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[steveisagay]

How to fix the damage

Disabled munver

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 6.5 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9

Disabled Munver has taken over my life and I decided to write. I'm gonna do my best to do multiple parts and all of that happy bullshit.

Warnings: self-deprication, internalized homophobia, suicidal thoughts (you blink you miss it), not proof read so I have no idea what else

He couldn't even comprehend how much his life was falling apart, but he knew for sure it already did. Jason was dead one minute and waking up in the hospital the next. His girlfriend was murdered, but instead of it being the metalhead he was tracking down it was some other vessel apparently. He was in the hospital which sure sucked. But what was the worst was the fact that he was now paralyzed from the waist down. His parents told him that he was 'blessed' and how 'lucky he was to get out with such a small injury' but how was this small?

He lost everything, he couldn't play basketball, he lost a full ride scholarship, and he couldn't even go to the bathroom by himself. It did get slightly worse though, because Eddie was also in his hospital room. He wasn't visiting, his injuries were too bad for him to get off that easily, the two boys had to share the room. He would've thrown a fit about it if Eddie hadn't been so honest about the upside down and what happened to Chrissy. He also maybe was a kinda good storyteller.

His kids, well not his kids but the ones that visited, were somewhat nice. Although he had a feeling that the curly haired one didn't like him at all, and he knew for sure Lucas didn't forgive him for getting in his way. Jason could never forgive himself for all of everything that happened. It had to be his fault that it started, Chrissy started to grow distant and he should've said something but he didn't want to drive her away. Maybe it really was all his fault. Maybe he was being punished by God, for being a somewhat shitty boyfriend, for being...

That part wasn't true, he wasn't one of them. He wasn't like Eddie or, apparently, Billy. He dated Chrissy, he loved Chrissy. He'd be lying if he didn't say that Eddie was nice, and funny, and amazing with kids. Jason's parents asked him if he needed his own room but after hearing about the Upside Down and hearing how Eddie fought those bats he didn't want to leave. Eddie knew what he was doing incase something else happened and he couldn't really defend himself, you know, with his legs. Hell it'd be better if they just got ripped off, instead of him being ripped in half.

His stitches hurt like hell most days, but atleast he could still feel that area. With how stressed he was recently he didn't even know if he could, well, get off, properly. Everything always ached and himself and his parents refused to have him put on a morphine drip, so instead he was on 15 different medications. He wasn't allowed to keep any of his medicine on him while in the hospital per his therapist's request.

Jason had been going to physical therapy as well as normal therapy. His regular therapist, Dr. Linda, said that he had signs of depression, PTSD and anxiety. She also said that he should try to be less cynical. He wanted to say that she should try to be less optimistic. Most of their sessions were talking about his childhood, getting ripped in half, his (former) girlfriend, faith. Physical therapy was different though, it never helped the way he saw it. If it was really helping then he would have been able to walk by now.

The only thing that really kept him from hiding all of his pills everyday was Eddie, mostly. The only thing that kept him from clawing his skin until he couldn't anymore. He was always so bright whenever he got visitors, but Jason saw how exhausted he looked when everyone was gone. Jason and Eddie got closer than they would have ever guessed before all of this. Eddie saw Jason crying and unable to do almost anything without someone else, and Jason saw Eddie drained from a whole day of putting on a fake face.

A little while Jason's parents stopped showing up, and a little bit after that he learned that they left again. It didn't really hurt, it was just how it was, sure his parents were affectionate but that's just when they were home. His dad was a businessman and of course that was what he was supposed to be but... Nevermind it was stupid.

Jason was supposed to be sleeping, and if it wasn't for the lulling sound of Eddie's snores and the air being forced into his lungs he would've kept worrying. Jason had been worrying all of his life, but maybe he was fine getting some rest. It's not like his medication gave him any choice.

[steveisagay]

Good time to mention that I specifically did research on paralysis with pregnancy because of omegaverse munver lmao

I swear I've been thinking too much about how much the upside down fucked up everyone. First, How to fix the damage, then a harringrove blurb. I am beyond repair at this point.

As a person who lies awake in bed at night thinking about Omegaverse Eddie and Jason, I've abandoned the idea of repair. I'm just living with the brainworms now.

[intothedysphoria]

I just wanted to do a full recommendation/review/whatever you’d call this of a fic I absolutely ADORE for one of my friends who deserves to hear how good of a writer she is.

Lust For Life by @oopsiedaisiesbaby is an incredible piece of writing, even if you read it having no idea who Billy or Steve are. Tonally, it is a modern romcom with an adorable ending that made me cry more than once (I will try to keep spoilers to the very minimum)

Steve has a heart of gold, he is so incredibly precious while still being immediately recognisable as himself from the show. His disability and his experiences as a sex worker are discussed honestly and compassionately and the way he works to be a better person than he was in high school is incredibly heartwarming.

