result of roe v wade being overturned but I know there are deaths because of it.

Death toll of Hurricane Katrina: 1,245-1,836

Death toll of HIV/AIDS: 65,000 in 1995 alone, 675,000 total now

And I want to be clear: I’m not trying to rank any of these tragedies as more devastating than the others. All of them are horrific and tragic for their own reasons. All of them deserve the grief and mourning that comes with them. But only one of them is given the most attention. A national remembrance every year, written into the curriculum of schools, and never allowed to be scoffed at or joked about. Only one of them explicitly told to never be forgotten.

But everything else is allowed to be brushed off, even when the effects are felt currently. When I was a child I didn’t worry about terrorism, I worried about school shootings. Because they were happening. Sometimes even the county right beside mine, sometimes my school would go on lockdown for an outside incident. But people would swear up and down until they were blue in the face that I and my peers were being over dramatic. (But god forbid we didn’t give 9/11 the respect it deserved. God forbid we didn’t stand for the pledge.)

I got scoffed at by my mom when I said I have to consider politics when thinking about where I want to live because I’m queer. That wasn’t a real issue.

These are all real issues. But only one is given the national attention of being a real issue. Hell if you bring up any of the other ones it’s only a matter of time before someone says “you’re living in the past” or “that’s just how it is.” And I think that makes reconsidering how we address things as a country.

[straykats]

kat talks: circus

if you're unfamiliar, it's just my reactions to the songs/mvs. i'll update it with the rest of the album (including jpn vers) when they're out!

circus

okay so this is my second listen but i wasn't really paying attention the first time due to circumstances lol

is the opening... beatboxing? i think it is???

changbin never fails to impress i swear and also his HAIR

also the whispers >>>

HAHAHA the ??? the sound just before lix's part HAHAHA its such a *pokes tongue out mockingly* kind of thing like really childish

lix's outfit is my absolute fav i s2g

??? hyunjins??? tone???? tone or timbre i always get cONFUSED BUT I LOVE IT

side note but since oddinary i think hyunjin has really.. solidified (?) as a rapper? not that he wasn't a good rapper before (and who am i to say any of this, anyways) but his raps in oddinary (venom, muddy water) and in circus really have like. a Him touch to it (capital H for god Him Hyunjin coincidence i think not)

okay i never manage to explain this properly but i love the. sound distribution. idk. from the beginning to minho's "bring out the fire" and then to lix's bit. in the beginning, the sound distribution/layout or whatever goes from being very forward-central to then being closer to the centre but wider (like.. an amphitheatre???? like a U shape infront of the centre???) and then when it gets to lix's it becomes a very full sound (like a D??????) man idk okay 😭

imagine like. a netball or bb hoop right and the D around the hoop. the beginning is a line of three people standing at the top of the D, infront of the hoop, and then "bring out the fire" is a line of people along the D-line, and then lix's bit is everyone running towards the goal so that it's full??????????????????? anyways moving on.

idk what minho says between lix and hyunjin's bit but its the cherry on top ok

the prechorus WAIT i love. i love how jeongin's two lines descend at different intervals. um. im forgetting how to describe things. but like. the second time it descends differently. like it goes (incorrect notes) 1-6-4 1-5-3??? i think

side note 2: i want this so bad to be a c harmonic minor but idk i havent done the whole thing yet i've only figured out jeongin's prechor lines. but i dont think the songs harmonic :(

(update: it's... f.. minor???????)

seungmin's 'round and round and round and round' reminds me of. gods menu

WAIT wait was that the prechor or is sung's bit the prechor idk i LOVE love sungs bit

wait im so confused about the song structure i need tor elisten later AHHAA

the change when it goes to changbins bit??? digging it so bad man

why do they keep doing the cutouts of minho AHAHA i mean we love him

WAIIIIIIT SO sung's top is like. long. and has the detailing at the bottom and then theres a corset /over/ it OHHH i thought it was all attached JDKSDJK

also i love the bass in sungs bit and the way he ends his verse

MINHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO yes

circus so they included minho's nat geo dance thingy w the hands to clown him methinks (jkjk)

wait. jisung eyeliner?

