#depression oit

[yeahlikethebird]

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[shezzarus]

a very short strip of how ive been feeling lately

full text:

« the short way out

for my shame

and your triumph

for my terrors

and your indifference

you shape me sharply

without even knowing

i was already

big enough

to do it on my own »

((anyways, remember to drink water kids))

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

THE TEST MY WORTH CHAPTER FOUR OUTLINE WAS FUCKING WHAT

never going to try writing porn again. what are they doing

[popiplant]

THE GREAT POPI UT FIC REC LIST . PART 1. SFW!! (warning these r all sans centric)

some of these r old. u can tell theyre old, they have old tropes and are on the ledge on being a little TOO edgy. but i love them sm.

my bookmark notes r the only description ur getting get ready. and a doodle if i remember whats in the fic

complete works || mind the tags!

no pairings - Phantom Pains by Silverskye13

popi review : I JUSD READ THIS AGAIN IM INSANE IM INSANE IM NOT NORMALLL

no pairings - Rift by scians

popi review : FUCKKKK I'M FREAKING OIT I'M GOING CRAZY..A LITTLE INSANE IF YOU WILL.

sans/grillby - Scorched Scraps and Tatters by CatKing_CatKin

popi review : I FUCKING LOVE THIS !!!!! YEESAAAAAA

sans/grillby - He Says He Loves Me by reflectionsofalex

popi review : ON THE FLOOR CRYING

this is long! more under the cut!

no pairing - a lesson in grief. by Anonymous

popi review : i swear to got this wad tje fic that got me into my year long depressive episode… tmi

no pairing - No Rain by Digi_Wears_Goggles

popi review : AAHHMUUUGGH HES SO.

no pairing - To know that they'll never fade away by GibbousLunation

popi review : KILL ME

sans/gaster - he was pointing at the moon but i was looking at his hand by CallicoKitten

popi review : i miss thdm…

no pairing - Hairline Fractures by kaliawai512

popi review : FUCKKK

no pairing - give my gun away when it's loaded by orphan_account

popi review : the depression

no pairing - not like im gonna crack my soul over this or something by TripleTripThreat (DarkColdSummer)

popi review : LOSING IT

no pairing - Skelebros Raise Frisk by Seasnake

popi review : AAUAGHGHHHHHHH

no pairing - Permanent Smile by undertalefa

popi review : AAAAAJHHHH !!!! I NEVER READ THE ENDING OF THIS ONE IM SO HAPPY YAAAYYY !!!!!!!!

no pairing - Drag you down by dyonisia96

popi review : BANGER BANGER BANGER

no pairing - Absolution by metalhamster

popi review : OHH YM GGKODDDDDDDDD. MOUTH OPEN JN AWE WJAT THE FUUUCCKKK

no pairing - Getting to the Root of Things by dotYoo

popi review : WHAT IF I DIED

no pairing - brother, killer, friend by dumbkili

popi review : im so ill

no pairing - Fractured Psyche by BlueDew

popi review : punches my wall really hard

sans/toriel - Feeling Bonely by Zeezeepearl

popi review : SNIFF SJIFF AYAGHGHHHH

no pairing - Butterscotch Pie (Hold the Cinnamon) by kaliawai512

popi review : HANDPLATES MAKES ME WANT TO KMS

no pairing - Oh, Brother by peachyelixer

popi review : IM ILL IM ILL

no pairing - Growing Pains by taizi

popi review : AAAAAAAAAAUUUUGGHHHHHHH

no pairing - hole by rhyssands

popi review : why the FUCK did i not bookmark this its fire

[ghozt-gutz]

Hey sorry for the lack of posting guys.

I’ve been in a really sad doomery mood lately. I guess I’m just getting ready to suffer and struggle again I finally got a good job that pays me decent and gives me overtime whenever I want for the first time in my life and now I’m worried that we’re headed for another economic downturn and I’m going to end up right back where I was. I can’t imagine I’m alone in feeling this way, like hey life was actually starting to not kick the shit out of me and now I’m gonna be poor as fuck again and my trans partner is going to go through it and we’re both going to lose vital healthcare we need and aaAAAAAHHH FUCKKNG HATE IT HERE someone please get me the fuck oit of this clown country where I have to live a nightmare every four years 🙃