Billy is a scene stealer in every chapter he’s in. He’s both so unmistakably Billy in his temperament and mannerisms while clearly having been able to heal from both the Mindflayer and Neil. The way his character progresses and grows, with both heart and humour makes you unable to stop reading. It’s a smaller detail but I also adore how intelligent, both academically and emotionally Billy is in this fic, it really adds an extra layer of depth to the piece.

Harringrove’s relationship is truly the soul of the fic. Without giving too much away, the way they become so entangled in each other’s life, from the very first meeting to the very end could easily match up to the standard of published romance books, while still showing their dumb mistakes that are typical of their early twenties.

The supporting cast include Robin, who is a delight as always as Steve’s best friend, Heather who I personally think is one of the most interesting characters in this fic, Jason who is a “vicious murder twink” and also effortlessly one of the funniest characters and Eddie, who couldn’t be any more Eddie if he tried. Despite not having as large of a role, Jonathan, Argyle and the party all make cameos too and are extremely fun.

Overall I’d say if you like Harringrove, munver, Buckleway, friends to friends with benefits to lovers and a very oblivious “straight” Steve, I’d immediately recommend this fic, it’s so worth it.

[billyharringson]

Positivity post because I love this trend and also want to distract myself from the fact that I am once again In A&E with a possible concussion.

Also want to say that if you are not in this but are still a participant in the Stranger things/Billy fandom this is still for you.

Firstly for @intothedysphoria the originator of this trend. I know we've not really spoken but seeing your positivity posts always makes my day and your disabled Harringrove fics are amazing.

@flashwaves my fandom bestie and such a wonderful person. You never fail to make me laugh and I love how you're always there to 'yes and' my most insane and dark fic ideas.

@im-psycho-btw you have no idea how much I smile whenever I see one of your comments. You're so sweet and supportive and getting a notification that you've read something of mine makes me so excited.

@applewillowstone I'm so happy that @flashwaves told me about your discord server because you've created such a welcoming and creative community there. Also your willingness to instantly go to bat for us makes me feel so safe and cared for.

@shieldofiron your fics are just *chefs kiss* and the fact that you always reply to comments is so good. Also thank you so much for introducing me to Munver.

@ihni your drawings never fail to put a smile on my face, nor do your in-depth and intelligent comments, they always make me feel seen and like my writing and contributions mean something.

@dragonflylady77 I would consider you one of my first friends in the fandom, you are so welcoming and sweet and just...I can't put it into words, I just want to hug you so bad.

@destroya2005 sometimes I feel like we share one mind and I always want to eat your ideas.

@bigdumbbambieyes you have got to be one of the sweetest people in this fandom. I love your writing so much and I can't wait to take part in your Harringrove Kinktober event.

God there are so many more and I'm sure I've forgotten like a whole bunch of you but as I said, everyone that I've interacted with and chat with this post is for you.

You're awesome, keep being excellent to each other.

[ebbiemunson]

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FAV FLAVOR(S): Cherry, Blue Raspberry, Chocolate, Vanilla, Grape, Orangesicle; I like savory foods like chips, and I would rather have a burger than something sweet!

FAV GENRE(S): horror, fantasy, sci-fi, comedy

FAV MUSIC: Things I can sing to! I love singing, because of this my music taste is all over the place. I tend to like whatever makes my brain go brrr. Fall Out Boy was my first favorite band, and I love everything from Elton John to Eminem. I love filthy music too. NF is something that'll always get me pumped. My Vecna song is NF - The Search

FAV MOVIE(S): Antrum, Incantation, The Hills Have Eyes (both the classic and the remake), Nightmare on Elm Street-- let's just say I'm a slut for horror movies. I especially love The Endless and Annihilation. I also fucking love Girl With All The Gifts. I love horror movies that make me feel something too. One of my all time favorites will always be The Grudge. It was the first horror movie I ever watched. My brother made me a deal when I was ten that if I could sit through The Grudge, he'd let me watch The Hills Have Eyes... let's just say from there a horror junkie was born. I am ALSO A SLUT FOR GHIBLI MOVIES. Soldier's girl, and To Wong Foo - Thanks for everything Julie Newmar have special places in my heart.

FAV SERIES: Pushing Daisies, Friends, MLP, Simpsons, Rick and Morty, Naruto, Fullmetal Alchemist (Both 2003 and Brotherhood), Bluey, Malcolm in the Middle, House MD, Futurama, Boy Meets World, Bones, Criminal Minds, Hannibal, Scrubs, Gravity Falls, Tangled, Halt and Catch Fire, Lucifer, Chuck, Black Mirror, Wentworth, InuYasha, Cells at Work, Aggretsuko, Ouran, Good Girls, Final Space, Pokemon. These were just the ones off the top of my head.

LAST SONG: The Steve Miller Band - The Joker

LAST MOVIE: Encanto! 

