#despite this only being my third post about them on here 💀

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Mlem

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Update! (Again lol): plans, loss, and music

Howdy doody! I’ll get to the fic stuff lickety split cuz I imagine that’s the most pertinent for most. Next TLC soon to be posted and the part after that under way again! Just have to finish up checking up the next section as it was done before but was one of the fics claimed by one of my cringy “want to delete my existence” moods 💀🤡 that’s where my ao3 and masterlist went too so whoops lol did save my stuff from getting posted under someone else’s name once so sometimes that cringe instinct works out for the better 👌🏻 still trying to kick the habit tho 💀 but yeah just gotta clean it over and get it back up again! Thank you for your patience 🤍

Comfort fic with Croc is well underway! Sorry that that’s taking longer than expected and an even bigger sorry to the request for Croc and reader team bonding smut cuz that boys been taking ten million years. Both of you, I appreciate your patience too and hope to make it worth the wait!!

X Marine reader headcanons almost done in their first part! Doing the first installment as general headcanons/vibe and the backstory for them, the second being a detailed how they met, and the third being a big event for the relationship like a confession or one saving the other or coming to terms with the relationship being doomed etc etc. it kinda spiraled out of control on ideas as I have a tendency to do sorry 😅

Besides a Law fic, those are the priorities right now tho there’s also kinktober to discuss. I’ve always always wanted to do kinktober but I’m still not good enough. I’ve been trying to do some prep for it and think I may be able to get many headcanons out for the month on it but again I’m not at a quality or in life circumstances where I can make it happen with actual fic this year.

And with life circumstances, yeah there’s business with jobs and obligations and taking care of people and trying to take care of myself, but my great struggle for the past stretch of weeks and onwards is the death of my mentor, friend, and father figure who was my piano teacher. He was older but it was very sudden and we’ve all been scrambling to contend with the loss of him and try to keep all the programs he was running afloat and keep his memory and influence alive. His reach in the music community and the genuine depth with which he connected to others is now a huge wound for many of us. He was a person of exceptional quality and heart. There’s a memorial concert for him mid October that I’m one of the performers in and I’m glad it’s forcing me to practice because piano has been really hurting. Everything has been. I was already struggling to keep on top of things and in the face of this I really am floundering pretty bad, despite trying to take care of it myself cuz I know I was already asking much of others having to listen to me sometimes and most people go mute in the face of death and I don’t want that to be my experience with others right now.

So to share something more positive in this experience, here is a snippet of the piece I’m polishing back up for the memorial concert.

You’ll hear me mention briefly in the middle a “church bells section”. I was talking with @gingernut1314 about this piece while showing her some other stuff and so I gave context about why I chose it for his memorial. For ease imma just pop in a copy of that lol

{This is from the piece that I’m polishing back up for Ian’s memorial concert! It’s the second movement of Debussy’s Images for Piano. I finished learning all three with Ian. The first is likely my favorite, the third is a MONSTER (but that atm just kinda makes me want to get that back up again too to Conquer it lol), but the second one has the right mood for a memorial and is the one I spent the most time working on with him for expression (took forever to get it right and some of it was still only like just almost there when my recital came around 🤡) and it was the one I think he was happiest with how I played in the end. The final bit of the movement is just breathtaking and peaceful tho it does end sad. Ian talked about his time studying in Europe and visiting France and church bells echo on the mountainside there and that that’s the type of imagery to evoke there. He was a devout man himself and I thought that that being the end to something I play for his memory would make him happy.}

Thank again sweet pea for your time listening to me play and talk about classical piano and such in general!!! I appreciate you 🧡🧡🧡 and thank you to any of you who give this vid a listen and have this post a read. I hope to bring actual substance and treats to you all soon!!! I working on it I swear 💀💀💀

On a final note that sums basically all this shit up, that mentioned Law fic is something I’ve been mucking through to process some by engaging with a death that isn’t related to me. So! It is a fic where reader helps Law finally open up all the festering feelings and thoughts he wouldn’t let himself express around Cora’s death. I’ll give a more proper shout out there, but thank you to the people who have shown me kindness and understanding and friendship in the past couple months. You all know who you are (hopefully haha) - I try to impress these things directly to you as well but it felt right to say it here as well. Interacting with you all has impacted me positivity and you all make the world a more welcoming and loving place 🤍🤍🤍

I’d also like to extend a thank you to anyone interacting with any of my posts! I often feel invisible and unworthy so acknowledgements even small and passing are a nice !!!! to my brain and I appreciate it❣️

Talk to yall soon!

Oh and as a stupid ps cuz I forget things and have nowhere else to put this random thought - expect some One Piece crochet content sometime dhdjfhkdnd I’m finally almost fuckin done with a damn Bepo design that’s been fighting me forever 😤😤😤 same with a Cora swan lol might sneak some regular crochet and more piano in there too for shits and giggles but we’ll see - anyone else get The Guilt when you post things that don’t feel like the thing you promised or should ehcjfjldmccl cuz this bitch do and it keeps me from doing like anything cuz I’ve got a clinical case of the Brain Sillies 🤷🏼‍♀️ anyway - smooches!!!!

Oh and if you’re afraid to comment or like cuz the death topic - I won’t think anyone is being an ass for not mentioning it lol I brought it up for context and because he is so important to me not because I expect people on a post to do something about it. So as with all my content, no worries!! This is a Chill Zone that just so happens to have sad hours semi regularly but we vibe lol

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If you get this, answer w/ three random facts about yourself and send it to the last seven blogs in your notifs. anon or not, doesn’t matter, let’s get to know the person behind the blog!