And then seeing how all these American men are behaving just full mask off chuddery makes me never wanna interact or talk to a man again especially after how I’ve been treated this year. My body your choice? My body your funeral fuck you. God I hate how much I love men and find them attractive and love male attention because every relationship I’ve ever had with a man has sucked so fucking bad I’ve never been with a man who hasn’t talked down to me or given me shit for my weight or my appearance or treated me like I was stupid or not good enough or projected his own bullshit onto me or just straight up ditch me and I have very little faith that I’m ever gonna meet a guy that would ever take any interest in me who doesn’t doesn’t do any of that shit. Like fuck man. It just feels so bleak out here. I’m tired. I’m so tired.

Okay well I’ll stop bitching tho I’m sorry.

I’m trying to pull myself out of it though. There’s a couple of pieces I really wanna get done before the year is out so I’m trying to find the drive to finish them. But overcoming all this depression I have is hard.

Anyway if you made it this far into this post I thank you for hearing me vent and I’ll try finish something soon. Thanks yall.

[catbirthdays]

What was wrong with it? 😭 I'm nervous now.

SPOILERS (I STILL THINK YOU SHOULD SEE IT):

let me preface this by saying i know we were never going to get canon movie symbrock, but i still think its stupid to get teased for it and then get nothing, especially since symbrock is a canon relationship in the comics as well as a key character trait for eddie brock. so theres that.

ny other issues come from a writing standpoint. the 2018 venom and especially the sequel arent the best written movies oit there but i still went along with the plot and everything felt right and made sense. this 3rd movie is legitimately embarrassing and i cant defend it like i could with the others. the script looks better as a script because as a movie i was just cringing the whole time. not to mention the pacing was really bad unfortunately. i waited the whole movie for it to get going and then the last act was the last act, then it was over.

i also cant help but be a debby downer about it all because it just feels like they didnt put the love into this. like it was all for nothing and now we wait for disney to put their greedy lil fingers on venoms character and ruin it too.

the ending felt like it was supposed to be a GATCHA! but it wasnt, not in the way i wanted it to. im supposed to just move on knowing eddie will never have venom again? because they didn't make me believe anything else will happen with the two. not in this ~cinematic universe~

and for my personal note: i really needed a win. ive been insanely depressed in a way ive never been before, and all i wanted was a good time with venom, because thats what i got with the first 2. instead i left the theater mad and cynical.

but on the flip side, this def reignited my love for venom. venom comics have literally been my favorite comics since i was a kid ( besides idw transformers), and im so fond of tom hardy and his interpretation of eddie brock. i adore him in these movies and i want to refresh myself with the comics now. yay something! yay!

[zaynes-ocs]

This is Doomspeaker!

Info/story under read more!

Doomspeaker is Grim’s mother, a nightwing who can only predict terrible disasters, she is a shy, softspoken dragon who isnt very well liked in the tribe for her horrid visions and is seen as an omen of bad luck.

She fears her visions most of all and in the early days of the war she was sent to various different tribes on assignments to help prevent unnecessary tragedies (and keep the bad luck omen out of the tribe), where she met Hawk (another oc of mine) who was a Skywing guard who was actually a spy working with the talons of peace and has a strong belief in the nightwing prophecies.

Hawk was the first dragon to ever tell Doomspeaker that her visions were helpful and good after she predicted a landslide that would have crushed a skywing hatchery, but Hawk believed her warning and was able to rescue the eggs and save many infant dragonet lives.

From there, the two fell in love and Doomspeaker eventually became eggbound, knowing she’d have to return to the nightwings to keep their relationship a secret. She promised Hawk that one day she’d return with their dragonet, that she’d be certain they knew their father and Hawk bid farewell with a final, loving goodbye.

The night of Grim’s hatching, Doomspeaker had a horrid, prophetic vision of the disaster that Grim would cause, of the danger the queen was in from him being born alone and she rushed to the hatchery to smash her own egg, but she was too soft-hearted and couldnt bear to do that to her own dragonet, and her hesitance allowed grim to hatch in a violent burst of heat and flame, too hot for a normal dragon and boiling the other 2 eggs in his clutch as he hatched on the moonless night.

The other nightwings whispered and sneered at how unfortunately “cursed” he was and how fitting it was for doomspeaker’s dragonet, and so Doomspeaker fell into a bought of despair and negligence.