CURRENTLY READING: Trying to work through some D&D lore so I'm not so fucking clueless. Mostly I read r/nosleep

CURRENTLY WATCHING: There's nothing on the TV right now, but I casually kind of loop Stranger Things, the series I'm binging right now is King of the Hill

WORKING ON: Making Icons! Also doing some outlines for some fics I would like to work on and finish. I'd love to get the next chapter of Map to Hope out, and I have another one I've started that's a big vent fic with Disabled Eddie. I also am gently working on something Munver, and I wrote the opening lines to a Mungrove.

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Tagging: You, motherfucker

[steveisagay]

What nicknames would Jason use for Eddie?? Please I need help

[steveisagay]

How to fix the damage

Disabled Munver

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 6.5 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9

Again not proof read so I have no idea what warnings to put lmao

Eddie managed to go through hell and get dragged out bleeding. His body was littered with scars and he could still feel probably a thousand bats gnawing at his skin. He was in the hospital hooked up to one tube, but he was still kicking.

He was mostly kicking, mostly. He had a physical therapist but other than the lightheadedness he'd get from doing too much or talking for too long, he was up and moving. The kids visited almost everyday, and when he got brought in Steve and Dustin stayed for most of the entirety of his week. Or so he was told. Although it was strange, when he woke up after that week pumped full of drugs he looked around the room and saw Jason Carver himself in the bed next to him.

Carver's parents were there two, except they were barely present for the next week and a half he was in an medically induced coma. But once they caught wind that their precious baby boy was awake they were there everyday. But that stopped too. Once Carver started talking more and was able to use his wheelchair properly the visits lessened. One day Eddie woke up to the jock shaking and sobbing in his bed, laying on his back. Eddie couldn't understand what it'd be like to not be able to curl up on yourself and cry.

Before Carver's parents stopped visiting, Eddie couldn't wrap his mind around how much of a dick Carver was if his mother was this smothering. It pained Eddie, he saw Carver's mom hug him with a kiss on the cheek everytime she left and was immediately brought back to his mom before shit hit the fan. His mom was nice and tried her best, she had her faults, but she was human. Well, that was until mommy couldn't mommy anymore and daddy decided that daddies were allowed to hit. It never got really bad but that's probably because he was taken away before it could.

Eddie always had trouble getting help whenever he was injured or sick. Sure he was a pussy when he was sick, but he tried not to make it anyone's business. Hell, when he first moved in with Wayne he barely sought out unneeded attention. The last thing he needed was to be in a hospital where he was monitored 24/7. Especially since he was getting government approved treatment. The whole thing sounded shady but after ranting to his appointed therapist and also the party it was easily put off as paranoia.

It was odd watching Carver. He'd wake up at 5:00 when the nurses came to check on the two, eat a small breakfast and then take his meds. Eddie tried counting but quickly got told to mind his business, so he only knew there was a little over nine pills. He then left an hour earlier for his physical therapy than Eddie did. Then he'd come back for light lunch, had an extra fourty-five minutes for any visitors, and was off to his appointed therapist. Eddie always came back from his physical therapy when Carver was finishing his lunch, then the party visited, then he'd have his own lunch and take three little pills. After he'd go downstairs for his therapy appointment and return to the jock (or ex-jock now) taking his early evening nap.

Eddie had terrible nightmares. Although if you asked anyone else they would describe his nightmares as night-terrors. He'd bolt out of bed in the middle of the night, his voice hoarse and his heart moniter going crazy. He never checked if Carver actually was asleep or not, but guessing from his steady breathing and his still body he probably managed to sleep through it.

Eddie talked about everything with his therapist. Sure his therapist wanted him to "work through his trauma from the upside down" but most the time he stuck to talking about him being gay. How he was flagging in a small conservative town, how he had been having awkward wet dreams about his current hospital-roomate since his first senior year, and how he was sure he'd never find someone that truly loved him.

[steveisagay]

How to fix the damage

Disabled Munver

No warnings except for Eddie kinda being a hopeless romantic Taglist: @shieldofiron @ebbiemunson @hawkinsstar

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 6.5 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9

Eddie had gotten out a few days before Jason was released. Sure it was great to be out but part of him hated it. As much as the kids wanted to start playing DnD with him again Uncle Wayne (and also Steve, for some reason) said they couldn't. Eddie of course argued that he was a grown ass man and could do whatever he wanted. Uncle Wayne (and Steve, jesus christ he really was a babysitter) reasoned that since he was in the hospital for almost a year that he needed to rest at home and get used to life at home.

To Eddie the new house was really just that, a house. Uncle Wayne had time in between his shifts and visiting Eddie and Jason to make it into a home for him, but Eddie was stuck in a hospital room. It had the mugs everywhere and his uncle's new comfy chair and all of that bullshit, but Eddie's room was almost empty. There was a new mattress with a bed frame, a few of his cassettes, and a pile of clothes. It was completely lacking in personality.