Oh, nice chain! Alright, let's see!

1) I work at the post office! With customers, not as a postman! I am a little snarky but competent and super serious. Many customers that want to get into my window specifically. o_o" This is kind of time-consuming and not very rewarding, but it is really hard to find a better job in where I live. You know, the whole thing where companies only pretend to be hiring people and every interview is by default declined because they're content overworking their 2 workers doing work of 10 people? xD Fun thing: this is the THIRD time I am back at this workplace! Because they also keep trying to lessen their staff number to save money on salaries, but every time their business starts collapsing and they end up hiring again. They NEVER learn :/

(Lmao ffs I should just make this goddamn image my blog banner if this is the only punchline I know of 💀💀💀)

2) I bought PS4 specifically to be able to play Bloodb0rne! As good as I've gotten with lore and headcanons despite only "experiencing" the game via wikias and playthroughs, I NEEDED to lay my hands on it because asking all three of my friends for this or that screenshot became bothersome!

Bought it for half-price from a gamer that got PS5 and no longer needed PS4. Well.. Back then I could not have had an idea I'd end up getting into entire series, so now I know DeS is not accessible for me. Not sure if I can repeat this maneuver; not only PS5 costs more than I do myself, but also saving became impossible in where I live since then!

3) I've learned English 80% thanks to ask-blogging and RPing online! In fact, because of how much I am using English, at this point I am thinking on English more often than on my native language. I was pretty great in school English classes (best, actually), but the real turning point was having to go to English-speaking spaces for fandomry and RPing. I've just never found my place in Russian speaking fandoms, being a raging autist obsessed with every single canon detail is not common in them and makes people look at you like a looser that doesn't have """real""" life or """real""" hobbies if they act like this. :p So, when as a teen (16) I saw how much fun English-speaking fans had with fandoms here on Tumblr, I just HAD to try and level my English to be able to interact.

Granted, it is debatable whether local fandoms actually were never great, or it was my OWN bad luck of running into boring superfical level fans.. but I am glad that I've put my activity as a fan in this cursed hellsite, and ended up speaking English so fluently that many people are surprised it isn't my native one. xD

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Blue30 semi-serious analysis post (or something) yay~

I know what everyone’s thinking: “Omg the fusion of Blue9 and Aqua29”. Yeah, it does vibe like that. This team is undoubtedly strong, but the teams for MCC30 as a whole are ridiculously strong, so like MCC29, it’s difficult to predict and depends on game order + morale / performances of players on that day.

As we learned from Aqua29, overall team synergy/ performance can be more important than individual performances. That’s how Aqua29 pushed themselves up to 2nd despite no one in top 10.

MCC30 Blue Bats actually has pretty damn good chemistry?? I think everyone knows each other. And we’ve got three MCC winning duos: False + Fruit (9), Dave + False (29), Fruit + Shubble (26), so if they win again, their win count will be lowkey ridiculous lol. Dave and False can possibly get a DOUBLE back-to-back, which is amazing.

One major reason for my confidence in Aqua29 was the presence of HBomb. The H factor worked for both Blue9 and Aqua29, but in this case, Shelby is fantastic at team games. She’s a great communicator and boosts morale, plus she’s teamed with Fruit and Dave before. The only person she hasn’t teamed with is False, but they’ve got Empires so they’re friends. Once I saw Shubble in this team, I was like “ohhhhh Scott made an excellent choice here” :))) Shelby can definitely make up for the weaknesses of the two PvPers.

The question of leadership pops up again, and personally I’m leaning towards Dave, although I think the four of them can vibe and communicate at the same time (seeing as they know each other more than Aqua29/Blue9 knew each other at the time). One thing I’m excited to see is Dave-False again so soon, because False made amazing call-outs last time (I don’t think she’s ever spoken that much in a MCC). I think Dave misheard False’s comms in BB and apologised, so he might pay more attention to her comms this time lol. Also wdym Fruit and False’s last MCC was ALL STARS??? Anyways False also girlbossed her way through All Stars’ Grid Runners while the men were being himbos, so maybe they’ll listen to her this time fhejfjjdcjjd.

And because I’m biased, here’s a whole paragraph dedicated to False. Blue30 is False’s FIRST team without a hermit (!!! She’s graduated!!), but she’s with an Empires buddy and she knows everyone on the team (much like Ren’s first non-hermit team Yellow21, which also had Fruit plus Joel and Fwhip from Empires). I said pre and post 29 that False can be a good leader if she feels comfortable in a team, and she definitely felt comfortable with Aqua29 (possibly because it’s 3/4 of Yellow28, another MCC she spoke quite a lot in). Now, Blue30 can absolutely be such a team, especially after her recent win in 29 which can boost confidence. I don’t know much about False-Shubble being competitive together, but I watched the Minecraft Legends stream yesterday and everyone was vibing and communicating well (although everyone in that stream was from Traffichermitempires). Basically I think this could be another team in which False speaks up and offers valuable input (because sometimes people just forgor the border in SkB and take a lot of damage 💀)

I compared Aqua29 to a better Yellow20. I can see Blue30 following a Yellow21ish trajectory unfortunately because Yellow21 got third and I’m still sad. Blue30 will likely be good at SG (like Yellow21) and PvP in general. Hopefully they won’t do what Yellow21 did at BB lmao <3

This team is strong, well rounded, and has good chemistry. It’s just that other teams are also strong 💀 but if Aqua29 can get a legendary win, why not continue that legacy? ;)