#didnt help that i was in a gc and accidently brought up the relationship struggles

[adaywithanotherferalrat]

Hey guys...

So...

Just finished Full Moon and- omfg.

I am genuinely in psychological distress, I've never ran to ao3 so fast. It's so dumb but I genuinely feel secondhand heartbreak for both stolas and blitzø (but a lil moreso for stolas, kinnie probs unfortunately)

VIVZIE BESTIE Y MUST U START PRIDE MONTH LIKE THIS ISTFG-

K now everything under the cut is going to be vent-y and controversial so only continue if ur rdy for a copious amount of projecting<3... and if you're gonna be nice. Feelings hard man, this is my side blog for a reason.

Ok but just like back to the secondhand emotions, I'm like- genuinely spiraling. Bc after the video, every recommended theory video and then the comments were like oh it's stolas' fault, why stolas is in the wrong, why stolas handled this like shit, etc. And it's probably bc i relate to him so much but i was like ☹️???

Now ofc i read and watched several analyses bc i practice media literacy and- logically I can see how Stolas' actions escalated or at the very least didn't help the situation... but I'm still sitting here like ok if that was wrong, what else was he supposed to do? (Minus immediately asking for the book w/out explaining until after, i understood that and physically cringed like oh honey no...)

But now it got me thinking, i cant see what's supposed to be very obvious here which thennn got me thinking about my own strained relationship with my partner and wondering if I'm missing smth there bc once again, i unfortunately feel like stolas in the situation and it's just- i dont know what else to do.

Yeah anyways much feelings, beautiful writing, im gonna cry myself to sleep and (im)patiently wait for the next episode