Everyday was the same for him, he'd wake up, get dressed, walk around (per his physical therapist's request), eat breakfast, read, eat lunch, plan out more of his next campaign, walk again, and pass out in his bedroom. Then he'd get up and do it all over. Sure there were small changes, but it was still mostly the same.

After those few days of the same thing over and over Jason finally got released. When Eddie was released he didn't think that he'd see Jason anymore, and in one way that made things easier, and it also made things harder. On the positive side, he wouldn't have to worry about his one-sided crush. On the other side he would have to deal with everything, like his nightmares, alone.

When Jason was released Eddie thought he wouldn't want anything to do with him anymore. That he would run back to his jock friends and not even give him a second thought. But the day after he was told Jason was released he got a call, from him. It was just to let Eddie know he was out and asking if he wanted to hang out. Of course he said yes, why wouldn't he? It's not like they haven't been hanging out everyday for the last few months.

So it became an almost daily occurrence, them hanging out. It was mostly at Eddie's, but when Jason finally opened up that he needed help with moving his stuff from his room upstairs to the guest room on the first floor of his big ass house he immediately helped. After awhile Jason insisted that he didn't need his help anymore, but Eddie wanted to make sure that his room was perfect, especially seeing how he was about his things.

Eddie wanted to help take care of Jason even more than Jason helped him in the hospital, he needed him to know that he cared. Even if he would never know how much. On the small chance that they ever did get together, like in Eddie's most wildest dreams, he wanted him to know he was all in since before day one.

[steveisagay]

How to fix the damage

Disabled munver

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 6.5 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9

No warnings, just fluff for once (and a few little nods to Autistic Jason) Also one thing I noticed writing this is that along part three and part four you can see Eddie starting to fall for Jason, BUT so far nothing from Jason..... Oh yeah and big thanks to @shieldofiron for helping out and letting me get some general ideas out

Eddie learned several things about Carver in the few weeks since he found him sobbing on his back. Sometimes he was surprised and other times it made sense. The first thing was thing was that he hated being seen as weak. Ever since he found out that he was paralyzed from the waist down he got louder, he yelled when he felt he was getting pitied or being babied in some way. He also swore more than he ever did in high school. Eddie took the time to figure out that it wasn't because he swore outside of school before, but that it was because nobody listened to him.

Another thing that he noticed was that Jason was a big reader. Whenever Eddie saw the jocks all crowding around each other or goofing in class he always thought he was so much smarter than them. Most of the time that was true, well, he did fail math the first time, but the second was because he was too high to leave his van to get to class. Sure he knew that Carver paid attention in his classes and took notes and all of that but he thought it all came naturally, he was already naturally hot in Eddie's opinion. But one day he came back from his therapy to find Carver reading a comic by himself.

"Lucas dropped by to return this, said that he was reading it to Max but you weren't here so I said that I'd get it to you..." He was quick to explain, was he scared that he couldn't read Eddie's shit for some reason? Eddie would've guessed that he was practically clawing for some sort of entertainment. "Sorry, I just needed something to read."

"No problem, if you ever need to borrow a book just let me know." Eddie sat on his bed and took back his comic, "So, do you read comics often?"

"Huh? Oh no no, I normally stick to fantasy kinda and books on sharks and other marine life," A slight blush crept up his cheeks as he realized just how much of a dork he probably seemed.

"Well what's your favorite book then?" Eddie asked, excited to have another person to talk to about books.

Jason moved pulled himself up so he was sitting more. "I really don't have just one favorite book but my favorite series is The Chronicles Of Narnia,"

Right then, right there, Eddie knew that Cupid really was real and he had to be nearby because right then he could feel the arrow go through his heart.

Then after that the third thing that Eddie noticed about Jason was that he did listen to good music. Or... at least sometimes. Max, who was surprisingly out of her coma by now, let Eddie borrow her new walkman that she got as an apology so he could listen to a few of his tapes while he worked on DnD shit. He had it up all the way and the headphones around his neck as he scribbled words into his notebook. Jason had been focusing on god knows what when the song switched. After a few seconds Jason perked up, "Is that Bon Jovi?"

That confused Eddie, how would Carver know Bon Jovi? "Um, yeah, why? Do you... Listen to Bon Jovi at all?"

"Yeah actually I do." There was a defensive tone in his voice, "Well, sometimes, I don't really get the chance to often,"

"I don't really listen to Bon Jovi a lot either, but they're not one of my favorite bands at all." He paused when the opportunity crossed his mind, "If you want you could have this cassette, then I could have one of the kids stop by the new house Uncle Wayne got from the government and grab my walkman. Then you'd actually be able to listen to it."

Carver seemed almost shocked that he was even offering to let him listen to his music, "No, I can't let you just give me your stuff, it's yours."

"It's just one Cassette, Carver."

Maybe he wasn't a complete dick. Eddie was maybe wrong all of these years, maybe Jason Carver wasn't as much of a dick or as popular as he seemed.

