#did you think i'm just leaving a class without being delusional enough??

[ps-cactus]

[dadsbongos]

Alright, so, I'm well aware that the antag series revolves around her and Hajime, but I kinda wanna know more about her relationship with Nagito, Mikan, and Kazuichi during the tragedy and after the neo world program

I'm really hooked to this series, but can you blame me lmao-

i can’t blame you nonny, antag reader series is literally all i think about anymore, literal brain rot. this is basically just like?? a character analysis essay type thing? i’m so sorry it’s so long, i just got soooo into it

Request for: antag reader (Mikan Tsumiki, Kazuichi Souda, Nagito Komaeda) Warnings: despair things, face swap mention, spoilers, manipulation and bad friending :( ~~~

Mikan Tsumiki (and like a pinch of Junko Enoshima):

The Tragedy: So basically the whole thing with (Y/n) is that her parents were just so overcritical to the point where it rooted her complex and felt like they never loved her, right? So basically, Junko was able to attack that by showing her the bare minimum affection and introducing Mikan into the mix, who was in a similar boat with being unloved. Junko made them both feel as though she was the best love they could ever have and then made them compete for it at any opportunity she could.

Mikan always loved Junko but she doesn’t love (Y/n) the same way and vice versa, despite that, they do both care for each other very deeply. They desire no relationship in each other and even view each other as rivals who happen to find somewhat of a friendship together. Mikan thinks, and always has, that (Y/n) is much more talented and worthy of Junko than she is. However, (Y/n), being deeply insecure far below the surface - never stopped thinking that Mikan was more beautiful and worthy of Junko than she was.

They find both comfort and hatred in each other due to Junko making them act as competition. They both know the pain of Junko’s rejection but they also both know that if the other was out of the way, they could have Junko all to themselves.

When (Y/n) found out Mikan took Junko’s womb, it was a betrayal due to the fact that she didn’t know beforehand, Mikan had never said anything about taking Junko’s uterus. And on top of that, she found out that Mikan had tried conceiving a despair child during their separation. Even though neither of them loves each other, they know their relationship can be viewed as lovers - they often view it as such themselves - and so, (Y/n) felt as though Mikan had cheated on her. She basically had. Even so, she still knows that nothing could make her hate Mikan, she doesn’t love her as she did Junko, but she loves her more than any other woman she’d ever known. Mikan is the only grounding she’s ever known and the only person to ever relate to her on such an intimate level.

Going back to the feeling of Mikan being prettier than her, (Y/n) stole Junko’s face entirely because of that feeling of inferiority. She never told Mikan because she was ashamed to admit that she was insecure, it would make her imperfect to be insecure.

Overall, she’s never loved Mikan as a girlfriend but they’ve always been all the other had during The Tragedy despite their ‘rivalry’ and insecurities surrounding the other.

After Neoworld: (Y/n) is definitely nervous to be around Mikan because of their history with each other and Junko. Before Mikan wakes up from the program she’s constantly worried about if the nurse will hate her or be disgusted by her. The way Mikan had treated her right before her execution hinted at some tenderness buried beneath discontent, but that could always change. When Mikan wakes up she immediately looks for (Y/n) on pure instinct.

They definitely try to help each other heal and cope with Junko’s manipulation and lies. They both have come to realize that Junko never loved either of them and they didn’t love each other - any of the comforts they had gathered in The Tragedy was a lie and they help each other through that realization.

“You’re more than what she made you.” is a common phrase between them because they know she only made them compete for her own entertainment and their despair.

It was cruel and they have to live with every emotional and physical scar from that time. But they still have each other.

Any sense of rivalry has dripped away from their bond and is now wholly intertwined by genuine friendship and connection. By their experiences and how they’re growing away from Junko and into themselves. Eventually, all their conversations stop being about Junko and healing and start being about a pretty shell Mikan found on the beach. Or how the water looks so inviting, they should go for a swim.

Or how the chairs need repainting.

Or how some flowers outside the front door would be lovely.

Or how good breakfast was this morning.

Kazuichi Souda:

The Tragedy: Kazuichi wasn’t as “enamored” with (Y/n) as he was Sonia, but he respected her Ultimate and higher intelligence enough to also refer to her as ‘miss’ when they went to school. Though he largely stopped calling her ‘Miss (Y/n)’ during The Tragedy he still respects her a lot and is even a little scared of her sometimes. Again, she’s way smarter than he is - she’s not a super genius like Izuru but she’s a smart cookie and he’s not so delusional to think he’s near her in intellect. So the fact she can copy his Ultimate status and be smarter than most people in their class is quite intimidating for him at times.

