#did i mention that i love ango sm?

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drawing that i made at night while my family talking shit behind me 🎀🎀

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about that gaiden content :   @logicusage asked, so here we go  ~ 

disclaimer: this info was accumulated from HERE, and the OP’s source is a korean version of gaiden, so some details may have been lost / changed in translation. also, gaiden is apparently REAL COMPLICATED and big chunks / details were left out by the OP in these summaries, so i’m not entirely sure on some events and their timeline. the OP did include page numbers tho, so i’m using those to put together things chronologically. 

PS. GAIDEN SPOILERS AHEAD !!

TIMELINE THINGS

gaiden takes place 1 - 2 years prior to the main storyline.

tsu has been putting up with ayatsuji’s shit for about 2 years when gaiden takes place. 

The case of Reigo Island happened about 5 years prior to canon  ( i’m assuming that means gaiden canon, not bsd main canon ). this case is why ayatsuji fell under gov surveillance and it’s also the case involving tsu’s mother’s death. ( more on this DRAMA LAMA below ).

THE CASE OF REIGO ISLAND

The case of Reigo Island is a serial murder case, where the residents of the island apparently killed tourists for their money and somehow disguised it as the victim’s staying on the island for prolonged amounts of time. 

The case involved 17 culprits, all were said to be killed by ayatsuji’s ability -- including tsu’s mother. 

In actuality, there was an 18th culprit, who actually orchestrated the whole thing. they are called the ‘engineer’. 

Not entire sure on this point, but apparently Aya failed to deduced the Engineer’s crimes because he had already left the island by the time Aya arrived, so the Engineer remains the only living survivor of that case and tsu is out to get him. Well, mostly just to ask him a question.

and that question is :    “ If my mother was an evil murderer, I will throw her out of my heart. If she was nothing more than your puppet, I ahve to seek revenge against Ayatsuji-sensei for having murdered my poor mother under your control. Did my mother dirty her own hands? Or did she only help in your plans? “  ( my little tsuji-squared heart go brrrr )

GAIDEN STORY BITS   (  listed chronologically, i think  )

at some point  --  definitely AFTER the reaper manifests for the first time, but i think a whole ton of other stuff occurred in between  ( likely still involving tsu and her ability tho )  --  stuff happened which lead to Aya escaping the gov and go rogue. 

aya calls tsu after he goes rogue and he  LIES  tells her that he can’t stand left because he can’t stand being chained down by petty underlings of the gov and that he can’t stand being associated with such incompetent people. tsu, of course, gets all kinds of emotional about it calls him irresponsible and blames his irresponsibility for her mother’s death.

after aya went rogue, ango straight up asked tsu if she would be able to shoot + kill aya and she said  “ of course ”

meanwhile, tsu is trying to process things / put things together on why aya left and she realizes that SHE was the one with murderous intent when she apparently RAN OVER someone  ( i’m thinking technically it was her ability and not her, but i’m not entirely sure. )  and aya left to prevent tsu from being killed by his ability. 

in the end, tsu realizes that she can’t shoot aya.  cause she love him too much.

aya apparently goes to challenge kyogoku again on that same mountain + waterfall area from the very beginning of gaiden, but aya’s being chased by the gov this time, which tsu believes puts him at a disadvantage. 

tsu runs and runs and RUNS up that moutain in order to get to aya and save him. --  and to tell him something.   probably, that she loves him.

but tsu doesn’t make it in time. when she gets there, ango is already pointing a gun at aya’s head, thanking aya for his service to the gov before shooting him in the head THREE TIMES. 

tsu breaks down over aya’s death.

at some point after aya’s death, tsu gets into a life-threatening situation of her own. there’s a gun pointed at her head  ( i think ? )  and she’s bleeding out and calling out to her mom AND AYA and guess who answers her call ?? 

that’s right it’s aya. he’s not dead. he just enjoys torturing tsu. 

tsu actually confronts aya, asking him why he left the gov’s surveillance for her / to save her and of course aya is a brat about it saying that he wouldn’t go that far for her. but in the end he confesses that he knew it was tsu’s ability that was the murderer and not tsu.  ( i’m not sure if this is referencing the police force that tsu accidently killed or someone else ?? and if it’s someone else, I’M SO INTRIGUED !!  )  and he only pretended to leave the gov in order to catch the real culprit off guard. 

aya mentions something about  ‘ retraining ‘  tsu and tsu threatens to push him off the cliff again.  ( this is v important plot point, i swear. ) 

apparently aya and ango collaborated on how to fake aya’s death and they purposely left tsu out of the plan cause  ( like chuu )  her expressions are far too readable sometimes. all the time.  i love her sm.  