[steveisagay]

How to fix the damage

Disabled Munver

Warnings: Ableist language, written at 1 am

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 6.5 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9

Today was a shit day for everyone. Eddie lost his temper at the kids, yelling through the halls that he didn't need to be observed like some animal everyday. Jason also lost his shit, but in a different way. He got pissed at the whole idea of physical therapy and ended up falling badly. He claimed that if the doctors thought that physical therapy would've helped that he could walk. So his physical therapist, not wanting to start a fight, let him try to walk with one of the rails. He clutched it and got about three steps, but then he fell. Jason had always been stubborn, so then he dragged himself along the floor until he was almost to the elevator.

When Eddie finally got back from his run to the vending machine to clear his thoughts he walked in on Jason trying to lay on his side and sobbing loudly.

"Hey dude... You doing okay?" Eddie cautiously asked, knowing how he could fly off the handle at times.

"Do I look like I'm fucking okay?" His voice started to break as he turned his head towards the metalhead. He looked pathetic, but Eddie would never admit that. Carver had gone through hell, he got ripped in half for God's sake. He couldn't help but pity him, but the last thing Jason Carver wanted was anymore pity. It was like seeing a soaked puppy on the street, Eddie couldn't pull over to pick up the soaked puppy cause it'd just run away.

Eddie made his way over to his shitty hospital bed, sitting on the side so he could talk to Carver. "Listen, you seem like you're having a completely terrible day," He talked with his hands in a more enthusiastic manner in an attempt to cheer the blonde up, "I can give you my blankets, pillows, or even better I can try to help you on your side or something like that."

"No- Nononono, I don't need any of your help, or pity or any of that! I'm already a cripple I don't need to be treated like one!" Jason exploded at Eddie. Everything was just too much today, Eddie's kids brats were running and screaming all day and then his physical therapist couldn't see the fact that he was broken beyond repair. "I'm a fucking cripple so now my life is down the drain, I can't even piss by myself cause the bathroom door is too small for my chair!" Hot tears ran down Jason's cheeks and Eddie couldn't just sit across from him anymore.

He got up to sit by Jason Carver making sure to grab his two limp pillows. "Jason, just because you were through a horrific event doesn't mean you're useless, you shouldn't talk to yourself like that-"

"I can't fucking walk Munson, a year ago I was preparing for basketball games and now I'm a fucking vegetable!"

Eddie felt himself move without thinking and grabbed onto the collar of Jason's sweater. "Shut the fuck up, just shut the fuck up for one second! You aren't a fucking vegetable, if you were a vegetable you wouldn't be able to feel this much about this! Now let me help you get comfortable so you're not stuck on you're back like some sort of turtle,"

He took his time to move his pillows under Carver and propping him up so he was sitting more. When he got done moving the other like some sort of rag doll Jason had calmed down and was clinging onto him like a little kid. "Is there anything else you wanna add?" Eddie looked down at him. Jason shook his head in his shoulder.

10-20 minutes later Jason finally spoke up, "Munson?" Really what he wanted to ask was why was he still here? Why'd he care so much? But maybe this was one of those times where it was best to hold his tongue. "If I wasn't just some cripple... Then..?" His voice started to wobble some more. "Then why'd my parents go back to their life after they figured I'd be okay?"

"You're strong Carver, plus if they're shitty enough to leave their son in need then they can go fuck themselves," He looked down at him, then quickly changed the topic, "You wanna try to fit you're nap in?"

[steveisagay]

How to fix the damage

Disabled Munver

no warnings, literally just therapy and too much dialogue. Also part 6 will be split into two parts! <3 Also I'm pretty sure I might've lied when I said I didn't know what to do for part 6

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 6.5 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9

"I don't know what to do, I just really don't know what to do" Jason continued, his voice wobbling and his eyes threatening to spill.

"alright let's back up for a minute," Dr. Linda, his therapist, began, "So you finally noticed Eddie's nightmares and in order to try and help him, you threw yourself on the floor several times."

"Well... Yeah but I was trying to help him, plus it's not like I got majorly hurt." He'd had problems in the past of over explaining himself, and in most of his sessions it shined through the most.

"Did you ever bring up his nightmares to him?" Half of his therapy sessions could very much be seen as an interrogation, at least in his point of view.

He paused for a second, "No... But why does that matter?"

"Well it matters because if you did you two would have talked about a different way to help his nightmares." She took a quick breath, "I'm sure that finding you on the floor didn't help at all."

"Yeah but it's not like I was intentionally hurting myself, I'm not like that, I'm stronger than that."

"Jason, you think of having problems with your mental as a weakness when it's not, you think that you can't break down just because you're supposed to be what you have grown to think is strong. It's not healthy to keep all of that bottled up." She gave him a pitying smile, great, some more pity. "I think that you wanted to comfort Eddie so badly because you wanted to focus on someone else's struggles rather than your own."