chan maam who put u in that jacket and tie (?) combo 😭😭

CENTRE JEONGIN IS SO FUCKING GOOD

i love hyunjin's cropped blazer w the chain SOOOOO much more than the dual-texture (?) jacket blazer thing w the tassels

all the cropped blazers in here are making me crazy i love it

texture change for the bridge i love it and i love the texture at jeongin's bit even more like thats so GOOD the cymbal is NJDVKSNVSDK i love lvoe

shut up the shot of minho lowering the hands

YESSS THE LAUGH AND THE CIRCUS THEME

there are so many kids

WAIT. wait. i need to rewatch us (the movie) i htink it might be an us reference

overall i LOVE it and i would love to hear a drum and slap bass cover but i also would love to hear drum and slap bass covers of every song in human history so

your eyes

can't believe i'm subjecting myself to this mv again NJVFKVSK havent listened to it a second time since lol

young wings keys but sadder

the melody.. reminds me of smth... like. either slice of life anime ending or an extremely long shounen anime ending (im looking at naruto and fairy tail)

but hey hyun vocals <3 <3 <3

chans high notes <3 <3 <3

WAIT THERE ARE STRINGSS skz orchestra arrangements when (i can make a whople separate post about orchestral arrangements for skz songs)

@ changbins verse: that is a very tangy (i forgot the word but it sounds like tangy) guitar

but the transition between lix and bin's verses was so seamless wtf

sung rapping in semiquavers broke down the flow so nice imo. idk if i said that right

@ jeongin's verse... the backing vocals... chan...? but it almost sounds like minho when it's higher. the lower "ohh" sounds like channo

okay not that i don't enjoy the song but i just really dont have as much to comment on fndjskfdsj

(okay tbc w the other songs when they come out!)

[fax-mach1n3]

AWAE 3x09

Spoilers, swearing, and post-episode thoughts below the cut

- oh i don't like this - this hurts

- i know this is what happened, and that people didn't have the opportunity to come back like ka’kwet did - fuck - oh boy its gonna be HEAVY episode - imagine being that actor, any of those actors, and have to face what happened to your poeple so head on - anne-girl that person doesn't need three spoons! - oh she's gone - me too marilla - whomp there it is - marilla is all of us - YESSSS MARILLA - oh my god is this your first time saddling a horse anne - MATTHEW - the only one we trust - god damn gil - diana's house??? - what on earth gil - minnie mae WHAT! - colour me CONFUSED - STOP HIM DI - oh jesus thake the wheel - oh this is happening just like i thought it would! bash and anne's mom <3 - oh my lord he's gonna find it after he proposes - PEN! - NO show the name you silly girl - do not let him leave diana - MINNE MAE IT'S ON YOU - GOD DAMN CHILD, you were my hope - oh these bastards - nononononononono - HIDE YOURSELF KA’KWET - ohhhhhh no - the ink is gonna run, why can't we have nice things - oof, way to play yourself hazel - can't decide if i ship it - don't think i do? - friends friends freinds - ahhh yes think hard on that bash - HE'S still here! can still find the note! - ahhh yes think hard on that gil - eww billy why are you still alive - HA well done gil - MATTHEW! THE ONLY VALID PERSON - wait are they only saving ka’kwet though - g r o w t h for marilla - THE NOTE - i s2g ms stacey don't fuck this up - NO - oh my god - everything is for naught - the nooooooote - marilla you a mess girl - gil my friend if you're this conflicted about marrying winnie,... maybe ... you should... not - what is on the bottom of everything that makes it so sticky! - god - ficking - dammit - everything is such a mess. anne thinks she's in the clear and gilbert will know how she feels, meanwhile gil knows shit all bc he dumb bby - this ka’kwet line is KILLING ME