She couldn’t face her dragonet, not after what she knew was to happen when he grew older, the monster he would become. She let the rest of the tribe take him from her, to try and train him to be an assasin from an early age as she begged and pleaded with the queen to banish him so he could pose no threat to the tribe any longer, but they refused to listen until he was of proper age to carry oit assasination missions.

After Grim left the tribe, Doomspeaker closed herself off to the tribe, trying so desperately to use her powers to see anything good for once, to see Hawk again but refusing to face him in person, for she couldnt bear to tell him of the beast their son would become, of how badly she had failed as a mother. She wore herself ragged through her visions, seeing the deaths of thousands except her Hawk, her beloved.

Her horrible visions sent her into a deep depression, and of course the state of her tribe’s homeland didnt make her fare any better.

(Pls forgive any inaccuracies i’m still reading through WOF and im only on book 4)

[dylimia]

guys i truly hate him so mcgh like its actually insane he fills me with such rage and discomfort and like i jus feel sick thinking about him all of ghe time like me makes me so depressed i cant stand ittttt i cant fdycking stand it anymroe like im tired of beign understanding and patient andnice and kind but he just keeps taking advantage of that and its really frusttating idk like ive told him many times that idc if he beeds space but to jst tell me that so im not like losing my mind over him or anything like oit would just be easier so i could let him take his apace ort whatever and not worry too miuch cause ik that he just sneeds spac e or like time to himself o lo que sea but he jusr dpoesnt tell me anythinganf it makes me feel so like idk shitty cause i love him alot and i feel like IIIII can tell him anything but he doesnt tell me much so idkkkkkkkkkSHHHHASHSFJDWMJDHSJKFCWEBSDFDVJREHSDKFHRWESIDVHREIDSFNIROWDFD

[adobephotoslop]

But yeah I haven't talked about it much bc I'm worried abt people being touchy about it, but I did have gastric bypass on the 6th, and it's been a big adjustment.

Like I said, I am in a lot less overall bodily pain just because I'm no longer swollen and I've lost a cup size already so my back isn't breaking quite so easily.

I really didn't want to do it, but I watched my dad go through the same thing at 400lb+ 20 years ago and it completely changed his life. I was at 343 in September and I didn't want to have to have a double hip replacement at 30 like he did.

I got on adderall in October which helped me control my excessive (bored) snacking, and I was down to 315 by my surgery date on the 6th. I'm already down to 290-285, and my mobilty has improved so much.

I still don't really recommend it at the moment since losing such a big coping mechanism without a therapist as a support system is a nightmare, but it was a last resort to be healthy before I hit 30 in a few years. I'm already so much more comfortable in my own skin since I fit in my clothes again and don't feel so ashamed to go outside.

I didn't ever mind being fat from a personal standpoint...it was only ever society's view of me that made me depressed. I hated being seen as lazy and unmotivated. However...I did this for my health. I could barely move, and my stamina is so shot. I am excited to pick up the outdoor activities I had to leave behind.

So yeah. Idk...thats a life update for you. I'm okay with answering any questions anyone has about it btw, even if its just oit of curiosity! I'm not shy abt the details at all, I just know weight is a sensitive subject and do not want to upset people.

[theelderhazelnut]

🧸😇🪢

Welcome back Kori!

😇 a headcanon about their religion/lack thereof

Well, basically, this is what the whole story of “rise of the villains: darker than black” is about. Ombra hates all of the religions existing oit there with a passion. Her childhood and adolescence was doomed by countless religous traumas. She gathers the strength and wealth to vaporize the cult itself that ruined her life.

And yeah, she’s pretty much an impious person. She has zero respect for people’s religious beliefs. She challenges them to endless arguments. And later on in the story, she also develops a burning hatred for the gods and the Elder Gods.

🧸 a headcanon about their childhood

Ombra was that talented and intelligent child who lived in a small, religious town around people with worn out brains. To summer it up, she didn’t have a normal childhood. She had to live and behave as the people wanted(due to the cult’s effects on their minds), or else she would get killed. She witnessed mass executions of framed criminals, mass kidnapping, and many other crimes. It wasn’t safe to go out, so she would spend most of her time at home. And Ombra also suffered from depression and OCD. She does have some of the symptoms of depression even by now.

