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[delirious-tragedy]

I’m sorry I do not know how to be as good for you as you are for me.

I will never forgive myself for the way I have hurt you.

Darling my stars are falling {a.o}

[teknicolour]

“But to me he was more than just beautiful; he was a perfect arrangement of stars, he was the feeling of rain after many days without, he was beautiful of course, but there was always something more. Something I could never figure out." 

 - darling my stars are falling {a.o}

[nes-fi]

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[delirious-tragedy]

Words are drying up in my throat and I am choking on all of the things I almost said.

I don’t know how to speak to you.

I don’t know what you want to hear.

A friendship long gone // darling my stars are falling (a.o)

[delirious-tragedy]

One moment it is on the tip of my tongue,

The next I am swallowing it whole.

Am I a bad person for not telling you that I love you?

Darling my stars are falling [a.o]

[delirious-tragedy]

Sometimes you make me feel important and I think maybe I like feeling needed more than I like doing what’s best for me. 

I hate that I keep letting you do this // darling my stars are falling {a.o}

[delirious-tragedy]

You burned me.

Not the kind of burn that leaves scars,

But the kind of burn that leaves ashes.

You took a place where I felt at home and destroyed it.

Now all I can do rebuild.

Don’t turn people into homes // darling my stars are falling {a.o}

[delirious-tragedy]

Every word that releases itself from her mouth hangs loosely in the space between what we used to be and what we are now.

She says that we are not the same people anymore and I say nothing at all.

The shock of what time has worn us down to echoes throughout the universe.

I swallow the blood on my tongue and pull my voice free from her grasp.

It is time to let go.

Darling my stars are falling {a.o}

[delirious-tragedy]

That night, my mother told me she loved me regardless of the bad I had done.

I asked her if she realised I was the bad guy in this story,

But she just kissed my forehead and asked me to set the table.

- darling my stars are falling {a.o}

[delirious-tragedy]

They taught me that I am made from stars.  That I have the universe in my veins and the sun in my eyes, But they would not believe me when I told them that drops of blood on the bathroom tiles look a lot like constellations when your head is spinning like the planets, and the sun that lives in your eyes can no longer provide enough light to see straight.

darling my stars are falling {a.o}

[delirious-tragedy]

I used to tear myself apart because I was afraid you would stop finding pieces of me to love.

darling my stars are falling {a.o}

[delirious-tragedy]

Everybody you know,  and every person you will ever meet,  is an entirely new adventure waiting to happen.  Each person is living library of their own intricate thoughts and wonders, A walking time capsule of all the people who have ever touched them. All these people with their overlapping experiences that have lead them all down completely different paths.  Isn’t it a spectacular thought to know that a new adventure is always just a conversation away?

Darling my stars are falling {a.o}

[delirious-tragedy]

And despite it all I still feel the need to tell you, You brought out an inescapable brightness in me. You made me believe I could glow shades of gold and exhale stardust simply by being myself. So for that, I will swallow my pride and I will thank you. Because the person I am now, Is much greater than the person I was before I met you.

Darling my stars are falling {a.o}

[delirious-tragedy]

“People will always fight for what they believe in, my dear.”

“And what about me?” I ask.

“Will anyone fight for me? Am I worth fighting for?”

- childhood questions that never got answered // darling my stars are falling {a.o}

[delirious-tragedy]

I feel like poison.

My mind has always been my most toxic flaw.

Somehow this poisonous illness continues to find it’s way back to me, even after all this time.

It’s been years and I still do not know how to talk about it without hurting others,

So instead I hold my own hand, and let it drag me back into the darkness I know so well.

Darling my stars are falling {a.o}

[delirious-tragedy]

In that moment, I wanted to be understood more than I had ever wanted anything else in my life. I didn’t want to try and explain it again, Or answer anymore questions. I just wanted someone to understand why I am the way I am. To look at me, Really, And tell me that I would be okay, And they understood

darling my stars are falling {a.o}