- no don't send them to the door! - y'all this is such a shitty time in history - there was no mistake - these ppl are quite evil - matthew! you're such a hero, literally the most outspoken he's ever been - you evil bitch - nope nope - my lawd they are legit gonna die - the priest is still here - write a letter! matthew you freaking machine - mother fuck - alright i know im all shirbert crazy, but this show, especially the residential school storyline is so important to see in this light. as something that everyone dealt with. the majority of poeople, like anne marilla etc can see that this is wrong. but so many 'important' people allowed and encouraged this treatment of families and children. - this is fucking brutal. imagine being those actors - oh gil you ignorant slut - um FUCK - nononono - oh jesus the miscommunication is almost too much - YES ASK HIM ANNE - oml she's gonna miss him on his way - this show doesn't pull punches does it - fucking tragic - hazel i forgive you - FIND THE NOTE ANNE - go to him anne! - OH MY HEART - oh jesus - NO - NO - NO

END OF EPISODE THOUGHTS - ok i straight up CLOWNED hoping for resolution in this one. - the moments gil had throughout the episode seemed a little bit like he was getting ready to say goodbye to Anne and that HURTS - fricking BAITED with Diana, Marilla, and Anne know about the gilbert situation and not TALKING TO HIM - Anne going to talk to him at the end is such a ballsy move and mad respect - seeing winnie at the end really fucked with my brain. she's so happy to see him i feel so bad - that entire end scene cutting from ka’kwet to anne to gil WRECKED ME - matthew lives to see another day and my theory (thankfully) is shot to shreds

- i really really like that the show has chosen to focus on more than just the character relationships and tackle some heavy issues. it makes for some strange mood swings but i think they’re striking a nice balance - the finale is going to either be the best or worst thing we've ever seen, can't wait to hurt again

Let me know what you thought of the episode!

[utterlynotperfect]

Anne With An E Season Finale: Thoughts

Warning: here there be spoilers. Also, long.

Just adding that gif because it is sheer poetry.

Winnifred Rose

I felt absolutely awful for her. Obviously Shirbert was endgame but Winnifred has never been shown to be anything but lovely and clever and supportive (and also funny!), and she absolutely did not deserve that.

I’m actually glad that Moira and co didn’t let Gilbert off the hook re: his entanglement with Winnie. He did lead her on, he did give her every reason to think he was going to propose. I’ve read some (perfectly lovely) fanfics where Winnie turns out to be a closeted lesbian and/or she’s the one who tells Gilbert to pursue Anne- while the lesbian angle would have been interesting (although only if they were going to keep Winnie’s character around), Gilbert deserved to be confronted with the knowledge that in his ignorance and haste, he ended up hurting someone who’d done nothing to deserve it. Winnie’s grief and humiliation are so very real issues that a woman of that time would have had to deal with, especially after having been so publicly courted by a suitor- her family was ready to pay for his education, for god’s sake! 

I’m not thrilled that Anne’s knowledge of Gilbert’s un-engaged status came from Winnie- it should’ve come from him. But that was clearly a ‘parallels’ writing choice, and we got to see Amybeth in that stunning disheveled hairstyle, so I won’t complain too much.

 Diana at Queen’s

I thoroughly enjoyed her parents’ rant- very typical of the time and the characters- but Diana’s passionate eloquence seems to desert her when faced with standing up for herself. She made the beginnings of a case for her higher education- I think it was in the first episode?- but her recent coping/argument strategy seems to be getting angry and running away to cry. It’s not really the kind of development I saw coming for her. 

Dalila’s had some wonderful breakout moments this season- the argument with Anne being the highlight- and I’d have liked to see her take everything she’s learned from Anne, Aunt Jo, Cole, and even her mis-handling of Jerry’s feelings, in order to argue as eloquently for herself as she does for Anne. 