TSUJI-SQUARED EVIDENCE

these two idiots are in love and in this essay i will -- 

aya lost his cool when tsu was being barraged by bullets  ( and was having a momentary freak out that caused her to freeze up ) . he called her an idiot  ( which is a universal bsd symbol for love )  and pulled her to safety.  PS. She also called him a jerk, specifically saying “i started running with a jerk”  and honestly do you care them ?

aya cooked lamb and teased tsu about not having a serving for her to the point tsu.exe crashed and she ACTUALLY FAINTED. tsu is a pure cinnamon roll who apparently really loves her lamb.

when aya went rogue, he called tsu and lied to her about a whole bunch of stuff in order to get her to give up on saving his life  ( and by extension, to save her life ) .  please read more HERE cause it’s gold and i’m soft about it. 

when tsu is injured during that near-death experience and tries to move, aya catches her so she doesn’t fall on her face. T ^ T

aya apparently teases tsu about ‘training’ a few times and the specific word used in the original japanese has some s/m undertones, so excuse me while i formulate on that. :3c  specifically on how tsu is a switch and while aya talks a big game, tsu can still TOP.

i’m sure there’s a bunch more that i have yet to uncover and honestly, i’m excite 

FUN FACTS ON TSU’S MOM

tsu and her mom didn’t have a great relationship. it’s implied that they were sorta estranged several years prior to her mom’s death. 

also, SURPRISE !   tsu’s mother isn’t actually dead. she faked her death and was in hiding. 

apparently, tsu’s mom and ayatsuji have a long chat. i’m assuming it happens towards the end of gaiden, but i can’t be totally sure. 

i’m also not entirely sure if tsu KNOWS her mom is still alive and is just in hiding ??

tsu’s mom is apparently a BIG TIME agent and has been for some time. specifically, she’s the director general’s aide. 

it’s implied that ango may have met tsu’s mother. 

it’s also implied that tsu’s mom is the one who arranged tsu’s assignment with aya and specifically arranged it that tsu’s first day would be aya’s bday. 

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Don’t Leave Me (pt. 2)

Rating: everyone Word count: 1.9 K Fandom: Bungou Stray Dogs Pairing: OC x Dark!Ango Sakaguchi Genre: Angst Warnings: Again, there’s some blood mentions in this chapter. Also, half filler chapter (does that count as a warning?)

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He got off her and laid down next to her, closing his eyes and trying to sleep. Unfortunately for him, his mind wouldn’t leave him alone, thoughts of his past coming back to haunt him in the silence of the night.Words he never thought he’ll hear again, voices he thought were buried deep down in his past came back to life. The voices he heard were full of hatred, the images he saw as he closed his eyes were nothing but disturbing. “You’re a monster!” he could hear the woman screaming at him.

“What’s the problem?” a man appeared out of nowhere, his voice confused.

“That… That is not our child, that is a monster!” the weeping woman took the man’s arm, as if shielding herself from the kid, her expression was full of horror at seeing the small boy in such a state.

Ango Sakaguchi was five or six years old when the whole incident happened, being the 12th son in a family of 13 children was hard, food and toys weren’t the only things he had to compete for. The love of his parents was another, possibly more important than the rest of them.

So, the small child, who was now covered in blood from head to toes and was tightly gripping a knife with a grin on his face, felt miserable when he heard the woman he admired and wanted to love him say those things about him.

Why wasn’t she happy? His small hands pushed his huge circular glasses up, so he could see both of them better: his mother was now trembling, her cheeks stained with tears.

“Did I made you sad, mommy?” he asked in an innocent voice that would have been cute, had he not being covered in blood. He looked down at the blood that was pooling around his feet. Its crimson was staining the recently polished wooden floors and his small white socks.

He could feel the wet, hot and sticky liquid soaking through the fabric of his socks. His feet moved around a bit, hating the feeling of getting his feet wet. 

“Don’t call me that! You’re a monster! You’re not my son, you’re the Devil himself!” her high pitched screams got louder, the poor kid could barely understand what was happening.

Ango Sakaguchi was five or six years old when the whole incident happened. He was five or six years old when he realized that his own mother hated him. He was five or six years old his heart broke. Even when seventeen years went by, he could still remember all of the sensations that filled his body as he did that.

The thick warm blood that painted his hands in a deep red, his hands shaking as he committed the act, the way his heart beat out of control, excited and scared at the same time.

He had liked the feeling that killing gave him, but even that couldn’t erase his mother’s horrifying weeps as her eyes were glued into one of her youngest sons.

The years passed by and every time the memory came back to him, there was something that he couldn’t stop, something that he couldn’t shake away. The exciting feeling that came with the aftermath of his actions were exciting to him, it was almost as if he was addicted to it and, the more time he spent without feeling his hands covered in blood, the more impatient he grew.

He never knew exactly why, why was he so desperate to feel that again? Why did he felt so good whenever he felt that? It seemed as if there was no answer at all, at least for the time being. Slowly, his eyes began to open up, the sun hitting him in the eyes waking him from his walk down memory lane. His hands were clenching, clearly affected by the dream he had. His jaw was hurting and that was the clear indicator that he had gritted his teeth while he slept.

He extended his arm, finding the spot next to him empty. Where was she? He got up and put on his glasses, his vision clearing immediately, allowing him to take in his surroundings. His hands opened and closed nervously, like he was ready to kill someone. Where was she when he needed her so desperately?

