#did i work on this instead of tktober prompts today? yes.

[intheticklecloset]

Haruka Sakura Headcanons

Just starting with this right out the gate - poor Sakura is hesitant about tickling in general, either as a lee or a ler. BUUUT, once he gets the hang of it, I think he leans more toward lee, even though he'd die before admitting it.

Since he's not used to being gentle with others or having them be gentle with him, the concept of tickling as a whole - while not unfamiliar - is kind of strange to him.

Probably Nirei and/or Suo tried it first, and I imagine Sakura panicked a little bit because "what is this, why am I laughing?!" before begrudgingly letting his friends try it again.

Honestly it probably took a couple of attempts and maybe a genuine talk or two with the others before he came to understand that they only meant to have fun, not find a new way to take him down or humiliate him.

Once they jumped that hurdle, Sakura turned into the typical "I'm not ticklish!" type of lee who would deny how bad it got to him through peals of laughter. He also denies enjoying it in any capacity, as I mentioned before (even though this is a lie and the others pick up on it pretty quick). 🤭

Did I mention he blushes like crazy? He's known for blushing easily but tickling just amplifies it to a new level! Oh and TEASING? The man might as well ascend to the sky, he simply CAN. NOT. DEAL.

On the flip side, his first attempts at being a ler were also likely with Nirei and Suo, and were really clumsy. First he was too hard, then too soft. It took a while for him to figure out what pressure worked best and to try new spots for different reactions.

The others offered to help teach him but Sakura insisted he could learn on his own.

Once he became more familiar with partaking in both sides of it, Sakura was content to allow it now and again, though he plays it off as reluctant and truly doesn't want to mess around like that too often. He's still a brawler at his core.

Aftercare, meanwhile, was a totally foreign concept to him. It took another several attempts and conversations to figure out that it wasn't pity or mockery; just a genuine attempt to make sure he was okay afterward. He made sure to do the same when he was the ler, though. He doesn't want to mess anything up now that he actually has people he considers friends. 🥹

[helloitsghost]

So hi october is almost over and we’ll

Yeah…. Tktober was smth💀

I’m really sorry for the lack of just everything I want you all to know tho I really really did try my hardest to do it and get as much done but sometimes things happens and it’s just not possible

I don’t plan to drop all the prompts and majority will be posted periodically later hopefully but for lack of a better words I want to give a better explanation of what happened during October

Cw: negative shit/vent content below the cut it’s personal shit tbh dw this won’t be common I just feel like y’all deserve a right to know what’s been happening with me and why my events/posts are so late/sporadic

October/September was a really tough/awful time period for me

Starting off I got cut from the varsity volleyball team at my school and became a manager for the jv team instead. And while that was great fun and I enjoyed it. Nothing would hurt more than watching the varsity players do their thing and be awesome while sitting there knowing how I wasn’t good enough to make it. Along with that was some home life stuff about the possibilities of making my tryouts and I was always doubted that I’d make it, and even though I wanted to prove everyone wrong. Everyone who doubted me was right and I failed. And it felt like nobody truly believes in me and what I can do.

No matter what I did everyday I’d be reminded of how much of a failure I was watching volleyball and wondering what was even the point of me being there if nobody believed in me. And I struggled greatly with my confidence and self esteem.

So much that even though I love to joke about it I could never watch a varsity game without leaving to go cry midway. Today was the last game of the season so hopefully I can forget about it. But club season is coming up so who knows💀

And yes I know. It’s just a sport why are you so upset?

It’s more than just that. I love this sport with everything I’ve got and wouldve done anything to play for just 5 minutes. But it was more than playing. It was that no matter what I did I was nothing more than a failure and I’d never be enough. And nobody in my life believed in me and what I can do, and that there will always be doubt in my abilities, so what’s the point of being confident?

And top that with the previously mentioned stress and pressure I get at home with grades and sadly my body as well

And no matter how hard I try nothing seems to go right and everything feels like I’m stuck and a failure

I struggle deeply with anxiety and low self esteem and other shit I’d rather not get into

But all of this plus school work and just in general my own mental health issues and struggles

It made me lose confidence in my work and that it wouldn’t be good enough and I’ll never have art that’s good enough for anyone

And I’ve just been exhausted both physically and mentally where I just can’t bring myself to draw

Atm I’m finishing some work and I was working on a lokius drawing cause lol still love drawing

But yeah

That’s where I’ve been + an explanation for what’s been going on and why posts/plans are so often out of order and just wack

If you’ve gotten this far rkvjsnvn thank you for listening to what my random dumbass gots to say

My lokius drawing is nearly done so thas smth to look forward to but yeah

I wanted to be honest and let you all know what’s been going one lately especially with recent growth nearing 300 followers it’s just smth I felt I had to do💀

But yeah see y’all when I’m not so brain dead💀

Another stupid update

yo junior year be mad wack

I got stuff so tktober gonna be paused for a second

I’ll try to get 5 and 6 posted tmrw since it will be Friday but def not tonight I’ve gots loads of stuff :P Ight seeya