I also really wanted her to flat-out tell her parents that she’ll ask Aunt Jo to pay for it if they won’t. And Aunt Jo backing her up because of course she would. 

Post-Marilla and Mrs Barry’s ‘let them go’ talk, I’d have liked to see the Barrys come around, rather than just have Diana just show up at the boarding house with her dad as jocular as ever. I mean, like ten minutes ago, he was yelling that he wouldn’t let her go to college! Not a great choice there by the writers. 

Elijah

It felt a little out of the blue, to be honest, but with so many storylines and such a large cast, that’s to be expected. I really liked the way this one was handled, though, especially the way Gilbert mostly stayed out of it. And that line from Hazel was beautiful. Isn’t Anne’s entire world about the importance of change, and learning?

Couldn’t find that adorable moment where Delly smiles at Elijah, but this is just as good <3 Cutest baby to ever grace our screens.

Matthew and Anne

Hooo boy was this a doozy. I have to say I didn’t see this coming, but I guess we’re way overdue for a Matthew screw-up vis-a-vis Anne’s feelings- Marilla’s had ‘learning moments’ enough! 

I literally cried. RH Thompson is just the most perfect Matthew, and he just bleeds love for Anne in every shot. His attempts to be ‘practical’ so as not to give Anne reasons to miss them are so ham-handed, only a sixteen year old girl with serious abandonment issues and a penchant for drama could misunderstand. And she did! The look on her face when she said ‘So you’ll be getting a boy after all’ is everything awful in the world.

As with every Anne/Matthew emotional scene, their make-up was perfect. Honestly, every man should take lessons on how to apologise from Matthew Cuthbert, First ‘I think you’ve heard enough from men on this topic’, and now a proper apology? Perfect man. 

Diana Takes No Prisoners, Mr Blythe

The fury of the kindred spirit! Gilbert Blythe had nowhere to hide (or look, or a chance to get a word in edgewise) as Diana Barry gave him the Rant that every one of us has wanted to all season! 

Look at the way her face twists. Rewatch, and luxuriate in the way she tears into this clown who has hurt her best friend. I s2g most people might want a Gilbert but I want a Diana. Further proof that you don’t need a horse, a sword, or even goddamn pants to be a knight. 

I’m not even going to talk about the ‘note’ reveal. For me, that wasn’t the point. 

Lineage

I did wonder what had become of Anne’s quest to know more about her beginnings and her parents- I really hoped it hadn’t just gotten ‘fridged’ amid all the other storylines- and now i see why they’d left it alone. It belongs in this episode- this is the one about the future and family. Be it Elijah’s resolution, or ‘spread our wings and soar’, Diana’s choices for her future, Matthew/Anne/Marilla’s love, and the choice to have her found family with her as she opened the letter (which I adored), family and the future are the two overarching themes of this episode, so Anne’s quest belongs here.

Mrs Thomas was hilarious, particularly because of Marilla’s reactions to her. The reference to ‘Katie’ led them to the book! One of the saddest manifestations of Anne’s orphanhood, leading them to her birth family. Beautiful parallel there. 

My mother was a teacher. Juniper. Red hair. I don’t have anything to say. All of that was... sublime. Especially Anne discovering all these things with Matthew and Marilla on either side. So, so, so worth every tear. 

All in all, the most heartwarming resolution to the overarching ‘family’ theme. 

And now...

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.

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SHIRBERT!!!!!

We got the kiss! Oh no, two! Wait, three! Oh man, I don’t normally analyse onscreen kisses, but this one. Gilbert kisses like a boy who knows, he kisses her like he’s saying the word finally. He kisses her like every moment since they met has been leading up to this one, even if at the time, he thought it was leading away. And Anne kisses him like can’t I just... kiss him, like when someone loves you, you’ll be kissed. Like finally. 

Started from the bottom...

Now we here

I can’t believe I waited for this, I prepared, I steeled myself...

And I wasn’t ready!!