Because of the confidence she projects and her charisma and, again, higher intelligence than his, he often follows her word and example without much thought. Like if he saw her jump off a cliff, he would probably go along with it because he knows she probably has some plan to get out of the situation safely.

(Y/n) views Kazuichi sort of as a little brother - but one that follows you around like a puppy and always bugs you. She doesn’t expect much other than blind support from him and kind of accepts that he’s her “sidekick” so to speak. They didn’t view each other as equals or even true comrades - (Y/n) was always just better and that went unquestioned. She definitely used him to gain without putting much thought into the long-term of their relationship.

After Neoworld: Kazuichi had regained his memories in chunks as they left the program and at least could recall being so-called friends with (Y/n). When they awoke, they didn’t talk to each other that often since Kazuichi was extremely bitter about how she’d treated them all in the program (and him as a Remnant) and so she was left alone with Hajime.

It’s only as she actually begins healing and expressing more humane traits that he starts talking to her again. Neither apologizes for anything specific, they just aren’t those kinds of people and both parties can let it go easy enough - they’d both done horrific things and they know that. He invites her into his warehouse to take apart the Monokumas, he offers to go on walks along the beach with her - he finds it nice to be in her presence again.

Because even after what they’d been through, I feel like he does still deeply respect her due to her talent. He just also has gained more confidence in himself while in the program and therefore has more sense to not let her control his actions. Which, he finds that she hasn’t tried doing and that always encourages him to keep coming back.

Kazuichi thrives on positive feedback and (Y/n) knows this, so every time she can she’s expressing how much he means to her as a dear companion - both of them being hesitant to actually label themselves friends. Especially Kazuichi, who had already been hit by poor friendship and trust issues, remembering that (Y/n) used him during The Tragedy makes his brain go fuzzy on how he feels about her. Sometimes he’s angry and other times he forgives her wholeheartedly because he knows she’s sick and he wants her to be able to maintain the friendships that he’s able to.

I think it’s after she apologizes to everyone, pre-Nagito waking up but post Gundham and Nekomaru, that he really just lets go of everything.

It’s not easy to forget that he was just her tool but he knows that she’s better now and they start hanging out more often, by themselves, having a good ol’ time talking about absolute nonsense.

Respect turns into admiration.

Nagito Komaeda:

The Tragedy: So I’d already mentioned that (Y/n) influenced him into becoming Servant, but I wanna expand on that before digging into anything else. At heart, Nagito is a people pleaser to the Ultimates, and none more than the copycat who can master pretty much anything she wants. During their school years, she didn’t see anyone as her equal and that resonated with Nagito’s inferiority complex and while she hates people who have no confidence, she would hate to be like everyone else more. So she kinda just accepted the servitude that came with befriending Nagito on the first day of school up until The Tragedy where he practically begged her to take him with her wherever she went.

She was the first one to really hold onto his chain, both literally and metaphorically. He joined the Ultimate Despair with Junko to create a despair to overcome, but only (Y/n) was allowed to actually touch him - or else he started throwing a huge fit. 

In order to spread despair and crush Nagito’s everlasting obsession with hope, she probably intentionally ignores and neglects him when he needs her.

This largely means when he’s mourning/remembering his parents and dog or his illnesses or when he’s falling into despair and needs her to pull him out, she’s just watching and doing nothing.

In fact, when Nagito had brought up his plans to join the Warriors of Hope he was really hoping she’d speak against it, and she didn’t. She actually encouraged it. Pushing him to leave her alone and join the WOH. It hurt, of course, it would, but he left all the same and they hadn’t spoken since despite their ‘friendship’. (Y/n) never bothered going after him, again to crush his love of hope. 

She left him unhinged, alone, sick to fend for himself until he found the WOH, and even when he found them - she didn’t seem to care whether they let him live or killed him.

After Neoworld: Honestly? To say that she mourns Nagito, and her entire relationship with Nagito, is a huge fucking understatement. Especially as the others begin waking up and Hajime helps her grow, she just gets more and more depressed over her situation with Nagito. And as he takes longer and longer to wake up, she begins to accept that she was horrible to him and doesn’t deserve his forgiveness.

Before The Tragedy even, since they’d met. She always treated him with as little human respect as she could - she did it with everyone but especially him. He was basically just a little errand boy she liked to talk to and she didn’t treat him as more. During their time in despair, she was barely around for him, only holding him together when the others pushed her to do it because he was being annoying. She was so awful to the man she always claimed was her closest friend. And she wants him to hate her for it so bad.