🪢 a headcanon about their family

Despite the dangerous environment she lived in, she had a functional family. She could at least feel safe at home. Her whole family was well respected in the city.

However, her parents were a rebel at heart just like her, and that was the very reason which led to their own execution when Ombra was a young adult.

[shatterthefragments]

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Sitting in the car cannot be my third space I’m. Fuck.

There’s a lot more. But. I don’t want to be in the car.

I don’t even want to be at work *which is a job I enjoy most of the time* but hopefully. I still remain hopeful bc I don’t want to want to leave yet. There are SO MANY times that I’d rather be at work than at home or school.

I don’t want to go back to my previous job either (the owners keep joking to dad about getting me back)

I don’t want to go back to school full time. (Unfortunately this is the thing that’s most likely to make me super actively suicidal to the point I almost hospitalized myself again)

I don’t want to go home.

I kinda just. Dread everything.

Live in the moment yeah. But my moments suck. Exceptions are just when I get to chat with my friends.

I used to only live in my imagination and. This is probably *healthier* but I’m not sure I’m happier like this.

I feel like I’m being overdramatic bc I’ve been the happiest I’ve been in my life in the past few years.

And on the whole it’s true.

And that in itself is fucking depressing.

Who could I have been and what could I have done if I got treatment

What if there’s nothing wrong with me and this is just my entire being wrong bc I can’t handle anything

I don’t want to cry right now.

Im not done creating and making my friends smile (hopefully) yet.

But im. I’m not sure I can imagine a *feasible* future that I look forward to living.

Im the closest I can be right now because I get to do things and see friends.

But it’s fueled by guilt (I’m the eldest I should be taking care of the parents by now. Instead of helping and sorta taking care of mum but complaining and on the verge of a breakdown every time)

(I didn’t …I didn’t get those commercials at the time but fuck. A few screaming matches and I don’t feel bad about lying that I’m sorry to her. And. I think I get them now.)

I don’t want to go in. I don’t want to. I need to. I need to find something I probably need time to find the thing. I need to I NEED TO

…

I deserve a little bit of escapism if I submit my proposal.

I. I don’t fucking know.

Im just struggling.

And I know it’s our duty as young people to struggle or whatever the quote was

But could I. I thought I had grown past this.

It could just be that it’s dark and cold.

I just.

Im so excited for my next trip.

Get me oit of here.

I need a cuddle pile. I need to be strung up. I need I need I need

Can’t I stop fucking needing

[apothvesko]

was feeling insanely depressed and was crying my brains oit when megalovania started playing. Anyways so what was i upset about again?

[yourreddancer]

Stocks rally after data showed nonfarm payrolls grew by 254,000 jobs in September, far outpacing the forecasted gain of 150,000 from economists.

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While The Tangerine Traitor keeps screaming how horrible the economy is, etc etc etc, how bad everything is in the US, all a lie like everything that comes out of his anus mouth!

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WHAT 4 YEARS UNDER TRUMP GOT US:

The economy

LOST 2.9 million jobs.

3 million Americans lost health insurance.

The national debt more than doubled, with the biggest net increase in the debt EVER.

We saw the worst daily stock market drop OF ALL TIME, worse than Great Depression.

ANYONE WHO TELLS YOU TRUMP WAS GOOD FOR THE ECONOMY IS FULL OF IT!

https://www.reuters.com/markets/us/futures-steady-before-key-payrolls-data-investors-weigh-middle-east-risks-2024-10-04/?utm_campaign=trueAnthem%3A+Trending+Content&utm_medium=trueAnthem&utm_source=facebook&fbclid=IwY2xjawFtl5xleHRuA2FlbQIxMQABHYCVH39z8FQ5dBYvHOdqACnirYCZt2VuTA_ZU4qe-Oit-txtWWHAGkHpww_aem_CHU_p7g6-aE-kdBEAjIL1A

The Dow posted a record closing high on Friday and the Nasdaq ended with a more than 1% gain as a stronger-than-expected jobs report reassured investors who had worried the economy may be getting too weak.