So, in conclusion:

It was a really good episode, could’ve been great if Diana’s Anne-centric backbone had extended to herself. Shirbert is real, Amybeth can really rock the 1900s fashions, Moira handled the ‘family’ theme exactly as well as we’ve come to expect her to, and now we understand, viscerally, how these two had seven kids. 

Seriously, with a first kiss like that, we get it. 

I hoped we get a season 4- Ka’kwet’s storyline needs to be properly wrapped up (hasn’t it been two weeks), I want to see Josie Pye and Prissy Andrews’ friendship blossom over beaux and business studies, I want Jane to grow the hell up, I want to know which Paul Tillie’s going to choose, I want to see Ruby and Moody- the loveable idiots. I want Cole to get a boyfriend, to see Delly grow up black in a white village.... I want Anne and Gilbert to navigate the pitfalls of being childhood sweethearts as well as ambitious, clever people (especially an ambitious, clever woman of the time). I want them to have everything (including those seven kids. Lol).

What do you think, kindred spirits?

[kassna]

The Rogue One novel, schaloime and I: A Christmas cry fest

Sooo around Christmas I read the Rogue One novelization. And because I lost it at the first few pages already I decided that I couldn’t suffer through this perfection alone and started texting quotes and comments to @schaloime​ (mainly KRENNIC ALL THE WAY)... And, well. I don’t want to lose this list of hilarity and heartbreak, so I’m posting it now for everyone’s amusement. :D (Comments are of course translated from a wild English/German mix and a bit edited, but convey the fun we’ve had really well. X’D)

This book gets a very high recommendation from me, just saying before the cut! I love it to pieces, it even made my second trip to the cinema a lot better and gave me so much! 11/10 pathetic wine mom Orsons, would (and will) read again

(Come yell with me about it, please!)

He had killed a city. He could kill a world.

Boy, Krennic is such a pathetic squabbling schoolboy X'D lots of fun when he’s pleased about something he did well, like "I AM THE MASTER OF THE UNIVERSE fuck off Tarkin noooo" When they’re in the same room he’s always THIS CLOSE to stomping his foot, crossing his arms and whining                   

He felt like he finally deserved some attention from the emperor.

What is this book. Help.

[insert a lot of fangirling about the way the characters are written, how you’re in a different head with each part/chapter and how they all have clearly different ways of thinking and decision-making]

He’d settled himself in his seat with a glass of wine and a datapad by the time they’d left the docking bay.

Already the second scene in which Krennic lounges around and drinks wine. (This time the flight to Eadu, first time was after work on the Death Star. He also apparently likes to walk miles and miles through the construction and is quite pleased about having built all this and knowing every lil detail.)

Galen Erso, whom he’d given every chance. Galen Erso, whom he’d nearly died for once on that sad scrap of farmland. “I thought we were past this,” Krennic murmured to himself, with a bitter smile."

Just in - Krennic’s fuckin’ gay for Galen (as if we didn’t know that) and ALWAYS thinks about either him or Tarkin.

He’s really like HALF OF THE FANON!HUX headcanons I’ve encountered in fics. [slime and I began to flail helplessly because we can’t handle him. spoiler: we didn’t really stop screaming until the end.]

During the flight to Eadu, Krennic had stoked the fury in his heart. Fueled by outrage and humiliation, its fire burned bright enough to warm him in the chill that swept through the shuttle.

... Am I reading fanfic for real now or what.

Krennic smiled acidly and said the words he had selected with care aboard the shuttle:

Also just in: Krennic spent the trip to Eadu drinking wine and writing a speech. An epic speech:

“Gentlemen. One of you has betrayed the Empire. One of you conspired with a pilot to send messages to the Rebellion. I urge that traitor to step forward.”

Krennic. How often did you practice that in front of a mirror until you made sure you won’t forget a single word of it?

If by some miracle Cassian got off a second shot, he decided Krennic would make an excellent target. The Empire could only be improved by the loss of another high-ranking blowhard.