Then he wakes up and he sees her and he smiles. He could never hate her and it only makes her feel worse.

Nagito sees how much she’s changed and he begins changing too, she tells him about how Hajime has helped her so much and he begins to follow her around with Hajime. She’s worried he’ll consider himself her lapdog again but it’s cleared up when he doesn’t run to her side one morning out of the few left before they leave.

In fact, it’s when he doesn’t speak to her for hours on end she realizes that every interaction they had was under his free will and choice. 

He doesn’t do her chores for her. She doesn’t watch him fall apart silently. They talk like friends do. Not about how talentless people are worthless or how hope is all that matters but about how they can’t wait to rebuild their favorite hangout spots and make better memories there together.

They sort of have an unannounced “restart” where they just wipe the slate clean, mostly on (Y/n)’s part so she can treat Nagito how he deserves. As a true friend rather than a pawn.

[deadly-departed]

I am THE BIGGEST Simp for Hanako and Akane (male). Could I please request a headcanon if what kind if yanderes they'd be?? I'm actually very curious about that

Yeees!!! Dear god, if you know me irl or have talked to me for more than an hour, then you'd know that Hanako could literally stab me and i would bow down to him like the god he is- thank you so much for this request anon

Hanako-Kun The Bathroom Ghost, Wonder No. 7

He's the type of yandere to be really possessive and over protective. A little delusional too.

He'll be absolutely positive that you love him, but also worry about Tsukasa taking you away from him.

Hell let you have a small bit of freedom, you still do need to do class! But he'll always keep an eye on you, whether it's him, sitting in class with you and telling you how much he loves you, or his hakujodai hovering over your shoulder

Can and will use his past against you if need be.

"Hanako, I think I want to break up with you. You're really clingy and overprotective." You say to the apparition.

"Y/N... Please don't leave me, don't be like everyone else.. I don't want to be all alone again." He forces out crocodile tears, sniffing and over all putting on a show of tears to guilt trip you into staying with him.

If for some reason you get kidnapped and try to escape, he'll use isolation as a form of punishment. He'll give you food and water once a day (enough for the full day dw) but that's it. He won't talk to you, he won't look at you, just walk I with the food and water and leave.

He'll only stop once you're basically begging for him to even look at you.

Hanako mostly does it because ha can't stand the thought of hurting you in the slightest.

As soon as you met Tsukasa, Hanako became even more protective.

He was so worried that you would like Tsukasa more than him and leave him for his twin.

He'll do anything to keep his twin away from you, even make up lies to paint his brother in a bad light.

He'll also be a very emotional yandere.

He'll come crying to you, sobbing that he loves you and that he'd do anything for you if he believes that you don't like him

He keeps a tight grip on you and everything you do, everyone you talk to. Everything has to be okayed by him

He's not going to punish by hurting you if you step out of line. No no no. It just means that you're not used to everything yet and that he just needs to give you more time

The only time he would hurt you is by accident. And he would hate himself for it. He'd think that he's becoming his brother and that he's a horrible person and keep his distance from you until you come to him

Over all he's probably exactly what you may expect from him being a yandere.

Akane Aoi, The Time Keeper

Now, if you've read the manga, you know that he already gives off slight yandere vibes.

He's a very clingy, obsessive and delusional yandere

He easily convinced himself early on into your friendship that you loved him as much as he loves you

Nothing, absolutely nothing can shatter that delusion.

You're flirting with someone else? Oh you! You just want to make him jealous. You kiss someone else? He has a hard time explaining that to himself but maybe you're just really close friends with them.

There's one line that you absolutely cannot cross though, and that's saying that you don't like him/you hate him.

He'll snap and kidnap you. Keeping you in his basement and eventually his room once you learn to behave.

He's really not one for punishments. His main ones are locking you in the basement then the room is a little too cold to be bearable while you can only wear one of his t-shirts and shorts and isolating you, only making any contact when giving you food and something to drink.

Once he kidnaps you and people notice that you're missing, he'll fake the sadness and torment that he really would be going through if he didn't know where you were.

Akane is a beautiful liar, fooling everyone.

Everyone except Teru Minamoto.

Teru knew what was going on from the start, but don't worry, he won't say anything. Not to the public at least.

He'll make off handed remarks to Akane about small things he notices

"I wonder where Y/N is. Maybe they're hiding away in someone's basement, away from the public eye." Teru says as his blue eyes scan over some papers in his hands.