Jason stayed silent, it wasn't fully worth it to talk anymore since there was only a few minutes left.

[steveisagay]

How to fix the damage

Disabled Munver

Warnings: angst, some slight references to self-harm (but that's not what he's trying to)

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 6.5 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9

Jason had not been able to sleep at all for the last week. His doctor had lowered the dosage of his sleeping medication cause it was "what was best in the long run". His therapist probably brought it up first, since he was finally getting better. His doctor didn't tell him a lot, but that since he was mostly stable physically (yeah right) and since the majority of his medication was addictive they would have to lower his dosages. Sure, being able to sleep in his sterile environment truly was addictive. Why the hell was it just his dosage of sleeping meds, why not any of the other shit they force fed him everyday?

Jason never had any sort of fear of hospitals until his dosage got lowered. But after the sun went down his little room became terrifying. There was beeping and it felt like he could smell the death on the next floor. The beeping was almost the worst, with the heart monitors speeding up from both of the boys Jason's anxiety would shoot through the roof, which of course didn't help.

Even though the beeping and the smells did influence his newfound fear, that wasn't all of it. No, the worst was the screams, specifically Eddie's screams. It would've been kinda fine if it was just only screams, but he talked, yelled, begged for whatever was happening to him to stop. Jason had a lot of days where he couldn't go to physical therapy because of the pain that managed to shoot through where he was ripped in half, but he could never imagine having to live through that every night.

Jason soon realized that this had to stop somehow. Eddie's patience each day was rapidly growing thin and Jason had to get some sort of sleep. It was agonizing to listen to each night, there were moments where he was almost brought to tears. So that night, before Eddie went to bed, he made some kind of plan. He was gonna try to wake up Eddie (gently) from one of his nightmares. It's what friends dudes do, right?

The first night failed, and so did the second and third. The problem was that his wheelchair was on the other side of his bed where the chairs for visitors were. Because of this he ended up trying to pull himself over to Eddie's bed and wore himself out. So the first three nights ended with him exhausted on the floor.

The next two nights after that his doctor raised his dosage a little more, just enough to get him a sleep, but not enough to keep him asleep. So the next night Jason got about an hour of sleep before Eddie's nightmare started. He pulled himself up to the best of his ability and situated himself on the edge of his bed, aiming for his wheelchair. When he finally worked up the courage (mainly from Eddie's quiet, sob-like sleep begging) he went for his wheelchair. But soon he realized that he was not gonna get in his wheelchair, falling onto the floor and taking his chair with him with a loud yell and crash.

Jason could practically hear Eddie bolt up from the noise. He could only imagine him looking around worriedly. He heard the click of the button that summons a nurse and then Eddie getting out of his bed. As he looked around from the floor dazed he finally noticed that Eddie was towering over him.

He went to help him up, "What the fuck man? Why have you been like this recently?" He grabbed his hand and shoulder, "You can't keep doing this. I don't know if this is some way of coping or if you're trying to get somewhere but I think you have some shit you need to talk to someone about. You're injuring yourself almost ever night, you have a therapist, utilize her for fucks sake." He sounded exasperated, why would Eddie even care about what he's doing? Or trying to do.

"You wouldn't get it," Jason mumbled.

Eddie quickly cut him off, "I think I do get it, you're not the only person that's been through hell and back! Everyone we know gets it, you just won't let anyone in! You're stubborn, you-"

The nurse interrupted his ranting, telling him to get back to bed and helping Jason back to bed.

His doctor raised his dosage back up the next day.

[steveisagay]

I have other disabled munver thoughts, you know how some girlfriends will like hold their boyfriend's dick while he's pissing, imagine Eddie holding up Jason and holding his dick while he's pissing and 100% not taking it seriously

[steveisagay]

How to fix the damage

Disabled Munver

No warnings other than internalized homophobia (I'm pretty sure) Taglist: @shieldofiron @ebbiemunson

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When Jason finally got to highschool he immediately tried out for the basketball team, he wasn't the greatest, but he managed to make it. After a few practices struggling to keep up one of the sophomores finally asked to help him practice. After practice they walked to one of the parks together and played a few rounds of one on one, the sophomore giving tips every now and then. These one on one practices continued until the end of the school year, where Jason finally said thank you.

Five years later and he was stuck in the hospital reading the same three books over and over. Meanwhile that same 'sophomore' was now visiting the hospital every other day with his boyfriend and a gaggle of kids. Yup, Steve The Hair Harrington was still taking care of kids younger than him. That part didn't even surprise him, but the part that did was that... Well... He was the king of Hawkins High and he was gay?!

The shock had mostly worn off by now but it still threw Jason off a bit when he walked in hand-in-hand with Billy Hargrove. It kinda made sense that Billy was gay, he always seemed to eager to play with Steve, then they would be up and on each other and it looked like some sort of wet dream. Plus his hair was so well taken care of, not in the way Steve's was, but in a way that made sure that every individual curl had it's own place.