[autistictaylorhebert]

Jane is having a depressive episode, and her meds take the edge off, but shit still sucks. She hates her job, and has nothing to look forward to. Then she gets fired/dumped/has an unspecified awful day, and is riding the bus home with resting bitch face cranked up to 11. Shes just kinda sitting there looking oit the window when a guy does the whole "you should smile sweetheart" routine and shes just. So furious with him anf angry she cant do anything about it and even if she went off on him he wouldnt understand how insulting he just was and god shed like to see Him smile feeling like this, and then she triggers

Maybe a power to sabotage emotional regulation.

When someone is looking at her or talking to her, she can lash out with her power, and weaken or remove their ability to regulate their emotions (or express/perform emotions they don't feel). She can do this surgically, choosing which emotions her target will have trouble suppressing or dealing with, or which emotions they won't be able to fake/express, or both (but again, only to someone who is looking at her, or speaking to her).

In a sense, it gives her what she wants- someone else is dealing with the shit she had to deal with. But at the same time, it puts her back where she was, a tense and emotion-wrought interaction, with another person doing less emotional labour than she is.

[philosophy-with-anxiety]

this is my guide as a certified Depressed Bitch™️ for struggling through ur depression slump

(this is rlly long i’ll break it down into seperate posts because ik my bitches w depression don’t have the energy to read this. i’ll tag the broken down version under #certified depressed bitch series )

dry shampoo is ur best friend. too tired to take a shower? that’s perfectly okay. dry shampoo will make u feel a bit cleaner and more presentable

BABY WIPES. this goes along with the being too depressed to take a shower!!! just wipe down where ur stinkiest and done. easy, doesn’t take any energy, you can keep it by ur bed so u don’t even need to get up.

after baby wipes put on some deodorant. it helps. trust me.

whenever u have the energy to get up, make ur bed. it’s easier than it sounds i promise. put the pillows at the top. then pull up the blanket and straighten it. done. it helps move all that stagnant energy built up

if u hoard cups like me, get a nice cheap bin. put all of ur cups on/in it and put it in the sink. then put some soap and hot water. done. now u let them soak for however long u need and !! if u have to wash a pot u can just move the bin!!! it’s foolproof i swear.

open ur curtains and windows. please. u don’t have to go anywhere just sit near the window and get some light.

for laundry this is what i do, i pick up all the dirty clothes off the floor and put them in the laundry bin. that’s it. that’s all u have to do for the day.

laundry pt.2 the next day just chuck it all into the wash, set an alarm and move it into the dryer. then i put those clothes back into a bin of ur choosing. u can fold and put those clothes away whenever u feel u can. no rush. they will be fine in the bin i promise

if u have pets just sit by them and watch them. they love u so much and will miss u if u leave this world too early. stay for them.

listen to some nice music, i recommend the breath of the wild soundtrack or animal crossing if u feel like u cant handle words.

STICKY NOTES. just write cute little reminders. like remembering to drink water. or just complimenting urself. even if u don’t believe it.

have a comfort waterbottle, u carry it everywhere, u take it everywhere u go. it becomes a safety blanket AND it hydrates u. 10/10 recommend

if u have plants like me and are too depressed to take care of them, pick a day once a week to take them into the bath and give them a shower. just once a week. they will thank u.

ONE SECTION AT A TIME OKAY??? u do not need to get ur life together all at once. rome wasnt built in a day babe. one thing at a time. ex: “i have to do homework and catch up on school and clean my room and take care of my plants and-“ NO 😡💕 one thing at a motherfucking time. choose ONE. that is ur ticket. that’s all u have to think about today.

and if ur mom or someone tells u that u aren’t doing enough. well u know what. THEY ARENT U. u are still alive and that is an accomplishment all in itself so if they aren’t proud of u I WILL BE. im proud of u. one thing at a time babes.

smoothies. smoothies will get ur veggies and fruits in for a day and !!! they r easy. throw that shit in a blender and ur done.

eat something. if ur debating whether to eat something or not just because it’s “unhealthy” just eat it. u need sustenance for the emotional turmoil.

if ur room is a hot mess like mine, once again, ONE THING AT A TIME. one day focus on the floor. if it takes more than a day that’s okay. one section a week works too, hell i’ve done one section a MONTH.

break it down into small manageable tasks. if u cant figure out how to do that think about how u would break it down for a small child to do. treat urself gently. u have been through a lot. it’s okay to be nice to urself for once.

[mangostar]

might make a flightrising acc tmr..