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fullscoreshenanigans · 9 months ago

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#does ray lie awake at night wondering himself if he himself loves/would forgive her #overwhelmingly bitter because he never got the chance to decide #(when heroic sacrifices are somehow just another thing on the list of injustices committed but this time you can't be mad about them) #(but you ARE mad about them) (via @hylialeia)

"Does Ray love Isabella" "Would Ray forgive Isabella" Shut up. Shut up. Does he miss her? Does he still want to talk to her sometimes? Even before her death, did he think about the six years they had together that were normal? Does he miss the person he thought she was? Do you think he grieved for her before she even died?

#that's what always fucks me up that final interactions #how even now it's her deciding the terms of their final parting #(like obs she didn't plan on dying via impalement but again raging against the injustices of the universe #and that resentment bubbling up of how they fall back into similar patterns #after he maybe dared to believe things could be different and she seemed genuinely remorseful and willing to atone)#denied the chance of the cooperative effort of reconciliation denied the chance of semblance of control in their relationship #her asking him to look after everyone because like Emma says in Ch117: “It's more likely Ray won't die if he has someone to protect.”#knowing he does well when he has his family relying on him #but also how selfish is that‚ asking that of him after everything #without also taking a moment to tell him to take care of himself #because he needs that reminder and having that kind of acknowledgment from her after everything‚ of him as an individual and as her son #again it's hard because she had finite time and strength left that she was weighing her words #but it would have meant a lot #absolutely languishing over them #Isabella and Ray's Incredibly Fraught and Complicated Relationship Tag #Isabella #Ray #Pre-Canon #TPN 181.1 #Return to Grace Field Arc #TPN 177 #Post-Canon

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