GOOD BOY. (Cassian’s thoughts are really interesting in general.)       

“Very well,” Krennic said. “I’ll consider it a group effort, then.” The words were cruel and sweet. Krennic felt no shame in deriving satisfaction from justice ruthlessly applied.

PLEASE. slime: gaaaaaaaaay

He looked down at himself and straightened his uniform with a tug. He noted black smudges from smoke and charred metal, a patch of red where someone—probably him—had bled. He wondered if he would have time to clean up before arriving. Or maybe Lord Vader would respect a man who’d seen combat.

Or: Krennic fainted right after entering the shuttle for departure from Eadu, got the order to go to Mustafar upon waking and dives headfirst into the REALLY IMPORTANT QUESTIONS. I wish I were kidding.                        

Was Vader mad? Was this his homeworld? Perhaps he wasn’t human beneath his armor; perhaps that forbidding black suit did more than replace lungs and limbs damaged in battle, and instead allowed a creature born in magma to survive the chill of space. Or maybe he lived on Mustafar because he enjoyed burning his victims alive.

... Krennic lands on Mustafar and has some thoughts about how Extra™ Vader is.

Vader had let him live. Vader had judged him too valuable to kill—and by extension, the Emperor recognized his value as well. Tarkin’s mutiny, his seizure of the Death Star, had been forestalled. And Krennic had yet to reveal Tarkin’s greatest error—how in destroying Jedha City, Tarkin had failed to blockade the moon, failed to ensure against survivors. For how else could the rebels have infiltrated Eadu? The traitorous pilot had come from Eadu and fled to Jedha; his message had escaped. Only Tarkin could be held responsible for that.

Oh BOY. Hubris much? slime: “ "Look at me, Look at me!" me: Everyone else in this book has thoughts that are more than that pathetic blubbering. Even JYN, who’s at war with her hatred for everyone who’s ever left her, EVEN HER WHO HAS BEEN A REAL EGOIST UP UNTIL NOW. But nooooo, Krennic is the only Special Snowflake™ in the universe. At least in his own head.

He was ready to leave the madhouse that was Mustafar, but he was suddenly uncertain he could ever escape Vader’s shadow.

How about you don't even try.

She held back a laugh and looked to Cassian. The man who’d betrayed her. The man who’d admitted his guilt and decided to fight for her. He saw her staring and looked back at her quizzically. It wasn’t how betrayals were supposed to go.

U don't say.

It was a bad plan. It had all been a bad plan, of course, starting with Galen’s message and ending with this unauthorized raid on Scarif. Now he was, what—defecting from his defection? If he survived, he’d be an Imperial traitor and a rebel mutineer. He’d be lucky to see the inside of a Yavin prison cell.

Bodhi, talking a mile a minute even in his thoughts. But he’s happy that there are most likely no mind-reading tentactle monsters on Yavin... At least something.

She almost winced when she looked at Cassian, wearing an officer’s suit and cap like they were perfectly tailored. Even the code cylinder in his pocket was at a regulation angle.

Jyn has her priorities straight. Always get a look while you can.

He stood at a metaphorical cliff’s edge, stamping his foot in an effort to cause an avalanche. With Galen Erso’s treachery undone, he would gain the allegiance of Vader. With Vader’s backing, he would expose the incompetence of Tarkin—the revelation of rebel survivors from Jedha. With Tarkin humiliated, Krennic’s command of the Death Star would be uncontested, and he would confer with the Emperor himself as to how it might best be used. Krennic would be, in every way that mattered, the most powerful and decorated man in the Empire.

I... Wait, what. Krennic, daydreaming.

Grand Moff Wilhuff Tarkin made it a point not to dwell on the flamboyant ambitions of Orson Krennic. Over the course of more than a decade, the director had gone from a nuisance to a genuine threat and back again, all the while demanding far more attention than Tarkin was prepared to grant him.