Akane stops, his pen coming to a halt on his homework as he looks up at Teru. "Why would it matter to you? You weren't very close to them." The clock keeper says, slight venom lacing his voice.

Teru chuckles, keeping his eyes on the papers in front of him. "Oh I know. But I also know that you were very close to them. It makes me wonder. Why weren't you freaking out when they first disappeared, why did it take all of your class talking about it for you to notice? Seems like you're hiding something." Teru smirks softly as he looks up from his papers, scanning Akane's face.

Akane sighs, setting his pen down. "I really can't hide anything from you, huh, Minamoto?"

After that, he's a lot more cautious about his actions, not wanting anyone else to find out.

Akane is also one to try to give you as much affection as you can take without breaking down.

He'll come home from school and go straight to you, begging you for attention.

He'll do basically anything for your touch, make you food, let you walk around the house, and maybe even let you message one of your friends for a short time just for you to play with his hair.

Of course the messaging is heavily monitored. He wouldn't want his darling spilling any secrets, would he?

He really doesn't like hurting you. He will if he must, but it won't be anything permanently scarring or damaging.

Maybe grabbing your wrist a bit too harshly or tightening his grip on your shoulder but other than that he doesn't hurt you on purpose.

Sometimes, he'll just gaze at you lovingly, an absolutely lovestruck look in his eyes as he watches your movements.

He just wants a normal relationship with you.

Well, as normal as it can get with Stockholm Syndrome and obsessive traits.

[existentialstatesofmind]

Jealousy is an ugly thing

Clare: was almost to the school when Dakota caught up with her. "Maybe I should give you my phone number so you can text me on the days you want to walk here together." She said half joking. Clare knew it was only because they were coming from the same direction. She doubted it would turn into a regular thing and that was okay. Clare smiled. "Sure, but I'm not good at making up excuses so you'll have to explain why yourself." She didn't mind doing favors for her friends and Clare guessed Dakota counted as a friend. She accepted the bag without question. She wasn't expecting what happened next though. Clare didn't know who the girl he was arguing with was or who Emi was for that matter. At first she thought it must be the name of the girl he was dating who went to another school. Maybe this girl was delusional and Dakota had been stringing her along without realizing it. Or maybe he did realize it and he really was the biggest player at Degrassi. Way worse than K.C and the boys Alli had dated as her best friend insisted on cautioning her even though Clare wasn't interested in Dakota. But if he was like that maybe she shouldn't become friends with him. Clare thought about turning away and going on to class like Dakota had meant for her to do. Then what Dakota was saying started not to add up because Clare didn't have any of the facts. Maybe Dakota could have been talking about a girlfriend. She didn't discount that he could be serious enough about his giirlfriend to say he loved her especially if she'd been abandoned by someone. Her parents? But for her to already be the most important person in his life? It didn't make sense. Clare hadn't gotten the impression he'd been seeing her a long time. What was all this stuff about how Emi shouldn't be wandering around alone because she could be kidnapped by a pedophile?! Clare blushed when Dakota turned back to her. She was embarrassed he knew she'd purposely witnessed the entire incident, whatever that was. "Okay, good idea. I've got questions about...school work." Clare said completely ignoring the girl he'd told to stay away from Emi. "Dakota, Emi's not your girlfriend is she?" She asked quietly as they headed towards the classroom.