He got up from the bed and began walking around, his hands desperately needing something to hold on to, his glasses forgotten on the bedside table. “Ango!” he heard the voice he needed so much behind him. He turned around, facing her. Even if he couldn’t see her correctly, he just knew it was her. Without saying a word, he brought her to him and hugged her tightly against his chest. “Where were you?” his voice was low, broken. Showing how weak he was feeling at the moment. “I was just making some coffee.” she answered as she enveloped him in the hug she knew he desperately needed. “Are you okay?” He didn’t answer, he just stood like that. Holding her like she was his lifeline with trembling hands. His nose touching her head, he could feel the soft scent that never failed to relax him when he got like this. He kissed her head and, after quite a long time, he slowly released her.

“I am now.” he smiled as he took a bit of her hair out of her face. “I’ll go take a shower now.” he let her know as he turned around and walked towards the bathroom.

She stood there for a while, quite confused with her boyfriend’s attitude. It wasn’t something out of the ordinary, but it wasn’t normal either.

His hair was dripping wet from his shower when he entered the kitchen again, ready to eat what his girlfriend had cooked with a smile on his face despite of his dream. 

“Will you come back home late again today?” she asked with a soft loving look in her eyes, he felt bad, but the only answer he was able togive her was a shrug of his shoulders.

“I don’t know. You know how crazy the working hours are.” she nodded sadly, making her feel worse for lying in such a way.

“It just… sucks that the government is using you to spy on the mafia in such a way…” the wave of guilt inside of his chest intensified as those words escaped her lips. She had no idea, she wasn’t even suspicious about the lies that he had told her.

She had no idea and just the thought of her waiting hopefully for him to return as if he was a superhero broke his heart farther. He took a deep breath as he forced himself to keep composed. He had lied to her not only for her own safety, but also so she wouldn’t fear him.

The man known to the world as Ango Sakaguchi was walking slowly down the street. His eyes seemed lost behind those two circles of glass he called glasses and they were only focused in the floor in front of him.

“Oh my God! I’m so sorry!” a girly voice exclaimed, then he felt something in his arm. A girl had ran into him, she was holding what looked like a paper map as she blushed, embarrassed. “I’m so sorry, I was trying to figure out where I was and I couldn’t see anything in front of me.” As soon as she looked up at him, he could feel his eyes opening up. The girl in front of him was cute, she was probably a few years younger as well as shorter than himself. Immediately, he could feel himself being drawn by her. What was it? “Do you need help?” he asked before he could stop himself. He was walking towards the mafia headquarters, the first thing he had to do was to get information out of someone by any means necessary. And yet, there he was, wasting his time with a cute smiling girl that he barely knew.

“Yes, I think I’m lost. You see, I just moved here and I was looking for…” he was so distracted by the girl that had landed in his arms that he could barely listen to what she was saying without thinking about how soft and sweet her voice was.

“You were going to work?” she asked and immediately turned red with shame. “Oh my God, I’m so sorry. I wasn’t… I didn’t mean to ask…” she stuttered, even more red.

Ango smiled, her red cheeks making him feel warm inside, something that he wasn’t used to feeling. “It’s okay. Yes, I was on my way to work.” he answered as he began to walk towards the address she had written down in a corner of the map.

The girl’s eyes immediately lit up, she clearly wasn’t expecting such a reaction from him. “Where do you work?” she asked. He panicked, what was he supposed to say? That he was an executive in the most violent mafia in Yokohama?

It took him a few seconds to gather his thoughts and let out a coherent answer. “I work for the government.” he let out. Why did he tell a lie? Why was he so reluctant to tell this unknown girl the truth?

He stopped at a corner with a huge smile on his face. “This is where we have to separate. The place that you were looking for should be that way.” he said as he pointed at his left. The girl suddenly looked really sad. “What is it?” he asked with a curious tone of voice.

“Oh, it’s nothing… I just… “ she sighed, as if he was about to judge her. ”Since I’m new here I was hoping to make some friends and… you’re the first one you has talked to me without sounding annoyed and… I was hoping you could maybe be my friend?” 

No, that was exactly what Ango wanted to avoid. Anyone who wasn’t part of the mafia wasn’t supposed to have any kind of relationship with him. He was supposed to be the scariest member of the mafia, then… Why was he swooning over some girl that he had just met? 

“Of course.” his mouth let the words out again before he was even able to process what he was agreeing to. “I would love to have such a nice girl as my friend.” he said as he smiled at her.

“Thank you so much!” she exclaimed, sounding as happy as a child who got the candy they wanted. “Here.” he took a crumpled piece of paper and wrote a few numbers. “This is my phone number, call me whenever you want to meet up, okay?” he nodded and she smiled. “I’ve got to go now, uhm…” she hesitated.

“Ango… Ango Sakaguchi.” he filled for her.

“I’ve got to go now, Ango. It was nice to meet you!” She turned around and began walking before he could even ask her name, the only thing he had left was a crumpled piece of paper with some random numbers on it. A smile formed on his lips as he watched her walk away, there was something about her… He had no idea what it was, but he was going to find it out.

He looked at the girl who was sitting in front of him and smiled, after all the times he had let her down due to his work, she was still by his side with a smile on her face. Ready to calm him down and put a smile on his whenever he needed it.