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ko-eko-ev-go-ms · 4 years ago

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TFW you wanna be congratulated on smth and the other person to be excited for your accomplishments except then when it actually happens you don’t know what to do/feel and are just really uncomfortable

Like : ) thank you so much but oh my god what do I do what is my face supposed to do oh my god recognition and pride and all that stuff feels so foreign oh my god :’ )

#thoughts #oni talks #oni vents #this may or may not be about yesterday’s weight thing #weight stuff #tw weight #coz I told my sister and my best friend over text so not a ton of reaction bestie more than sister lol #and same day I had my psych appt which is 2 ppl #so I told first person and they had like a huge reaction abt it and then when 2nd person joined #the first thing they did was like #omg hi guess what oni did!!!!#I had no idea what to do so I was just really uncomfortably semi smiling but also not and I was just like oh my god oh god oh fuck #like yessss be proudddd someone is proud of me omg that never happensssss #except ahhhhhhhhhh no idea how react big discomfort but then if there’s no reaction I’m big time sad emoji and just oh ok : (#didn’t tell like anyone else abt it tho bc hhh #almost told dnd lady which I mean she’s my actual friend but that’s been her nickname on this blog so ig it stays now #but then felt like it might be weird so didn’t #Will tell other sister if she asks but big sus emoji #didn’t tell my mom bc don’t wanna deal with that #BUT if she DOES make a rando comment I’ll say namely bc like #I still remember having lost weight a while back I think it was like 10lbs and I’m just walking past her #and she comments abt how I gained weight and all that and I’m just like : )))#then I changed clothes at some point and she way later was like oh that looks better you seem less big now : )#and I’m just here like??? okay???#I have the urge to say stuff like this all the time whenever she comments on the stuff I get but also no #still think abt the time she said I could not eat for a year and I’d still be fat lol #my dad was hella pissed at that one lmfao #also still remember her saying how good it was that my new meds would make me less hungry/eat less #and saying oh don’t eat unless ur hungry when the point is they limit that #eating less good etc also the year comment was after I was eating a brownie but I hadn’t eaten literally anything else that ENTIRE day

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