Kota: looked at the Clare when she asked about school work. "Ok." he said and listened to her question as they walked to the classroom. "Emi's-" he was cut off when he felt something at his leg. "Sorry, Dakota, she ran threatening to look for you. I couldn't get her to cooperate unless I bought her here." the daycare teacher said and Dakota put his hand on Emi's head. "This isn't like you, Emi." he cooed and looked at her. "Please don't leave me Kota-momma." she cried and he picked her up. "Shhh. I'm not leaving you." he cooed and held her in his arms. "I think this is about the girl I saw bullying her yesterday. I went to interfere, but I saw you chase after her." the teacher said and he looked at her. "Yea I didn't catch her, but I caught a glimpse of her student ID in her book bag so it was easy for me to find her." he admitted. "Don't worry, Emi. Kota took care of it. You don't have to try so hard anymore and the girl won't bully you." he explained and looked at Clare. "Clare, that girl you saw me yell at, do you know her name? I wasn't really paying attention when I was chasing her." he admitted. "If I get her name, they can make sure she won't hurt Emi again or continue putting her through his." he said and looked at the daycare instructor. "You can go back to the daycare. Emi's sleeping and starting to burn up from the stress and bullying she's been put through. I'm probably going to take her home and take care of her." he explained and looked at Clare. "This is Emi. She's the reason I haven't been sleeping. Her mom abandoned her a few weeks ago after coming back from Japan. My uncle, her dad, died and my aunt couldn't hack it so it was decided that she'd stay with my family and since my older sister can't have kids and we all felt it wouldn't be right for her to raise Emi only to connect to her and feel worse about not being able to have kids on her own so I'm Emi's mom until my aunt returns for her." he explained. "I drop her off and pick her up from daycare, do my homework while she draws pictures besides me, share a bed with her at night so she won't feel alone, and scold her. Speaking of which, the onigiri I told you about, she wasn't mad. She slapped a kid for laughing at her lunch. She knows her mom left her and asks when she's coming back for her, but no one knows where she went or why she left. Emi right now does everything she can to be a good girl because she just remembers her mom yelling at her a lot before she left and connects the two together and blames herself for it. She keeps her feelings hidden in fear she'll burden us and at times we forget she's just five, but I think her memories are what causes her to be the best person she can." he explained and moved Emi a little to feel her head. "Kota, 'm kold." Emi muttered in her sleep and Kota did his best to get his jacket around both of them. When they got to the classroom Kota knew all eyes were on them. "I'm sorry, she tried to run here and forced a daycare teacher to take her since she wouldn't calm down. She's running a fever. I don't know what else to do." he explained to their teacher and watched as he walked over to feel Emi's head. "This is the only time I'm allowing this because both your cousin and your school work are equally important and as her guardian you're responsible for her. I'll make a small bed for her using the blankets and I'm sure the nurse has child's fever reducer and a thermometer for you." he said and Dakota looked at him. "Thank you, sir. It won't happen again." he apologized and sat down in his seat once Emi was taken care of. "What question did you have about homework?" he asked Clare.

[dunkindeezdonuts]

If you actually ever went through my blog you'd find I don't openly complain about my life, I however do stand up and give a platform to anyone who has to live by the rules of this bullshit society and how a large number of people tie a persons worth to their abilities being forced to "do the bare minimum".

Also if you did any type of preliminary research into the rise of the alt-right and far right conservatives (people with whom you share similar ideologies and beliefs with and whom I'm sure you pal around with on the internet ganging up on fed up overworked people who just want a better world since the current system and what it forces us to do to while expecting us to be happy with the scraps of what is deemed the right to survive, not live survive, and calling them cucks or whatever people so full of hatred like you do since the only self esteem you have is being a proud raper of skulls and this supposed back breaking labor intensive job you have that leaves you long hours to attack people who want to make sure you never have to sell your soul to middle management and the billionaires sitting on the shoulders of the working classing laughing it up) you'd know for a fact that a large portion of your political brothers are incels a.k.a white guys angry that they can't get laid because how dare women be able to choose men who actually see them autonomously and if not then at least better looking so you'll have to accept my refusal to apologize for assuming you were one since I'm always genuinely surprised when men who talk as though they idolize the 1950s "american dream" as #goals, since that's a huge red flag that they see anyone not white straight male and cis as people needing to relearn their place beneath them, can actually find a woman to keep around until the stockholm syndrome sets in.

So yeah most of you, if not all, are women hating losers like you. The only difference is you broke someones spirit enough until you had round the clock access to the only thing you think they bring to the table, a hole for your dick to defile.

Also the reform and change I spoke of was to do with comprehensive taxes on the rich and shortened work weeks with pay that actually matches up to inflation if not more to truly cover the cost of living. Instead you just parrot propaganda leveraged at other working class and poor people spun to keep you distracted by your rage at people worse off than you who have no power over what you repeatedly claim they do to harm you.

All your posts are complaints about us and how you are the true victim so how dare they say they have it worse when its at your delusional expense??

P.S. I may be a cunt but I only become one when there happens to be a just cause, I'd love to hear your defense of hijacking strangers posts to personally attack their worth and their right to be alive but it would probably take you a week to write since you can't seem to respond without cherry picking what I write all in one go ( which I can do thanks to idk a working retention of new information and each important point needing to ) into neat bits you can purposefully take the original context out of and by then I'll have moved on thanks to the fact that I actually have a fulfilling life outside of tumblr.

Its fun actually, maybe you should get a life and invest more energy into fulfilling your soon to be wife for the first time and and then idk maybe you'll calm down.