The two visited on one of the rare days where Eddie had therapy and Jason didn't. Since he'd been making improvement he was allowed days off from therapy so he could focus on other things. Their proof for him doing better was that he was happy with other people and that he figured out how to get into his wheelchair by himself. They even took him off of two of his medications, including his sleeping meds. Eddie still had nightmares a lot, but they slowly became less and less frequent, but still more often than not one of the nurses would go to wake them up in the morning to find Jason in his wheelchair sound asleep next to Eddie.

Jason was left with the two boys and only one question plaguing his mind. "Hey, Steve? Billy?"

The two turned their heads, obviously they were waiting for Eddie, Jason could be a lot of things, but he wasn't stupid. "Yeah Jay, what's up?" Steve replied, he had the same smile as when he first invited him to practice in the park.

Suddenly his mouth felt dry, his words were stuck in the bottom of his throat. He reached for his water on the little table that was between his and Eddie's bed. "You two are the only, uh, the only... Well, gay couple I know." He felt frozen. Steve just seemed confused but Billy seemed like he was pissed.

"Yeah and?" Billy almost snapped, what the fuck did he have to say about it? Whatever it was didn't really matter to him, he'd heard worse.

Jason on the other hand had been panicking for probably days before today. His breath started to quicken, he stayed silent for a moment, trying to calm himself down.

Steve got up from where he was sitting, almost kneeling on the side of his bed. "Jason..." His tone sounded like one of a concerned mother, "Jason what's wrong?"

That pushed him over his limit, tears started to fall down his cheeks. Steve moved to hug him, to try to comfort him some way. He sobbed for what felt like hours (which was really only 20 minutes). When Steve asked what was wrong again he finally was able to muster up an answer, "I... I-I think I'm gay..." His sobs wracked his body once again.

"Jason- hey, hey look at me, look at me for one second." Jason turned his face to meet his, "Jason, there's nothing wrong with being gay-"

"Yes there is!" He was practically yelling at this point, "If I'm gay then that means that I never really loved Chrissy and I swear I did," If Steve wasn't right next to him he would've never been able to understand what he was saying. "I really really loved Chrissy but if I'm gay that means I didn't, but I promise I did. She meant the world to me but if I'm gay then I really didn't."

Steve kept his voice soft, "Just because you like guys doesn't mean that you didn't love Chrissy, remember me and Nancy? I loved Nance so much and just because I like guys doesn't mean that I didn't. Who knows, maybe you could be bi?"

"What's that?"

He let out a little chuckle, "Bisexuality is when you like guys and girls, just because you like one doesn't mean you can't like the other. Look at me, I'm bi, I have a smoking hot boyfriend and have slept with many girls. It doesn't mean that all of those girls were a phase, it just means that I needed to grow and accept that I like men."

So that was him, "I can be that?" He was in a sort of disbelief, Steve nodded.

"So," Billy finally spoke up, "what kind of guys are you into, Carver?"

Jason was caught off guard, there were certain things that he thought he would never admit to, but here he was. "uhh, well, I would have to probably say tall, loud, metalheads." Billy chuckled at that, which granted there might've been one or two dreams about him but that stopped after everything. Or maybe just after he got close to Eddie.

Steve spoke again, "Does that mean that you actually do like Eddie?"

"Yeah, I-I think so," He paused for a second, "Wait what do you mean 'actually do'?"

"Cause Max owes me 5 bucks," Billy answered.

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How to fix the damage

Disabled Munver

I physically "aw"ed at the end so loud. Also I am so excited for the next part cause there's something pretty big for my boy J.C. No warnings, just fluff Taglist: @shieldofiron @ebbiemunson (if you wanna be added lemme know!)

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After the two boys had their little talk about a week ago where the two apologized they figured out how to make it so if Eddie woke him up by screaming he'd be able to comfort him. The problem the last time was that his wheelchair wasn't in the right place for Jason to get on it properly by himself. When their times for lunch overlapped they tested out how he would be able to get on his wheelchair without falling to the ground. They explained what they were doing to the nurse and Jason ended up only falling once. Now it was only time to put it in practice.

That night Jason barely could sleep, mainly from anticipation. He'd finally be able to help out Eddie, and also get sleep. He did manage to sleep but it was probably close to midnight when he woke up. Before Eddie went to bed he put Jason's wheelchair between their beds, but he made sure to try to stay up a little later so Jason would be able to sleep a little longer. When Jason woke up he took a second to wake up so he wouldn't "end up cracking his skull on the tiles", Eddie's words, not his. After he could fully see the darkness he shuffled himself over to his wheelchair. This time he made sure to be more careful.