Thoughts from Tarkin! As if Krennic was a lousy annoying little fly.

Cassian had denied him that exquisite sense of purpose and replaced it with individuality. With individuality came doubt and cynicism: an awareness not only of the odds of success or failure but of those outcomes’ repercussions.

Individuality creates cynism. Now I have feels for a droid, thx Kaytoo.

With one second left until total shutdown, K-2SO chose to mentally simulate an impossible scenario in which Cassian Andor escaped alive. The simulation pleased him.

KAY. T___T

[everyone’s last sentence in their last part is amazing tbh]

As he emerged from the command center, two death troopers fell into step behind him and he thought of another day long before: another planetfall; another squad of troopers; and another danger to his life spawned by Galen. That day on Lah’mu had ended in victory, too. Orson Krennic was going to war.

Drama much! Firm belief now: He has that cape only to imagine himself in such a moment, with that last sentence as caption, for the epic picture he strikes in his own imagination...

But before Baze could fire, Chirrut rose from the bunker and stepped into sunlight.

First thought: oooh why do scenes with those two always feature such impressive pictures in my head Second thought, because the part was over and another person took over: FUCK YOU ALEXANDER FREED FUCK YOU SIDEWAYS I waited the WHOLE DAMN BOOK for a scene from Chirrut’s POV and just accepted that I won’t get one AND YOU DROP THE PART AT THE MAIN SWITCH ON ME FUCK YOU FUCK YOU HARD

[This was also when I started crying. I cried during three books my whole life (I cry frequently at movies, and I read a lot, so it takes a special something for that to happen). Be proud of yourself, Alexander Freed. You wrote *bawled her eyes out*-book #4.)

(...) without the temple he could not truly be a Guardian of the Whills; without joy and frivolity he could not be a clown and jokester among sober peers; without the Holy City he could not be a protector of his beloved world (...)

Fuuuuuck youuuuuu. T____T

He was dying, of course. He felt Baze’s heavy, familiar tread pound the ground, smelled his brother’s sweat as he leaned close. He wanted to say, Baze! My eyes—I can’t see! but Baze Malbus had always needed comfort more than humor.

THIS GUY I S2G.

But of course the Force had reunited them before the end.

Alright, I died, see you on the other side.

At last report, the data vault itself had been breached. It was a show of incompetence so great that Tarkin was almost curious to know how Krennic might explain it away.

Tarkin is a lil bitch sometimes. It’s great.

He was not the Empire—not every moment of oppression and indignity and torment she had ever suffered. He was an Imperial, a petty, spiteful, scared little man who’d forgotten his own atrocities. And he didn’t know her at all. She decided to make him remember.

Jyn can’t read a lot of people, but it seems to be easy for her with Krennic. X’D He only ever was “the man in white from her nightmares” until they finally meet. And up until his death she does know who he is and what role he had in her life - but never his name. Well, Orson. Sucks to be you. No immortal name.

He could follow Galen Erso’s thread through his life. He could see the full extent of the tragedy, the waste of effort on a wasted man. But what about before? He sought refuge in his childhood, tried to recall an Orson whose hopes had not yet been cast in shadow…

KRENNIC. Can’t you even in your LAST SECONDS stop thinking about how deeply ingrained Galen was into your life and how pathetic you were??? THIS GUY.                

Orson Krennic, advanced weapons research director and father of the Death Star, died alone on Scarif, screaming in fury at Galen Erso, at Jyn Erso, at Wilhuff Tarkin, and at all the galaxy.

... In his very last moments he imagined himself in full glory on the Death Star, his triumph, and in the middle of those cozy thoughts about his creation, the one thing he knows in and out, he finally noticed what Galen sabotaged. Ooops. Sucks, right?

I cried a lot. Slime cried a lot. And I’ll end this with the one sentence that really stuck with me and won’t leave my head for a long time...

Like a pilot should, he died with his ship.

Goodbye, Bodhi. Not all alone after all.