Eddie's crying and screaming filled his ears as he turned in his wheelchair and went forward about a foot so he was right up against his bed. "Psst, Eddie," He moved a hand to his arm, which was tucked under his pillow, "Hey, Eddie,"

Eddie's only answers where a few whimpers and a faint "No-". Then he started to shake his arm, first slow and gentle, then becoming faster as he started to grow more desperate. The brunette showing no signs of waking made his own anxiety shoot higher than before. He had to be able to wake him up, he had to help him, it was the least he could do.

"Hey, psst, Eddiee," His small whisper got louder and louder, "Eddie you have to wake up, it's just a nightmare it's not real." He felt him twitch as Jason moved his hand up from his arm to his cheek, because maybe that would work instead nothing else. "Eddie, you're fine, it's only a nightmare, you're not there." His thumb gently caressed his face to either comfort him or wake him. He moved his other hand to his arm, "C'mon, wake up, you're not there. It's all over and everything's gonna be okay. Everything's fine you just gotta wake up, come on Eddie, come on."

Eddie stirred as his noises went down, "yeah, that's it." Jason cooed, "You're not there, you're 100% fine" He moved his hand a tad bit farther up his cheek. Eddie's eyes began to flutter, not in the way they normally shoot open from his nightmares. "There you go, see, you're fine." Eddie let his head rest fully in Jason's hand as he let out a sigh.

"It worked," he had to have the biggest smile on, "It actually worked!" A laugh erupted from his chest. Meanwhile Jason's cheeks were probably tinted with a pink, although neither of them would be able to see it.

Eddie could've died at that moment, except there had to be just one more thing to top it off. "So..." Jason started slowly, "It would probably just be better if I stay right here. Cause- cause I'm not sure how easily I'd be able to get back in bed and if you end up having another nightmare we don't wanna take the risk of me falling onto my wheelchair again."

"Oh, oh yeah of course, no problem." Eddie swore that he fucking giggled, "Yeah I could never forgive myself if something like that happened to you again."

There was a small "mhm" from the blonde, then before Eddie knew it Jason was fucking snoring. A pang of guilt hit Eddie as he realized how tired he must've been. That was something to worry about tomorrow, but tonight, now, Eddie truly found a fucking angel.

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How to fix the damage

Disabled Munver

This turned out a lot fluffier than I expected lmao, that's because my munver playlist only played fluffy shit (also Gone, Gone, Gone, gives me such good disabled munver vibes (or munver in general) (oh yeah and in the original someone was supposed to get hit-))

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Eddie came back to their shared room after his own therapy appointment surprised to see that Jason wasn't even trying to sleep. He'd been almost completely ignoring him for the 1 and a half days since Eddie had woken up to him falling with his wheelchair. Of course Jason hadn't been sleeping when he arrived cause then that'd be too easy.

"Hey," Eddie started with, grabbing Jason's attention from the book he was reading. Someone must've dropped it off for him, "So about the other day."

"It's fine, it doesn't matter." Jason quickly went to shut him down, but Eddie always had a curious nature.

"No it's not, you could've really hurt yourself, you fell onto your wheelchair." His voice was laced with ounces of immense concern. Jason was always kinda there, sure they were never close but he was constant, and because of that he wasn't sure how it'd feel if he lost him. "There's a lot of people that you gotta look out for," he paused for a moment to think, "like Lucas, he might not talk to you a lot after everything with Max but you can tell he cares about you."

They sat in silence for a little while, Jason trying to think of how the fuck did Lucas still care about him if they didn't talk. "Wanna come closer at all?" Eddie was still standing so why not ask if wanted to sit at all.

"Uh, yeah sure," Eddie watched as Jason tried to scooched to the side, taking the invite to sit beside him. Then they sat together for about maybe 10 minutes until either one of them spoke. "I'm sorry about yelling at you the other day, I was just... scared, I guess?"

"I get it, you just care... for some reason." Jason tensed up when he felt Eddie slowly lay his head on his shoulder. It took a few seconds for Jason to also relax into it.

"So what were you even trying to do? You know, that night."

Jason couldn't help letting out a tired little chuckle, "Well I was actually trying to get to you..."

Eddie's head had never turned so fast, did he hear him write? "Me?! Why?" The whole idea sounded crazy, there had to be some other reason or ulterior motive.

"Cause you scream like crazy," Another chuckle escaped his lips, "You seem to get these terrible nightmares and you sound like you're actually dying..." His tone turned much darker, "you beg and scream and it's so scary."

"Oh... uh, thanks for trying to help? I guess?" Eddie was rendered speechless, he really went through all of that trouble just for someone like him?

"It's nothing," Jason moved his arm so it was over Eddie's, probably the closest Eddie would ever get to holding another guys hand, let alone a straight one. "Plus it made it impossible to sleep."

This time Eddie laughed, way louder than he meant to. "Well then I might have to see if I can get my meds put up a dosage,"

"Oh yeah it's really easy," Jason lightly punched Eddie in the arm, "just try to wander away!"